#whining tbh

[fursasaida]

I haven't been able to see properly or get a proper night's rest in two days, I no longer have COVID but I do feel like my insides were scraped out with a spoon, my jaw is fucked up enough now that it's affecting my speech and my ability to eat, and I have a piece of work that has to get done by wednesday before I have to start dealing with my mother. somehow I need to make the apartment less disgusting by then too. my radiator is shrieking like a theremin right now and buddy, same

#just jibbin' #whining tbh

[glitch-e-rat]

...i'm supposed to be recovering, why does it hurt more today?!

#glitch.bat #delete later #whining tbh #but also.......................... ow

[binghe-malewife-goals]

when you try to get back into the furry community or something like it to sell comms but the forums on the website u use don't allow u to link anything that violates their guidelines (like gore and nsfw) so you're just suffering and u rly don't wanna create a new account and get to know a whole new community all over again and chdnchfj

#why did my brain decide to be in the danmei fandom #idk about other ppl but i cant get shit commed here 😔 #agony pain #art commisions #whining tbh #i just want to make money and not feel like a failure to my family oke

[adustoflove]

Having bpd to me is like I'm the loneliest person on the planet, no matter how many people I talk to, no matter how many connections I make or have, I'm a lonely void who will die alone. I have to be talking to someone or with someone every second of every minute of every day. I love people so much, I need people. There's so many people out there with different things to teach you. And then, if I have to talk to one person for more than 6 seconds today, I'll kill them. I'll kill myself. I need to be left alone for the rest of the day, I need no one but myself to be happy. I don't want to partake in anything with anyone because it's all draining and taking out of my alone time. Everyone is the same, they're all boring and self-absorbed. Every conversation feels like I'm forcing myself to be actively present. I just want to be alone in my room with nothing or no one. I don't see a future where I'm happy with anyone other than being by myself.

#bpd #bpd vent #actually bpd #bpd thoughts #actually borderline #bpd splitting #lately I've just been slowly moving away from all my friends too #haven't spoken to anyone on insta for days despite usually talking to at least 2-3 friends every few days #irl sent me a video a week ago...never responded. I haven't even been feeling lonely really #I just KNOW when my period creeps up on me I'll be a whining sad piss baby who's openly pathetic about needing human connection #like I wish I just felt no need for it ever. it feels SO good to be alone and not have any obligations as a person #then the crippling loneliness of forever being alone seeps in when tbh I'm fine with it currently actually

[wachtelspinat]

i can't help but feel like my drawing days are kind of over. not entirely, i'll still be drawing from time to time. and deffo not because i want to. but i'm having this exact same feeling since mid 2022, since i was really struggling with my elective period, i kind of disconnected with art there and never truly found my way back. on top of everything that came after - moving, starting a job and working to be good at it which leaves such little room for other things because i can't handle my life well - there is just so much horrible shit going on. and i'm having a hard time comprehending it.

a part of me also feels very stupid for drawing one thing for almost 4 years now constantly, but another part of me knows "hey, but this makes you happy". it's a constant battle in my head because online spaces are like school grounds, and i don't actually wanna stand in the corner as that one kid that just can't shut up about that one character. but then again all i ever did was drawing fanart so... what does it. who gives a shit. be cringe and be free alright. but it kinda feels so hollow, esp. when you're at it for so long. a lot of mutuals move on. some are not even active anymore anywhere. and i wonder what happened. plus a huge chunk of the tone of the fandom has changed. also with the source material getting butchered so hard (since the release of ow2) it just kills the fun. playing this game used to be fun. playing this game was one thing that helped me getting through the last meters of university. it's like watching the downfall of the simpsons again without making the comparison too set in stone, just... this thing that used to be decent and nice and watching it getting ruined in real time (broken promises about pve, the recent gameplay changes?? the lore was fucked up from the start but they kind of tried, now it's just skins for 20+ dollars) while still having feelings for the characters is shit. anyway...

