#why does my mom always have to do this shit like

[jazzsonly]

instagram one shot — jenna ortega x gn!singer!reader (implied fem!reader but no pronouns used)

y/n_y/l/n: couldn’t ask for a better present

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user85: happy bday y/n!!

fanpage: ik the sex was fire on thier trip

↳ userO1: ????

user856: would do anything to be apart of their relationship 🙏🏾

jackchampion: 3rd wheeled 🙄

↳ jennaortega: you literally begged us to

user34: all these baecations but no new album 🤔😒

jennaortega: happy bday <3 you deserved this trip.

↳ y/n_y/l/n: what’d i do to deserve the most caring girlfriend

masonthegooding: actually my biological parents if anyone was wondering

jasminsavoy: love the gay vibes keep it up

devyn_nekoda: happy bday to the no. 1 jenna ortega fan everyone

↳ y/n_y/l/n: i was actually promoted to leader of the fan club

kehlani: corny ass caption

↳ y/n_y/l/n: and to think i just wrote a song for you ☹️😒

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y/n_y/l/n: being this short should be illegal wtf smurf head ah

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masongooding: freshly baked cookies and raw steak wow 😫 my dream dinner

↳ y/n_y/l/n: you got man boobs i’d be quiet if i were you

jennaortega: 😐

↳ y/n_y/l/n: 🫠 love ya

jasminsavoy: no need for violence now…even if it is true

aaliyahortega: LMAOOOOOO

justinbieber: 😂😂

user85: ah to be in love like this

fanpage: this is weird and insulting…jenna deserves better

↳ y/n_y/l/n: smh you’re right, she should be with you instead (suck my nuts)

melissabarreram: can’t sit around and let my sister get disrespected like this

↳ jack_quaid: lol

zendaya: and i thought i was a hater

↳ y/n_y/l/n: you are…

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y/n_y/l/n: i’m so fine no wonder jenna ortega be laying that thang on me like i mean she be putting it DOWN

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aaliyahortega: mom seen this lolllll

jennaortega: delete this ??

↳ y/n_y/l/n: when beyoncé said dance for you i ain’t know you was gonna take that to heart you did ya thang last night baby 😏😏😏

↳ natalieortega1: y/n please call me…

↳ y/n_y/l/n: yes ma’am

user85: if she ain’t like this ion want her

thestallion: iktr 😂😂

kehlani: head ah post

↳ y/n_y/l/n: always talking but never releasing music…get ya priorities straight

↳ kehlani: and who called me last night asking for help on a song?

masongooding: 😃 great post bud! very educational!

screammovies: ghostface has some questions…

melissabarreram: ?

reneerapp: conceited as always smh

↳ y/n_y/l/n: confident**

fanpage: want what they have 🥲

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y/n_y/l/n: got that dog in me

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masongooding: bro take this shit off

↳ y/n_y/l/n: i’ll have you know jenna’s mom brought me this shirt therefore i will NEVER EVER take it off

jennaortega: that’s a bear…

↳ y/n_y/l/n: fuck around and find out 😒

justinbieber: swag swag swag

zendaya: stylin

↳ y/n_y/l/n: better than you

jasminsavoy: why is my face on your shirt?

arianagrande: met gala look book

sza: need that shirt

natalieortega1: looks good! 👍😁

↳ y/n_y/l/n: maaaa 🤍🤍

user113: this is who i stan…and i’ve accepted that

user558: always posting on ig but never in that studio 🤔

fanpage124: does anyone else think y/n tries to hard to be funny and relatable? like we get it 😂😂 you’re cool okay

↳ y/n_y/l/n: you’re broke we get it cool okay

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y/n_y/l/n: last few days

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user113: new music? 👀

jennaortega: best cabin trip ever

masongooding: hey i was there too? where’s my pics?

