#why do I hurt myself like this

[peachyyaourt]

#why do I hurt myself like this #does drawing your favourite femcel in deep anguish count as self harm #because it should #I love her so much it hurts <3 #I'm gonna try for her s ending soon #D'arce #D'arce cataliss #fear and hunger #funger #blood #wounds #pastel aesthetic

[spidercha]

just a man lyrics as pjo characters

but when does a comet becomes a meteor ? Jason

when a candle becomes a blaze ? Leo

when does a man becomes a monster ? Ethan

when does a ripple becomes a tidal wave? Percy

when does the reason becomes the blame? Nico

when does a man becomes a monster? Luke

#epic the musical #just a man #jason grace #leo valdez #percy jackson #hoo #pjo #pjo fandom #pjo characters #why do I hurt myself like this #nico di angelo #luke castellan #Ethan yakamura

[hearts-hunger]

listening to the jake asmr video again :(

#why do i hurt myself like this

[arthurslesbian]

arthur's face when he had to entrust merlin to the care of another man 😭😭😭

#please arthur #if anyone can get merlin back to camelot lancelot can #merthur #jealous!arthur #one of my fave concepts #he was literally about to ditch the whole quest just to take merlin back to camelot #he's so gone for him #the way merlin said #gonna go cry #and the way he sulked after he had to send merlin off with lancelot #and the way leon knew why he was silent even after he tried to deflect and tried to reassure him #by saying ofc making it worse #because that's HIS emotional support manservant merlin is HIS responsibility to protect #he'd been ready to jump in front of the dorocha to save merlin #because merlin's bravery at coming with him like this warrants such action #and now he has to worry about him did he make it to camelot okay? is he still alive? #while not being able to DO anything about it #how could he entrust the most important mission of all to anyone else #WHY DO I HURT MYSELF LIKE THIS #s4 e2 rewatch

[risefromtheashes14]

so i've made a satosugu playlist (because i like to torture myself obviously) and i'm currently stuck on listening to Complex by Katie Gregson MacLeod while crying thinking about the two of them.

Like "i need him like water, he lives on a landslide" and "we won't be together, but maybe the next life" and "and i talk a good game, but i'd die for just the promise you'd listen". These just scream satosugu to me

#someone sedate me #why do i hurt myself like this #*crying and sobbing* #satosugu #jjk #jujutsu kaisen

[angelosearch]

I'm rewatching the end FMV for FF8 basically frame by frame for a fic I'm writing and I am just looking at Raine and thinking DAMN her and Squall look alike. Like put a scar across her face and you're done, Raine is now Squall. How does ANYONE miss the fact that Laguna and Raine are Squall's parents?

AND THEN I noticed that Raine does a flirtatious head tilt while talking to Laguna.

WHO ELSE FLIRTS BY TILTING HIS HEAD?

Squall! In the dance scene!

#my silly ff8 observations/theories #why do I hurt myself like this #squall leonhart #ff8 #occult fan ii content

[immortalmuses]

me, laying on the floor and thinking about how I absolutely cannot add Peeta Melark to this blog

#[softy] ...don't #ooc #choosing violence | ooc #why do i hurt myself like this

[djappleblush]

"Xiao Lanhua.... wait for me. I will save you."

#love between fairy and devil #cang lan jue #苍兰诀 #supermoon lovers #xiao lan hua #dongfang qingcang #esther yu #yu shuxin #dylan wang #wang hedi #DiXin couple #just fvcking stab me it'll probably hurt less #fans really want Esther and Dylan to recreate THIS scene? #fvcking get rekt I guess #😭😭😭😭😭😭 #why do I hurt myself like this

[wishkeidragons]

Check out all of the cool new projects I absolutely do not need to be adding to my roster!!! 🫠

#my future dragons #fr dragons #aether dragons #banescale dragons #i already own their bases #why do I hurt myself like this #dragon plans

[just-a-mod]

brain : hey, you know how you figured out Osmond's life timeline

me : yeah

brain : you wanna figure out the time line of your city and world

me : jeez that sounds like alot of -

brain :We're already doing it

me : what

#justatext #justapost #alot of the earlier stuff is going to be a ROUGH GUESSTIMATION #but the recent stuff i can ge actual dates and times for #why do i hurt myself like this #why can't i be paid to be like this #some one hire me to keep all of their world's lore organized #im really fucking good at it for no god damn reason #some one hire me to keep information organized #or DM #im apparently good at DMing too #_some one pay me money to be a world keeper_ #_it's literally the only thing im good at _

[iminmywritersdungeon]

I have so many books to read. they’re engulfing me. I have drowned in the pages.

#srsly tho my stack is like two feet high #I still need to finish six of crows #why do I hurt myself like this

[hearts4-robin]

"She's In The Rain" by The Rose makes me want to cry as I run up a hill after having lost someone I loved

#why do I hurt myself like this

[phantom-z0ne]

Serendipity

"Billy wasn't sure what the creature ransacking his train car was.” Alternatively, Billy feeds a stray and ends up with a roommate.

