#you were a good channel

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Bonus 7: Time moves sideways

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#poorly drawn mdzs #better drawn mdzs #mdzs #wei wuxian #Despite a whole ass inspiration board for reference - it turns out drawing and colouring half submerged people is a CHALLENGE. #I am channeling the zoobie bunny and internally screaming “WHY DID YOU THINK THIS WAS A GOOD IDEA”. #What I wanted was a cool transition between present and past! What I got was a very full mouth of my own foot! #That said: there are aspects I really like about this one and I feel like I got most of the way to where I wanted it to be. #Water is hard to draw and I am saying that even after dedicating a full 4 page comic with people in the water. #Forget hands. Water is my new nemesis. #I love how floaty this flashback transition was. The hazy mind wandering as LWJ carries him as a set up to recollection! #Aren't memories an incredible thing? To relive a moment in your mind? To have time repeat again and again? #And yet it is always a little different when we go to recall it once again. We are different people than the person we once were.

[murdererofthumbs]

Seeing reactions after this episode is actually slightly hysterical? It proves that this fandom can be so blind-sighted by characters relations, that they forget what show they are watching. Like, I have always been a self-proclaimed Roman-girl, because I find him compelling and extremely psychologically interesting, and like all of these characters, to a certain extent, I do empathise with him on the level of trauma that he went through. But why the fuck are people surprised that THIS is how he behaved in this episode is beyond me. Oh, suddenly Roman is dead to you because he behaved in the way that was very much consistent with who he is? That’s who all of these people are, like come on, what do we think we are watching here? You didn’t really think he will suddenly become a defender of democracy because it serves a greater good of the country? He was the one to fucking choose Mencken as a president, he cherry-picked him for Logan, because he knew that their views align, that Mencken will be a smart business decision. This whole thing is a transactional procedure - they needed to get someone who will be willing to serve their corrupt interests. Roman doesn’t see a problem in having fascist as a president, because he will never be touched by the consequences of having that kind of man in power. He is very much safe at the top of the mountain, and who the fuck cares what will happen to the peasants at the bottom of the chain? In this way, he imitates Logan the most, because in the end of the day, people are units to him, to all of them really, some of them are just more willing to admit this than others.

Also, like, “uuu, Roman was such a misogynist to Shiv this episode, he just didn’t listen to her at all”. Look, can we stop being delusional here for a second or is it some sort of selective memory situation? Roman is a misogynist. Kendall is a misogynist. Shiv, in fact, has a lot of internalised misogyny going on, and her being a woman never stopped her from pushing other women under the fucking bus, so let’s be real here for a second. And that is not to be said in defence of Roman, frankly nothing what I’m saying here is supposed to justify his behaviour in this or any other episode, but it’s more of like… reality check? I know that Roman’s self-destructive spiral and semi-decent behaviour at the beginning of this season might have clouded certain aspects of who he is, but please, go back to season 3 and count all the instances of him throwing misogynistic and, frequently incestuous jokes and innuendo, at Shiv? How many times he undermines her position on the basis of her being a woman? Or how Kendall, for that matter, uses similar arguments in 03x02? All the siblings use aspects of each other as weapons. Kendall is undermined because he is unstable, because he is a drug-addict, because he has a tendency of flying off on the cloud of mania, and crashing in the heap of depression. Shiv is crossed out because she is a woman, because she frankly has no real experience in the firm (which, although people might be super angry about that, because she is such a “girlboss” apparently, but this is a factual argument), because of her relationship to Tom and tendency to take several sides at the same time (with not much thought put into it). And Roman is frequently undermined because he is a freak and a pervert, because “there is something wrong with him”, because he is the weakest dog that is most easily manipulated, who crumples like a wet tissue if only to receive a bit of affection. They all weaponise their “weak” points against each other, because this dog-eats-dog mindset is focal to who they are as a family, to how they were brought up, to how Logan wanted them to be. So please, let’s not be surprised, when Roman suddenly uses misogyny as an argument against Shiv, because it’s not sudden at all, and it’s always been there.