↳ y/n_y/l/n: you’re my side piece yk i can’t be posting you everywhere

jackchampion: cute

↳ y/n_y/l/n: no, you!😫

aaliyahortega: she can’t play the guitar for shit

↳ jennaortega: hater

user558: literally the best celebrity couple no one can convince me otherwise

kehlani: new song so fire 🤫

rennerapp: vocals are👩‍🍳 💋

jasminsavoy: so honored to be featured on this album

↳ y/n_y/l/n: my homegirl 🤍

user114: GUYS ITS HAPPENING!!!!!

fanpage: LET’s GOOOOOOOOOO

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#jenna ortega x y/n #jenna ortega x you #jenna ortega x reader #jenna marie ortega #jenna ortega #scream #scream franchise #scream six #tara carpenter x you #tara carpenter

[tipsyleaf]

Violet would bring Leon to her show and tell day at school, practically bragging about how her daddy’s was a high government official. She’d give a brief description of his job, all while little ‘Wow!’ And ‘Ooo’s!’ Echoed throughout the classroom.

Everyone found it cool—especially the boys. They’d ask him questions, he’d show his cool little DSO badge, tell them stories that won’t traumatize a set of 7/8 year olds. The boys in the class would obviously ask if he has a gun, he just laughs it off and says ‘Maybe.’

After that day; all of her classmates were convinced that she had the coolest daddy in the world.

- Anon! 🎀

(P.S. Love you too pookie <3)

Also, all the kids ask if he has a cruiser like a cop does to which he just responds "No, but I do drive a motorcycle."

Insert room full of gasps here

Violet has kids begging to be invited to her house for playdates constantly and kids fighting over party invites for birthdays, sleepovers or just little get togethers.

But that's when Leon and her mom have to sit her down and talk about what real friends are like because some kids are mean. Very mean...

I'd imagine some kid in her class would start picking on her out of jealousy from so many people thinking her dad is cool. And wanting to be her friend.

This kid... He's a massive asshole for a 7-8 year old.

Now Leon is a pretty docile parent. Would much rather sit down and talk it out with the kids parents but his wife.... Mama bear. Do. No. FUCK. With her family...

Has definitely had Leon had to drag her away at PTA meetings or school functions to not fight this kids dad. She doesn't give a shit if he's a grown man or twice her size. She's not scared to fight a man.

As often as Leon has had to haul his wife away he still appreciates her being a strong woman. This is the kind of woman he wants their daughters to become. People who defend others and fight for their beliefs. Even if he can't always do that himself he values those who do.

It's part of the reason why he fell in love with you in the first place. (I'm gonna make myself cry...)

Eventually this kid becomes a nuisance and Violet gets permission to tell this kid off without censoring herself. And my God does that little lady have a mouth on her...

A WEEKS WORTH OF DETENTION!

But her parents fight with the school to get it off her record because the kid comes clean about being a little dick.

When Violet got home and told her parents what happened they both make sure she knows she did the right thing. Reassure her and reward her for sticking up for herself by taking her and baby Cecilia for ice cream. And she gets a toy.

They honestly can't not spoil her...

#leon kennedy x reader #leon s kennedy x reader #leon kennedy x fem reader #leon s kennedy #🏡 domestic life with leon kennedy #resident evil x reader #🌿 ivy replies #🌿 ivy writes

[ihamtmus]

it's weird how jhope is Right There and he's like the Most Talented Person but some armys just. don't see him. should be studied

#if you do see him i'm not talking about you obviously #but it does happen #like before i got into bts #my mom and sister didn't really notice jhope #he was just There #and when i said he was my bias they couldn't say anything about him except for 'he's a sunshine' #they liked him but didn't actually care #well now he's their fave haha #but i think many ''armys'' stop at that first phase #where they see him as this funny clown but they don't notice that he's actually insanely incredibly talented and cool #his rap verses are ALWAYS top tier #everything about him is just top tier #yes i'm biased but also how can you not see it when you already stan bts 😭 #soooo many armys like him just because he's there but not because they like HIM #and it shows #oh they're missing out #they notice when he supports the other members #(which is often because he loves them so much :')) #but wow they have this Artist right under their noses and choose to only see his (admittedly beautiful) smile #even after jitb and all that it meant #ok rant over #chicken noodle soup thank you for making me a jhope bias and saving me from this fate amen #hobi #bts #my post #it is Very Late perhaps that's why i'm saying this lol #oh one more thing i've never watched these introduction to bts videos #but i just KNOW they are shit about hoseok and his contributions to the group #if you don't have something interesting to say about all the members maybe don't make an ot7 introductory video idk just a thought

