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flo-nelja · 2 years
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@anysin​ asked for noncon for the meme Give me a kink, and I’ll make a top 10 of the ships I like to read it for
1 - The Gentleman with the Thistledown Hair/Stephen Black (Jonathan Strange & Mr Norrell)
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I love them better in the book, but of course, I only have pictures from the show. I love everything that involves fairy magic and weird obligations. And honestly, it’s hard for me to imagine Stephen consent without at least feeling that he’s threatened and forced (the Gentleman wouldn’t notice). Also, it’s very satisfying for me how Stephen ends. It’s conditional to my enjoyment, that he wins.
2 - Master/Doctor (Doctor Who)
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So much repressed violence and mental invasion and power games. So many incarnations to make it work with the same history but slightly different dynamics.
3 - Howard/Rizel (Lastman)
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This ship has canon electric torture and almost canon demonic possession by someone who might have had a crush on you once and it has so much potential and the fandom is so tiny.
4 - Louis/Caesar (Kimi o Shinasenai tame no Monogatari / Nos temps contraires)
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This has so much twists and jealousy and hate each other but still don’t want to live without each other and the rape was canon and awful and there’s a whole chapter about realizing it was even worse than we knew and I still love it. In the car crash way. It’s a basically empty fandom, so I’ll take everything that aknowledges it happened and was wrong.
5 - Bill/Ford (Gravity Falls)
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I usually write it consensual, post-betrayal, but I certainly keep loving all the oportunities after, and Ford certainly doesn’t.
6 - Michael/Sasha (The Magnus Archives)
I loved Michael/Sasha from the first encounter, I wanted her to have a creepy monster romance with a creature of treachery that pretends to care for her (and maybe does but a tiny bit). Canon didn’t make it possible, but we have fanfics!
7 - Renge/Anlise (Namesake)
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Canon mins control girlfriends, I fear that when you’re brainwashing your girlfriend to hide your evil plans even normal sex counts as noncon. Which is sad because they might have been happy once.
8 - Maldoror/God (Les chants de Maldoror)
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I don’t have any good pic for the ship, so have a fic from the fandom! In Maldoror, the main character, who is evil and trying very hard to be more evil, has two encounters with God, once when he (God) is drunk on the side of the road, one with one of his hairs forgotten in a whorehouse. I decided he should rape God to add offense to injury, and as it doesn’t happen in canon I wrote it ^^
9 - Wanda/Agatha (Wandavision)
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Works theoretically in both directions, but to be fair what lives in my mind is the picture of Agatha brainwashed, kneeling, and flirting. ^^
10 - Seishirou/Subaru (Tokyo Babylon)
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It’s so sad and tragic that rape doesn’t even make it worse, but it sure as hell won’t make it better, and as I love this story for the horror and the tragedy, yes. 
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jashne-bahaaraa · 3 years
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never trusting my classmates ever again :')
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nifolution · 2 years
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Dirty Secret 6
Pairing: Steve Rogers & Mutant Reader
Summary: A two year relationship kept in the dark. Will it survive? An unexpected arrival puts it to the test. The choices ahead can make them stronger or destroy them.
Warnings: Angst, heartbreak, insecurity, betrayal, cheating, smut, fluff, arguments, Steve being a jerk, stupid Steve, fighting, jealousy
A/N: This is a revised copy of my oc fic. It is still written in 1st & 3rd person. 18+ only due to smut. No stealing, no reposts, no translations, no feeding to AIs. Comments, reblogs and likes are always welcome and appreciated.
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Chapter 6
Saturday came too fast. This is hell, I'm in hell...Steve was leaving with Sharon for the gala. I watched them walk out of the lobby, looking like two gorgeous cake toppers.
I went over to the window, waiting for them to get in the limousine. Silently, Bucky appeared beside me. It was going to be just him and me tonight. He never goes to these big parties, they make him uncomfortable.
"That was supposed to be our limo. We were going to go together."
Bucky looked at me with sympathy, "I know."
"I thought we were telling everyone tonight. I spent an obscene amount of money on this wonderful dress. I had the shoes and the makeup and hairstyle picked out. I wanted to look as good as possible, so it looked like we belonged together. So he wouldn't be afraid to tell people I was his... I should have known better…. Look at them, they look like they were made for each other."
Bucky's face hardened as Steve's head dipped into the car, "He loves you Y/N. I know he does. I don't know what has gotten into him. I want to kick his ass myself, believe me. Screw his head back on straight."
"Is that why I had to be a secret all this time? Cause he loves me so much? You know, he only ever said he loved me during or immediately after sex. Never even on one of our dates. I may be dumb but I’m not dumb enough to think he ever meant it." I took a shaky breath as the first salty drops slid down my cheeks.
"Doll…"
I plopped down on the nearest chair, burying my face in my hands. "I’m so stupid... He was ashamed of me this whole time. That's why he insisted I hide, but he paraded her around the second she arrived."
Bucky remained silent, walking over to me, putting his hand on my shoulder reassuringly.
"He didn't even bother breaking up with me first. I wasn’t worth a goodbye, or a get lost... I get it, why date the gullible thief when you can have the smart, beautiful, badass agent... Can't blame him though, can I? I wouldn't pick me either."
Bucky had enough, his voice stern, "Get up!"
I was startled, "Why?"
He leaned over the chair, putting his face at level with mine. "Because you are going to go to your room, put on that dress, get dolled up and we are going to the gala together. I refuse to let you sit here and cry. Now get up!"
I stared at him in disbelief. He couldn't be serious. "It's starting in 23 mins."
"Yes, but if we take the orb express you will have plenty of time to get ready and we'll only show up fashionably late. So get a move on," he barked.
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We stood outside the event's entrance, this place was impressive. Majestic, ornate and humongous. Bucky looked handsome. His short hair styled, his facial hair trimmed, his dark grey suit fit perfectly. I didn't even know he owned one. I wore a dress that cost more than I care to admit. Spent weeks agonizing over my choices at different shops, before finding the right one. The gown was beautiful, my favorite color and fit like it was made just for me. I felt pretty… and terrified.
Bucky noticed I was rubbing my bracelet so he linked his arm with mine. "You have nothing to be nervous about. You're drop dead gorgeous. Steve's not going to know what hit him."
"I doubt he'll even notice," I answered morosely.
"You're wrong about that," he stated as he led me through the doors.
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Sharon was the first to spot the new arrivals entering the party. She smacked Steve's chest, "See, I told you they were a couple."
Steve turned his head to see who Sharon was referring to. He felt the wind get knocked out of him. Y/N was here, looking incredible. He couldn't take his eyes off her. Before he could stop himself, he started walking over. That's when he noticed the arm she was gripping tightly to, Bucky’s. Was Sharon correct? He swiftly retreated back to the bar. What the hell was going on?
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As the night wore on, Steve became more sullen. He tried to will Y/N to look at him. He waited for an opening, but she never looked his way and Bucky never left her side. He watched them all night, seething.
Sharon led Steve to the dance floor. A slow melody playing. She held Steve close and swayed to the music. "This has been an amazing date, Steve. I'm having a wonderful time."
"Me too." He twirled her and pulled her back to him.
"You've been practicing."
Steve smiled wistfully, "Something like that."
Steve couldn't say what was on his mind. And Sharon didn't inquire further. They continued dancing through to the next song.
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Bucky was doing an excellent job as my date. Throughout the night he was attentive and affectionate. He stayed close to me, making sure I was okay, listening to everything I said. He helped me avoid Steve, he accompanied me on each trip to the bar or restroom, just in case. He held my hand or kept his hand on my lower back at all times, keeping me grounded. He'd throw in kisses to my cheeks, temple and hand whenever he deemed it appropriate. I guess we were believable because no one questioned it.
Things were going well. I was actually starting to have fun.... Until I saw them. Steve and Sharon dancing, staring lovingly at one another. Like no one else in the room existed.
Bucky noticed I was starting to get upset, his eyes followed mine. He slammed his drink down on the table, growling.
He offered me his hand, "May I have this dance?"
I looked away, "You know I don't dance, Bucky."
"You should," he replied with a smile.
Two could play at that game, "You don't dance either."
"I will for you. Let's go." He pulled me into the mass of moving bodies. When he found a desired spot, he wrapped his arms around my waist.
I tried to enjoy our dance, but every time Bucky turned us, I saw them. Seeing Steve hold someone else like that broke my heart all over again. I tried closing my eyes, but the image remained.
Bucky tried reassuring me, but as Steve leaned in to kiss Sharon, I lost my resolve. I buried my head in Bucky's chest, trying to stifle my sobs.
Bucky moved his arms higher, embracing me fully. He was furious with Steve. That punk was making a huge mistake. He made sure he caught Steve's eye before slowly lifting my head and kissing my lips.
I pulled away gently, "Bucky, I can't. I don't play these kinds of games. I wouldn't do that to him."
"I know doll, you're too good of a person to mess with someone's feelings. I'm sorry for doing that." Bucky looked genuinely apologetic. "I hope I didn't make things awkward between us."
I shook my head and hugged him. He escorted me out to the balcony for some fresh air. I needed it, it was getting harder to breathe the longer I stayed inside.
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Bucky removed his jacket, wrapping it around me. We stood at the railing, looking down to the street below. I don't know how long we were out there, but he continued to stay by my side until I found my voice again.
"I was never going to be enough for him, was I? I never loved anyone as much as him... I thought this was it, I found my forever. Guess we weren't on the same page." I looked at Bucky who was graciously allowing me to vent.
"The fucked up part is, more than anything, I just want him to be happy. As much as I want to confront him and scream and let everyone know the truth. Another part wants to make sure he doesn't screw it up with her, wants him to live happily ever after." A hollow laugh flew out of my mouth. "Like I said before," I pointed to myself, "stupid!"
Bucky turned my body to face him. "You're not stupid, Y/N. You love him. People do crazy things for love, including forsaking their own happiness for another's... You have the biggest heart and you don't deserve to be taken for granted."
He hugged me tight and continued, "I thought you two were perfect together. You made each other happy. I've never seen him so happy till he found you. I don't know why he's acting this way. I don't recognize the man in there. I know you don't believe me, but he does love you."
"Am I just supposed to wait on the sidelines until he decides to come back to me? It won't happen, Bucky. I have to face reality. He doesn't want me. I'm not good enough. He's made that very clear." I choked back tears, I had to stop crying.
Bucky cupped my cheek, "You're freezing, let's get you back inside."
"I can't go back in there, Bucky. I'm just going to orb back to headquarters and resign. It's killing me seeing them together. I couldn't bear having it rubbed in my face day after day. It will be better for everyone if I just go."
"Then take me with you." He smiled when I looked at him, puzzled. "You shouldn't be alone right now. And you most certainly shouldn't quit. Please stay. Let's go home and talk more. You're a part of this team, you're family. Don't leave us. Please."
I nodded, orbing us back to my room.
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The rest of my night was rough. Bucky held me through my tears and my outbursts. We talked about everything. All about my relationship with Steve. My current feelings, how much of an asshole Steve was. He convinced me that I shouldn't be resigning, that it will all work out. I just had to be patient. And in that moment, I believed him.
Chapter 7
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jeonsweetpea · 2 years
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Moonstruck 10
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Werewolf & Vampire Hybrid!AU, Supernatural!AU | Hybrid!Jungkook x Hybrid!Reader | Werewolf!Taehyung x Hybrid!Reader (ft. BTS)
genre: smut, angst, e2l, supernatural, thriller, slow burn
rating: mature
description: You and Jungkook return back to campus and discover new information that will aid in your investigation. 
word count: 9.4k
warnings: contains SPOILERS! Cussing, mentions of murder/betrayal, nightmare, talks of infertility, heartbreak, spying. no smut this chapter
a/n: It’s been forever, I know! But thank you to those who are still keeping up with my series. I seriously love you all. Please know that. Thank you for giving me and my writing a chance on this platform. 💕 
Part 1 | Part 2 | Part 3 | Part 4 | Part 5 | Part 6 | Part 7 | Part 8 | Part 9 | Part 10 | Part 11 | 
Professor Min met your gaze when you called out his name. Despite his dark raincoat, black face mask, and matching cap, you recognized his slight musky scent and soft gaze. For a moment, he stood there and observed you and Jungkook, who were still holding each other in a protective embrace.
You were relieved to see a familiar face, but his brooding appearance sent shivers down your spine. 
“Professor Min?” Jungkook said warily. The booming thunder and bright flash of lightning didn’t help quell your worries as it illuminated the professor’s dark figure. It wasn’t long when he began to charge towards you both. 
You squeezed Jungkook’s arm instinctively, wanting to run. But then he stopped a couple feet away, his eyebrows raised with anticipation. Pulling his face mask down, he asked, “Are you two… back to normal?”
Jungkook and you looked at each other before letting go. 
“Yes. It’s us,” you answered. Professor Min let out a huge sigh of relief before tackling you both in a group hug. Your eyes widened, not expecting such affection from him.
“Thank goodness,” he whispered, trying his best not to choke on his words. “I’m so glad.”
“Are you crying?” Jungkook asked, letting a chuckle slip past his lips. You giggled when Yoongi made sniffling sounds. 
“N-No. Just hush and let me hug y’all for a moment.”
Now in the safe confines of Professor Min’s car, the three of you were on your way back to campus. Luckily for you the professor came prepared and had a spare change of clothes and blankets to keep you warm. He also returned your phone, which was the key in finding your whereabouts. 
When the device was turned on at the pawn shop, a ping was sent to his phone and he immediately set out looking for you. After locating your lost phone, he wandered around town in hopes of finding you next. News had spread like wildfire about a “loose rampaging beast”, so he followed the hysteria and it led him straight to you and Jungkook.
(And he might have run into the same cops who tried to shoot you but it’s okay, he erased their memories with a potion spray after interrogating them.)
There were many things he wished to discuss, but you asked him to hold off until your energy was replenished. 20 minutes later, the vibrations of the car had lulled you into a peaceful sleep.
“[Y/N]?” Yoongi took a glance in the rearview mirror to see your head drooping onto Jungkook’s shoulder. “[Y/N].”
“She’s asleep,” Jungkook informed. “Probably exhausted from all she’s been through.”
“You’ve been through a lot too. Are you going to sleep?”
“No,” he covered you up some more with the blanket, “not yet.”
“Hmm,” Yoongi murmured, keeping his eyes on the road. “There’s something I wanted to discuss with you. That is, if you’re up for it.”
“Sure. Should [Y/N] hear this too?”
“No. Not yet. I don’t want to upset her.”
It was quiet for a moment as Jungkook peered down to look at you. For once you seemed so at peace that he didn’t have the heart to disturb you anyway. Whatever the professor had to say, he could always tell you later. 
“Okay. What is it?”
Yoongi gripped the steering wheel tighter and then cleared his throat to speak,
“While you were gone, I’ve been doing some research on my own about H.O.P.E. Let me ask you this. Don’t you feel like there’s something off about everything that’s happened so far?”
“I’m not following.”
“I guess what I’m trying to say is… do you have any reason to believe maybe Hoseok wasn’t behind everything that’s happened?” Jungkook froze, his lips parted open in shock but no words were able to come out. Yoongi met his wide doe eyes in the rearview mirror. “You do. You think Hoseok might be innocent.”
“No, no. Hold on a second,” Jungkook muttered, quite flustered as shame overcame him. “I saw him kill [Y/N]. He stabbed her right in front of me. He’s a murderer and a liar and—”
“He could have been framed. Blackmailed. Possessed, I don’t know.”
“There’s no proof!” You stirred a bit in your sleep and Jungkook shut his mouth until you settled down.
“I’ve been trying to find proof,” Yoongi informed in a hushed voice, being cautious of his volume level. “I feel like I’ve been missing something, so I went back to Hoseok’s house. There was this sewing room.”
“I don’t understand, what’s the significance of that?”
“Mr. and Mrs. Jung used to sew clothes for a living. After they got new jobs, they had enough money to fund H.O.P.E. But! They didn’t buy their masks from somewhere else. They handmade them.”
“So?”
“Some of their old sketches were left behind. Look at the designs I found versus the one Hoseok had.”
Yoongi reached over to the passenger’s seat, grabbed an item, and handed it back to Jungkook. The boy took the worn-out journal and flipped it open.
“Page 13,” Yoongi informed. “That’s the final sketch for the masks.”
Jungkook went to the page immediately and stared at the design, searching for anything out of the ordinary. The symbol on the mask was the same as he remembered it—two arrows intersecting each other with a full moon on top. Inside the moon were small letters that spelled out H.O.P.E.
“This looks like the mask we found at the school…” Jungkook said, unsure of what revelation he was supposed to have. 
“It’s not obvious at first, but there is a clear difference between what you see there and what I have here,” Yoongi slipped his hand in his pocket but then bit his lip. “I have the mask with me, but I don’t want to trigger anything by showing you it.”
Jungkook peered down at you once again, hearing your soft snores as you slept soundly for the first time in weeks. He owed it to you to find out the truth, whatever that may be. 
“I’ll be okay. Let me see it.”
With his consent, the professor pulled out the mask from his pocket and handed it back to the boy, making sure to keep his eyes on the road. Jungkook held his breath upon having the item in his possession. The black fabric, the slits where the eyes and mouth go, the symbol on the forehead—all of it brought flashbacks of the scavenger hunt. 
“Jungkook, are you okay? Focus,” Yoongi urged. The boy snapped out of his daze. His mind couldn’t be a hindrance to him. Not now.
“Sorry,” he said, taking a moment to clear his head. After closer inspection, he managed to pick up on the differences between the original and the sketch. “Hold on… the font for H.O.P.E. is different here. And the moon’s craters aren’t in the same place. Even the arrows are in a different style.”
“Exactly. From far away, you would never be able to tell, but the mask from Hoseok’s room is not the same as the original sketches. If his family was behind what happened at the scavenger hunt, why would they send someone who didn’t wear their custom mask?”
“I don’t know…”
“This proves whoever was at the scavenger hunt wasn’t sent by H.O.P.E. As cruel as they are, I don’t think it was them. I think someone tried to replicate the mask from memory to shift blame.”
The longer Jungkook stared at the mask, the more his grip tightened on it. Hoseok still stabbed you. Killed you. Even if the professor’s suspicions were right, there was no excuse for his actions. Hoseok had betrayed everyone. 
“Okay. Defending Hoseok and his family is one thing, but how can you be so confident in suggesting H.O.P.E. as a whole had absolutely nothing to do with this? Mr. Yang tried to continue their mission, no?”
“But Mr. Yang didn’t have any resources. The Jungs took back everything. You can see in the back of the journal there’s an inventory page that includes weapons and masks. All of it was  burned, according to Mrs. Jung’s notes. Seems like they left in a rush and wanted to start fresh.”
“I’m not convinced. Or I’m not sure what this all means. How did you even find this book?”
“It was behind a loose brick on the wall.”
“Why didn’t you find it the first time? Why go back now? Why weren’t you thorough? Are you hiding something?”
“Jungkook, why are you being so defensive? The house is massive. Professor Jin searched that room, I didn’t.”
“Pfft… Professor Jin. Of course,” the boy sneered. “Explains a lot. Can’t trust no one.”
“I think he’s also innocent,” Yoongi said, slowly braking to a full stop at the red light. “And before you doubt me, you should consider this: Jin has zero no motive. He would never want to hurt [Y/N].”
“Never want to doesn’t mean never will. She’s been through so much. How can I tell her any of the bullshit you’re spewing when the professor revealed something so personal that sent her over the edge? And Hoseok killed her right in front of me.”
“Listen—”
“No, you listen. You expect me to believe Hoseok and his family and fuck, even those bastards at H.O.P.E might be innocent? Give me something solid. I’ve had enough of these wild theories.”
The light turned green, so Yoongi resumed driving and realized he was low on gas. 
“Alright. Hoseok said there was a mole,” he said in a soft voice. “And I intend to find out who it is. I want you to look inside the mask I gave you.”
The boy was confused at the odd request but flipped the mask inside-out to find nothing. “I don’t see anything.” 
“Feel around for a different texture with your fingers.”
“This is stupid…” Jungkook muttered, running his fingers across the cotton to feel for something out of the ordinary. Towards the bottom of the mask, he did encounter something with a slightly bumpy texture. “What is that?”
Upon closer inspection, he finally saw there was a small embroidery of some logo. The thread was black, so it was difficult to see but not to feel. 
“It’s two S’s shaped like a heart. I looked it up on the web and found out it’s the logo of a small shop called ‘Sweet Seams’,” Yoongi informed. “It’s run by a middle-aged couple, who teach others how to sew, knit, and crochet. They take commissions. I want you to listen to this phone call I had with one of the owners.”