WC: 1215

Serendipity (n): the occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way.

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Billy wasn't sure what the creature ransacking his train car was. Granted, the train car wasn't in the most hidden place ever, but he had made sure to ward it against most creatures. The ward would have made one unable to see the train, and if they somehow saw it anyways, they would have been turned around. He usually was pinged if anything passed his wards, which was why he was so blindsided to see something moving around in his train car. It seemed that this one had slipped through his protections. 

The creature was strange and almost hard to look at directly. Its blinding white hair moved independent from the wind and twined around its long, pointed, mint colored ears. It was also small, small enough that Billy thought it could comfortably fit into his cupped hands, and wearing some sort of skin tight suit, black with a stripe of silver along its torso. Or what appeared to be its torso, Billy couldn't really tell when its lower body faded into a long tail.

From his perspective, it seemed to be rummaging through where he usually hides his food, showing slivers of its white paws. Did it pass through the barriers he set because it was hungry? 

Billy approached the creature quietly, making sure not to get too close, he wouldn't want to startle it. His efforts were in vain though as the creature snapped its head towards him. It's glowing eyes like headlights, as if staring into Billy’s soul. The green in its eyes swirling hypnotically as the creature bristled at his presence. 

Billy watched, amused but vigilant, as the creature puffed up like a cat. Even going so far as to swat a couple times in his direction. So far, it was quite harmless, but the buzzing in the back of his head that he usually equated to Solomon told him to be careful.

Billy slowly dropped to his knees, mindful of the creature's reaction, and shifted his bag to his front. He shuffled through his bag and brought out the small piece of jerky he was saving for later, sliding it slowly towards the creature.

The creature tilted its head, staring at the jerky suspiciously before taking a few steps to paw at it. It apparently passed its test as it devoured the jerky surprisingly fast for its small size. While it seemed to be starving, thankfully it didn't reflect onto its body. It wasn't gaunt or thin, but actually quite plump. Perhaps it just didn't eat for a day or two? 

Billy took a small step forward, then a few more when he realized the creature was focused on eating. “So,” He began softly, the creature startling as if it was just realizing he was so close. “What are you doing here, little guy?”

It stared at him silently before once again tilting its head. It was cute, Billy realized. The chubby cheeks and button nose paired with big, shiny eyes made it endearing to look at. His expression melted slightly as he took a closer look at the creature.

The creature's ear flicked as it padded up to him, paws on Billy’s knees. It let out an unintelligible sound, layered and harsh to Billy's ear, yet somehow melodious. Billy blinked, not expecting that noise. The creature looked at him almost expectantly, eyes shining brightly.

Billy hesitantly brought his knuckles closer to the creature, feeling its cold nose as it sniffed him. It was clearly unimpressed and trilled for more food. Billy chuckled under his breath as he brought another piece of jerky to the needy creature. It gobbled it up swiftly, looking up at him and once again begging for more, its eyes almost sparkling.

Billy folded under the cuteness overload and retrieved a sandwich from his bag, splitting it in half. He was worried that it would eat more than it could handle if he kept feeding it. He knew very well what that felt like.

The creature blinked at him, once, twice, before giving him a small, pleasant trill and headbutted his fingers. Billy cautiously set his hand over its silky hair? Fur? All he knew was that it felt divine, though not in the godly way. 

“What are you?” Billy asked as he wove his fingers through its hair, genuinely curious on what species the creature was. He had inputted a lot of creatures in his ward but he had no clue what this one was. The tingling at the back of his head spoke otherwise, Solomon knowing very well what it was. He could transform and ask Solomon, since he couldn't really speak to him unless he was Captain Marvel, but that would just scare the creature.

It gave him a look before resuming its lunch, finishing it in record time. Apparently, it deigned him worthy of its presence on his lap as it kneaded his legs then curled up onto them. The purring surprised him, pausing when the creature gave him an impatient look when he halted his ministrations on its hair.

He resumed, of course. Why wouldn't he? It was a nice reprieve from fighting villains as Captain Marvel and watching out for himself when he was on the streets. It was just a quiet moment between him and the strange creature that broke into his home. 

…He hadn't realized how lonely he was before this. 

He had friends, of course. Freddy, Tawky Tawny, and the Justice League. But… this just wasn't the same. As good as a friend Freddy was, he doubted that he would be willing to just sit and enjoy each other's company silently. Freddy was a huge superhero fan and couldn't help but talk about them in excitement. Not to mention his analyses on Billy’s techniques as Captain Marvel.

The Justice League wasn't any better. They had a professional relationship, thinking of him more as a coworker than a friend. The times he tried to deepen their friendship by inviting them out, he was unfortunately turned down. It seemed that they got along better when they were in battle than not.

Billy usually went to Tawky Tawny for advice, but Tawky Tawny never turned down the opportunity to just spend time in the other’s company. Unfortunately, those times were far and few between, usually because Tawky Tawny was traveling or busy with something else. 