[calamitydaze]

long tag ramble below u have been warned

#ok i feel like i should say Something before i start being active again #but i dont want it to be a Statement which is why i’m putting it in the tags #(also bc i procrastinated doing this for weeks so i know this is a very stale topic by now #but i also haven’t been on tumblr literally at all so this is 100% my organic authentic opinion lmao) #so read if you gaf and ignore if you don’t #anyway: george def could’ve done more to ensure she was comfortable #and as someone who has also gotten in over my head with older men and regretted it #her hurt is valid and i’m deeply sorry she feels the way she does about that night #but with that said i see no reason to believe george Should have known how she really felt #or that he deliberately took advantage of either her youth/inexperience or her discomfort #and that’s the most important thing for me— he fucked up and misread a situation but that doesn’t make him an evil person #and i hope they can both move on and grow and heal #as for my future in the fandom: i honestly dunno how active i’ll be going forward #i was already becoming pretty disconnected so this might’ve just sped up the process? i’m tired of being put through the wringer #but i also don’t really have a fandom to replace this so i might just continue casually participating in the way i have been #either way rest assured i will never become a rabid anti. that shits embarrassing #i got HORRIBLE drolo rsd the other day when tommy’s mom needed clout and vagued him so like if nothing else. droloisms are forever #also as a last thing— this feels kinda silly and self centered to say but i will anyway #sorry for not opening up my blog as a forum for discussion again the way i did with the drituation #i know i helped a lot of people sort out their feelings and that was (and is) really really important to me #but it also tanked my mental health (mostly as a result of the fallout and not the act itself but still) #plus my life irl was pretty stressful at the time when everything was first going down #so i just didn’t feel up to putting myself through that again #but i’m sorry if anyone wanted to discuss w me but wasn’t able to #anyway. i think that’s all i have to say! #i don’t want to turn this into a capital D discussion but as always my askbox and dms are open #love you all tons! i hope you’re having a good day 🫂🫶 #bella talks

[puzzlekinq]

cant sleep because im seething with anger

#been laying here for like 40 minutes fantasizing about finally snapping and telling my mom everything i really think and feel #if i ever came out to her she would end up cutting me off like she did to my aunts and uncles and cousins #basically im alone and my parents and siblings are the only family i can be in contact with right now and its isolating #off topic but yeah #i miss having a big family and people besides my parents that i could rely on. people i felt like i could actually breathe around #idk. whatever #why do i feel responsible for her actions all the time. its been my job to keep her stable and listen to her vent for years #but i never say anything about my own feelings. because she would make me feel stupid and ridicule me. lol #all she does is make me feel like shit most of the time. shes always in a bad mood and shes always whining and always pessimistic #and yeah i get along with her for the most part but lately her attitude has been weighing on me a lot. i cant criticize or disagree with her #because she'll just get mad. shes always been an angry person. thats why i hardly spoke to her from ages 10-15 #maybe i jsut wanted to give her another chance. maybe i felt sympathy for her. shes had it rough her whole life #but when shes still bitter no matter how many times i comfort her and let her vent and cry to me and when she chooses her husband over me #every single time he fucks up (which is like. constantly) and always takes his side when they inevitably make up after a huge fight #it feels like i'll never be able to make her happy. it feels like i should stop trying. if she wants to be full of hatred #and have a shitty husband then fine. i cant fix her like and i cant hold the weight of her mistakes #*life

[babsaros]

How did you know you were gay?

ah, couple reasons i guess. some that only became obvious with like 15 years of hindsight, and only after pulling myself out of the deep dark pit of compulsory heterosexuality.

like. classic symptoms of lesbianism include shamefully staring at the floor when you pass the women's underwear racks in the department store, even though you're not quite sure why you're uncomfortable. that sort of thing.

i have memories from early elementary school of accidentally glimpsing down a girl's shirt at recess and then bottling up that feeling and refusing to think about it. any time i had a crush on a boy, it was from an extremely idealized and safely non-actionable distance. the one time i did have a boyfriend, it was just my guy best friend from middle school, we dated for barely a school year before i ended it and the most physical intimacy i was ever comfortable with was holding his hand when we walked to class. i went to a different school's prom because a guy i was kind-of friends with asked me, and spent the whole night uncomfortably avoiding eye contact.

