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Currently eating cold soup bc for some reason my brain doesnt count it as food unless it's warm and in a bowl???

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Currently eating cold soup bc for some reason my brain doesnt count it as food unless it's warm and in a bowl???

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I think I'm ready to recover. This has wrecked my health, relationships, grades and life.

I'm severely iron deficient and anaemic, dont have energy for my friends and hate my body so much that I'm insecure in front of my boyfriend (who loves me but has admitted that he finds me more attractive at a higher weight) my parents dont trust me (again) and are constantly worried about me, I cant focus on my uni work and missed a lot due to being ill.

But how can I let go when everything else is insane and this is all I've known for the last 7 years?

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The reason I gain and lose the same 5lbs over and over.

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Ive lost weight very fast and while it wasnt a lot its definitely noticeable. Even I can see that.

Now everyone keeps forcing me to eat and I'm so afraid of gaining it back. Everyone including 5 different doctors and 4 nurses told me I have to gain weight but I'm literally almost AT A HEALTHY WEIGHT

This sucks. I'm also most likely anaemic and my bloodwork shows that I'm malnourished. Doesnt mean I can stop throwing up...

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I'm screwed guys

Was at the hospital for two weeks and probably wont be allowed to exercise for another month or even two

How am I supposed to do this?

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Oh that I get.

Fainted at the hospital while working there twice, having doctors and an ECG running to you is exciting and makes you feel really important and loved.

Being a patient for two weeks and fainting every second day gets boring when they pick you up off the stairs or you barely made it to the door once again gets boring and embarrassing

Lol I love reading about other peoples fear of fainting when I find that shit exhilarating lol. Like oh damn the worlds spinning lol let me wait a sec or take a nap 😂😂

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Skipped breakfast because I was going to get lab work done at the doctors but they decided to postpone until next week. So what did this stupid fucker do? B/p of course

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Fainting in public is so much fun too, I just hate when people get all worried and call a doctor or something

Lol I love reading about other peoples fear of fainting when I find that shit exhilarating lol. Like oh damn the worlds spinning lol let me wait a sec or take a nap 😂😂

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DANGEROUS SYMPTOMS

CAUSED BY EATING DISORDERS

Liver – white nail beds – nausea – itchy skin – swollen abdomen – yellowing skin/eyes – fatigue – confusion – pale / clay-like / bloody / tar-like stool – vomiting – pain in the upper, righthand abdomen – joint pain – spider angiomas (coloured skin spots that resemble spiders, due to clotting issues) – dark urine – swollen legs / ankles – bruising easily

Heart 

– tachycardia (fast resting heart rate, over 100 beats per minute) – bradycardia (slow resting heart rate, under 60 beats per minute) * note that a very high fitness level can cause a lower heart rate – irregular heart rate – if your heart rate is under 40, you could be in immediate danger, and remember that your heart rate will drop even further in sleep – shortness of breath / shallow breathing – chest pains – fatigue – dizziness – swelling in ankles / feet / legs – swollen abdomen – choking sensation – coughing up pink liquid / goop – unable to concentrate – sudden weight gain – fainting – palpitations – feeling your own heart – hearing your own heart – chest / arm / sternum pain – anxiety – sweating – vomiting – lack of energy – coughing up white

Kidneys

– vomiting / general nausea

– changed sleeping patterns / problems sleeping

– fatigue

– swelling of ankles / legs / feet / just general swelling

– hypertension (high blood pressure)

– shortness of breath

– itchiness

– chest pain

– metallic taste in mouth

– muscle cramps

– hyperkalemia (high levels of potassium)

– stiff joints

– less urinating than usual

– bloody / dark / foam-like urine

– confusion / mental fuzziness

– rashes

– leg pains

Osteoporosis (severe bone weakness)

– back pain

– bad posture

– weak bones (weak grip / bones fracture easily)

– receding gums and bone loss in jaw

– general pains in muscles or even bone

– dropping fitness levels

Cathartic colon (from laxative use)

– bloating

– abdominal pain

– chronic constipation

– intense feelings of fullness

– incomplete bowl movement / ‘fecal evacuation’

Hypokalemia (low potassium levels)

– weakness in limbs, especially the sort that causes numbness or cramping

– nausea

– vomiting

– bloating

– abdominal pain

– low blood pressure

– fainting

– physical numbness

– emotional changes

– palpitations

– excessive urination

– constant thirst

Other common side-effects of EDs

– muscle spasms, weakness or twitching (electrolyte imbalance– very common in bulimia, and can be very dangerous)

– anemia

– irregular menstrual cycles / infertility in women

– low blood sugar

– depression and other mood disorders may develop / worsen

– insomnia

– eye damage and diminishing vision

STAY SAFE. A COUPLE OF SYMPTOMS MAY NOT BE LIFE-THREATENING, BUT HAVING MULTIPLE FROM THE SAME ORGAN CAN BE. 

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I am so tired of pretending like black coffee is good

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I hate it when the girls are not terminally online like what do you mean you have a life babe you have a blog to run

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adulthood really does hit you like a fucking truck when you spent all of your teenage years thinking you were gonna kill yourself eventually,