#why did it have to be 800

[dawnbreakersgaze]

Well I might have missed Zayne's medical rescue card AND all three of the Lingering Gaze cards, but today I got both the last lightseeker and last foreseer cards to finish off the myths 😭 and back to back even I'm so shook

So maybe I treated myself to the outfits

🎉 The gang's all here finally 🥲 🎉

#its been 800 years!! Jellyfishes are climbing trees and sharks are eating grass for free!! #or whatever it is raffy says #now the harrowing process of leveling these fuckers up 🫠🫠🫠🫠 #lnds #l&ds #lads #love and deepspace #love & deepspace #zayne #zayne love and deepspace #xavier #xavier love and deepspace #why did it take so long to get these i swear to god i have the WORST luck with this game

[lollitree]

The existence of mega Mewtwo annoys me lore wise

#so the lore of mega evolution is sketchy at best to begin with #because they kinda contradict it even within the same gen #but how the heck does mewtwo have a mega if it was made within the last 100 years and the kalos legendaries had been gone for like 800?? #some of the sv paradox pokemon looking like the megas can make it seem like megas are very similar to primal reversion which is cool #that makes sense BUT THEN HOW DOES MEWTWO HAVE NOT ONE BUT TWO MEGAS #did mew used to look like mewtwo in the past is that why mewtwo turned out the way it did in the first place?! #pokemon #I think this is why they stopped putting the new gimmick into remakes #though this seems like a problem born from gen 1 favouritism #alternatively the mega Mewtwo stones are artificial and humans made those #but that makes me want to see more man made megas

[ruffgem]

one of my roommates just told me they read my comic… holy shit good thing I didn’t make it a thinly veiled story about how much I hate my roommates like I almost did

#I really did not think either of them would ever read it that’s crazy #ok but tbh #Nelly living in the garage while Brutalia lives in a whole ass house is actually lowkey an exaggeration of my life LOL #I literally live in my room because my roommate moved her BF in and they take over the entire apartment while I am sequestered in my room #LOL #i would never do this because it’s simply not like me but sometimes I think about how I could write like the most scathing letter about how #they were the shittiest roommates ever and leave it for them when I go home… #but I won’t because that’s petty #but I could. it would be so beautiful #I won’t though… it will be satisfying enough to delete their numbers when I’m out of this city for good #I JUST HAVE TO SURVIVE UNTIL MAY (graduation) #if anyone’s ever wondering why I’m so annoying all of the time but ESPECIALLY when I go back to college this is why ok it’s because I live #in One Room #I’ve sat on my couch 4 times in the three years I’ve lived here #I become 800 times more normal every time I go home because I’m able to exist in multiple rooms without third-wheeling two fuckheads #GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! no it’s okay.

[unloneliest]

jam i have a question. who is eliot spencer... where is he from. what makes him ur number one blorbo and what do u understand abt him that no one else does <3

partridge thank you so much for this ask i need you to know you made my entire morning. eliot spencer is. my specialest guy my blorbo of all time i love him so so so so much. he's from the tv show leverage, which aired from 2008-2012* and isn't immune to the downfalls of that era of tv in general but that. honestly does a comparatively outstanding job to ME. it holds up and also the premise is "what if these extremely competent hot thieves ruined shitty rich people's lives and helped the people who'd been victimized by the rich people and created a found family together after all having various levels of sad backstory? and there was an ot3 made as canon as the showrunners could possibly make it in 2012?" i'm getting ahead of myself though.

*there's a sequel currently airing but i have yet to watch it & there's certain aspects about it that i refuse to accept as canon (this is a part of me being the most right about eliot)

i am putting this under the cut because. well. this got long

to start with context. having my brain rewired by supernatural and captain america: the winter soldier when i was a teenager is a huge factor in like. *waves hands vaguely* everything. when it comes to how i came to love leverage and eliot specifically. i got driven away from spn because (to simplify things) the showrunners hated the fans so bad and the characters were fighting the narrative but unable to escape it, and i loved the version of the characters that was actively being opposed by the show. and that was just plain not enjoyable for me. and marvel is marvel and continuity of emotional and interpersonal arcs doesn't matter at all to them.