Yoongi pulled into a nearby gas station and parked the car before pulling out his phone. He found the audio file of the recorded conversation, pressed play, and turned around to let Jungkook hear it on speaker. 
“Hello, this is Mrs. Yoo from Sweet Seams! How may I help you?” a cheery woman’s voice asked, kicking off the conversation.
“Hi, I heard you take commissions. Is that right?” Yoongi replied. 
“That is correct. We can sew, knit, or crochet whatever you like as long as it’s within our means. How did you hear about us?”
“I have this ski mask you made for uh… my friend. And I saw your logo on the inside.”
“My goodness, you are observant! My husband and I like to embed our company name in all our products. Like a little secret… isn’t that fun? Also because a lot of people cut off the tags. Those who mention it get a 5% discount!”
“That’s really nice.”
“We’re a small shop still trying to get more recognition, so we do whatever we can! You asked for a commission, correct?”
“Yes, I was wondering if you could make me the same thing you made my friend. It’s this ski mask with two arrows intersecting and a full moon on top and—”
“The word ‘hope’ in the center? I very much remember that request!” Mrs. Yoo giggled. “It was quite peculiar, but who am I to judge? I think your friend said it was for a costume party or something? I’ll never understand youngsters.”
Mrs. Yoo’s laugh over the phone became more obnoxious and hearing Yoongi’s fake laughter blend in with hers made Jungkook snort because it was too amusing. 
“Yeah… costume party… haha.” 
“I saved the pattern from last time. It’s somewhere in our shop… I think. I’ll find it later. Would you like me to make it the exact same way? Same size, same colors, same everything?”
“Yes please.”
“Okay, let me put in your request on the computer,” The slow click-clack of her keyboard filled the silence of the call for a couple minutes. “It will cost $12.00. But shipping will be $5.00 more unless you want to come pick it up in a few days.”
“Did my friend pick it up in person?”
“Hm? No, I believe he had it shipped to him or uh, she had it shipped. Is your friend a boy or a girl because on the phone, I couldn’t tell.”
“Can you confirm for me if it was my friend who you sold the mask to? A lot of us wanted this particular mask.”
“Really? Then why didn’t they order more than one?”
“... Well, what was the name on the order?”
“I can’t disclose that information, hun. Besides, the mask was made so long ago and my memory is foggy.”
“You remember the design but not who bought it? Do you not have records kept?”
“The mask was made when we were first starting out. We didn’t even have a website or anything back then. Technology is so gosh darn difficult… We’re still trying to find new hires too. I’m really not good with names. Sorry hun. Do you still want to order the mask?”
Yoongi sighed, disappointed at how the interrogation was going. He needed another tactic. “Sure. You can deliver it to where my friend had it sent.”
“I don’t remember your friend’s address,” she said with a chortle. “Can I have a name for the order?”
“Min Yoongi.”
*Click clack, click clack*
“Is there a specific address you can tell me to deliver it to?”
“Hmm, okay, um, you can deliver it to my workplace. BTS University at XXXX Street in XXXX City, XXXXX.
“BTS University at XXXX Street in XXXX City, XXXXX,” she repeated, typing the information into the system. 
“BTS University?” a gruff man’s voice said in the background. “Isn’t that where we sent that ridiculous ski mask design months ago?”
“Honey, you’re home!” Mrs. Yoo exclaimed. “I’m on the phone with a customer.”
“Does your husband remember who ordered it?!” Yoongi asked with urgency, ultimately blowing his cover. “Please, I need to know.”
There were some hushed whispers and mumbling voices for a moment until Mr. Yoo took the phone away from his wife. 
“Hi, Mr. Min? We can’t disclose customer information over the phone even if it’s your friend. You’ve made my wife very uncomfortable with all these questions.”
“I understand that. It wasn’t my intention, but I just need confirmation. I’ll pay for the mask.”
“We don’t remember because our systems back then were very old and outdated. Our shop has grown since then and we didn’t start keeping track of customer’s information online until a month ago.”
“But you remembered it was sent to my university?”
“I guess I let that slip, yes.”
“Sir, if you could just tell me the name of who ordered the mask, I’d really appreciate it.”
“I told you. We don’t remember. Have a good day.”
END CALL
Jungkook’s eyes widened in alarm. “So this mask really wasn’t from the hunters… someone from our school ordered it and had it delivered there.”
Yoongi put his phone away. “I’m afraid so. The mole is real. Hoseok is telling the truth.”
“We should go to the shop. They might be lying and I can compel them.”
The professor shook his head. “I think they were telling the truth. My priority is getting you and [Y/N] back to the university first.”
“Where a dangerous criminal mastermind walks among us? No.”
“Here me out. The shop is very far from us and I don’t want to involve the owners any more than I already have. They’re innocent. I fear who we’re after will hurt them if we investigate.” 
“What about us? Your students? We’ve suffered enough.”
“But I can’t shake this feeling that something has happened to Jin, Hoseok, and his family. I haven’t been able to contact him since he left and the fact that I can’t track down Hoseok’s parents after they moved bothers me.”
The frustration Jungkook was experiencing was unbelievable. His hand quickly found yours underneath the blanket and he held it tight, your warmth soothing his mood. 
“I want to catch this bastard.”
“I may already know who it could be.”
His mouth parted into an ‘o’ shape. “Who?!”
“First of all… has [Y/N] told you about Jimin?”
“... What about Jimin? Is he…? Is it him?!”
Professor Min looked away. “Maybe. I need to fill up on gas.”
“Wait, you need to explain.”
You stirred in your sleep and squeezed Jungkook’s arm, letting out a small whine. Yoongi put a finger to his lips. 
“Hush. Has [Y/N] told you about Jimin and her mother?”
“What? No.”
“I thought so. Look, her mother told me some things and it’s not my place to share right now. If you want to know more, I suggest you ask [Y/N] about it once she wakes up. For now, let’s get ourselves home.”
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You, Jungkook, and Yoongi arrived back on campus at the crack of dawn. The professor advised you two to get some rest before retreating to his room, unable to refrain from yawning himself. You were still half-asleep and used Jungkook as a crutch to hold you up as he walked you back to your dorm.
“Will you stay with me?” you asked softly. 
“There’s no place I’d rather be,” Jungkook replied, kissing the top of your head. You smiled and unlocked your dorm room, finding it to be empty. Aside from your side of the room, the dorm was unusually clean. Almost as if it had been abandoned for weeks. Ari’s absence was clear and you assumed she had been staying with Jimin.
It didn’t matter though because all you craved was to lay in bed with the love of your life. You took his hand and led him to the soft mattress. Once you got under the covers, you patted the spot next to you and he happily joined. He was the big spoon this time, wrapping his arm over you in a protective embrace. You relaxed and so did he as you both passed out into sweet slumber. 
“Where am I?”
It was pure darkness for one second, but then you heard it. A blaring alarm coming from behind you, painting your body in a red glow. You quickly turned around to see a dark figure was storming your way. 
“Come on!” Your head spun around to the front to see Ari, who left no time for you to react as she grabbed your hand and forced you to run. 
“Ari? What’s going on?” you cried, feeling the adrenaline in you spike. 
“We can’t let her get us!”
“Who?! Where are we going?!”
You turned your head back to see the dark figure extend out her hand, shooting a bolt of lightning your way. Your quick reflexes allowed you to duck in time, but the attacks kept coming. Ari screamed when it scorched her leg, falling down with a loud thud. You stopped running.
“[Y/N], go!” She held her palm out towards you and used her powers to push you far away with a strong gust of air. As the dark figure approached her, the red glow followed and Ari defended herself by launching attacks based on the 4 elements. Whoever this person was, they deflected all her attacks and grew in size. Their shadow expanded like a thick fog about to consume Ari.
You couldn’t sit still. Even in your dreams, you had your speed and used it to your advantage. Despite everything that’s happened so far, you didn’t have the heart to leave Ari behind. You got in front of her and hugged her, closing your eyes.
“[Y/N]...” she whispered, her eyes welling up with tears. 
“I’m not leaving you.”
Her arms wrapped around you as she closed her eyes as well, accepting her fate alongside you. The darkness enveloped your bodies but not for long. A powerful white glow prevented it from prevailing. You opened your eyes in confusion to see your necklace fired up. The shadow couldn’t beat the light as it pierced through the darkness with such intensity. 
You heard a wild screech as the shadow shrunk back to its regular size. The dark figure was flung back as the radiant energy from your necklace expanded exponentially. 
“Ari, we got to go,” you said, grunting from pulling her up onto her feet.
“Ow, ow, ow, my leg,” she whined, stumbling in place. You threw her arm over your shoulder and held her waist. 
“I’ve got you.”
“[Y/N], you can’t trust her!” a deep, yet somewhat familiar voice shouted at you. You turned around, forcing Ari to hop on her leg and face the same way. Staring at the figure as it got up from the ground, you managed to make out the silhouette. That body shape… that height…
The dark figure walked towards you both, but you didn’t feel compelled to run away. 
“No. You can’t trust her!” Ari argued.
“That’s rich coming from you,” The mysterious figure stepped closer, allowing the light from your necklace to illuminate her face. You dropped your jaw in disbelief. “Considering that you’re me.”
“Ari…? You’re… how…?” 
Two Aris. Impossible. 
The one in front of you was painfully cliche in terms of “evil.”  Dark lipstick, black veins bulging from her neck and temples, heavy eyeliner, a devilish smirk. A stark contrast from the Ari you were protecting. 
“She’s right…” Ari said, her voice weak and defeated. “Don’t trust me. But don’t trust her either. Avoid me! And especially avoid—”
A dark appendage wrapped around her mouth, preventing her from saying any more. Her muffled screams were the last thing you heard as she was ripped away from you. 
“ARI!!!”
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You woke up in a cold sweat. “Ari!”
Jungkook was sitting at your desk working on something but immediately ran to your side once he heard you wake up. 
“Hey, hey, hey, what’s wrong?” He rubbed your back soothingly, coaching you to breathe in and out. 
“It was awful, Ari was taken away from me and she was trying to warn me and I just—I couldn’t save her!” you blurted out. 
“Slow down, I can’t understand you.” You tried your best to gather your thoughts and then shared some more details about your dream with him. “So… there were two Aris in your dream and one was evil?”
“Yeah. But she told me not to trust her or the evil-looking one. And I think she was about to warn me about someone else when she was taken away from me. It was scary. I’ve never seen so much… darkness. Her aura was terrifying. Like she had no soul left.”
“I’m sorry you had to go through that. Last time you two talked, it wasn’t all that pleasant. Maybe your dream was reflecting that?”
“About how our friendship is falling apart?” You scoffed. “She said some messed up things to me before I left, yet I still care about her. Sucks.”
“What did she say? I remember how she treated you when Jimin got his room searched.”
“Ugh… Jimin,” you muttered. “Ever since she started dating him, she’s changed a lot. We got into this fight when I tried to warn her about Jimin’s blood addiction. He’s a ripper, you know. I… Um…”
You hesitated to go on because a realization dawned on you. Jungkook didn’t know a thing about Jimin’s past, your mother’s past, how you read his file, and more. What would he think of you?
“Hey…” he said in a gentle voice. He caressed the side of your face with a feather-like touch. “You know you can tell me anything, right?”
You grabbed his hand and kissed the back of it. “I know but… I’m afraid.”
“Is it because Jimin and your mother are somehow connected?” Your eyes widened and you dove for your nightstand, alarming the boy. Grabbing a lighter, you lit the privacy candle and sealed your room in a purple glow as the calming scent of lavender spread through the air. “Whoa, what’s happening?”
You went back to your original position on the bed. “Without Ari here, I’m not sure how private our room is. So I lit the candle to be safe. How do you know about my mother and Jimin?”
“I-I don’t,” he answered, worried he had struck a nerve. Your glare intimidated him into feeling  deep regret for even asking. “Professor Min said your mother told him some things. And he told me it wasn’t his place to share and to ask you once you were awake…”
“What? My mom… told him? Is Professor Min trustworthy?”
“I don’t know.”
You let out a heavy sigh. “I knew I would have to tell you about this eventually, but it’s a lot. Are you ready?”
“Ready as I’ll ever be. And only if you want to tell me.”
“Will you hold me?”
He wrapped his arm around your waist and pulled you in closer, so that your head would rest on his shoulder. Gently rocking you back and forth, he squeezed your shoulder. “Always.”
You proceeded to explain everything from the very beginning. Your family’s history, your mother’s affair, how Jimin had been dessicated, anything you could think of. Somewhere along the way you lost control and kept word-vomiting until there was nothing left to reveal.
Jungkook hung onto every word, furrowing his eyebrows at some parts and gasping at others. His mind was racing a mile a minute as he processed the overload of information. 
“... Please say something. You’re scaring me.” You waved your hand in front of Jungkook’s face until he snapped out of his thoughts. 
“Sorry. I’m at a loss for words…” You clutched onto your blanket tightly, fearing the worst. He was going to leave you. And who could blame him with a messed up family history like yours? “I had no idea what you were going through this whole time. God, I’m so stupid.”
You lifted your head up to meet his gaze. “What?”
“You’ve endured so much…” He balled his fist and slammed it on the nightstand, causing it to shake. You flinched at the sudden action. “That bastard is a fucking liar.”
“Who…?”
“Do you still have the photos of Jimin’s file on your phone?”
“Uh, yeah. I think.” You pulled it out of your pocket, unlocked it, and went to your gallery. Jungkook swiped the device from you as soon as you tapped on the correct photo. He glossed over the unimportant parts and zoomed in on a particular section.
“It says here he doesn’t remember who turned him. But he does. He told me.”
“Jimin did?”
“Yes. The night of the banquet he told me about his past and how his babysitter turned him and how much he loved her.”
“This whole time… he knew who my mother was. He remembers. Oh god.” You were trembling, placing a hand on your chest to calm yourself with deep breaths. Jungkook got off the bed, went to your desk to grab something, and came straight back.
“You need to listen to me and take a look at this.” He handed you the ski mask, noticing how your demeanor changed to a serious one. 
“Is this…?”
“Look at that mask and look at this sketch.” He flipped Mrs. Jung’s journal to a certain page. 
“But I don’t understand.” You cross-referenced the hunter mask with the picture like he asked and didn’t see what the big deal was. “They look the same?”
“Okay… please hear me out. It’s going to be unpleasant.”
“I’m already far past uncomfortable. Spill.”
He ran a hand through his hair, letting out a frustrated groan. “On the car ride here, Professor Min and I talked. He’s been trying to find proof as to who’s behind everything that’s happened so far. And… he thinks Hoseok and his family might be innocent.”
“... You’re kidding.”
“Please don’t be upset.”
You got out from under the covers and off the bed, crossing one arm over the other. “Hoseok betrayed us. He murdered me. He’s the reason why I can’t ever have a family! His family were a group of hunters who went after us!”
“I know, I know, I know.”
“No, you don’t. Otherwise you would not even consider the professor’s words. He can’t be trusted. Great. Who’s left? Who can I trust? Has everyone gone mad?” You threw your arms up with a huff and headed towards the door. Jungkook sprinted to block the exit just in time with both objects in hand. “Get out of my way.”
“I can’t. You have to listen to this. Professor Min went back to Hoseok’s house and found this journal. The Jungs handmade every single mask for H.O.P.E. and this has the original designs. It doesn’t match the mask from the scavenger hunt.”
“So what?”
“Look at them closely. Why would they send a hunter the day of the scavenger hunt with a mask that wasn’t their own? Why suddenly a new design? Hoseok told you there was a mole, right? Whoever the mole was, they ordered a new mask from a small shop and the professor called them. They confirmed the mask was shipped to our campus a few months ago.”
You let his words sink in. There was no way you could let this go when the nightmare was far from over. Jungkook urged you to take another look at the items in his hand, so you gave in and inspected them closely. Now that you were calmer, you did notice some key differences.
“The font is slightly off…” you admitted. “The arrows are different here and so is the moon. It’s a nice fake.”
“See? From far away, it’s hard to tell. But the details aren’t perfect. That means whoever ordered it based it off memory. H.O.P.E. didn’t come after us the second time. Someone from the school did. Hoseok was telling the truth…”
“Okay,” you said, taking a seat at your desk. “Let’s say there’s a chance you’re right. And that’s considering if Professor Min is telling the truth. Who ordered the mask? Did the owners at the shop say?”
“No. They said they don’t remember. But after what you told me, it has to be Jimin. He’s known this entire time who your mother is, who you were. He has a motive.”
“How are we going to prove this?”
He sat in the extra chair next to yours, placing the journal down and flipping to another page. “I’ve been drawing since I woke up.”
“Flowers...?”
“Yes. I remembered something about the hunter. When we were fighting, I caught a glimpse of his body. He has a tattoo under his right nipple near his rib cage.”
You stared at the design in awe. It was a simple pencil sketch, but the amount of detail he was able to put into it was incredible. “It’s quite beautiful. You’re really talented.”
“Thank you, but can we admire my skills later?” You pressed your lips into a straight line at his impatient attitude. 
“Right. Go on.”
“This is the forget-me-not flower. This is what I’ve been suppressing. It’s a major clue and if Jimin has this tattoo, then we can be sure it’s him.”
“And if he doesn’t?”
“Then we keep looking. But I’m sure he has one because when I slept in his room, there was one time I spilled water on him and he full-on panicked. I never understood why but thinking about it now, it’s probably because of the white shirt he had on.”
“Was it see-through?”
“Yes, and he was quick to rush to the bathroom. It was weird.”
“I don’t know about this… last time I shot the dude. No way I can get close to him. In fact, I kind of feel bad for him even though I don’t like him.” You closed your eyes, trying your best not to break down. “Hoseok really hurt me… this is painful.”
“I know he hurt you. Fucked up big time. But if there’s even the smallest chance he was coerced, we have to see this through. Don’t you think his behavior was odd?”
You nodded slowly and opened your eyes. “He did say some weird things before he… you know.” You made the stabbing motion into your stomach. “We just got back… I’m scared. I��m tired. I don’t want to suffer anymore.”
Jungkook pulled you into his embrace and you rested your chin on his shoulder. “I know. I’m scared too. But we have to put an end to this. If Jimin is the culprit, we have to stop him.”
“What if…” Your voice became shaky, “he tries to kill me?”
“I’m not letting that happen. I promise you. He’ll have to kill me first.”
The thought of Jungkook getting hurt in the slightest terrified you. You threw your arms around him and hugged him so tight, he could barely breathe. “Please don’t say that.”
“Baby, it’s okay. We’ll get through this.”
Baby. The first time he ever called you that. “Will you stay with me a while longer? I want to rest some more.”
“Sure.”
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Jungkook left your room once you were comfortable enough to be by yourself. It was time for him to go turn in the mountains and as silent as his footsteps were, he could never escape the chances of running into someone else. 
“Jungkook? JUNGKOOK?!” He was attacked by his roommate in an unexpected embrace. “You’re back, holy shit! I was so worried.”
Jungkook patted Taehyung’s back in an awkward manner until he let go of him. “You were worried… about me?”
“Well… yeah. Why wouldn’t I be? If you were hurt, I’d be hurt too. You’re my friend. You good?”
“Uh… yes.”
“No wounds? Everything normal? Because if you’re not feeling well, you should tell me.”
“I’m fine. I’m surprised you’re not asking about—” 
“Is [Y/N] back? I have to see her!”
“... No. She isn’t. Professor MIn found me and we gave up trying to find her.”
The slight shift in his eyes gave the boy more than enough reason for doubt. “You’re lying to me. She’s back! I’m going to see her.” 
Jungkook blocked him. “No. Leave her alone. She’s tired.”
Taehyung couldn’t help but let out a dry laugh. “Is that so? What, are you going to stop me? You don’t get to order me around. Not after taking off like that.”
“I had my reasons.”
The werewolf scoffed, maintaining a stoic face while using his hands to animate his words. “Sure~. Running off to go find [Y/N] despite the professor’s strict orders to stay put.”
“You wanted to run off too.”
“But I didn’t. While you were gone, things got worse around here. I don’t know if you’ve noticed”—he made a grand gesture to the empty lobby— “but almost everyone has left campus.”
Jungkook took a look around.  “Now that you mention it, it has been pretty quiet around here. What happened?”
“Professor Kim let most students take their winter break early. But honestly it’s because their parents kept complaining about the lack of safety at school, especially after what happened with [Y/N]. Not many chose to stay.”
“I see…”
“They fear her, but I don’t. I need to talk to her.”
