#you'd think i was describing a fucking septuagenarian

[princess-stabbity]

it’s fun thinking abt when doctors were forcing me to lose weight as quickly as possible and i mentioned to them my concerns abt how weak and dizzy and sick i felt all the time, how they just told me to suck it up, rather than consider that maybe those were symptoms of smth :) 

#disordered eating cw #just in case #i was trying to eat as many vegetables as possible while also essentially limiting myself to child's portions #and not taking any vitamins besides a prescribed d that i could barely remember bc it was. like. weekly #(for some reason it's harder for me to remember weekly shit than daily shit) #and also b12 deficiency can induce memory problems. 'brain fog' etc #honestly one of those guys was so bad i think i could have passed out in front of him #and when i came to he'd probably have demanded to know if i was drunk or smth #like i'm grateful he noticed a problem that wasn't even in his purview but his interpersonal skills were smth else #like i started to wear makeup and floral dresses to appointments #bc when i rolled in in flannel he seemed to think i was like. a rebellious teen or smth #this man was like 35 ftr #you'd think i was describing a fucking septuagenarian