#why am i such a toxic person

[himehomu]

“Homura callously destroys everything and everyone else because she's selfish and she only loves madoka” right that's why, when she rewrote the entire universe, she not only made it to where Madoka would be surrounded by her friends and her family, but she also gave Sayaka a second chance with not only Kyoko, but with Hitomi and Kyoske as well. That's why she gave Nagisa and Mami a life together. Because she's callous and selfish and she doesn't care about anyone but Madoka. That's why she took on the brunt of immortality for Madoka to be human again, even if it's temporary, choosing to suffer alone whilst everyone else has a second chance at a life. Go fuck yourself. I'm so tired of seeing ppl minimize Homura's love for Madoka and her friends by writing off her actions as “oh she's just a selfish evil edgelord who destroys everything and everyone who isn't madoka bc she doesn't care about anything else bc selfishness vs selflessness themes!!” like you do know that you can point out Homura's selfishness and Madoka's selflessness without blatantly lying and trying to rewrite canon to fit your narrative, right?

#pmmm #puella magi madoka magica #mahou shoujo madoka magica #puella magi madoka magica rebellion #homura akemi #madoka kaname #muting notifications to this bc i already know ppl who either want homura to be evil to justified their hatred for her #because they can't admit they still don't understand why homura did what she did in rebellion after 10 years #or those who want her to be evil and toxic bc they think that makes her a girlboss are gonna foam at the mouth either way #yes homura acted selfishly but not in the way everyone claims she did y'all are just twisting her actions to fit your narrative #it's 2023 just say you hate her and move tf on bc i am NOT going into Walpurgisnacht Rising with ppl in my ear telling me #how awful homura is and how she's a terrible person #homura did nothing wrong

[narwhalandchill]

oh my fucking god i feel. SO stupid rn at How i didnt make the (super sane very normal just absolutely. Yes. Surely) connection earlier but uhh

so anyway im now like 89% certain that whatever the "traces" of the narwhal that remain on ajax and facilitate their (ever-growing) innate connection are like. an actually fundamental aspect of it (them?) more or less.

why? because if you consider its pov just for a moment. the narwhal was literally about to depart teyvat for good. it had nearly finished consuming the primordial sea and preparing to breach surface to finish the job by eating the french for the leftovers their human bodies were made from. its an interstellar voyager it does not linger on planets it devours. it goes glug glug and it leaves.

and like if it wasnt for traveler intervening its confirmed through narzissenkreuz and renes world formula that teyvat wouldve just been destroyed. no one could have stopped the narwhal not neuvillette not focalors not anyone.

so what was the one other thing it did right before going for that french brunch? calling for ajax. getting them reunited in the primordial sea. like all the possible implications aside bc theres many different ways to speculate on the exact reasons why and the nature of that link. the point remains.

it wasnt leaving teyvat without finding him.

like the narwhal is about to fucking Dip from this cringe planet and whatever part of it that ajax carries within himself his narwhal Absolutely wanted to be reunited with. what the fuck am i supposed to read from that. hoyo???????!??! answers?!?!?!

and its not only the calling from the narwhal side itself either bc this is ALL coinciding with the growth of a 'restless power' within ajax and his vision malfunctioning (the things celestia is literally confirmed to harvest energy thru to repair its damaged authority) and his connection with the narwhal reaching an actual conscious level (arguably subconscious n emotional too bc i find it Curious his mood is poor right as the narwhal is repeatedly described as positively malding to the point its boss fight mechanic is literally a rage meter). ajax' power is growing. his destiny is starting to shift and something is drawing him to fontaine... right as the narwhal is getting close to finished with the primordial sea. funny how it overlaps eh. how it aligns 🤨🤨 why are they orbiting each other like this (they should kiss)

(& not to even Mention how ajax just Happened to get that absolutely exponential and borderline unbelievable feat of power spike in extending his foul legacy endurance as massively as he did. while. within the primordial sea. with his narwhal. who had at that point all but incorporated the power of that sea into itself. i s2g if childe was getting passive home turf co-op bonus exp with a 4x multiplier automatically the whole 40+ days 💀💀)

