#wht hpp

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the first chapter of i’ve been thinking but without vowels

Spdr-Mn sts dwn crfll t th mrc, wh's flppd t n hs bck nd trs t rb th srnss t f hs shldrs. Ddpl grns, " knw wht's nt ths xhstng? Gns. Thr's w lss ffrt nvlvd."

"Dn't  fl lk  hr?" Spd sks, lng bck n th cncrt f th rftp th'r n.

" fl lk 'v bn tndrzd." th mrc nswrs. "Wth lk, n f ths bg ss mtl mllts."

"Thn, cngrts. Tht's wht t fls lk." h fghts hs s nt t cls. "t's  wrkt."

"Hw cls s r spdr-cv?" Ddpl sks, rllng nt hs sd. "M plc s fr nd 'm trd."

" r nt spndng th nght wth m." Spd sghs.

"Pls?" th mrc whns. "'ll st n th cch ll nght nd 'll mk brkfst."

"W dn't vn knw ch thr." h wns, " mn, w d, bt...scrt dntts.

" knw wh  m." th mrc rgs. "t's n th ntrnt fr vrn t s. Wd Wlsn, ggl m."

"'m scrd f wht 'd fnd." Spd chckls. "Stll, thgh.  hvn't sn ."

Ddpl rlls nt hs bck gn nd mmbls t hmslf. H snds lk h's rgng, bt Spd s sd t ths ftr mnths f knwng hm. Th mrc sghs, "'ll shw  mn f  shw m rs."

Spd prks nd sts p t tht prpstn, crs. "k."

"Tht s, hh?" th mrc lghs, "Ww, f 'd knwn tht's ll t wld tk,  wld'v skd snr. Wll, lt's s t, bb b."

"'r prbbl  std, rght? Tht tttd." Spd ss, nd th mrc brks nt  ft f gggls, rllng nt hs stmch nd pndng th grnd wth th sd f hs fst  fw tms. "Lk Tn Strk. H's ttrctv nd knd f fll f hmslf."

"r-r  tllng m- D-d  wnn fck rn Mn?" th mrc sks, brl rcvrd frm hs ft f lghtr.

"T-tht's nt wht  sd!" Spd fls hs fc trn brght rd ndr th msk. " jst-h's- ppl fnd hm ttrctv nd h's gt n g..." h hffs nd plls hs msk ff.

Wd sts p nd cs, pnchng th ngr mn's chks. "h m gd, lk t !" th brnt slps hs hnds w. "'r s ct! Hw ld r ?"

"'m twnt-tw." Wd sqshs hs fc btwn hs plms nd Spd pshs th mrc's hnds w gn. "Gt n wth t."

"r  ths mptnt n bd?" Wd sks, nd Spd flshs gn, ths tm clrl vsbl.

"Sht p!" th brnt frwns. "t's r trn."

"lrght, lrght.  gtt wrn , t's nt wht 'r xpctng."

"Nt Strk?" Spd qps. "S, mr lk Cptn mrc, r lk-"

Th msk cms ff nd Spd fls lk n mmns jckss fr tw rsns: 1) th cmmnts nd 2) h's t shckd t spk nd lts slnc drg n. "S?"

"m." Spd ss hlpfll. H wshs h cld jst stp strng wth wd s. H gts lst n thghts lk 'hw th fck dd tht hppn' nd cmpltl frgts tht h shld rct n sm w.

"'m gnn-'ll jst...'ll pt t bck n-" Wd ss, qtr thn Spd hs vr hrd hm.

"Ptr Prkr." Spd blrts t. "M-m nm."

"r...r  tllng m tht  tk slfs fr  lvng?" Wd sms s srprsd b ths tht h frgts t pt th msk bck n plc.

"Lt's g, shll w?"

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"Lk, 'm-" Ptr ss, ftr th'v plshd ff hlf  pzz tht Ptr mngd t fnd n hs frzr. "'m srr  frkd t,  jst-"

"S'lrght." th mrc shrgs. "'v sn wrs." h stffs mr pzz nt hs mth.

" ws rll xpctng  t b ht?" Ptr ss, " jst-'m gnn sht p nw."

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Ptr gs t bd ftr Wd flls slp n th cch. nfrtntl, h frgts th ntr nght n  hlf-slp hz nd wlks nt th ktchn th nxt mrnng wth blr s nd n pnts. Th whstl h gts frm th mrc mks hm lp nd nrl drp th mg f cff h rtrvd whn h gt thr.

"Srr  scrd , bb b." Wd lghs, clrl nt srr. " hv mzng lgs. Ht dmn."

"Thnks,  gss." Ptr blshs, sttng dwn t th tbl nd sghng nt hs mg.