and the thing is i took a sociology class in 2017 and it was making me so upset learning about white collar crime. and @canis-la-trans was like. we are watching leverage now. to remedy this. and i'd tried watching it with him before but this time around it just clicked. and the biggest part of what clicked is eliot. because listen. eliot is in somewhat of the same category as my earlier favorite characters but the thing about eliot spencer is that all of his best qualities are canon, not fanon. he redefines the category. he's incomprable. to me.

the thing about eliot spencer is he's the punchboy. he's the hitter. it's his job to get in the fights and protect the team. and he does his best to come across as grumpy, as not caring about people, does his best to fly under the radar as just another unintelligent lackey with a short temper who's particularly talented at violence.

but that's a performance. canonically that's a performance. and he has the best work/life separation of the whole team. he's not his job - he's very good at his job, and it's what he does and that is a part of him, but where some of the other characters view their job as an extension of their selfhood, eliot doesn't.

he cooks. he cooks so well that he could do that professionally. he grows all his own produce (allegedly). he's one of if not the best person on the team with kids. he loves so wholly so fast. he's the first person to call the team a we. within team dynamics he & sophie, the grifter, protect the other 2 from the worst of the team leader's dysfunction.

eliot's done bad things in the past. and he views himself completely past saving. like. from commentary on the show: he knows he's going to hell. like. his self worth is completely abysmal. i know he would die for the team. in s2e2 there's an episode where the team isn't succeeding at the con, and he takes the fall on purpose. and in a conversation about that he says "i'm not diving on a grenade. i'll be all right" but he says that so readily that i Know he's thought about it. and he would. for the team he would. for parker and hardison he would. he's in love with them. and they're in love with him too and i have to cut myself off or i'll go an entire separate rant about them!!!!

he has long hair. which he straightens. and he looks great with blood on his face. he doesn't use guns. he never throws the con for personal reasons - only ever does to protect kids. he grew up in rural oklahoma and he enlisted to get the hell out of dodge and he got in such a bad argument with his dad the night before he shipped out that he got disowned. and he can't even talk about it until nearly the end of the final season of the show. he never once mentions his mom. and i just know he got disowned for coming out, intentionally or not. he's never had an environment he could be his full self in without fear until the team.

parker, the thief of the team, is intentionally written as autistic; the hacker, hardison, is so likely written to have adhd. and eliot is autistic too, to me. it makes the level of performing masculinity to closet himself so much more insane to me. bc it's also masking. and adding that context to eliot and parker's relationship makes me unWELL.

the thing is is that eliot is a character who's hiding, who's actively doing his best to be unnoticed. and so many people who watch the show fall for the act, even if they don't fall for the whole act they fall for parts of it, and like. They Are Wrong About Him. i have an entire complex backstory thought up for eliot, because i think the only thing sadder than him missing out on the kind of connection he finds with the team is him knowing what he's missing because he had a queer best friend as a kid, & the two of them were closeted together, but he lost contact with her over the years.

the thing is that eliot spencer has SO MUCH GENDER and i know if he and parker and hardison adopted a kid eliot would be ma. never dad. and i don't think he'd even be able to start exploring that for himself until the end of the series.

the thing is eliot spencer would listen to the mountain goats. and there's a couple other people out there who are right about that and it makes me so insane 100% of the time.

and i love him and this is just a list of facts about him and the most important thing about eliot spencer to me is that. he exists in motion. trying to capture a still image or static description in words never works. but he's my wife and i love him so much. and i always will. and i'm writing a fic where i'm going to blow him up. just a little bit. for his own good. this is my "eliot made himself a mountain goats mix tape about knowing he's willing to jump on a bomb for parker and hardison & never telling them that in advance" playlist from that universe.

all of leverage is availible for free streaming on imdb tv & here are thee best leverage fanvids of all time:

& this last vid is abt the show in general, not just the ot3:

i would add all my fave eliot pics i have screenshotted but this is already so long . i still might rb and do that anyways he is Everything to me