#man the way its lovely reunion but tjen ajax fucking ATTACKS IT ON SIGHT you couldve gotten married!!!!11!1 fucking unbearable i am in agony #anyway contrary to popular belief we still have no fucking clue whether ajax' link to the narwhal was innate #skirk saying the traces remain on him after meeting it isnt saying tht much. the parts he shares w it couldve well been innate but dormant #instead. also just the fact that he woke it up already shady #then like. monoceros caeli being his from the beginning is completely plausible despite ppl acting like its been confirmed his const change #and like them being halves of the same entity on some lvl would make the narwhal being so weak without him n until ajax found it again #make very much. sense. anyway ajax toxicity jokes aside if the narwhal was just trying to eat him point blank without even a hello #i do get why hed react aggressively. but also bros been telling everyone n their mom hes fighting his narwhal the seconf he finds it again😔 #so i feel somewhat confident in assuming he started that 40+ days brawl #anyway if ajax Isnt the celestial narwhal on some level or possibly becoming it as their link grows. #riddle me this atheists. why is his 3rd phase boss theme. the song about His individual murderous rage at us #bc he thought he was outplayed by us. His personal wrath #whys the song for that called the wrath of the celestial narwhal. of the star swallowing whale. Hmmmge. his individual rage. #why does tusk of monoceros caeli speak of him embracing the narwhals innate qualities as embracing mere parts of Himself #funny how tjat goes!! (the OST n boss drop is not 100% serious theory but it does drive me insane. bc why would they phrase it like that) #anyway either theyre 2 halves same original entity or theyre soulmates idgaf . they should fold teyvat in half and eat it for brunch #aaand im going to be consumed by this realization for the next month wish me luck #WHY DID IT NEED HIM THERE SO BADLY???? HUH?????? #i mean relatable dont we all. but its sooooooooo inch resting. Curious indeed #rambles #genshin #childeposting #childe

[hrokkall]

TEAR ME APART!!! TEAR ME APART SO I FEEL WHOLE!!!!!

#Inscryption #Inscryption Spoilers #James Cobb #Cw: #Blood #Gore #Is this the first James fanart? Not really an accomplishment but still #Anyway I don't know where I was going with this one #I just wanted to draw a dude who looks like he'd enjoy whatever the hell is happening in the console ARG #And then ended up with Toxic Slutch #(He's toxic slutch color because I like how most Mullinsverse NPCs have non-human skin tones despite being human. It's so fun to me) #I'll change the design if I ever draw this guy again (read: probably not) but I had to get the worm out of my brain. You know how it is. #Longelk raised a really good point though. Why WAS James reassigned to P03 #I personally think it's funniest if they just drew straws and P03 won. Then realized ''what the fuck am I going to do with this'' #Like a drunken bet gone wrong but instead of losing five dollars it's full-on human experimentation. Fun stuff #Anyway imagine being such a freak that you make the in-universe god of wizards kick you out. Good job man #Hrokkall Art

[nishihii]

rennala marika toxic yuri i cant get you out of my head

#long rant incoming #it is very much implied that marika and radagom are their own people/personalities. theyre just stuck in the same body #i am of the belief that radagon was created or manifested after marika ascended to godhood #as his presence is mysterious and miriel was actively confused as to why just. some guy. some champion would have so much control over an- #-army (referring to the caria/erdtree war) #i think its fascinating to think radagon and marika are the same person. not just in the literal inhabitance of the body. like two- #-different sides of a person #but the lore very much leans towards them having their own conscience #as much as i like the former idea #BUT the description of the preceptors hat/mask has implications that rennala possibly knew of this secret #because what other secret does radagon have to hide? #and like. she stayed with him despite this. #(sorry for the amount of this i said imply/implication) #there is not much material to go off of for marika/renalla but its not like there isnt ANY #toxic yuri...... #i once talked about an interesting parallel between them but i literally have to fresh myself up on that #as i dont think about them very often #edit: oh fuck me dead i forgot to tag spoiler #elden ring spoilers

[askinnyblackman]

fucking hell. now I have to come up with another line

#unironically this is what i’ve been saying on the apps #what am i supposed to say when someone brings up their job #if you could stab one of your coworkers with no consequences who would it be and why #tell me about the most toxic drama that has ever happened in your workplace #when the revolution comes what will you do to the person who signs your paychecks

[synthwayve]

Thinks about Micolash and Laurence’s rivalry that never strays from the confines of academic snark or the occasional jab despite their shared ambition(and possibly also just accompanying a general friendship they could have had since they worked together at some point. Idk I’m a softie. Sue me.) eventually involving into a full on intellectual divorce. Cries. Explodes. 72 casualties.

