#yes im still thinking about it

[amiracleilluminated]

#interview with the vampire #interview with the vampire amc #iwtvsource #vcsource #iwtvedit #*gifs #yes im still thinking about it

[mokutone]

the saga continues

#yes im still thinking about it #my art #naruto #yamato #tenzō #yamato tenzo #yūgao uzuki #kakashi #he doesnt say anything hes just there

[not-fitzwilliam-darcy]

The more I watch the confession, the more it feels like both Aziraphale and Crowley are saying the same thing. It's not a rejection of their relationship. They both want to be together. Just, in different places, and none of them can agree to be in the same place the other wants to be in.

#yes im still thinking about it #gomens #good omens #go2 #ineffable divorce #ineffable idiots

[bivampir]

being an actor sounds like hell man if i had to kiss my Extremely Attractive coworker who's also slowly becoming my very best friend and they decided on a whim to bite my lip i would simply fall in love desperately and die on the spot within seconds. but that's just me.

#sam reid you're build different bestie. #this is about that tweet pointing out Jacob Anderson bit Sam Reid's lip in the church scene in episode 1 btw #yes im still thinking about it #iwtv #sam reid #jacob anderson #my posting

[wraithsoutlaws]

the way I envision rattus rattus sounding in band au is sort of like leathermouth like totally indecipherable but he's having a really good time

#yes im still thinking about it #dagger covered in blood and booze and swinging off the rafters

[ashlingnarcos]

the joined casts of narcos and narcos mexico are my own personal ncu (narcos cinematic universe) and everytime there's a crossover (manolo cardona and jose maria jazpik climb a mountain together and put it on instagram) i'm even more normal about the ncu than the marvel fans are about the mcu. that's one of the many things that are so great about me. just so so normal

#yes im still thinking about it #ashling rambles

[gatalentan]

the thing about melissa and janine is they're both fixers who need someone to fix them, in this essay i will,

#yes im still thinking about it

[alicedyerappreciator]

fanart for my blorbo Ophis Pathfinder2ePirateCampaign

higher quality under the cut. no children is a dangerous weapon in the hands of people with a hyperfixation.

mostly watercolour, cleaned up in autodesk sketchbook (and one small extra detail added).

#yes the campaign ended last week #yes im still thinking about it #yes this will be the first post of many #blorbo #art #my art #pathfinder 2e #pathfinder 2nd edition #watercolour #watercolor #autodesk sketchbook #mx dyer appreciator hyperfixates

[fabulouslygaybean]

mutuals i am mentally making you cloth dolls rn

#yes im still thinking about it #idk. i just think its fun #okay actually. mutuals.... #if any of y'all want a cloth doll at some point PLEASE lmk because i wanna make some of these as sewing practice #at some point. i don't have a working sewing machine and the one at the library is Gone so idk if i could make them right now

[come-on-shitty-boys]

docking in a small village with pirate!kuroo and he pulls you into his chest when he hears the distinctive sound of fiddles, lyres, and flutes.

"dance with me, my dear"

#Yes im still thinking about it #pirate kuroo #haikyuu!! #shitty talks

[failcringegf]

when asked about what his favorite things about george and sapnap were dream didnt hesitate even for a second

#THEY MEAN SO MUCH TO MEEEEE #like he was just read he knew what to say im gonna cry #yes im still thinking about it #.txt

[skrunksthatwunk]

see 0 note flop posts aren't that bad when they're personal but 0 note fandom posts feel literally so bad. like if you don't wanna play toys with me anymore just say that. i'll pack up my super cool awesome things and go and i'll sit on the other side of the playground by myself and i won't even look at you. fuck

#yes i AM thinking about a particular post. no it wasn't that good but still. a moment of heartache for sure #like it feels so bad but im too prou dto delete it and also too lazy

[cozylittleartblog]

not that we didn't already Know belos was full of shit, but it's even funnier knowing the titan was still alive the whole time and probably judging him

#toh #the owl house #emperor belos #papa titan #the titan #art #doodles #comic #fanart #watching and dreaming #captioned #brief visit to ye olde days of memeing on belos... those still get spread around #i hope the titan saw him get his shit stomped in before they passed on #like yes luz was right there but did the titan actually get to see it. i hope so #shoulda been broadcast on penstagram too #there's a piece of fanart i wanted to draw after. i think o titan where art thou. but i never got around to it #because it had animation in it. and im regretting it now #maybe i will finally do it. and something else too #the whole titan reveal brings with it a lot of tropes and ideas that absolutely destroy me personally #and i need to Draw about it #edit - thank you anistarrose for the caption! #''he wasn't Really alive'' you're right they were a secret third thing. the heart still beats. they were still Somewhere #but it's easier to just say Alive. it's not Technically wrong #i try to keep my captions short ok

[duodusk]

whoevers reselling lvjy tickets in my area for $9k . Die.

