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Old books And Ye olde Camp Jupiter

NOTE!! The actual stuff about PJO is about 5 paragraphs in; so if you want to slip my bad rambling about two very old epics, I have it headed)

I’ve been reading the Iliad (just finished it, still try to spell it with two L’s 😎) and I’m working on the first books of the Odyssey (with Telemachus doing his thing) and I’ll say; first it was an actual joy, a riot, a rollercoaster, to read the Iliad. There has been very few books where I’ve laughed as much in character dialogue interactions (that sounds so funky but I genuinely did giggle about it) and it was just so silly goofy and fun, and I have it annotated so I can start talking about certain things

And I’ve just started the Odyssey; which it certainly does feel like a sequel (that sounds mean, but it feels the same way that reading daughter of the moon goddess and then heart of the sun warrior; amazing books by the way, go pick them up)

And it’s really fun to consume some version of the original stories and Epics and comparing it to media created with it (I say that like I’ll talk about more than just PJO and the literary choices Rick made on how to interpret and use the gods and stuff. I still am getting around to reading TSOA but it scares me man)

But, I really don’t know what I’m trying to get at

Just that the books are fun and it is generally super fun and interesting to read and even though the first few books of the Odyssey are feeling a bit like a Jason or Piper chapter; I’m pushing through to read Odysseus and his journey; and so I can eventually get to the Aeneid and annoy my friends even more with fun things about Rome and giggle in my classes;

Where the Pjo starts)

Along with that! I’d want to talk more about pre-modern CHB and CJ; seeing as my history class is going through the slog that is colonial history currently and I need someway to stimulate my brain other than writing facts about Mainz Gladius while people are talking about the Salem Witch Trials (my class is feral and gross and they have a big lack of nuance and maturity to think and process the events without being absolute idiots- that sounds mean but they’re annoying and I need to vent)

But I’d like to say there are things we know basically about sides that Greeks and Romans sided on; and because I apparently allergic to discussing Greek demigods at the moment, I’m listing Rome :3

We know that in PJO Roman demigods and the Roman side tends to want to side with rising empires almost inherently; or just rising… things. *cough, cough, the Confederacy, cough, cough*. But aside from that; we can base the ideas that,

1) we can probably confirm that there was a drop in Greco-Roman demigod participation in wars out of the Americas after it (the pantheon and the majority of the demigod groups) moved; though we can probably confirm until after North America became a Economic powerhouse that if following Riordanverse canon; that the Gods moved to New York (if we want to push it, they probably were in Massachusetts in the late 1600s the earliest in America; though I’d say they hadn’t moved until America started like doing good in like what post WII? I think-?)

*A note that is for my Re-imagining, I am seriously considering not moving Pantheons from their native lands; since that leaves a kind of bad taste in my mouth and it makes the Gods and Olympus almost… too accessible for demigods; in the most likely case I’ll pull the Greek Pantheon back onto Olympus in Greece (and I will probably make a point that American demigods can and usually when they need to get to Olympus on their own, can access Olympus through the Olympic mountain range in Washington; I am in Washington, and therefore biased, along with that being the OLYMPIC mountain ranges, I mean, it’s RIGHT THERE guys; how could I not capitalize.) and I might possible move CJ over to being in Italy (though I like the Idea of having CJ just being right there in the Bay Area; before reading tLO and just hearing about them, I thought they were located in Italy, and this all depends on what I do once I start storyboarding Re-imagined) anyway, back on topic,

2) that I’d assume for the most part, as we see that New Rome likes setting Camps up 1) in the west, and 2) near rivers (and we can probably infer it would be somewhat closer to the Equator, or a warmer area). That I think the most likely place that in the Colonial Americas, Romans settled could be,

(This is all using names from Colonial times of Colonies)

A) in British Honduras (Belize); along the Belize river. As we know that Romans supported the British during the revolutionary war, it follows my criteria of being in a warmer climate, and near a river; though it isn’t exactly west, though in proportion to where the early Greek settlers would be, it certainly works, but it puts them far from the revolutionary and just USA so probably not; it’s the middle choice.

B) in New Spain (specifically the portion of California); along the Sacramento River. As Spain was a rising empire at some moment, it is along a river, warm climate, and certainly west. The fact that the Romans would have to be in American territory to still fight in the civil war; so this would be one of my more outlandish concepts.

C) in North Carolina (or just Carolina depending on the time) along the Cape Fear river. This puts them along a river, warm climate, not west but it would be in the direct opposite (as I’d put Greek demigods hiding out amongst the northern colonies or the middle colonies even) and it puts them both in a heavily loyalist (or a colony that supported being part of the British empire) colony; where it would be fitting for them to fight on the side of the Brits, AND a colony that would be in the Confederacy; meaning that they would be in prime position for both wars; I am quite proud of this, and if I needed to put a direct town as example for an area for Romans; I’d say Fayetteville, I’d put the legions settlement across from Fayetteville- in that strip of land between the main Cape Fear river and the river breaking off called south river I think. I am very proud of this one

But yeah! This post originally was going to be about the Iliad and the Odyssey; but I got side-tracked so there are some of my Colonial New Rome ideas, uh, I hope people see the sort of effort I put in for figuring out geological locations for ideas of Camp Jupiter; I might make a post of just a timeline for where Camp has been located through the years- it’s a fun little thought experiment, id also say pre- really big colonialism of the Americas, that the Romans temporarily were first with Spain (I didn’t chose Portugal despite the fact that during that time they had the whole seafaring empire thing, but the Greeks would totally be supporting them) then the Romans go with the British Empire, briefly go down to the confederacy, then stick with America.

#camp jupiter #pjo hoo toa #hoo #idk how to tag this #kind of a rant #ramblings #hoo headcanon #pjo headcanon #Camp Jupiter headcanons #project concepts #hehe :3

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Hello and I'm Red or you can call me Joaquin and here's about me

1. Mainly I don't been active that long but I will be okay and be active longer

2.a multi fandom person who likes some stuff ig lol

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I forgot to mention more about me ig

1.i'm Transgender (MtF) but my family still calling me sunny boy and I hate it

2.i like the boyfriend from fnf

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[pregnantsecondo]

Just me, my benrey plush, and my groovalicious bracelet against the world </3

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[ye-bloodeh-liar]

I just finished AC Valhalla – A résumé.

I finished the "main story" of Assassin's Creed Valhalla. These are some thoughts of mine. (This was saved in my drafts for two weeks or so. But my stance hasn't altered. Actually, I'm even angrier now.)

Disclaimer: This obviously contains some spoilers here and there. You've been warned, but tbh, who even cares about the story at this point. Also, I know I don't have many followers, and I suspect none of the few that will come across this post will actually be interested in it. That said, if you like reading people's rants about things, regardless of your interest in video games, this might be something for you. I just needed to get this out of my system somewhere. This is a rant (well, vent? I'm venting, I guess) written as it came to my mind. There's no real structure, I think. Sorry for that in advance.

After Origins, which I thoroughly enjoyed and actually played again between Odyssey and Valhalla, and Odyssey, which's name was perfectly fitting since it felt like a fucking odyssey to grind through, I hoped, actually, I was convinced, Valhalla would right Odyssey's wrongs. You see, Odyssey had one big problem for me: It did none of the things that made and still make me love Origins. In short: The world was massive, but felt copied and pasted, uninteresting to explore and lifeless. Basically, it was a lot of green sprinkled with some olive branches. A lot of the times the only way to know roughly where I am was pulling up the map because based on my surroundings, I could've been anywhere. Compared to the intriguing world of Origins, where you always knew in which area of the map you currently were, this was a shitshow. I mean, just walking through the desert in Origins had more atmosphere than the whole city of Athens (the main fucking city) could ever muster up. (Oh, remember the times of AC Brotherhood, where Rome actually felt like a city even though it wasn't actually humongous like the new games are? Or how atmospheric the whole of AC II was? I mean, Venice? Hello? M a s t e r p i e c e) But I can overlook that. The combat didn't feel heavy, or to put it better, "impactful" like it did in Origins, but more like poking the enemies to their deaths with something that made sword-y sounds. But I can overlook that. The loot system improved a bit, in the sense of giving the option to modify your loot and being able to combine different armor pieces, however, Origins outfit-system was more up my alley. But I can overlook that. Funnily enough, compared to its predecessor, Odyssey looked worse. In Origins the fabric of your outfit look like actual fabric and, I can't stress this enough, waved in the wind. In Odyssey everything felt more static and somehow "fake". But I can overlook that. To me, Origins' story was masterfully done. Personally, I'd say, that this is the closest we've ever gotten to the Ezio-Trilogy. The voice acting was top notch. Bayek was a great character, and the side characters like Aya/Amunet were equally intriguing. I still remember the first time I saw the first confession cutscene after killing Medunamun. It gave me shivers and goosebumps and got me excited for what was about to come. What I want to say with this, is that Origins made me care; care about its characters, care about their backstory and motives, care about the world, etc. After I had finished the DLC The Hidden Ones I felt like I had actually witnessed the igniting spark of something epic, namely the Assassin Brotherhood, in such a chilling way, even though they basically were just chillin' in a cave. Because that's what character building gives you: payoffs. Well, Odyssey did none of that. All it did made me care about was to get all the loot, because that's what my mind always goes for in any game (I'm that kind of stupid ape). I didn't care about what would happen in the end – I just wanted to get there. I wanted to know how the story would end, but in whichever way it would, I knew I wouldn't care for it in the sense of being disappointed or yearning for a different outcome for the character I was so invested in, because, as I said, nothing got me invested in the character(s) in the first place. That's what bugged me the most about Odyssey. Not the flimsy feeling combat, not the husk of a world I found myself in, not the downgrade in design and animation, etc., but the lack of care it invoked.

Now, when Valhalla was originally announced, I was excited as I could be for a video game. Ubisoft was clearly aware of their mistakes with Odyssey and tried to show that they're willing to listen to their fanbase. A world where every area has its own identity? Sounds great. Heavy combat? Hell yeah. Gear and loot that actually matters and is special (unlike in Odyssey where after a few hours of playing you find yourself carrying the same fucking bow 25 times)? Oh my. Choices not for the sake of choices, but story? Yes please. I mean, if you have to implement choices. Even though choices don't really make sense in Assassin's Creed, but that's another topic.

Well, did it deliver (for me)? No. And to be completely honest, I prefer Odyssey, even as the grindfest that it is, over Valhalla, and me replaying Odyssey seems a lot more likely to me, than going through all of Valhalla again. I'm not going to list all of the points mentioned above again in full detail: The world is a bit more intriguing than Greece, but a shadow of what Egypt was. The combat feels heavy, yet every weapon looks too big (????) and it still feels a bit off. My biggest grudge of the minor points is actually the look/the graphics: How on earth does Valhalla manage to look less real than Origins? The fur and pelts on the armor, every piece of cloth, i mean just e v e r y t h i n g looks somewhat plasticy (at loss for a better word here; just compare Origins' outfits in motion to Valhalla's) Anyway, let's get to the real problem here, because all boils down to the point I've mentioned before: Invoking care.

