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Got my copies of Prison of Plastic a while ago…absolutely in love with poor little puff ball. Me too Molly. Me too…

As a lil bonus, here’s the Neo Trio with their plush buddies~.

#epithet erased molly #epithet erased #epithet erased prison of plastic #not my art #Plushies and doodles

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Hello! Do you mind, if I repost your art with credits?

I would not be comfortable with that. But thank you very much for asking! That’s very considerate. Feel free to reblog or link to its original source if you really want.

#Questions for the Jam

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I thought of drawing Stink as Siffrin but the truth must not be denied.

#jello plays games #jelloapocalypse #isat fanart #in stars and time #my art #epithet erased stink #isat Bonnie #isat loop #epithet erased #epithet fanart #epithet erased naven #Sure hope the resolution turns out okay it’s been a while since I posted art…

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weird prompt that popped into the ol’ noggin.

A job fair but for professions in fanfiction, for uncertain protagonists. Like, just rows and rows of tables for Pirates, Baristas, Magical Girls, Psychopomps, Vampires, Dystopian resistance fighters, etc.

#yo I’m still alive #Just been a little quiet for a while #Crackfic prompts? #someone probably already thought of this but eh #*shrugs* #fanfiction job fair

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Hi! Still here, still breathing

Okay, so, let’s get the obvious out of the way first and foremost. Hi! I’m still alive and well (well, getting better), and I hope the same can be said for all of you out there.

I truly am sorry if I worried anyone with my impromptu five months of radio silence. If you’ll permit me a few minutes of your time, here is an explanation.

This absence is not altogether unusual for me, personally speaking. This may sound weird, but bear with me. When I was younger, I developed this habit where if I would duck out of any close friend groups I’d made, be they on line or in person. Why? Well I’m still figuring it out but I believe it was usually because one of a couple of reasons. The long and short of it was that I was overwhelmed, specifically with… well, how nice people were and how we got along. So much sincere positivity was terrifying at times. I would panic and run away from the situation, rather than wait for something to take it away.

Drifting constantly away was a pattern that was familiar, rinse and repeat, a sure fire way to not mess up a new perfect friendship. The funny thing is, as much as it hurt to leave them, to cling on to loneliness like a life preserver, the regret would fade. Additionally, when I met back up with old friends down the road, I’d find that they were moving on with their lives and, while they were happy to see me again, none were concerned about my well-being to the point of consistently checking up on me. Who knows, maybe they did, and I was too good at avoiding them for them to find me. I would tell myself that they were better off, that it was best for everyone if I left. I always had my immediate family as my social and support group and that was enough for me, as I am exceedingly lucky to have such wonderful people in my life.

But the darnest thing started happening once I left school. Sometimes, when I made contact with people, when I’d talk to them regularly, then leave… people would try to stay in contact.

I’ll make no effort to be subtle and dance around the truth. I have been dealing with mental health issues for most of my life and only just stated to work on them in my early twenties. I won’t go into specifics, but as one can imagine, social anxiety was on top of the list. Doing art, specifically fan art for other artists/content creators was unspeakably therapeutic in treating that, and unintentionally got me connected to some of the sweetest, thoughtful, funny, and concisely amazing individuals out there.

And five months ago, I hit my wall again. I was surrounded by said amazing people and bounced. At first I told myself it was only for a week, but then that week grew into weeks, until I started to avoided Tumblr, Discord, any platform I could be easily contacted. Every time I tried to type or respond, or even click on an awaiting message… I froze, thousands of things running through my head, yet permanently stuck without a thing to say. Even if I promised myself that I’d do it on a specific date, or after I finished a project, my avoidance and insomnia worked together to keep me in my little hole, and that part of me would say I had to wait until I was ready.

Ready for what, though? For this feeling to go away? How can I combat the unknown if I never step into it, something that has never left? The fact of the matter is, I don’t know if I’ll ever be free of this flight response. If I say something stupid that I wished I hadn’t, I’ll apologize, try to see what went wrong, and if the offended party is willing to still talk, then I can lean and grow.

Recently a friend straight up called me to make sure I was okay, and I can’t thank her enough. Because when I talk to someone, it reminds me that when the chips are down, I will tackle this fear, shove it in a gosh dang closet and tell it to wait it’s flipping turn. Sincerely and truly, I never meant to scare anyone. Honestly, I didn’t think anyone would care that much. 