“And I said leave her alone,” Taehyung met his threatening glare but held his composure. He didn’t snap back but merely stared deep into Jungkook’s eyes with a straight face. That infuriated him even more. “As your alpha, I’m giving you an order.”
A smile broke onto Taehyung’s face. “It’s cute how you think you’re still alpha. Most of the wolves are gone. Without a pack, your word means nothing.”
Jungkook snatched his wrist when he tried to walk around him but in a matter of seconds, Taehyung managed to turn the situation around. He twisted Jungkook’s arm behind his back, kicked the back of his knees, and forced him down to the ground. It all happened so fast; Jungkook was still processing his defeat.
“Ow, ow, ow, what the fuck? Let go!”
Taehyung locked him in that position with no intention of listening. “I’m not someone to mess with, Kook. I learned how to defend myself while you were gone. I want [Y/N] to know I’m here for her. That I love her.”
“Well she loves me!”
That was when Taehyung finally let go. Jungkook rolled his shoulder to ease the pain before standing up. 
“What?” Taehyung clenched his fist and refrained from grinding his teeth inside his mouth out of anger. 
“She loves me. She wants to be with me. I understand you and her have history, but I know more than ever that she is who I want to be with for the rest of my life. And I hope you can respect that.”
“She told me she loved me first. Before you guys ever left. Is she your girlfriend? Did she call you her boyfriend?”
“Well… no but labels don’t matter. We bonded.”
“No. You’re deluding yourself. That’s just the sire bond making you both think you have a connection. Once that’s gone, will you still feel the same for her?”
“Yeah. I know I will.”
“How many days do you have left? Around 10?”
“Yeah… exactly 10. Are you keeping track?”
“Why wouldn’t I? As soon as the bond is broken, you and her will realize it was the only thing keeping you together. It’s temporary. You’re temporary. And I know you fear my words being true.”
“Shut up.”
“It’s inevitable and you know it.”
“Shut up!” Jungkook roared as he grabbed him by the collar. 
“Go ahead. Hit me. You never could control your temper. What will [Y/N] think?”
The staring contest between them lasted for what seemed like a few minutes before Jungkook finally let him go. “I have to go turn anyway. You’re not worth it.”
Jungkook headed towards the door but didn’t fully exit before Taehyung spoke up again, 
“When that day comes—the day you and her are no longer connected—there will be a time when she needs you the most and you won’t be there for her. You won’t know when she’s in danger. You won’t know when she’s sad. You won’t know at all and it’ll drive you crazy. And that’s when I’ll step in. I don’t need to have a bond to know what she’s feeling. Anyway, I’ll let her be for now.”
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You slept in for a while longer but as soon as you regained some energy, you made your way to Professor Min’s office. Wasting no time, you confronted him on what he told Jungkook and learned more about the severity of the situation. Jimin was a prime suspect, but you still had your doubts. 
Could you really trust Professor Min? Out of all the professors, he was the one you’ve interacted with the least. However, you weren’t blind to his contributions to the school. Namjoon may have been the headmaster, but he heavily relied on Yoongi for almost everything. 
Years ago, his vast knowledge of the supernatural and occult was what earned him an internship at the school. Now he was a professor, research assistant, and historian all in one. He was quiet but extremely attentive to all his students. The type to show he cared through his actions rather than words.
Today was the first time you’ve heard him speak for an extended period of time other than when  he’s giving a lecture in class. You asked him questions and he answered them, offering full transparency. 
“You told Jungkook about my mother?”
“I told him he’d have to ask you about that. It wasn’t my place to say more.”
“Well, thank you…” You gave him a small smile. “For respecting me and allowing me to tell him myself. If my mother has told you about her past, that must mean you’re trustworthy. Unless you’re not.”
“You can doubt me if you want. But I won’t stop until the person responsible for all this madness is caught. And I think we both know who that is.”
He leaned forward to rest his arms on his desk as you sat up straight. “Jimin. Yeah. Jungkook told me all about what you found out. It turns out Jimin does remember my mother.”
Yoongi’s eyebrows raised in alarm. “See?! I’m right!”
“But we need definitive proof. I want you to stay out of it and let Jungkook and I take care of this.”
“No. I’m done with my school falling apart. Professor Jin is gone. Hoseok is gone. More than half the school is gone.”
“Yeah, what’s up with that? I noticed on my way here there was barely anyone.”
“Well…” he shifted his eyes away from yours for a second, hesitant on telling you the truth. “They’re on winter break early. Due to… safety concerns from parents.”
“I see. So they’re afraid of me.”
“It’s not your fault. We have to stop Jimin. Ever since he started training and patrolling with Professor Kim, I’ve been worried. The professor hasn’t been acting like himself and he knows everything that I know. It’s like he doesn’t care.”
“Do you think Jimin did something to him?”
“I’m not sure. There was a time when they went out searching for you right after you left and they didn’t come back right away. Said something about running into you up north and fighting them.
An incredulous gasp escaped you. “I never ran into them. I never even saw them. What?!”
“So you’re telling me you never encountered them? That means Namjoon lied…”
Your breath became shaky and soon, you were hyperventilating. Yoongi managed to calm you down and you realized you had no choice but to trust him. It was a risk you had to take, considering Namjoon had lied. Professor Min was all you had left in terms of an authority figure. 
“Are you alright?”
“I-I’m fine. But there’s something you should know. The mole has a tattoo. Here, I took a picture of it on my phone. Jungkook dreamed about it and drew it. And he’s investigating it now.”
“What? We need to come up with a solid plan together. What is he even doing?”
“I don’t know… but I trust him. He’ll find out what we need. And if not, I think I’ve got an idea.”
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Taehyung was sitting outside with a yoga mat beneath him. Back tall, legs crossed, and eyes closed, he took a deep breath in as he raised his hands up slowly. Then he let go of the tension and brought his hands back down. Ever since you left, meditating has kept him sane. 
“Taehyung.” Mostly sane. The first few times he did this your voice was all he could hear. Took him a while to realize you were truly gone. “Kim Taehyung.”
His eyes fluttered open to see he wasn’t imagining things for once. Instead of him coming to you, you had come to him. 
“[Y/N]...” He looked up at you, eyes were wide and pure. The way his mouth was parted open slightly in awe was endearing.
“Hey. I’m back…” He was still in shock, unable to utter a word. “It’s really me.”
“I knew you were back.”
“And you didn’t come looking for me straight away?” you asked in a joking manner. He couldn’t help but smile, shaking his head and making his fluffy hair bounce. 
“Jungkook told me you wanted to rest.”
“I did… but I’m better now. May I take a seat next to you?”
“Go ahead.”
You sat down next to him on the yoga mat, realizing what you had to do next was like ripping off a bandaid. The sooner you did it, the better. “I need to talk to you.”
“Me too. Let me go first.”
“I really think I should go first,” you insisted. But Taehyung was impatient.
“[Y/N], I don’t care what happened between you and Jungkook,” he turned his body towards you, “I love you and that is never gonna change.”
“Tae…”
He grabbed both your hands with a sense of urgency. “You love me too. You told me before you left. And once the sire bond between you and Jungkook ends, you’ll realize it was the only thing keeping you two together.”
You retracted your hands at lightning speed. “That’s not true. You don’t know anything. The sire bond only affects actions, not feelings. Our feelings are amplified through the bond because we truly care about each other.”
“How do you know that for sure? There’s not much research that’s been done on it. Face it. If the sire bond wasn’t a thing, you and Jungkook would have never been forced to deal with each other.”
“You don’t know that. I can be myself with Jungkook,” you said, patting your chest with one hand as you spoke from your heart. “He knows everything about me and accepts me as I am.”
“Because you’ve told him everything! You always hold back with me even though I’ve never pushed you!” he shouted, practically popping a vein.
“Don’t raise your voice at me…” you breathed, startled from his sudden raise in volume. His dark aura faded when he saw the scared expression on your face, making sure to center himself and count to ten in his head before speaking again.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have done that.” He tried reaching for your hand again, but you refused to let him touch you. 
“No. Don’t.” You scoffed and directed your gaze somewhere else. “I’ll admit I haven’t told you enough. And I appreciate you not forcing me to share. But there is so much about me and my past I couldn't bring myself to tell you. It’s fucked up. I’m the definition of fucked up.”
“Well tell me now then. All of it. Let me hear it.”
“It’s not that simple. Look, my very first boyfriend found out something about me and left me. I don’t share my past with just anyone.”
“But you told Jungkook everything, didn’t you?”
“I wanted to.”
“Damn it, [Y/N]. I thought you could tell me anything. We used to be so close.”
“Yes. Used to.”
“Just tell me!” he exclaimed, desperate for you to open up. You stared at him, bewildered as to why he was being so pushy. 
“What’s the matter with you? I don’t know where to start!” you shouted back.
“Maybe start with the fact that you’re sterile!” You dropped your jaw in shock and Taehyung scoffed, thinking he was so clever for exposing your secret. “Yeah. That’s right. I know. And I don’t fucking care if you are. I still want to be with you.”
“Who told you…” you said in a hushed voice. Taehyung didn’t reply, which prompted you to unleash your anger. “WHO TOLD YOU?!”
“... I read your file,” he answered in a calm manner. “You read mine.”
“What? I never did!” 
“You told Ari you did.”
“When did you hear that?!”
“Before you left!”
“Look, I lied to Ari and told her I read your file because I was busy investigating someone else. Not you.”
“Investigating who?”
“… A lead. Do you know anyone who has a tattoo at our school?”
“What? Stop changing the subject. You don’t have to lie anymore.”
“But I’m not lying.”
“I’m not mad you read my file. Now you know my past and I know yours. We’re even.”
“I never read your file!” you exclaimed, exasperated as hell. 
“Don’t you see? It doesn’t matter! I still want to be with you. And I can give you something Jungkook never would.”
“What are you even on about?”
“Let me be sired to you.”
Your face twisted into one of disgust, abhorred at him spewing such a bogus request. “No.”
“Why not? I’m offering you my loyalty for life. You never have to worry about me cheating on you. I’ll do whatever you want without question.”
“Are you serious?”
“More than I’ve ever been about anything. Turn me into a hybrid too. Make me yours.”
You were appalled that he could suggest something so easily. What’s worse was how sincere he was with his request too as if turning him was a simple task that didn’t involve dying. He kept staring at you with a certain glint in his eyes, hopeful you’d say yes. 
But that was never going to happen. You stood up and balled your fists by your sides.
“No. I don’t wanna ‘make’ you do anything. That’s not love. I believe in free will. You should be able to make your own choices at all times. And being bound to me will not bring you happiness and it definitely isn’t what I want either.”
Taehyung got up from the mat too, wetting his lips in preparation for his rebuttal. “I am giving you consent.”
“Consent to what? Killing you?! Tae, stop. This is insane. I turned Jungkook out of necessity to save his life. It’s not something to be taken lightly.”
“And look at how he repaid you! Treating you like a thorn in his side, making you sad, and seeing the sire bond as a hindrance. Then there’s me who wants everything he wants to throw away. Why can’t you see that? Why can’t you accept me?”
“Because it’s not right. I care about you, but I love Jungkook,” He could no longer keep a hopeful smile on his face. “This back and forth between us has to stop. I’ve chosen who I want to be with.”
“He’s going to betray you. Once the sire bond ends, he’s not going to love you anymore.”
“Tae, just because you’re hurt doesn’t mean you can say mean things.”
“It’s true! And then you’ll come back to me.” He grabbed you by the shoulders. “You’ll love me.”
“You’re freaking me out…” you whispered. “Please let me go.”
He put his face so close to yours that you could feel his hot breath fan your face. “Never.” 
“Let. Me. Go,” you said sternly.
“Jimin was right… you were never going to choose me.”
“What?”
“I was so stupid. You led me on.”
He was gripping your shoulders so tight that his nails dug deep into the fabric of your shirt, enough to bruise your skin. 
“You’re hurting me…” you whispered. That seemed to bring him back to his senses because he finally released you. 
“You hurt me first. It doesn’t matter what I say, does it? Even if I don’t care about you being sterile… it doesn’t fucking matter.”
“So what? Were you just saying whatever to hear what you want to hear? I know you, Tae. You want kids of your own. So don’t fucking lie to me and say you’re okay with it. I’m not okay with it. I died… do you understand?”
Your emotions were getting the best of you as your breathing grew uneven and your eyes watered. 
“I fucking died and it sucks,” you said, so broken and beaten down. “I’m sorry to break your heart, but everything that’s happened so far is bigger than you and I. I have a mission I need to focus on.”
“Okay,” he said in a gentle voice. You barely got out all those words without choking up, so he gave you a hug and patted your back in an attempt to calm you down. “I get it. We’ll talk about this later.”
You pushed him away. “No! You don’t get it. Look at me.”
That’s all he was doing. “I am—”
“No, look at me!” He shut his mouth and stared at you, too startled by your behavior to say much else. “This is what I’ll look like forever. I’ll never age, never grow old with you. And that’s all you’ve ever talked about with me back then. And having kids. So I know you are not okay with this and if you say you are, I know you’re lying.”
“... We can always adopt.”
“Please don’t make this any more difficult. I know that. But I want my own child who resembles me.”
“Don’t you think Jungkook wants that too? How do you know he’ll stay?”
“Because Jungkook can’t lie to me and never has.”
You got him there. “So there’s not a chance for us at all?”
“Not anymore.”
He could no longer bear to look at you. Instead, he bent down to roll up his yoga mat before tucking under his arm and walking away. His head was hung low and you heard his quiet sobs no matter how hard he tried to hide it. 
Having your humanity back was not worth it in moments like these. The point of talking to Taehyung was to let him down easy and also ask him about Jimin’s possible tattoo. In the end, you were only reminded of all you had lost. Your life, your fertility, and possibly Taehyung for good now. 
*Bzz*
Your phone kept you from dwelling on the situation any longer. When you saw it was your mother calling, flashbacks of how you left things with her ran through your mind. Guilt weighed your heart down, so you had to make things right.
“Hey Mom,” you said in the sweetest voice you could muster. No need to let her know you were feeling like shit.
“Sweetheart, are you alright?” Her voice was frail, like she was on the verge of tears.
“I’m fine, Mom.”
“Yoongi told me he found you and Jungkook. I texted you.”
“Sorry, it’s been crazy… I wanted to rest.”
“I understand. It’s really, really nice to hear your voice again. I was so worried.”
“I know.”
“I knew you could take care of yourself, but without your humanity on I was worried that—”
“Mom.”
“Sorry. I’m smothering you, aren’t I?”
“It’s okay. I’m back to normal.”
“Good. I’m on my break right now and…” You heard a child’s voice in the background. “Hey sweetheart. What’s wrong? Oh, you spilled milk on your wolf plush? It’s okay, I’ll wash it for you.”
You raised an eyebrow. “Is that Sarang?”
“Huh? Oh yes! Sarang is here,” Your mother stepped out of the classroom, carrying the soiled plushie with only her thumb and index finger like it had some disease. She twisted her face into one of disgust as milk leaked all over the tile floor. “One of our teachers is out and we couldn’t find a substitute. I’m watching the class until we do get one. This is the fifth time Sarang has spilled something, I swear.”
You couldn’t help but smile. “She’s precious. How is she by the way? How are all the kids? … Do they hate me?” 
The laugh you added on afterwards was forced in an attempt to make things seem not so serious, but you truly feared the worst. 
“I explained to the kids what was happening to you and why you did what you did. They’re very forgiving, you know. And they don’t hate you. All they kept saying was how they wanted you to come back safe and sound.”
“Aw… that’s so sweet.”
“I’ll talk to you some more later. Right now I gotta go clean this plush or Sarang will be pouty all day. I will never understand why she loves shoving beverages into it.”
“What? How can she shove anything into it? It’s a plushie.”
“There’s a secret pocket on the bottom.”
“Huh???”
“Got to go, love you.”
A wild thought crossed your mind at that moment. Your gut was screaming for you to not ignore it, so you found yourself back in your dorm room in a flash. Your wolf plush was sitting on the shelf above your bed, staring at you with its beady little eyes. 
You climbed on your bed and approached it cautiously. Reaching your hand out, you grabbed it and checked the bottom. Your fingers glided across the soft material until you found a hidden slit. 
‘There really is a secret pocket underneath,’ you thought to yourself. You dug your fingers in and held your breath when you grazed something smooth and tiny.
After pulling the tiny object out slowly, you stared at it in horror.
It was a listening device. 
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Headcanon Time!
Here’s a list of applicable headcanons for this blog! It’s pretty long so I’m putting the individual character heacanons under the read more. These are mainly for the Tainted versions.
General
Eden is the oldest, being just as old as the universe, and Isaac+dead counterparts are the youngest at 18.
Out of the humans, Eve is the oldest at 27.
Samson is the tallest while Lilith is the shortest. Maggy comes close second to Sam. (I have no set heights yet)
Blind Bitch Club (aka needs/has glasses): Eve, Jacob, Keeper, Laz, maybe Sam.
All the Isaacs don't really get along as much as they should
The Tainted characters are older versions of the originals. In the instance of this blog there has been a thirteen-year time skip between when they first left the Basement and when they returned
The Basement is a limbo created by God to give “trials” to abused kids and Fallen beings he feels like tormenting again
Scars accumulate from runs and can be healed quicker by getting HP ups or using the Yum Heart
Personal items (Torn Photo, Polaroid/Negative, Mr. Dolly, possibly some others) differ in appearance based on who’s “player 1”
The Mom-based bosses (minus Mother) and Angel Isaac+??? also change according to “P1”
Mother is Jacob and Esau’s mother. This is why defeating her unlocks them, and why the alt-path is so different and new and coincided with their arrival to the Basement
Age Ideas (Parentheses are Tainted)
Isaac+dead counterparts: 5 (18)
Maggy: 7 (20)
Cain: 10 (23)
Judas: 10 (23)
Eve: 14 (27)
Samson: 11 (24)
Laz: 10 (23)
Beth: 9 (22)
J+E: 9 (22)
Apollyon, Azazel, and Lilith are thousands of years old and are listed in order of time of creation. Eden's age is the estimated age of the universe.
Applicable Headcanons for Each Character
Isaac
Now lives with his dad
That. Explains the bruises.
Named all the unique monsters in the Basement, as well as identified some Items
One thing he and his dead counterparts have in common is a love for drawing
The chaos of having seventeen people crammed into one floor stresses him out more than the others
Appreciates his friendship with all of them, though
Gender is Isaac. Doesn’t really care what pronouns people use so everyone uses he/him for short
Magdalene
She used to be a pageant child and still suffers body issues from it.
The Caffeine Pill item REEAAALLLY upsets her cause of that
V… valley girl accent……….
Assigned healer
BEST HUGS!!!!
Maybe too good. If she's hugging you don't let her get distracted cause she'll forget her own strength
Cain
Has a prosthetic left foot from an accident (havent thought of exactly what yet)
His left eye was gouged out by his dad tho
He's the most generally well-off of everyone. Guess he was just born lucky…
Absolutely was a Little Shit™ as a child and still is
Avid min-maxer in video games
Kleptomaniac
Ok the way I'm describing sounds like he's got a bit of OCD
Often fulfills role as leader when need be
I don't have any ideas for Abel yet but I'll think of something. Maybe he was absorbed in the womb?
You know what??? I like that. Cain's a chimaera. He has (uh. Had???) heterochromia. That's why his eye items are different colors.
Is bald on purpose
Judas
Br*tish. Mancunian, even.
Hanged himself in the closet
His pact was with Belial (obv)
Chose to learn the dark arts when he was nine
Eventually got the stick out of his ass and developed a sense of humor
Still Anti-Christian to the point where it's a bit worrying but the others are starting to understand him
Yes he had a friend named Jesús. It was an unintentional betrayal, though.
???
He can't really talk. All that comes out when he vocalizes are grunts and groans.
Responds to a lot of questions by just. smiling and shrugging 🤷‍♂️
Just. Chilling.
Chaotic and does what he Wants for comedic purposes
Eve
Has a Dead Bird tattoo on her chest.
Needs to take blood-thinning pills.
Forgotten calls her "V" as a reference to his own nickname.
Has a younger brother named Adam
Ma'am please stop smoking it's SO bad for you
Half Japanese cause I said so
She's still marked by the Whore of Babylon on her left thigh, which she got through the Satanic Church
It's undecided which demon she made her pact with. I was thinking about making it a twist where it's Lilith…
The local crows love her
Samson
Back story here
His middle name is Loowit after Mount St. Helens
The only person he fully trusts and can make him smile is Maggy 🥺
Beat his dad to death lmao
He was happier as a kid when his mom was still around…
Now he just has anger issues and gets easily annoyed
Delilah.