#jam replies #boyjoan #this is 800 years long. i love eliot spencer so bad #the thing about leverage is that without even touching on eliot. this show went 'this autistic girl's special interest is stealing #& crime. why would you ever stop her from doing the stealing and crime' and they're so right for that. #parker isn't the pov character but she's the main character to me. nate is the narrator not the hero #literally though leverage has it all. fake dating. characters handcuffed together for an episode. episodes about historical crimes where #the actors play younger versions of characters from the past. murder mystery costume party where an actual murder happens that they have to #solve. baseball episode. 2 hockey episodes. eliot spencer sings and plays guitar with jo from supernatural. hardison makes their undercover #names dr. who references. there's a reference to the mcelroys. there's two episodes that tell the story of the same night 'off' from 2 #different points of view. #eliot is a horsegirl. #i cannot put into words how amazing this show is it loves the fans so much & it's so clever and so good at like. being a story. and #character & emotional continuity is one of the things they value so much. i love this show so bad #my leverage special interest and mountain goats special interest are kissing with tongue #OH and the show also did. an 'i need you' moment. leverage grave danger job handclasp ca:tws handclasp spn goodbye stranger #not mind control though. but like. #okay i'm posting this now #leverage posting

[heartshapedracetrack]

Promised my co worker to read fourth wing until the end of the week but i don't wanna 😩

I started it once ages ago and never finished it and i'm this close to just lie about it and just read the summary on the internet

#i did this to myself #and she's only working til christmas before leaving for another job #so i really have to even though i'm SO annoyed #but people love it and it has dragons? #dragons always a big fiery plus #people also say book two sucks so why should i even bother #do you see my problem #also how am i gonna read 800 Pages until monday??? #sleep or read?

[theshy1sout]

I blocked so many porn blogs and i still have followers. Huh

#Random tag #I just like tagging #I did not made this post to tag it for fun #No i did not #oh hi mark #Now tell me why there is so many of you #I wanted to do sth for 800 followers but now i have 850 and im just... #Maybe ill wait for 900 #Is there anyone who wants dtiys from me? No? Thats sad #Me looking for motivation to draw and write and im still in my rabbit hole eating chips and playing games #I mean im working im buzy rabbit

[heavenknowsffs]

yep i wasn't joking on my last post

#why did i have to choose such an expensive hobby #anyway it's not just that #my camera was like 800 something #then the lens i have now was 120€ and that's the CHEAPEST #i feel like it does not do the job anymore tbh :( #then each sd card is about 20€ or more depending on size #then an external disc rounds 80 or more depending again on size #then the amount of years it took me to learn what i know now #then also costs of transportation and stuff to actually be able to go to shows #oof and then people complain if i ask for 20€ for gas or something BROTHER I AM GOING TO SPEND OVER 4H EDITING AT HOME #rant over sorry

[e-louise-bates]

A heads-up to all Whitney and Davies fans--I am going to be revealing the cover of Book 3 TOMORROW, here and on my blog. and Instagram, Twitter, and FB, because, sigh, an author has to utilize all the social media sites even when she wishes most of them (not this one) would just Go Away.

(Newsletter subscribers get to see it tonight, but you all will be the next!)

I'll also be announcing the book release date tomorrow. I had hoped to be able to share pre-order links as well, but they're not quite up and running yet. Soon, I hope!

#whitney and davies #death by disguise #book 3 #it feels like I've been working on this one forever #although technically glamours and gunshots took longer #this is why my inklings story is still only 800 words and languishing #but I hope to be able to work on it this week #in between schoolwork and editing projects #at least I don't have a sick kid anymore like I did last week!

[malkaviian]

im home earlier than i thought

#i can actually work on things yay. at least one of them #for the mav and samael story i will rewrite the first chapter #bc i think starting with mav having One of Those breakdowns bc of what happened with zachary its not the best way #i think its better to start the story showing his Unconventional Desires and Fantasies about being murdered as violently as possible #and then explain whats the reason behind them later; when the readers have an idea of who he is. and maybe wonder why hes like that #or if hes weird just because something is wrong with his brain (i mean something is def wrong with him either way. #but did something happened for him to end this way or it just happened without something being a direct cause?) #at least i didnt even got to the midpoint; i only had ~800 words. which is kind of a win for me tbh i havent write shit in months #let alone this thing is out of my comfort zone for a lot of reasons; starting with the fact its not a fanfic and everything belongs to me #and i havent touched a subject this sensitive like a p4r4philia before. of course i did my research but tbf there isnt a lot on this one #so im trying not to sound completely uninformed; just that i couldnt really find a whole lot of research on this #bc it doesnt exist on the first place. the closest is lopatka's clase; which i've read what i could find about already; its not a whole lot #anyway i am afraid of getting hate comments. something something i am romanticizing a serious subject #something something i am portraying this as a love story (im not; if the characters think so its another thing) so i must be fucked up irl #something something 'this is fucked up and doesnt cater to my direct tastes; therefore is bad and you are bad too' #of course i will put warnings but you know how people are. and if they report the story wattpad could actually take it down #a bummer but. whatever. i always have ao3 but i will have to do an extra step and translate it to english #alongside having 0 audience there. well shit just happens ig lol #this turned into a rant sorry #lilith whispers

