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#yes its me ik its weird but also i dont give a shit
snekdood · 3 months
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me, on the one hand: its weird to gatekeep people identifying with characters just bc they don't share their same race
also me, upon watching a video of someone wanting the saiyans to be in ssj form 24/7: you just want them to be blonde with blue eyes all the time bc you're mad that otherwise you can't project on to them since they're likely asian 🙄
#ig these aren't mutually exclusive stances but still#in fact if anything it bolsters my former stance bc why tf cant you just identify with them as they are#anyways ive been holding this back bc of whiney people on here but yes i kin with bruno from encanto and theres nothing you can do#to stop me.#if i relate to him in every other way ASIDE from being fuckin colombian then thats a very stupid and arbitrary line to draw im sorry and#i also dont care about your weird gatekeeping#its almost like familial abuse isnt restricted to ones race and also race is fake but anyways#fuck your weird ''white' people cant imprint on these characters' shit like. you're literally trying to stop ppl from seeing themselves#in other races. how tf do you think thats beneficial to stopping racism like AT ALL?#me when i hate when 'white' ppl put themselves in my shoes and try to empathize with me#me when i reinforce the racial binary and act like its real and not made up by white supremacists and pretend im not contributing#to white supremacists' delusion that race is real#theres literally a woman who would conventionally be recognized as white in the movie but ig gingers cant imprint on her at all or w/e#bc they dont speak spanish or something idk. is it about skin tones? bc babe give me a couple of days on the beach and ill look like bruno#dsjhfsvdhjvgfhdsvhgdf#and no i dont believe you if you try to say that the abuse he faced was somehow unique to colombian culture or something.#if anything that kinda abuse was prolly passed down from europeans who colonized the lands so i have even MORE of a reason#to feel like i can identify w it since im mostly of 'european' decent ._.#at least as far as ik.#('european' is in quotation marks bc its a place w a lot of different types of people some of which aren't recognized as white by#some white supremacists even and idk what im mixed with so)
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newtkive · 2 months
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pixels [newt x reader - modern text au]
ch. 1 - the gc birth
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in which two online friends navigate a romance through a minecraft groupchat with their stupid friends
or, newt, the quiet, stoic boy, and y/n, the bubbly girl both curse the world for keeping them apart, but at least they can send each other cute emojis and hope the other doesn't notice their blossoming feelings.
warnings: strong language, mutual pining, none really.
➥ m.list
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notes: hi :p im very new to writing on tumblr (but ive always been a reader) so pls bare w me! and im trying to revert back to being 14 (im 23 lols..) so im revisiting my old favs including the maze runner/thomas (bc i binged the artful dodger and now im obsessed again). there will be non-text chapters in the future as well, when everyone eventually meets. this will be newt focused so enjoy !! also everyone is like a realistic age from 23 to 28
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THE GLADE
[ 7:45 PM ]
alby added minho, y/n, newt, tommy, and gally
alby: Hello, guys.
minho: wtf is this
newt: uhhhh
tommy: hi :3
y/n: so this is why you asked me for my # in private
gally: i didn’t consent to this when i gave you my number
newt: don’t give strange men your number y/n
tommy: oh that’s y/n?
alby: Wait, Newt you had Y/N’s number already??
newt: yea
tommy: o.O
y/n: i gave it to him like two weeks after we met lmao
tommy: SO HE HAD YOUR NUMBER FOR A YEAR AND I DIDNT????
y/n: well he asked and you guys didn’t :p
newt: lmao
minho: ik he smug as fuck rn
not u asking for a girls number lmao simp
newt: stop
y/n: we all talk in discord anyways so i didn’t really think about it
plus you guys are friends irl so idk
it felt kinda weird to insert myself heh
minho: we’ve known you for a year and a half y/n
we play games all the time
call all the time
we even send packages and shit
you’re very much considered our irl friend
y/n: REALLY?? 🥺🥺
tommy: internet friends are real friends 😍❤️
minho: the heart eyes are crazy
but yes dude
newt: of course you’re our close friend. just cuz we live near each other and you’re a bit far away doesn’t mean we don’t adore you
minho: ADORE IS CRAZY LMFAO
but real ig
y/n: AWWWWW YOU GUYS LOVEEE MEEEEEE
hahahahha
HAHAHHAHJFIEKMGOR
I LVOE YOU GIYYYYSSSS IM PUTTING ALL OUR MINECRAFT BEDS TOGETHER LATER
gally: i do not want my bed to be infested by you guys
minho: gally sleeps in the corner
gally: no i dont i sleep in my mansion
y/n: cherry blossom mansion*
gally: and you sleep in a shed
y/n: cherry blossom shed* its pink and that matters.
tommy: love you y/n 😊🥰
y/n: love you tommy <3333
minho: that’s actually nasty stop now
y/n: u mad ur unloved
i love how the gc name is our minecraft town name :((
newt: aw it is
minho: can we talk about why tf this was made when we have a perfectly good discord
alby: I’m done with Discord.
newt: you got your shit hacked didn’t you mate
minho: mate 💀💀
british people so crazy
alby: Yes maybe..
I don’t want to make another.
y/n: or your old ass doesn’t know how to
minho: LMAO REAL
alby: Gonna ignore that. But I am getting too old for it. I have a new promotion at work so that means I won’t have time to play with you guys as much anymore. So I decided to make this groupchat in hopes to talk to you guys more to make up for it :)
minho: every group always has the old head with the job 💀💀
newt: minho admitting he’s jobless
minho: you work at a library be so fr rn
newt: i have an income. you have a room in your grandmas basement. we are not the same.
gally: LMFAOOOOOOO
minho: stfu :////
y/n: AWWWWWWW ALBYYYYYYY
tommy: YAAAY!!!!
im going to text you guys all day
tell you every meal
every thought
every interaction will be meaningful and glorious
newt: you are 24 years old you don’t have to do all that
minho: no fr im turning off my phone if he starts this shit
why not just do it before in the discord ??
tommy: easy access now and i tried before but stopped since no one really replied..
y/n: i say we all do it :D i will too tommy
newt: ok second thought that’s fine
minho: .
gally: that’s wild.
y/n: YAAAAAY!!!!!!!!!! NEWT YOU GO FIRST
newt: first with what
y/n: say what u ate today
newt: didn’t say i’d do it.
tommy: i ate muffin, monster energy drink, and hamburger :3333
you guys next
minho: that’s all you had bro..