Azazel
The OG. It's unknown what his Choir was before his Fall, besides being in the class of Watchers
Has a face mask for every occasion. Ofc there are meme ones
His sense of humor is. SO BAD.
This is where his wings and horn went
Making fun of people is his way of showing affection
Still misses Semjaza even though he was kinda back stabbed 
Lazarus
He is a TOTAL hippy. Vegetarian and all.
Flipped Laz doesn't give a fuck about any personal beliefs though and will do anything to survive. Sometimes regular Laz will flip back with a stomach ache cause he unknowingly ate meat.
Laz subconsciously flips when he feels like he's about to die (kinda like the emergency button trinket). Obv it's automatic when he "clears" rooms.
Normal Laz is very sweet and shy
Dead/Flipped Laz is angry, driven to that point by dying so many times. His rage could almost match Samson's
Flipped Laz is incredibly paranoid and is always in fight-or-flight mode
Eden
A fallen deity
Knows more about the world than the others
They are the personification of the chaotic nature of the universe. They are both tranquility and chaos. They are blessed and damned. They are all and nothing.
Judas introduced them to memes. Oh God why did you do that. They're almost as bad as Azazel. They won't stop saying amogus. Help.
Fourth wall breaker
God wanted to make them one of His angels so they'd always be under His control. But Eden is too stubborn.
Eloquent speaker
Shapeshifter cause their true form would melt everyone. Mainly changes their voice to quote ytps.
Lately they’ve been losing some control of their powers, which is why they appear glitchy
Lost
Edgy
Needy
Keep killing him it's funny
Check out his spiders
Backstory thing here
While he knows he can easily die he still fucks with the others cause he thinks its funny
Lilith
The OG
No hard feelings for Adam, but definitely some for God
And Samael. Dear LORD don’t bring him up
Married to Asmodeus
Gello's full name is Gelatínus Azariah Shamdon (yeah lol, Raphael's cover name, and Asmodeus' father)
Assigned mom friend and treats everyone like they’re her children
With help from Azazel, she got Judas and Beth together
In general plays matchmaker with Zaze. They've got a great record it's just 99% of their successful matches are random nobody enemies no one cares about
Incubus doesn’t seem to talk to her anymore...
Keeper
Often forgets the other kids' names cause he never cared to learn them unless they paid up (he always called Bethany Brittany for example)
This is why he gave them all titles and refers to them by that (The Zealot, The Broken, etc)
INSANELY good at math. Gotta be good at counting them coins
Best way I can describe his existence is that he's a corpse inhabited by a fragment of Greed? When he was "unlocked" he was no longer controlled by Ultra Greed/part of the hive mind
Another eloquent speaker, he's more flamboyant about it though
Apollyon
Another OG
If he gets too excited about the Pit eventually taking all, new cracks appear or previous cracks on his body worsen.
His pre-Fall name was Abaddon. It’s unknown what his Choir was.
Abbadon was cocky and prideful but was very quickly humbled by God. Don’t ever shit-talk Gabriel again
His sentences always trail off…
Used to be friends with the Horsemen
Main form of affection is existing in the same room as someone, like a cat. He considers this bonding.
Forgotten
Everyone calls him "F" for short.
He's been hanging around Eve too much cause now he's emo and apathetic like her.
Is the skeleton a different soul??? Who knows!
Uncomfortable in tight spaces. He's not over the being buried thing
Bethany (Her!!!!)
I dunno if that's supposed to be an eye or jewel on her head??? Honestly I kinda prefer jewel
Either way it bleeds when she cries
And it only ever glows if she has an active wisp
Each wisp she summons is gifted by a Goetic demon (I'll explain more once I actually make a ref sheet)
Has a Seal of Solomon ring (again will be on an eventual ref sheet)
Her mom's name is Judy (after Judea in the Bible)
Kinda backstory again
Second soprano in choir
Knew Edith
Only acts tough. She's still sweet on the inside. Her mouth just runs faster than her brain sometimes and regrets things she said
Jacob
J+E backstory here
His mother's name is Rebekah (Like in the Bible)
Momma's boy
Has always been easily jealous and afraid to admit it
Has had a weak stomach ever since he, well, watched his brother get flayed
Blood makes him queasy, cause, well--
We all know he simps for Beth. Dude please just let it go
Currently wearing his mother’s dress
Esau
Much like in the Bible he's the older, fraternal twin
And his dad liked him more…
His vision doesn't suck ass like Jacob's cause of his pact
Which he made with Satan btw
The reason why he's grabbed by Big Horn when he "dies" is because Esau babysits Lil Horn for him. It's the least he can do.
Speaking of Lil Horn that's his little onglydoople. His cutest tootsit. Bapy
I wanted to be dramatic and only have him in serious situations but it's honestly more fun to make him act like an angry cat
Friends with the demon bosses. Yes he gets a lot of "Remember when we tried to kill u??? Lol." jokes from them
I tried to make sure everyone had at least a few. Some definitely have fewer than others lol. I tried my best.
Feel free to, like, reblog this or message me about this. I came up with these on my own so peer review would be nice 👉👈
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Ten Characters I Fell in Love With in 2021 pt. 3
All the characters in part 3 will be from Killer and Healer because I honestly loved all of the characters from Killer and Healer, save for a few.  Part 1 here and Part 2 here
1. Song Rong - Killer and Healer
I just...how can you not love him?!  Like, genuinely, how?  How can you not love him?  He’s such a good subordinate who only wants the best for Jiang Yuelou and who has a lot of love in his heart.  President of the Yuezhi fanclub.  Like, this bitch knew from ep. 1 that Jiang Yuelou and Chen Yuzhi were going to be a thing.  He knew.  Song Rong best boy, honestly
2. Sun Yongren - Killer and Healer
I honestly found him irritating the first time I watched K&H but after rewatching it a million times, I realized that he’s a really good friend, not just to Jiang Yuelou but to Song Rong as well.  He’s also really smart even though some of the shit that comes out of his mouth is really fucking stupid.  Jiang Yuelou wouldn’t have kept him as a subordinate for as long as he did if he was stupid.  Jiang Yuelou doesn’t have time for stupid people.  Vice-President of the Yuezhi fanclub.  Homeboy literally suggested that Jiang Yuelou and Chen Yuzhi get a portrait painted of them together.  I wish he and Yiren had gotten their happy ending
3. Wang Meng - Killer and Healer
I’m honestly a little shook by this one because I wasn’t expecting to love him as much as I did.  Yes, he did bad things but he just wanted to be a good son and make his mom happy and keep her safe (fuck you Jinma Hall).  And he fucking helped Chen Yuzhi and Jiang Yuelou bring down Zhao Jingming?  He didn’t have to do that but he did.  His death actually made me really sad like I wish he didn’t have to die...he would have made a great asset to the police station, honestly (he wouldn’t have joined but like...think of the potential)
4. Chen Keying - Killer and Healer
My baby.  Oh my god, my baby.  I love her.  She didn’t get a lot of screen time but holy shit I love her.  She just wanted to spend time with her brother and grow up to be a doctor just like him.  And she’s so cute!  How could you not love her?  How?!  Tell me
5. Zhong Yiren - Killer and Healer
Another character I’m shocked I fell in love with because she was absolutely annoying as fuck but she grew on me.  I think once she sort of...grew out of her overly prissy phase and started being nice to Chu Ran and Chu Min and fell in love with Yongren is when I started to be like...alright, you’re not so bad.  She definitely grew on me
6. Jin Dacheng - Killer and Healer
This son of a bitch really surprised me.  I honestly hated him/found him annoying from the beginning but as the drama went on, I’m like...okay, you’re not so bad.  And then rewatching the drama a million fucking times I’m like...alright, you’re really not so bad.  Chaotic Police Siblings honestly.  Will I ever forgive him for what he did to Chen Yuzhi in ep. 12?  No.  But he gets to be on this list for everything else that he did, mainly gunning Zhan Tianqing down
7. Chu Min - Killer and Healer
A BABY!  He’s so happy and wants to make his sister proud and he just has a lot of love in his heart and even Zhan Junbai is like...I like this one.  Like how can you hate that face of his?  Another golden retriever puppy whom everyone loves and his death is so fucking sad.  It hurts
8. Bai Jinbo - Killer and Healer
The ultimate dad.  Honestly.  The dad energy this man exudes is just *chefs kiss*.  I mean, he really is Jiang Yuelou’s father and he’s such a dad to Chen Yuzhi as well (like father-in-law material) and his betrayal to Jiang Yuelou hurt me so fucking bad.  Like damn sir, why.  Why why why?  But we ignore that and focus on the good things because he really was a good character.  The ultimate dad and that’s how I’m going to remember him
9. Yuan Zining - Killer and Healer
Honestly, best sister to Yu Tangchun.  Best sister.  I can’t believe she would sacrifice herself for Yu Tangchun but she did and it’s like...damn.  They weren’t even blood siblings but she still did that.  She was also so concerned about him when he got stabbed and just...she’s a good girl, okay?
10. Xiao Bai - Killer and Healer
We stan (1) kitty cat.  Honestly, I love this damn cat.  Such a good kitty.  Founder of the Yuezhi fanclub.  He’s just such a good kitty and he’s the one who alerted Jiang Yuelou about Chen Yuzhi fainting and just...he’s a good kitty, okay?  A good kitty
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SunaOsa fanfic recs: valentines edition~~
SunaOsa is one of my all time favorite ships and this past month, there has been/was an exchange going on between writers (here is the link) and artists (separately) and because I don’t have a life (or maybe it’s just that SunaOsa is my life LOL), I’m here to tell you some of my favorite fics from the pile :D However, as much as I love a ship, sometimes fluff is too asajndajnd so mind you there will probably be a lot of good fics missing just cause I couldn’t get myself to read more fluff (or angst) LOL (IM SORRY but sometimes I also just can’t motivate myself to read a fic no matter how good it looks OOPS).
As always, please check warning and tags before reading any of these fics, and take care of yourselves!!!!
In no particular order (jk the order is last updated haha) tho my favorites will have *** next to them :)
***glass stained black by unrequitedangst (E) 31k // Mafia AU’s are some of my favorite kinds of fics, and this one did not disappoint! The character development of Osamu is really legit and despite being mafia, it’s not that heavy or angst of a fic (but you should still definitely read tags and warnings first). It’s an Osamu heavy fic, and if you’re into reading him being stupid, go right ahead LOL.
redux by catalysis (T) 2.3k // ngl I hate break-up fics with a passion truely (when you can’t handle fluff or angst what to do) but I liked the concept for this one hehe (so I made myself suffer LOL). It was short, but cute !!! and the unspoken words really hit me in the FEELS (so what I’m dramatic fight me LOL).
Impropriety by DeathBelle (T) 5.7k // royalty~ I love the banter between them in this fic and we DO stan respectful Osamu yes we do <33333 The relationships between not only SunaOsa but SunaAtsu (because even though it isn’t really SunaAtsu best friend agenda, I can delude myself into think it is okay :/) are done so well and so nice he’s mean Osamu is best Osamu.
***what are you waiting for? by Slumber (T) 3.7k // MIGHT BE MY FAV FIC FROM THIS EXCHANGE!!! It made me cackle and I love how they learn new things about each other!!!! Like the development is so good and Suna is really doing the MOST!! Also, I love recursive endings AHHHHHH!
agape by sketchedsmiles (T) 11.7k // soulmates, then they were SOULMATES! (ik that’s not how it goes but pls just humor me LOL) This fic really depicted Osamu’s insecurities/internal turmoil/overthinking really well and the realization he has vs Suna’s AHJAFKASFJ. I love confident Suna.
fireside by tartaglia (starkartifices) (T) 3.6k // we do love the subtle flirt flirt don’t we hehe ;) It’s short, it’s fluff, and it’s funny - what more could you ask for? Also whats a vigilante fic if there isn’t at least one pun about being a vigilante LOL.
Over and Over Again by tookumade (G) 6.4k // I would like to order one reassuring, reliable Miya Osamu for myself please and thank you :((( The way the relationship is so GOOD like both Suna and Osamu pick each other up and they know the other has their back ajfhkajdfl. I would purchase all the onigiri with the deal Suna was proposing ;) Onigirintarou.
from here to eternity by TheGlovedArtist (T) 6.6k // I for one am a big fan of mythology and stuff (heroes of olympus but like IDR any of the plot LOL) so of course I read this fic. The snark appearances of Sakusa and Komori gave me LIFE and the difference in descriptions from Astumu and Kita cracked me up. This is another respectful Osamu fic (yes I love these) and in this one it was a ‘I save you as much as you save me’ type beat LOL. Gotta love rings.
***Subtle Inarizaki Dating by sifuhotman (T) 15.2k // THIS ONE. Even if you don’t read the whole thing, I beg of you, please, I AM ON MY KNEES, read the SID for Astumu. It is worth the loss of all your brain calls I guarantee it. It made me giggle so freakin much. Suna might be an A-Hole but he’s OUR A-Hole <3
Forever Begins with 8 Seconds by subtlehues (T) 3.9k // FLUFF hehe, I love their dynamic in this one it’s very good and cute and everything great! Also, I am all for the head cannon that Suna cannot cook, yes pls. Also SUPERPOWERS whooooooooh.
***try again, and again, and again by rosegoldwriting (T) 2.6k // SOULMATES! If you ever wanted a specific soulmate AU! for SunaOsa look no further, it probably comes out LOL. I love this concept of them just being like ‘WTF’ everyday, it gives me life. Also, count how many soulmate AU’s you recognized because I just thought about it and I think it’d be fun LOL. (I went back and I think 11 but I’m not sure LOL)
let us burn by SilverMoonT (G) 13.5k // I am always up for a nice vampire Osamu and witch Suna (which believe it or not, is my second one because I read the other one by this writer LOL) This one is more Suna POV and it really goes into his fears and desires, and I like the way Osamu pushes him to live more freely.
***reasons to microwave an elixir by spiritscript (T) 8.2k // THIS ONE. UGH I love, and it’s funny and cute and it EVEN HAS CRIME (kinda not really but yes)! I love the quiet moments they have and the PET AHHHHHHH! We love medic Osamu :DDDDD But also the betrayal and the sparring (and the irony at the end LOL) AJSKJNFK.
we fall between by stringendos (T) 14.7k // honestly the entire time I was just screaming at my computer, begging for them to hurry up and realize, but alas this is a ~slow burn~ for a reason and the tag ‘exes who act like theyre married’ really is the reason I read it and I do not regret LOL. Also bless Matsuda and stan her.
All the Time in the World by minie_ai (M) 8.8k // we love immortality! Denial! And Suna mentally filing away blackmail against people (namely Astumu) LOL. Running away from your problems is always the answer (I am saying this is a not sarcastic manner because I too, run away from my problems LOL) but ramen is ALWAYS a good answer. We love ourselves some emotional constipation LOL.
***none but you by broikawa (T) 7.2k // everything is a competition always LOL, not that I’m complainin but still LOL EVERYTHING. I really love this one because I love the progression and cock-block SakuAtsu hehe. I love them being synchronized idiots <3
it all comes back to you, (my home) by iritaescents (T) 4.5k // FOREVER, WE STAN FOREVER. Anyway, LOL this was is very very cute and fluff and not slow burn, it fast burn LOL. It’s a cute fic to read and it even has our favorite, now say it with me SOULMATES LOL.
Can't help falling in bed with you by tirralirra (T) 6.7k // here we see a 5 + 1 with points for the title (I think it’s very funny LOL my humor is bad ;)) Not that it really needs extra points because it’s a great fic in itself LOL but I really liked the title so I felt the need to share this with you all (OOPS). This was so cute, and the + 1 is HILARIOUS.
It’s no longer up :(((((( -> love's consequences by xginpuff (T) 6.5k // WARNINGS AND TAGS been a while since we had an angsty fic in this list (LOL the way I just tried to avoid all of them hehe). I read the tags but ngl I was still surprised later LOL maybe I’m just dumb, but anyway IK it starts out a bit confusing, but after you read more, you’ll get into it!
***sunagashi by bastigod (T) 9.8k // if there’s anything I like more than mythology, it’s folklore LOL. I love this fic and the plot is written so artfully AHDSAJN. Also the scene with the Ume-chan and her comment (so snarky I love). Also they way I went through so much trouble trying to figure out the kanji LOL (SPOILER it’s miyarin hehe)
catch me (while i'm still runnin') by lunarins (T) 4.3k // first and foremost, may we have a moment of silence for Komori and his eyebrows..... Continuing, this fic was so good because I love a good heist hehe. Their slight of hand abilities really doing the most LOL, and the ending OMG. I love the way the writer added in how they appeared to others during the heist, it really made it so good! Ugh to have a painting class and almost die LOL.
***if we get this right by Slumber (G) 5k // OLD FRIEND plsplspls I love this fic and I love how Osamu slowly relearns who he knew Suna as AHHH. The ending, again UGH, I really loved it and their banter with one another.
The Study of Suna Rintarou by DeathBelle (T) 6.1k // PLEASE the way Osamu kept getting offended omg. But also the effort Suna puts into getting to know Osamu, I was in ~love~. Read to me Osamu, READ TO ME. But also the Osamu is an oblivious MF agenda is alive and well within this fic hehe.
Take a Hint by pancake_surprise (G) 2.3k // ok so I had just read a tumbr post about the one bed thing and then I saw this fic. It was like the stars aligned okay? I was like, ig I HAVE to read it now hehe. But seriously read it, it’s cute and like everything else, of course there’s a challenge to be made LOL.
Heatwave by pancake_surprise (G) 2.1k // the way they were dating without knowing they were dating man. The tag ‘Didn't Know They Were Dating‘ more accurate than the ‘first dates’ one LOL jk but actually tho am I kidding? It’s the first official one IG. LOL anyway, we do love the doin of the defining of relationships. Yup.
If you made it all the way down here, CONGRATS LOL. Like I said, I didn’t read all of them (sadly) and these were the ones i did read LOL. I might add more depending on whether I can motivate myself into reading fics I know will be good LOL so we’ll see heh. Honestly, I thought I was gonna get word counted, but YAY we finished (for now hehe). Also sorry for any possible typos (is this no beta we die like men?) I’m running on 90 min of sleep so my engrish be strugglin LOL. Be safe and wear masks :)
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lampoest · 3 years
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Unfiltered thoughts watching mission impossible rouge nation inspired by @chaotically-cas
(sorry its so long my brain is all over the place)
this is also part 14 of me watching it every day :/
CURSING WARNING !! ALSO SPOILERS !!!
why is brandt first to speak
starting out with "shit" good call benji
brandt man we get the package is on the mcfucking plane
badass luther 10/10
nervous benji 10/10
that one sound effects sounds like the discord notif
why he in a fancy suit
*jumps on a plane with almost no plan on getting inside*
why did tom cruise think this was agood idea?
but like why would benji even open the ramp?
how is he not winded from that?
classic ethan
THE INTRO 1000/10
SOLOMON LANE !!
wait you can already see lane in the record shop.
how do they tell the agents these little convos?
also damn way to give it away
what if someone just looked in that room and saw the secret message?
also how did the disc get changed? because the imf definitely didnt make that
and how did lane know where he was going?
speaking of lane---
dang that man is pretty
he always sets guns down carefully
i can only see alec baldwin as trump from his snl skits so i dont take hunley seriously ;-;
damn brandt needs to step it up. man keeps letting himself be inturrupted
bruh the imf is only luck
why did no one resrict his legs?
also why is janik such an asshole?
dang she cool !!
why does it take janik so long to get that gun?
bravo-echo 1-1
this man is bleeding but decided instead of taking care of his wound he calls brandt.
i like how you actually see ethan worried and confused trying to plan his next moves. he is rarely caught off guard so it's refreshing to see his more human side
hunley spitting accusations damn bro
also a big fuck you from ethan to hunley
dang ethan is good
brandts little hidden smile
and ethan leaving trails
bitch how you sketch that good???
STAN BENJI !!
youve won, your way out of a job
benji is good
my little brandt x benji shipper in me is happy
simon pegg is such a good actor
the first time i saw this i was like: aww noooo
all dunn with that
TO THE OPERA !!!