[hella1975]

♾️

mwah hey babe

'if i wake up in a house that's full of smoke i'll panic, so call me up and tell me a joke. when i'm fully irrelevant and totally broken dammit, call me up and tell me a joke. oh shit, you're really joking at a time like this? WELL WELL LOOK WHO'S INSIDE AGAIN WENT OUT TO LOOK FOR A REASON TO HIDE AGAIN WELL WELL BUDDY YOU'VE FOUND IT NOW COME OUT WITH YOUR HANDS UP WE'VE GOT YOU SURROUNDED' - goodbye by bo burnham

#yes i landed on the bo burnham playlist yes im normal about this song next question #oh ew why does that playlist have over 800 likes #anyway i really took this 'quote your favourite line' and went verse?? did you say verse?? favourite entire fucking verse???? #AM I GOING CRAZY WOULD I EVEN KNOW AM I RIGHT BACK WHERE I STARTED FOURTEEN YEARS AGO #WANNA GUESS THE ENDING IF IT EVER DOES I SWEAR TO GOD THAT ALL I EVER WANTED WAS A LITTLE BIT OF EVERYTHING #ALL OF THE TIME A BIT OF EVERYTHING ALL OF THE TIME #APATHY'S A TRAGEDY AND BOREDOM IS A CRIME IM FINISHED PLAYING AND IM STAYING INSIDE <- close 2nd fav line #ask #ask game

[mejomonster]

What is it about internal pain that hurts so much more than external pain :c

#rant #asterisk here that i think some people find external pain hurts more #just like. man. i can walk off a tackle. i can limp away with a bruise the size of my head #i dont even feel a slice across my skin externally after a second #which is why i dont realize oh shit i have a cut till i shower later and find a 10 inch long cut down my calf oops #but. internal? god my internal pain SO bad a muscle relaxer. a nerve pain med #and max dose ibprofen and tylenol dont do SHIT #pain so bad that when the pain stops i literally fall s #asleep wherever i am cause the pain relief is so Nice my body is exhausted and just goes to sleep at the chance #i wish bodies let me TURN THE INTERNAL PAIN OFF #like YES body! you alerted me! i get it! im injured somewhere inside! stop telling me now! #its hard to treat it when simply existing hurts so fucking much! #anyway my backs been 8-9/10 pain for a month now and i did ab exercises yesterday #in a desperate attempt to relieve pain after lidocaine patch and muscle relaxer and ibprofen didnt help #and i woke up today at 6 am to period cramps. #and somehow. those period cramps hurt MORE then my back pain #to the point my body didnt even register the back pain. then i took ibprofen for the period #(and 800 mg worked eventually thank fuck) and now i feel the backpain nonstop again great -.- #(to be fair i have. excessively bad period cramps mormally. like make you wanna chainsaw off your abdomen #downward bad level cramps. scream for an hour in super hot bath water with 800 mg ibprofen and a muscle #relaxer pain levels. ToT

[llycaons]

I know I praise the series for how it handles trauma a lot since I like the way the characters react to it and it is realistic in many ways but uhm do the author (and screenwriters) know that even if you repress memories to cope often they still like. come back eventually

