#while also being absolutely terrifying

[bonefall]

I’m rereading Po3 and despite its flaws I really enjoyed the introduction to the three. Jaykit isn’t mentioned to be blind in the first few chapters and instead they chose to show how much MORE capable he is compared to his littermates; until at the end of chapter 3, he brings up his blindness on his own. It makes forcing him to be a medicine cat SO much more frustrating because it really feels like they’re setting him up to be a warrior and choose his own fate (note i haven’t finished the reread this is just my first impression)

I like how you seem to take that path in BB regardless! It makes his arc so much more enjoyable

His arc in canon is super frustrating because he's such an independent character who clearly wants to make his own decisions in life, but then he just gets shoved into the medcat den. I LIKE that he ultimately goes there and that he enjoys it; but it was still really fucked up that they stripped away his autonomy in the process.

Re: they are not real, they are writing choices. Taking away the choices a disabled character can make over their own life, forcing them into a celibate nun role, and then going "awwwww dont worry see? he likes it! This was the best thing for him :)" was fucked up.

And imo it didn't have to be that way! You wouldn't have to go the FULL route I did with big changes, he could just be more involved in the descision to stop being a warrior apprentice and it would be fine. Minor change that would make a world of difference.

I do also have to interject to say though... blindness should really not be an extremely severe impairment for a ThunderClan cat.

I'm dead serious.

Whiskers are built-in sensors that tell you the exact position of everything within several inches of your head, ears swerve to pick up sound, and the jacobson's organ provides a sense of smell so keen that I have an entire Clanmew expansion draft because I needed to make WORDS describing the power of this sense that humans do not have. I cannot stress enough how delicate their other senses are, felines do not rely on their sight like primates do

ThunderClan lives in a mixed-oak woodland, where sight is already often obscured by foliage, objects are close together (for whiskers to feel), and nearly every movement makes noise against the leaf litter. RiverClan and (moor-running) WindClan cats would have a harder time with this disability than Thunder or Shadow.

Cat sight SUCKS to begin with. It sucks BADDD. They don't have color vision, they're significantly nearsighted, and they can't track up-and-down movements well. WC doesn't write realistic cats (more like small fuzzy people really) and I also work with more humanesque eyesight, but the only thing Jay should really lose is an ability to rapidly track a small animal swerving fast. Blind cats are often still excellent hunters in spite of that!

So it's an extra big waste that they railroaded him into a position he didn't choose, saying he couldn't be a warrior. This is the perfect disability to write, if you want to explore how ableism can impact the characters in this society who ARE legitimately still capable of nearly full independence, but still need to find accommodations for what they can't do.

In the same arc they're doing the dumb Cinder Reincarnation Plotline, no less!! Where SHE is also feeling like she has no choice over her "destiny," and gets a conflict over a potentially disabling injury

"Oh nooo if cinderpaw breaks her leg she wont be a warrior!"

"What the f-- Im Jaypaw and im reporting live from the scene where a Category 1 Idiot Moment is taking place. Woman breaks leg, suddenly everyone believes she is a horse, more at 11."

One of these days I should really make "herb guides" just covering how various sensory disabilities impact the lives of Clan cats and some tips for writing them as warriors, especially between Clans. Stuff you wouldn't usually consider, like how much noise deaf cats tend to make, how RiverClan would get a ton of sinus infections and lose their sense of smell, being blind in Sky vs Thunder, etc.

#I once saw someone say offhandedly 'well what if someone snuck up on jay from behind and attacked him. No whiskers there' #NEWSFLASH! YOU ALSO DONT HAVE EYES IN THE BACK OF YOUR HEAD #He doesn't have short whiskers either they're normally sized #Something like 4 - 5 inches on a cat like him. About double the size of the head foward and sideways #Once you're talking about close combat like the cats usually do there's no way that you can stay back far enough to avoid them #I want to rewrite owl and jay's fight or make a rematch where jay realizes owl is being a coward #Hanging just out of his range and jabbing at him #But once he realizes it's just a coward's strategy it clicks that the counter is to be aggressive #And not let his opponent out of his 'range' #Also give him a neat little scene where they're grappling next to Black's dam project where it's super muddy #And Jay is like 'YOU WANT TO PLAY DIRTY? LETS GET FILTHY' and dunks Owl's face down into the mud #Because Jay can fight without his sight but Owl doesn't know how to continue while there's stinging gunk in his eyes and nose #I like thinking about what I'm going to do for BB!Jay's matches because his fighting style is really fun to write #1. Be aggressive and proactive 2. Don't let them out of range 3. SCARE THEM #From the Mud Match he learns that the best way to end a fight quickly is to absolutely terrify them #Because they're usually not expecting the fight to be difficult nor are they expecting to feel like theyre in danger #So if you surprise them it breaks their willpower real fast #And as he gains a reputation for brutality he faces less opponents until he's practically known as the Cleric Without Mercy #Bone babble