TUX BENJI TUX BENJI
i cant tell if that was ethan
it just looks like youre talking to yourself thats more sus than using a phone
want drama? go to the opera
ok but like if you look like that im sorry you are a bad guy. thats like a stereotypical bad guy face
benji-
you can see ethan in the background of that scene
flute gun flute gun
oh no benji is in the closet. dont worry man we love you
if i were there and i just had a good vantage point i could find lane in an instant
ooh ilsa pretty
pipe gun
also pamphlet computer
those key things are cool and plausible
spiderman spiderman does whatever, ethan hunt can?
a W O M A N
what W O M A N?
reminds me of a marshmallow gun i made out if pvc pipes.
why does she not put that thing back?
also the dude loads it and then later it is unloaded
dang that guy is pretty tall.
ethan is so tiny
dis bitch is like uhh gimmie a sec to catch my breath mate
why he only dropkick people?
only 30 mins in ?!?!
the cinematography is exquisite
yes benji goin sicko mode
*gets shot* just a flesh wound
bruh i would've been so startled at that
i love how confused he is at that
ilsa saves ethan once again
they did this on the first day of filming
skdjs
ah yes random package in car = not bomb totally
if she tried to shoot benji then yes she is a bad person
but she didnt try to, she could've easily but didn't
benji being paranoid
she could just say the dude's name
benji being scared
hunley jumping to conclusions
brandt actually cares yeey
why di they approach from different sides of the street they were in the same car.
benji was far away from the sparks why he flinch?
friendship goals
oop plot dump that only mission impossible can get away with
ok...
why this mf's voice so smooth
lane is struggling with chopsticks
also lane :))))
ive chocked on my water so many times watching this scene
lanes voice :))))))
SHE RUINED HIS SUSHI WHAT THE FUCK ILSA
this man dont know what personal space is
gotta look up these peeps mbti types
casablanca references
also benji is wearing dollar store lookin glasses while ethan is wearing some fancy glasses
luther is top notch
as much as i dont like jeremy renner he delivers these lines really well
because atlee is a bitch
oh honey please, impossible is a walk in the park
benji just wants to wear a mask
id be so nervous walking through those
yes...
personal wellbeing who?
why not bring a plastic bottle full of air?
tom cruise can hold his breath for 6 minutes and he learned to do so for that scene
luther big brain
damn cctv
why did they need to break in while benji was going in?
das sus but ok
also isnt et voila french?
she just randomly tapping the ipad
benji being stressed
if he missed the exact center
i want one of those to open my locker's lock
if he just went with the current and didnt try to force his way against the water ilsa wouldn't have had to save him
imagine if he put the wrong one in-
she is breathing heavily to over saturate her body with oxygen so she can hold her breath longer
see ilsa makes it out without well and she went with the current
BENJI'S OUTFIT YESSS :))))))
no you didn't
you gave her a false sense of security
ethan's confused face for the next like 10 mins is great
liar
why does that one man look like sean ambrose?
parkour
skdjdksjdjdkfjs
the facial acting in this
STAIRS STAIRS STAIRS
the glare yesss
vrrrm vrrm
hey its you !
drivin like a grandma
shit !
benji just screaming
im convinced that ethan is indestructible
no you didn't survive that
bonk
dskfh
ethan didnt just-
also why didnt benji just tell ethan he made a copy ???
dont shoot and drive kids
high speed motorcycle chase with no helmet or leather. tom cruise, how?
i wanna learn how to drive a motorcycle
HOW THE FUCK IS HE NOT DEAD YET ?!?!
the lighting
ofc brandt would be the person why sits backwards on a chair. fkn bi vibes
benji to the rescue
fuck off atlee
i am so proud of us ...
the lines are done so well here
benji lookin like how i look when my parents argue
YES THIS SCENE
LANE LANE LANE LANE LANE
im too fucking gay for this movie-
once again no personal space
*inhales* :))))))))))))))
ive like memorized the entire script of this including the music
1 man performance of m:i5 ???
benji's outfit
also i love how youre able to see the characters in the background. props for the attention to detail
i need that haircut because his hair is lookin A+
fuck you atlee
ilsa spitting straight facts
uhh ilsa he still loves julia
NO BENJI NOOOO
EW FUCK OFF JANIK NO ONE LIKES YOU
speak of the devil-
betrayal--
WOULDNT YOU LIKE TO KNOW WEATHER BOY !??
actin sus
BENJI LANE BENJI LANE
his posture shdhskhsj (i cant be talking though)
0 personal space whatsoever
why does everyone have the same haircut in this???
simon mcburney pretending to be hunt prentending to be atlee
manipulation !?
the syndicate you say ? i know a thing or two about them 😼😼😼
damn though renner delivers these lines really well
a black tie? how informal. ..
complimenting hunt right infront of him
but he really didnt
i never realized that they were on the clock for this
huh...
the lil head nod though-
HAHA YEAH FUCK YOU ATLEE
is it bad that i hate atlee more than i hate lane?
ethan big smart wrinkle brain
janik just reading a fucking magazine
ethan has a photographic memory
oh look its benji :)))
lane :))))
ethan being tough
it must be aquward to get the low angle shots
lane is running out the clock to put pressure on ethan hmmm big brain
it isnt working though :\
damn he so cocky that hes telling the villain his plan
ill give you 1/5 of the money you wanted to get my bf back
ok but like does tom cruise just not age?
kill the woman
ugh i hate janik
the trust that is shown between those two is great
yes the score and the chase are so great
also this man really hates windows for some reason
fuck off janik
sneaky sneaky
EYY ITS LANE !!!
yeyy janik is dead
once again dodging bullets and hating glass
couldve killed him but needed him alive
the glass box
badass ethan
all the pretty men assembled
lane really let himself go aster this
dang though lane is my favorite villain ever
i like how for once the girl and the guy just are friends instead of romantically involved
eyy the callbacks to how the movie started.
welcome to the imf
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btsiguess · 4 years
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This Is Just To Say (m) - 10
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Summary: To say it’s unusual to have a soulmate is an understatement, and most people desperately wish to have an elegant name scrawled upon their wrist. In reality though, you’d have to say it causes much more issues than it solves.
Pairing: Yoongi/Reader (slight Namjoon/Reader; Jungkook/Reader) Genre: Fluff, Smut, Angst Word Count: 3268 Warnings: kinda angsty A/N: Long time no see  Chapters: 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10
Your eyes are full of tears as you make your way back to your dorm. The walk is long and cold, but it’s not like you were about to go waking up Suga--no, not Suga. Min Yoongi--and ask him for a ride. You’re torn between intense longing and regret. You like Suga. It felt natural to be with him. Too natural, you suppose.
It’s not fair. None of this is fair. Why had Jungkook broken up with you? Why had Suga lied to you? Why did you even have to have a stupid soulmate in the first place? You hadn’t asked for one. You wanted to be in love. Just… on your own terms.
When you finally make it into your dorm you just crawl back into your blanket cocoon. You should have never left in the first place.
Your phone buzzes. You know before you even look down that it’s Suga, but still to see his name on your screen and know that he was lying to you hurt you. Someone you trusted so much… lying to you about everything.
Where did you go? I thought I’d make breakfast and we could go another round ;)
Your heart and your core clench in traitorous agony, but still you don’t respond. Instead, you let your eyes scan the words over and over again.
You wish that you could be warm in his arms instead of wrapped in your blankets. You somehow feel so cold despite the comforter’s thickness. You can’t help but let your mind wander to the way Suga had touched you last night. To the way he had felt so perfect inside of you. You want more. You imagine him cooking for you, clad in nothing but his boxers so you could come up behind him and plant lingering kisses on his shoulders. It’s a desperately beautiful fantasy… but nothing more.
You had trusted Suga, and he had betrayed you.
It takes Suga around an hour to figure out that you’re ignoring him. He texts over and over, and then begins to call. You want to be strong enough to put the phone on silent, to roll over in bed and sleep until this didn’t hurt anymore. But there was a small part of you that couldn’t allow it. It was on his fifth call that you finally picked up.
“What?” There’s a small pause on the line, as if Suga hadn’t actually expected you to pick up at all.
“Why did you leave?” He asks.
“Why did you lie?” You answer.
“Lie? About what? I didn’t lie--”
“Yoongi.” You interrupt and there’s a soft anguished sounding oh from the other end of the line.
“I’m sorry.” He says instantly, and you don’t know what to do. You want more than anything to simply forgive and forget, but this wasn’t just the type of situation you could throw away or ignore. You had told Yoongi right before… This wasn’t fair. “Please, Y/N, listen to  me, I thought there would be more time before you found out--”
“You knew I was going to find out? You were actively keeping this from me?” You can’t believe what you’re hearing. It’s like the Suga you knew was just some figment of your imagination. “Listen, Of course I wanted to tell you!” He defends himself. “I wasn’t going to let anything happen between us before you knew but… the wine… and you were so beautiful and… I’m sorry.”
“That’s not good enough!” You cry. “This is such a huge violation of my trust! How can I be with someone like you! I don’t even know who the fuck you are, Min Yoongi!”
“I know.” His voice is quiet, shaking slightly like his heart is breaking in two and you’re sitting back to just listen. “Namjoon said there was no other way, that you’d cut all ties with me--”
“What do you mean ‘Namjoon said’?” Your stomach has fallen completely. This can’t mean what you think it means.
“Yeah,” Yoongi starts, “I was just hanging out with him and you came up. He told me you didn’t want to be with me… that you wouldn’t even give me a chance. I couldn’t have that happen! You’re all I’ve ever wanted…” Yoongi’s voice has this… pitch. As if he thinks what he’s saying is making anything better. Your heart was pounding in your chest. To think, Namjoon of all people would have been the one to betray you. You trusted him.
“You don’t want me, Yoongi. You just want a soulmate.”
It felt like your whole world was falling out from under you. How could this be happening? You had just lost… everyone. Jungkook wouldn’t have the time of day with you, Namjoon had chosen Yoongi over you… And Yoongi. Just forget the whole thing.
You hang up the phone, letting it drop to the bed as you cover your eyes with your arm. You wouldn’t cry anymore. You had bigger issues to deal with.
You haul yourself out of bed. You have to talk to Namjoon.
During your walk across campus, you practice the speech you are going to give Namjoon. It’s really elegant, you must say. An intricately woven tale of heartbreak and betrayal. You were hoping Namjoon would cry and beg for your forgiveness. However, it all fell apart as soon as you see his stupid face.
“What the fuck, Namjoon.” You say as soon as the door opens.
“Yoong said you were going to show up.” He says and you can’t help but clench your fists at your sides.
“Didn’t realize you were so fucking close. But I guess I was wrong about you in general. How could you do this to me Namjoon?”
Namjoon’s shoulders sag slightly.
“I’m not sorry that I did it.” He says firmly. “I don’t think love is easy… but why would you run away from Suga when you really like him! You wouldn’t even have given him a chance.”
“That’s not your choice to make, Namjoon!” You yell. You can’t help it. You feel like the world is being swept out from beneath you. You had been anxious about telling Namjoon in the first place, and he just… fucked you over.
“I just didn’t want you to miss out on him and regret it. Why do you get to choose his destiny, huh?” Namjoon shoots back.
“I’m not looking out for him. I’m looking out for me.” Is all you say as you back away. You couldn’t be here. You honestly felt like you couldn’t be anywhere.
You walk away again, despite Namjoon’s protestations.
You had thought that coming here would give you some sort of clarification… or at least that you’d feel better after bitching out Namjoon. But in all honesty you just feel worse than ever. First you’d lost Jungkook, then Suga, and now Namjoon. It wasn’t fair at all.
You’re not quite sure why you’re pulling your phone out, not quite sure why you’re dialing who you’re calling. You’re about to hang up when he answers, voice sounding as good as you remembered.
“Y/N?” Taehyung asks, “What are you calling for?” He doesn’t sound angry, just confused. After all, it wasn’t often you sought him out over your other friends. The thought made you feel a bit guilty.  
“I’m sorry. Can I come over?” You hope that he says yes.
“Of course.” There’s no hesitation on Taehyung’s part. It’s a relief. “But, Y/N, I should warn you. Jungkook is here.”
***
You’d been sitting in Taehyung’s room for five minutes. All three of you crammed on Tae’s bed. Silently. To each boys’ credit, they weren't pushing you to tell them anything. They were just patiently waiting. And honestly, that was the most respectful thing anyone had done for you in the past twelve hours.
“I’m sorry for coming here,” you declare finally. “I don’t want to be a burden to you.”
“You’re not a burden. You can talk to me about anything, Y/N” Tae responds, shaking his head as if you’re being completely ridiculous. Jungkook nods as well.
“I know things ended weird between us, but I don’t want you to think I don’t care about you.” Jungkook says, earnestly.
“Do you want to tell me what all of this is about?” Taehyung asks. “If not it’s fine. You don’t have to say anything.”
Jungkook stretches softly, laying back on the bed still facing you.
“I don’t know if it’s appropriate, with Jungkook here…” How were you supposed to tell Tae that you’d slept with Yoongi when Jungkook was right next to him? God you were so stupid for coming here.
“Y/N.” Jungkook says. “I saw you walk out with Suga. I know you guys slept together. It’s alright.”
You blush and look down at that, your eyes beginning to fill with tears as your heart aches. You can’t stop the tears from falling, and so you cradle your head in your hands to hide your face from the two boys.
“Shit,” Taehyung seems genuinely distraught. “What did he do? Do I need to kill him? I’ll fucking kill him.” You laugh softly.
“Actually Tae…” You glance to the side, trying to subtly wipe tears off of your face. “I’ve been keeping something from you. Something that you deserve to know as my friend.”
Jungkook’s eyes widened.
“I… Tae, I have a soulmate.” Taehyung’s mouth drops open, and you remove your watch to show him the name scrawled across your wrist.
“It’s confusing, Tae,” you start, “but the important thing is that I don’t want to have a soulmate. I’m not interested.” Tae pauses for a moment at that.
“That kind of makes sense, actually. It’s like an arranged marriage from the universe” He says shrugging, and Jungkook rolls his eyes.
Of course Tae would get it.
“Yes! Exactly, oh my god.” Your eyes light up as if you’ve never felt happier. “But, the thing is… I didn’t know it but… Suga…” You trail off and Jungkook bites his lip.
“What do you mean Suga? What about him?” Tae asks.
“His real name, Tae,” you frown. “It’s Min Yoongi. And he knew this whole time, that he and I were soulmates. But he never told me. Even when he knew that I didn’t want to end up with my soulmate he didn’t tell me… and then… last night.” You couldn’t bring yourself to say it.
It made you feel so torn apart inside. It wasn’t fair that Yoongi kept his identity a secret from you, and it wasn’t fair that it had felt so perfect. You just wanted a normal life. One with no soulmate at all.
“You slept with him last night.” Jungkook supplied. “Did he tell you that he knew about him being your soulmate?”
You shake your head no.
“Then how did you figure it out?” Jungkook asks.
“I saw it on his wrist, when he had fallen asleep.”
Tae runs a hand through his hair, letting out a long sigh. He mumbles that he didn’t see Suga as that type of guy. The type of guy who would take advantage of a girl.
“Shit… Y/N…” Jungkook says. “I’m so fucking sorry.”
“What do you have to be sorry for, Jungkook? It’s my own stupid fault. We were both drunk. Too drunk to make that kind of decision.”
“Well…” Jungkook glances at you nervously. “Actually… I knew.”
“Knew what?” Your heart is pounding, there’s no way that Jungkook was keeping something from you too, was there?
“About Suga. About him being your soulmate. I knew. Namjoon told me.”
Namjoon had told Jungkook but not you? What the fuck.
Your face must have relayed the inner turmoil that you were feeling because Jungkook hurries to explain himself.
“I know I should have told you. I just, I couldn’t stand to lose you like that. What was I supposed to say? ‘Oh by the way, honey, that guy sitting across the table is the man you’re destined to be with’? I fucking couldn’t okay!” Jungkook isn’t yelling, but he looks angry. Angry at himself, at Yoongi.
“Jesus christ, did everyone know about this mess but me? Fuck you guys.” Tae jokes lightly.
In that moment you feel all the fight leave your body, as if this one last betrayal was too much. You couldn’t find it in you to be angry at Jungkook. Not when you needed to allocate so many emotions for Yoongi and Namjoon. You lay your head in Taehyung’s lap, an uncharacteristic show of affection between the two of you.
“I’m sorry that you had to go through that, Jungkook.” You say quietly.
“Y/N?” Jungkook questions hesitantly. “If I make a suggestion, will you promise not to get mad at me?”
Taehyung rolls his eyes so far into the back of his head that you chuckle and nod at the younger boy.
“I know it might be the last thing you want to do right now,” he continues, “but I think you should talk to Yoongi. And Joon.”
“Why would I do that?” You’re not mad. But you wonder if maybe you need to get some more girl friends. Guys are the worst.
“Whether or not their actions were right, They were just trying to do what was best for you. And… to be honest, if I were Yoongi I would never stop fighting to be by your side. How can you blame him for something like that?”
“Jungkook,” Tae steps in. “He slept with her while keeping a huge secret from her. It’s creepy. How can he care about her if he’s willing to do something that he knows will hurt her so much?”
Damn. God bless Tae. You should’ve gone to him in the first place.
“That’s true, he really fucked up. But I mean, if you say that the both of you were drunk that means that he probably wasn’t thinking at all…” Jungkook looks off, and clenches his jaw slightly. He’s jealous--you can tell--but he’s reigning it in in order to help you. He was always the nicest boy. “Speaking from experience, it’s nearly impossible to say no to Y/N. Not… in those situations.”
“Are you saying Yoongi should get a pass because Y/N’s too fuckable?” Tae looks angry, and you’re happy that they’re arguing on your behalf. You definitely didn’t have the energy to participate much.
“Absolutely not.” Jungkook pinches the bridge of his nose. “I’m saying that Y/N shouldn’t just cut him out completely because of a mistake he made when he was drunk. We all do stupid shit when we’re drunk.”
Taehyung pauses for a second.
“Maybe.” Tae says. “It just doesn’t sit right with me. But, I never thought Suga was a bad guy. Does this make him a bad guy?” The question is directed towards you. You don’t know the answer.
“Y/N.” Jungkook says firmly. “You came here for advice, and that’s my advice. Talk to him.”
“Are you just saying that because he’s my soulmate?” You ask.
“No. And I think you should talk to Namjoon too. I’m saying this because we’re all friends. It’s just my opinion.”
“I think…” Taehyung starts, “that there’s a lot of things that must be going through your head right now Y/N. But, I just want you to know that there’s no pressure on either side of this argument. It’s your own personal business. We are just friends trying to help. If you choose to never speak to Suga and Namjoon again, that’s okay. But you also don’t need to feel obligated to hate them either. You’re allowed to do whatever you feel is right, and we will both support you as your friends no matter what.”
Your eyes start to water again.
“Taehyungie,” you blub quietly, “when did you get so wise?”
“When you and Namjoon were ditching me for Philosophy club.” He laughs.
“Y/N,” Jungkook says again. “You once told me that you think love is… a series of choices you make to tolerate another person’s bullshit. You are so damn worried that your soulmate will become complacent for loving you, but have you taken the time to get to know Yoongi?” You're surprised by his question. It’s rhetorical, you know, but still you can’t help but feel a twinge of guilt at his words.
“It just seems to me that Yoongi wouldn’t be the kind of guy to just sit around and lose you. He’s so into you and it’s annoyingly obvious. I don’t think it’s just because your soulmates either. Even before he knew he acted differently around you. I personally think that you should just try to have some kind of connection with him, whether it’s romantic or not. I think you two are good for each other. Even though I still kind of hate him on principle.”
Jungkook can practically see the gears turning in your head as you consider his argument.
“Just try, Y/N. Try to put up with Yoongi’s bullshit for a little while. You’re never trapped anywhere. You can do whatever you want.”
You’re surprised by Jungkook’s little speech. And impressed. You knew he was a smart boy, but you’d forgotten all of the reasons why you had been so infatuated with him at one point. He was giving you advice, his honest advice, even if it meant that he had to watch you be with Suga. The reason your relationship had crumbled in the first place.
It made a lot more sense now, why Jungkook was so hellbent on keeping the two of you away from one another. You wish he had told you the truth as soon as you had found out, but there’s a heavy pang in your heart when you consider the prospect of never having gotten to kiss Min Yoongi.
It’s almost like in one night, Yoongi had wormed his way so deep into your heart you couldn’t get him out without losing something of yourself. You didn’t feel trapped though, and that alarmed you the most. You felt like you had found something in Suga, in Yoongi. And you were selfish. You didn’t want to give it back.
But what about principles? Your own morality? How would your decision change who you had always thought you were. Would it change anything at all?
You think of Jungkook’s words again. Would Yoongi become complacent with you if he had you? You don’t really think so, and for the first time ever you think of the differences between becoming comfortable with someone and becoming complacent with them.