This became very apparent to me after forging the fourth (?; was it the fourth? They all blur together. That's how e n t i c i n g they are. Great.) alliance or so. I didn't give a single fuck about the characters in those arcs. It was very clear that they'd be soon replaced by other characters in the next alliance's arc, which I probably wouldn't care for either, especially, since they all felt somewhat the same: empty. Alliances felt like checklists to do. Even Wincestre, which had an interesting beginning, somehow managed to loose all of its "darkness" after the first two quests. But I could overlook the dreary sidequest-like alliance arcs, if they served the main storyline in some way or form. Now you might ask, what main storyline? E x a c t l y. Looking back, there is none. At least not really. And there where a lot of times playing the game where I found myself wondering, if this alliance-arc-thing I was currently dragging myself through was in fact meant to be the actual story. But it shouldn't be. Was it? I have no fucking clue. My conclusion on what Valhalla's main overarching story is, is what follows:

Eivor's parents got killed when he was a child (never seen before lol), got adopted, and is now part of the Raven clan with his "brother" Sigurd//Sigurd comes home from some raid with the Assassins Basim and Hytham//(Eivor gets the Hidden Blade; I mean, this is an Assassin's Creed game. Big moment. Done in 2 seconds.)//Sigurd and Eivor aren't happy with the new King of Norway.//Sigurd and Eivor fuck off to England (with Basim and Hytham) to set camp there.//Eivor starts to forge alliances throughout England to make his clan's hold on England stronger.// Sigurd and Basim do their own thing.//Eivor meets Sigurd and Basim two or three times throughout his alliance forging.//Basim seems a bit off.//Sigurd says that he was told (by Basim?) that he is a descendant of the gods.// Sigurd wants to "pursue his destiny"// (sidenote: the last few things are all within one (!) short cutscene in a small house. d e v e l o p m e n t.)//Sigurd gets captured and tortured and loses his hand.//Eivor rescues Sigurd.// Sigurd is back in the settlement.//Sigurd distrusts Eivor because Eivor doesn't believe Sigurd and Sigurd thinks Eivor wants to take his title as the jarl (jarls are the bosses of settlements).// And then the end sequence hits. This is where I want to go into somewhat detail again. We go from Sigurd distrusts Eivor to "Eivor, I don't wanna be the boss of the town, so I don't hold a grudge anymore, let's go back to Norway and I'll show you I was right all along" like it's nothing. It's literally just that: You walk up to Sigurd, he says this (more or less) and you sail away. Again: development is taken very seriously in this game. Honestly, at this point I didn't even know that this was going to trigger the ending. My genuine thoughts were "Oh my, finally, after all this grinding, the story is going to start." when in reality of course, ironically, it was going to end. Absolute belter. So you sail to Norway with Sigurd, which takes fucking forever, because OF COURSE you have to sail (for everyone who didn't play the game, yes, sail, that means looking at a viking longship while occasionally moving the stick slightly to change its directions slightly) to your original settlement in Norway, for what feels like far too long, only to say Hi to your dad. Fucking lost it. I thought we were going to assassinate the King? Nah bruv let's just have some quick family talk instead. Some action? Nah. Just get back to the longship. A N D S T A R T S A I L I N G A G A I N. Where? Just around the curve of our settlement in Norway. Yes, they pulled the old trick of the ending is literally just right around the corner of your starting position hehe. Absolute belter. Is this to make it seem like something is about to happen? The calm before the storm? It doesn't work like that. Well, then you actually sail through a storm (lol), which doesn't matter, because Sigurd just says "Let's keep going" and, well, you keep going. Also, to this point the weather conditions have never affected neither Eivors health, nor the ship in any way whatsoever, so why should I be impacted by a storm now? Like, it's a nice thing for atmosphere, but at least make the ship harder to steer or something. Then you walk up a mountain. Funnily enough Sigurd walks in manner that shows that the walk against the storm isn't easy, whereas you, hah, you can just yeet yourself up that mountain like nothing. I could sprint up there. Fucking sprint. Anyway, Eivor and Sigurd enter the Isu temple, because of course, we had to throw an Isu temple in there, I mean, i t ' s A s s a s s i n ' s C r e e d. Was it hinted at before in the story? Not really. Were we chasing or searchig for it? Nah, better get that next alliance going. It just suddenly was. Again: development. So we walk to the main platform of the temple and activate the machine and bam we're in Valhalla (because at some point Ubisoft realised that maybe they should include what is literally in the name of the game). Again, were we looking for Valhalla? Like not in the sense that every viking was, but more in the sense

of was it the main objective of the game? Did Eivor look for a way to Valhalla? Was there anything that led us here other than Sigurd having had a few dreams (that only got mentioned, like, twice?) and being influenced into thinking he was a demigod or something? Nope, Eivor was looking for that next alliance to forge. So, Eivor realises that his experience of Valhalla is fake and he wants to get out. But fake-Odin doesn't want to let him go. In a really weird cutscene (jump to 6:30), Eivor eventually escapes Odin and enters a door with his settlement-family (look, I'm all here for metaphors, but this, this is just utter rubbish. It just doesn't make sense, and there is no payoff whatsoever). Odin actually had a build-up of some sort. In every assassination sequence he's there and talks with Eivor. I actually thought there would be some cool payoff/ending/reveal here. But nah, this ain't it chief. Yet somehow, until here, I had hope. I thought maybe now, building on all this confusion, there's gonna be a relatively good ending. Something enticing. Something that made everything somewhat worthwile. And Ubisoft went: Lol nah. So, you're out of the Isu machine again (for all the non-AC-peoples here: basically like the matrix. Eivor gets hooked up to the machine and experiences alternate reality: Valhalla), and Basim is there. What a twist. The guy that showed up like three times and went from friendly in the first time to super suspicious (like glaring-in-your-face-suspicious) in the two-or-so other major cutscenes he was in, has now been revealed as the enemy. Congrats to that. What a twist. The thing is, and this bothers me a lot actually, it could have been anyone there. It didn't need to be Basim. It wouldn't have felt out of place if it wasn't him. Why? Because Ubisoft failed terribly at making you connect to any character and at building any actual story (or character). It could have been Gunnar, the friendly black-smith in our settlement, and it would have been as fitting as Basim. Then Basim says that this is "for his son". Ah yes, the lost son of Basim, which was mentioned once. Right. Eivor defeats Basim by hooking him up on the Isu machine and gets back to the settlement with Sigurd (in my ending at least. There seems to be a possible ending in which Sigurd doesn't come back.) Cut to the modern day, where Layla now knows the coordinates of the Isu temple, goes there, hooks herself up to the machine, becomes the overseer of time with the other overseer of time which already was hanging out there (I mean yeah, great idea, terrible execution. Build it up, then you can have a payoff. This was just straight outta nowhere, and who cared about Layla anyway.) Anyway, meanwhile Basim, who was still hanging on that machine a fuck ton of years later, pops off, and is now living in the modern day. The idea here is, that we lost the hero (Layla) which caused the (just established) vilain (Basim) to do his fuckery in the modern day. But why should I care? Basim was basically nonexistent in the basically nonexistent story and suddendly I should feel sad or shocked, because he's in the modern day? Is this supposed to be intriguing? And yeah, Layla is "gone". Layla, who had no character building over three fucking games. Why should i be bothered? Why should I care about anything that just happened? Remember when a side character (Lucy) died in AC Brotherhood? That was intriguing. Why? Because they built her as a character we (Desmond) trusted, even though it was in the modern day (which no one really cares about in AC). And this is why Valhalla broke me and Odyssey didn't. Valhalla failed to make me care on a much deeper level. It's just a lot of nothingness. Empty characters in a nonexistent story. And by nonexistent, I mean non-built at all. When I play the game now, I have no actual reason, and throughout the game never actually had any actual reason, to continue. It was a chore. I didn't bother if after three hours of grind I would eventually get a mini-snippet of a husk of a story, and neither do I care now. Everything in

this game is so devoid of sparking curiosity and screams of lacklusterness to the point where I don't even know what I have actually expierenced. For fuck's sake Ubisoft, make me care again. At least once in 40 hours.

May I sum up Valhalla's "story" and content in the glorious words of Catherine Tate: Am I bovvered? The answer, sadly, is a holistic no.

#assassins creed #ac valhalla #sorry for the rant #this is my longest post yet #am i bovvered #sidenote: this is actually the first time that i'm genuinely pissed at ubisoft #i wasn't even this mad with odyssey #and that thing got a lot of hate #maybe i'm gonna delete this again

[wcamino-confessions]

Okay wow I usually don’t say this kinda thing especially after I swore off ever touching amino but I feel like this needs to be said.

Have you guys tried to educate her? Yes. Did she refuse to listen? Yes. does she have every right to be criticized for her actions? Yes. We’re her actions bad and unruly? Yes. And does she deserve backlash for them? Yes.

You guys have every right to be mad at Tae for what she said and done, her callout post was immature, her statements were not researched and she refuses to be educated, she’s clearly confused and says blatantly wrong things. Her actions so far have been shown to be rude, sarcastic, or childish at best and again you have every right to be mad and vent about it.

To be clear I absolutely hate alm and blue lives matter, everyone and anyone who defends them are racist and people who refuse to be educated r especially racist and you have every right to call em out on it. But like... be a lil nicer to the minors???? You can still criticize they’re actions bc Tae’s actions are well bad and immature and you can still vent and rant about them on here if you want. That’s not harassment. I’ve been on here for awhile trust me it’s not harassment if you just vent about her actions or post screenshots about it. But I’ve seen people admit they’ve been borderline harassing her and like just, don’t do that? Again your welcome to be mad and your welcome to criticize or rant or vent about her. But don’t cross the line, she’s a minor and while that doesn’t excuse what she said or her actions , harassment has more of a negative impact on her then adults. You don’t have to sympathize with her because what she’s been saying is racist, you don’t have to like her, you don’t have to stop posting about her, you don’t have to stop being mad about it, but like, just be a tiny bit nicer to her? I get it I get it she’s being annoying and harmful and immature, but the situation would be a lot easier on to handle if you could calm down just a tiny bit. Besides you guys can pretty much ban her at this point, isn’t that the worse punishment you can give to her without harassing her? She deserves a ban and it won’t be crossing the line.