[faeymouse]

HAHAA WHY IS TRON SO SCARY IN “THE STRANGER”?

Able, after finding Tron standing ominously in his dark office: You’re running out of time.

Tron, the camera zoomed in on his face while scary music plays: I’m running out of patience.

#babbles #tron uprising #tron #able (tron) #once again able isnt phased at all lmao #also love that tron is happy to risk getting caught because beck is missing #while also being absolutely terrifying like sir stop being in your villain era for a hot sec

[yioh]

i can’t be the only one who rly does not like furina’s design😭

#not as bad as nahida (that’s a low bar💀) but … idk… she looks so average #i think she just looks rly basic?? like the hair the dress etc there’s nothing that stands out other then the colour scheme of blue and #white and the crown on her head #which is rly boring #i wish they could have more stranger looking outfits and hair styles and accessories #to rly emphasise the gap between archons and others #ningguang’s design has more personality then furina and she’s a 4 star😭 #also her being the hydro archon.. highkey wanted something prettier😭 #1000% not an archon worthy design imo #venti and zhongli’s designs fit so beautifully w their archon concepts #i love ei’s design too it can be soft and gentle but she also has a terrifying and strong presence #itd be perfect if they didn’t try to sexualise the kimono #but it has Personality yknow she is giving godhood lol #furina is absolutely not 😭 #i think it’s the shorts … why are they so short… it’s so ugly and plain…. #the hair looks ugly to me but i think i would like it more if her outfit matched the vibe of her hair? #like her hair is very elegant but her outfit is just so casual and plain… #especially from the front #so it makes her head look freaking giant while she has a tiny body #she looks kinda disproportionate #genshin archons be so disappointing these days😭 #but ppl always seem to love them ???? #she rly does just look like any other girl #like you could slap her in any gacha game regardless of the concept and it could work because it’s just that basic of a design😭

[audreywritesfantasy]

A character from DE I barely see anyone mention is The Pigs even though the scene where you go talk to her is genuinely one of the rawest in the entire game to me. It completely shattered my heart. To see behind the façade of “strange lady cosplaying as a cop in an abandoned fish market” and realise why she become like that. To see the mental illness and the loneliness and the abandon. When she starts crying and asking why no one ever visits her anymore. I’m starting to tear up just thinking about it. About the loneliness that dementia and age drags with it. It’s such a deep, human dilemma, and I feel like it barely ever gets shown in media.

#technically I'm supposed to be editing my book right now but the elysium is discoing too hard in my brain right now #but I genuinely can't stop thinking about her and her pain #also I'm absolutely terrified of being alone while old I can barely even deal with it while in my 30s rip #disco elysium #mine

[here-there-were-dragons]

every time i think the "staff can do no wrong and any form of complaining or expressing literally anything other than "yaaay love it <3" with no further comments is bashing and literally evil we should never say anything that could even potentially be interpreted as mildly critical ever because ~some artist who worked hard on this is probably reading the forums and might feel bad if we ever express anything but praise~ also we must be constantly positive at all times unless we're passive-aggressively shaming someone for having an extremely polite and apologetically worded criticism and if you ask the staff for literally anything you had better be prepared to preface it with 3 paragraphs of apologizing for breathing air" attitude is bad on tumblr, i take one look at the forums, and holy fucking hell is it SO much worse on site

