theangelwhofelltoearth

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i felt so good today too 😭 it be the motivated days where it turns out youre still not enough

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fine then, whatever, if i die early to eds or cancer from the foods or the utis i give myself or cutting my wrists when my mom dies then fine, ill have lived my life exactly as i deserved it , poor and mean

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like god damn, i guess people would cry if i died, but shit, id take up less space, and i wouldn't have to disappoint anyone anymore, and id be one less mouth to feed and one less kid to drive to work

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and it sucks bc ive never felt more like a dumb worthless 12 year old than i do right now lol

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this whole time id been thinking my illness robbed me of life but recently ive come to find, it was me, i robbed me of life, like some kind of dumb child. im not sick enough for that to be true, im just a lazy kid

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and what if i didnt want to?? what if i didnt want to live? or work? or know how to solve problems? what if my lifes ambition was to leech and smoke weed? what if i was useless what then? what are you gonna do ? youd better let me just fucking die then

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ohhh my life is so fucked i totally ruined my life didnt i. didnt play the game right . now life will be agonizing for my choices as a teenager guess ill smoke weed and watch the clock tick down

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I don’t care about it at all (I have carried its weight around like a rock on my chest since the very day it happened)

#every day is just a new rock fr

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god how did a taurus and leo ever get along 😭😭 everythings a mf joke to them why dont you earnestly love meee???!!

[theangelwhofelltoearth]

its becuz u just said hehehe ab my art isnt it hrm. 😐

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"my one criticism is" NOPE NUH UH YOU CANT DO THAT YOU DONT GET TO CRITICIZE PLAYLISTS BC #1 YOURE WRONG AND #2 I DIDNT MAKE IT FOR YOU.

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god fuck 😭 ur always talkin ab ur lil friends. im glad u have people that's all. (im incredibly envious of not only your education opportunities but also your friend group)

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im such a waste of a perfectly good human life. i have food, shelter, family, running water, and yet here i am, absolutely useless. a tumor on the stomach of this couch. if i could trade my life over to someone who deserved it, i would

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how do you know youve been depressed for too long? how do you know today is a "do it anyway" day instead of a day for rest? how do you know when to start again? ...probably when you bank account is at zero...

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FFUUUUUCCCKKK!!!!!! I CANT OPEN MY WINDOW!!!!! EVERYTHING IS SO EXPENSIVE. WHAT IS LIFE BUT TRADING ONE BILL FOR ANOTHER. FFUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKK!!!!!!!!

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how do i not feel like my life is dangling oh so delicately by a lone thread?