#this is abt wwx and lsz #i just think being in a labor camp having yr entire family torn away and then being transplanted (ha) #to an entirely new setting would be really traumatic and have impact even if he doesnt remember it #this is actually more of a problem in the novel ino #bc we do see wwx postcanon and everything is perfectly fine even when it has no right to be #in cql hes still getting nightmares at least (why MAY have happened in the book idk) #and the ending is more vague #but in either version lsz makes no sense and it just emphasizes that his role is to be a Good Son (tm) for the mc #rather than a person #and upon remembering his entire family was slaughtered and his past #ive always had a hard time swallowing that happiness is his first response??! #but mxtx rly wanted her happy ending and forced it through no matter how nonsensical or unrealistic it would have been #and it doesnt feelnlike she handles her characters trauma with realism #i think this did improve in tgcf tho technically it has the same issues #but xl chilling for 800 years is a hell of a different story than wwx being dead for 13 and suddenly being thrust #back into the world after the murders of everyone he loved #honest to god this treatment of lsz and making him a convenient plot device/mechanism the for romance bothers me more than the misogyny #and the misogyny is pretty bad #it's the number one thing that I dislaike about the show and the number two thing I dislike about the book after the treatment of SA #anf given the book's MANY flaws in structure and prose this is quite an accomplish #-ment #the show improved a lot of things like making wq and jyl feel more organic and natural and making wx actually friends #making side characters more fleshed out and cutting out a lot of the nasty jokes and rearranging it so sl and xxc were known to wwx #making wwx know he was into men including all those beautiful lines etc. etc. #but it couldn't save this?! #mdzs txp #cql txp

[cosmictequila]

ok wtf

#i don’t check my number of followers often #i checked like a while ago (1 year+) and i had like…less than 200 #which idc whatevs i got my mutuals and i’m ok w that #but i just checked again and i have close to 800?? #i’ve been blocking the pornbots so i know it’s not them #i think when i checked a while ago it was wrong because i vaguely remember having 500ish before that #i’m just v confused #where did you all come from #why are you all here

[iwantyoursexmp3]

so glad i choose mostly not to give a fuck abt money and cost of things cause i just looked up how much beau's camcorder would cost and jesus christ man

#like 1500 HOW DID HE PULL THAT OFF. saw someone say they got one for 800 tho BUT STILL! #its worth it to write beau getting to film bobby's 21st birthday party and watch it over and over and over and over and over and over and o #my extent of caring abt money is like my characters have to pay rent and stuff. but i want them to have nice things too #why would i write abt not being able to afford the things you want thats my real life

[selfconsumerofmywoes]

my only two holiday conditions: not in april, and not over 750 quid

every holiday my mate sends me: april, £850+

#it’s like she’s trying to get me to cave on this?? because i’ve sent her so many that meets her brief exactly that she doesn’t even reply to #then gets angry at me for saying i can’t afford to pay that much #or say i need april to do my uni work #she’s like you have 3 weeks off though if you really wanted to go you’d get ahead #like???? no me working through april is getting ahead #i don’t have the energy to plan/research and write 5 essays in 3 weeks #i’m so exhausted i can’t even process words #i need the time to do them carefully #and even if i did get them done to go away in april #I DONT HAVE A FUCKING GRAND LAYING AROUND TO PISS OFF TO MEXICO #she wouldn’t even leave the hotel why does she want to go there #we can go to spain for only a few hundred quid get longer there because the flights are short and have the same experience #i don’t get it #normal 20 year olds go to party places and stay in hostels #not spend 800 quid to spend a week in a 4 star luxury spa hotel #like we’re golden years pensioners #she won’t even use a spa #i’m so done #sorry for venting but my whole family is trying to pass me off on each other because they’re tired of listening to me #i talk and its probably something weird

[trillionsutensils]

I really wanted this fic I'm working on to be a little longer, every fic I've posted has just gotten shorter and shorter and I'm kinda sad about it

The problem is that I'm not the best at pacing, so I kinda just rush into everything and then I don't even get close to them being as long as I was hoping

#my post #I have 487 words rn and idk how much longer I can make it #I was hoping for close to 800 since my last fic I posted was 678 and I wanna do better than that #I do not know how to fix my pacing problems #Like I'm writing pwp so it's not like I can throw more plot in when there isn't plot to begin with #How did I manage to hit over 1000 on my first fucking fic on ao3 I do not understand #It was also pwp so it really does not make sense to me how I did it then and why I can't do it again #I also still don't have a fucking title for this thing I cannot figure one out :(