#who’s gonna go on my desk

[the-holy-ghosted]

unbearable is the distance between me and all my friends. separated by so much space. miles. countries. oceans. hours upon hours upon hours away from these people that have become special pieces of my heart and soul. bring back pangea and build more trains i cant deal with all this

#the heron speaketh #im so sad. im gonna have a drink about this <- fucking terrible idea #but truly though i have never in my life had so many people who mean the world to me. than now. and i cant even see them #the screen is not the same i need to be holding these people in my arms and kissing their faces and wandering around antique stores #and aquariums and picking up rocks on beaches and watching movies on the same couch eating the same popcorn under the same #blanket under the same roof im going to stART FUCKING CRYING. FOR REAL . IM GONNA CHEW ON MY DESK I HATE IT HERE

[expelliarmus]

#mine #doctor who #dwedit #david tennant #catherine tate #hello friends!!!! #it's been 6 days since my surgery and i wanted to see if i could sit at my desk and make gifs..... #and i did it!!!!! #but i'm gonna go lie down now lol

[deus-ex-mona]

“i’m all alone, but i’m as happy as can be!”

#aka top 10 things i wish i could drill into my coworkers brains grrrrrrrrrrrrrrnrhrhbgbgbfbfbfnf #‘you should get a bf’ ‘when are you gonna get married and have kids?’ how about n e v e r #i just want to sleep when i’m not on the clock mans i don’t want to waste my precious sleep time on others #i mean. i don’t even leave the house on my days off. not to go shopping or anything bc sleep is more important~~~ #and stuff can be bought online anyways s o o o o o #g o d speaking of online purchases thoughhh this massage seat i bought online came in yesterday and it works amazingly well~~~~~ #used it for half an hour last night and i was relaxed enough to sleep for 11-12 hours straight #wish i had space for an actual massage chair though but this will have to do… #it’s been my dream to own a massage chair for the longest time…… but ig this massage seat is good enough…… #i can just slap it onto my desk chair and b a m ✨instant paradise✨ #speaking of instant though… one of my coworkers was commenting on my love for instant noodles the other day #‘you’ll ✨d i e✨ faster if you eat a lot of cup noodles yk?’ he said #so ✨o f c✨ my mouth chose to work faster than my brain when i replied with ‘i’m fine with that bc i won’t have to work then’ #he and another coworker laughed :( sadded #b u t i finally had my cup noodles that i ‘customised’ at the cup noodle museum today and it was good~~~~~~~ i have good taste (self praise) #the best part was the lack of spring onions!!!! bc screw spring onions really who decided that they should be included with most cup noodles #or just noodles in general? the texture sucks and they don’t even taste good man. why would you even add spring onions? #it’s number 2 in my list of most hated food toppings. it loses only to ikan bilis bc s c r e w ikan bilis or dried anchovies or whatever #they’re known as >:( i hateeeeee how takeout places will just assume that you want ikan bilis and lop on a huuuuugeeeee serving of them #atop your food as you desperately and futilely b e g them to stop #and when you try to pick them out they just!!!! keep turning up everywhere instead????? #like hello???? how did you manage to get to the bottom of the bowl???? you were only added as a topping!!!!!!! #also. their eyes are really creepy. and the heads get detached from the bodies all the time and just. seeing the eyes ruins my appetite. #wait this was supposed to be about my coworkers and their pushiness in a matter that doesn’t concern them how did we get so far off-topic— #chizuutan chizpost

[bitchthefuck1]

One of the weirdest things about finding out you're traumatized/mentally ill/neurodivergent as an adult is looking back at all the very obvious signs in your childhood and realizing none of the adults responsible for you were paying attention

#it really is a mindfuck #like all of yall were really asleep at the wheel here #me: exhibiting very obvious symptoms of neurodivergence and mental and physical illnesses #ever parent teacher coach and other authority figure i interacted with: shes just Like That. #fun fact i when i was in elementary school starting in 2nd grade id have to walk to the front of the classroom and read a section of the #board at a time and then go back to my desk and copy it from memory because I couldn't see well enough from my seat and not a single #teacher said or did anything about it until i was in fifth grade. guess who needed glasses. #like they didn't even ask they just let that happen until my fifth grade teacher was like. what are you doing. and i told her i couldn't #read the writing from two rows back and she told me to tell my mom i needed glasses #anyways ms. [redacted] you're the only valid mfer in this place #not even gonna get into the number of coaches who called me lazy or out of shape in middle/high school (even though i was playing multiple #sports a year) when i told them i couldn't breathe after running for only a minute or two. guess who has sports asthma. #maybe this is just being the middle child but like of you're not going to pay attention to me can u at least not immediately call me a liar #when i say something's wrong maybe #those aren't even mental/neurological those are very obvious and easily demonstrated physical issues and you STILL didn't say anything #not even gonna get into all the very obvious signs of mental illness and neurodivergence