I think what we have on our hands, is the same situation we had in 03x07 during Kendall’s birthday (and previous episode with Mencken), where some people are so outraged by Roman, and by his ability to shove the knife where it hurts, that they suddenly cross him out completely. Again, all these characters are bad people, there was never any doubt about that. They are compelling because of the complexities of their familial relationships, because of their childhood trauma and the consequences that this trauma has on them as adults. But they are still completely reprehensible as human beings, and I think some viewers forget about that and then get outraged when show about awful people features awful people. And I’m sure, either in next or final episode, something will happen and Roman will become sympathetic again, and he will regain his position as a “poor meow meow”, just as he did in the finale of season 3. Its always a fucking carousel with this character and people get sucked in and have their eye’s covered just to realise that nothing really changed, and nothing will change, because in this show people, at their core, remain the same.

#roman roy #this is a ridiculously long rant #but as soon as I finished this episode I just knew what takes I will see on tumblr #it is becoming painfully predictable to figure out what takes people will give #i dont know if i should find it funny or sad because its been 4 seasons and some people still don’t understand what they are watching #like wow #show about bad people have actual bad people? #doing bad things? #the shocker of a fucking century #call all the news channels #but will all of that stop me from liking Roman as a character? #No because there was never any doubt in my mind about the state of his moral compass #or lack thereof #you can’t like characters in this show for them doing good things because they rarely do #this show is interesting and these characters are interesting because of the psychological mechanisms that drive their behaviour #(and im saying this obviously as a psych major so nothing surprising here) #but yeah i had to get it out because it infuriates me when people lack a basic understanding of what they are watching #and are surprised by things that were there to begin with #in the end of the day nothing fucking changed #succession #succession hbo #kendall roy #shiv roy #succession spoilers #logan roy #connor roy #succession s4 #marta rumbles poetically #i will also probably write something about Roman later on when I can fully process this episode and I get my exam done #because there are some interesting psychological things at stake in here

[fedoraspooky]

Youtube rly out here removing features for smaller creators who don't post often enough for them %)

#they took away advanced features from my channel bc i have 'insufficient channel history' like girl what does that even mean #i've had this account for years in good standing #poked them on twitter bc it's the only place you can get any help from them at all and they were like 'sorry post moar i guess' #gee thanks youtube i guess i'm not 'productive' enough to be able to post links in my descriptions #anyway if i do any streaming it'll probs be on twitch or picarto :B

[hella1975]

hiiii haha. hello. exceptionally awkward introduction bc idrk how to start something like this so let's just jump right in. im taking a break from this account for a bit. i know i said i wanted taob out before halloween and currently im fine sticking with that deadline, but if i decide i need longer away then i will take longer away. every time ive reassured people that id never abandon a fic and updates will always come eventually i never once considered that my writing and ability to feel safe and comfortable on this site would be actively taken from me, so im not even going to apologise. i dont want this either and more importantly i dont fucking deserve it. i dont know what it is in the past year, if ive hit a certain amount of followers or 'popularity' that's made it so the natural ratio of positive to negative interactions must in turn go up, but there's been a serious uptick in weird asks for me. the annoying part is that a very small amount of them are actually objectively mean and hateful, the rest are just weird and invasive from people who seemingly dont realise that's what they're being. ive reached a point where i dont care if the intentions are good. it's not my job as a 20 year old tumblr user of all things to defend the morality of someone who couldnt even bother to come off anon. unfortunately, after blocking only one or two anons, the weird asks have decreased substantially, which says all you need to know about the fascinating and exhilarating lives led by these people, but ive also gone on to turn anon asks off entirely. this is something i actively fought against doing and had to be pushed into by my mutuals (who have been the coolest people on planet earth during this entire thing). turning off anon was a big deal to me even if it sounds silly. i felt betrayed and like id been backed into a corner because it was so vehmently something i DIDNT WANT that to feel like i had to do it anyway for my own mental health??? that sucks. so even though ive 'fixed' the problem, im still kind of reeling and uncomfortable every time i come on tumblr. i hope it's just something i need time to ease because i'll truly be devastated if this becomes 'ruined' for me. tumblr exists as the only place in the world where i am honestly every facet of myself without shame or hesitation; losing that would be insanely harmful to me. and to the people who cant appeal to the actual human behind the post, let me put that in words you can understand: we wouldn't get any more writing 😦😦😦 riots and fires and sirens, i know. so yeah. to anyone who has sent me an anon ask and you're now wondering if you were part of the problem, im firmly of the belief that you'll know if you are. when i say 'weird asks' i dont mean 'you sent me a para about your personal life just to vent or ask for advice' or 'you sent me a really deep emotional compliment about the impact me and/or my writing has had on you' - i love asks like that, so much that i put off taking a break and turning off anon solely for the joy they bring me. im sorry that it might feel like you're being punished too bc of the actions of what in reality is a HANDFUL of weird people, but this is what i feel like i have to do to feel safe and not go insane every time i log in. love you guys, hopefully ill see you soon x