basically i started questioning my sexuality towards the end of high school, when i noticed myself getting like. jealous about my guy best friend's girlfriends?? like. i wanted to date them. i wanted to steal them from him lmao. i thought girls were pretty and soft and nice and cute and i was too afraid of being a predatory creep to do anything about it besides have far-fetched daydreams, but there was no heterosexual explanation. like, i hugged a girl i thought was pretty one time and it did things to my brain. that memory got locked in for life.

i identified as ace/pan early on, but again- compulsory heterosexuality. the idea of being with a guy romantically or sexually was never actually appealing. i had just been told that was what i was supposed to want my entire life, and the movies do a great job of selling that fantasy. but really i was just a lonely depressed helpless romantic teenager that wanted to be loved lol.

a large part of why i identified as asexual was because i was so sex-repulsed by the idea of penetration, honestly? (which i have since gotten over, but specifically Only with girls. the idea of having sex with a man still icks me out, and my preference is definitely femme-presenting ppl) a bit of it was probably also because i hadn't unpacked gender yet either. it made it very difficult to actually imagine myself having sex with anyone ever lol. this is gonna sound so cringe to say, but reading gay smut did awaken things in me.

in conclusion, tldr, i just like to think about tits and kissing women sometimes, idk. thanks for coming to my tedtalk.

#my paranoia is making me think anon is my mom or smth lmao #say something my mom would never fucking say. *gun.png* prove ur not my mom!!!! prove it motherfucker!!!! #if ur questioning ur sexuality my advice is just to explore #look at lots of different porn. try to figure out what attracts you and why #a lot of my kinks are actually divorced from gender tbh #at the height of my teenage repression i was actually reading gay voltron smut nightly #and in total denial like 'this doesn't mean anything about me. im so cis. i would know if i was trans.' #as if i didn't think the exact same shit about being gay. 'i would totally know if i was gay. i don't think about having sex with women' #because i didn't *let* myself think about having sex with women lmao #because i didn't *let* myself think about being trans- because it wasn't *safe* to be trans at the time #and figuring out the difference between 'do i want to look like this person or am i attracted to the way they look' is very tricky #and figuring out that you don't actually genuinely feel any of these implanted emotions about the opposite sex is hard too #sometimes it takes a while its okay #like looking back on my childhood fictional character crushes- it was always the women! i liked the way women looked!! #but i had been TOLD that i was a girl and so thought i HAD to be that and fall in love with a man #idk does any of this make sense lol #im a little sleep-deprived atm #i've been up a solid 24 hours #anonymous #ask #god the way i broke up with that boyfriend was so bad too oughhhhh #i've wondered a few times if i should shoot him a facebook message like 'hey sorry i dumped u like that and then we never talked again.' #'it turned out that i was neither a girl nor heterosexual. so. hope ur doin good!'

[themme--fatale]

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#ohhhh puppy training would be going so much better if i didn't live with my mom #every day she complains to me that ouppy wont settle in his crate and keeps crying #and every night she drags me out of bed/stops me getting ready for bed to take him for a little walk #god forbid she does it herself. she has Important Things to do in the morning #never mind that his crate is in her room so she can't sleep until he's back anyway #and shes like 'why doesnt he settle its so annoying are you sure he doesnt have to pee what if he has secret baby trauma abt crates' #and i say no. none of the above. he keeps crying in his crate bc you consistently reward it. #he keeps crying bc things like attention and walks and treats are Very Rewarding and you have taught him that he gets these things by crying #why the fuck would he stop it literally always works out for him??? #but ofc if i say any of this I'm simply not taking into account that this is difficult for her #because she has Important Things to do in the morning and she's Very Tired #and I'm exaggerating a bit here bc I'm angy and she does do way more shit than me and it IS fucking annoying #but I'm so completely out of sympathy bc she brought this on herself. our trainer told her how to make this stop and she is choosing not to

[liinos]

saw a reel of some kids at an orchestra camp that looked suspiciously like the one i was forced to go to one year... worst experience of my life!!!