"H,  dn't mn t pr." Wd ss slwl. Ptr rss hs brws bt ss nthng bt Wd's lck f cr fr prvc. "r frdg s knd...mpt."

" nd t g shppng." Ptr ls. H hs mb fft dllrs t hs nm nd hs blls r lrd pst d.

"D  nd  rmmt, r?"

" gss t wldn't hrt." Ptr shrgs. "Wt, d  mn-  mn ?"

"www...bt  md  brkfst." Wd pts, lng t  nc brkfst fr Ptr. ggs, bcn, ssg, pncks, tst, tc.

"Dd  g shppng?" Ptr sks, nd Wd nds. " ddn't hv t d tht..."

" mn,  dd." Wd ss. " prmsd 'd mk brkfst nd  ddn't hv nthng n r frdg."

"Tht's nt tr." Ptr rgs, mth fll f tst. "Thr's stff n thr."

"h?" Wd pns t. "Lftvr pzz, lftvr McDnld's-grss- bttl f wtr,  dn't knw wht th fck tht s, nd thn th grcrs bght."

"k, s  nd t shp. S m."

" dn't thnk  cld ffrd fr m t s ." Wd ss. "C'mn, w cld b rms!  cld p hlf f th rnt, w cld st p lt nd gssp- lk  rll lng slpvr!"

"'ll thnk bt t." Ptr ss.

"s!"

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" cn't b srs." Drdvl ss. "Ddpl? s  rmmt? Lstn t rslf."

"Wht? Wht's wrng wth tht?" Ptr sks. "H's nt tht bd."

"Th tw f  rg cnstntl!"

" nd  rg t. W'r rgng rght nw. W'r stll frnds." Ptr ss. " rll d nd  rm."

"Nt Ddpl." Drdvl ss. " c-wrkr,  frnd,  strngr. Bt nt Ddpl. 'll rg vn mr thn sl nd 'll p fr t."

" thnk 'm gnn lt hm mv n." Ptr ss, gnrng th thr. " hv nthr bdrm."

Drdvl sghs. "Dn't s  ddn't wrn ."

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"Mrr Chrstms!" Wd ss, slppng nt th wndw, trppng vr  lmp crd, nd lndng n hs stmch n th flr.

"Chrstms s tw wks w." Ptr sghs, hlpng th mrc p. "nd  cn s th dr."

"Tht's n fn!" Wd cmplns. " knw wht s? Dcrtng."

"Wd-"

"Dckng th hlls, dnnng r g pprl-"

"Wd."

"s, bb?" Wd sks swtl.

"'v bn thnkng. nd  thnk..." h pss. H knws tht ths s hs lst chnc t bck t f th dcsn. " thnk t'd b grt f  mvd n."

Wd tckls hm wth  hg nd Ptr cn vslz hrts flng frm th mrc's hd. "h, Pt! 'm s hpp!"

"Rll?" Ptr sks, vc strnd frm th mrc's grp n hm. " cldn't tll."

"D  gt t slp n r bd?" Wd sks, fnll dtnglng hs lmbs frm Ptr's.

"N." Ptr ss. "M nt s gttng  nw mttrss fr hr gst bdrm, s  skd fr th ld n. n thng, thgh: sh wnts t mt . Sh nsstd."

"h, m." Wd's tn s stff. " dn't thnk m fc'll frk hr t?"

"Nh. Sh'd b t plt t s nthng, vn f." Ptr ss. "Sh rll, rll wnts m t hv frnds."

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"S, hw'd w mt?" Ptr sks vr lnch.

"'m hrt, bb b. Hw cld  nt rmmbr?" Wd snffls drmtcll.

"N,  rmmbr tht." Ptr ss, " mn, wht'r w gng t tll m nt? W nd t wrk t  str."

"h." Wd stps hs ptng. "Wll, 'r  phtgrphr nd 'm clrl  mdl."

"'knw-"

"h, r 'm  grd t whr  wrk." Wd bbbls. "r w gt st p n  blnd dt-"

"Th mdl thng cld wrk."

"xcs m?" Wd snds shckd. "'v sn m."

"Whn  ws n cllg,  dd  prjct tht ncldd tkng phts f vlntrs wth scrs." Ptr ss. " ''r stll btfl' thng."

"m."

" mt wth  lt f ppl wh chngd thr mnd nd dcdd nt t g thrgh wth t." h cntns. " stll hv  fw phn nmbrs, s...t's blvbl, t hs bss n trth."

"...Sr." Wd ss, "'r wrdl gd t lng."

"'v bn prtndng tht 'm nt smthng snc  ws fftn." Ptr ss. "Lts f prctc.”

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