#i go for years at a time without ever bothering to look at fr forums #and then every time i do i remember why i stopped #it feels like a goddamned cult on there and every time i dip my toes i come out feeling slimy and sick #as if i just spent an hour being aggressively gaslit by my extremely manipulative grandmother #what the fuck is wrong with everyone #i'm glad i decided to keep this creepy fucking fandom at arm's length and mostly just lurk years ago #that place is not a healthy environment for anyone to be in #flight rising #legitimately the single worst fandom i've ever had the misfortune of being adjacent to #and in such a creepy and insidious way too #they'll call you an entitled whiny baby to your face and then convince you it's your fault and you're a horrible person for feeling offende #it feels like being neck deep in the absolute worst kind of preformative sj spaces #you know the ones where everyone interacts primarily via callout posts and there's discourse over if crossdressing is cultural appropriatio #that kind of toxic sj space type energy #but somehow combined with like this weird feeling of being in a mormon church in a deep south town #where all the “nice grandmas” will try to put poison in your food if they find out you're gay or voted blue even one time #and it's somehow gotten SO much worse since the last time i looked on there #they've got people literally apologizing for existing what the fuck how is this normal to any of you people #this is so far beyond toxic positivity it's like. crossbred with passive-aggression and shaming and metastatized into something new entirel #it's terrifying. i hope flight rising never shuts down just so that whatever the fuck this is can stay semi-contained. #pro tip: the more a fandom is universally convinced it's Wonderful and Welcoming the faster you should run the other way #actually good fandoms don't have to constantly reassure themselves and everyone that they're great and perfect and toxicity-free #nor do they react with immediate borderline violence to the slightest suggestion there might be anything wrong with the fandom culture #anything wrong other than “people like you who think there's something wrong with our perfect community” anyway #on that note also any fandom that insistently calls itself a “community” just. yeah. no. #get out while you still can. #fandoms work on corporate logic if they're trying to convince you they're your family or friend that's not just a red flag #that's a whole damn red fabric store

[arrowpunk]

I need to make more artist friends for my health and wellbeing but I don't ever wanna come off as parasocial or only wanting to befriend someone just because I like their art

Do you see my problem here

#ramblings of an arrow #all the artists I would like to befriend are also ppl who like seem like genuinely neat ppl #based on what ive seen from their non art posts as well #but I dont want to be weird!!! #so I just sit here #it doesnt help that like if I enjoy an artist my brain just assumes they must be like super popular #and obviously therefore would be weirded out by some random follower being like hi i like ur shit also u seem cool #what if we chatted so so casually while we vibed each other out and mayhaps became friends #it also does not help that I have been on the recieving end of being the cool artist someone wants to befriend because they want free shit #and like I WOULD NEVER DO THAY #but I understand the fear on a visceral level #it fucking SUCKS to become friends with someone only to realize down the line they were just using you #for art or clout or whatever #it sucks so much #which is why I am always terrified of coming off that way lolllllll #and like the 2 biggest offenders used me because they knew I was a good storyteller and wanted me to run DnD for them #and then absolutely wrecked those games #and most of my favorite artists are ttrpg artists #so im just sittingggg hereeeee #not wanting anyone to ever think i would do that #pls I just enjoy and appreciate other ppls art and characters #but in a normal way where I dont feel entitled to anyone elses creativity or energy #anyways I am making up problems in my own mind I know this

[toast-notcooked]

cant tell if i feel sick because i took that test earlier and the nausea hasnt gone away or if i feel sick because my blood sugars have been out of whack all week or if i feel sick from anxiety or if its all of the above

#toast poast #covid tests make me gag and any time im even slightly nauseous it fucks me up for a while #so it could just be my body being mad about that #and tbf the anxiety could also be related to that #bc nausea is a bit of an iffy thing for me mentally still after going into DKA a few years ago #but i also have been trying to work out my financial plans from now until payday lmao #so that absolutely spiked my anxiety #theres no real issue with my finances im just always terrified of them when im not right about to be paid #and covid fucking with my blood sugars all week means being just barely in the top end of in range feels low rn #its great fun #i hate it here

[ajdrawshq]

bored n my back hurts. look at my notepad jokers

#context is i was making a chart thing w the various types of characterizations i see ppl give him n decided to draw some sillies for it #but gave up halfway so these 2 are the only ones in there #theyre both in the 'pathetic' category . which is my favorite #like canonically he is very capable of being both cool as fuck and. not. but i think its fun when ppl make him an absolute mess #sure he can make some of the sickest grappling hook jumps youll ever see but he is also a bit of a dumbass and very much a 16 year old #n while he does excel in being a leader n doing what he does he shouldnt like. Have to. yknow #all the stuff right before his interrogation is already fucked up n the mementos depths up to yaldabaoth is legit terrifying #the game makes it seem like he takes most of it in stride like its barely a big deal but like. cmon man thats just not ok #. this wasnt meant to be a tag rant hes just a silly little guy to me. but also i need him to cry #p5