You can’t help the images of domesticity that flash behind your eyelids. Yoongi cooking for you, helping you stay awake while you cram for finals, curling up together on his sofa as you simply exist in one another’s space. It all seemed like a dream. And regardless of what you had felt or thought in the past, you’re quite sure that you don’t want to lose Yoongi completely. Or, honestly, in any way at all.
“I should call him.” You say finally. “But I’m only texting Joon because I’m freakin’ mad at him.” The two boys laugh as you sit yourself up.
Sent [10:26pm]: Namjoon, I don’t hate you forever but also eat a dick. You owe me /so/ much pizza. And not the dining hall crap either. And NOT PINEAPPLE.
Received [10:27pm]: Yes, of course. I’m so fucking sorry Y/N.
You send him back the knife emoji, a cryptic “don’t do it again” attached.
Now though, was the really difficult part.
Calling Yoongi.
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zuko brings a lot to the table when he joins the gaang, especially the return of the ba sing se bimbos (jinjetsongko)
credit as always to @azenkii!
when they all eventually join team avatar, in my mind, it still happens after the Betrayal by zuko. this is obviously very Angsty and Intense, but that’s a post for another day.
song and her mother, through a series of Strange Events, make their way into the fire nation in disguise and end up in a village that the gaang passes through, just before the invasion. she and katara recognize each other, and song asks to go with them to help at the invasion.
at first, song positively Freaks Out at meeting aang and also at the fact that he’s ALIVE. katara eventually calms her down enough to ask, “are you comfortable going to the front lines of the invasion, song? we need healers, but this will get very dangerous.”
“oh, i think i’ll be alright,” song says mischeviously.
jin ends up at the boiling rock for trying (and failing, but not without a good hard fight) to free mushi/iroh. how does she end up in the crystal catacombs? idk yet, but she was there, and boy was she PISSED at lee. azula took her away before zuko had much of a chance to argue - he’s ashamed to say he didn’t try very hard.
of course, she meets suki, and has her own fan girl moment. she also develops a very quick crush. i mean, yeah, she’s the leader of the kyoshi warriors so of course sokka was obsessed but after meeting suki jin’s like how could you NOT fall in love.
jet, who has been brainwashed by the dai li, goes with them to the fire nation. he’s assigned to dangerous reconnaissance missions that azula plans, which she ensures that zuko finds out about, since she’s doing it purely as a way to test his loyalty. it works - because this, along with zuko’s other realizations in book three, is what makes him fully denounce the fire nation. when he leaves to teach aang, he drags jet along with him.
this trip is less than easy, because jet, who is, again, brainwashed, bounces between attempting to murder zuko for his betrayal, and treating zuko as his ward to be protected.
at some point on the trip, after an extreme mood swing, during which they both almost die, they’re breathing heavily on either end of the war balloon, and zuko says “you’re giving me emotional whiplash.”
“OH AM I, LEE?” roars jet, before collapsing with exhaustion. it’s a very song-like comment, and in spite of everything zuko really truly hopes his friends will forgive him one day.
when zuko first shows up to greet the gaang, jet is Not Well, and so zuko leaves him at the campsite. he also knows things between the gaang and jet did not end on good terms, so zuko figures it’s no big loss.
the second time, when zuko attacks combustion man, jet follows him on a Murderous Rampage, until he realizes zuko’s trying to help aang and the others, and then he joins zuko’s side.
“fucking prince, fucking avatar, I WAS A FREEDOM FIGHTER! I DID IMPORTANT THINGS, LIKE TERRORISM! NOW IM GONNA DIE, FOR WHAT? THE PEOPLE WHO KILLED MY GANG’S VIBES AND THIS TWIG-SIZED ROYAL MORON?” jet screams as he uses his hooks to hoist himself and zuko back up the cliff.
(of course, his anger mostly melts away when the others exit the temple after the danger passes, and song is there holding the duke’s hand. it’s the first happy thing that has happened to him in so long.)
song regards zuko/lee as a mixed bag because, you know, the obvious Bad Stuff, but also he saved jet? and he’s training the avatar now?
so she decides on the middle ground - forgiveness, paired with Never Letting Him Live Anything Down.
she hugs him, and tells him she missed him, and he’s so overcome with relief he almost cries, and then she says very loudly for the whole group to hear: “i forgive you, but i expect a herd of ostrich horses after the war.”
“song-“ he says desperately.
“you know. compensation.” she says.
“i only took the one-“
“zuko!” says aang, scandalized at the idea that zuko had personally affronted one his new friends even though it’s the smallest of his crimes.
“was it just one? i must’ve forgotten,” song says sweetly. “sure hope i haven’t been brainwashed. oh! like someone we know-“
“that wasn’t even my fault!” says zuko.
yeah, katara LOVES song.
when sokka and zuko go to the boiling rock, jet tries to go with them because he’s convinced zuko will betray sokka, but he’s still kind of out of it, and they try to convince him to stay back. he gets loud, threatening to tell everyone what they’re up to if he doesn’t get to come along, when a hand holding a rag comes up around his mouth and he passes out.
“it’s my turn to watch him tonight and i’m too tired to reason with him,” says song, dragging jet under his armpits back to the camp. “just go do whatever stupid risky thing you’re going to do.”
“that’s it?” zuko asks curiously. “no speech about how we shouldn’t go?”
“oh, i’m sorry, am i your mother?” song asks innocently. “i personally haven’t seen my mother since before the invasion, you know, the one we had to plan because SOMEONE’S nation waged a war-“
“okay, okay, i get it!” zuko snaps, and they go.
when they return with jin, however, song drops all the sarcasm and jet stops being so hostile. this is partially because they’re so grateful he brought her back, but mostly because jin is definitely the Friendship Glue.
she tells them all about how their daring escape, she mentions that everyone acted according to their sexy selves (hakoda, thankfully, does NOT hear this), but especially zuko.
“honestly,” jin says, “being the one of the first prisoners to escape the boiling rock has got to be the most legendary thing anyone’s ever done. i’m going to go down in history. so many fire nation prisoners are going to be like ‘who’s that pretty girl who escaped on the gondola?’ and they’re either going to be talking about me or suki, and it’s all thanks to zuko.”
yes, they have a ba sing se bimbo reunion hug.
“guys, you will not BELIEVE what i found out at that gross prison.” jin says at the campfire that evening. “the firelord singed his eyebrows off once, and now he has to draw them on every morning. also, he gets these little flames painted on his nails at the palace spa because he thinks it makes his firebending stronger, and, like, yes, guys who paint their nails are hot, but not when they paint them to look like a four-year-old drew them.”
“literally none of that is true,” says zuko, absolutely baffled.
“oh really?” jin says, rounding on him. “because i heard it from min, who heard it from the guard who shaved her head, who heard it from the watchtower guard, who heard it from the WARDEN HIMSELF.
“yeah zuko,” says song, “do you think you know more about the firelord than the WARDEN?”
“no offense, but you’re not exactly the expert on the firelord,” says jet, grinning because He Knows.
zuko says nothing at first. then he sighs, shakes his head, and asks happily, “so, is it all the nails, or just, like, the ringfinger?”
part two of this segment coming soon!
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stony-spn · 4 years
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House Tour
(Established relationship, married au, avengers as family, soft/fluff, Tony is a mother hen, words 2304)
This isn't something new for Tony, he always liked showing off to the world that he was more than just exploding things. So when Architectural Digest asked Pepper to do an episode on the Avengers Tower to say Tony was excited was an understatement. This was his baby that he made from the ground up, every floor in the tower was made especially for his weird little family that he is very happy to spoil now and then.
“Steve, did you clean your side of the closet?” Tony yelled from the main kitchen when we heard the footsteps approach him.
“Umm…yes… maybe…..kinda. I just got a call from Maria she needs me on this mission right now. I’ll be back first thing tomorrow morning.” Steve replied with his arms folded to his chest, trying to look guilty for not being able to help but Tony could see that the bustard was more than happy to leave all of this on Tony’s shoulders.
“Oh is that so, okay but do make sure you don’t tire yourself too much since you’ll be sleeping on the couch for a week.” Tony couldn’t help but smirk at the small gasp that left Steve’s mouth, well two can play that game.
Tony felt a kiss on his neck that he happily gave more access to, “How about we make it three days?” Steve said while sucking on Tony’s earlobe and making him moan and ache for more.
“I’ll make it for two weeks if you try to bargain with me on this,” Tony said while turning in his husband’s hands to get a proper kiss.
“Well gotta make the most of it, for now, I guess,” Steve replied and started kissing his husband deeply.
“OH COME ON NOT IN FRONT OF YOUR KIDS!!” Clint yelled as soon as he saw his leaders making out in the kitchen.
“Yes daddy hard, uh, daddy..” moans started to leave Tony’s lips that only sent more shivers down Steve’s back.
“I WISH SOMEONE KILLS ME. THOR PLEASE SMASH ME BUDDY, THOR!!” Clint cried.
“I do have to leave, my love,” Steve said in between the sweet little kisses that he left on Tony’s mouth.
“You have to be back before AD comes tomorrow Steve or else I swear on your ass I will kill you.”
“I’ll try my best your majesty,” Steve replied with a smirk and a bow. That flattery asshole will make Tony’s weak heart explode.
Tony went to their master bedroom to clean it up before AD comes tomorrow because his husband would rather take Fury over-cleaning. Which should be concerning.
After a long day of cleaning Tony makes his way to the main kitchen again to feed his “so-called” kids who would live on fast food and take-outs if it wasn’t for Tony and Natasha making them home cook food. Tony loved cooking, it was the only thing we had left of his mother, Jarvis, and Ana. He still has all their recipe books even tho he has perfected and learned each recipe by heart. You know what they say if you want to win someone’s heart the stomach is the way, and when your husband is a super soldier, stomach is most definitely the way. So he started off cooking to impress Steve on their dates which soon held to a habit of always worrying if his super soldier is eating enough. Hence left to him making food for his family. So this was an enjoyable time. He was in charge of it. He gets to make everyone do the dishes or put the table on because hey if he is cooking he isn’t cleaning as well.
“What is our dear mother bear making today?” Bruce asked as soon as he saw Tony cutting meat.
“Brucie bear if you call me the mother of this relationship just because I cook, I am telling Nat.” Tony replied while hitting Bruce’s hand with the back of the knife to keep him from putting his finger in the pot, “And no putting your dirty hands in mama’s pot”.
“Oh no! We call you mama because you my friend have a serious mother hen problems that we all love and adore of course.” Bruce smartly covered his tracks.
“Well to answer your previous question I am making seekh kabab karahi, it’s a Pakistani dish. Thor wanted something spicy and you know Clint he is a spice whore.” Tony stating like this was the most obvious fact in the world.
“So no special treat for me and Nat. And we all know you are making this for Steve, he is the real “spice whore” in this family” Bruce replied as he started mixing the pot so the gravy doesn’t stick and burn. Bruce likes helping Tony not only in the lab but in the kitchen too. Guess they aren’t only science bros.
“Steve was called on a mission this morning. Don’t know where or don’t know who. He just told me he’ll be back in the morning.” Tony said as he took over the pot and pointed at Bruce to start cutting the salad.
“Don’t worry he’ll be fine shellhead.” Nat (who no one knows when came in the kitchen) patted Tony’s back and gave him a half hug.
Tony knew it was ridiculous and that Steve could take care of anything. But ever since Tony put Iron Man on retirement he can’t help but not worry since now he never knows anything about anything. But his family is always there for him to help him not worry himself too sick. He was grateful for them.
“Miss. Nat, I believe it’s your turn to set the table” Tony replied rather too quickly to avoid the thickness he feels is coming around his throat.
“Relax mama I am here in peace.” Nat clapped her hands and danced towards the table. It was still a little crazy to see them all so comfortable with each other.
“I SMELL YOUR FOOD FROM MY ROOM TONY AND CAME RUNNING DOWN TO EAT WHAT MAMA BEAR HAVE FOR US TODAY” Thor yelled as soon as he entered the dining table that was now set with dishes and food. Everything looked perfect.
“Jarvis where is Clint?”
“Sir, Mr. Barton wants me to tell you that he is not leaving his room unless you apologize to for and I quote “ruining my virgin eyes, I saw my mom and dad making out in the kitchen and MOM WAS MOANING”.”
“Tell Barton to show his ass in 5 minutes or he isn’t getting any food tonight or an upgrade on his gadgets,” Tony said while going to sit on his usual seat which was right next to an empty seat of his husband. Just one day that is all.
“Sir, Mr. Barton is on his way. And Thor he is begging for you to not eat everything before he gets down here”
Tony could hear a smirk behind that faceless voice. When did Jarvis become this great, Tony may never know?
The next day came and the production crew was already in the penthouse setting up their cameras and lights. The rest of the Avengers were in the common floor as this was only for the penthouse, meaning Tony and a Captain was required only for the shoot. But the said “Captain” still wasn’t back was the mission that he promised he will be back first thing in the morning and it was noon and Steve was nowhere to be found. 
Tony was getting way to furious at his husband for leaving him at the end moment to do this alone when he promised that this will be something they do together like all the things they do. As Tony was about to plan all the ways he will murder his husband, his phone buzzed indicating that Tony received a text. Of course, it was Steve telling how terribly sorry he was and how will be in the tower in the next 10 mins. Tony didn’t bother replying, he’ll say everything on his mind after the shoot is over thank you very much. He just wants Steve to get here, wash and look presentable for the camera for however long they needed to, and after that Tony can murder his husband in peace and quiet of their house. Tony will happily admit that made him smile. 
“Okay, Mr.Stark we are ready. When shall we start?” Jenny, the producer asked politely. 
“We’ll start in an hour. My husband is on his way back and we’ll need a few mins to set everything up.” Tony replied excitedly. This is what he wants, to show off their house and his husband. 
Steve entered the tower in the next 8 mins and left the elevator in the next 9 mins. Not that Tony was counting he just wanted to make sure he didn’t have to kill his husband twice tonight, see he cares. 
It took about 25 mins to get Steve to take a shower and wear the clothes Tony picked out for him. While Steve was getting ready Tony took the black roses that Steve so graciously brought, put them in a vase on his side table. It is a thing they did since they started dating, Steve would bring Tony flowers every time he could go for a run and Tony will place them all over the tower to show off how wrapped up Tony has got Steve, it’s a different level of bursting his ego.
“Okay Jenny, we are ready,” Tony called out for the producer as soon as he saw Steve in the kitchen all dressed up and looking so handsome that it should be illegal. 
“Don’t you look beautiful my love?” Steve whispered in Tony’s ear with a small kiss on the skin behind his ear. 
Tony just gave an umm in response to show Steve that flattery isn’t going to give him a pass this time. But he couldn’t help the smile that was crawling up his lips that he knew gave away more than he wanted to. 
“Now this is where the magic happens,” Tony says to the camera as he opens the double french doors to their master bedroom. Steve's soft laugh can be heard behind him.
“This isn’t the only place where the magic happens.” Steve helpful adds to Tony’s surprise. WHY IS HE SURPRISED. STEVE IS AN ASSHOLE AT TIMES AND HE LOVES THIS ASSHOLE ALL THE TIME. 
“Steven Stark-Rogers please keep this kid-friendly.” Tony tried to go with hurt and betrayal in his voice but the laugh gave him away. 
Tony started explaining all the different things he got from different designers, The rug, the side tables. the color, the sofa’s, the coffee table and the books. 
“Uhh and my true love my vanity. I didn’t want a small dressing table with a small mirror. So Pepper and I went into talks with again the main designers of the whole penthouse Nate and Jeremiah, they gave the idea for a walk-in, not a closet, we’ll talk about that later but I walk in vanity that can fit six superheroes all at once. if you slide the wall on which this gorgeous gold mirror is hanging. Now, this is exclusive. I welcome you all to Tony Stark-Rogers vanity. I have it all arranged with things I use in the morning, at night, special occasions, galas, my jewelry,my hand, my face, wet products, dry ones, masks every mask has its own place, makeup that I use daily, the interview ones, the date nights one. Everything here has it’s place and is stacked ever so nicely that sometimes I just want to cry at the engineering of this.” 
Tony went on and on about his vanity and he could feel Steve watching him with a fond smile and that face he makes filled with love and affection wherever he hears Tony talk with so much joy, 
“There are a few things that are strong enough to pamper a super-soldier too, whenever he lets me pamper him that is,” Tony says as he walks out of his vanity and gives a kiss on Steve’s cheek. 
“Now let me take you to another heaven on this very floor,” Tony says all dramatically making Steve double with laughter he really loves this man to death. 
“Feast your eyes on the collection I like to call TONY STARK-ROGERS ft Steve Stark-Rogers,” Tony says as he opens yet another double french door. What can he say Tony like drama and dramatic entrance is the. 
The closet was huge filled with clothes, sunglasses, bags, shoes, had a whole coffee table with armchairs, refrigerator, and mirrors.
“This part belongs to Steve” Tony pointed the not too small but very small compared to the rest of the room part, “AND ALL OF THIS BELONGS TO ME,” Tony said we a big grin on his face. 
After the long tour of the closet, the went back into the room to close o the interview. 
“Steve do you have anything to add on our house tour, anything about how amazing job I did with our room and house,” Tony asked Steve as he made home and fixed himself beside Steve under his arms. Tony being only 5′8 and Steve 6′2 he barely reached his husband's shoulder which was okay because they fit like a puzzle and Tony could wear sexy heels and torture his husband,
“Hey, it’s your room I just get to sleep in there if I behave enough. And you did a wonderful job as always with everything you do my love,” Steve said and he leans down to kiss his husband sweetly. 
The day the interview was posted. Everyone went crazy at how cute the power couple are actually, about how amazing Tony’s interior designing is and of course #MomTony was treading everywhere. 
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angelsarts · 5 years
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Hey I'm sorry to ask, but do you have updates for korean dramas? I can't find the link to your old one but also maybe some newer suggestions? (It's okay if you don't!)
It’s cool, I can do a new one! These are all in the order that I watched them in!
WARNING: LONG POST AHEAD
1. Coffee Prince ( A great choice for a first k-drama)
Choi Han-gyul is the grandson of chairwoman Bang of Dong-in Foods, a company that has a thriving coffee business. He has never had a job and does not care for responsibility. Han-gyul is hung up on his first love, Han Yoo-joo, who only sees him as a friend. Go Eun-chan is a 24-year-old tomboy who is often mistaken for a guy. Her father died when she was 16 years old and since then she has taken over as the breadwinner in her family. When Han-kyul and Eun-chan meet, he, not knowing that she is a girl, decides to hire her to pretend to be his gay lover so that he can escape the blind dates arranged by his grandmother. 
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2. Cinderella with four knights
Eun Ha Won is a bright college student who dreams of becoming a teacher. Unfortunately, she loses her mother in a tragic accident, moves in with a cruel stepmother, and has no money for her education. One day, she helps an old man and as fate would have it, moves into a gorgeous mansion with three equally gorgeous men, who also happen to be billionaire cousins and heirs to the Kang family fortune. Between the rebel-minded loner Kang Ji Woon, playboy money machine Kang Hyun Min and the super-sweet singer Kang Seo Woo, Eun Ha Won finds herself in the middle of the hottest love quadrangle to ever befall a modern fairy tale princess. Rounding out the mansion’s chaebol lifestyle are Lee Yoon Sung, who serves as the cousins’ handsome bodyguard, and Park Hye Ji, a gorgeous girl who has her own interests in the Kang family and is not above manipulating one cousin to get closer to another.
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3. Bride of the century
Taeyang Group is the largest conglomerate in South Korea. The Choi family who runs Taeyang has supposedly been under a curse for a hundred years that the first bride of the eldest son will always die. When the wealthy heiress Jang Yi-kyung disappears right before her wedding to chaebol heir Choi Kang-joo , Na Doo-rim , a lookalike impostor, is brought in to take her place. Unlike the cold and calculating Yi-kyung, Doo-rim is sweet and sunny, and Kang-joo genuinely falls in love with her. As the wedding plans progress, Kang-joo and Yi-kyung’s mothers both scheme and plot behind the scenes will the romance gets more complicated with the secret of not being the real Jang Yu-kyung.