#will delete #I am just having thoughts #like yeah listen I love the toxic aspects of their dynamic especially peak healing church #and I’m honestly shocked most people put Micolash in the seat of power there #if anything I think he’d be underhanded with having dirt on Laurence’s operation or his reputation #but yknow. headcanons vary #consider: they could have been soft once. they could have been #and they could have stopped each other’s descent into their respective cosmic obsession(blood and insight) #but neither can actually let the other have his way. if Micolash abandons his research and just does whatever Laurence commands him to #he’ll never be able to pursue his own interest(which could even stave off the scourge). it’d be Byrgenwerth all over #but if Laurence lets Micolash go and just do whatever his silly heart desires #not only will he legit go insane but itd happen at the worst of times. he needs to priortize the blood while they still have time #so they both just. stalemate each other to death #yadda yadda insufferable academics believing only their method must be correct to the detriment of the other #not in a ‘I personally hate you’ way but in a ‘why won’t you just listen to me’ way #I just think there’s fun to be had there. they’re both horrible. #also idk this is being prompted by Laurence being typecast into being completely helpless at the height of his power. against MICOLASH??? #let’s let him be a little evil too come on now #but idk. maybe my take is wack

[satorugojoswiife]

What do you think about gojo ships

I feel like I'm pretty indifferent to most of them. This is super cringe of me, but whenever I fall super in love with a character I don't often like shipping them romantically with anyone. 💀 (im delusional I know)

It doesn't help that for some reason the jjk fandom (especially twt) is weirdly aggressive about ships. I know it isn't all the shippers and it's mostly just the loud minority, but seeing so much of the discourse has kinda put me off and I don't really engage much with the ships in the fandom except for rarepairs and selfships bc alot of the time those communities are more wholesome and cozy (if that makes sense LOL)

#satofie best ship #andnajdjskdjksnfksndjdj im sorry im cringe 😔😔 #anyways i honestly have no idea #its not even about not liking seeing him with others bc i enjoy seeing other ppls gojo × oc/selfships #i just for some reason dont really vibe with any of the existing gojo ships in the series #weirdly enough if i had to choose one i feel like sukugo is the most interesting one LOL they are so funny with eachother #i feel like in a different life they really couldve hit it off #i feel bad for gojohime shippers sometimes #like i personally dont like the ship but oh my god ppl on twitter are so mean about that ship i dont even know why ??? #is it bc alot of them prefer him shipped with a guy ?? or they dont like seeing another woman that isnt them with him?? i dont know #but i see so much hate for it and it makes me sad bc like just move on or mute the account so u dont have to see it if you really hate it #the amount of times ive seen some big jjk account qrt a fanart dissing the ship while also getting more likes than the artists post is craz #why do ppl fight over fake people kissing....... #i remember this one account specifically that was obsessed with gojo but they were so snobby about it and like gatekeeping other fans #and they really hated gjhm and for some reason felt the need to make it into a problematic ship instead of just saying #i dont like this and moving on #but they made this whole thing abt how toxic they actually are bc utahime hates gojo #only to (in the same thread) gush over their fave ship which was nanago #and i felt crazy bc its......literally the same dynamic what #like am i missing something ????? #anyways this got a bit wild but pls be nice to eachother and respect eachothers ships #you dont have to justify why u dislike a ship you can just not like it #no need to turn it problematic

[egg-emperor]

bro pal buddy friend what I'm saying is there's no such thing as a pure healthy non toxic perfect bond with Eggman, be it familial, or a business partnership, or otherwise. that's what I'm trying to say always. I don't believe that any can exist without some toxicity in it because this is EGGMAN we're talking about lol

as long as he's arrogant, egotistical, and selfish and sees everyone else as inferior and beneath him and only cares about them for as long as they can be useful to him, which is always the case, then there's always gonna be some level of toxicity in it. and we see this to be true with all of them in official media

if I ever point that out with any kinds of interactions, partnerships, bonds, etc that Eggman has in official media, which I do with all of them, it doesn't mean I hate it or the other character involved with him in question. I'm just pointing out the official facts. it's always been the case and that's just the logic of it

and there's always official media evidence that leads me to my reasonings for each one

#this is also ultimately why Eggman works better alone and why it makes sense for him to prefer solitude #he can never get along well with others long term and there's always toxicity in them they're always troubled #because that's just the kind of person he is #some would argue that so am I. so uh. I guess I'd know lol :') #dr eggman #eggman #dr robotnik #dr. eggman #my post #relationships

[boomhealers]

whats everyone’s favorite obscure fallout characters mine are ignacio rivas and mr RADical