i recently went through a big folder of stuff i'd drawn at the age of 12-15 and there were so many fucked up but cool monster and cyborgs designs and just silly stupid stuff and all i could think of was that i felt so distanced from it, like i don't even know i think this is normal? because a lot of time has passed and a lot has happened and i knew i've drawn all this but i wasn't able to locate the person who did in my present me now and... it's just so normal that things move constantly forward but i feel like i missed huge chunks and passed a few stops and now i'm kind of lost.

i don't even know what i'm trying to say here anymore. i just feel sad because it feels like sth is slipping out of my grasp or sth has changed tremendously and i don't know how to make damage control.

i keep trying tho, i try to draw once a week at least. it's just like as soon as i take a step back and look at it i don't feel it at all. gonna continue tho, until it makes sense again i hope.

#this got a bit deep for saying i don't feel like art and i don't feel like it since 2022 #sorry for whining about this topic for so long already on here and twitter #but i've been drawing since 2004 and i can't deal with the feeling #of it slipping away #also ppl always recommend doing OCs or getting a new hyperfixation but #tbh i don't have the big brain powers for this #can't just switch or come up with sth new on the spot #esp with work #work is just very all consuming on so many lvls

[fairyofshampgyu]

Oh…i need him so bad. 😀!$$>>>€€>>!!€<<€*6!!€><€$€^#€$£!!€><HHHGH

#anyone else going crazy…lol #I dont think I’ll survive his actual variety show tbh #WHY IS HE SO HOT AND CUTE AT THE SAME TIME #IDK WHETHER I WANT TO FUCK HIM OR BE FUCKED 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 #when he like whines out hyung…yeah and he was like kinda whimpering…yeah #LMAO SOOBIN STRUGGLING #AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON TAEHYUN #WHY WERE THEY GROPING EACH OTHERS CHESTS #WHY CANT THAT BE ME #beomgyu !<3

[pennamepersona]

so there's a lot of uncertainty and debate on when phoenix actually started suspecting kristoph, if he ever trusted him, etc. and like I do get it. phoenix used to be a hell of a trusting guy, that's so real.

but he also constantly carries around a magic rock that detects lies, and I have to believe that the first time kristoph said smth about how he's so sorry this all happened, like 27 psychelocks slammed down

#ace attorney #aa #phoenix wright #aj aa #kristoph gavin #i know Phoenix is super trusting #and he wants to believe in people #but guys i really cannot fathom a reality where kristoph wouldn't constantly have psychelocks up #maybe not black from the start i could see that coming later #but liiiiiiiiiiiiike #Phoenix is a p smart dude with a literal magic rock #i think he was suspicious from very very early on #esp given how hard he went with valant and drew #bro was like i have a magatama no i will not be explaining #i am breaking the locks on your soul quit whining #no shot kristoph didn't have locks there's just no way in hell #and probably they did pop up for the first time over smth that should've been innocuous #which would be a pretty good reason for phoenix to not immediately chase down the answers #and tbh i think that would make him even more prone to bitterness #knowing it's the smart move to keep kristoph closeish and be friendly #but never to actively pry or get answers #that would drive my man phoenix to the BRINK

[poorlydrawnandroids]

Maybe they don’t need the “get along shirt”…? Maybe a get along separated play pen? You know :3 when you feed the animals on separate sides of a baby gate so they’re safe but get to know each other :3

“Separated play pen” //// “DPD holding cells”. Close enough, right?

Hank leaves them there for the weekend sometimes when he just wants to relax.

#dbh #detroit become human #connor #connor dbh #dbh nines #dbh sixty #rk bros #rk brothers #not sure how they keep falling for it tbh #actually i think hank tells Connor to get in and he’s like ‘ok :(’ #sixty is lured in thinking he can smash through the wall and get to Connor that way #he’s ambitious #nines honestly has the most minute bit of faith in his ability so #it doesn’t take much to convince him to stay #plus hank just wants to watch tv and nines makes this terrible ear-shattering whining sound when he wants to play video games #also Connor being in denial about Sixty #chronically #externship is going well though as a side note #5 more weeks to go :’)

[oathkeeper-of-tarth]

Also I quit my job of what would in about a month or two have been 10 years, and perhaps now I will get to actually be a human being again.