[sukugo]

got COCKBLOCKED in my own HOUSE (both literally and figuratively 🤔)

#f.txt #the house is my dreams. but the dream was in my house #ANYWAYS I HAD A DREAM. WHERE I WAS GONNA FUCK ANAKIN. BUT I DIDN'T BC DGSKDHSJHD #MY MOM CAME INTO THE ROOM 😭😭😭 #so it started with anakin and me in a room. anakin was on a desk with his back to me working on some stuff on a computer #he was wearing s shiny tight leather jacket and jeans. and FUCK did he look delicious. just incredible #so i go to him and i like lift up his jacket from behind and start grabbing his waist. #and then i grab his crotch and start rubbing it (he had a tiny dick <3) (AND I STILL REMEMBER THE FEELING OF IT 😭😭😭😭) #at first he doesn’t want to and he kinda resists. but we all know im into that shit. #but then actually he does get into it and wants to. so i take him and push him into the bed #OK DGDJHF actually there was someone else who wanted to fuck him too in the room with us #idk who it was and for some reason all i remember is that it was spiderman (but i go like BITHC IM gonna fuck him) #(actually i think we agreed to both do it or smth idk) so then there's like some dick grabbing action going on #and then. my mom comes in. #and I'm like. girl. why. why would u do this to me. how could u fucking do this to me. do u not see me having THE moment of my life. #so she uhh sees us. and she's like uhhhh. and we make like if we weren't doing anything ahaaa whaat nothing weird going on here. #so in a desperate attempt to continue i grab anakin's hand and take him to the other room. where apparently there's my brother. #and i want to cry. bc CANT A GIRL HAVE HER PRIVACY PLS (like i get it irl but NOT EVEN IN NY DREAMS 😭😭) #anyways so instead we just like. lay in bed. im between his legs bc no one's gonna fucking get me out of ther now lmao #and we start playing clapping games. bc what else are we supposed to do. and my mom COMES IN HERE too #to u know check up on what we're doing. and the position is uhh not innocent but we're like hey we're just playing. #so she leaves. and then we get up and run in circles lmao. #but anyways yeah that was the end of the anakin fucking 😭😭😭 #then it was hours of me having to listen to my mom and aunt talking about life hardships or smth #OH BUT THE END. i had another lil dream about exo/specifically kai. SPECIFICALLY about his thighs. #like there was a comeback or smth but his thighs were incredible. and then there's like a dance scene but he's mini tiny shorts #and when he moves u can See Things 😳👀 #anyway that is the story. no anakin fucking for me 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #i feel like this dream is so. representation of my Life. like yeah. this is literally my life.

[starrystevie]

thought up a lil steddie dialogue that i can't figure out what to do with why can't words write themselves

#me in the car: this lil moment is gonna slap i can't wait to write it!!!! #me now at my desk: what else am i supposed to write to go around it what is the context how did they get to that point who knows

[cozylittleartblog]

obligatory plug for my etsy shop's black friday sale, live now thru sunday <3 even B-grade items are on sale so you get a Double Sale on those!

#black friday #etsy #acrylic charms #queer owned business #small business #enamel pins #reblogs very appreciated! #as u can see from the earlier tag i am a small business it is only me here and advertising is hard #remember when black friday was just like. a weekend. and now people start their BF sales a week or two in advance #i am not that insane but it's funny how it's just Whatever now lmao #im gonna see about trying to open up international shipping to some places early next year #since january and february are slow months anyway #but if you are impatient and have a friend who lives in the US who doesn't mind forwarding you something... :) #Thats An Option #anywya i really did just dump a bunch of shit on my desk and go 'yeah that makes a good promo' #purchase these goods with your money! for yourself or friends or family! #very high quality beautiful prints five stars my reviews are Excellent you can See For Your Self #my pins? chefs kiss. beautiful pieces of metal and paint. i still get giddy over how cute the TVs look on their cards

[scorchieart]

PSA from a tired server technician

If you're on a website, or an application, or some hum-dum-diggory 64-bit program and you're clicking a button and it doesn't respond after the first couple of times...