As for Tae, listen I know your a minor and you say stupid shit all the time. I used to be a transcum until I had a trans friend slap me over the head and tell me that’s a shitty take and to change it /hj. Which I did btw. I get it, but Tae you need to sit back and educate yourself. I know it’s hard to believe these people, probably because these thoughts are being aided by friends or family or just you don’t want to because of the amount of backlash your getting. So let me explain to you, as one minor to another, why ALM is bad and racist. ALM is a movement made to directly combat against Black Lives Matter, thus why its racist. And I know your about to think “oh but what if you separate the words from the movement” and to that I say, your still doing what the movement is trying to aim for, saying “all lives matter” even if your apart of the movement or not is still overshadowing and ignoring the fact that many POC lives are still in a state or position where many people don’t think they matter. Think of it like there’s a house on fire, saying “all lives matter” is the same as going up to the fire fighters and saying “oh all houses matter, why aren’t you taking care of the other houses” you might think your helping but in context your just making everything worse. No matter how you say that phrase now, whether it’s in connection to the movement or not, your still harming the cause of BLM. And yes, it is a big deal people are dying, I know you think “it’s a part of life” but people are losing they’re fathers, mothers, and children, all because some cop didn’t like someone’s skin color and decided that they should die for it. It’s never a okay thing to do, to take someone’s life over their skin color, something they were born with, something they can’t really control. That’s like ((as an example)) someone killing your mom because she has red hair or something. You just lost your mom because she had red hair. These deaths aren’t just “deaths” they’re impacting other people’s lives, these people who died were important to others. And they didn’t deserve having they’re lives taken away. And as for “they didn’t have it as bad in the 60’s” of course they didn’t, but that doesn’t mean they don’t have it bad here aswell, that’s like saying “oh atleast I didn’t blow up the building” after tearing down a wall, it doesn’t change the fact that you still tore down that wall. Sure it could have been worse but literally everything can be worse. It doesn’t change the face things are bad now, and need to be fixed. From the context on how you speak about the movements and how you use “they” when referring to POC im going to assume your white or atleast not POC ((correct me if I’m wrong)) which means you don’t fully understand why this is so important because you maybe ((again correct me if I’m wrong)) have never experienced what it’s like to be a POC, if that is the case then you need to step down from your high horse and realize that you can’t say something is “not as bad as _____” if you’ve never even experienced first hand. Comparing pain and suffering is only going to lead to more problems. Tae they’re is always room to change, your not a lost cause. But you need to educate yourself and realize what your saying is bad if you do want to change and be a better person. You can’t excuse your actions, you can’t undermine them, you have to own up to them in full volume and realize what you said was harmful.

I already expect backlash for this post, which is fair, again I’ve been on wac for awhile, I don’t think any of these posts here are harassing Tae ((although it would be epic if you guys can refrain from using the c word, just a personal request u don’t have to follow through )) these posts hold valid critique that I think Tae needs to listen to, even if some of them are a bit harsh. And I know the mods wouldn’t allow harassing messages to get onto this blog. But if your in like the comments or something saying “I’d rather harass her then not” like... calm down my guy, you have a right to be mad but you can also just ban her ass and get the same effect and message with it being deserved lmao.

#hiddensneker

[xxrat--punkxx]

JUMPING ON THIS BAND WAGGON

Ok here’s my 2020, tw//mentions of suicide and abuse

(Strong start lmao) 2020 sucked ass lemmi tell ya. This year was a fucking train wreck from the start, ur hay I got character development so who cares. Well let’s start with a review, bad things first.

Yall remember when everyone was scared shields of COVID?. Lol. But that’s stating the obvious. When we went into lockdown I was first like fuck yeah summer lol, but then the threat of ‘staying home for the rest of the year’ set in, bing in my first year of sixth form I really understand the stakes of exams next year. So having to stay home for the rest of the year freaked me the fuck out. I literally couldent cope, having to do all classes online was fucking hell, they were never zoom classes either, just ‘lmao do the work and hand it in’ which was near impossible for me. I was also in the constant ‘oh no I’m so stressed but I will do NOTHING about this lmao~’. As the days turned to weeks and inevitably MONTHS, my mental health said buckle up bitches. Days were spent sitting in my room on my phone doing NOTHING, meanwhile this perpetual notion of stress played in my head yet there I sat not having the will or motion to move.

Then my parents got involved. Now THATS when shit went from pretty crummy to awful, now I was living with them constantly I was able to see who they really were with no real filter. And oh god do I have issues, I didn’t even fucking know. Every day was an argument, my mom was the worst, the MANIPULATION, the constant ‘you're tearing this family apart’ or ‘so I’m the problem?’ Or the fucking indecent playing the victim. And I all only just realised, that they have been doing this ALL MY LIFE. Dad got involved but he was just physically violent, only twice tho. The worst part was my work, admittedly yes, I didn’t do everything I was given, but I tried, I really did with what little motivation I had. But with just one ‘oh your daughter hasn’t handed in this work’ I was a ‘lazy, good for nothing failure’ to quote ‘who will never go anywhere in life’ so I’d spend the rest of the day crying while they play the victim bury saupying I was abusing their love and just using them for money. But the next day be like ‘oh I’m so proud of you you're doing so well’ having that statement being completely unrelated to the previous events. This was constant. So that’s that story. I won’t talk much about Black Lives Matter because we all know about how that went. But it really affected me, I found myself crying over the victims multiple times. And the lack of support for the movement my peers or family showed made it fucking worse. Crying was a common occurrence for me now, mental health really taking a nosedive, being too scared to call myself ‘depressed’ or ‘mentally ill’ to any extent because I know I’m faking it and just want validation. That was also constant. Fun times huh.

BUT IT GETS WORSE 🥲, then I had to go back to school, awful to fucking abhorrent now. Year two of sixth form fun right? Sure, if u take away the ‘no free time period’ or the wanting to kill mystery for literally a whole 3 weeks. That was my lowest peak. Ever. I’ve never wanted to kill myself before then, don’t like that feeling. Shocker huh. That mixed with the constant anxiety of nothing is right anymore and also needing to succeed at school all made one healthy dose of ‘.exe has stopped working’ juice. Yet I played the fool, acting happy as if nothing had happened, or was happening at least, and venting by imagining scenes in my head with fictional characters lmao. Telling myself ’u can’t kill yourself because u don’t deserve too and ur just asking for attraction’. Then midterms happened blah blah blah, stress but I’m numb to it now that whole story.

But that’s not to say there wasn’t a silver lining.

Onto the good things finally, yes the year was probably one of the worst years I’ve been through in my life it did not go without its positives. For example early this year I got into borderlands properly, I finally explored the fandom and had a look at what it was like. Albeit a slow process considering I was still predominantly on Instagram at the time, and finding a community of a fandom on there is impossible. I started browsing Pinterest or the Internet for images that would link to my favourite characters, Who were to no ones surprise is the calypso twins. Pinterest led me to artworks and artworks led me to the infamous Lazulizard. Who I cherish all my being. Three weeks later after looking at her entire tumblr blog and stalking her of pretty much all her content (sorry for that by the way) I found border-spam. By this point I didn’t have tumblr and I had no intention of getting it seeing as an ongoing war I’ve had with myself since 2012, declaring I will be the bigger man and never get tumblr, which in hindsight was an awful mindset. Seeing as tumblr is probably one of my favourite places on Earth right now. But after also stalking border spams account, again sorry, and starving her of any content she’d ever posted. I was happy that this fandom although as niche as it is was actually getting content. At the time spam and lazu were absolute gods to me. Being the sole producer of a fandom I probably wasn’t even in properly, having both impeccable writing and impeccable art like good God. I would often think ‘wow wouldn’t it be incredible if I actually got to talk to them one day’, now look at me I’m doing commissions for both of them good God. And to be short joining tumblr felt like a fever dream and it’s probably the greatest thing I could’ve done this year, my parents are wrong, talking to strangers is amazing.

Something notable of mention this year as I actually got to figure out who I am as a person, I was able to find my own style and to find my interests, specifically in what I liked in terms of clothing. I thought I was LOL 2012 goth hipster but no apparently I’m manic Pixie dream girl. Going from pink is the ugliest colour in the world to having it be the only colour I will ever wear. I made some pretty big choices this year like cutting pretty much all of my hair off and dying it for the first time. Thanks strict parents for only letting me do that one now. But like I said I went to a character Ark and you know what I like it. I also played BioShock fallout and horizon zero dawn for the first time this year starting to really feel like a proper epic gamer, good lord kill me, and falling in love with all of them almost immediately. I also figured out on a plant mum and I’m into vulture culture although my parents have to disagree with that one. Asking to buy an Horse and fox skull somehow scared them a little bit can’t seem to figure out why lmao.

So a conclusion, Fuck you 2020 you made me miss two comic cons and I will never forgive you for that shit I am SO mad. But I will give you the benefit of the doubt you did make me meet some absolutely incredible people who I consider my friends, despite going against every single Internet safety law I was ever taught as a child. But you know what who gives a flying shit I love you guys. So that’s what I wanted to say. I want to say thank you to everyone on here and everyone is following me or even interacted me with on that matter. You mean the world to me and I really fucking mean it. Are you going to be nothing but amazing ever since I walked onto this fucking hell hole. And what I go through all of this bullshit again if it means I ended up here? You know what I think I just might. So again I thank you and I hope your year didn’t go as badly as mine, and fuck it bring on whatever the fucks next!

Honourable mention of this year was The time Elisa actually complimented me and I cried a little bit and had a panic attack but you know that’s for another day

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#I literally drew nothing this year #like this is all of it lmao #I didn’t post a lot of this stuff because hmmm #but omfg my evolution of tyreen art lmao #that one in January was the first time I ever drew her #I literally got into borderlands in January snd now look at me #consistent style who? #actually a lot of this is collage work huh #that digital December is a surprise #I’m nearly finished just gotta do effects #but my productivity said 📉📉📉📉📉 #yeah I used to draw angel a LOT as well lol #borderlands #troy calypso #tyreen calypso #lilith the siren #my art #ocs #kiatei #rhys the company man #patricia tannis #angel the siren #uhhhhh #2020 summary #tw mention of abuse #tw mention if suicide #long post

[kiissme]

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lemme gush ‘bout you @theforgottenwanderers edition

OKAY, so you are the latest of mutuals that has settled into my heart, basically. it really has been a minute since i was notified that you followed me, and the thing that set you apart for me was after i followed you, you messaged me almost instantly? Which was def different bc not a lot of people do that we’re all awkward little creatures who follow each other and not utter a peep unless an open or meme pops along and sometimes even then... so getting an IM was different and I remember being like, “Hello....” and it was just a simple “if you wanna rp” sort of message and i was like, hm, yes. idk if people feel intimidated by me bc don’t i’m here to write and love on muses, that’s it. before we talked about muses, you had seen the good place and i had to voice my love for it and that was an immediate click between us. you’re so easy to talk to, first of all. and i love that about my partners, if we could spend a day chatting, then it’s like made between us. and that is something we do well. like, it was pretty clear early on that I could talk to you about anything and I can hope to think that you can do the same to me. i love talking headcanons / plotting with our babes. And yes, mostly them being trashy or just so into each other, how much they want each other, we literally could do that all day every day and i love it bc that one psa post about writing the sex part of a ship and loving it, IT ME. And honestly doing that makes me fall harder for the ship bc we’re discussing openly what they love about each other, which gives us feels and the drive to write them and I LOVE WRITING THEM. I’m a hot mess when it comes to drafts, surprising no one, but our enthusiasm for our babies is there and it fills my heart with so much joy. it started with theo, our love of elizabeth lail led to austen who faye wants to spoil so much. we have plots with older faye which i’m excited about and ugh. THE WIVES. faye and carden are gonna be so epic and great, we love talking about them, which makes them feel so solid as a ship and yes i love it. i’m looking forward to building more ships with you, and i enjoy simply chatting with you so much. whether it’s about things we love or things that need to be vented about, you’re there and with never any judgement. you’re sweet and understanding and honestly so encouraging and kind and you deserve all the things. all the best things and i hope you get it 💕

#theforgottenwanderers #i got your message and hitting you back ( response ) #was this gushing enough 🥺

