representing trauma as being split in two, the part that’s suffering at the same time the loudest, most violent, but also the one who’s locked and stuck in time, replaying times and times again what happened and not being able to move forward. and the you that could have been, the one who’s not scared, or the one who’s scar has healed, not being able to open the door despite trying again and again and again. fuck.
This concludes the tumblr portion of today's update...
Dearest readers,
It would appear that Jayce is *ahem* about to prove that Hope, his betrothed, has no reason at all to be confused. Aunties, you may choose to look away, however, Hope is a grown ass woman and got exactly what she deserved in the most fantastic way imaginable.
*If y'all don't know what Ninja Sex Party is... please don't look up these songs if you're a minor. It's based off vibes. It's been a while since I've listen to all these songs so some might be off.
I was 12 when this blog started, now I’m 30. In all seriousness, I’m so excited for this!! What little spoilers are you willing to give us author?
good god, i hope it'll never be that long when i take a hiatus 💀 as for spoilers, let's just say you'll be able to take a peek at the main character's past, meet one of the RO and do some... unsavoury things. but let's be honest, most of the readers are here for the ‘unsavoury’ deeds, aren't they 👀
i saw this scene being uploaded in english the other day and i can't not rewatch the japanese version because, you know, seiyuu brainrot and whatnot. translations (completely my own) under the cut.
Prompto: What're you doing?
Noctis: Nothing, really. Just spacing out.
Prompto: Huh. I see.
[ Leave him alone / Talk about something random / Wait for him to speak ]
Noctis: Hmph—
Prompto: We went through so much today, huh?
Noctis: Everything's so new to us, too.
Prompto: You can say that again. Things have been super hard, but I didn't expect every day to be so much fun. Y'see, everything I see is new to me.
Prompto: I never expected things to turn out this way or to go out on a trip together.
Noctis: Yeah.
Prompto: How long have we known each other again? It's since high school... So five years?
Noctis: But I've known you for longer. Was it since elementary school?
Prompto: Eh? How'd you remember that?
Noctis: 'Course I'd remember. You stared at me so much.
Prompto: Ugh. [nervous laughter] You see, that's because I have my reasons...
Noctis: But you were still like, "Nice to meet ya!" at the high school entrance ceremony.
Prompto: I had to really brace myself to talk to you that time.
Prompto: [sighs] Kinda takes me back.
Noctis: You could've just talked to me, you know.
Prompto: I know it's easy for you to say— You wouldn't understand, Noct.
Prompto: Back then, I—
Prompto: Sorry, man. It really is nothing.
[ Ask him out of concern / You're concerned but you don't force it out of him / You won't get mad so ask him to be honest ]
Noctis: What is up with that? Just say it.
Prompto: [sighs] All right.
Prompto: You see...
Prompto: I used to be unable to reach out to other people.
Prompto: And I... didn't have anyone that I could call a true friend.
Prompto: I was always by myself.
Prompto: So sometimes I end up thinking maybe I'm not worth anything.
sorry but i deeply urge everyone to please stop percieving my man swann arlaud, not everyone get's him like some of us do, some of us have been here from the beginning, we're not accepting any new members, please i'm asking you to look away, in honest words i am gatekeeping him from y'alls claws