Do not spam click it.

Trust me, it will not fix your problem. It'll only make it worse. I understand it can be frustrating to wait, but patience is a virtue.

#too shy to say this in person so I'll say it here in the hopes it helps someone understand #servers have wait times and priority lists and overwhelming them with more requests than they have ports to process them will freeze 'em up #then no one gets to do anything #did I log onto tumblr on my work computer just to post this? #yes. yes I did #who's going to stop me? I.T.? #I AM I.T. #I'm just gonna hide under my desk for the next 5 hours and hope nothing bad happens #local bird yells at cloud

[rubberbandballqueen]

hmm i have like, 500-600 taiwan dollars leftover in a tin from the last time i visited relatives... i wonder what would happen if i just handed it to my little cousins like. "yep. here is gift. have fun."

#i heard them trying to sound out 'eidelweiss' on the piano so i've also been thinking of giving them this little music box i bought #a while back that plays eidelweiss. put it in little box with money and letter that is like. 'hello. cousin cares about you.' #'but cousin is awkward and has bad hearing and speaking skills. anyway here's some money and a music box for you.' #i checked n it's like the equivalent of almost 20 usd so like. that's an appropriate gift for nine-year-olds i think #today at work i was cutting glow sticks in half for our craft and i was not wearing any gloves so i got minor chemical burns <3 #like part of the skin on my thumb n pointer finger got bleached so i went around n showed alllll the kids #like. 'hey. check out my chemical burn. this is why we wouldn't let you guys cut open the glow sticks yourselves.' #'because it will do This to you if you touch them too long. this is why we had you wash your hands when you finished.' #n some of them were like 'just wash it off' n i was like. 'it is a chemical burn. it is on my skin.' #at least i Think it was a chemical burn but i mean it was very minor (makes sense bc it's just glow sticks) so the skin's flaked off by now #similar happens when i touch my hair bleach w/o gloves so i'm Pretty Sure it was chemical burns #we had a table of kids who were speaking cn to each other so at some point i pieced together they didn't seem to pay attn. bc low en skills #anyway i broke my own rule abt no phones at work to look up 'chemical burns' in cn for them bc although they know i speak Some cn #(by giving them minor instructions for the glow stick craft) i was like. 'chemical burns... how to say....' #apparently they are mostly from taiwan which is fun i love it when i Don't receive microaggressions for writing in traditional c': #today's my only camp shift for the week tho... one of my coworkers died last week so i told my boss i could pick up his camp shifts #if no one else had but apparently i'd go over hours this week... feelsbad man. it's summer + we're always understaffed #so there's gonna be a point when the front desk worker is gonna be covering the camps for a little bit which is. i feel bad ahaha #the worm speaks

[florida3exclamationpoints]

I don't like thinking about work unless I'm at work but I have to talk through smth ignore me or whatever

#i want to quit soon but i dont know when the best time is #im working the next 2 mon/tues and then im off until the 14th #and the schedule for august isn't out yet so the last day im scheduled for now is the 25th #usually the schedule comes last minute #im considering..... telling my boss that my last day will be the 25th tomorrow #but if im going to do it i have to do it tomorrow #mayyyyybe Tuesday ig but i would wanna do it next week #but i cant see who im working with before i go in anymore. which is so terrible for so many reasons #i need to prepare before i go in and part of that is knowing who im gonna see but whatever #not only that but i wont know if my boss will be there for me to be able to quit until im there tomorrow #im also super anxious about quitting anyway i don't wanna have that conversation #and then i have to start looking for a new job #and im trying to move in the spring i need money #i did think... i could possibly bring the letter of resignation tomorrow.. hope he wont be there & leave it on his desk #and text him that it's there. but then theres not much of a conversation to be had #idek exactly how youre 'supposed to quit' but to me those rules are for employers you respect 💀 #i dont respect these people ✌️ #the only thing i feel bad about is that there'll only be one baker left in the company (6 almost 7 stores) #but its also not my fault that they haven't hired anyone and cant keep employees #i would've LOVED some help over the last few months as ive been the only baker in this district of 3 stores!!! they never hired anyone!!!! #i just have really not appreciated the way they've been treating me recently with all of the anxiety stuff #i also dont appreciated how my rights of privacy were violated 😀 #and its literally coming to the point where im going to have to have uncomfortable conversations that i dont want to have #and/or literally take or at least threaten some legal action #or just quit!! and its not like im gonna be here much longer anyway even if i dont leave right now #i almost feel like... do i have a responsibility to hold them accountable for what they've done so it hopefully doesn't happen again #but idk i mean i didn't make them do this #tbh the more i think about it the more i want to quit tomorrow. im just nervous. and scared of not having a paycheck #idk its just scary!!! life is scary!!!!!

