May I fall forever in your daydreams & never find myself again.

What If it’s just the two of us left as I turned all the pages. Can you write another tale?

I will love them all but will end up empty-hearted.

Enough of me.

I get weak by the cruelty of this world, as I crave to be loved back as much as I loved any of them.

I dream of the empty sky,

the static waves

& the lazy wind.

I dream of the space

we’ve built between us

& the brick by brick.

I day-dream of you

till it’s night

as I fall asleep

& I dream.

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I still need what’s never been mine.

You’ve been gone when you’re gone & you’ve been here when you’re here but it’s unforgivable to love who doesn’t love back.

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Find me in a better life, please find me in another life.

You’ve been sad enough that when it’s time to be happy again you don’t want to let anyone know how happy you are, because they’ve never bothered to realize how sad you’ve been.

I kinda got used to being let down whenever I leave my heart between your hands.

There’ve been days of which I’ve felt more safe in confined places, the ones of which I could easily define my surroundings in it.

Where are you hiding my beautiful moon?, The stars aren’t what you have missed most, aren’t they?

Dear self,

Settle down, you’ve been so hard on yourself for so long, take a break now & stop fighting.

I have no love left for myself or anyone else. I have been giving more than enough.

Masqueraded,

grey-haired,

& eyes that dragged my heart to waste.

Played the role of “I’m the one who made your cells dance”.

I loved you..

maybe

till I was bored.

But your eyes have been always the best storytellers.

-Day one

(Part one)

My history with all the things I wanted but couldn’t get, never gotten or never let myself have..has been always a reason of why I gave up on the things I wanted the most.

Is this the normal you with all the girls you know?, or am I the one who’s turning your world upside down?.