#seriously another shout out to my mutuals #id particularly like to say thank you to boom who's always right there for me no matter what's happening or how insane im being #and also everyone in our little discord that wound up having to make a whole new channel for venting #bc i was there so often like 'today's weird ask isssss.... telling me about my cupsize!! rip them to shreds!!!' #hannah and theo especially being there and pushing me to finally turn off anon. war is truly over #and of course rori bc the shamelessness u show when hating on my anon asks has been genuinely really cathartic #sometimes u really do just need a rottweiler mutual to tell random people online to kill themselves 😭 #okay weird oscar acceptance speechcore gratitude over. i do just rlly love my mutuals #like i went three years not telling anyone about the worse side of internet popularity for fear of looking spoiled and ungrateful #so for the first time to open up about it and be met with outrage on my behalf and people saying in fact it's MORE fucked up #than i initially realised bc ive grown desensitised to it is. yeah cathartic i guess #they are singlehandedly reassuring me of the good this cursed app still holds #so everyone thank them and send them flowers NOW #okay im done i think. see you guys soon. i truly do want to come back asap bc like i said i NEVER EVEN WANTED TO FUCKING LEAVE #SOME ASSHOLES JUST HAD TO PUT GRENADES ON WHAT I ASSUMED WERE VERY UNIVERSAL AND OBVIOUS BOUNDARIES #if you're reading this like 'ohhh fuck i defo sent something invasive lately. i thought it was a joke/we were friends' #then 1) we arent friends if you're on anon. it immediately creates a power imbalance where you know me and any necessary context #but i have no idea who you are or how much you know about me. that's already a fucked dynamic #and 2) I HOPE YOU FEEL BAD. LIKE GENUINELY I HOPE YOU FEEL AWFUL AND HAVE A GOOD LONG LOOK AT YOURSELF #okay i think that's all. ta-ra lads??? how tf do u end something like this #ive queued this to reblog a couple more times throughout the day

[yonpote]

me to my kid relatives im watching after: you should be watching different stuff on youtube i dont think that videos appropriate

my own youtube history: ritualistic blood sacrifice to summon baphomet and become one with both him and your lover

#can you see my issue here #unironically if any of the phannie parents know about good channels for 7 year olds to watch pls lmk #i know scishow and crash course would be good and like #i dont MIND them watching fuckin mr beast like its not the most intelligent content but its not like the worst thing for kids to be watching #but they were watching like. some dude reacting to adults dating minors????? what the hell. #SO YEAH IF ANYONE HAS ANY ADVICE THAT WOULD BE GREAT

[flash-from-the-past]

Oggy Moshi

#oggy and the cockroaches #flash #i wasn't a fan of the show #but this was just a nice little game where you keep oggy safe and happy #i imagine some people out there messed up on purpose to see the animations when he falls down the stairs etc? #not me though. i played properly. i was so good at this. finally an easy game to play a benevolent god #his fridge was always full. his tv always on the right channel. his picture on the wall always hung properly. #and i was so diligent in checking if there were no cockroaches messing up his life #if only i was like this irl

[dayssinceabrandcrossedmarkiplier]

100 days since a brand crossed Markiplier

29/8/23

(Be careful when reading the tags if you're sensitive to, albeit glancing, references to sexual assault/grooming)

