#which looks most akin to the photograph i got from leeds castle and i Think!!! i have finally made one!!!!!!! which is the one i used to

[sneez]

[breaks down your door and throws this directly at your head (affectionately) with the force of a cannonball] HAVE YOU SEEN HIM

#fairfax #ghost post #HAST SEEN MY FATHER????????? HAST #look at him. look at him. foaming at the mouth (me not him. although he had so many illnesses maybe he had rabies also) #ANYWAY moving on from rabies #LOOK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #i know i have posted one of these video things before with a previous portrait BUT!!!! ooh it's been so exciting on my private twitter this #week because i emailed leeds castle ages ago asking if they had any better images of my favourite fairfax portrait (the one in my icon) #because the only image i had was slightly out of focus and i thought they had forgotten but then they emailed back on wednesday!!!!!! with a #PHOTOGRAPH of the portrait!!!!!!!! (it's in their collection that's why i emailed) #anyway it's not the best picture because it turns out the portrait is Extremely Grubby these days. i have no idea how he got so dirty but #i do not mind because the Main reason i am so excited about it is that it lets me compare various pictures i have of the portrait to see #which is the most accurate and un-distorted by bad quality photography #so i have spent the past few days mashing a bunch of pictures of the miniature together and layering them on top of each other to make one #which looks most akin to the photograph i got from leeds castle and i Think!!! i have finally made one!!!!!!! which is the one i used to #make this video :-D (or myheritage dot com did at least) #it uses three or four (or five i forget) different portraits at different opacities and i think it's the closest image i have to the #original which is SO EXCITING because the picture i had before was a bit wonky so his face was a slightly different shape and his expression #was marginally different #anyway the reason i care so much is because this particular portrait (as i have mentioned previously) apparently looked a lot like him #according to contemporaries and captured his likeness very well!!! so when i look at it i feel like i am seeing Him. i am seeing his Real #Face #i have since changed my icon to the new image i have :-D i doubt anyone noticed because the differences are very subtle. well not to me #but i have spent so many hours looking at this portrait that that is hardly surprising i think #i sent the picture i got from leeds castle to the family group chat and my parents were like oooo what a handsome fella which made me #Very Very Happy. he is handsome!!! and he has the kindest eyes imaginable i cannot fathom how gentle he looks #maybe that is just me projecting but he looks so kind to me. big tired stressed kind man #although he looks very small in this portrait i think. small tired stressed kind man #ANYWAY i will stop now i am supposed to be writing my essay!!! i love you all so much kiss kiss (fall in love)