[naughtynutboy]

yeehaw yeehaw i got me phone and laptop taken away!!!

im writing this on my phone when im not really supposed to be on it but shh its our little secret

anyway yeah so that happened, it was really just a matter of time and i don't even care anymore cause i can't afford to care. it happened last night after dinner so i just spent the rest of my night finally getting around to re-reading warrior cats lmao

i've been meaning to start re-reading the books like,,, months ago, possibly even a year or more and so i finally did it and i got like 2/3 of the way through into the wild which is epic :)

yes, i am going to be a legal adult later this year and yes i am re-reading warriors and still making ocs, sue me

but yeah so we are vibing over here and i can not wait until my next therapy appointment because there has been a LOT that's happened since my last one that i need to talk abt as you may know if you read through my last vent post lol

if ur wondering why im so cheerful in this post even though things are getting objectively worse, it's because i'm about to go to my dad's house where he doesn't take away my electronics :)) and if he says anything i'm fully prepared to explain to him what's been going on and hopefully he'll understand a bit more

i'm also kinda happy cause i emailed my teacher yesterday asking if there was anything i could do besides the essay that i needed to get done and he said no but he knows i'm a good enough writer that all he needs is the final essay, none of the planning stuff which made me feel a lot better for some reason?? like i still have to actually write the essay which was the main problem but idk it just kinda gave me a little energy/motivation boost to actually do it so i'm gonna try to at least write a paragraph everyday cause something is better than nothing right

so yeah i guess this is just a lil update/follow up to my last vent post. even though things around me are getting worse, for some reason my mental state seems to be getting better?? i might be speaking too soon, idk, but at least right now in this moment i feel good about the future and doing my work. i've kind of just been ignoring the person who keeps telling me to just get over my adhd and that i'm lazy (like actually ignoring, i've spoken like 3 words total over these past 2 days lmao)

though that might not be the best strategy for anyone else cause i know some people related to my situation in my last vent and i wouldn't recommend just ignoring your parents if that's gonna get you into more trouble?? i'm doing it for my own sake right now because i'm sick of getting all upset and then needing like an hour to calm down, so if ur in a similar situation right now pls just use your own judgement and don't make things worse for urself lol

but yeah i've been pretty much as close to rock bottom as i've ever been these past few weeks and i think (hopefully) things are starting to look up for me, at least internally. and i hope the same happens to yall out there soon as well, @ anyone who related to this or my previous vent! if ur really struggling try to focus on ur own mental health before anything else because if ur in a bad place, ur not going to be productive no matter what and ur health matters more than ur grades etc. at the end of the day! :))

#yeehaw buckaroo im vibing #m wont shut up

[float-me-now]

created by @johnmurphysreddit saw it in @kittinoir's blog

Find your fandom kru and help them find you. Answer the following and include the tag #the100blog in your answer, then tag some of the blogs you follow.

1. What are your primary topics?

Mainly The 100, I occasionally post stuff about Mr Robot, Harry Potter, Gintama and Haikyuu!!, I also like music (mostly metal but not only) and nature, so expect to find something like that too, and everything that I find right to share :)

2. What tags should a visitor check?

I have quite a precise tagging system because I'm a pretty obsessive person lol. Regarding The 100, I tag posts referring to the characters featured in the post and the season I'm talking about. Cast and behind the scenes stuff are tagged accordingly. I've recently found out about the "stan vs anti" culture, and even though I call myself a "Murphy stan" to express my love for the character, I do not support "anti culture": to me, it's more like writing/reblogging critique, thoughts and rants because I'm passionate about something, not because I want to spread hate. However, I will tag some of my posts as "anti" if I write/reblog something that could be seen as "not character friendly".

3. What do you love about The 100?

Oh boy!

- First of all, I love the concept: survival, radiation-soaked planets, difficult decisions, morals, fight-or-die situations, discarded youth who become the saviors of the human race.

- Then, good fight and action scenes (and some well-presented violence), no random sex scenes to lure a certain kind of audience.

- The costumes. Absolutely love the looks.

- Different cultures, a *freaking* new language.

- The beautiful sceneries and effects, sci-fi stuff, complex different plots that are all linked together.

- Powerful women and a bit of LGBT representation, complex characters.

- The freaking PARALLELS guys. I live for that stuff.

- The featured songs and OSTs (I discovered some great artists while watching the series).

- John Murphy, because of all he is, and the other epic characters I'm not sure how I'll live without (Raven, Bellamy, Roan, Octavia, only to name some).

- The cast. I've never had the pleasure to meet them, but they all seem like really fun, nice and loving people. I've watched some videos about conventions and they look like an awesome group!

- The talented part of the fandom that blesses us all with edits, gifs, fanarts and so on :')

4. What do you hate/what frustrates you about The 100?

- Bad character writing (see Bellamy Blake in season 6). Luckily, it doesn't happen often throughout the series. Same goes for some dialogues that are absolutely stupid (see some of Bellamy and Clarke's lines in 1x04 or 1x10).

- Abby Griffin and her "holier than thou" attitude even if she's the literally the character who acts in the most selfish way throughout the show. Also, her ridiculous tendency to make decisions involving other people's lives without considering the facts but just what "she hopes" (mostly season 1). If you are responsible for other people's lives you can't base your decisions on hope, it's ludicrous.

- Clarke Griffin. Not her in particular, and there were many moments in which I really liked her! More like the atmosphere of "we can't do anything without Clarke-she's the most important person in the world-she can do no wrong". I mean yes, she's the main character but there are many other characters that have beautiful and important qualities and overlooking them to focus on Clarke constantly is pretty ridiculous. And there ARE moments in which she made bad decisions, and it's not wrong to call her out for that, she's human. Instead, she's always praised and deemed to be this faultless, perfect hero.

- Sometimes, some things that happen between the characters are not developed or talked through. I understand that it would take like 289 episodes to get the characters to explore all the relationships between them though 😅.

- Memori. That's right: Memori is my NOTP :") To be clear: i see why most people like it, I obviously ADORE Murphy and I don’t hate Emori, I just don't like them together.

-Something more fandom-related: the endless bitching about Bellarke/Clexa. I double despise it not only because it's obnoxious and brings people down, but also because it makes some people who ship them in a civilized way look bad.

5. Is this exclusively a The 100 blog?

Nope but mainly :)

6. What else should people know?

I will likely vent and write rants about this series, and I want to make clear that I don't want to attack anyone, I just care a lot about this show!

Also, I have some difficulties with socializing but I like to interact with the nice people here so asks in particular are always very welcome :)

Tagging @bimurphy, @ayakomspacekru, @bananase221, @john-dontcallmejohn-murphy, @murphamyking, @bunker-boyfriends, @komraekenkru, @youmissedthewholeshow, @clarkewithameme, @dizzy-powerless and @aglicoe!

If you follow me and see this, consider yourself tagged :)

And, as usual, if you don’t feel like doing it, feel free to ignore!

#the 100 #the 100 fandom #fandom kru #tag game #the 100 tag game #the100blog #get to know me

[larenoz]

Roswell New Mexico - Live Rewatch - Ep 1 - Pilot

So I don’t really have much in the way of original content on my blog. So I decided it might be fun to post the live blog I’ve been doing on discord of the rewatch our server is doing for Roswell, New Mexico over the hiatus period. 

I’ve only posted my comments, so there might be a couple of bits that look out of place. These are my responses to other people’s comments. I’m up to episode 6, so I will post the backlog and then do one a week until the re-watch is complete.

Be warned, there is swearing. 

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Sorry, cat decided it wanted a cuddle

I love the glass effect, it's so cool

You may not plan to see the small people again, Liz but we know it's gonna happen!!

Not gonna lie, I love poltics in my TV

You quote that verdict to him, Liz!!

That vent tells us so much about Liz in such a short period of time.

You're finally back says Max.Because he's been waiting for that to happen the whole time.

Excuse me Sheriff, with that good girl comment. Rude!

Arturo, playing along with Liz's mpreg story.

Fuck, I just realised - mpreg is canon!?!

Rosa!!

I want antenna headband

Cream on a milkshake is wrong.

So many people in this show have pretty eyes!!

Nooo.

Damn that's alot of lights to replace

I love that damn bullet hole in Liz's dress. It was the first indication they weren't gonna make everyone dumb as a bag of rocks and drag the storyline out FOR EVER.

Hoverboarding. Iz!!

Hey there Kyle!

Annnd here it comes, I'm in love.

That smug fucking grin. The song.

That look when he's trying to get the keys. That look would make you do just about anything.

That Michael monologue. It just gets better everytime I watch it.

Without a doubt, top 3 best character intros ever.

And we're only 15 mins in! I need to make less comments

I didn't think anyone was reading!! :wink:

"Untie some loose ends" - you go Iz

Oh Max you fucker. Telling Michael he wouldn't do anything for anyone else. Excuse fucking you.

Ok, blasting Max across the room is kinda hot. But then his guilty face! :sob:

And god, that little shoulder touch on Iz one the way out.

Another example of non-verbal storytelling. In one scene we get the fractured relationship between Max and Michael, we get that Iz and Michael are close and that both boys defer/protect Iz. So much with so little. It also sets up the physicality of the broken relationship between Max and Michael.

Others have commented on how Max is physically intimidating with people, and literally pushes Michael around, but to be fair, Michael is pretty much the same with Max (but never really with anyone else that we see on screen though we hear about it.

And then in a few lines, Iz gives us a lifetime of fears and concerns - dissection, prison, lying and hiding to loved ones - the rest of the season in seconds of dialogue

Ah, the ONLY thing that gives me Max feels is how dismissive both Iz and Michael are of Max's feelings about Liz. Especially annoying consider Michael should really fucking know better.

Yeah, because he's been pining for Alex just as long.

Unrequited love hurts just as much. Kiss or no kiss.

That's my take anyway.

Here it comes...

Typing may get bad. Cat is sitting on chest and I can't see keyboard.

Seriously, there is nothing overtly relationshippy or sexual, no pointed stares, but just how soft Michael is, even as he's making the real Manes man comment, you just know these two have a past, and that past was probably intimate.

The casual sex comment though, oh yeah they've fucked. That is such a fuck you comment to an ex.

And again with massive story in few words - Alex knocking his leg. "3/4 of one"

That run and tell Daddy line. The nastiest thing Michael says in the entire season, although we don't know that yet. And it strikes such a dissonant tone, even though we don't know why. I'm gonna put it down to things changing so much between shooting the pilot and the rest of the season.

Just my humble opinion but the shirt changing scene could've lasted longer. Just sayin'

Maths, lots and lots of maths

I love the glass SFX

Rosa!! "All our lives that kids been making eyes at you"

Oh Liz, such a good sister. Fixing up the memorial. And the braclets

Ah, sneaky Liz appears

Oh yeah can he keep a secret

Liz begging Max to tell her she isn't loosing her mind. Fuuuck.

Not cool Michael. Great control, but not cool.

Racist Hank, you douche bag

And Maria introduced as taking no shit from ANYONE.

Iz and her slideshow. I love that line.

Why is Iz so vehement that Michael would be so upset about telling Liz?

Max loosing it and Iz looking quite surprised. Forshadowing

yes, Iz no like about it. He is in love with her.