y/n: hot cheetos and french fries and coffee :D
minho: ??????? BRO
how are you guys alive
y/n: it's my day off and no class so i just wanna rot in bed and that means no cooking
newt: please eat and drink water.
like for real and document it
y/n: ok wait
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there
tommy: yum!
minho: y/n..
newt: cereal does not count
y/n: I DONT HAVE ENERGY TO MAKE ANYTHING OKAY
im a 23 year old broke college student my fridge is bare
newt: alright what do you want?
y/n: wym?
newt: like if you could pick.
minho: that’s so cruel 😭😭 just making her imagine it
i like it go on.
tommy: i want chick fil a
minho: i knew you hate the gays
tommy: I AM THE GAYS?????
y/n: ugh that does sound good
mmmm chickem sandiwh waffle fry I Want that Os mYch
newt: that’s what you would order?
y/n: mmmcm yeahshhhhh
newt: ok
minho: that’s it?
i thought soemthing would happen
tommy: me too
like a spell! magic 🪄
y/n: sigh
my cereal tastes bad now
newt: well it is cocoa puffs.
minho: L cereal
y/n: DTOP SAYING L ITS SO ANNOYITIGJNGGGGG
minho: she so madddd 😂😂 L
newt: you're annoying minho
minho: youre just saying that bc shes saying that
newt: no ive always said it. and i will continue to. youre fucking annoying
minho: who bought you your coffee yesterday
newt: ???
myself
and i paid for yours too
im the one with an income
minho: .
well i didnt think youd remember that well.
newt: it was literally yesterday.
minho: yeah but ur old
newt: IM THE SAME AGE AS YOU
minho: yeah but im 🤗✨ 26 ✨🤗and youre... 26😬😔
tommy: guys stop fighting
newt: we aren't fighting
maybe this gc was a bad idea
tommy: NO!!!!!!!!!
y/n: NOOOO!
tommy: this is like y/n is here w us irl
y/n: awwwwwwwwwwwwwww
minho: no it's not. we would smell a foul stench if she was
y/n: i ahte you sooo bad.
wait there is a knock at my door im scared
newt: answer it
minho: aren't you supposed to say don't open the door for strangers ????
newt: well usually yes
y/n: no im not expecting company
newt: just do it pls
y/n: ok :D
minho: bruh..
i hope she gets robbed and u feel bad forever newt
newt: why would you want that
minho: bc she owes me money
newt: YOU owe ME money
minho: yes but i have a good reason she just wanted robux
tommy: Y/N DONT DO IT!!! I HAVE SEEN DATELINE
y/n: :o....
tommy: Y/N?????????
OH GOD THEY GOT HER
minho: why would she text a silly face if she got got
tommy: clearly its a surprised face
maybe its not her
its like those cut out magazine letters murderers use
y/n: who got me chick fil a!!!!!!!!!!
minho: me
newt: you literally did not
minho: shut up
y/n: newt it was u i see ur name on the receipt
newt: well
y/n: :(
newt: what why are you sad?
minho: im hungry too
y/n: u spent ur money :(
newt: you're hungry are you not?
minho: she's not but i am
y/n: yeah but..
i feel bad you shouldn't have
newt: just eat it or i'll be mad
minho: i think i want red lobster
newt: it's really no big deal y/n
y/n: thank you newt :(((((
newt: you're welcome
go eat and watch ur show or smth
minho: i owuld love to eat and watch a show rn <33 ohhhh im starving
newt: can you shut up
gally: im muting this gc if this means i have to deal with your guys' shit more than usual now.
minho: thank god
newt: good
tommy: good
y/n: good
the food is good too <3
newt: good.
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autistic-af · 7 months
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i hate that unmasking is so fucking difficult. for real. i used to be like "ehhh...i dont mask. i definitely dont" well yes i do...thats just me being in denial and im trying to unmask and be myself, but then i have this fear that im so childish (im 29), like my behaviour and mannerism is that of a youth, and a child, like it switches.
i feel like thats deep down who i am, a legit juvenile. like my mannerisms if i completely drop it, then im gonna be seen as a childish person who needs to grow up or who has "gone backwards" which i havent. i never had, its just who i am. but dropping it for others is difficult because of judgement n shit.
like i bought a bluey colouring book and mum was like "you really buying that?" and yea ik she thinks i gone backwards but idk how to explain anything to them.
i feel like this whole autism in and of itself is very confusing even for me. like i am totally lost in this diagnosis and i been diagnosed since about 16 or so i believe, so it has also been quite some time.
but yea additionally to trying to unmask and whatnot, i also feel like people think im faking it. hell even i feel like im faking it. its a whole struggle.
I totally understand, Nonny. And this is a very common feeling.
I'm 40 and I collect stuffed animals, colouring books, wear Lilo and Stitch clothes, and collect kids books like the Complete Beatrix Potter and Winnie the Pooh. I also adore cartoons.
This has nothing to do with being "childish". Instead, as an autistic, I have never adhered to the social requirement of giving up things I enjoy.
Adult stuff can be boring. Cartoons are just easy fun. If you gave me an option of an adult TV show about sex, dating issues and divorce vs SpongeBob? I'm going with SpongeBob.
So, you're not weird. You're not childish. You're autistic.
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dorims · 6 days
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What kinks do u think Roman has?
I just know they’re weird (and I’d still be into them)
so if i have to be honest, ive never really thought about roman's kinks 🥲 HOWEVER you know how he shamed tom for swallowing back his cum after tabs sucked him off?? yeah he's definitely into that and you can't tell me otherwise.
and without further ado! a little brainstorm under the cut <3
tags. VERY SUGGESTIVE, MDNI, an overall masochistic vibe, degradation/praise, allusions to cheating, impact play, mentions of roman's low self-esteem
a/n. psa im not familiar with writing smut and if i gotta be honest im pretty vanilla myself so...do with that what you will LMFAO
masochism
hes a masochist, we been knew
its pretty much the central theme of these hcs too
degradation/praise
so definitely degradation bc its roman, cmon. but for some reason i cant help but think that he's really into being praised too?
could be wrong but i feel like he'd only let himself be praised after he's developed a solid bond with his partner, and it'd probably go from being degraded to a mix of degradation and praise to full praise in some occasions.
if theres not a smooth transition i feel like he would panic and shut himself out. like it feels too intimate or smth.