#markiplier #someone made a joke about resetting because Mark didn't win a gamer streamy the other night #I skipped watching the award show because I knew Dream would be involved and I refuse to interact with anything that gives him a platform #but when I looked up who beat Markiplier in that category my unease grew #like obviously I'm not going to bring mcyt drama to a markiplier blog #but god it makes me so uncomfortable that a groomer who is 100% unremorseful about his actions was allowed to be a nominee #let alone *win* when genuinely good people who work hard on their channels were in the same category #anyway that's all I'll say about it because this is supposed to be a fun little fandom based sideblog #however I have been on the fence this evening about whether to genuinely go #'fuck the streamys for letting Dream have a chance to win let alone actually walk away with an award' #I'm still undecided and need to check how the winner was picked (I think public vote but wanna be sure) #I'm just mad and disgusted and completely uneasy #either way I wanted to quickly get my thoughts out but now I've delayed the post by 20 minutes by typing so sorry and here you go

[nophicas-ward]

I’m grateful for all the words we’ve shared. For all the moments, and the memories. You’ve made me more happy than you know.

#ffxiv #Final Fantasy 14 #ff14 #Final Fantasy XIV #ffxiv screenshots #ffxiv edit #elezen/hyur #| edited by me #| leauna lindholm #hello i am here #first edit ive finished since moonfire oops #im a bit rusty #but here she is #bb girl channeling aerith #if you saw this already no you didnt #also were back to this hairstyle #feels good feels right

[thedroloisms]

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#now that theyre unmodded can i just say #what in the stupid fucking vigilante justice were those people on #like just quit your damn jobs don't risk shit that can have real fucking consequences for you #just bc youre going through a parasocial breakup ? like 'doing the right thing' the right thing if you truly think there's a problem #is reporting the guy to twitch so he doesn't have a platform not blocking the shit out of his channel and HOLDING IT HOSTAGE #these people are gonna get their asses handed to them at some point for harassment or some other legal bullshit #and no amount of 'oh i was doing it For Good' is gonna help them in the eyes of the law like good lord #^ not that big of a deal bc it's just a twitch channel. but like THINK ???? #why are people ENCOURAGING THIS

[freaky-flawless]

is it bad that i'm kinda glad that neither Robecca nor Venus won now bc i'd be so much more upset if either of them had gotten the same tier of final result Rochelle did 💀

NO THAT'S HELLA FAIR

That thought absolutely crossed my mind too!

I do think they had more potential than Rochelle to have really great designs tho, mainly because they both have really solid aesthetics where Rochelle kinda doesn't. Robecca is steampunk, Venus is scene/punk and Rochelle is...French...lol. The MH crew did try to say that her aesthetics are "stained glass" and "wrought iron" but there's really only so much you can do with that, which is why I think a lot of her dolls look alike. The only doll of hers that stands out is Zombie Shake, and its literally her as a zombie lol. Not to mention a lot of her looks were kinda on the more simple side, which I think is an aspect of her style, so going so overboard with this doll just wasn't the move.

#monster high #monster high dolls #rochelle goyle #robecca steam #venus mcflytrap #i get the vibe they were trying to channel sdcc 2015 draculaura in her design but the balance just...isn't there #to be fair tho i feel like a lot of robecca's g1 dolls left a lot to be desired #idk how else to describe some of her dolls other than british #and they messed up on her sdcc doll pretty bad #so theres a very good chance her fang vote doll wouldn't have been great #they probably would have messed up venus in some way lets be real #like not giving her a side shave or something #you know what tho maybe the actual doll will look better #ask

[perenlop]

watching a video on girl meets world and i hate the dad/teacher character. he sounds like the exact kind of teacher i wouldve had in hs that i wouldve despised

#also wow the autism section like. made me uncomfortable rnfnjfnf #bc the way those asshole friends respond to the kid who might have autism responded the exact same way my family did when i brought it up #‘’YOU DONT DO THOSE THINGS!!! well ok you do. but you know not to now!’’ #or ‘’you are NOT autistic ok. you are NORMAL. ok. youre our friend!’’ #i specifically remember my mom literally holding my head and going ‘’you are so smart… you dont have an autistic bone in your body’’ #like gee thanks #it’s outrageous they had that air on tv and those ppl were seen as in the right #but itd be a lie to say im shocked lmao #echoed voice #also i remember i was watching disney channel when gmw first aired and i had no idea it was a sequel fjdjdjdjfj #so good job on ur audience there

[redysetdare]

I wish it was easier to watch wild kratts. I don't have amazon prime and even then they tell you to pay for it, PBS doesn't have all the episodes, and the site i use only has low quality videos that are difficult to watch due to visual glitches 😔

Like bro it shouldn't be this hard to watch a show from my childhood that was aired on the FREE TV CHANNELS????