[i-dreamed-i-had-a-son]

Thinking again about the line "I am what you made me" and how it's an example of really thoughtful and quality writing despite what angry fanboys might say because it simultaneously means "You cut me down and watched me burn and left me to die. You did this to me. You made me," and "You and the Jedi Council restricted me and suspected me and failed me and called it teaching. I am who you trained me to become. You made me." It's an attack on Obi-Wan on every front, reinforcing every aspect of his guilt, and beyond that demonstrates to Obi-Wan and the audience that Vader takes absolutely no accountability for his own actions. It's an incredibly clear picture of the depth of the hatred Vader has for Obi-Wan, and all it took was six words. That is how you write.

#kenobi series spoilers #kenobi series #obi wan kenobi #meta #anakin skywalker #star wars #and then i could go into why it's so perfect that the only thing obi-wan could say is 'what have you become?' #he's never seen vader in this form before--this terrifying spectre of death who is so utterly evil even in appearance #this stiffer more brutal robotic being who kills without question and without any purpose beyond causing pain #who still somehow feels exactly as obi-wan remembers. who is still *anakin* but yet is so utterly not #and how obi-wan doesn't know what vader has done or even what he's capable of. he didn't know he was even alive #he's entirely in the dark and is terrified to learn what horrors vader has inflicted on the universe #horrors that are obi-wan's fault. vader is an instrument of terror that obi-wan created #so that lack of knowledge and absolute dread of what vader has done and what he will do make obi-wan ask 'what have you become?' #while simultaneously he also is asking 'how have you fallen so far? how could you who i once knew so well now be so unrecognizable?' #'what have you become' instead of 'what have you done.' not merely doing evil but becoming it #'what have you become' instead of 'who.' not only is he someone obi-wan doesn't know he has become something less than human #and obi-wan can't say anything else because beyond the fear and the exhaustion he is once again devastated by anakin's fall #it's the mourning for lost potential. for lost goodness. for lost intimacy and friendship and love twisted into vile and bitter hatred #a recognition and a reminder of everything that was as well as a despairing denouncement of everything that is #all of that in four words. and the equally devastating response takes only two more. these are men who know how to hurt each other #and that kind of knowledge can only come because they once knew how to love each other just as deeply as they now wound each other. #everything they do is so wrapped up in everything that came before and it is one massive and neverending explosion of agony #because most of all--vader hates every fiber of obi-wan's being. but he can tell in obi-wan's words that obi-wan still loves him #nothing is more painful than hatred met with love. #quality meta seal of approval #my meta posts #kay can i just catch my breath for a second #kay has a party in the tags #the tragedy of darth vader

[everywhere-all-around-the-world]

screaming crying throwing up not the skz comeback tracklist AND the txt comeback preview both coming out today i am being FED

#benefits of being a staymoa: exhibit a #HWFEBWIEF IM SO EXCITED #also i dont think i talked about the skz comeback vid with the clowns and stuff here yet #let it be known. i am very hyped about that #chanlix voiceover was um. BEAUTIFULr #like chan sounding absolutely unhinged and deranged while lix is so creepily calm #the ANxiEtY. iS sOmeThiNG wE CREATE OURSELVES #obsessed. #that whole vid made me feel terrified in that uncanny the stanley parable energy kind of way #and also incredibly excited #im very hyped #if you can't tell #ALSO ALL THE TXT COMEBACK SONG PREVIEWS SOUND SO COOL #JHFBIWUE

[alishasnoidea]

ok you know that feeling of when you're the only dumb person in a room full of scholars.

that's gonna be every single fricking day for me now.

great 😩

#am i happy i'm surrounded by the smartest people? yes! absolutely #but i'm also terrified of being behind while everyone else is lighyears ahead #i'm so scared

[bumblingbabooshka]

Janeway really said “I’m gonna hunt him down no matter what the cost. No matter how long it takes. If you wanna call that a vendetta-” like ma’am you KNOW that’s a vendetta there’s no IF