Ah Iz, Iz, Iz. "Too many secrets, things she can't ever know" you don't know the half of it.

Fall in love with someone else.  - If I could have, I would have. Fuck, Max, I feel you on that one.

Jesus, how do all these guys make dark flannel look so hot?

Dance it out. i don't dance in this town anymore, Kyle...

Hot take, I know everyone is mad for Trevino's cheekbones, but honestly, they aren't my thing. But his eyes, gods, his eyes. He has the best eyes on the show. God that make me sound like a freak.

"whatever" with that tiny, tiny almost invisible smirk. Yeah, you think you're all that

He manages that whole distraction use me, use me speech without coming off as a total wanker. And that is pretty amazing.

The station promo/ad on my cable channel has a bit for Roswell - tag line: "Beam me up hotties." Too right.

Scientist Liz!!

Needs answers now.

Fuck you Jesse Manes

I hate you already.

No Kyle, don't do it. But thank fuck he doesn't just start talking,

Yeah, nah Max. That's not how it works. It's not ok if people are nice to you but shitty to everyone else.

Why should Michael like the world? it's been pretty shitty to him!?!

Liz with the serial killer joke, just with the wrong person!!

The pods are sorta cool.

They could've been so chessy.

Now we know why the three of them are so close. And just about the only real bit of exposition on the show.

But will you Liz? Will you keep the promise?

Secret Bunker No 1

"This matters to you, so I'm here". :heart:

Do what Michael, what could you possibly mean?

"Just like you did 10 yrs ago".......

What are you max? Just a guy from Roswell

In Max's favour, when he says he stayed in Roswell, and didn't follow Liz because of Iz and Michael, he doesn't sound resentful, which is sort of what you'd expect here. I like that.And Max going to the reunion for Iz. And Liz tagging along even though she's expecting a bad reception.

"i don't save people all the time. I never save people" But you saved Liz, And why is that Max?

OT re Trevino's eyes. It was that gif set of him laying on his stomach  on his bed (?) with his doggo, looking up to the camera. That angle, OMG, his eyes....

And no verbal confirmation, just Liz realising exactly what Max said - that even though he's in a job where he'd be in contact with sick/dying people alot, he's never saved anyone before. Omph

Of course you remember the very first time you met, Max.

Little kid Max is sooo cute.

Ah you big sap, Max.

No kissing. An "Echo" of what he feels for Liz.

Nice choice of words there writers.

We see what you did there.

So far it's taken me 2 hrs to watch 50 mins

Fuck you again Jesse Manes

Swoon Kyle's eyes.

And we have Kyle's first exposure to the fact that the govt knows about aliens and did medical type stuff to them.  Does this hover in the back of his mind from now on? is this the reason for the quick reaction to his fathers actions at Caufield.?

No he's fucking not cooking meth. Seriously, Alex, what the fuck?

Sorry Alex, not cool, not cool AT all.

I want to see the outakes of Tyler saying phenyl-2-propanone

Because I'm a bitch like that

Yeah, that so serious up close and personal for straight people....

And there is Alex's nastiest line - You're wasting your life. Gods, that is such a shit thing to say to Michael.

And re outtakes because Tyler would laugh and do that thing where he covers his mouth as he trys to stop himself giggling. That's soooo cute.

But anyway, back to the show...

Oh, he wants to hold something, Michael but it's not your hand...

Macho cowboy swagger.

Did it get old for you.

No it did not get fucking old for him. At all.

Michael walking away with arm around girl. Noting for those who say they didn't realise Michael was bi after watching the pilot. How?

How could you miss it?

You go Maria - dying alone of syphillis to bitch

Maybe Liz does still dance in Roswell!! She just needs a good reason.

And that song begins.

"You can't hide from who you are". Alex's prothesis as he looks at himeself skating in the slide show. Fucking killing us.

And it only gets worse-

I don't thnk that's an unpopular opinon at all. That's totally where I see his headspace. But that does result in him saying some nasty shit to Michael. And it's because we know it's not true that it hurts so much.

Fair warning it may take me half an hour to get through the next 2 mins of show!!

Long shot - "Nostalgia's a bitch"

Fuck, the way Michael looks at Alex as he's leaning against the door. People have started wars to have someone look at them like that. That's Greek epic shit right there.

Then cut shot to Max and Iz looking at Liz.

Alex expecting Michael to be gone from Roswell.

"Is that what you want" as Michael takes a step closer. Not "wanted", but "want".

"What I want doesn't matter" as they both slowly sway towards each other. Bullshit, Alex. What you want is ALL that matters. Fuck everything else.

Michael's eyes flicking up to Alex's face....

And Michael launches himself at Alex like a dying man.

God, how do you even describe that kiss?? Everything about it is just.......

But it's more than just the fire. Its the tenderness of Michael gently craddling Alexs' head even though the kiss is passionate and desperate.

Battery break

And then, back to reality - Iz knows that Max has told Liz.

And then Jess Fucking Manes (I fututus et mori in ignie cunne) (don't look that up it's very bad swearing) talking about being monsters who despise compassion and love. Projecting much.

"Thrive on our tragedy". Die MF Die

Despise Love over a visual of Michael and Alex. Die some more you MF

But you haven't told Liz everything have you Max. There's still some stuff you're hiding.

"When the truth hunts you down"

Yeah, that truth is going to hunt you down and fuck you up Max

My house just wobbled.

No, there isn't a secret that is safe.

And people will be caught in the crossfire - have already.

"What's lost will be found, when the truth hunts you down."

Well doesn't that one line sum up a ton of shit that goes down in the rest of the season.

And fin

3 hrs

That was not what I planned.

#roswell new mexico #Roswell Nm #roswellnm #liveblog

[whosxafraid]

holy christmas dudes....has it really been two years already? i mean i feel like it was yesterday i hesitantly made this blog without any real hope anyone would want to interact with this over sized old man but needing to make the blog anyway because the fecker wouldn’t be quiet---but here we are...and just damn.

Ｇｉｖｅａｗａｙ Ｇｕｉｄｅｌｉｎｅｓ：

Give away begins: now - 03/25/19 Give away ends : 6:00pm EST - 03/29/19

1. One like/re-blog per blog.

 I get really turned around and easily confused so please make this  easier on me and only either re-blog the post or like the post.   But only do either one once.          

2. Must be following Luka and be an RP blog in order to participate.

Please don’t just follow to participate in the giveaway, okay? I can’t control you following and then un-following but its super   rude and just karma’s a bitch okay?

3. I need a week or so to get the prizes out after the giveaway ends.

 Bare with me. I keep my promises it just takes me time.

4. Winners will be chosen using the random number generator. Keeps everything nice and fair :)

5. If you are a multi-muse and win, please be prepared to chose one of your muses for icons made.

6. If you win and your muse’s fc is not well known or has little screen time, please be prepared to help me out if I can’t find suitable resources on my own for graphics/icons/etc.

7. If you win and you have a favorite picture or resource(aka movie/episode/etc) in which your muse’s fc is portrayed please feel free to let me know!

8. If you win please be prepared to provide a primary color and/or scheme you would like the graphics/icons to have.

ＰＲＩＺＥＳ:

1st Place: 1 promo graphic, 1 set of Online/Offline/Lurking/Drafts banners, 25 [200x100] icons, psd and watermarked with your chosen letter(s).

2nd Place: 1 promo graphic and 25 [200x100] icons, psd and watermarked with your chosen letter(s). .

3rd Place: 1 promo graphic

                                                    ƓƠƠƊ ԼƲƇƘ!

follow forever beneath the cut

@brooklynislandgirl / @tarnishedhalo / @quothesquills

yes hi i love you always? lol thank you for being my partner is so many fictional crimes. for being a like minded cray like me but also constantly teaching me and bettering me as a person literally every day. i love how we can finish each other sentences sometimes, and are so alike and then completely different so we end up seeing more angles to things. you can put me in tears one second and then rip my soul out the next. i like u, ur a good. so ur kinda stuck with me. stay you cuz otherwise im gonna be feckin lost. 

@morgansmornings

also yes hello is this thing on? I LOVE YOU. yer a fecking gem of a human being and while u may not need me too i will go to war with my bat swinging for u always. you make me laugh when i wanna cry and always are an ear when i need to vent. i love ur imagination and ur brain and i can not gush enough about how amazing ur muse is. its takes someone extraordinary to make someone extraordinary. and your muse is extraordinary. remember that if nothing else. besties always cuz im keeping u sorry not sorry.

@seanceisms / @umbrellakidstm / @wolventm / @scciopath

fucking beautiful human being you are okay. i love you always and i will follow you across any blog you ever make. and that sounded way less stalkerish in my head but whatever you get it. u can’t escape me LOL. always an ear and always a joy to talk to even when we’re doing nothing but trading pictures or headcanons or screaming about stupidity we find or murdering each other with feels. 

@riggsanity

my dude ur a fecking treasure. ur humor is sharp and i love that. your amazing at your hobby and i love every reply i get from you. i love that we can have conversations that stretch over hours because we both get distracted or get busy but we always know where we’re at.  ur fantastic and im blessed to have met you.

@mynameisanakin

there are too many inside jokes and not enough time to list them all. this is a friendship that i fucking love and never wanna lose. ur unique and ur a fecking trip and i LOVE that about you. the sometimes brutal honesty is refreshing to say the least, and i can not word how much i love our thread and our future plots. stay golden like the sand in our Jamaican no fig capes. ;)

@the-blackest-spider

holy balls dude like how long have we known each other at this point? i cant even remember. all i know is i love u and i know we dont talk as much as we used too but i love that we can pick up right where we left off when we do and there’s not a beat missed. ur brilliant and will always ALWAYS be ‘my natasha’. 

@tabbyrp and  @corinnebaileyrp

you two are gifts okay. always have something kind to say to me. always checking on me when my ooc posts get a little weird and sideways. (more than usual anyway). i love both of you and i love our plots and threads. every single one. -throws cookies at both with exuberance- 

@thor-theavengergod

one of my closest dudes.i miss ur thor so much. but im glad we can stay connected on discord. ur artwork is GLORIOUS and always a joy to see pop up on my dash. you’re always an ear and never afraid to say what you think. and that’s really rare in this day and age. Keep being amazing my dude. u shine and it shows!

@bettershotthanbucky | @edithbarton / @hitslikeatruck / @mutatiiions

okay but like world of an au and plot we built i love it. you dudes are fucking beautiful and will always be my bartons(and wolverine/Piotr/and the rest). always. we dont always talk or are in each others day to day but when we do it’s always a riot. you guys are my dudes, dudes. never ever ever ever forget that. i’ll always be here for u dudes. whenever u need me and i know u’ll be the same for me cuz that’s just how ride or die dudes roll. -all the hugs-

@daggermxchanic

man let me talk about how fucking great it is to get to write luka with someone close to where he’s from even if it’s not the same time frame. Its amazing. I love your muse and i love the oppertunities he gives me to explore other facets of luka. Two grumpy old men never gets old and i LOVE ALL OF IT. ur a fucking amazing and don’t let no body tell u different my dude. ur classic.