#fallout #fallout series #both of them are from fnv #fallout new vegas #fnv #oh to be the guy who is so enthusiastic about toxic waste #i am the only person in the ignacio rivas fandom #I DONT KNOW WHY I LIKE HIM SO MUCH HELP? #obscure fallout characters my beloved #jason bright isnt obscure but hes underrated imo #mr RADical #ignacio rivas

[oceanwithouthermoon]

the realization that tumblr does not work like twitter and i cant just vague post about random discourse or arguments otherwise people will wrongfully assume its about them has flipped my whole life upside down

#exaggerating obviously but still like i vague post so much #did not realize people thought this #like wdym i cant just vague vent about a random argument i had with friends #because at least one person will probably think im talking about them #especially with a blog dedicated to like a small fandom circle like saiki k #whoops! #i once vaguely posted about how i hate getting called boring for disliking toxic ships- #and i got an anon ask being like 'i feel like that was about me cuz i JUST posted a saiki k toxic ship post' #and i just deleted the ask cuz i was like haha thats dunb ofc it wasnt about anyone on here #why would i subtweet about people on here right on here #and not every one of my posts is about saiki k #not only am i in multiple fandoms but also not every post is even a fandom post #that post was about twitter discourse that was making me mad lmfao #then i slowly realized that thats common actually like people assume that shit a lot #whoopsy daisy #any time i post about fandom discourse too- #ppl always think im talking abt them but im always either talking about a post i didnt want to reply to cuz it was from years ago- #or sometjing i saw on like twitter or pinterest or tiktok #if u ever wonder if im vague posting about you- of course im fucking not #i would lowkey just reply directly tbh #lol this is why i hate when people ask me 'who is this about' cuz idk bitch someone who hasnt been active here for like three years- #or some random user on tiktok!! i dont know!!! #i think i did post directly abt someone here like once ? and it was cuz i was sure that person was like 14- #so i didnt want to reply to them and be all mad #so i posted about it cuz i was like well i see people do that a LOT so whatever #(talking about 'teruhashi ruins my gay ships cuz shes a stupid bitch woman🤓' btw) #even then i didnt rlly consider it like a callout post of them or anything cuz theyre just one person out of hundreds that have done that #sorry these tags are so long lol i just erm.. its kinda funny to me ig idk #meows post

[kingchad]

What’s your honest thoughts on Doug? Since he’s pretty hated.

Doug is my babygirl I legitimately am so depressed that the fandom turned on him.

Genuinely what I saw happen with my own eyes is that when D3 came out, people who hated Chad and Audrey very vocally for many years decided that they didn’t hate Chad and Audrey anymore (since Audrey became a #misunderstoodgirlboss and Chad basically got relegated to Harmless Comedy Relief Goon), so they turned their ire onto Doug for being like, a mediocre boyfriend character.

Also a lot of people hate him because they hate Devie because Evie is often read as a lesbian in fandom. I 100% support and get why lesbian Evie is so popular, I definitely think the text supports that reading of her, but I don’t know why Doug has to get dragged into the crossfire here. Can’t they just break up amicably?

But I like Doug!!!! I like him a lot. Firstly because I think he’s a hugely important character if you look at Descendants from the “oh, this is a series designed to teach little kids and especially little girls about empathy and self-worth” perspective (which is ultimately what the series is for). He’s the Chad foil, and he teaches kids that your partner should like you for your personality, and support and encourage you when you try new things. All Doug does in all 3 movies is be a supportive boyfriend and hype Evie up.

In terms of the way I engage with Descendants text and fanon, I think Doug is a really funny character and I enjoy writing him a lot. I like the background of him and Chad being former friends who had a falling out as Chad became more of an asshole, who maybe reconnect as the series progresses. I also love Doug’s dynamic with Evie (whether or not they’re together) and Carlos (under-utilized combination!).

I love Doug being hugely involved in student government and school clubs and ESPECIALLY being over the top #1 school band hypeman. I love Doug genuinely having no concerns about VKs being evil (because a lot of the fear is perpetuated by royal families who are nervous about potential power struggles but Doug is smarter than that and thus unbothered). I love Doug being like, a completely, totally normal guy in this over the top fantasy world. He’s near and dear to my heart.