[thatrandombystander]

Oh bubble tea and pair of half stale donuts. You're the only thing between me and me quitting my fucking job right now.

#does this count as a meal? it's my first meal of the day then :( #HEY YO guess who almost started fucking crying at her desk and is going to be working on the weekend to get something done :( #look. my boss. i like her as a person. #but she is a BAD manager. #what the fuck do you mean you thought I was supposed to be managing the whole website redevelopment for the subsidiary company???? #when was i supposed to do that???? #i couldn't have even done anything because we have established that all the formatting for the subsidiary company is to match our company #and that's only been really done in the last TWO days by a manager who has done NOTHING but build that for two days #WITH HELP from another person in the team #meanwhile I've been doing all this other urgent shit you've been asking me for #and now you're fucking 'disappointed' that I haven't kept up with the other manager? fuck all the way off #these two websites must be built in the next WEEK #we've had this deadline for MONTHS and we didn't fucking DO any of it until last week???? #i have been WAITING for you to read through and approve the written content so i could start loading it in #AND YOU STILL HAVEN'T READ THROUGH IT #so. what? you're gonna read it later and make us re-do copying everything in? #we still don't even have images? you're making me put placeholder images #and then you're going to 'go through and decide what to use on each page' #fat chance of that #you have no idea how clunky this website system is. loading ANY image in takes TIME to process #i am going to SCREAM #i SAID this would happen. I SAID this whole thing would be mismanaged and we'd end up working overtime #im hungry. im tired. i have a headache. #to top it off I've got period cramps????? rage. #less than three months left and I'm rotating out of this team. #ramblings of a bystander

[transgender-catboy]

I love my friends

#i think im just going to talk in the tags for a moment. got a lot on my mind #for starters. the fnaf movie comes out soon. really looking forward to that. think its gonna be awesome and amazing and I'm super excited!!! #secondly. waiting on funds so i can buy that mask i saw the other day and some Halloween candy from Walmart #i . want to do little goodie bags for the kids in my building. but im too scared to go up to their parents and ask candy preference and #allergy concerns. so. idk. maybe I'll just save it. I think it's a cute concept but it makes me feel like my mother. #she loved to do little gift things for people. but it was always people that didn't like her. i don't want to be that way #i know my value. i know my time and energy means something. i don't want to waste it on people who don't give a shit. ya know? #not saying the kids are those kinds of people. not what i mean. but just as an overall thing. i don't like being like her. #...yeah. i dunno. you get raised by one person your whole life. you pick up some of their characteristics #i can't sob without sounding like her. safe to say i am a little emotionally constipated. so i seek other means to relieve that feeling. #like yesterday when i threw up. i played it off like that was a blunder on my body. but i know what i did. #hey. at least it's not the other method. right?. .. yeah. okay. i know. not great either #but it hurts. and I'm so fucking sick and tired of crying over her. genuinely. it's exhausting crying all the time #but that's the only way I can get those emotions out #I've tried to do the counseling thing. but other things made that impossible. then i moved. #and i tried the grief thing but instead i just got a talking buddy? he helps me get out of the house yeah. #but we dont talk about her #... i dunno. I'm just here. #guess i waited long enough. now you get a mini secret. every time i make an i love my friends post. I'm reminding myself why I'm still going #I'm usually sitting around somewhere in my apartment (desk couch bed) crying. alone. thinking about you guys. #so uh. thank you. #i love you guys so much. and i don't know where I'd be without you #probably dead. #💖 #vent

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

why is it that every time I'm really counting on my day off, it ends up being taken from me >.<

#my coworker who usually runs the fabric desk on tuesday evenings isn't able to come in today so they called to ask if I can cover #her shift #so it's just for about 4 hours #from the time our other coworker leaves till closing time #which... is ok. I was actually just trying to figure out yesterday how I could pad out my hours for this week and get closer to 40 #and taking this half-shift will put me riiiiiight *directly* at 40 #so now I'm gonna have to be super careful for the rest of the week not to go over the line and get into overtime :') #but I really *was* counting on having all of today off... like I really was looking forward to not having to worry about leaving the house #all day #:') I really ought to know better by now. #oh well. I have the opening shift tomorrow but we don't have bible study this week so at least I can count on having all of the afternoon #gurt says stuff #personal

[arthur-r]

need to poll my friends, does anybody drink black coffee like just coffee from inside of a coffee pot and you don’t put anything in it?