cuckolding (controversial)
i think he would like it bc it hurts. like his partner sleeping with someone else is kind of like a slap to the face
a situation that has him constantly thinking 'I'm not enough' and that kind of hurt i think he gets off on bc masochism <3
but thats only maybe with the condition he somehow gets the chance to prove to himself and to you that he is better than the person you're sleeping with
OR he's into 'pseudo-cuckolding' so he likes the idea that you COULD go and sleep with someone but you dont, kinda like what happened with grace and the server
SO MAYBE IM WRONG and he would actually hate this but you know, im trynna brainstorm
phone sex (is this even a kink?)
only the sound of your voice and his,
kinda like the romangerri situation LMFAO
because think about it, this way you dont have to actually see him. that would comfort him in some way because of his low self-esteem and self-image issues. that way you can picture anything you want and not be disappointed with the real thing, you know?
i also think that phone sex (or bathroom door sex????) would help him open up until he grows comfortable enough in the intimacy the two of you are building
love how this are supposed to be smut hcs yet im making them slightly angsty
impact play
i think this might be a little self-explanatory, but yes, getting hit in a sexual context turns him on
only when he is receiving ofc
dom/sub dynamics
he's a massive sub and no one can tell me otherwise
its literally on the show TT
ANYWAY, he's probably bratty at first but then just gives in to your every demand because he aims to please
still likes to get on your nerves though, like a lot and i think thats because even when he's been an annoying piece of shit in bed you still take care of him and that reinforces, in his head, that, sure he's being unbearable but that doesn't take away the fact that you care for him and love him, ya know?
also, he would probably call you mommy/daddy at first jokingly but the it kinda sticks??
freud would have a field day with roman roy
OOC BUT FUN TO THINK ABOUT: vanilla sex
hear me out, ik roman's character is pretty much the personification of the words 'kinky mf' but idk
i think vanilla sex would suit roman SOO much. i think for roman to reach the point of having sex with ANYONE there needs to be a established foundation of trust and respect and perhaps love too
and i know sex doesn't necessarily mean love, but we are talking about a man who's definition of love is pain - like love HAS to hurt for it to be love - and undoubtedly he would twist his perception of sex to fit that same definition of love because love is a branch of intimacy and so is sex, you feel me?
i just feel like it would show roman another side of intimacy. all gentle and kind and giggly sex and intimacy doesn't necessarily have to hurt for it to feel good.
like imagine just plain vanilla sex and its banter and laughter and quips and help me lol
vanilla sex and aftercare would solve all his problems, i said what i said /hj
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weirdcat1213 · 8 months
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YEY THE HORRORS i mean YEY THE BOOKCLUB :D
thoughts on volume 6 (oh boi we're almost halfway someone hold me pls)
chap 1:
-OH MY GOD ITS HIM I FORGOT ABOUT HIM FOR A MOMENT (not in general, ik he's in 98)
-HEY HIS WINGS MAY BE CREEPY BUT THEYRE ALSO BEAUTIFUL TO ME >:[
-HOWEVER i love how yeah they are scared af but also get that vash as a person is not bad and they don't leave his side
-WHY ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT YOUR BF LIKE THAT STOP STOP STOOOOOP. IDC THAT HE IS A LITERAL LASER CANON HES STILL JUST A LITTLE GUY
-are we...supposed to notice how bad the state of the gun is or...?
-nono brandon is right, i would also not give good guns to cops
-vash i fucking swear-
-SHUT UP YOU FUCKING COP >:[
-BRO WTF
-YEAH BRANDON CALL HIM OUT
-MY FAVORITE WEIRD CREATURE IS HERE
-ok in my 1st read didnt get that, idk why but i was confused about meryl getting worried for some reason. but she has a (sad) point. will one day the ptsd related to violence and guns be enough to make vash not shoot his gun? shes asking an interesting question. shes literally asking how much can vash take imo.
-wait so...was the replacement gun...the one in stampede??? (i will compare them later)
-DONT LOOK AT ME WITH THOSE GENTLE EYES MAN CMON
-I didnt notice he took the punisher lmao
chap 2:
-:c wolfwood having nightmares its not even a hc, IT IS CANON
-NOT THE FLASHBACK OF VASH CRYING BLOOD OUCH NO PLS NO
-:c im not even mad at wolfwood calling vash a monster cuz it must be fucking TERRIFYING but it still hurts :c
-you could...but youre not gonna
-"so yeah you cant be there for every problem in the pla- HOLD UP WHERE ARE YOU GOING"
-lmao meryl is like me fr
-this time i got most of the fight but i think we can all agree the mpv was the table
chap 3
-YEY LEGATO IN THE.....metal handbag?
-YES ELENDIRA FUCKING READ HIM
-OH MY GOD HES HERE HES HERE OH GOD NO
-i remember i was so confused i didnt realize THATS HIS FUCKING TONGUE
-also did double fang kill trail of death?
chap 4:
-OH I LOVE THIS SCENE SM. i also hate walking in a place with a shit ton of people
-YES IT IS BABY, THATS THE SAME CHILD YOU [so so redacted] WOOOOOOOOO (i love this chapter)
-oh...yeah that...oh
-"we cant survive without her power, neither can you" dude...dont...just dont
-ah yes. the hair. yeap. just a cool artistic decision. yeap.
-also i forgot how fucked up the last run was here
-oh he felt it, i saw that in his eye
-oh so he also went apeshit....ohhhhh. ok so if vash went apeshit cuz of a physical fight or flight reaction (I THINK) did knives go apeshit cuz of hate? the physical need to kill people in revenge? nice
-BRO WDYM "why not just end this crusade?" YOU JUST SAW WHY HE WOULD NEVER END IT
-oh that was his last straw. one thing is him being tricked by a human but that lie affecting his brother? the one thing he's trying to protect (yes ik he's not doing the greatest job at it) from humans? yeah no you gotta die
chap 5:
-NO. NO. NONONONONONON NOT THIS CHAPTER NO
-I HATE THE METAPHOR ALREADY (i love it. i want to yell at nightow my thoughts about it. i will never be normal about it)
-pls no. im begging you. pls dont make me read this again. this is when my sanity starts to break into little raggedy pieces of paper
-i just notices this change happens cuz he got HIS MEMORIES BACK WHAT IF I ENDED IT ALL
-i dont want to read anymore
-its just. so fucking hard. like ik we say hes jesus. but at the same time jesus never felt like that. jesus was born without sin but in vash's eyes he is full of sins and no one can forgive him. bro, honey, god would forgive you anything. you are his favorite im sure. but no matter the arguments for the allegory vash can never be jesus cuz he carries the pain of his "sins" everyday PLUS THE ONES FROM THE HUMANS. idk. im sad and tired. my baby. its ok i forgive you. and im sure rem forgives him. im sure. im sad
-anyway, back to the kinda normal thoughts
-also i think vash thinking he has to forgive himself is kinda flawed. like instead of forgiveness he has to accept what happened and i think those are different things. ofc yeah july was messed up but he never intended to do it. idk
-ANYWAY
-huh, those speakers look like eyes
-cant even swallow in misery in peace anymore lmao
-:c not the day drinking
-i think thats vash talking but yeah....nothing is easy for my guy. hes kinda right, better than crying ig...