#I personally am a bisexual Evie writer and Devie is like. the one explicitly canon relationship I like LOL #people point to the ‘how could you go camping with me?’ scene as an example of Devie being ‘toxic’ but I think that is such a bad take #like truly disengenous and uncharitable. you can just break Devie up in your works you don’t have to run around justifying why #*ask #*mine #Doug

[nateriverswife]

I have never seen any author complain about this but i would totally understand if someone would be annoyed that their readers are seeing romance when they intentionally didn't include that.

#i was thinking back to a comment i received and they wrote ''L/Ethe'' which made me realise that some people will inevitably #interpret the story as romantic at some point or with a romantic resolution which spoiler alert (not really) i'm not going to write #that fic is not about romantic love. and after all Ethe will do to L - he would rather be burned alive than being near her #cuz that would be less painful. it's not even going to be ''oh wow yes toxic ship!!'' cuz i am trying to write a realistic story here #and people irl don't want to stay together with someone who treated them like shit for years and ruined their trust in people yk #so yeah. i'm not personally annoyed but if you read it like that. i think you'll miss a lot of the themes i am discussing #i even made Ethe say that L thinks it's just a childish rivalry but it's much more than that so yeah... lmao #in general though. while shipping is totally fine. i think people that look at any story that doesn't have romance as the main focus #like that are not going to get all aspects #this is me being annoying but i think this heavily applies to death note as well cuz you are going to interpret any action as #obsessive toxic love & that takes a lot from the story itself #that's why i also tend to talk more about ''dynamics'' than ''ships'' even when the romantic love is there. #d.exe

[jet-apologistmybadhomies]

ships dynamics i like but half of them arent heathly

obviously These are Not mine i Just found them

#ships #ship dynamics #i do have a limit to how much toxic i can take #i hate the whole “innocent+ bla bla” shit so much #like ok thats just weird yk #why is this Person pure?? its an adult?? #so dont think i am crazy #i just think stabbing eachother is a nice way of saying i love u

[moshieee]

Is mosh-mosh going ti stay around on the blog?

Oh yea definitely

I've been having a lot of fun drawing mosh-mosh in no small part because what they represent for me

It's a bit uhhh, personal and is mostly relevant to my mutuals and other friends I made...

so I'll put it in the tags Incase you don't want to read

#asks #mosh-mosh #self sona #clown sona #jester propaganda #art #my art #ok so you're reading the tags now let me figure out to format this #in shirt mosh mosh is based off how i used to feel #if you look back at some of my really old art like when i first became a part of the yadc fandom #youll notice yhat i draw myself and short chibi crying and anxious a lot its already been established that i draw my hight depending on how #confident i feel so you can imagine the mental state i was in... what changed? i made friends i moved out of a toxic household a lot change #but mainly the friends part i met you guys and i started having fun with art again not just as an escape... mosh mosh represents how i was #while moshi is how i am now... i can look back at how far ive come and instead if feel embarrassed i can accept it thats why mosh mosh look #so similar we're technically ghe same person just at different stages... and i dont know how i would have made it this far without you all #thank you rabid día bunsowo for being my friends and all the other amazing artists ive met along the way this has been an amazing experienc #so far and i cant wait to see how far we all grow #moshie Os

[faggotslime]

If what you told me was a lie or an untrue pacifying statement, that's not my fault for believing you.

It's not my job to beg you or interrogate you for absolute truths.

As a friend, that's the one and only thing you owe me— honesty.

#personal #vent #quotes #mental health matters #honesty #in my feels tonight #maybe its autism or just a plain naivity to the world #but why the fuck would you be friends with someone just to lie to them and try to change them into a 'worse' person #yall want me to be complacent to toxic behavior #and i want to speak up and call it out #yall want me to accept thats just the kind of person she is and remain friends #and i want to distance myself from them because it's actively hurting me #dont pacify me just to gain my trust so you have a better chance of asking me to adjust my boundaries #ive had so many 'friendships' like this and they blindside me every single time #i am both ashamed of myself for being fooled again and just simply disappointed with the reality of how people are #being willing to trust people is both one of my greatest strengths and biggest flaws

[samioli]

"YOU might like toxic romances but IM different 😌" bestie you literally are just saying what the NORM is you're not DIFFERENT for liking "healthy romances who trust each other" you're literally just partaking in what's deemed NORMAL to like

#i am #so frustrated #this person was like “if you like toxic romance good for you but i dont” #okay ?? thats fine??? why do you need to feel like youre special about it then #lmao #also someone in the notes saying that the term “romance” implies a “happy ending” and so toxic romances arent romance then.... #i cannot make this shit up