#zoom means I don't have to go anywhere to meet up wiht people which is veyr nice

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One of the weird things about being chronically ill to this extent, is the way weekends and weekdays can swap roles. As in: socializing takes a lot of energy, I did a lot of socializing over the weekend, now it's Monday and therefor time to have a chill low-energy day where I don't do much.

It really was a fairly energy-intensive weekend for me. Today I just want to wear comfy clothes and not have to think at all.

#spoonie life #zoom means I don't have to go anywhere to meet up wiht people which is veyr nice #but also #the actual interaction itself is not necessarily easier and might be harder #one beltane ritual one church service and one hour long friendly zoom call #that's about the most I can do in one weekend without having to plan the entire month around it #this is so hard to talk about #I feel like I need to justify using my spoons for something that's 'just' about enjoyment #or explain how no it's really not laziness no it's not just in my head #fuck I wish it was just something that would go away if I tried harder #in practice the only trying harder that works is trying harder to stay within my limits #and even then it's not 100% reliable #cfs/me