#text #it's wild to me that amazon took a show that aired on a channel made for kids who's families were poor and makes you pay for it #like ok fuck u then amazon #I'll just keep watching octonauts for now i guess #if anyone has a place to watch wild kratts episodes in good enough quality (honestly anything that doesnt glitch the video) i'd be grateful

[dormiloncito]

random memory but my cocomelon shit back in 2009 was watching some dude on youtube play with his superhero action figures

#on god that man deserves the credit of teaching me the basics of english #all his videos started with ''Hi I'm a Marvel'' (then he showed a marvel toy) ''And I'm a DC'' (then a dc toy) #he made good sketches i'll give him that #he did all the voices too 😭😭 #his channel is still up to this day... #as a kid i also didn't really know how to. you know. consume media online so i always was curious abt who some characters were #namely rorschach from watchmen and deadpool #years later i did read watchmen. good times.

[shevr]

favorite aunty donna sketch?

wah h have i mentioned aunty donna somewhere lately or are you just making that guess on me or is that just coming back at me for an older mention of it. either way yeah good wait hi

very bad at favorites but hh h hhu uh i'll pick "Stuck" as a less appreciated fave & then list other good'uns in tags

edit sorry nevermind anything i said i forgot about

#tangent before i list more ones ; i've been dippin in the aunty donna extended universe of checkin Demi Lardner's podcast #bigsofttitty.png feat her & her partner Tom Walker #it's great it's dumb it's crass i love it its like if two nasty gnomes in love did a podcast and also one of the gnomes is particularly tal #anywy more aunty donna sketch. id started goin down their youtube channel to remember more bc bad memory but i'll stop and just see what i #'Toy' is a special one #'30$ bottle of wine' peak havent you done well #'how to be a corporate spy' very good zaching #the one fucked one where sam is pretending to be at a party and welcomes in websites as if what if they were people #ok i dont rly know anymore memory bad. lotsa great ones #shevr

[yonpote]

tbh i still have my hesitations abt the idea of dnp on twitch, ppl who have never been on twitch might not understand the streamer culture and twitch ppl who happen across dnp might end up less than savory... i know for a fact pj's and charlie's streams have some of the chillest chats (and some of yall are even in there hai!!) so hopefully we can create an environment on twitch that is similarly welcoming and maybe chaotic but not too toxic or too weird.

#i was a lot more hesitant when i thought abt the gaming channel streams cuz those were SO chaotic like way too much imo #but then when i think abt the younows and stuff those were just full chillout streams #idk how to explain my hesitation succinctly lol a lot of it is abt how phannies treat dnp #and how toxic strangers in twitch chats act can be kinda similar #like for dnp im sure if they see smth kinda rude being hurled at them from someone w a dan icon they can know its all bants #but on twitch u dont necessarily know that #and theres good moderation tools as well as you can have the chat rules and stuff like that #mytext

[shit-wcue-players-say]

BREAKING NEWS: canon character banned from own series for being "too problematic" (by the same community that also thinks visibly disabled characters(and likely people in general) need to be censored or otherwise hidden because "some people think that's gross" which is a mixed signal at best. Do we care about their feelings or not)

#basically the moral of the story is wcue players fucking hate disabled people but they won't admit it #and also eventually your “activism” wraps back around into being harm if you keep going long enough #eventually any depiction at all becomes “potentially offensive to someone out there” #i generally try not to “slippery slope” things but they are basically already there in this case so i feel like i'm allowed to this time #wcue #roblox #reports channel #good lord #i'm going to die young #dislike “-kitty” users btw. not as aggravating as “exp” line breaks in bio S/H people #but close #one time me and my friend were hanging around #and someone walked up to my friend unprovoked and suggested he change his bio from “tom” to “hekitty” #because his character had pink on him and they insisted that it “fit better” #anyway that's not related i'm just being reminded of it #no i couldn't tell you why their name is offcenter either #i do know it's on purpose though and i hate it #sorry i have a lot to say about this one lmfao #remember this game is officially endorsed by the warrior cats team. Surely they cant possibly know what kind of shit goes on in there #if they did i think they'd shit their pants