One thing that never sits right with me is the fandom hating on the EC and Nora because they say Nora said that Andrew never heal and I don’t actually feel that?!
I don’t know what extra content did you guys read but from what I read I felt that Andrew did healed?! Yes Nora said Andrew never smile or laugh, but smiling and laughing doesnt mean recovery. Nora said “Andrew learn to let/trust things in his life whether it is the cats or Neil or exy” and isn’t that the most beautiful form of recovery already?
And the happiest moment in Andrew’s life is when he received Cass’s letter and he read it and threw it away and that was a turning point in his life. Does this not screams recovery to you?
Yes Andrew will never be “normal” or “as normal as Neil and the other foxes” but isn’t that the entire point of his character? Andrew is the most developed character in the three books and yet you guys go and said that “omfg Andrew never recovered! I hate Nora for saying that!” If you feel that way then you don’t understand the books or Andrew’s character.
Because he did heal, he learned to keep in touch with Aaron and Nicky, he stayed friends with Kevin and the foxes, he is actively going to therapy, he learns to trust Neil, the cats, and even enjoy exy. He will never express joy the way “normal people do” but that is okay because he does experience joy and feel that everyday with the cats, Neil, his family and the foxes and that is more then enough and for me Andrew did recover and have the best life he has.
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Turns out when I imagine the future, it's always by myself. There's ofcourse my friends but it's also just me, there is no partner, there is no romance and it warms my heart seeing everyone talk and want and get love but it also makes me slightly uneasy because I don't want that. Perhaps a better way of saying it would be: I want romance for a few hours, maybe only on Friday or Saturday nights, I want to get tipsy and make out a lot and hold them and watch a really funny show but then I want them gone in the morning, or I want to leave in the morning. I don't want a lover during the day, only in the nights, only when I can afford a free weekend and I think about how the last time someone loved me and held me and about how I managed to take them apart so abruptly that I could feel the ground shake under me. I know the past doesn't have to define us and that there are more people who will love me because there have been plenty who have loved me but I cannot get away from the idea that there is something terribly wrong with me because I don't want romance and it's very funny to think he was the love of my life but I am also very dramatic and so I believe that but it doesn't come alone, I have to also bear the heaviness of hurting him and I want him to know that in every other universe I am always kissing him and always loving him and that it just so happens in this one that he is the perfect one for me but I am not the one for him. And I don't usually believe in the ripple effect but I don't think I will ever let anyone love me again. I don't want to be held and I don't want to be looked at like I am the best thing to have happened to them and I don't want to be loved so grossly that it echoes into the next town.
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a lot of people write about joe's anger being bright and intense but short lived, and there are lots of reasons for that. joe's very expressive, and you get to see his emotions and the change in his emotions fairly frequently throughout the movie. it's easy to imagine him getting angry and then moving on to something else once that anger has run its course. this kind of anger is easier to write too, because anger is a complicated emotion and it often feels like characters cant move forward until theyre done being angry. it might also be a way to avoid portraying joe as being angrier than everyone else so one doesnt feed into negative stereotypes and that's legit!! all of these are valid reasons! i think this interpretation of joe is fine, i just don't love it and i especially don't love it when it has to do with booker's betrayal. even if joe's anger is typically gone quickly, i don't think it would be in this particular case because the fear that sparked that anger in the first place isn't going to go away.
i really like this post which talks about how joe's anger is always in response to fear, and a lot of my thoughts about this have to do with the way that those two emotions are clearly linked. fear is another difficult emotion, because fear lingers. just because the immediate danger is gone, that doesn't necessarily get rid of the fear. it can be really hard to stop being afraid, even when you know it's an illogical response. it's especially hard to stop being afraid when the situation warrants that fear. so when all of his hopes for escape are dashed, and andy's mortal and also andy just got shot and is maybe dying, of course joe's terrified. that fear isn't suddenly going to go away. joe's not suddenly going to stop being afraid of andy dying now that she's mortal just because they're not in immediate danger. he's not going to stop being afraid of being captured and imprisoned for an eternity. he's not going to stop being afraid about being separated from nicky or worrying about nicky dying. of course joe's pissed off and he has the right to be. and i think he'll be angry at booker for a really long time. he loves booker, and i think he'll miss him, but i don't think he'll stop being angry or stop being afraid to be around him. obviously i think that at some point joe will forgive booker, because joe is kind and forgiving, and he loves booker, and they will be able to move past this, but i also think that will be a long process for him and i think it will be really hard for both of them. because how do you stop being afraid to be around someone who has shown to you that they do not care about the safety and comfort of the people you love most? how do you stop being afraid when you know someone's capacity for harm because you have directly suffered as a result of it? booker can apologize, he can feel remorse, he can even feel horrified by his own actions (as shown with andy), and he can try to repent, but how does that stop joe from being afraid when booker knows where he is, where andy is, and where nicky is because he's set them up before, he can do it again, right? even if he knows, knows for certain that booker won't do that again, it'll be hard to shake the fear completely. building back trust is hard, and it's a process. you can see the two of them taking those first few steps when booker accepts his punishment at the end. they're going to be okay, eventually. joe knows this and believes this. that doesn't mean he has to stop being angry. that's okay too
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a drawing of Bozai I had random motivation to do cause I have horrible taste in men
also yes I know the line art is messy and my camera quality is crap cause I suck at drawing aaaaaaaaaaaaaa
I just now realized how much it bothers me how I drew the nose- aaaaaaa
btw I tried to draw him without his backpack thing, if you were wondering
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