#watching equinox and I love when Janeway gets to have a BIIIIIIG gun too big for #Also...can we take a moment and talk about the Equinox's first officers voice??? My GOD....why is his VOICE handsome?? #also those shots of them going around the ruined Equinox ship in part one were SO cool...the ravaged ship and the bodies lying all over !! #their idiot evil emh still trying to look after his morally bankrupt crew...-pats his bald head- #Humans WOULD take good luck spirits from an alien culture and slaughter them to make their ship go faster that's just such a human move :/ #specifically a...........no I shan't say it #livetweeting #I lovelovelove villains who are sympathetic while also being absolutely in the wrong #Like I feel so fucking bad for this crew of people running on fumes terrified out of their minds in this impossible situation they didn't #ask for or seek out (they were even worse off than Voyager being just a short term science vessel and losing half their crew IMMEDIATELY) #with their only entertainment being looking at interactive pictures of alien landscapes (with no people in them) but also they're killing #sentient lifeforms - aliens - people. & they're doing it with some remorse but not enough remorse to actually ever stop #Their black science officer dude ALSO has a handsome voice!!!! Just have those two at the helm when talking to aliens and I bet your luck #would turn around Ransome #EHEHHEHEHE Guy: That'd be murder #Janeway: You could call it poetic justice <- notably still murder #YEESSSS JANEWAY'S DOING ACTION villain LINES AGAIN!!!! #'We all make our own hell mr Lessing....I hope you enjoy yours.' #This episode is LITERALLY mirrorverse Janeway and it's just canon Janeway #Women DO contain multitudes! (the capacity to condone and commit heinous acts of torture when it satisfies a personal vendetta) #Janeway's literally SO pissed that Chakotay wouldn't let her torture a guy hehe my GOD... #she's SEETHING #SHE LITERALLY RELEIVED HIM OF DUTY BC HE HAD MORALS #Kathryn really walked off like it was a serve 'I was about to ask you the same question...' GIRL YOU ALMOST TORTURE-KILLED A GUY #HEHEH HE /SAVED/ HIM #Janeway said 'you not rocking with me??? I'm going to kill one hostage upon the hour.' #Also for some reason Seven & The Doctor singing Clementine is making me want to cry

[soulsxng]

“Everyone can pick me up so easily, what’s up with that, huh? Well, at least I have you two!”

“Uh. Except I can pick you up? Here, see?”

“W-wait, since when? You haven’t always been able to do that...! Or maybe you have? You’ve never really had an excuse to pick me up before now, but--”

“Seffie! Seffie, I can pick you up too!”

And before the horseman could even protest, the gravity in the space around them changed. Annie running over to “lift” Sef with the brightest and most smug smile they’d ever seen.

“...Th-that was amazing Annie! But I also think I might have to go cry a little now...”

#[Death -threads-] #[Alkaid -threads-] #[Antares -threads-] #Sef: I'M NOT EVEN THAT SMALL!!!! #(I was thinking about how it's funny that so many people are absolutely terrified of Sef #'oh no it's the horseman of death they're so violent and unpredictable--' #and then literally any of Sef's friends and loved ones whenever they're being a menace #just scooping them up like a sack of potatoes while they laugh maniacally #also #of course Annie has to get competitive because Alki did it first asdlkfna)

[lobpoints]

Thinking about the fact that A LOT of lor characters will feel underwhelming if you only look at them through solely the main story while the tibid that actually recontextualize their characters are contained in their personalized song and book or if they are unlucky in some obscure interview or buried under 400 pages artbook and side stories

#thinking about PM revealed that the device Argalia wore is a sound emitter that constantly playing white noises or sound of the crowds #because he is terrified of absolute silence and darkness which then linking to his backstory of him being used as a lab rat #when he was a kid #and most of these info arent in the main story since we literally dont need to care for those detail in the main story #or Moirai dislikes being alone and being isolated while her entire career forcing her to be isolated and alone #or just literally Roland's gloves in the main story used to be Angelica and how Angelica was the Black Silence #the Pianist also has an entire written story for them but lost in the sauce in the broken website and lost translation #also the detail of the Smoke War is orchestrated through Benjamin (and Dias) is revealed in DD #or Carmen is the one ordering and putting out criteria to specifically hiring mentally ill people to experiment on them #being revealed in some 2019 QnA

[bigboysteveharrington]

I was thinking about the one shot I’m probably going to write to give more context about information I know that wouldn’t come up in Steve or Eddie’s pov when we get to a certain point of The Things in Life That I Can’t Find