With this creature— he’d have to name it eventually, Billy thought absently—all that was expected of him was companionship, nothing more.

Billy felt a cool paw pat his face, the creature looking up at him concerned. His eyes widened before he let out a huff, ruffling its hair. The creature let out a disgruntled chuff and phased through his hands then batted at them, settling down once more on his lap once it was done. 

It hadn't been with him long, all he had done was give it some food, and it was already trying to comfort him. Admittedly, it wasn't the best comfort, it stopped once he focused on it, but it wasn't something he expected from a creature he met not an hour ago.

Billy smiled, eyes soft. Perhaps it could stay, if only for a while.

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Whipped this up in a couple hours while trying to get out of my funk 

Thanks for reading!!

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Ao3

#Danny: DO NOT TOUCH ME #Also Danny: I've only had Billy for ten minutes #but if anything happened to him #I would kill everyone in this room and then myself #Why is danny in LBM form? #who knows ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ #Billy feels super weird to Danny #Lingering dead wizard + magic + gods = confused senses #baby empath Billy!! #its why hes so certain about danny's emotions #unreliable narrator billy #ghosts can purr :) #cat!LBM #tfw the creature that broke into your home to steal your food becomes family #dpxdc #billy batson #danny fenton #captain marvel #fluff #minor angst #minor hurt/comfort #had a cat visit my house recently #so thats why lbm turned out like that #little baby man #finally living up to my username #serendipity #wip: LBM commits b&e and billy batson gains a friend

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thank you WH update for confirming that Wally breathes. i really thought he didnt <3

#but also fuck it for confirming that bc it sounds like hes in pain and it hurts my shriveled heart #(keep it up the pain is top tier <3 hurt him more. but also dont. but Do. i want the emotional agony attached) #but uhhhhh seriously tho i did Not expect breathing to be in his library of skills #absolutely unprompted #welcome home #'why is that' i hear one person passively wonder #well considering that he doesnt sleep. and he doesnt eat normally - one could argue that he Doesnt eat either. #and how he Knows hes a puppet. #i really thought he wouldnt feel an innate need to keep up a charade of 'breathing' like the others who are Unaware! #BUT IT TURNS OUT ITS NOT A CHARADE AHAHA #THEY KINDA NEED TO APPARENTLY! at least i can assume so #but i was Genuinely surprised to hear wally's labored breathing in his hidden record audios #i almost paused the first one i heard to go 'what??? he can breathe??' #i had convinced myself of it so Thoroughly that i need to edit some stuff in my brain #bc oh boy i had Thoughts completely centered on that #oh well! into the fire they go!! #im happy for him. puppet man gets to enjoy the annoyance that is breathing

[indig0-constellations]

I like to think that after Ice died, Mav kept his shoes by the front door so that when he gets home after work and takes his shoes off it’s like Ice is still there in the house waiting for him to come home

#aaaaaaand post #I can imagine sombody going over to Mavs house and being confused why there is a slightly larger pair of shoes sitting by the front door #and when they ask who’s shoes they are Mav has to explain that they were his husbands shoes #and that answers their question really fast #you can thank the song ‘think of me once in a while’ for this idea #why oh why do I hurt myself like this #I guess it’s just an angst kind of night #top gun #top gun 1986 #pete maverick mitchell #tom iceman kazansky #icemav #angst #I made myself sad

[puppyeared]

i wrote this as a joke because I wanted to strangle a guy watching tiktoks without headphones on the bus, but im genuinely disturbed that we've gotten to a point where convenience comes first. and it depresses me even more that its used to justify and monetize greed

#like we have so many ways of doing things that could help us in the long run but because we're told it requires more work we just cant #its too resource intensive. or maybe its too much to maintain. we have to overlook benefits so money can go into more important things #we teach each other to do things a certain way so it works for everyone but who was it convenient for first? what abt who it might hurt? #i have to wonder if the rules our current system uses is worth listening to or following if it doesnt have our best interests in mind. u an #me and the ppl around us.. would we be better off if i ate my meals knowing the person who grew it wanted to feed others the way they could #feed themselves? and that isnt to say we're going to be happy doing it but i guess satisfied that its helping someone instead of quietly #accepting that itll eventually go in the dumpster behind a grocery store because it stopped looking appetizing or it wasnt on sale anymore #what about building homes so we can shelter each other? what if we were satisfied with what we did because we knew it would be paid back #with kindness? isnt that what we evolved to do?? heal each others bones and tell stories and help each other?? #why dont houses come with solar panels or generators unless we find a way to make people pay to use the sun? why is our pooled money used #to fund genocides instead of education and hospitals? whose interests and convenience came first when we started this?? #i wont pretend to know the answer because i dont. but we all know we're miserable and im sorry to say that i cant see myself fighting #for a world that wont fight for me too. why do we work if we cant live from it?? why did they stop us from plucking more teeth from our #bosses until they could build more walls around themselves and then go back to underpaying us?? #im so tired. i cant even imagine making it to age 70 #yapping #vent