-i prefer spike-isms but i will also take needle noggin-isms thank u
-that man can move in such unnatural ways *hears the uncanny vash people cheer at a distance*
-oof, the ptsd got meryl
-also the question is not whether vash was going to take the bullet or not, the real question is how hard does that question makes me cry
- SHUT UP SHUT UP SHUT UUUUUUUUUUUUUP
-OOF, i mean i 100% get meryl but OOF
-also YES THATS WHAT I FUCKING MEAN. AND I READ THIS ON [redacted] A FEW WEEKS AGO. THE BALANCE BETWEEN EXTREMES ITS JUST NULL, ITS NOT A COLOR AT ALL. his love and faith in humanity vs the pain they cause him...that balance creates a colorless emotion and IM SAD ABOUT IT.
-i hate that final page. i fucking hate milly protecting meryl from her memories while comforting her while protecting her from the rocks, i hate the people still insult vash even when he was long gone, i hate to see the children who saw the same thing as their parents try to convince them to stop because they know vash would never hurt people on purpose only to be ignored..and more than anything i hate vash apologizing for something he has no control over.
-ALSO I ALSO FEEL LIKE CRYING VASH-
[let it be on the record that i needed a minute to continue with the volume]
chap 6:
-OH NO IT STARTS
-"how could i have known?" youre telling me you spent years studying yourself and other plants and never saw one with black hair? really? (im not saying its a plot hole, im saying he was too distracted being a dick)
-so that was his imagination im assuming
-TESLA MENTION WE WIN
-OH GOD OH NO PLS GET ME OUT OF HERE NO PLS NOT THIS
-i love her dialogue with the funny glasses lmao, she really was the only mom ever
-oh..here come the tears
-oh right..they used to be like this
-oh...oh god
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dokjvs · 3 months
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𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐌𝐄 ! CERTIFIED GETO ‘n REINER LOVER!
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TO START.. my name is Sarah! my pronouns are she/her, I’m straight and born on feb 11! proud 🇩🇴🇭🇹! i’m black and super extroverted!
I easily detach from people, like you could annoy me for the simplest thing and i’d avoid or block you. I can’t see you the same way after😭
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LIKES!
i love love LOVEEE geto, zack fair, reiner, könig, dokja and mizu they have my fucking heart like muah.
ESPECIALLY DOKJA! like where do you think i got my username idea from?😭😭
but my favs change and vary sm its crazy😭
I love love all of u who like and comment on my posts bro like WHATTT😭 not only did you like my post but you COMMENTED TOO?
you basically want to get married and i gladly accept🥰
okay switching the topic, i rlly rlly love editing😭 its just something about expressing my love for a certain character through music and shakes like oh my god. (guys if you know who i am plsss say hi ily)
I adore writing bro its my passion and i rlly feel happy to express my feelings through pen and paper😭 i can say sm more through text or paper than in real life!
I LOVEE plantain and takis! NOT TOGETHER (😭😭)
like guys you have to try takis and cream cheese if you haven’t already like OH MY GODDD
all i’ve eaten as a child was plantain, rice, salami and etc but gosh i get so excited when my mom drops to visit in the week and cook me my favourite meal😭💕💕
i love jujutsu kaisen and food wars sm😭 idc what anyone says, i know food wars had really weird scenes but its rlly the characters that get me. I love soma and his determination sm and i could rant all day abt all the fine characters but i rlly am too lazy to type this out😭 i’ll watch all 5 seasons over and over again!!
I love to talk to y’all online😭 whether its liking your fanfics or commenting on them like yes bro it feels so nice to see a fanfic representing what i’m feeling exactly. OR OR when we’re talking about black fem! reader like WHAAA???
Like thank you SO MUCH for directing this wonderful fanfic to us black girls like c’mere and lemme smooch you😭
I LOVE BRENT, FRANK, TYLER, BRYSON, MIXED MATCHES, CLARA LA SAN, ETC. 💕💕
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DISLIKES!
I hate stuck up ppl sm😭😭 like no one gives a shit about how many followers you have, you’re not all that.
Also i’m sorry but most of the time i dont have any shame expressing myself in the internet like if i’m pissed i’ll make the biggest fuss ever just as i could ignore you for the simplest thing.
how can you not make the effort or time for your precious followers? like to me that’s just unbelievable, i don’t believe this.
WHEN I SEE MY FAV CHARACTER BEING SHIPPED WITH SOMEONE ELSE. LIKE HUH??? all i’ve known is them x me bro there’s nothing too hard innit😭
I dont care bro i get soooo salty i go straight up to janitor ai and make the most heartbreaking scenario only to be comforted after (pathetic ik😭😭)
omg i DESPISE threesomes. like what. i can’t even describe my hatred for this i’m sorry.
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FAVES !
food wars — soma, ryo, takumi, ikumi, shun, megumi, shinomiya, dojima, alice, satoshi, megishima, somei, rindo, tsukasa, kuga, joichiro, akira, asahi.
jujutsu kaisen — geto, gojo, toji, itadori, megs, utahime, choso, junpei, kokichi, nobara, mai, nanami, shiu, shoko, todo, yuki, ino, hajime, etc.
Attack on titan — reiner, connie, jean, levi, sasha, mikasa, armin, porco, pieck, hange, floch, niccolo, etc..
Fairy tail — natsu, gray, erza, sting, rogue, jellal.
My hero academia — bakugo, izuku, denki, sero, all might, jirou, mina, kirishima, midnight, aoyama, momo, nejire, tamaki, mrs. joke, mei, camie, mirko, shiggy, monoma, hawks, endeavor etc.
Blue eye samurai — mizu, taigen, m. keji
avatar the last airbender — zuko, sokka, suki, azula, toph, iroh.
the legend of korra — korra, kuvira, bolin, iroh, kai.