#when i tell you i think there are things stemming from that experience! my parents were actually so wrong for making me go... #my mom CRIED bc i kept insisting that i didn't want to do it bc i a) was never That into music especially not CHAMBER music #b) knew that i would not know anyone and would be stuck in the middle of nowhere with people who were already friends from previous years #c) was only even given an audition bc my teacher knew the staff and their other oboist wasn't able to go that year and they needed one #d) WAS THIRTEEN AND WANTED TO SPEND THE SUMMER WITH MY FRIENDS #i do actually think it caused me real psychic damage attending that like the fact that Everyone was already friends with everyone else... #i came with no friends and i left with no friends! and when i tried to talk to the other girls in my cabin i could tell they were like... #why are you trying to be in our friend group. there was a girl who was nice to me but i was not her friend very clearly #also i was soooo out of my depth there it was Rough for me fr and like i Knew i was out of my depth i had no illusions about that #i knew i would be which is why i was like yeah this is Not for me #i still cannot get over my mom crying about this like this wasn't some great life changing opportunity... #my parents really have and always have had these Ideals they place on me bc They think xyz would be nice #or they wish they could have done it like ??? okay why does that have anything to do with me #my dad keeps being like well *I* want you to go to grad school in mtl bc i like mtl and i want to visit 😁 #like haha you're not funny actually 😁 first of all not a single damn thing is stopping you from going you can drive there whenever you want #secondly one of us does NOT want to be in mtl again 😁 and that one of us actually lived there before #also the way my parents constantly visiting me pissed me off to no fucking end... I'M NOT THE PROBLEM CHILD #worried that i just stay in my room like ???? okay??? but if i went out you'd flip bc what if it's unsafe. i LIKE staying home #and i HATED mtl so no way in hell was i going to go do shit especially not at night in the WINTER are you insane #like yeah i was super depressed. that was unrelated to me staying in my room like my room was my Space #anyway all this to say i'm setting the fuck boundary this time around like i actually dgaf i'm an adult and again #not your problem child so if you could stop projecting that onto me just bc HE fucked up when he was in school.... #parents will be like why can't you be independent and then literally not let you be i 🫶🏻 it #i do also hold it against the boy child and my dad for this 'you can only go to schools within a 6 hour drive' #which is only a rule my sisters and i had and maybe if the boy child wasn't a fuck up i couldve not had it but you know #he ruined any chance of that but my dad when i was applying for college was like oh it can be anywhere :) and then was like lol no #and then was like well for grad school you can go anywhere and then when it was brought up last time went lol no :) #so i'm going to have to bring lol yes :) energy cuz...

[hanatiny]

sorry for Ranting On Main™️, I just need to get this out of my system, feel free to ignore

#would literally be sooo cool if my family could stop being patronizing/borderline condescending #treating me like a child is getting old very fucking quickly. my mom always jokes how glad I'll be once I [finally] move out and it's like. #''ok but what if it wasn't a joke'' (internally anyway) #telling me what to do & not do with MY money like I'm not a fully grown adult is so...... #like yes I've made financially questionable decisions before. but never before fighting myself for DAYS on whether or not I really want it #stop treating me like I'm 5 challenge (impossible) #and also acting like I'm lazy just bc you don't see me doing uni stuff like.. idk I work my ass off for those grades but go off I guess... #even then. I'm allowed to take breaks. I'm allowed to lie down and nap when I have headaches that refuse to go away. I have FEELINGS man... #being ridiculed for expressing said feelings & being sensitive is really Not It either like newsflash all this does is make me hate u <3 #I feel like this is just the tip of the iceberg but #shit like this is a big part of why 1. I haven't come out to anyone irl & 2. I refuse to voice my 'neurodivergence theory' out loud #because I know I wouldn't get taken seriously!! I fucking KNOW it!! and it sucks!!! #tw toxic family #tw negativity #(trying to not fall into the mindset of ''but others have it so much worse''....) #I don't particularly expect/want pity from anyone btw. I'm just really frustrated and don't want to bottle it up anymore

[metaphysicae]

hey! not to be dramatic but i cannot fucking stand being in this house!