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4. Strong woman Do Bong Soon
Do Bong-soon was born with superhuman strength. Her strength is hereditary and passed along only to the women in her family. Her dream is to create a video game with herself as the main character. She desperately wants to become a delicate and elegant woman, which is the ideal type of her crush, In Guk-doo, a police officer. Thanks to her strength, she gets a job as bodyguard to rich heir Ahn Min-hyuk, the CEO of a gaming company, Ainsoft. In contrast to Guk-doo, Min-hyuk is an eccentric man who is playful, a little spoiled, has no regard for rules, and dislikes policemen. He has recently received anonymous threats and has even been stalked, leading him to hire Bong-soon as his bodyguard after seeing her beat up a bunch of men after they threatened an old man who was an elementary school bus driver. A series of kidnapping cases soon happen in Dobong-dong, the district Bong-soon lives in, and she is determined to catch the culprit, who targeted her best friend. With help and training from Min-hyuk, she manages to control her strength to use it for good causes. Min-hyuk and Bong-soon find their relationship growing into something more.
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5. My secret romance
Jin-wook and Yoo-mi meet at a Gangwon-do resort and get caught up in a series of misunderstandings and accidents. Yoo-mi is there to attend her mother’s second wedding while Jin-wook is there working as a bellhop (a position given to him by his Chairman father to teach him responsibility.) Yoo-mi is charmed by Jin-wook’s sly and playful personality, and they unexpectedly spend the night together. However, Yoo-mi disappears in the morning, leaving Jin-wook feeling perplexed and insulted. Three years later, the two meet again when Yoo-mi becomes a nutritionist at the company cafeteria where Jin-wook works. It seems that once a playboy Jin-wook, has given up his carefree life and works at the company owned by his father. He has feelings for Yoo-mi and has kept her bra-pad as a memory of the night that they spent together. At first, he is strict toward her, though it is only because he is looking for reasons to be near her. He later confesses this to her and agrees to wait for her.
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6. Scarlet heart ryeo ( One of my all time favourites) 
During a total solar eclipse, a 25-year-old 21st-century woman, Go Ha-jin, is transported back in time to the Goryeo Dynasty. She wakes up in the year of 941 in the body of Hae Soo, among the many royal princes of the ruling Wang family. She initially falls in love with the gentle and warm-hearted 8th Prince Wang Wook, and later Wang So, the fearsome 4th Prince who hides his face behind a mask and is given the derogatory label of “wolf dog.” As the story develops, Hae Soo finds herself unwittingly caught between the rivalry and politics among the princes over the fight for the throne, an she stay alive long enough for a happy ending?
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7. Falling for innocence
Min Ho is a cold-blooded corporate raider who takes no prisoners. He is a scoundrel investment banker for Gold Investment, seemingly the world’s largest financial service firm. As a cynical, self-defensive, suspicious sociopath, he wears down people with his tenacity and takes advantage of them with his delusions of grandeur. However, Min Ho has his own story of how he became evil - it was because of his uncle’s betrayal. His father was overthrown by his uncle and it caused his family to hit bottom. As Min Ho vows to get revenge, he meets Soon Jung, the daughter of his father’s former secretary who betrayed him and whom now works for his uncle. One day, he has a heart attack and is taken to a hospital. He miraculously survives his heart attack after undergoing a heart transplant. His heart is actually from Dong Wook, a young detective and Soon Jung’s fiancé who suffered from brain damage from a mysterious car accident. After receiving a new life thanks to the new heart, he is no longer the cold and callous person that he has been and undergoes a profound change to his personality, talking differently and warming up people. But he still pursues his plan to get revenge on his uncle even though his emotions get in the way at times. He gradually learns the meaning of happiness when he finds Soon Jung, whom he wants to cherish and protect. His heart becomes tender and his eyes swell with tears when as he works with her. He falls in love with her without realising it.
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8. The bride of Habaek / the water god
When the narcissistic water god Ha-baek visits earth in order to find three stones powerful enough to help him claim his throne, he seeks out the help of his servant and destined bride, psychiatrist So-ah, whose family is fated to serve the water god for generations. The problem is that she has no belief in the gods and initially mistakes him for suffering from delusions. Things get even stranger when the wind god Bi-ryeom, the water goddess Mu-ra, and the semi-god Hu-ye show up to complicate things
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9. Weightlifting fairy Kim Bok Joo
Kim Bok-Joo is a promising collegiate female weightlifter. Her father runs a small chicken restaurant and her uncle wants to become an actor. She has a bright personality and strong sense of justice. Kim Bok-Joo and her friends on the female weightlifting team are not popular with the guys and they don’t have boyfriends. The weightlifting team and the rhythmic gymnastic team also don’t get along at all. Meanwhile, Jung Joon-Hyung is a collegiate swimmer plagued with numerous false start disqualifications. He is 21-years-old and has a free spirit. His uncle and aunt raised him along with his cousin Jung Jae-Yi. One day on campus, Kim Bok-Joo bumps into Jung Joon-Hyung while he is riding his bicycle. Her face looks familiar to Jung Joon-Hyung. After he leaves, Kim Bok-Joo picks up a handkerchief left behind by Jung Joon-Hyung. The handkerchief is very important to him and he begins looking for it. Later, Kim Bok-Joo cleans and irons the handkerchief. She goes to the school’s swimming pool and gives back his handkerchief, but he explodes with anger when he sees that she cleaned it. Kim Bok-Joo then falls into the swimming pool and Jung Joon-Hyung jumps into the pool to save her. At that moment, Kim Bok-Joo and Jung Joon-Hyung realize where they have seen each other before. When they were both children, Kim Bok-Joo saved Jung Joon-Hyung’s life by catching him before he fell to the ground.What happens now they know each other?
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10. I’m not a robot
Kim Min-kyu lives an isolated life due to a severe allergy to other people. He develops extreme rashes that rapidly spread throughout his body once he makes any form of skin contact. Jo Ji-ah is a woman who is trying to make it in life by creating her own businesses. Kim Min-kyu who owns the KM Financial company which owns Santa Maria team headed by professor Hong Baek-kyun. Professor Hong’s team has created a humanoid robot called Aji 3 which looks like his ex-girlfriend Jo Ji-ah. CEO of KM Financial, Kang Ki-young, and his father try to sell the Santa Maria team to foreign investor, Martin, who secretly knows about the Aji 3 and wants to use it as a weapon. Hong Baek-kyun sends the robot to Kim Min-kyu to convince him not to sell the team. Before Aji 3 is delivered, the robot’s body is accidentally damaged. Hong Baek-kyun approaches Jo Ji-ah, asking her to pose as the robot, giving the team time to repair Aji 3. Jo Ji-ah agrees, and impersonates the robot under the supervision of the Santa Maria team and the robot’s computer brain, can she survive without being caught out?
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11. Goblin / Guardian the lonely and great
Kim Shin is a goblin and protector of souls. He is the landlord of the grim reaper, who is in charge of taking deceased souls. Wanting to end his immortal life, Shin has been looking for his human bride, the only person who can end his life. Meanwhile, Ji Eun-tak is a high school student who remains optimistic despite the tragedies and difficulties she has experienced in her life. She summons the goblin by chance, and through various encounters, ends up falling in love with him. Sunny is a chicken restaurant owner, whose beauty is undeniable, but what has she got to do with the goblin and reaper? These four characters’ lives took a series of twists and turns when they intertwined.
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12. Terius behind me (Another favourite!)
Go Ae-Rin suddenly loses her husband left to take care of her two children on her own. A mysterious man, Kim Bon, that lives next door ends up getting tangled into their lives. Kim Bon is a legendary NIS agent and 3 years ago, he was involved in a failed secret operation and the woman he loved died. He has since become disconnected with the world and lives alone quietly but that soon changes as he helps his neighbor Go Ae-Rin with her children and uncover a conspiracy, which her husband became involved with all the while trying to keep his secrets by the nosy neighbours in the building.
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13. 100 days my prince 
Lee Yool is the Crown Prince of Joseon, a perfectionist who disregards the majority of those in the royal palace and appears to be cold and demanding, when in reality, he is lonely. He then passes the law that all women must marry before they reach the age of 28. Hong Shim is head of the first detective agency in Joseon, a strong, intelligent figure who takes on multiple jobs to support herself and her father. She is also the oldest unmarried woman in her village, and begins to look for a husband to avoid trouble from law officials. In an attempted assassination, Lee Yool develops temporary amnesia and wanders around aimlessly as a commoner with no name or identity, until he meets none other than Hong Shim, who takes him under her care. Hong Shim is then forced to marry Won Deuk to save her village from drought, due to beliefs in that era where natural disasters are a result of an unmarried woman’s misery. This drama depicts how the love story of Hong Shim, ‘Joseon’s oldest unmarried woman’ and Lee Yool, the amnesiac Crown Prince, develops over the span of 100 days.
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14. My ID is Gangnam beauty
Kang Mi-rae decides to get plastic surgery after years of being bullied because of her looks. Her “rebirth” seems successful at first, but as her life at the university unfolds, her plan starts to backfire. The pressure of being a “pretty girl” begins to pressure her and, worse, those who can see through her surgery ridicule her and tag her as the “Gangnam plastic surgery monster.” The drama follows Mi-rae’s story of recovering self-esteem as she figures out what a two faced friend is and gets to know her coursemate, and former schoolmate in middle school, Do Kyung-seok
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15. The secret life of my secretary 
Do Min-Ik works as a director of the mobile media 1 team at T&T, he’s smart and excellent at his job however he doesn’t like to attach himself to people or his secretary. His secretary is Jung Gal-Hee, a diligent and motivated person that does whatever it takes to keep her job and feed her family. Do Min-Ik often does childish things like calling Jung Gal-Hee continually, Jung Gal-Hee carries out Do Min-Ik’s orders without complaints but though she may look soft, she hides her tough side. The tough side soon comes out as she is fired, much to Do Min-Ik’s regret he soon discovers that he’s going to need her more than ever and discovers a new side to her in the process.
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16. W - Two worlds ( Really recommended!! )
A love story of two people split apart in different worlds connected by a webtoon. The series focuses on the eponymous fictional webtoon entitled W, written and illustrated by its legendary author and illustrator Oh Seong-moo. W became famous in the entire South Korea, the storyline of the webtoon W starts with the younger years of its main character Kang Chul, a handsome and intelligent boy who is also skilled in shooting. He becomes famous as he won a shooting competition during the 2004 Athens Olympics but this fame gets ruined when his entire family was killed by an unknown Murderer, and then framed for it. Another villain Han Cheol-ho  handles the case to gain political popularity, pronouncing in court to impose death penalty upon Kang Chul. Nevertheless, Kang Chul was deemed innocent of the crime. Depressed over losing his family, he attempts to commit suicide over the Han River but he stops himself and chooses to move on with his life.Ten years later, Kang Chul becomes a multimillionaire, starting his “Project W” in his continuous efforts to catch the real culprit behind his family’s death; part of the project is his television broadcasting company dubbed “W,” after the initials of the interrogatives “who” and “why” (hence, the title of the webtoon). One night, he receives a suspicious phone call and gets severely injured by the same mysterious Murderer at the rooftop of his penthouse, only to be saved by a mysterious girl, none other than the authors daughter. How did she get there? Why is she there? How will they become entangled?
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17. My contracted husband Mr Oh
Han Seung-Joo (Uee) is a single woman in her mid 30’s who works as a PD at a broadcasting station. She does well at her job, but is not nearly as good when it comes to housework. Han Seung-Joo has a hard time dealing with social prejudices about single women but still refuses to marry at least until an incident that occurs leading to a dramatic change in her life. She seeks to find a husband thinking it would help her situation but to get the position of a “married woman,” Han Seung-Joo marries Oh Jak-Doo as a contract husband who lives in the mountain that she just happened to own. Their marriage is not based on love, but their relationship develops romantically after several twists and turns.
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18. Marriage contract ( For those who love to cry, seriously heartbreak ahead )
Kang Hye-soo is a single mother who struggles to raise her daughter while paying off her late husband’s debts. Han Ji-hoon is the son of a chaebol who seeks a contract marriage in order to save his mother, who needs a liver transplant. When Hye-soo is diagnosed with an inoperable brain tumor, she agrees to marry Ji-hoon and donate part of her liver to his mother, in exchange for enough money to provide for her daughter until she reaches adulthood. Han Ji-Hoon is driving along when Hye-Soo is almost hit saving her 7 year old daughter Eun-Seong, He rushes her to the hospital as she faints however while she is being tested the Manager of the restaurant Han Ji-Hoon owns Ho-Joon tells him might be a scam and to make sure she is really hurt. Han Ji-Hoon has Hye-Soo’s phone and receives a call from a mysterious man which turns out to be the debt collector who comes to the hospital after hearing it being said in the background. He chases Hye-Soo when she is leaving, where he almost catches her but she in the end hides in Han Ji-Hoon’s car with Eun-Seong. Han Ji-Hoon’s mother has been rushed to the hospital where they find out that if she doesn’t get a liver transplant she will die but she is way down on the list so Han Ji-Hoon decides to marry a Hye-Soo she agrees so she can pay off her debt and also make sure Eun-Seong has money to grow up on as she gets the results back from when she fainted and she has a brain tumour. Eun-Seong in the beginning doesn’t like Han Ji-Hoon but she warms up to him as the pretend relationship blossoms into something real.
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BONUS
19. 200 pounds beauty
Han-Na is a very large girl with a warm heart. She also possesses an unbelievable voice. Han-Na wants to become a pop-singer, but due to her extra-large appearance, can only work as a faceless singer. She provides the vocals for a popular singer named Amy, a beautiful young lady that can’t carry a note to save her life.Han-Na is also in love with Amiys music producer, Sang-Joon, but it’s a one-sided love. One day, Han-Na is invited to Sang-Joon’s birthday party and receives a red dress from him to wear to his party. Han-Na is excited, yet scared. The dress is revealing and quite extravagant. With her very large figure, she is not sure if she can wear such an outfit. Han-Na does eventually go to the birthday party in the red dress, but is mortified when petite Amy appears in the same red dress. During the course of the birthday party, Han-Na absorbs more emotional trauma and she simply disappears for one year. Han-Na then returns as the beautiful Jenny, a beautiful stunner who decides to make it on her own in the industry but encounters her once sided love. Will she be a success? Will her feelings get in the way and can she keep the guilt of the consequences of what her change brings?
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20. Takane to Hana ( Japanese )
A tv show adapted from a manga ( that I particularly loved).  After her older sister refuses to go to an arranged marriage meeting with Takane Saibara, the heir to a vast business fortune, high schooler Hana Nonomura agrees to be her stand-in to save face for the family. But what happens when Hana meets Takane is an unexpected pairing of utter opposites! Although it seemed a little rushed at the end it was a nice tv show!
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Flower of Evil: Loving someone who does not know what love is Episode 8
Do you love her?” Do Hae Su asks, she can see that Hyun So has changed, it seems crazy to her that he developed a new identity, talks about his daughter and his wife like they are the most precious things to him, and speaks about them with so much energy and excitement. Her brother has changed, there’s a bounce to him, a spring, a light, so it shocks her when he answers coldly “No I’ve never thought that way”
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Loving Someone who does not know what love is
That’s my own narration of that scene in episode 8. You know the scene, the one where Jiwon goes to find out about her husband and realises he reunited with his sister, and that he’s not the serial killer everyone thinks he is. Only to be brought down, shattered and betrayed by one dialogue. Hyun So is asked if he loves his wife, the wife he’s been married to and is the relationship that is the envy of everyone in the show, that wife that he’s been married for over 5 years, he says he doesn’t love her. He says it with such definitiveness, and assurance that she knows he’s not lying. He says it so coldly like what they have meant nothing. And she goes with it. Jiwon decides that he’s been using her from the first time he gave into her; he’s been using her for his own gain and to not get caught by the police...
Except this doesn’t add up to an audience who has just seen the whole truth about Hyun So, we’ve experienced with him his actual crisis; 
His self hate for his disorder which causes people to pull away from him. 
 the abuse and trials he went through because of his disorder.
 And we know he’s not a cold-blooded killer. 
So what gives? Does he really think he doesn’t love his wife? Does he not love her? Really? What? How!!!
 It was a painful moment in the show and the audience is forced to come up with answers to deal with the pain.
 He doesn’t know he loves her because he can’t feel emotions  because of trauma formed from abuse in his past and betrayals from people.
 He does know he doesn’t love her and is using her for logical means; most likely to make his father stop haunting him, and to protect his identity being her husband. 
He doesn’t know he loves her because he really can’t fall in love because of his ‘ASPD’/disorder which makes him unable to feel emotions.
The whole question is based again on understanding more about the perceived antisocial personality disorder that we the audience have been told/shown Do Hyun So has. And it brings the question in Jiwon’s head when she hears it; 
Can Sociopath’s fall in love? 
Can they be attached and obsessed with someone instead? 
Can they act like they are in love forever as long as it fulfils their ambitions? 
Will our ship/couple get the happy ending they deserve choosing to fight with each other against the world no matter what? 
Or are we doomed to see them separate amicably? 
It’s a lot of questions all surrounding ASPD, and just like Jiwon, we’re left feeling stressed and determined to get to the end to see where the show wants to go. 
But I’m someone who needs evidence, I’m someone who doesn’t take things face value. The subtext, evidence, actions we’ve been shown in the show is already showing that there’s a misdirection, misunderstanding and miscommunication somewhere. One of the parts aren’t fitting together. 
And the answers lie on  Hyun So’s perspective on relationships and feelings of love. Think about it from episode 1 to 8 we’ve watched these two’s involvement, we’ve seen how they began, their marriage with a  daughter and now their current downfall. There is no way on earth that there isn’t some kind of love/want/obsession here. So I’m going to break it down using what’s been given so far to explore these options
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Can Hyun So fall in love?
Disorders and Nature
We’ve been told and shown that Hyun So was diagnosed with Anti Social Personality Disorder  at a very young age even though there was not enough information for it at that time. We’ve been told (remember been told not shown) that he’s prone to anger, hurting animals, and lacking empathy and sympathy for situations and people. This means that he is unable to feel the emotions of love because love requires empathy and compassion. 
We are then shown how Hyun So interacts with people so far, this is narrated by Moojin in episode 8, he confirms that Hyun So has been selfish, and doesn’t communicate properly with people, isn’t helpful when someone is going through a crisis and makes situations worse because he says things he’s not meant to. He doesn’t care who he hurts with his words or actions. 
We are also shown Hyun So’s own point of view of this question when he rejects Jiwon at first. He tells her he has issues understanding and being friendly to people, he doesn’t understand emotions, and he struggles to emote feelings because he enjoys beating people up. He warns her that he won’t be able to love her accurately the way she wants. And she tells him it’s okay she’ll help him learn to love. She should have remembered this conversation when she heard he doesn’t love her. (If he was going to lie to her and pretend he loves her he wouldn’t have tried so hard to stop her from being with him at the beginning). We also see that after he says he doesn’t love her, he admits that he doesn’t know what that feeling is, so he can’t say he does. So, for now, he thinks he doesn’t. Let’s look away from his disorder for a bit and focus on the second thing stopping him from being able to love. 
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Trauma and Grooming
There’s a saying about murderer’s and people who seem of; were they born with it or made to become it? Was it nature vs nurture? Nature so far is connected with his inability to love because of his ‘ASPD’. Nurture is to do with the environment around him. Hyun So’s father, first of all, is shown to be intrigued by violence, murder and seems manipulative and calculating. He’s also the notorious serial killer Do Min Seok, who killed many victims continuously before he was caught. This environment already suggests grooming of his son and trauma, causing Hyun So to not want to love someone. The basement Jiwon takes Hyun So in episode 7 is where the killings apparently happen, Hyun So is triggered by whatever memories he has there, and Jiwon can see he’s traumatised by his past. 
Evidence of grooming is also shown in episode 5 and 8;
 His father coerces Hyun So to kill the person he has managed to fight (the guy who stole his money), and Hyun so fights with himself to not do so. 
Next, his father in another flashback gave Hyun So the animals he was said to hurt and told him to do anything with it. Hinting that he was okay with Hyun So’s ASPD and wanted him to continue being more cold and unfeeling and hurtful to life. This again suggests that Hyun So’s stunted growth of feelings and emotions was embedded in him by grooming of his father so he could one day become like him, and kill people. This suggests again that Hyun So is right, he has not had the opportunity to know what romantic love is because the love he was taught and received was colder and more manipulative and hurtful. 
We also have his sister (who is the antithesis of his father) she is the person who has been by his side and sees him for who he is, she’s defensive and protective of him. Still, she also encourages stunted growth as shown in the flashback when she tells Hyun So to never fight or say no to his father. She tells him to do what the father tells him to do and not argue. This relationship is the only thing that shows proof that he might have received some kind of love, but this love is not still the same as romantic love. 