#honestly? honestly? #last week i told the two (2) godawful egomaniac lab head Man In Academia bosses i quit and that we need to formalise it asap and i just #felt like a little feather about to float away on a breeze #maybe now i can do normal people things like eat and sleep and have a routine of some sort idk #i have been slowly losing it for at least 3-4 years now #i took a screenshot and last year i had no fewer than 14 fucking travel orders fulfilled #most of which consisted of like 12+ hour days on ships and docks #i'm just so tired man #not for reblogging obviously #i don't really wanna vent anymore or ponder them and the entire godforsaken institution but like #good riddance tbh #which is really really sad when you think about it! but here we are #it was just... no trace of future anywhere to be seen! entirely a Void!! #gonna post a beefy lesbian paladin real quick to push this post down lmao #but i felt like sharing because i know there's good and concerned people who follow me here and i both appreciate and miss you all #and lord knows some of you have been listening to me vent and whine for ages #am i going to miss some great people and the research community of my field? of course but also it was all just completely unsustainable

[queerofthedagger]

Seeing good writers like you talk about that you hate your writing makes me feel awful ngl

Oof anon, you've got a lot to unpack there and while I'm generally going to assume good faith here, Imma start this off by saying that this is my blog, and you're very welcome (genuinely, not meant as snark) to block tags or unfollow me if things I say upset you this much.

Because the thing is, me whining in tags will not tell you the full story, and it's mostly for my own sake, and cuts the whole matter much shorter than it actually is. When I say "good god I hate everything I'm currently writing," I don't actually mean that my writing objectively sucks.

I know, rationally, that it doesn't. I know that I have a lot of room to grow and get better, but I also know that I've already learnt a lot and that I'm overall a decent writer. I know all that.

Writer's block is a little bitch, though. When I say 'God, I hate everything I'm currently writing,' what I actually mean is: my mental health has been a bitch and makes me struggle. Or, imposter syndrome is kicking my ass. Or, I'm stressed in X other areas of my life and it manifests in being too harsh on myself. Or, I'm currently about to make some developmental progress-jump in my writing skills, but I'm not quite there yet, so I can kind of see what I'd like to do better but can't quite execute it yet. Which are only the most likely four options, not accounting for various other things my brain gremlins could be doing. None of those are like, things I'll put in a tag ramble when I'm basically whining to myself because like, I know what I mean, and also, as much as I rationally know my writing isn't actually shit, sometimes it helps to be a dramatic lil bitch fainting over my couch about it until I get fed up with my own dramatics.

It's not a qualitative statement. But also, that aside, if I may give you one single piece of advice amongst all this navel-gazing: the best thing, and i mean the absolute best thing, you can do for yourself if you want to not hate your writing? Stop comparing yourself to other writers. I know that gets thrown around a lot, and I know it sounds so much easier than it is, but it also really is the only way to stop tearing yourself apart constantly (instead of, you know, every once in a while due to aforementioned possible other reasons). Like, ultimately, the only way to become better is to keep writing. It's never a completed process either. It's kind of nice, actually, even if it's also annoying as all fuck every once in a while.

#answered asks #anonymous #mona rambles #i have a lot of feelings about this tbh #there is also a line between whining and being genuinely self-deprecating and I'm usually careful to avoid the latter #but also as said. this is my blog and i'm not going to question everything I put in some random post's tags #and also also. what constitutes as good writing is so utterly subjective #there is writing you could not pay me to read that people adore #there is writing i love that other people can't get into for the life of them #like just. hmm yeah #anyway #not sure this is helpful really but alas

[starry-heavens]

Possibly unpopular opinion based on a post I've seen on a blog here on tumblr: I really don't think it's that difficult to draw sky characters (spirits, elders, skykids) with their canonical skin color. It's not hard to have a POC oc. Or to color your oc with dark skin. Sure the shading may be a bit tricky to pull off (at least for me it is), but it's not difficult to learn how to do it.