#haven’t tried black coffee since i was like ten and i hated it then and now i have mixed feelings #the biggest problem was that it is way too warm i am all burnt up now #that’s what milk is for really is just to drown out the heat turn it into a regular temperature beverage #anyway it tastes well enough and i guess the point of black coffee is it gets the job done #that being said caffeine usually makes me feel unwell so don’t ask me why i went for it today #pro tip if you don’t want to aggravate somebody’s heart problems don’t pour coffee near them when they’re sleeping #(‘‘sleeping’’ what i mean is eyes closed head on desk still perceiving things. not strong enough to wake me up from a dream or anything) #anyway if you pour coffee near me and i’m currently tired out of my mind i’m gonna ask to have some there’s no way around it #so um not my fault i was aided and abetted and i play no role in my own destruction #anyway i’m also feeling entirely fine shdhdf i’m nearly convinced it’s been a chocolate allergy this whole time #and if i stop drinking mochas then i’ll stop reacting cause it’s not the caffeine that’s the problem. we’ll find out soon #anyway who drinks this. do my friends drink this?? do my friends have tips on how to drink this #for example how do you make it not be warm but also not be filled up with milk #do you just blow on it. like an old man in a fable about a satyr who thinks humans are the strangest creatures #the taste is kind of epic honestly like it’s not good but it’s kind of good #at the very least it makes me feel like an old academic #anyway hi it’s senior skip day and i’m playing the system by showing up at the school building and skipping from here #shdhdf i’m gonna go to class from here on out though. just had to skip physics cause i never did the essay and i’m afraid of confrontation #that’s also not my fault because who assigns an essay in physics class???? i dont know this stuff well enough to write about it?? #although of course that’s the point of assigning an essay is to see if we know everything well enough to write about it shdhdf #so anyway i’m here to ask my friends who drink black coffee (if there are any) what do you do to help it cross the line to just being good? #cause right now it’s like good in several ways but it’s too warm and it tastes a little bit silly. i need pro tips for college #cause honestly i love the taste of coffee and like i said the chocolate might be the problem so i’m turning away from mochas #probably they’re both a problem. but let’s say i start drinking decaf black coffee. what do i do to make it incredible. please and thanks #shdhdf mostly i’m just checking in though. how is everybody? i really hope you are doing well!!!! #i’ll be around for a bit then heading to humanities class eventually i can’t skip on the teacher who invited me to her book club #also like. lunch. and like i said i have integrity now. gonna go to the rest of my classes #but so anyway i hope everybody is doing well!!!! let me know if you need anything!! listen to corrections by poolboy if you feel like it!! #me. my post. mine. #alright this is my last tag but i’ll be around. hope you are well and let me know!!

[hell0mega]

BUGS CW BUT I FUCKING HATE HATE HATE HATE FUCKING BUGS SO FUCKING MUCH I HAVE SO MUCH TRAUMA WITH THEM I WISH THEY WOULD ALL DIE I DONT CARE!!!!! I DON'T FUCKING CARE

I TRY SO FUCKING HARD TO NOT HAVE ANXIETY SURROUNDING BUGS AND THEY KEEP FUCKING PROVING ME WRONG

JUST SITTING AT MY DESK AND I FEEL A TICKLE ON MY HEEL, IMMEDIATELY THINK OH IT'S A BUG, BUT I TRY TO MANAGE MY FUCKING ANXIETY AND IGNORE IT, I FEEL IT A FEW MORE TIMES OVER THE NEXT COUPLE MINUTES AND FINALLY DECIDE TO VERY CASUALLY CHECK, LIKE OH IT'S JUST A TICKLE THEY HAPPEN ALL THE TIME IT'S NOT A BUG.