Coming back to Tumblr will be a process. I can’t talk to too many people in one day, and working back up to posting things is going to be a journey. But it is one I can make, even if I have to take breaks. The key is, when those breaks are taken, I can’t burrow down into another hole. I can’t let that part of myself want that as a final destination any longer.

From the bottom to the brim of my heart, I’m so, so sorry for not giving a proper explanation or even a reply to those that asked. Thank you for asking and caring. I will do my absolute best to give as good as I get.

Whomever you are, wherever you are, know that it’s okay to have emotions, even the ones we battle with from day one. We can grow, heal and change. There is no one else like you on the planet, and there’s someone out there who can and will see that.

Sorry for dumping my heart out, out of the blue like this… but yeah! I’m inching my way back. Gradually. Thank you for listening to me ramble, and your patience.

#Whoooboi I was not expecting to dump that much here #Update #gonna wait until tomorrow to connect with people #this kinda took all the mental juice I had #tw/ mental health

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The Corner Store, chapter 5 (final) just posted :)

Read it HERE

#IT’S HERE! *grabs popcorn* #rottmnt #turtle tots #the corner store #not my art

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I can see li’l Donnie wanting to drink actual coffee until Raph and/or Splinter tells him the age old yarn. You know the one where someone tells a kid that if they drink coffee it’ll stunt their growth? Don probably researches it to verify the authenticity of this, but is so off put about the idea of being the shortest that it’s years before he cracks and actually drinks the stuff. But once he does there’s no going back.

Stuck between turtle tot Donnie pretending his apple juice is coffee so he could feel fancier than his brothers, or if turtle tot Donnie would’ve drank ACTUAL coffee 😂

#Goose you always make the big brain plays #even when it’s turtle tots #reblog #turtle tots #rottmnt

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When are you updating the Leo has a bad time club??? Many more aid have appeared during that time since you did the post

Sweet beans, my first ask! Thank you so much for the question, Anon!

I know this is a bit of a boring answer, but I made that comic as a one-off what-if joke for fun. I didn’t really intend to do much else with it, considering none the characters in it were not my own, and I don’t want to mischaracterize any for our fabulous boys in blue. But the Club keeps on floating back up to the surface of my mind on occasion, so who knows? I don’t have any concrete plans for it, but I do have a few notes lying around about how the Club exists and functions, how Club membership works and, most importantly, concepts for members, both new and old, interacting with each other. 

If you have any questions about (or suggestions for new members for) the Club, I would love to hear them, and when I can, answer/respond to them. However, if its about member interactions, you would have a far more accurate response if you asked that Leo particular’s creator/artist!

#Leo has a bad time club #Anon ask

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The Drax Pack!

I just want you all to know that this popped into my head a few months ago and now lives rent free in my brain. Maybe I’ll get to drawing it one day? That’s a Future Handle’s issue.

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Unseen Narrator: Introducing the a special devision of the Leo Has A Bad Time Club, our lucky members who report to our favorite Great Baron: The Drax Pack

[Captioned: artist - Fanfic/au - name]

3drotmnt’s - to be named AU - Kronos *solutes*

Sonicthehedgehoglover2’s - Draxum’s Twins AU - “Leonardo” *solutes with Arrogance*

shanzehpoo’s - Separated AU - Leonidas Draxum *solutes with more Arrogance*

simplyfornardo’s - Leozula AU - Prince Leozula of the Fire Nation *solutes with Arrogance Levels maxed out and fire. Lots, and lots of fire.*

eternalglitch’s - Like Father Like Son - Green *solutes, resplendent in new shiny armor and Anxiety and Depression stats capped yet still rising*

tmngoose’s - Battle of the Big Tops - Leonardo *solutes by throwing a pie in his face*

The five Kappa-lleros all look at the literal clown at the end of the line.

BotBT Leo slowly raises bikehorn and gives it a single, solemn honk.

Leozula: “Alright. Who was in charge of security and why did they let this joke slip through?”

BotBT Leo, wiping face free of pie residue: “Hey! I’m edgey! Have you SEEN how many swords I can juggle? They’ve got, like, a ton of edges, broham.”

- Flashback to BotBT Leo trying to juggle exactly one ton of swords, the operative word being ‘trying’. -

“HEY DAD! WATCH ME WATCH ME ARN’T I THE COOLEST?!”