I say all this as a non-POC who has a POC Sky oc.

#sky children of the light #that sky game #skyblr #unpopular opinion #opinions #this is directed at people who are whining about how having a poc oc while they themselves are not a poc is 'hard' #and while i do believe everyone has the right to draw their own skykid to their interpretation....at least draw the spirits & elders as poc #its always bothered me seeing light skinned fanart of sky characters tbh

[fursasaida]

oh jesus i have messed up my meds so many times over the past three days out of general mental exhaustion that my body is in full revolt and i can't find half my goddamn compression tights

#unreal how big a role my mom and aunt visiting on the weekend plays in this situation #whining tbh

[glitch-e-rat]

Trying Not To Turn Into The Biggest Bitch In The World Right Now [Overstimulated]

#glitch.bat #whining tbh #all the text on my screen is blurry because of this #:/

[happyk44]

Zeus: I think it's time for Father to be released from Tartarus.

Hades: You want me to release the man who ate me and our other siblings as babies from the jail we put him in because he ate us.

Hades: Are you fucking stupid?

#zeus then whines to hera about hades calling him stupid and w/ the context of WHY hera kicks him in the dick 💙 #happy talks greek mythos #no i truly don't understand why this would ever be a version tbh #like yeah we're just gonna waltz down into hades' basement and free the guy who ate my siblings. for apparently no reason? #like im googling why did he do this and can't find a reason other than mercy. sir no. free the others if you have to. keep that one in jail #zeus #hades

[frosty-tian]

BoulGram Angst Idea.:

So holoforms are some form of physical projections/holograms with the user’s consciousness transferred into it.

One day while the bots were using their holoforms during a rescue (or some other freak accident happened), Boulder was gravely injured.

Everyone else is either panicking or trying to stay calm, after all, the only thing which needs to be done is to transfer the consciousness back into the unharmed/original body.

There’s the chance the consciousness doesn’t make it back into the body in time, but it’s really slim. Unfortunately he happened to fall under that minority.

His vehicle mode still works, but that’s it. He’s only a vehicle.

Every time Graham goes on patrol, it would only be him. The screen, other than when he receives calls from his family, would remain turned off/black.

Boulder is there, yet not.

And he feels the void. He misses the chatters and numerous nerdy conversations, he misses when Boulder rambled to him about his newest art ideas or what he learnt about nature. He misses when they would discuss plans and finish each other’s sentences off. He misses being called and calling the gentle soul buddy. He misses the gentle voice. Needless to say, even if he eventually got used to the silence, it would never be the same and he would stay so heartbroken.

#rescue bots #transformers rescue bots #transformers #maccadam #graham burns #rb graham #rb boulder #tfrb boulder #boulgram #human x alien #couple #frosty babbles #tbh this could work with any human x cybertronian relationships #I imagine Kade never thought he would miss bickering with the hot-head #and Dani hearing whines about flying to high altitudes #then Chief with terrible attempts at jokes his partner would sometimes say out of the blue #I’m aware they only said the consciousness is likely ‘heavily damaged’ if it doesn’t return to the body in time #but hey let’s twist the angst knob up a notch

[praetorqueenreyna]

You're telling me that Tamlin showed up and saved Feyre's raggedy traitor ass completely unprompted midway through ACOWAR and ppl still have the NERVE to say he is irredeemable???

#acotar #THE NERVE OF SOME PEOPLE #I was checking out briar's page on the acotar wiki and found THIS #bc tamlin is such a stellar dude that he'll swoop in and save the day #even for RATS like feyre and az #I think tamlin haters are so salty bc they KNOW all their faves would be dead if not for tamlin <3 #you can whine and cry about how much he sucks but at the end of the day #feyre? az? rhys? DEAD WITHOUT TAMLIN #also what a fucking hero #throwing himself in the way of DOZENS OF BEASTS #to save 2 people who have treated him so terribly #I love him so much <3 #tbh he should have let those bitches die #but he WOULDNT and that's precisely why I love him