#me: why are you making me clean my brother’s room #my mom : well you dont HAVE to live here. why do i think i provide for you? youre just like your brother. what kind of person forgets #what theyre doing every few seconds? youre not the same kid anymore. #LIKE YEAH I WONDER WHAT MADE ME LIKE THIS . #I WONDER WHY IM SUCH A FUCKING FREAK . LOOK WHO RAISED ME ? #^ sorry ‘raised’ is the incorrect term. ‘who let their kids run around and play with unhinged fucking men because she was too busy doing #what she always fucking does . #she’s gonna try and talk about how much pot i fucking smoke? woman who gives it to me. #i need to get the fuck out of here its genuinely not good for me to be here #I CAN HEAR HER RANTING ABOUT ME DOWNSTAIRS LMAO #‘why don’t you stand up for yourself more’ bc shit like this. i ask why im doing shit for chris & she threatens to kick me out #vent post #DO NOT MIND ME ! I AM IN A MOOD . #i am about to explode i am sorry for ranting about my mom in the year of our lord 2023 but holy fuck #‘you’re not the same kid’ i’m 20. i am twenty years old i am not your fucking mini me.

[waitingforminjae]

not my mom being a kirk cameron stan

#NOT HER SAYING WHAT THAT MAN PREACHES IS THE SAME AS GRANDMA #and my personal fav 'he just feels like the rest of us' WHO'S US? u gotta mouse in your pocket? #every day i think abt how close my mom is to to falling into the alt right pipeline and there's nothing i can do about it #also what is she even talking abt lmfao acting like some big disaster happened at the event when it didn't lmfao #yeah some ppl sat OUTSIDE drawing in chalk and some ppl walked around the library carrying a rope #and a handful of ppl showed up deliberately gnc and at one point someone IN THE LOBBY shouted love is love #and yet she's acting like protestors caused a scene #HELPPPPPPP HER TELLING MY DAD THAT SHE'S PRAYING FOR ME RN #LMFAOOOOOOOOOOOO WHAT ABT ME NOT LIKING KIRK CAMERON MEANS I'M NOT CHRISTIAN???????? I'M LITERALLY CHRISTIAN HELLO #hella personal #GOD this is why we can't have a fucking conversation like she always does this at the most inconvenient times #and then starts crying over Everything and it just all snowballs like we literally need mom-daughter therapy so fucking BAD #and she seriously needs to let so much of her own guilt go before we can have any conversation abt our shit #like sooooooo many of her feelings are about her and not me lmfao #and it's fucking uncomfortable. anyway

[fairyzar]

the older i get the more confused i become in regards to my identity.

#z escribe #i have been aware that i was adopted from a young age. heck i knew before my mom told me because i watched the health channel #and i rmbr they showed a skin color chart and i pieced together...two white parents don't equal a brown kid #and i thought that the colorblind mindset was a proper one to be brought up with. obviously not as i experienced racism in elementary. #and was extremely confused why 'other' white kids didn't see me as white either...well no shit you're not white baby aza #and i went through a radical phase during middle school. hating all white people. but then my mom's white fragility deterred me from that #as any time i would voice my anger she would... quite literally in tears... try to reason with me and be like ''but i'm white people... #do you hate me?'' to which i would always have to soothe her. and honestly i have become comfortable in identifying with mixed. #it is a comfortable identity because i have grown up without any specific culture (outside of american. which. how does one even begin to #define the complexities of such an identity... the way that american as a nationality transcends as it becomes a civil religion.) #anyways. i have been thinking about a guy at a party and our conversations. and how we got to our identities and i instantly... #out of habit really. told him ''well i'm half mexican or indigenous too... but i mean it's not like i'm really latin.'' and he was like. #''no azaria. you are. don't diminish yourself and your ancestors just because you weren't able to grow up around that culture'' #his comment made me think about my identity once again after a long time of not wondering what it means to be Me. #and i recently submitted a paper for an internship. and god. i was reading it to my white mom. and after i read the concluding paragraph #she asked me to read it again. to which i did. and then after a pause she sighed and said i was being ''too angry'' #and when i asked her to elaborate she simply said ''well it makes it sound as if white people are evil'' #mind you. my application paper is about working at a museum for african american/black art preservation. like. art history is so deeply #saturated with colonialism and racism??? and she just chose to ignore that point of my paper and focus on me critiquing her fellow white #people. and to categorize me as the 'angry black person' are you Fucking kidding me. but then even with that she was like. #''i just don't get why you're so angry. you're not even black. i mean. you don't look black at all. you look mexican'' #she constantly wants my identity to be simple. to be watered down. to be digestible. #i am the product of a biracial mother and fully latin/indigenous father. that is the truth of my identity. i will NEVER be perceived as #white. #but after that i just felt so incredibly shitty and called my sister and she told me what our mom said to her that day too. and i said #something along the lines of ''sometimes i feel as if mom thinks we owe her for adopting us.'' and my sister agreed. #it broke me. it really did. to know that i am not being overdramatic in my thoughts. to know that i am not simply being ungrateful. #my sister says that she copes with it by reasoning that our parents are born in the 40s and times were a lot different then. but it is hard #for me to constantly excuse their racism and ignorance towards my identity. both regarding my queerness and ethnicity. #i am so tired. so so tired.