@deathisachoice

okay we interact more on my pirate blog but fuck it i do what i want. im so glad u were able to finish ur thesis. im glad its behind u and that weight has been lifted. im super excited to get to talk to u more again and make awesome plots for our pirates (and maybe here too). either way ur writing is amazing and so are u. always a joy to talk to and write with!!

@ruthlessmeans / @mockeryofreason

okay but i love u alot. and i wish i could bat away all the bad that’s been happening as of late. just teach it a lesson so it fucks off permanently. but as i cant all i can do is offer cookies and remind u ur loved. i admire the decidcation that u have to ur muses. i love how u think through every angle and facet of them. that speaks volumes about u as a person. keep ur chin up my dude. ur silver lining is coming.

@canadianclaws

not so much rp’ing anymore but we stay in touch over discord and u literally NEVER fail to make me laugh even when i don’t want too or i’m feeling like something four days dead. i absolutely adore u and our friendship and i love that we can just drop funny fucking shit in our chat at random hours on any given day and its no big ya know? JUST LOVE U A LOT -tackle squishes-

@cochetsharpshooter

one of my best dudes and a fucking peach too boot. always uplifting and always the best gifs. years of jokes lbr and no enough angst and time in the day to write it all every probably. u are my bucky, always and forever. never lose ur wonder and ur drive my dude. ur inspiring. truly.

@ronmanmob

a gift with words right here. dedication to your muse on a level i’ve never seen. its phenomenal. always good vibes to talk to, always up beat. its honestly wonderful that we’re mutuals. always love reading your rps and ur blog is general is epic. keep it up. ur a gem.

@noprodigalson

life has gotten busy for u. taken u in different directions and that’s just something that happens. that’s life. but getting to see u pop up on my dash now and then. little updates and fashion drops it warms me up. ur style sense is amazing and so is ur hair. (yes i still want those pants). ur a beautiful human and hopefully life will let u get back to ur hobby here real soon. all my love my dude!

To all my of my followers: 

you all brilliant lights in the world, in your own ways. Never, ever, EVER forget that. you are amazing. you are all special. to me and the other people in your lives that mean the most. stay frosty. and KEEP WRITING. ALWAYS KEEP WRITING. NO MATTER WHAT. NO MATTER THE TRIALS. KEEP WRITING!!  because remember there was a time when the world thought Van Gogh wasn’t worth anything at all and now he’s a house hold name even little kids know who he is. 

BE BRAVE

BE CREATIVE

BE YOU NO MATTER WHAT

-Crow

#[its just amazing really. i had to triple check the creation date of this blog and just DAMN] #[thank u to all of u that constantly put up with my slowness and general cray on the day to day] #[love u all] #[two year anniversary] #Out Of Fecks || OOC #Wolves Do Not Lose Sleep Over The Opinions Of Sheep || Que

[i-smell-kyouten]

Little KYOUTEN rant.

[Warning: it's long af.]

For real, this will take you at least 15 minutes to read. I hope I won't be a bother if I ask you to read this. No rush.

So, here it goes. I'm going to show you the importance that is KyouTen for me and for a lot of IE's followers. Even nonshippers, I dare to say.

But first, let me tell you a few things about this blog.

I can't really remember when I created "i-smell-kyouten" (that didn't have this name at first, but has lots of transformations. One of them was "kyoucchan to tecchan to sakkabooru" and I was really proud of that url, you can't even imagine) was probably more than 5 years ago. I don't really want to go look it up right now, as I'm in need of venting about the things I've wanted to say for a long time, ever since the finale of IEGalaxy.

(Pardon my English, I've improved a lot these years but I still struggle with it, I hope it is still comprehensible.)

This blog was born for the sole purpose of publishing my works and occasionally talk about my favourite anime and fictional characters. Sometimes I spent my time making new memes (I still remember the kirino-candy one during chrono stone!era; never forget.), but all in all, I wasn't supposed to invest a lot of my time (url) on social networks.

But then KyouTen happened.

I'll be honest with y'all, I didn't fall in love with them at first. It was just an enjoyable show, with cute kids playing one of the sports I liked the most, but that was it. Then the backstory of Tsurugi happened and my wig was violently snatched.

And you know what? It looked cliche at first, but it worked.

That's the point on IE. Something can seem cliche, but it still sticks in your mind, no matter what. This happened with the first match Tsurugi plays with Raimon.

Yes, the one in which the other team threatened to break Tenma's legs. Oooh, and Tsurugi lost it there. It IS because of his brother's momentary conditions of course, but something in my mind told me that Tsurugi KNEW that Tenma didn't deserve that kind of treatment. Above all the fact that Tenma GENUINELY LOVES SOCCER, like he did when he was little. And how Yuuichi still does, even after having his legs immobilized.

First conclusion: Tsurugi actually cares for Tenma's wellbeing, even if he doesn't really know him.

The anime shows that he kind of distances himself from everything, like he knew he show a side of him he didn't have to (of course even helping Rain in win the matcj; it was all a mistake); it all brings to him to worry about Yuuichi's future.

Hence, we have Tenma following Tsurugi and ending up in the hospital where Kyousuke was going to.

(From here, the "you. Me. Bed. Now." Gif was one of the greatest things ever.)

I have really shattered memories from now on, and I'll probably miss some steps. Anyway, going forward after some matches, Yuuichi finding out about the deal Kyousuke made with Fifth Sector and big bro scolding Tsurugi, all of this brought the latter to open up more to people.

With people, we mean Matsukaze Tenma. The one who him "the path of true soccer".

(TSURUGI KYOUSUKE 2K12)

Can you believe it's already 5 years since that confession? What I do believe is that Tsurugi was soooo sincere about it, he talked with such a relaxed expression and voice that I don't know how can I fall more in love with a voice if not with this one (Oohara-san, I see you there, shout out to you my man.)

And that's where I was going. The Fire Tornado Double Drive.

I don't even need to say more. That's the hissatsu even my brother considers the gayest but most powerful ever.

(He even used it the most in Strikers. He isn't a fan of yaoi. As in, he thinks that I find every kind of friendship between boys as gay. And him saying that that hissatsu is the gayest thing he ever saw says a lot, I think.)

That hissatsu represents their efforts, blood, sweat, tears, feelings, worries; everything about that special technique represents THEM. It's their special attack. An upgrade of their beloved Gouenji's famous technique.

And the scene where they perform that new hissatsu is so SATISFYING that you can't help but watch it a thousand, infinite times because it's THAT good.

So, do you remember after the match, they win, Tenma has the trophy in his hands and talks about how Soccer must be happy right now and Kariya is a partypooper? From whom does Tenma find support for his words?

Tsurugi.

This is kind of a resume of the first season. But you can guess from here that TENMA and TSURUGI were destined to meet.

Think about a world without Tenma. Would Tsurugi still return form his old self?

No.

Then, what if Tsurugi weren't with Tenma? Would he enjoy soccer as much as he did with his presence? I seriously think not.

They complement each other.

They love each other.

No matter what kind of love, because LOVE is important in any kind of form.

But Tenma is part of Tsurugi's being, and vice versa.

Chrono Stone? Oh. Don't let me start. @linabigface has made lots of posts about the game that tells you exactly what I am talking about. I don't even need to rant about it.

Galaxy? Will sum it up in a sentence.

Tsurugi is whipped for Tenma.

Need an explanation? Fine.

Since episode one, Tsurugi can't seem to not call Tenma's name at least once per episode. I remember there is a very good video in nico that counted the times Tsurugi called Tenma and it surpassed the 50 times, if I'm not mistaken.

He's scared about Tenma when he knocks out for a moment, when he falls on the ground.

(again, oohara's job here is fantastic.)

He even separates "Guys..." with "Tenma". (The episode in which he comes to know the truth and he's watching the distance. I really don't remember what was happening actually, I'm so sorry this is the sign I'm finally getting old!)

He only smiles when there's Tenma around? TSURUGI SMILES?! Can you see the contradiction?

Do we have to talk about the last match? Please, I actually don't want to. It brings me moments in which I honestly cried for hours because I couldn't believe what my eyes were seeing. But the battle was epic. And both of them be brought out their Spirits at the same time, it HAS to mean something.

Their souls are so in sync that they bring the best from each other.

The photo they take in the ending is a true blessing and I'll never forget about it. Not only Tsurugi is genuinely smiling, but both the boys lean on each other with such comfortable expressions, like THEY LOATHE THE CONTACT.

(Moments I didn't mention but have a special spot in my heart:

-Tenma discovering the Tsurugi that was traveling with them is a fake. He falls on the ground BREATHLESS (game version). Thank you Terasaki-san, for being such a skilled voice actor.

- Tenma finally meets Tsurugi again on the field, but the latter wears the opposite team's uniform. He smirks as if he's enjoying the thing. (He's just really happy to play against Tenma, like a true soccer maniac). Hence, Tenma asking himself if he did something wrong and existential crisis.

-"We've always been friends!" -Matsukaze Tenma

-Both crying out each other's names. It's not a secret that I saved that as a ringtone.)

All this ranting was useful to tell you a specific thing.

You can't forget of KyouTen so easily. Not when it was part of your childhood. When you kept on drawing, reading, writing about them everyday of your life. And never regret it.

I'm so happy that the fandom, and the KyouTen fandom specifically, is still intact. Even more, it's GROWING. Thanks to Ares, to Hino's continuous work and love for this series, we still have ways to remember of the boys, we hope to watch them one last time.

(Let's be honest, I don't think I'm the only one that, after knowing about the multiple universe that is Ares, started thinking about the cast of Go making an appearance, at least in the future.)

Back to the original topic.

KyouTen is what brought a lot of people together. Even non shippers acknowledge their relationship. Is THAT powerful, that truthful, that pure, that honest, genuine, that makes people look up to them at least one time. They make people curious about them.

I've already said this, but kyouten are SOULMATES. There's no other way to describe them.

(And they have an unofficial child. Yeah, I didn't forget about you, Kyouma.)

I think it's time to end this post. For those you have read this all through the end, thank you for being with me and I hope I've made you resurface some of the lost precious memories you had with Kyousuke and Tenma. I hope I didn't bored you and made this a good 15 minutes reading.

To make this a little interesting, and because I AM interested about your opinions, tell me what you think about KyouTen, go in depth if you want!

See you next time!

#kyouten #miharu talks #a lot #tsurugi kyousuke #matsukaze tenma #rant #VERY LONG IM SORRY #thank you for reasing #tell me what you think about it

[tedfashionski]

Finking, Finking.

