#wordsillneversay

[beausuphs]

Why am I trying so desperately to impress you when I don't know you and you don't care?

I'd like to be a peacock, not this transparent chameleon

#chameleon #wordsillneversay

[letters-fromemily]

It was me who never feared death

Something about the calm nothingness was satisfying to me

You see,

I’ve always been afraid of living

For I fear the regret and pain I’ll feel in the last minutes.

I fear the wrong choices yet to be made

I fear the decline of health

There’s something often familiar and welcoming about death

Whereas life is unpredictable and truly surprising.

#freewritting #wordsillneversay #self harrrm #mentally unstable #untoldfeelings #bipolor

[lawsoflau]

I Never Thought I Belonged to the World

I never thought I belonged to the world

Although I tried to fit in as much as I could.

It’s like I’m on my own direction and the other way they rolled.

I never thought I belonged to the world.

I never thought I belonged to this world.

I laugh, I smile. I make everything worthwhile

I make friends and riled up for the ride.

I thought maybe I can be in their world.

Still, I though I never belonged to their world.

Then I start thinking, what if I go?

Another place I’ll be, another thing I’ll do

But it’s a cycle, I’ll never belong to that world.

I’ll never belong to the world.

Same thing happens again and again

Every day, same courage and strength to regain.

Even if I go, I’ll never belong to the world.

- LAU | 08.02.2018

#lawsoflau #poetsoftumblr #prose #things i will never say #innerthoughts #introvert #wordsillneversay #introspective #poem #inner thoughts #poetry

[jwand24]

you and I, the infinite love we tried so hard to maintain we got lost. At least I think it has. Somewhere it just slowly slipped right out of our hands, did it or is this just my broken heart and mind playing on me?

Tell me please because love comes and it goes, but where’s the ‘one?where does that puzzle piece fit. The fantasies are no longer exciting, is forever even a thing?

- unknown

#relationship #thoughts #quotes #wordsillneversay #quote #heartbreak #confused #fairytail

[jordynisabelle]

one morning I woke up

and I thought of you

with every breath

#spilled poetry #poetry #wordsillneversay

[blackheartseverywhere]

I lay in bed and I let my mind wonder.

Anxiety ruins my life, all hours of every day

I run from my fears.

Do you ever wonder? Why

Did it all come to this? 

Tears streaming, falling down my cheeks;

As leaves fall when the cold sets in, where

Could it all have gone so wrong? 

I don’t remember taking a wrong turn

The wrong turn, the one that lead me here

The cliff. Life or Death, You

You, get to choose. 

KF xx

#sadness #poems #poetry #hopeless #whyme #givingup #save me #wordsillneversay

[happinessdaisess]

Everyone left me the day you did. And I've spent every day wishing you back. Ive spent every day lonelier than the last. They said time would heal these broken wounds. My gosh am i trying my best. Just a light flicker gone out, quieter, lonelier, exhausted. A storm cloud of darkness hallucinations

#mythoughts #mywords #poets #poetry #spitpoet #spilled words #wordsillneversay

[thebig-grilledcheese]

Yo. No offense. But you deserve to be happy. So go be happy and leave me the fuck alone.

#lettersillneversend #wordsillneversay

[itsshashaworld]

The Story Of My Life

I miss you.

I want you.

I love you.

But,

I don't need you.

#storyofmylife #imissyou #hurtingatthemoment #spilled words #wordsillneversay

[mycatsarebetterthanyours243-blog]

Words I’ll never say

There’s so much I want to say to you. I know given the chance, I probably wouldn’t say any of it, though. I lay awake at night for hours having conversations with you in my head that I know will never happen. I’ll never get an apology. You’ll just come crashing back into my life again when she’s gone like nothing ever happened. And I’ll be here greeting you with arms wide open like I always do. Hoping things will turn out differently this time...

#wordsillneversay #gay #lgbt #heartbroken #sad #lost #hurt #love #lesbian #pathetic #girl

[writingstohim-808]

I've cried all the tears I had for you, but yet I still find I have more. You shouldn't be able to make me cry as much you have. You shouldn't be able to make me hurt as I did. You shouldn't mean as much to me as you do. I don't understand what it is, but you also shouldn't be able to make me as happy as you have too. I've felt so broken and alone for so long. I didn't even know how to fake it and pretend to be happy. However, with you, I don't need to pretend. You have made me feel so much pain and sadness, but I've never felt so much love and kindness in my heart. I borrowed your happiness and traded my sadness into your soul. I should have stayed away, but you called me in a way that neither one of us could have seen coming. I regret the sorrow that I brought into your life and wish I could return the happiness you once only knew. I know I have hurt you too many times to count and I have been hurt so much as well. Our love may seem tragic and it probably is poison in our hearts, but we lit a flame within each other and I don't know how to extinguish it. Nor do I want to. Because of you, my heart still pumps blood into my veins and breath comes out of my lips. I crave the pain you give, because I know the happiness I also get from you, makes everything all worth it in the end.

#writings #writingstohim #love #hurt #pain #relationships #couple #wordsillneversay

[letters-fromemily]

When does this all become enough?

You could have a lump sum of money, a big house, and a beautiful family and still want more.

You could lose all the weight in the world and still be unhappy with your body.

You could have a roof over your head and kids that visit everyday and still not feel valued or appreciated.

You could have a job that pays you really well and still not be happy with what you do everyday.

You could have a fiancé that values you and supports you in everything you do. Someone who is willing to grow with you and still feel alone.

You could have all the friends in the world and still feel like you’re the only one in the room.

You could be the healthiest you have been in your entire life and still relapse.

You could have all the answers right inside of you and you still look for external validation.

You could have all the love in the world and still give it to the wrong people.

When does this all become enough?

There was a time we wished for exactly where we are right now, why do we always chase more?

There was a time we never thought we would make it this far and we continue to look at how much further we have left to go.

When does this all become enough?

How do we stop and realize that this moment.. right here is enough. How do we come to the realization that everything up until this point has led us to exactly where we are? The people we meet, the songs we sing, the wars we battle.

This right now has got to be enough. You will lose yourself trying to outrun fate. If it’s meant to happen, it will.

#writers and poets #wordsillneversay #exerpts from a book i'll never write

[sweeterrthan]

12:37 am

Laying in bed with my husband. Whom is supposed to be my forever. He's passed ouT and I have tears rolling down my face.... I love him but does he love me? And if he does why the hell does it feel like he doesn't...

#wordsillneversay

[doitalljustbecause]

Sometimes when I look in the mirror, I still hear those ugly words in my head, and I hate my reflection. But then, his hands settle on my hips, and run up my belly, and he smiles, and tells me how absolutely beautiful I am, how lucky he is to have the most beautiful woman he has ever seen be his and only his. And I feel like I’m the only woman on earth, I feel so lovely. I never thought I could feel that way. 

#you thingsyoudotome wordsillneversay

[jordynisabelle]

I will continue to write

these anonymous poems

To hide the sound of my

cracked voice behind

these shakey words

It makes me wonder

if you can recognise the pattern

hidden between the spaces

there is a sudden feeling in it

that may remind you

so please

tell me when you

find your name

It is begging to be found

#wordsillneversay #mine #poetry