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oooo if you ever wanna talk abt caters system my dms are always open!!! :D also i wish you luck on your journey, ik how confusing it is in the beggining (i have did) ,,,, im sure youll figure it out, slowly! and i know some stuff abt it so if you want to learn lmk :]
i also have a hc of ortho osdd-1a or 1b :3c im not so sure on the specifics but ye
now to the rambling!!!
for floyd i go off some HCs i have for her, like him having the adhd + autism + bpd combo, which makes him a very unstable fella. i also HC that the coral sea was Rough, principally where he comes from, so the circumstances werent at her favour and Boom, did system
some of his alters are sea-life based, but brainmade, with a ton of diff species! the others are based off songs she likes & characters she sees herself in/relates to! sometimes the characters resemble jade, too. theres only a few trauma holders, most are protectors or soothers, and some persecutors!
theyre like. that weird, big family down the street. they all like each other a lot but they looove to bicker and brawl and all of that. ALSO all of them Love jade too! they see him the same way they see floyd :D shes included in their weird family, floyd says shes an honorary member of his system!!
iii think his inner world would be like. a beach house! close to the sea and such, cause hes a mermaid but he also likes having legs. so beach house it is! its veey big and lively! i also think hed learn it after he comes to land, maybe in the middle of his freshman year, but he wasnt very affected by it. hes also very open about it he does not give two shits lol
for riddle... its canon that her childhood was shitty, ever since she was old enough to talk & walk, so its no wonder hes a system too lol. i hc her as autistic + bpd and that heavily influenciated the whole splitting too
she has some brainmades, mostly based on flowers & animals (ladybug & rabbit), But i also HC that she has some alters from an old novel she red while small ! one he loved soo much and his brain split the guys. i even have their roles (soother, protector, gatekeeper, and some others) but anyways! most of her alters are either from books or brainmade, and theres a shitton of trauma holders. she has like only 1 or 2 guys from songs cater showed her and Thats It. no more song guys lol
most of them are either very smart and prideful and all of that, or theyre sillay. very funny fellas, love having fun, but still smart as hell !
after her overblot he like. split three or five more in a week 😭😭 it sucked ass and he had an awful headache for days. + he was only made aware of her system After the overblot, during the recuperation week, bc the other alters went to check on her, and it was. Something. she told cater & trey right away and they helped her navigate it all, then she told adeuce duo too and some other few close friends!
i hc that her inner world is a big ass red white pink and black castke, in the middle of a very dense florest, with a maze and all. the fauna & flora are kinda diverse and all ! very pretty :]]
also i am. a big fan of florid..... and i think theyd start dating someday. and when they do. they turn into partner systems (if u dont know what it is lmk) and lots of other alters from their systems start dating too lol. they take turns to stay w their s/o.... theyre all so annoying and cute
(i have some names for their systems too.... rosewell for riddle's and vortice for floyd's... yay)
and PLLSS tell me abt kalim osdd . if u want. i love him so much hes my special gal !!! im interested in the HC :D it makes sense. in mah head
anyways hope the rambling entertained you!!! the voices in my head told me my HCs and to me these voices are right. theyre very real
⚠️ mention of kidnapping
OKGGMGMNE i love this. all of my alters hate me #cantrelate floyd. i will be n ur dms soon...
for cater i have an entire google slide of alters that's unfinished but ill send that to you later :3
i don't really have much to add.. very cute very real.. 5 stars would dine again..
UHH ALSO KALIM OSDD3 i think when shes distressed she disassociates for a few hours and after jamils OB she was out for a week; her brains response to the kidnappings and other traumatic shit she was put thru. i don't hc her to have alters tho! one of my RAMCOA friends hcs her to have HC-DID tho!
i also think the human brain is super interesting.. i was wondering how traumatic events would effect merpeople/beastmen differently so it's interesting to see someone hc floyd as someone affected by his upbringing. i think there's a thin line of difference between what's considered normal/traumatic for humans and non humans (for example, jade being implied to eat his and floyds siblings is considered normal, but would the violence down there be?)
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Heeeeeey so I am just curious. If ever Malorie and Kanato take the relationship to the next level, will Malorie want to be a vampire or will just stay as a human? I know I can DM this to you but yeah haha
Ok so Malorie is a hardcore twilight fan (yes ik damn well its cliche but this blog is full of cliche's and corny stuff already so let it be atp🙏😩) and when Malorie was a child, she was also a team Edward so she always wanted to be like Bella. yk to have a vampire boyfriend, or to be a vampire to live out that fantasy. But here is the bomb, Malorie doesn't even really know that Kanato or the other brothers are really vampire's. i mean she always had that weird feeling about them, but she never really knewed why. its also one of the reasons why Kanato can be very much like a "human" when he is with her. Because Malorie's blood doesnt tastes, or smells good at all. i mean its not absouletely terrible, but its just bland and really has zero appeal, so the other vampire's don't get triggered by her. And that means they dont go around hissing and saying some dumb shit like; "oH gİvE mE yOuR bLoOd dEliCiOuS bBg". So yeah, she doesn't know that they are vampire's. But if she finds out one day (which she will) her first reaction would definitely be like; "OMG AM İ LİVİNG MY TWİLİGHT FANTASY RN?!" (my girl reads too much wattpad 💀) but she wouldn't want to be a vampire herself because she is just happy with being a human. And besides, when she can dress up as Bella, and force Kanato to be Edward in halloween, why be a real vampire am i right?😏
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oh no my cover is blown i think i failed secret agent school also shhhhh you have seen nothing here im not done burying my posts from 3 years ago yet but yes i agree this dynamic is really fun it feels like we're writing each other letters
honestly now that i read your thing about a new student not seeing the appeal because they're not integrated into decelis's clique culture it really brought to mind just how ROBBED we were in terms of sooha's character— i think it would've been better planned and Much more fitting if instead of her being automatically y/n-ified she showed up to decelis just . entirely immune to the pretty boys with vampire charisma. ik the boys feel a ~strange magical attraction~ which draws them to sooha but wouldn't it have been so great if she was just . weirded out by the attention instead of falling for heli immediately? like SHE could've been that student screaming "this idiot (jaan) just broke a hole in the floor bc he put down a dumbbell too hard and THIS IDIOT (heli) FORGETS THAT YOU HAVE TO MOVE YOUR MOUTH TO ACTUALLY TALK TO PEOPLE." i just think we were absolutely robbed of sooha really becoming part of the friend group instead of being yet another charmed student. and then SHE could become a cryptid too!! bc all the girls think its so strange that she doesn't get shy or blushy around them!! like imagine everyone whispering about sooha just one day sucker-punching solon to get him to shut up. PRICELESS.