[awek-s-archived]

literally sickens me that ppls criticisms of me even irl is that im not passive enough or that im too ill or too poor or whatever like .. do you really hate me soo much for no reason that you have to invent the most flimsy surface-level frankly concerning and invalid reasons you can for why i don’t deserve basic respect

#especially since I know my own faults down to a T so I’ll own up to it all the time if someone says something that’s genuinely ‘bad’ abt me #it makes me rly fucking sad and depressed lol. #this happens All the time but if I heard correctly my moms bf has some kind of issue w me that he won’t say #and I’ve narrowed it down to me either being depressed and having migraines (bc both come with pains and reserved mood) #or the fact that I have to live at home and subsequently have to Eat and he HATES that they have to spend money on me eating #even tho. i barely get anything bc they eat meat 3 times a day and I mostly don’t #so my daily menu literally consists of maybe a sandwich or a plate of food made from my own brain of some of the most random shit I can find #and it’s not that they don’t feed me or wtv it’s that he does that thing where he complains thinking I’m too stupid to understand what he #means but like I have 2 degrees I think I can decipher what you’re saying lmao #ik it comes from a place of insecurity bc he spends like £100 on alcohol a week and altogether the food I eat in 2 weeks doesn’t even #amount to half of that. but it’s still like. really lmao. #why does everyone always find these fucking issues w me #do you think I want to like. be sick and poor and be unable to find a job for a variety of reasons #do u think I don’t search all the time for ways to get out of here bc I know I’m not wanted like m #i get it!!!! the person I really liked and wanted to be with ditched me. my very best friend ditched me the week after. everyone has always #wanted to ditch me I get it !! im too much baggage and it’s all fun and games til I show signs of mental illness then everyone just leaves. #at least keep it on the downlow so it doesn’t make me feel more awful than I already do. #aweks.txt

[bloominstorm]

I knew Wakui was gonna do some shit like this

#i knew he was gonna have it be some light vs darkness shit with takemichi and Kisaki #we get it Kisaki brought out the worst in Mikey but I’m glad we see that he was encouraged by Mikey to do so #like MIKEY IS THE PROBLEM 😭 #like Kisaki deadass said to his face that he knew his bestfriend was gonna be his enemy #why would you fuck with tht person after tht especially when you talked to your gang and only two out of the 5 other captains said yes to #him joining??? #i just need his backstory to be more fleshed out bc WHY TF DOES HE HAVE DARK IMPULSES #he was already on tht dark shit before his mom died and his father died when he was too young so his death didn’t have much impact on him??? #literally what is wrong with Mikey what made him like this #can wakui simply just say Mikey has a mental illness and it wasn’t brought on by any traumatic event #but was exacerbated from all the bad shit tht happened to him such as his mom and brother dying #bc trying to pinpoint a reason as to why he’s like this is exhausting and it’s clear hes not trying to give readers a clear understanding of #why hes the way he is #sidenote it was good to see tht Baji (and the others) did try to talk to Mikey about not trusting Kisaki #bc for the longest I always assumed Baji didn’t immediately go to talk to Mikey about his suspicions about Kisaki bc their relationship was #strained over Shinichiro’s death but nope Mikey just simply didn’t care and knew Kisaki would be the only one to really #facilitate his dark shit #also sidenote again it was cute how Mikey brought up Takemichi when talking to Kisaki like yes unknowingly throw dirt in his face by #mentioning his ‘rival’ 💀 but tht brings me to my next point #like why is wakui doing this after showing tht Mikey in fact did NOT get swayed by Takemichi trying to stop him from shit #he literally didn’t stop beating the shit outta kazutora because Takemichi jumped in #he only stopped bc bajis charm fell outta Takemichis pocket he never acknowledged him besides beating tf outta him #like why are you rewriting shit we’ve literally seen just to make Takemichi saving him darkness make sense #it won’t bc Mikey is a completely contradictory character and it has been shown having his loved ones isn’t enough for him to stop his dark #thoughts like I’m not understanding where this is going #but we’ll see with the next chapter .. 🤨 #tokyo revengers spoilers #Tokyo revengers 265