BotBT Draxum, not paying attention: “That reminds me, I still have to talk to Rupert about his new knife throwing act.”

- Cut back to the present. -

BotBT Leo: “Haha, so many edges...”

Separated Leo: “Oh! I’d know that distant, longing-for-approval gaze anywhere! He’s one of us.”

Draxum’s Twin Leo: “Is he though?”

Leozula: “No one answered my question. Who is responsible? Who??”

Kronos: “Let’s look at his application form.” They rifle through a handful of papers.

Draxum’s Twin Leo: “Where did they get those?”

Green picks out a picture of Blind!Leo and ATLA Leo, comparing them to the turtle they’re appraising now. They all have identical naive smirks. All present share a knowing nod and Green slips BotBT Leo’s papers into the Must Protect Baby file, right next to his own.

BotBT Leo: “Speaking of jokes, who wants to hear my six-hour stand up comedy act? Hah! Trick question, you’re gonna hear it anyway. So, this guy walks into a bar and he sees a horse behind the counter-”

Unseen Narrator: And so it was that BotBT Leo was never seen again.

Everyone looks up in confusion, ala the muppets on The Muppets Show whenever they hear the Announcer.

BotBT Leo: “Wait, what?”

Freeze frame on him looking up with an out-of-focus Leozula closing in on him in a fiery comet.

*laugh-track plays*

#back on my bullhonkey #Leo has a bad time club #seriously there are so many other Leos yet to be introduced #I’d love to see a small interaction between ATLA Leo and Leozula. That’d be neat. #lfls leo #Draxum’s Twins AU #Separated AU #3Drottmnt to be named AU #Leozula AU #BotBT AU #RotTMNT #RotTMNT Leo #RotTMNT AU #the Must Protect Baby subdivision was founded by Big Mama’s Assistant AU Leo #The Five Kappalleros and The Clown #That’s my favorite band!

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Eh, why not, this looks like fun. Four songs I’ve listed to recently:

1. The Little Things - Will Van De Crommert

2. Grow As We Go - Ben Platt

3. People I Don’t Like - UPSAHL

4. Contradiction - KSUKE (feat. Tyler Carter)

That last one has been stuck in my head for literal months because I watched JelloApocalypse’s Professor Layton VS Phoenix Wright playthrough on Twitch. Every time they said “contradiction” it summoned this bop into the front of my mind. Now I can never be free. 

I was also very tempted to put a song from a Musical on this list, but ultimately couldn’t pick one. Thank you for the idea, @tmngoose​! Similar casual open invite to anyone who’d like to do this.

Starting a new one

four songs you’ve been listening to a lot lately

Tagged by @owen-harper-ish

1- Vampire Money by My Chemical Romance

2- This Is Home by Cavetown

3- I Miss Having Sex But At Least I Don’t Want To Die Anymore by Waterparks

4- Seasonal Depression by mxmtoon

Tagging @c-murphy @coffee-and-calendars @slutty-scotty @archie-is-actually-a-girls-name

#song recommend reblog

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Kendra is beyond sick of loosing to Von Ryan and his team of semi-competent imbeciles who always best the Purple Dragons with last minute displays of “the power of friendship” and “familial love”. Now with a shiny new ally, and with a fool-proof master plan worked out, nothing can stop her and her team of semi-competent geniuses from reaching their goal, especially some green kid and his flying toaster sidekick who live in a sewer! Nothing that is, accept for other villains’ plots.

Aw man, don’t you just hate it when there’s a scheduling conflict?

Anywho @tmngoose​ is still a genius. She suggested the base species of turtle for Metalhead’s inspiration: the spiney turtle. He’s a spikey boi who is designed to be edgy but still serves tea and maintains ego levels for his esteemed tech club-turned housearrested delinquents.