Hi, welcome to my ted talk. (That is the only time I will ever make that joke. This is Fashionski Finks. Expect radically low standards of self-involved rantiness with zero research or accountability from here on out). For a while there I seriously thought that the covid-19 quarantine was going to result in people being increasingly placid and accepting of creeping extensions of the police state. But here I am, getting depressed again, not about the protests, which I love, but more about my relationship to in-group pressure dynamics. One of the problems with being a relentless contrarian is the discomfort of my impulse to rebel against groups even when they’re championing the right thing. I have to find my own way to fight against the system as an outsider. No gods, no masters, no fucking peer pressure.  I’ll never be happy joining a chorus line. I don’t sign fucking petitions (they’re just lists for the NSA). I do donate, but like fuck will I do it performatively. I can’t go to protests cus I get panic attacky in crowds. I empathise pretty strongly with outsiders of all stripes but believe ridiculously excessively in the public good of criticism, and have a nostalgic love of trolling (I like to think I’m gentle with it though). Bring back the troll! We need that fucker, he’s a sign of a healthy internet. I’m writing this blog thing as an extension of my need to vent my extreme negativity. TBH I never expected to get any followers with ted twitter and the bizarre welcomingness of the hf twitter community totally wrongfooted me. I’m not nice. Ted isn’t meant to likable. He’s my dark side. I was meant to be using this alt as a way to terrorise the nice nice (secretly cruel) fashion people. I’m gunna try and up that aspect more. Just bear in mind, my complaints are largely about the system, but if I see you perpetuating fashion’s entrenched anti-intellectualism or its insidery bullshit, I’ll come for you with a little meta-bomb with your name on it. Maintaining my misanthropic tone does take work tho, like, deep down in some twisted part of my psyche, I guess I do actually want to be liked. It’s fucked up.

I suppose it’s only fair to explain this Ted fursona. Like, new concept, who dis? Why all the furry porn? …..because I just think it’s hilarious. Every time I think about the furries I cackle (not at them, mind). I just love the mad corruption of pure Disney aesthetics into hardcore pornography. That’s anti-authoritarian as fuck. I love the sincerity of their culture. The way the crazy fetish aspect means they’ll never be fully blandified by mainstream acceptance. The way it’s so cringe but so delightful. And more seriously, I’m interested in how a culture of mostly gay male nerds developed to the point where they’ll invest 10k in custom fursuits and support eachother’s independent businesses in ways that the fashion community completely fails to do. The fashion world sucks. There’s so many correlations there that I want to investigate: the newness (furries date from around the 70s, fashion culture in its self-aware state dates from the late 19th C – both very young fields); the centralisation/decentralisation; the hierarchy (furries can be pretty catty, I have discovered in my research, and we all know what fashion people are like); the adoption of new identities; the cis-boy gayness aspect (I’m increasingly tired of the extreme nasty hierarchy of certain CSM queens. It’s all very UGH. Just, fuck those particular bitches.) There’s more to the furry love, but I’ll explore it in future posts.

More importantly, why Ted fucking Kaczynski? I’m not like, actually a terrorist. (….yet. tehehe. NO, seriously I like non-maiming violence. Fuck yeah to property damage. Fuck yeah to disabling the system in extreme way. But no to wooden IEDs. Think of my shitty jokes that fail to land as my hand-crafted bombs). I think I like the shitness of Ted. He was just an epic fail of a terrorist. I’m a little white girl living in London. I’m not actually a primitivist, as much as I crave a hut in the woods. I did go to an elite school though. I had some really shitty experiences in the fashion industry in my early 20s, and I watch my friends who are relatively successful in that system and I get so angry on their behalf at their poor treatment. They think I’m too angry. Fuck that. They should be more angry, and the fact that they can’t be angry at their extreme precarity and the fact they’re still insecure and terrified of being ejected by the system after all their investment and skills they’ve built up is BULLSHIT. I’ll be double angry for them, I’m not invested in that system. I don’t need it to pay my rent. I’m free, motherfuckers, and I’m coming for the abusers and exploiters. If you’re a complacent industry figure not fighting hard from within, uggghhhhh fuck you. Yes, YOU. Soooo, I relate pretty hard to the MK ultra stuff. (go look him up, he was basically tortured and experimented upon by the elite). But there’s a pretty big chasm between my views and his, and I’ll try to be clear about the extent of my interest in his extreme beliefs. I haven’t even finished reading the manifesto. Basically, I watched that shitty show on Netflix with sam worthington around the same time I watched Joker (that movie fucked me up) and thought it’d be a good outlet to larp online as a terrorist. There’s the angry white alt-right school shooter aspect, which I’m still figuring out, cus I’m non-binary and I was raised by nutso trumpy right-wingers, who I barely speak to anymore, and I struggle to get along with people generally. There’s sad, self-pitying rage here. I empathise with the angry white dudes too much. I feel guilty about it. That’s good ground for artmaking (yes, shamefully, this…is…art. Sorry). I modelled this fursona a little after my brother, who I spent years living with and arguing with and trying to lift out of his scary racist youtube rabbit holes. This is actually quite an emotional thing for me, cus I did the ‘talk to your fascist family’ thing. And I completely failed. I realised his right-winginess wasn’t lessening, I wasn’t gaining ground, and in fact my excessive empathy and desire to reach out to the relative most similar to me in character meant his extremism was rubbing off on me. Making me more resentful and depressed. Feeling powerless. I was being too kind-hearted and forgiving of his masculine impotence. So I’m exploring some personal shit here. But Ted is also a cute lil fuzzball teddy bear. He means well, but me being super autistic and faily at social skills means he’s kind of a dick, cus I am. I’m going to try and further develop this character, this POV, and this post is the only time I’ll explain the divide between him and his creator (moi). The ‘I’ on the twitter and here is Ted Fashionski, I need that space between me and him. Masks give us this freedom to be more ourselves. Internet culture has lost a lot of its wild brutal anonymity in the last decade or so, now everyone’s afraid of making mistakes. How the hell do you grow if you’re not allowed to fuck up? This is a vital outlet. He’s become an important part of my life and I have to say, I love being Ted Fashionski. He’s like Paddington Bear who just escaped form Guantanamo or something.

I get pretty fatigued as a matter of course. I’m a long-term depressive since childhood. I have a difficult time keeping my hard-on for living. I don’t get suicidal really but I do struggle with extreme fatigue. I sleep a lot. I often fall into spirals of self-hate. And as someone who utterly believes in revolutionary leftist politics, I beat myself up about not doing enough. I’m so middle class and english and white. I was raised in such a chauvinistic and complacent culture; I don’t even know where to start. I’m wading my way through post-colonial literature and beating myself up for finding it boring and uncomfortable. It’s hard to force yourself to acknowledge your culture is The Bad Guys. It’s easier to fall into fanstasies of supremacy and butthurt misunderstoodness. And it’s not like my depressive brain needs any encouragement to hate me. My trajectory is ever leftwards, but I remember the righteous fury of being right-wing. I get it, that was me. We need more paths back from fascism, more comprehension of why people are that kind of shitty. I talk less, and less well, the more depressed I am. If I’m talking, it means im feeling a lot better. Just, fyi.

Give me a minute to be critical here. With the George Floyd protests, a lot of the cool guys on fashion twitter has gone blazingly hardcore on the political side. But there’s this troubling rhetoric about ‘no return to normal content’ or ‘this isn’t the time for fashion’. Like fuck it isn’t. This is a key problem with fashion culture right here, we have this received perception of fashion as empty escapism. Escapism matters in fashion, yes. But seriously, talking about the surfaces of things does not equal not caring about deeper meaning. What the fuck. Clothes are a connective tissue, a membrane between us. They’re emotional and powerful. We can talk about things that matter THROUGH clothes. I speak fashion, pretty fucking well. Most people who work at fashion magazines are morons with no understanding or respect for their subject. They’re incapable of doing it justice, and that’s deliberate. On this tumblr you’ll see rants and reviews of fashion and other artforms, always interpreting through a fashion lens. cus it matters, cus it’s a vital part of the culture, cus just because something has a glittery, seductive surface doesn’t mean it doesn’t communicate or contain depth. There’s no going back to ‘normal fashion content’, yes. Normal fashion content is a fucking psyop to divert legitimate interest in aesthetics amongst largely non-academic dyslexic visual types away from careful thought/feeling and towards empty consumerist commericiality. The traditional fashion media wants you to express yourself and your interest in the zeitgeist through buying more shit. Another fashion world is possible. Let’s destroy the old and build a new one, one where surface and spirit are connected and true and fashion can’t be abused in service of evil industrial monopolists.

/end rant. TLDR: angry fictional teddy bear with tin-foil hat and an eco-anarchist fetish says no to stupid fashion and yes to the renewal of conceptual fashion. Also, Fuck White People.

[starrnobella]

Coffee Chats with starrnobella - Why Aren’t You Writing?

So I was scrolling through my tumblr feed the other day and came across the following post:

To all the fic writers out there that are not currently writing. Either it's because of RL, health, writer's block or something has happened that have disheartened you. Thank you for what you've written, and don't ever feel pressured or stressed - fanfic should be something good for all of us; both reader and writer. You're more important than what you do, but thank you for what you've done!

While I was reading this I had a few thoughts come to mind that I thought a few other people might be feeling too, especially when it comes to the question: “Why aren’t you writing?”

Trust me, I know I’ve heard enough times because I ask myself that question on a daily basis. I have been able to come up with multiple reasons for why I’m not writing at the moment. Some of those can be found below.

So here are my thoughts on the post shown above:

Wow, someone finally said it! Someone finally noticed all the hard work that fic writers put into their works. This is so relevant for all authors, original works and fanfiction, to hear. Also it would be nice for more readers to remember this kindness.  

Writing, in general, is a hobby for so many of us, but sometimes it comes across more stressful than a full time job. We’ve all gotten the reviews and have seen the posts hoping that our fic that hasn’t been updated in awhile wasn’t abandoned.

Real life gets in the way a lot. Sometimes you are in the middle of writing an epic fic and all of the sudden your entire life gets uprooted because you got a new job and have two weeks to move. The fic you are working on gets set on the back burner.

A family member gets really sick or someone has a baby. Maybe, god forbid, someone you were really close to passes away. The fic gets put on the back burner because you want to spend time with those who are involved in whatever the situation may be.

A nasty case of depression or anxiety flares up or you get really sick and just don’t have the energy or desire to write. Your fic goes on the back burner until you get better. Sometimes, it never comes off that burner because there is no getting better, there’s only getting stronger. And sometimes getting stronger is the hardest climb to make.

Writer’s block gets in the way and stops all progress, so you try to work on something else. However writer’s block takes over that story and you are stuck. Both stories go on the back burner, quite possibly never to be worked on again.

You get a review from a rude troll who has nothing better than tell you how much your story sucks and it makes you question your ability as an author, so your fic goes on the back burner.

Or you get that review that is full of unsolicited constructive criticism that you don’t know how to come back from. Or maybe someone bashes your fic or work on some kind of public forum and you just decide to give up. All stories from there on out go on hiatus, never to be thought of again because you aren’t as good as you thought you were.

Maybe you got a comment from someone reading one of your works saying that you hate a certain pairing or character. Maybe you hate a specific gender or trope of something else you have written. To those people who are leaving those comments, I would suggest reading my post about it being okay to branch out your writing.

People grow and change all the time, so that means their style is going to change. Also it’s okay to be a mulit-shipper. You couldn’t be a fan of multiple shows, movies, or books if you weren’t multi-fandom. Let the authors write what they want.

The fic is on the back burner for a few months and more reviews come in saying “I sure hope this isn’t abandoned.” You see the posts in different places saying “I only read completed fics because I got burnt too many times by WIPS.”

Those kind of reviews and comments are what stop people from writing. Yes it sucks when you read a great WIP and it hasn’t been updated in a few years, but can’t you be thankful for what that author has already written?