help im imagining an exchange between that sleuth student and shion one night when hes ~on the prowl~. they go "hi, shion" and hes like "oh hi there- wait hold on how did you know it was me?? do you have powers too???? is it night vision????" and the student like "wha- no i just know that heli walks around at night so i assumed the rest of you would too and your eyes literally Glow In The Dark and hold on did you say too???? as in you have powers????????" and shion just . panicking like "aha no i meant do you have powers… in general… ahaha"
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oh noooo hdhfbfjfb-- dont worry i will continue to pretend like i know nothing :> but no omg it is like writing letters thats why i like it so much!! its just. idk its so nice because rather than dms where conversations happen in small increments and can get kind of messy and mixed up, asks let you read over and give special attention to every part of what someone is saying so you can respond to it fully!! and theres less pressure to answer immediately and such (at least with the kind of asks you send) :3
LITERALLY THOUGH like. with sooha i WANT to like her character and mostly i DO but she has fundamentally been a reader insert protagonist from the start and its pretty easy to tell lmao. allegedly its worse in the webnovel (and from all the screenshots one of my friends sent me... y e a h) but she's still pretty heftily y/n-ified in the comic, what with all the boys being ✨mysteriously drawn to her✨ and her basically being a starry-eyes fool in front of heli lmao. we were absolutely robbed because it would have been SO COOL if they made her like... an actually interesting and compelling character... rather than just a love interest for the boys lmao. like it would have been great if she got close to the brothers and became their friend and everything SPECIFICALLY BECAUSE she wasn't disillusioned by the rest of the school's clique mentality and thought they were sort of weird. and maybe eventually theres a whole "man i feel like ive known you forever" exchange that happens between them, alluding to the whole crazy past life connection or whatever tf their deal is, but also it would be entirely platonic and just... kind of sweet, because she's the first person in SO LONG that they've been friends with that hasnt just wanted to be around them in hopes of looking cool or dating one of them. like what if sooha walked up to the brothers after hearing all the shit about them from her classmates and just went "lmfao yall are a bunch of fucking idiots arent you" and then they were friends. i think that would be neat
also now that ive gotten STARTED on this train of thought im just thinking about all the character traits i wanna see more in female characters in media, specifically protagonists... thinking about sooha WITH some of those character traits... just a very brash, not very friendly sooha that maybe built up a hard/defensive exterior due to years of being bullied and taught that showing vulnerability around people would get her hurt... a sooha that maybe isnt very nice, is a little bit mean actually, and clashes with solon because theyre both stubborn af and dont know how to converse or apologize like normal human beings... a sooha that, when heli catches her using her powers, yells "i swear to god if you tell ANYONE about this--" until he's like "whoa whoa its okay i have powers too"... a sooha that learns that being vulnerable around people and trusting people is okay actually, in an entirely platonic way... lots of thoughts hsjfbfjn
YEAH SOOHA CRYPTID!!! now i really wanna see her punch solon lmao
(we could have had it all. we could have had it ALL. but alas <//3)
also sidenote. the mental image of heli straight-up forgetting that you have to open your mouth to talk to people and just staring at someone not understanding why they're not hearing/answering him/why theres no sound coming out has me DYING. then when they call him out for it like "uhhh why are you staring at me like that?" he starts sweating and goes "HAHAHA SORRY NEVERMIND I JUST ZONED OUT HAHA WHAT WERE UOU SAYING.??"
NO OMG SHION. his chattiness/instinctive friendliness being his downfall is such a funny concept hsjfbfjf. like the resident Sleuth Student just casually says hi to him in the hallway and he full-on says hi back and starts being all sweet and polite before his brain goes VERY RAPIDLY through the following thoughts: "wait omg how does she know its me" "WAIT NOBODY'S SUPPOSED TO SEE ME AT THIS HOUR SHIT" "wait fuck why did i respond wHY DID I RESPONd--"
also now i have the mental image of shion with his crazy anti-grav powers just straight-up walking on the ceilings at night because its fun and (allegedly) no one will see him, only INCREASING the cryptid allegations if anyone does
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greatdonutenemy · 5 months
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so guys guess what??
I LEARNT ABOUT ANOTHER ONE OF MY PAST FUCK UPS :D
anyway so yall remember the guy i made the enchanted post about? the guy i used to have those cutesy special moments with? our eyes meeting across the room, heads turning towards each other whenever we heard a funny joke, going on long walks just the two of us, texting all hours of the day and night, having those really long deep conversations, etc etc.
heres the post if you dk what im talking ab
anyway so those walks we used to go on he always insisted i choose the path we go down and this was countryside adjacent so it was picturesque af and it was summer so it was beautiful.
back to the main point, i always used to wonder where this alley went and it seemed interesting to me bc for the 5 years i was at there id never been down it so i thought hey lets go check it out and this was a weirdly nice lil alley and i liked our walking route so wed do something pretty similar each time and wed always go down this alley. apparently that was where a lot of people went to make out bc it was fairly hidden from everything else.
