#you basically paid for my antibiotics that I couldn’t afford lolllllllll

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Going through super old tags is giving me such flashbacks to like 2016/2017 (and prior on my dodie blog, only ogs will remember) when I used to constantly post about personal stuff,,, it was fun but also there are so many gross selfies of me on this site now lol

#I had fun on this blog about myself personally #on the dodie blog not so much but that was because I was going through a BAD time and I had so many people following me to watch it happen #lol #oh to be 14 and clinically depressed d #if we’ve been mutuals for a very long time then you may also know me as doddlepoddle lol #I deleted and made this blog and have avoided dodie at all costs since because it hurts my soul too much to think about #like that blog and dodie were my life at one point and I’m thankful for the community and the friends and I needed it at the time #but good gosh that was not a healthy fixation and now even the thought of dodie sends me right back to being #15 heartbroken lonely depressed and in high school lol oops #but I love this blog so much more now bc it’s just shits and giggles and pretty stuff #and now I’ve got fun new mutuals :) than I love :) #I’m looking at u Otto in particular (not that you’ll read these lol) thanks for buying those stuff from my Etsy #you basically paid for my antibiotics that I couldn’t afford lolllllllll #idk man I’m having a day of reflection and looking back and I’m in the best place physically and mentally than I’ve ever been right now #I lost sight of that for a couple of weeks but my brain is never gonna be perfect so that’s always gonna happen #I just have to keep reminding myself <3 #also rewatching buffy <3 my beloved and gotta tell you I’m having so much fun #I’m gonna talk to my dissertation supervisor to see if I can talk about it in my dissertation because I think it would link rly well #I’m doing that way horror has helped to create a queer identity #being gay and ‘other’ are synonymous and vampires have always been fruity #and there’s so many times where #gay is in buffy not even just Tara and willow ya kno I just love it