[medicinemane]

Always hungry, always broke, and always having my mom toss a new catastrophe my way... but never actually being given control of the money despite the fact that I've been able to hold on to my stimulus checks all these years only spending them on emergencies, but she blows her disability and wracks up credit card debt

But see... she'd feel like a child if she had to ask for money for things... it's much better when she has full control so she can do things like spend $300 on microtransactions in a single month

Then my grandma gets mad at me for having to help with money cause I don't have a job, and if I just had a job it would be fine (and no doubt I'm pretty shit for not working despite not having anything wrong with me)

When I get stuff cleaned up my mom just uses it as a new spot to dump trash so... there's no point

I provide nothing to the world, I have no talents or skills, everything I do is wrong, and I'm just kind of a drain on the world despite having nothing stopping me from actually doing shit except my poor character

...kinda hemming and hawing on ordering this cause even $18 is a hell of a lot of money to spend on killing myself unless I'm actually gonna do it. If I get it and then keep putting it off... well then that money would have been real better spent elsewhere

...but on the other hand this can't keep continuing... maybe I can take the money I was trying to save up to buy a new mic so I can actually talk to people and spend it on this instead

#then there's the bathroom which both... I've asked plumbers to help with over and over when they've been doing stuff like #installing the water heater or installing my mom's new toilet... but they just... never do #and then... I've asked my mom a number of times to get someone out but she never does #and now I kinda can't even ask because like... ok; the pipe's got mold in it but I guess I can be like 'that's why I asked you here' #but also one of the cat's had diarrhea and decided to keep going next to the toilet instead of the cat box; which is probably my fault #but now... I can't fucking keep up with it and... I can't ask a plumber out with cat shit on the floor #but I can't fucking deal with it; I keep meaning to on trash day; but I'm always too tired and also only have 2 sponges left to deal with i #and I'm just such filth that I haven't even been able to bother changing my bedsheets in like a year #which honestly isn't even that abnormal; that's how it's always been even when I was little #I don't know... I'm just such a worthless fuck up #and people will sometimes offer money but it's like... money doesn't help; I've got that stimulus check sitting in the bank #these are systemic problems I need to fix #but I can't; it's beyond me; I give up; I need to die #nothing of value will be lost #people think it will; but they're wrong #and maybe I'm also just a selfish asshole like everyone's always saying about suicidal people #I don't know... I just keep getting worse; and then I adjust stuff to make it keep working; but then I get worse #I need to hurry up and die #and I finally have a method with a high enough success rate so... probably should bite the bullet and order it #especially when it has legit uses so there's a cover story #man I'm sick of being hungry; sick of being so fucking worthless and incompetent that I can't make myself food once I'm out of cheese powde #and even if I ask for help... well my mom's not hungry so fuck me #I need to die already; I'm so inadequate and never get a damn thing right #everything I do I fucking fail

[tempe-brennans]

i am SO tired of having to modify my behavior to exist in society

#my boyfriends dad said apparently im disrespectful bc i dont talk to him enough #like??? dude u never speak to me #even if i am standing right next to you #i came to ur sons graduation and you spoke not a word #and the boy was like oh shes just shy and his dad said 'she has to get over that shit' #fuck u dude #if someone doesnt even look at you when they're talking and youre standing right there and like include you in the convo wtf are u supposed #to do #his mom does talk to me. so thats nice #and he said that too and his dad was still annoyed #like. #now i have to talk to him and be outgoing #i have to work so hard to be pleasing to my mom and im still not 90% of the time #(we dont fight or anything anymore shes just always slightly disappointed in me) #why dont people shut up #and make society more pleasant for me #im not kidding the entirety of graduation nobody spoke to me except his mom a little and the boy #and a couple of their family friends #like??? wtf #and his dad talks to his brothers girlfriend #like. whats that supposed to make me think #the boy is like the only person in the world i dont have to modify my behavior even a little #im just a person #i dunno i just had a shitty day #rebeccaspeaks