i did not know i swear i just found out
the only reason im feeling kinda weird ab this is bc i was w my now ex bf at the time but i think that was at the point where id made the mental decision to break up w him? HOLY FUCKING SHIT I JUST HAD A BREAKTHROUGH IM SUCH A BITCH I SUCK AT TRYING TO DO THE RIGHT THING FUCKITY FUCK FUCK
so after i broke up w my ex bf i went on a walk w Enchanted guy bc that was our routine thats what we did and i did kinda want to talk it through and basc have someone validate it and yes in hindsight i shouldve run straight to my bsf but i make bad decisions which reminds me if youre italian and called nico and are 17 you may not remember me but hi welcome to my dumpster fire of a love life honestly boy you were the highlight
anyway so after the breakup i went on a walk w Enchanted guy but we took a different route bc we had extra time it was like almost 2h so we took a twistier route bc why wouldnt we? and the route we took happened to cross w my exs bus stop. like. right past it. i didnt think much of it bc we used to catch the same bus and i never caught it from there but i think to him it looked like i may have been trying to parade him around then this did not look good for me as there were many conversations ab me happening behind my back many of which im willing to bet i dont come off great in which is probably why everything felt so weird after the breakup
this is really explaining the weird vibes now this has been weirdly reflective. im still so curious as to what those conversations were bc ik theyre gonna hurt but i wanna know just for the drama of it. like noooo she did what? thats crazyyyy!! what?! she did not! so openly too man thats wild
anyway if you read all that thank you for putting up w my nonsense it has really been a journey also if you dont mind lmk if you think im the asshole in this situation bc i feel like its v open to interpretation esp considering the fact that we do not know anyone elses perpective on this
also my friend is trying to figure out my exs and Enchanted guys through other friends from primary school which is kinda how ive got this info bc they didnt give much away other than a "hmm" so ill lyk if theres any updates anyway thanks <3
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crysatoru · 2 years
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heyyy ik this might sound very stupid and it might look like im wanting attention but i dont think that little break was really enough for me, i think ima be taking another break for a whole week, yeah cause literally that break i took didnt do anything for me like 2 days ago i straight up cried for literally 2 hours straight just thinking about her i also feel like shit for dropping her cause i really was never the person to leave a relationship. but obviously i had my reasons why i left mainly for my mental health idfk why i feel pathetic for saying i need another break 💀, i’ll explain the whole situation ofc i will not reveal their name. So basically me and my bestfriend met in 2021 february 4th. everything was going well but until it hit october thats when it started going downhill. She started being toxic, dry, and would make fun of me when i would bring up personal issues that i had. i stuck around waiting for her to at least act somewhat like before and cause i still had hope in her. ive asked her many many times “are you okay?” or “are you good?” but she would always say yes and tell me to stfu. my stomach would even feel weird like i was about to throw up when i would think about her. i remember when it was our anniversary i literally gave her a whole damn paragraph, so much that it hit the maximum limit and what it said was me thanking her, loving her showing her affection, she never responded to it she left me on seen. i would try so hard to make her laugh i would send her funny videos, text her everyday at night and morning saying “goodmorning” and “goodnight” she then called me annoying which made me feel kinda terrible cause all i was doing was being myself and trying to make her feel like she was my number one. she even said “im not gonna comfort anyone cause they never comfort me.” yet i would send her SOOOO many paragraphs of me comforting her. shes even said “me and you have a hate and love relationship” and that completely made me wonder if she hated me. i told her “what makes you think i hate you” and she said absolutely nothing at all and changed the subject. i even sometimes wonder if i never met her would i be okay? i loved her but fuck she made me feel like absolute shit. i even wonder “was it me that made her like this” or “did i do something wrong?” and when i decided to drop her i was very clear to her and all she literally fucking said was “alr then you do you” and “stfu and stop giving me paragraphs like its a fucking essay” now that, completely broke me cause then i was panicking if did she even cared about me? was she using me? has she ever appreciated anything that ive done for her? was i not good enough? you have no idea how terrible and how fucking much that fucked me up but i will say i am a little relieved, im sorry that i literally vented without your permission its just i really needed to get it off of my chest, like i said ill be back in a week! do not worry i just need to focus on myself for a bit :) bye bye!! <3 💗💗 💟
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Hey man, you don’t have to apologize for taking a break! Everyone needs em sometimes, especially if you’re going through something so difficult like you are now (and also don’t mind the venting, I consider us as close enough for you to do it freely)
I’m glad you were able to break her off since it doesn’t sound like a healthy relationship at all, and I’m really proud of you for taking the step forwards :( She shouldn’t have treated you like that, I’m sure you know it, and if you don’t I’m telling you it right now. Please take as long as you’ll need pretty! I’ll be here waiting for you always <3
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romanticfistfightz · 3 years
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i think the most self sabotaging thing ive ever done was cut my hair short. i know dysphoria this pretednig to be a Binary Dude that but cmon imagine how powerful my emo hair would be when it was this long in 20fucking16
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weirdcat1213 · 10 months
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trigun bookclub time :D volume 2 thoughts
chap 00.1
-vash's method of meditation is the only one that's valid in my eyes/j
-3 seconds of meditating vs 3 hours of training...huh...i wonder...why is that...and what...that says about him...
-hes bad at chess hes like me fr fr
-yey we love a day without casualties :D
chap 00.2
-the bit about us taking shelter on technology but still not knowing what the future holds...yeah that feels timeless now huh
-vash don't go there! oh no he has earbuds he cant hear me (that would literally happen to me tho)
-i love that panel where no one says anything after the girl is like "yeah i can give you pocket money." nice representation of the irritation people feel towards that kind of people. they arent mad just really tired of that bs
-oh man thats actually pretty horrible (page 23)
-"and i think of nothing but love and peace" besides that we know your head is empty but we love you so its ok
-yeah vash show her the real world
-interesting that he makes her see the chance of her dad dying (he didnt know what was gonna happen) which makes sense cuz she cant run from the truth anymore but its also interesting cuz if we was able to not see it he would. he hates seeing people dying and yet he watches and makes others watch. i dont think its about "if i have to, you have to as well" but more about her seeing the consequences of violence (what her father did) and the cycle of hate so she doesnt repeat it. idk.
chap 1
-rem coming out of his coat....hm....
-weird man coming
-YEAH SEND HIM TO HELL >:D
-if rem is holding him back you say...hmmm...i will go back to that later
-well thats creepy
chap 2
-my boi is in jail nooooooooooooo
-you can feel the size of the ship with one panel nightow is ridiculously talented when creating big spaces, like the sandsteamer shot in the last volume
-..... :c
-my babygirl :c
-i like he started the flashback angry as hell and then it turned into sadness cuz even if he makes knives pay nothing will bring rem back
-also the literal ship crashing into his memories what if I [redacted]
-SEE LOOK AT THAT SHIT! SPACE FEELS MASSIVE AND ITS LITERALLY JUST THE PLANET AND THE SHIP
-aaaand hes angry as hell again cuz the memory finished with knives. interesting
-dont look at me with those kind eyes, we saw you
-YEY ITS DIABLO TIME :D go get em
chap 3
-aw cmon :c
-and there goes the arm
-hey >:[ dont call my girl milly an idiot
-ugh you can feel how fucking stressed out he is ahhhhhhhhh
-ah yes, we love seeing how right knives is...
-huh, i wonder if knives is smiling cuz before he was like "nah she was stupid like the rest" but since she got to correct the ships's trajectory he got a bit of respect for her in the end
-is monev vs vash supposed to be like david and goliath? hm
-my god thats fucking beautiful
-also i dont think thats a ghost but maybe like her presence? like vash is remembering her and her kindness
-AH I HATE THAT I HATE THAT. THE CHAPTER IS CALLED FRAGILE, ENDS UP WITH VASH CRYING AND THE "rem" IS SO LITTLE THAT IS ONLY MEANT FOR US AND VASH TO BE AWARE OF IT WHAT IF I CRIED A RIVER AHHHHHH
chap 4
-oh meryl...oh honey...sweetie...