IT'S THE BIGGEST COCKROACH IVE EVER SEEN, IT'S LITERALLY 4 INCHES LONG. IT WAS TOUCHING ME!!!! IT WAS HANGING OUT BETWEEN MY FEET MAKING ME IGNORE IT BECAUSE I TRY NOT TO FREAK OUT AT EVERY FUCKING TICKLE I EVER FEEL BECAUSE AM INCLINED TO BUT IT'S NOT HEALTHY SO I DON'T

i yelled at it and this fucker has the GALL!!!! THE NERVE TO JUST CASUALLY WALK AROUND LIKE OH THANKS FOR MOVING YOUR FEET IM JUST GONNA LOOK AROUND

i got up and grabbed the Raid that's RIGHT ON THE COUNTER BECAUSE GIANT FUCKING COCKROACHES AND LITERALLY NOTHING ELSE GET IN MY THIRD FLOOR APARTMENT ALL THE TIME SOME FUCKING HOW, AND DOUSE THAT BITCH IN POISON. THAT MADE HIM RUN!!! SPRAYED HIM UNTIL HE FLIPPED OVER FUCKING DEAD LIKE THE PIECE OF SHIT THEY ARE

i grew up in a VERY buggy house, we were surrounded by trees and an acre of grass and old barns and my dad never finished the house so there was just holes to the goddamn outdoors fucking everywhere, we had bugs all the time and they would attack me, i got stung and bit A LOT and i suffered for NINETEEN YEARS OF THIS, we had flea infestations and wasps, FUCKING WASPS came in through the FUCKING AC VENTS ALL THE GODDAMN TIME, i fucking hate it i want to live on the fucking moon. i want to douse my entire house with bug poison and smelly essential oils that every bug hates and infest my yard with invasive mint, i do not care, i want them gone!!!!

do not come for me with environmental bullshit I KNOW!!!!! I KNOW THEY ARE ESSENTIAL TO THE ECOSYSTEM AND AGRICULTURAL PESTICIDES ARE RUINING WHATEVER BUT I DO 👏 NOT 👏 WANT 👏 THEM 👏 IN 👏 MY 👏 HOUSE 👏 THAT IS ALL I ASK!!!!! i don't GIVE A SHIT if it's "natural" or "they don't want to be there either" or "they're escaping the rain" or "you're the one invading their home" I COULDN'T CARE LESS!!!! i want to live in a steel box with ac and refined sugar and preservatives and the bugs can live outside of that. i can see them on walks in nature but god fuck i hate them so fucking much

#the other day a moth dive-bombed my desk and i got my bf to get it in a cup and we took it outside #I'm not evil. it's mostly roaches. #god i can NOT stop swatting at every fucking tickle i feel now #I'm laying down for going to bed cuz CAN'T SIT AT MY DESK NOW CAN I!!!! #and i just had a tickle on my neck that made me twitch at a weird angle and it's like i cricked it #I'm just gonna literally cry myself to sleep now that I'm done processing my anger #i took extra melatonin which might've been a mistake but i need all the help i can get to try to fall asleep right now #i won't tag anything cuz i don't want to like upset anyone who is looking for positive bug content

[mrsmarlasinger]

Falling asleep with hypoglycemia and waking up an hour later with Hypoglycemia But Worse because you didn't eat to fix it feels like waking up on the peak of a too-strong edible you took right before bed

#personal #i woke up so confused & didn't remember what was happening & felt like i'd blacked out for hours. anyway my health issues are getting worse #i had a medical crisis at work today. i was slurring my words and shaking violently and couldn't see and my leg was convulsing #and i had to clock out because i couldn't remember what i was doing and i was freezing and my mouth and hands were numb #my coworker asked if i was okay bc i looked pale and i could barely speak. and i mumbled 'i let my blood sugar get too low' #and they ALL whipped out SO much food & made me eat. so i had a nutrigrain bar with the boba i got from the place we ordered from for lunch #i was still sick and dizzy all day but i almost instantly felt better after i ate. i'd really thought i was gonna go unconscious #coworker jazz made me take her graham crackers to keep in my desk in case it happens again. i was so fucking mortified #we were talking later about how her eating habits are weird and she said she doesn't like people nagging her about it and i said #'that's why i just tell people i'm weird with food from the get-go. then they know Marla Is Weird With Food and leave me alone' #and my new (to me) coworker gabby—who i had to tell earlier that i Don't Eat—was like 'what do you mean weird w/food. like you're picky?' #and i was like '...........i have an eating disorder' (bc people share personal things at the office all the time. & it was obvious anyway) #and yeah it was awful. then i went home tonight and fell asleep and you know the rest #not my cutest girl moment‚ i must say #tonight i want to take a bath & have a drink & thus tank my blood sugar even more. and probably fuck up my liver or w/e even worse. slay #hypoglycemia #drug mention #disordered eating #disordered eating mention #disordered eating tw #tw disordered eating #ed tw #ed cw #tw ed #cw ed #ed mention #ana tw #ana cw #tw ana #cw ana