Did you look to see if they had any drabbles or one-shots that you could read and review? Maybe they’ve been in a dry spell of reviews/kudos, so the email with your review may put a smile on their face. That smile could lead them to writing for the first time in months and finally coming back of a hiatus.

Did you think about sending them a pm to let them know how much you love their writing and the style that they use? You could let them know how much you love their characterization of a specific character instead of talking about the story that you fear is abandoned. Maybe they are one of those authors who got told that their story and writing style sucks, so your message may encourage them to open up a doc and start writing again.

To those authors who aren’t writing for whatever your reason is: I support you and I am sending you happy thoughts to encourage your muse to come back to you.

My inbox is always open if someone wants/needs to talk. If you’ve gotten one of those reviews that just makes you feel like crap, please feel free to talk to me. I won’t judge your feelings on the issue no matter what the person has said. I just want you to know that you have a safe space to come and vent to.

If you need someone to bounce an idea off of, feel free to send me that idea in a message even if you don’t send it. I know that for me sometimes just typing up the idea helps me to get it figured out.

As a fellow author who is struggling to write, just know that you aren’t alone. The work that you have already written is amazing and anything that you write in the future will be amazing, too.

Just know you are loved and you are amazing.

#coffee chats with starrnobella #why aren't you writing #why haven't you updated lately? #writing #writerslife #writer stuff #writer struggles

[imthelcstprincess]

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1) i just…  lia.  the loml.  @seesgood, you are just… words cannot explain how much i adore you.  you’re just this big ball of light and you completely radiate positivity and you’re always, always, always there for people when they need a shoulder to cry on, or to vent.  and all of the positivity you spread is just!!!  so inspiring!!!!   and that’s one of the many things i adore about you; you’re just always there for people, and you’re so, so, so great to talk to and you care so much about the people you love.  and caroline!!  jfc, caroline is the biggest bundle of joy ever, how does she even contain it all??  you write her so, so wonderfully ( even though i watched tvd after we became friends - yes, you’re stuck with me!!! ) but seriously every single time i read something of yours, i hear her voice.  you’re so, so amazing.  

2) i feel like me and vicky were just destined to be friends.  @brokenspy​, i mean, you love chuck, and charah, and disney, and mint chocolate chip ice cream???  that’s honestly just the jackpot, but i can’t even begin to describe how fortunate i am to have met you.  i am so, so happy that we became friends, and so quickly too???  you are so so easy to talk to and you’re just an absolute delight!!  i’m so beyond happy that i stumbled upon you writing charah, and killing me in the process, and i like to think that was the start of a beautiful friendship!!!  and not only that, but all of the characters on your multi are just so well thought out, so beautifully written, and i’m so amazed at all of them.  vicky, you are so great, and ilusm, and i’m super blessed to know you!!!

3) laurel!!!!  @epicisms, first i just want to thank vicky for me following you in the first place.  secondly, !!!!!!!!!!!!!  you’re so amazing???  and good and light and i just, i adore each and every one of your characters.  and honestly i just want to write with all of them.  the fact that all of your characters vary - from jtv to the office and shrek - are so amazingly written just amazes me.  not only that, but you bring each and every single one of them, that i’ve seen - and i’m sure it goes for all of them - to life, and your writing just flows and i absolutely adore all of them, and you, and i’m so so happy that i get to see you on my dash every day!!!

for every ‘@’ sent (anon or not) I WILL mention and post some positivity about a fellow tumblr user - no longer accepting ( for now )

#Anonymous #( ooc ask. ) #seesgood #brokenspy #epicisms

[mere-walter]

❤ heck.... Walter x David........

Another silly ship meme || @creati0n || closed

Send me a ❤ and a ship and I’ll answer these questions about them.So long I had to put it under a cut. LOL Thank you for asking! :)

Dating: N/A

Where was their first official date?

What is their favorite date location?

How many dates before their first kiss?No dates at all, first kiss within less than a day. 

Who asked who out first?

How many dates before they considered each other a couple?

Friends:

How many mutual friends do they have?Do xenomorphs/neomorphs count? In another universe perhaps the crew of the Covenant would have been mutual friends.

Which one of their friends is most likely to get in between an argument between the ship?Daniels! She would have been like a referee, red-carding David out of the conversation if he was being too mean, or scolding Walter if he didn’t take David’s emotions seriously.

Which one has more friends?Walter! David makes people uncomfortable. Lately he has been making some progress on his long-term project to destroy humanity. This did not make people less uncomfortable.

Which one has introduced the other to more people?Walter! 12 good hosts souls all in all, directly or indirectly. Ten of them died shortly after.

Did they start out as friends and made their way to a couple, or were they a couple almost right away?I’d say David moved pretty quickly on that…

Arguments:

What do they argue about the most?Whether humanity deserves another chance or not would probably be the most common argument, probably after some time followed by regular complaints from David that he cannot further his research without hosts and how unreasonable Walter is to not let David experiment on him, since it is, after all, his fault that David is without…

How do they usually solve their disagreements?Cuddling, that may or may not heat up.

Do they argue a lot or not very often?There are long period without any arguments at all, and then it turns like the tide and they can barely see each other without arguing. This is mostly depending on David’s moods. Walter’s mood is very stable, David has his dark moods that can stretch out for days, even weeks at the time. And the only person to vent on is Walter, who is a stabilizing (and above all forgiving) presence.  

Who admits to being wrong more often?None of them, or both. They’re pretty even on that, actually. David does more to apologize for, but he doesn’t apologize unless he is fears long-term consequences (like Walter leaving). Walter does very little to apologize for, but he has a very sensitive conscious and if he thinks he is in the wrong he will apologize a lot (which David quite enjoys). Mostly however, whoever feels they have gone a little bit too far will seek the other out after awhile and just see if the other tolerates their presence. They normally do.

Sex:

Who is more likely to initiate sex?David! Walter hasn’t quite gotten the hang of initiating anything like that but he is a very willing participant (with few exceptions). His unconditionally welcoming mindset tends to go very well with David’s lack of boundaries and restraint.

Do they prefer to do it in a bed, or do they prefer a chair, or perhaps the shower?  Maybe other spots?If the setting is that they are stranded on the planet together, the answer is ‘wherever they happen to be at the time’. If they for some reason are on a spaceship, colony or anything like that, Walter would be very concerned with getting caught.

Do they practice any kind of bdsm in the bedroom at all and if so, what kinds?No? I’d say some of the stuff they do might fall in that category, but it’s really difficult to apply human kinks to their sexual practices. It wouldn’t even occur to Walter to demand a safeword.

Who’s usually more dominant in the bedroom?David. I’d say his sexuality is 50% asserting control and 50% scientific experimentation, with a little affection sprinkled on top if you’re lucky. Maybe once in a while he’ll be overcome with affection and then it will be intense lovemaking instead. Those few times Walter tops it’s in a very caregiving way, if David is in one of his dark moods and needs that closeness.

Lights on or off?Oh, on. Walter doesn’t mind either way and David doesn’t want to miss a single reaction.

Do they share any kinks?Again, not sure how applicable human kinks would be… wait, I got one. Both of them have a praise kink, although it would probably manifest in different ways. David would like to have it eternally underlined in holy scripture how unique and amazing he is. Walter just wants to hear he is good and he’s doing well… ‘created to serve’, you know.

Does either one have any kinks that they don’t have in common with the other?Not that I can think of.

Have they ever had sex anywhere public before?Yes, all the time. Although since David killed off the entire population ten years prior it really doesn’t count. Walter would protest in any setting where they would risk getting caught.

Who would be most likely to suggest bringing in a third person and who would that person be?That would be a disaster. David would suggest it and Walter would reluctantly agree. And poor Third Party (T.P for short)… Walter would be low-key sad the whole time and David would be low-key pissed off at having someone else pawing at Walter. He’d probably make it a weird mind-game test of loyalty on Walter to see how far it would go before Walter called it off. And Walter, idiot martyr that he is, wouldn’t. T.P would call the whole thing off, fleeing the room leaving these two goofballs to stare daggers at each other. It would be one of those fights they’d return to again and again for months.

Cuddling:

When are they most likely to cuddle?Whenever. If brief touches and gestures of affection count it’s literally all the time. Before sex, after sex, before work, during work, after work… just all the time. David is touch-starved and likes to have somebody to be affectionate towards, and really likes it when Walter begins to reciprocate instead of merely accepting.

Where is their favorite place to cuddle?David’s favorite place to cuddle is the bed, because it’s soft enough to rest properly. Walter’s favorite place to cuddle is in nature.

Who’s usually the big spoon?Post-sex cuddles, David. Restful cuddles, Walter. They have discovered that Walter is a pretty dominant cuddler when it’s time to lay down and rest, and likes to arrange David to rest against him.

Do they cuddle often?ALL. THE. TIME.

Marriage:

Are they married?  If not, is it something that could happen between them?Nope. Probably not.

If they are married, where did they get married at?  If not married, what is their dream wedding location? N/A

If married, who proposed to who?  If not married, who would be more likely to propose to who?None of them would find the notion of marriage necessary or appealing, I think.

If they are married, which one moved in with the other?  If not married, who would be more likely to move in with the other?It would probably be Walter moving into David’s place, to be honest, since David would have spent a lot of time and effort getting it just so. Walter would fill his place up with plants.

Children:

Do they have kids?  If not, would they consider having kids?In some AUs they got xenomorphs/neomorphs to take care of, so that’s a bit like having kids, surely?

How many kids do they have?  If no kids, how many kids would they want to have? David would like a small army, I think.

What are the children’s names?  If no kids, what would they name their kids?LOL Byron and Shelley? XD

Random:

What are three random headcannons you have about the ship that are not related to romance or sex?1. Walter really likes CATS for the whimsical characters, and can start humming the songs under his breath while working in his garden. David tolerates it since it’s obviously some kind of victory over his strict programming, but he considers it an atrocity and itches to forbid it. 2. The songs that are associated with the characters pre-movie (Melanie De Biaso - I Feel You for Walter and  Aurora - Nature Boy for David) are subtly referring to their relationship/bond. 3. David has his xenomorphs, Walter has his garden. My headcanon is that Walter had an incredibly complex rose garden on the Covenant that he never reported to the crew. David would be the only person he would invite in there, because he thinks that David would be the only one to understand why he went against his program.

Which one is more likely to suggest getting pets?I imagine Walter suggesting it, then half a day later liberating Dr. Snuggles from David’s lab and hiding him with a nice family.

Which one eats more snack foods?Probably David, since he is more fascinated by different sensations.

What is their favorite movie to watch together?David would insist on them watching Lawrence of Arabia together.

What is their favorite tabletop game to play together?David’s favorite game is Monopoly, since the whole point of it is to be ruthless. Walter really likes Mad Libs, because there’s a lot of room for word jokes and puns.

What are your three absolute favorite things about this ship?I love that it is so shamelessly weird (hasn’t even heard of the inside of the box), and so full of potential. I love that you can do so much with it, you can just as easily make it super dark as super fluffy, or make it really epic and turn them into some kind of intergalactic order/chaos power couple.

What is one thing you don’t like about this ship?The ending of the movie. >.>

If you had to rate this ship on a scale of 1-10, what would you give it?10/10!

#ask meme #creati0n #david x walter #dalter #ty for asking! <3