-the scars appear :D yey :D
-meryl is kinda asking him "arent you tired of being nice dont you want to go apeshit" but not really and i like that
-yknow what meryl is right pls go away and live a quiet life pls, ik whats coming but just thinking about it....
-yee ik the reason why but still >:v
-oh....oh i actually forgot about that...oh
-"rem didnt sacrifice her life for a world like that" im tearing up actually and idk why...its been a hard week
-lmao hes so mad at vash
-yeah hunt him down babygirl >:D
chap 5
-....metal >:D
-they deserved it btw
-huh thats actually kinda nice of him i forgot
-ofc he would blame vash for that, then again vash makes all of us at least a little bit soft i think
chap 6
-i love you vash that takes his sweet time to process traumatic situations, yes that was scary
-vash saying "im the deathwish" means a lot to me as an mcr fan lmao. i will think more about that later tho
-HES HEREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
-YES YOU ARE A PRIEST OMG WHY AM I THIS EXCITED
-THEY MEET, OMG THEY ARE MEETING! AMAZING!
-STOP BLUSHING BRO LIKE AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
-WHY ARE YOU TOUCHING HIS CHIN LIKE THAT YO
-"go home or go to hell" oh im getting that on a tattoo one day actually, so metal
-...cmon, me me big boi
-THAT SMILE, THAT DAMN SMILE im gonna jump off my local cliff
-vash in the beginning saying he can read people and then wolfwood comes and READS HIM LIKE ITS NOTHING
chap 7
-"is that a friend of yours" he looks so offended lmao
-ahhhh that must be so scary, he already has knives to worry about but the fact not everyone can see legato makes his job harder ahhhhh
-bye baby ily (hes my son that i only share with a couple of other ww enjoyers)
-CAN YOU STOP BEING GAY FOR 2 MINUTES
-OH THAT PANEL IS SO GOOD (also even more princess coded, like looking at really from a castle idk)
-GUYS GUYS MY WIFE IS HERE
-i keep forgetting hes missing his little arm :c
-lmao wolfwood is right, i wouldnt go to a church all the way there :b
-yeah and shes hot while teleporting all over the place
-ok but shes really fucking cool, despite wanting to kill my comfort character, yknow how these things go
-OHOHOHOO THAT PANEL WITH VASH FOCUSING IS AMAZING
-YESSSSS, SO METALLLLL
chap 8
-aaaand...there goes my wife
-ahhhhhh he looks so little :c
-OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH HES COMING, HES NEAR
-idk ww :c idk when will it end
-OH WOW OH SHIT I FORGOT ABOUT THAT
-yeah right i dont like this part :b (its not bad just personal stuff)
-ok he do be looking pretty tho, i wonder if its a family thing
-YEAH MERYL SMACK THAT MF
-im a ball of rugged paper and my feelings are nothing...thanks nightow ily
-oh wait...he actually thought that was the end...thats so fucking smart nightow...wow i never considered that....
-aw babygirl :c but i cant even imagine how that must feel, how much hate he feels towards knives rn
-i think besides the "he called me by my name" meryl and milly let him go cuz they just felt he was going to matter what, like you can feel vash and his unstoppable energy on those pages
-oh hes so fucking pretty
-WAIT I NEVER NOTICED THAT BUT YEAH THAT WAS ON STAMPEDE EP 3 HOLY FUCK, THEY SAID THE SAME THING
-knives just fucking reads vash like an open book its incredible and it makes me so sad cuz vash cant escape, he cant hide nothing, not in front of knives
-he cant be knives without the good old gaslighting >:D
-the yelling throughout the page is amazing
-vash is crying noooooooooooooooo :c
-NO. STAY AWAY FROM ME, EVIL PANEL THAT HAUNTS MY DREAMS
-also :c
-im not too sure of what happened with his legs but ok sure
-im afraid my babygirl cant give you an answer ww, i dont think he knows
-.....why is the world so mean to him :c
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vogueksoo · 5 years
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arabella111 · 2 years
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hi arabella,
so i have this problem with manifesting.. those past years i have been so depressed that i lost my idenity and idk what i like and who i am, and it makes it harder for me to manifesting since idk what i want exactly. i feel if i had this big realization/existental crisis when i found abt the law i would get my shit together or realize what i want but literally nothing has changed like idk how to benefit from knowing the law. i have tried commanding my sub for answers but i never get one.
also ive turned 17, 2 weeks ago and everyone keeps telling me that this is the last year im a kid and i shouod mature and all that and it hurts me bc i feel like i didnt enjoy my teenage years enough and i dont even have friends now and idk what to do, should i manifest friends and live the life that i wanted now in a year or slow down time like im so confused.
i also feel weird abt wanting to manifest specific things like stuff i was suposed to already have for example when i was younger i could speak russian but now i forgot and i used to be a dancer and now i cant dance and its like i wish i didnt have to worry abt manifesting it and just mentaining it yk? and the other thing js that i feel weird manifesting being pretty like yes ik i can do that but when i was little id get conpliments abt my looks and my body but now nothing and it makes me think that id get all those conpliments just bc i was little but even i was its like i lost it just the other things i mentioned earlier.. i just wish i was born pretty like the other pretty girls without having to manifest it yk?
i hope i made some sense english isnt my first language , i hope i didnt annoy u i just rlly need help rn bc im in a rlly bad place and confused🥺🥺💕💕
i get you, baby. don't worry <33
so first, i want you to sit down and open up a note/notepad, physically or digitally, doesn't really matter. and then write everything that's bothering you. you don't have to describe it, just write it down in two-three words. and then, beside it write down the things you would want instead of it. write down the favourable for the unfavourable.
next, start working on your self concept. i have a post on it. you don't have to invest a week or two for your sc, a single day is enough.
thirdly, whenever you ask your subconscious for an answer, trust and assume it'll give you the answer no matter what. you don't get answers because you assume you won't. self concept will come in handy here as well.
also, if you feel like you missed your teenage years. you can either revise it or just manifest going back in time. do something that'll actually make you happy.
now, you manifest literally everything. the good, the bad. everything. it's either consciously or subconsciously. the world around you is your creation. you're not a good dancer? it's because you assume so (consciously or subconsciously). you think everyone is pretty but not you? why? because you assume so. you put yourself last that's why you're last. you are what you assume. i advice you to work on your self concept, it'll really help you build yourself and give you the boost of confidence you need. and, also you can use some of these.
1. sats (i have a post on this)
2. void (post on this as well)
3. placebos
or just create your own method. and please go through each and every post in my pinned. don't give up, you can do this, you're literally god! all the best, mwah <33
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