But then I was thinking about all the other related information I have outside of Steve and Eddie’s perspectives and now suddenly I am very close to starting an also multi-chapter fic that takes place in the same world and same time frame that focuses on the Hopper-Byers family side and is possibly just Will’s pov but more likely switching between his and El’s with context on what’s going on with their family and them navigating their dynamic with Will the protective brother but also bitter and jealous of her getting so much attention out of Mike

And the platonic dynamics are what’s making me want to write it, but it would also potentially have El realizing that what she feels for Mike is closer to the way she feels about Will than the way Will feels about Mike with some eventual Byler

And there might eventually be a Ronance one too, but I have to get far enough in the main fic for certain information to come out before I can do that

#Spoilers for future chapters I guess but #Will being her safety blanket while she’s pretending everything’s fine and she’s not terrified to start school and potentially be treated #the same way when she’s able to actually start school and be out of the house is the one shot that started this #But also details before that of how El’s going to end up out of the house before that thanks to Will talking too much about Eddie and #Jonathan complaining about Eddie trying to drag him to see his band and not understanding why while El’s like yeah well at least you get to #go I just have to sit here and here about how great it is and how Max was there and how much fun everyone else is having that leads to #Jonathan talking Hopper into letting him take her just to the Hideaway for one night if he doesn’t let her out of his sight and brings her #right back after (but spoiler alert: Hopper’s showing up there pretending like oh he was going to bring Joyce there #on a date anyway like ten minutes after Jonathan and El and Will show up together anyway and he convinced absolutely no one) #At this rate watch me write a Ronance centered version of it too because I sure know plenty about that side of things too #But I have to wait until after the main fic gets to a certain point so that something can be known before we get their povs #Some burns are going to be slower than others and if I do end up doing Byler it would be the slowest #Jargyle will be the fastest and Argyle hasn’t even shown up yet #Mine

[haunted-house-heart]

living with someone with untreated mental illness is like. i understand why you're like this and i do empathize but also like. jesus fucking christ get some help before i throttle you i stg

#i hate my sis so much. like i get it. i really do. a lot of how she acts is due to mental illness and trauma but at the same time she also #just really shitty. like ik recovery is different for everyone and you move at your own pace but she just. isnt recovering at all it seems #like its been 6yrs since we got out and my mom and i have worked really hard on getting better and changing our behaviors #all the while shes just getting worse and worse to be around. like shes legitimatrly turning into my (abusive) father #its terrifying honestly but we cant do anything about it bc you cant talk to her #you say like ''hey this thing you did upset me can you please try to not do that again'' not angry or anything and she starts crying and #yelling bc youre triggering her and its not fair and nobody loves her and like. i get that some people cry a lot and thats fine! i get that #but its literally impossible to talk to her about anything bc she acts like shes the victim and youre fuckin evil for telling her to please #not put her dirty clothes on my shelf i dont like that please. like thats not an unreasonable request and im not being mean about it! but #im the bad guy for doing anything that critisises her. #and she treats my mom like shit. like i could deal w her being a bitch to me but to momma? fuck no. #i dont believe you owe your parents shit but my mom has been a fucking saint when life dealt her a hand that shouldve made her a devil #she did her absolute best and *she* was the one that sacrificed everything to get us out #and my sister treats her like shes an incapable selfish idiot. #and she never lets me talk. shell talk for an hour about smth she knows i dont care about but when i try to tell her like. hey my fav band #is putting out a new album or smth im real excited about. she gets on her phone and just ignores me. #and she KNOWS this triggers me badly its made me suicidal before and yknow what happened then? i had to apologize for making HER feel bad #she talks over both of us but it you start talking when she was THINKING about talking she has a fit #and she actively tries to gaslight my mom. like im dead fuckin serious my mom has to ask me if smth really happened bc my sis told her it #did/didnt and she has to get me to confirm the truth for her #and she treats her pets like crap she should not be allowed to have pets bc she just loses interest in them and stops taking care of them #and we have to pick up the slack #its literally just like being with my dad again. walking on eggshells all the time #my mom cant watch tv at night bc ellie gets pissed at her for ''waking her up''. even tho she claims she never sleeps. #i hate her so so much i want to punch her i want her to move out i want to never ever see her again #but rn we cant afford to live on our own. so we have to stay with her #anyway. #vent #tw abuse