For Trauma:
There’s also the mystery and trauma of his cassette player, a woman is singing a lullaby, and it triggers Hyun So whenever someone tries to take it from him or listen to it. He sees it like his precious object, and he likes listening to it. He’s fiercely protective and will hurt whoever tries to take it away. We can guess that this is his mother or a woman who is important to him. This woman’s humming seems gentle and full of love and because it seems that he’s fiercely protective of this is because the woman is no longer near him, it suggests death and loss, and again shows the failure of the people who could have helped Hyun So feel love. 
The people in his village/town are also connected to the lack of respect around Hyun So, they violently abuse him for his disorder, called him names and feared him. He couldn’t trust friends as they betrayed him, and used him to steal money, or whatever they wanted. And the only romantic love he was exposed to his sister and her boyfriend Moojin became laughable because Moojin became cruel once he found out who the father really was, calling her names and breaking up with her.
 The environment he was groomed in continued to support the stunted growth of feelings and emotions and prevented him from knowing what real romantic love is. So yes, he doesn’t know what love is. 
So far the answer to this question taking account all of this is that no, Hyun So cannot fall in love because he was born with the ability not to love and was forced to be in an environment when love was not supported/trusted. Love was hurtful. This then brings the question: With Jiwon, can he get attached to her romantically?
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Can Hyun So feel attached to Jiwon instead? 
Obsession and Attachment
Whenever I researched about ASPD and sociopathy, especially with the question, can they fall in love? I’m always told that they can not fall in love, but they can be attached because of obsession and addiction. 
I’ve seen an example of this idea in the show Psycho but it’s okay where we were led to believe that the main character with ASPD Moon Young was actually just obsessed with Gang Tae at first, This is before we learnt that she doesn’t have ASPD but was groomed to have it by her mother with the disorder and she can feel love and emotions. The idea of obsession with someone and addiction comes off as toxic co-dependency. It’s not a healthy relationship when one clings to someone obsessively normally. 
So what could be the clues that instead of loving Jiwon, he’s become obsessed with her and can’t let her go?
 Well, when they first meet, he realises that Jiwon makes his dad go away each time he kisses her. Being with her prevents him from feeling trauma and fear from the memories of his father. Being with her removes the haunting and visions(This is similar to Psycho, but it’s okay as well). Thus like Moon Young, he could become obsessed with Jiwon, needing her by his side because she helps fulfil that one needs to stop seeing his father. 
We  then know that if there is something he really wants as he finally admits in episode 8, it’s to keep living on as Baek Hee Sung. This could be because he just wants to not be captured by the police and arrested for his past, or does not want to go through what he went through in his past. He is comfortable the way he is. In order to continue living as Hee Sung, he told his adoptive parents that he’s using Jiwon to keep on living that identity. He also now is attached to her because she is the key to staying Baek Hee Sung. 
Logically he needs her to continue being his wife so that: 
 People don’t ask questions
 He can be safe from the police and know intel (she’s a detective)
 He needs to pretend to love her to make sure his goal is accomplished, to stay Baek Hee Sung. He mentions to his adoptive parents in episode 1 that he’s married to her because she sees what she wants to see, so he can easily manipulate and give her what she wants to see and stay safe. Her gullibility (though we know he doesn’t think she’s gullible) and her love for him could be manipulated in many ways to keeping his goals. 
Once we look at this option we can say Hyun So is right he doesn’t love Jiwon, but he is attached to her because she makes life easy for him. He’s only acting to be in love her because he’s researched how to do so, and it’s not automatic or real. This also answers the third question as long as she’s useful to him, he’ll keep pretending to love her but once she’s not, he can discard away everything because she’s not essential to him.
 However, I feel like this is where this all falls apart, and that’s their very first interactions. Hyun So shows that these three questions don’t apply to him by one act. He stayed outside to protect her in the night and ensure her store doesn’t get robbed. That one action disproves all of the queries. 
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Does Hyun So love Jiwon?
Proof and Subtext
It disproves that his ASPD prevents him from feeling emotions or worry. Because he didn’t have to care about her store, or about her feeling safe. He didn’t have to wait there because he did not need to protect her. He automatically listens to her worries and goes out and helps her (he doesn’t know however that she will know of this moment and fall for him from then on) This one action shows that he’s capable of listening and caring without knowing that he is caring. This one action is also the catalyst for her feelings for him and makes sure she continues to try and make him let her love him. If his ASPD was meant to prevent him from caring, he would have left after she told him about the robbery, he would have not stayed to watch over her until the lights come back up in the cold, and he would have been crueller to her when she continued to pester her. 
It disproves him using her because she makes his dad disappear. He didn’t know by then she causes his dad to leave, he only realises it after he kisses her. His actions there was just because he wanted to protect her. 
It disproves him using her because she helps him keep the identity Baek Hee Sung, it’s repeated a lot in the show that the unparents did not want him and Jiwon to marry, he did it because he wanted to, he fought them on it and wanted her by his side, they actually thought she would end his secret identity because she’s a risk and a detective. They believe she’ll be his downfall of their plans. He’s the one who fights for her to be by his side; this could be because she makes his father disappear. But there’s a hint there that subconsciously he’s already connected to her and he does care about her. 
This action disproves him only helping or protecting Jiwon because she’s useful, to manipulate her or she maintains his goals because she wasn’t relevant yet at this time. He just did it to protect her. There’s other instances that show he’s capable of feeling and caring about people and loving someone. But this one action shows that Jiwon was someone he had cared initially for before everything else before he knew she would fall for him the way she did. I also think him warning her not to choose him was also a sign that he cares about her and isn’t with her because he’s coldblooded and she fulfils his goals and there’s the scene in episode 4 where he uses his body to shield her from getting hurt as they are fighting in the dark.
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Logic vs Feelings
So with all this analysis, my answer is clear, one he doesn’t know what love is because of his circumstances and because of that he does not know if what he’s doing is love or not and that’s why he can’t say he loves her for sure. However, his actions and automatic choices, his panic attacks at the thought of her leaving or discovering who he is, show that there is love there he just doesn’t know he feels it. There is attachment there, and it’s not for only harmful purposes, but it also is a feeling of emotion connected to her. He also is fiercely protective and caring of Jiwon, and he regrets always hurting her. He begs her (not knowing it’s her) that he won’t be Do Hyun So again because he saw her panic in the pool trying to save his life. He may not understand it, but seeing her that way affected him and made him more desperate to keep the secret away from her, he doesn’t like seeing her hurt. That’s why he says he regrets ever meeting her because he feels sorry for her loving him. There’s a hint of emotion, care and worry tinged in melancholy at the fact that being with her hurts her.  Also really focus on the dialogue “I’ve never thought that way” this is all to do with his thoughts not his feelings, he’s probably felt that way but he didn’t realise it, he didn’t know it was love so there’s no way he can think that it is.  
I believe sociopaths can love and fall in love, and I think Hyun So loves his wife just as much as she loves him. He just doesn’t understand the intricacies of the relationship, and he’s never experienced romantic love before. His answer is no because it’s a logical response, it’s the answer that’s, on the one hand, the most accurate. He does not love her because he doesn’t know what love is. It’s not a lie. He answered it truthfully even though it ended up hurting Jiwon who only follows logic and evidence. The evidence was him saying it as a matter of fact, even if his actions show otherwise. 
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Sasheenka's book club 6/?
For the past 5 months I have read and/or listened to over 40 gay romance books and I keep adding more and more to my collection. I will use my tumblr to do short reviews of the titles I go through. Number of stars ★ to ★★★★★ denote my level of enjoyment throughout.
Any Old Diamonds by KJ Charles (★★★★★)
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Lord Alexander Pyne-ffoulkes, the younger son of the Duke of Ilvar, holds a bitter grudge against his wealthy father. The Duke intends to give his second wife a priceless diamond parure on their wedding anniversary - so Alec hires a pair of jewel thieves to steal it.  The Duke's remote castle is a difficult target, and while Alec can get himself invited for the anniversary, getting the thieves in will be more difficult. The thieves propose that one of them, Jerry Crozier, will pose as Alec's new best friend. While taking in London society together to make their friendship seem genuine, Jerry effortlessly teases out the lonely young nobleman's most secret desires, and soon he's got Alec in his bed - and the palm of his hand.  Or maybe not. Because as the plot thickens, betrayals, secrets, and old evils come to light. Now the jewel thief and the aristocrat must keep up the pretence, find their way through a maze of privilege and deceit, and confront the truth of what's between them...all without getting caught.
Lovely book. Great characters, a fun plot with an unexpected plot twist (but hinted at when you read it the second time!) and a good resolution. The characters have great chemistry and I did enjoy their romance. It was nice seeing a characters from another of KJ’s series there too! So yes, I enjoyed it a lot, plot, characters, angst, romance, the whole shebang and have read and listened to it multiple times now. It's definitely in my favourite folder.
Narrated by: Cornell Collins (Wonderful as always. KJ Charles and Cornell Collins combo it the best lol)
Length: 8 hrs and 5 mins
The Station by Keira Andrews (★★)
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It's 1840s in England and ever since Colin Lancaster spied on his family's stable master Patrick Callahan having sex with another man, he's longed for Patrick to do the same to him. When Patrick is caught with his pants down and threatened with death for his crime, Colin speaks up in his defense and confesses his own sinful nature. They're soon banished to the faraway prison colony of Australia. From the miserable depths of a prison ship to the vast, untamed Australian outback, Colin and Patrick must rely on each other. Danger lurks everywhere, and when they unexpectedly get the chance to escape to a new life as cowboys, they'll need each other more than ever.
I did not finish this book because I couldn’t stand the love interest. Patrick was an ass and I wished someone else would come in and swoop Colin off his feet. He didn’t communicate (he didn’t much speak at all), he was grumpy, he insisted everything about him and Colin was merely physical and when Colin said he doesn’t want to pursue their affair in that case he kept demanding sex...Maybe if the book used switching POVs we could get an insight on why he was behaving the way he did...but as it was...nope. Also, it seemed strange to me Colin would be sentenced for attempted sodomy, when he did not, in fact, attempt it, just confessed to being gay...but I was willing to let that slide as a plot device.
Narrated by: Joel Leslie (Joel as usual giving it a lot of feeling)
Length: 7 hrs and 9 mins
Widdershins by Jordan L. Hawk (★★★★)
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An urban fantasy taking place in America in 1897. Percival Whyborne is a comparative philologist, apt at cryptography and reading dead languages. After the tragic death of a friend he secretly loved, he's ruthlessly suppressed any desire for other men. So when handsome ex-Pinkerton agent Griffin Flaherty approaches him to translate a mysterious book connected to a case of his, Whyborne wants to finish the job and get rid of the detective as quickly as possible. But they grow close as they uncover evidence of a powerful secret society with occult powers at their disposal being at large in the town of Widdershins and they fall in love love while saving the world.
This book is written in the first person, which I know many people hate, but I didn’t really mind it here. It took me some time to get into this book, but in the end I did enjoy it and I plan on reading the rest of the series. The characters were likeable, the plot came together nicely, the romance was quite sweet with a small speck of angst right before the big finale. Prepare for lots of gore and body horror though! I still think of the way Griffin's Pinkerton partner died!.
Narrated by: Julian G. Simmons (I think the reason why I couldn’t get into it at the beginning was the narration tbh)
Length: 9 hrs and 15 mins
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Digging Deeper 🕳
@evilovesyou thank youuu for tagging me :D
I’ll tag @cheekbonetojawbone @foreverfanficaddict @promisethatillnevertell @essercipertuttienonperse
1.Do you prefer writing with a black pen or blue pen? 
Blue
2. Would you prefer to live in the country or city? 
In the country. I grew up in a city (although on the outer skirts of it), then moved to the country (there was literally NOTHING around though) and then moved to Berlin. 
I’d ideally live in the country but close enough to the city to reach it in like 30 mins. lol
3. If you could learn a new skill what would it be?
hmmm I’d like to learn french. I’ve been regretting not choosing it in school over Latin... but I’m also not willing to really invest time in it right now
4. Do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? 
Nope
5. What was your favourite book as a child? 
... I have read so many books as a child... like which age are we talking?
I loved the Saddle Club Series when I was really little, then Harry Potter and all the young adult fantasy novels... Bartimaeus, Eragon, The Mortal Instruments, His Dark Materials...stuff like that
6. Do you prefer baths or showers? 
Baths. I’d take one every day if I could. In fact I have done just that the past few months pretty much lol
7. If you could be a mythical creature, which one would it be? 
Mermaid. I love the sea
8. Paper or electronic books? 
Yes. ;)
9. What is your favourite item of clothing? 
I love a good Hoodie...
10. Do you like your name or would you like to change it?
I like it and wouldn’t change it :)
11. Who is a mentor to you?
My old boss used to be mine but we lost contact over the past years.
I used to sit his dog all the time and he practically just gave me a horse for almost a year lol.
But he was also guiding me at work and on my academic path really
12. Would you like to be famous and if so, what for? 
Absolutely not. No.
13. Are you a restless sleeper? 
I am a light sleeper and wake up frequently or can’t go to sleep in the first place.
But when I sleep I don’t move at all apparently
14. Do you consider yourself a romantic person? 
I never considered myself a romantic person but I suspect I still am one lol
15. Which element best represents you?
Fire? But also Water I think. 
16. Who do you want to be closer to?
I’m pretty good where I am right now
17. Do you miss someone at the moment? 
No. I’ve been living away from my family and boyfriend for almost 10 years now and I only miss some of my friends from Uni now that it’s over
18. Tell us about an early childhood memory.
Okay the first memory I have is me standing in our kitchen, I’m shorter than the counter. I’m looking up at my mom and she reaches her hand out towards my face... so; we’re in the kitchen - I think she is giving me something to eat, right?! I open my mouth wide.
But nope, she was just brushing some hair out of my face. The disappointment has really dug itself deep into my memory. The first betrayal I remember lol
19. What is the strangest thing you have eaten?
hmmm strange? I mean we eat Mett here - minced raw pork. I love it on a bun for breakfast.
That’s probably strange to most of you not from Germany
20. What are you most thankful for? 
that I have been given many amazing chances in life and that I was able to grow up in a privileged country probably. Yes we do have many problems here too but overall it’s an amazing country to live in
21. Do you like spicy food? 
Yes (but spicy here is surely not spicy in most other parts of the world lol)
22. Have you ever met someone famous? 
Rolf Zuckowski was at my Confirmation. And he was literally my childhood hero - he makes music for children here. I’d say every german child knows him (at least they did when I was young).
I think his nephew was part of my group but I only learned that afterwards.
I’ve seen some others around here but he had the biggest impact :D
23. Do you keep a diary or journal? 
No
24. Do you prefer to use a pen or a pencil?
Yeah depends on what I’m doing. I love writing with a fountain pen still
25. What is your star sign? 
Aries
26. Do you like your cereal soggy or crunchy? 
Crunchy
27. What would you want your legacy to be? 
I don’t know really. I just want the people I loved to remember me fondly and then after that I don’t really care. 
I hope I’d have brought some positivity and love and good into the world
28. Do you like reading, what was the last book you read? 
I don’t remember the last physical book I read for pleasure. Probably one of the A Song Of Ice And Fire books... Loads of fanfics at the moment though :D
29. How do you show someone you love them? 
I spend time with them and pay attention to them mostly I think 
30. Do you like ice in your drinks? 
Rarely. I prefer chilled drinks from the fridge if anything. I don’t mind ice but I don’t go out of my way to put some in 
31. What are you afraid of? 
many things. Falling seriously ill. Failure. Being lonely (altough I love to be alone...)... I mean I can think of so many things.
32. What is your favourite scent? 
All the clean scents like fresh linen, mowed grass, the sea... loads of natural scents
33. Do you address older people by their name or surname? 
Really depends on the circumstances. Usually I would address them with “Sie” (the formal you) and their last name. If they offer “Du” (the informal you) then they’d usually also tell you to call them by their first name.
But the standard would be by their last name until they offer to use first names...
34. If money was not a factor, how would you live your life? 
I’d just have a bunch of animals and volunteer at a shelter; donate to a bunch of good causes etc.
Wait do I have money to spent and donate or just wouldn’t have to worry about paying my own bills?
I’d have a bunch of animals either way and then do art all day for fun. Be out in nature a lot. Just do whatever I felt like really. 
35. Do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? 
The Ocean
36. What would you do if you found £50 on the ground?
Depends on where I found it. Are there people around? I’d ask if someone had lost it. Out in the country or smth... keep it.
37. Have you ever seen a shooting star? 
yes
38. What is the one thing you would want to teach your children?
Be kind but don’t let people walk over you and believe in yourself but also use your brain.
39. If you could get a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? 
I want a ship’s wheel on my right hand next but I’ve been putting it off because I still don’t know if I really want a tattoo on my hand... yeah. It’s been years.
40. What can you hear now? 
Steven in Stereo listening to 5SOS Wildflower 
41. Where do you feel the safest?
Home
42. What is the one thing you want to overcome/conquer?
not believing in myself and paralyzing myself because of that.
43. If you could travel back to any era, what would it be? 
hm the 60s maybe. Or 70s. I think that has the most potential to be fun 
44. What is your most used emoji?
😂
45. Describe yourself using one word. 
multifaceted (how pretentious)
46. What do you regret the most? 
ugh. nothing too major I think.
I try not to regret things really. they’re done so what good does it do.
Maybe not keeping a puppy of the litter we raised haha
47. Last movie you saw? 
Rocketman
48. Last tv show you watched?
Dark (now rewatching Supernatural)
49. Invent a word and it’s meaning.
Schmischmou. That’s just the butchered nickname of my cat- so it means “the purest creature that has ever walked the world” 😌
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Just a Kara and Lena ramble
(Pre seeing the episode)
I saw a post on Twitter about the preview scene where Lena goes to see Kara and offers her condolences and the person said that this would be Lena "finally" understanding Kara's pain and how much she has lost.
Erm... I can't get on bored with that I'm afraid. Kara's suffered a lot yes, but so has Lena, I honestly don't think one person's pain cancels out or outweighs another. Like "I suffered worse than you so I win the who has suffered the most competition and everything i do is forgiven".
I posted a long while back now that yes Kara has suffered a lot, but the difference between her and Lena is that Kara has had full support since the moment she landed. Kara (even when she was rejecting it) has always had a full support system in place.
Lena since the age of 4 (her crash landing if you will) has not had that. Lena has been surrounded by vipers and friends and family that have betrayed her, used her and on a result basis tried to kill her. The two people she had pre-Kara who were always good to her were Jack (who she had to let die to save Kara's life) and Sam, who she risked everything, including the wrath and trust of Supergirl to protect.
Lena isn't a monster who doesn't understand loss. She even brings Kara a book to help cope with it. I don't know if any of you have lost parents but my God it does something to you. I've lost a parent, and I've had friends who betrayed me who have lost a parent. I still offered my condolences to these people and offered help with anything they needed because of basic human decency and remembering that squabbles can be set aside or forgotten when something that devastating happens.
Remember that Lena doesn't really hate Kara. She's even shown to have been heartbroken and devastated by Kara's betrayal (please let's not go back to the "She didn't betray her crap, she lied, she pretended to be two people, lets move on) and thats what motivates her to try and remove people's ability to do that. A misguided plan yes, but not born from hatred of Kara.
The same poster said Lena would finally understand Kara's loss of Argo, but erm.. didn't Lena save Argo City TWICE? Once with the Harun El and once when she stopped Lex blowing it up. (Coincidentally 5 mins before she learned the super secret and shot Lex to protect the world) So i think she understood the importance of that city to Kara.
Kara has lost her adopted dad, that's horrible. But that doesn't mean Lena suddenly has to accept that Kara was in the right the whole time and needs to apologise to her. It means that Lena understands her pain and has come to offer what she can, as a friend? An acquaintance? Hell even enemies can understand pain and call a truce for a while.
My take would be that one half of Lena is screaming to forgive Kara, to go and hug her, to welcome her back into her life because RAO knows Lena is lonely, so lonely she had to build a friend! The other half is telling her that she can't do that, that Kara is still the one that lied to her all that time, who made a fool of her, who maybe never really wanted to be her friend and turned on her the moment she could as Supergirl.
The fact that both have stared at a picture of them with forlorn longing says that they miss eachother. Lena is at odds with herself.
Hopefully they will be done with this nonsense now, the show is like one step forward 30 steps back with these two and their fight. It's worn out it's welcome now, not that it ever had one. It's time they either made up or broke up (as friends) for good.
But Lena in no way has to forgive and forget all because Kara happened to suffer a loss.
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