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Trying not to end up in a psychiatric ward when you have bpd should be considered an oscar worthy performance. You're all witnessing a mental breakdown in real time, and not one person will have a clue

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Ok google how do I be happy

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Anyone else just get so intensely depressed during summer? Sure, I’m depressed in general everyday that’s a lingering feeling BUT during the warmer months I find myself crying more, dwelling a lot more, dealing with more sui thoughts and dangerous fascinations..

#spilled thoughts #spilled words #sad quote #bpd thoughts #i'm sad

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I met another person with BPD and the way they referenced it was “ever since I can remember I have felt such a great sadness in me, no matter what” and yeah besides the way bpd affects relationships and external circumstances I feel like theres this understanding shared among ppl with BPD of just.. sheer pain, emotional agony

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“communication is key” i say, as i ghost all the people i care about because i cannot express my feelings due to trauma

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Stressors, smoking guns

building up to fire

once more.

I cannot hold

the universe

in my hands

without shaking.

I suppose it's all

life

anyway and that

I'll make it

in spite of

the natural disasters

within.

Robert J. W.

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having bpd is actual hell on earth cause no one tries to fucking understand you and they write you off as being difficult and too much and they leave and we’re left with this fucking personality disorder that consumes my entire fucking existence and they act like its THEIR inconvenience that IM ill.

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When I’m told I have my mothers eyes I wanna gouge them out

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"You’re so polite" thanks i was raised in constant fear of upsetting people.

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Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?

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It was April and she was the saddest thing under the sun.

Khush Bakht via wordedarchive

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*cancels plans* sorry i can’t come i’m ugly

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the trick is to play your music louder than your thoughts

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I will be like "I'm fine" and then another fucking event will occur

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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired