#yeah. i am. i don't wanna be indian with disgusting ppl like u in this country. I'd rather be dead

[kurazaru]

The honeymoon phase of my college is over✨ I've started to slowly dislike some ppl... My roommate is too fucking touchy md annoying. Two of my roommates including this one talk shit abt my north Indian frnds. Like fuck y'all they r wayyyyy better nd understanding u guys could ever be. I hate the racism here. Idk why we as adults are so fucking divided by race. It's so goddamn shallow and disgusting. Refusing to accept an entire group of people just because they are frm the northern part of your own country is sooo narrow minded nd backward. And the same thing goes to my north Indian frnds who don't particularly like the south Indians, though it's not as much as the south Indians... And omg ive removed all my college frnds frm my CF on insta. Most of them were north Indians. They keep telling me "why are you posting such stories" and "stop posting stories of what you eat" like??? It's my fucking insta and hence it's my fucking choice. And it's not even some aesthetic insta bullshit, like I ate this one new chips and it was really good and so I posted abt it and they got offended like??? So yeah they aren't there anymore.

And I haven't found that "one frnd" you know. Like that one frnd who u can go to anytime. Like whenever I'm feeling down or just want peace I can go to their room nd chill or study. But I don't get that vibe frm any of my frnds.... Nd i feel like i won't be finding someone like that anytime soon... Nd i feel so undesirable coz almost everyone I see has that one frnd nd i don't.... I wanna go home dude... I tried spending time with 2 ppl nd I thought they could be that one person but then i tried testing something. I am the one who usually goes to their room and calls them to come and eat food with me, but this time I didn't do that fr like 2-3 days. They never called me. I felt really hurt dude. But it's fine ig. You can't expect everyone to like you. Or maybe I just hv a bad personality idk. Anyways I'm gonna keep to myself more now. I'm just gonna grind nd study nd have my own fun. Anyways IDC abt what ppl think of me or my interests. If I like something I will do it nd if i don't like it i won't. Simple. Im not changing anything for you. They aren't that close to me for me to change things I like abt myself. Anyways enough ranting fr todayyy