#txt #JUST GIVE THEM TO MEEEE THEY PUT A SHOW WHERE I COULD ACTUALLY GO AND THE TICKETS SOLD OUT IMMEDIATELY #💥💥💥💥 #YES im still thinking about it

[dogesterone]

i think mech cockpits should be filled with goo

in universe explanation would be something like the goo is filled with nanomachines that interface with your nervous system or something

out of universe explanation is that i think t4t gay sex in a mech cockpit would be so much more fun if there was goo involved. it could even have the same texture and consistency as lube.

and then the mech boots up and both people in the cockpit get neuralinked and its like. super gay brain sex

#yes im still thinking about this

[inkskinned]

crows use tools and like to slide down snowy hills. today we saw a goose with a hurt foot who was kept safe by his flock - before taking off, they waited for him to catch up. there are colors only butterflies see. reindeer are matriarchical. cows have best friends and 4 stomachs and like jazz music. i watched a video recently of an octopus making himself a door out of a coconut shell.

i am a little soft, okay. but sometimes i can't talk either. the world is like fractal light to me, and passes through my skin in tendrils. i feel certain small things like a catapult; i skirt around the big things and somehow arrive in crisis without ever realizing i'm in pain.

in 5th grade we read The Curious Incident of the Dog In The Night-time, which is about a young autistic boy. it is how they introduced us to empathy about neurotypes, which was well-timed: around 10 years old was when i started having my life fully ruined by symptoms. people started noticing.

i wonder if birds can tell if another bird is odd. like the phrase odd duck. i have to believe that all odd ducks are still very much loved by the other normal ducks. i have to believe that, or i will cry.

i remember my 5th grade teacher holding the curious incident up, dazzled by the language written by someone who is neurotypical. my teacher said: "sometimes i want to cut open their mind to know exactly how autistics are thinking. it's just so different! they must see the world so strangely!" later, at 22, in my education classes, we were taught to say a person with autism or a person on the spectrum or neurodivergent. i actually personally kind of like person-first language - it implies the other person is trying to protect me from myself. i know they had to teach themselves that pattern of speech, is all, and it shows they're at least trying. and i was a person first, even if i wasn't good at it.

plants learn information. they must encode data somehow, but where would they store it? when you cut open a sapling, you cannot find the how they think - if they "think" at all. they learn, but do not think. i want to paint that process - i think it would be mostly purple and blue.

the book was not about me, it was about a young boy. his life was patterned into a different set of categories. he did not cry about the tag on his shirt. i remember reading it and saying to myself: i am wrong, and broken, but it isn't in this way. something else is wrong with me instead. later, in that same person-first education class, my teacher would bring up the curious incident and mention that it is now widely panned as being inaccurate and stereotypical. she frowned and said we might not know how a person with autism thinks, but it is unlikely to be expressed in that way. this book was written with the best intentions by a special-ed teacher, but there's some debate as to if somebody who was on the spectrum would be even able to write something like this.

we might not understand it, but crows and ravens have developed their own language. this is also true of whales, dolphins, and many other species. i do not know how a crow thinks, but we do know they can problem solve. (is "thinking" equal to "problem solving"? or is "thinking" data processing? data management?) i do not know how my dog thinks, either, but we "talk" all the same - i know what he is asking for, even if he only asks once.

i am not a dolphin or reindeer or a dog in the nighttime, but i am an odd duck. in the ugly duckling, she grows up and comes home and is beautiful and finds her soulmate. all that ugliness she experienced lives in downy feathers inside of her, staining everything a muted grey. she is beautiful eventually, though, so she is loved. they do not want to cut her open to see how she thinks.

a while ago i got into an argument with a classmate about that weird sia music video about autism. my classmate said she thought it was good to raise awareness. i told her they should have just hired someone else to do it. she said it's not fair to an autistic person to expect them to be able to handle that kind of a thing.

today i saw a goose, and he was limping. i want to be loved like a flock loves a wounded creature: the phrase taken under a wing. which is to say i have always known i am not normal. desperate, mewling - i want to be loved beyond words.

loved beyond thinking.

#spilled ink #writeblr #personal #please don't ask me to talk on my experience on the spectrum lol. i hate how ppl talk to me about it #i really try not to write so specifically about it #bc inevitably someone talks to me like im a child #i think this is the first time i've ever openly identified with it but i've been hinting for years #i might delete this. feels big. #the thing is that being on the spectrum actually IS a spectrum #and if u say ur autistic #inevitably someone makes an assumption about ur needs/symptoms #please do not treat me differently than u usually would. like.... we can tell when you do #and like i mention. i do appreciate the effort. i do truly appreciate the effort. #but it still feels like... #when i was blind. sometimes people kind of did the same-ish thing. #they'd find out i was blind and start talking really loudly? #and while i KNOW they're just trying to help. it would be like. i'd be trying to find #the right way into a building (sometimes only 1 door is unlocked and i couldn't see the signs posted about where to go) #and ppl would be like ''OH UR BLIND? YES SO THIS IS A DOOR. IT OPENS INTO THE BUILDING. IT IS LOCKED NOW." #''A DOOR CAN BE FOUND IN MANY LOCATIONS.'' #and it feels like. when i admit to being autistic #someone comes screeching into my life being like THIS IS A DOOR.