When spell-check tries to change ‘broham’ to ‘Abraham’…  I SAID. WHAT I SAID >:I 

#My art #Shelldon’s Evil Twin AU #Noboty Is An Island #NIAI #Get it? Get the pun? Because Shelldon and Metal are- yeah you get it. Cool. 😎 #rottmnt #save rottmnt #rottmnt donnie #rottmnt donatello #rottmnt Kendra #rottmnt Shelldon #rottmnt Metalhead #rottmnt oc #purple dragons #rottmnt Purple Dragons

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This entire wholesome thread made me smile. Smiling’s nice! ☀️ 

if you’re having a bad day, here’s a cute little marching band

#so cute #seriously #SO! CUTE!! #Not mine #not my art #listen When a kitty band wishes to cheer you on you cannot deny them

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Chapters: 8/? Fandom: Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles - All Media Types, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (TV 2012), Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles (TV 2003) Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Characters: Leonardo (TMNT), Donatello (TMNT), Michelangelo (TMNT), Raphael (TMNT), Splinter (TMNT), Shredder (TMNT), April O'Neil (TMNT), Casey Jones (TMNT), Leatherhead (TMNT) Additional Tags: Post-Apocalypse, Brother Feels, secret city - Freeform, Overlord Shredder, Indoctrinated Leo, Kinda inspired by the Host, i dunno, Rebuilding a family from scratch, learning to be a big brother, psychic connection, Hold onto your feels folks, Here we go, Leo Needs a Hug, Whump, Foot Leonardo (TMNT), BAMF Leonardo (TMNT) Summary:

In a war-torn world ruled by the Shredder, one brother was lost at sea, left behind in the panic of escape. The other three worked to save as many as possible, creating a world of their own, removed from the pain of what reality has become. But they never gave up on their lost brother, hoping against hope he would one day find them. What they didn’t expect was that when he did, it would be as the enemy. And so begins Leo’s journey to find himself and the family he never knew he needed.

I decided to get back on the Tumblr scene and do a little story promoting. I just posted a new chapter of Castaway on AO3. If this is your first time hearing about my story I’ll leave you a little blurb to give you an idea of what its about:

Essentially Castaway takes place in a war torn New York that has been conquered by Shredder and The Foot. Foot soldier Leo (aka Kame) gets lost during a mission and stumbles upon a refugee colony that just so happens to be run by the family that he lost in a great escape from Foot HQ. The escaped, he was captured and trained as a Foot soldier. The story focuses on Leo’s rehabilitation from his past with the Foot and his reintegration into his long lost family. Let the feels commence!

BEWARE there is a little gore and violence and the story is rated to reflect that.

#AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! #IT’S HERE! *grabs popcorn* #castaway #tw gore #not mine #Oh Fearless you spoil us so #WITH TEARS!

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Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Donatello & Hypno-Potamus Tags: Blood, injuries, cuts and bruises, Violence, Angst, Hurt/Comfort, wholesome content, Distressing Situations, Fighting, Additional Tags to Be Added 
Summary: What if Hypno and Donnie were the only ones to best their Wizbang opponent? What if the fate of New York rests in the hands of a magician and a scientist? Can Hypno and Donnie work together and save their friends, family, and New York City?


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YEAH, I know this isn’t Frenemies or circus AU. But here we are :U I said I was gonna be posting as many (finished) WIPs before I went back to work & this was one of them!!

#aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa #AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! #IT’S HERE! *grabs popcorn* #not mine #Goose you spoil us with these hero/villain team ups! #Wreched Fizzlefeck #rottmnt #Smoke and Mirrors

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So, like S.H.E.L.L.D.O.N. 1.0? That’d be pretty surreal, meeting someone who has the base programming of who you used to be before it got changed.

Maybe they’ve got downloaded skills from Bradford’s Kamodo Dojo? It’s been a personal headcanon of mine that Kendra’s parents sent her there for self defense training. Potential for Shelldon v [rival bot] kungfu-drone off, amongst other things.

What would their name even be? Metalhead? That was the name of the boss robot Don defeated in The Purple Game.

When spell-check tries to change ‘broham’ to ‘Abraham’…  I SAID. WHAT I SAID >:I 

#Happy to return the virus Goose- uh favor. I meant favor. Yeah #Shelldon’s Evil Twin AU #Don’t make jokes >:3c #rottmnt

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Watch out Shelly, here comes your newest rival: Auto-Correct!

[insert gif of Mikey laughing maniacally here]

When spell-check tries to change ‘broham’ to ‘Abraham’…  I SAID. WHAT I SAID >:I 

#I know the pain well Goose I know it well #you are not alone #rottmnt

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Ten whole years…!

#aww what a great ninja family #not my art #ninjago #wu looks so tire by happy #You’re all doing a good job sweethearts!