#which is Not Fun

[cutiecorner]

What if I crowdfunded a care package for myself because this month is the suck

#march is the month ever for me #my and my friends birthdays (yay!) #but also exams and the day my mom passed away #which is not fun #and kinda gets my whole month so #AND i need my meds readjusted but don't have an appointment till the end of the month :") #so #yeah this month is the suck #sorry if things are slow for a bit #death tw #negative #ask to tag

[a-very-fond-farewell]

tried to take a day off from writing. still woke up at 5am. let’s write then 😈🔥

#sneaky niki #lamb loose liveblogging #I wanted to take a day off.. but my brain is now accustomed to wake up at 5 I guess?? #that’s so not fetch of me #topic of the day is: #I’m pissed bc I had to make a sensible decision and move a plot point a few chapters down the line #which is not fun #but feels more organic #judging by the way I’m keeping steady on this fic I think it will reach 300k #that’s a rough estimate #maybe 280k if I’m being generous instead of acting like a sadistic prick #but that’s just a theory #HDS is making it extremely hard for me to keep a steady pacing too #for example. recently he’s been giving me headache after headache about his growing sense of paranoia #he knows he isn’t sleeping enough #he knows he’s stressed af #the only reason why he has to trust one or two people in his life is bc he will turn absolutely insane if he doesn’t #and this is not me shaming #I remember how I was at my most paranoid during a prolonged episode #trust me. that ain’t fun #but he’s starting to hear things. that’s concerning. that’s suspicious. he needs help #but as usual. he refuses to acknowledge his limitations #also. attic-wifing your nemesis maybe isn’t a safe starting point to discuss with a trained professional during therapy #do criminals go to therapy? #I mean. not convicted ones. I do believe it’s part of their reintegration program. good for them #but like.. sneaky criminals? big fish evading taxes? one inconspicuous attorney holding his amnesiac crush hostage? #idk mate this is fiction #you have fun today ok? #go hug someone. or a pet. or a tree. #:D

[transroboteeveegirl]

I really don't like that my joints will tell me when there's rain coming. They definitely didn't always do that. Not a great sign.

#in fact the sign is painful #which is not fun

[hauntedpearl]

#i think. i think i experience so much shame and guilt and anger and it has nowhere to go and i just eat myself about it #which is not fun #LIKE BC LIKE. what did i ever do #lmao i was having a full blown menty b the other day and i kept thinking what did i ever do to you @ myself which os some fucked up shit #but you know life is hard and stupid sometimes #i did have therapy today and it went kinda okay! i mean i haven't been in a lot of therapy before so idk how it works #i think. i think the bad days will go away again and it'll be fine but like. when you're in the middle of it sll it's. not fun yeah #oversharing on the internet bc idk whatever if you see this no you didn't #here look at the kitty

[ambersky0319]

Tumblr oh my fucking god stop sending me to the top of someone's blog when I click on their url from a post I want to see the post I clicked on not their pinned post-

#Im so annoyed #someone i follow self reblogs then deletes those self reblogs after some time #so better to interact w the original post #but tumblr be sending me to peoples blogs as if i just refresed them so now i gotta go digging for the post #which is Not Fun #tumblr wtf and why #amber's shit you can ignore

[geolato]

Anon Thought for the day: What is the worst non major pain a human can feel? (Example a burn on your tongue from soup.) - @thoughtforthedaysolitaire

Everyone is probably gonna say stubbing your little toe on some random piece of furniture (my personal nemesis is that kitchen stool we use to grab things from high shelves), but I want to introduce the Modern Beauty Standards Pain™️, especially the one that comes with waxing and plucking your eyebrows. See, they're clever, cause along with pain, you also have beautiful thoughts such as "This is 100% not worth it", "Why do I feel the need to do this?" and "What human in their right mind thought this was a good idea?" which I feel add to the whole atmosphere.

#thanks for the ask <333 #we hate wax in this house especially the cold wax stripes they hurt and they make me have spots afterwards #which is not fun #asks #thoughtforthedaysolitaire

[joi-in-the-tardis]

This driving away from my partner is absolute bullshit and I'm very done with it.

I'm glad soon I won't have to do this.

#extra extra cranky because the weather has me super dizzy #which is not fun #joi rambles #vacation 2023

[h3rmitsunited]

I was going back through my old school stuff from like 1st grade and there was this like journal where we had to write like a couple sentences each day to practice writing and stuff and i had this one day where part of what I wrote was "I hate myself today because I had to change my card to yellow" (the cards were like discipline things so you started with green and if you weren't being good you had to stand up and go to the front of the class to change your card) and I don't remember what it was for but I'm sure I was just like maybe talking or something like that.

But like damn. Even just thinking about the times I had to change my cards in those classes makes me want to cry. I remember always being so upset anytime the teachers weren't happy with me and then I think about me now and how I'm always expecting people to think the worst of me or be hiding that they don't like me or always expecting the other shoe to drop even if they've been telling me I'm doing a good job because I'm bad and I need them to just tell me why and what exactly they're holding back

And I've got a review coming up at work soon with my bosses since it's almost my 6 year anniversary of working there and all I can think is oh good now they can stop telling me how great I am and how happy they are to have me there and just tell me everything I'm doing wrong because I know the compliments aren't right and they have to have been holding back what all my issues are.

And I think something in my upbringing may have kind of fucked my head up... just a little bit

#peeerrhaps i should start looking at therapists again to work on some isssssuuuueeesss.... #the last one was not that helpful but she was the first person i looked at and tried and she did well enough #just didnt really get deep into anything under the surface #i literally cant take compliments. like idk if its like a youre supposed to be humble so dont let it go to your head thats turned into #dont internalize any praise ever but if anyone ever complains about you then its real and you should internalize it times a thousand #or maybe its just a i kinda hate myself and dont feel like i deserve good things or anything ever #i think some of it is im ashamed about my stupid inability to get to work on time. like if i force it and work myself up #maybe i can be on time like a few days in a row #but the momentum drops so fucking fast and then im back to well im here before we open even if i was supposed to be here 20 minutes ago #but also like i get there before stuff is going on and like its not that late and i havent mentioned the issue because #i feel like if i did theyd say oh well then just get here at the later time youve been arriving close to its fine #but then stupid brain will go okay so this is the new time which means that im going to shift to arriving even later #so i just have to keep relying on the shame and guilt and panic to get me there in the mornings #which is not fun #i just hope the review goes well other than my bad time management #i feel like it will... hopefully. theyve talked about possibly 'promoting me' which would be me doing the same stuff ive been doing #basically but then id just have the title (and pay 🤞) to go along with that #i dont want to get my hopes up but we'll see what happens #im going to like try super hard to get to work on time until the review though and like after but still #come on clarissa do a good job

[hshouse]

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#There is no social #Media u can just say a bunch of unhealthy stuff anymore #So here is your warning #Your tw for everything under the sun #I really feel like hurting myself #I wont dont worry #Just feel the urge #Which is usually by starving myself #Which I might do #Idk #We will seeeee #i am also gonna be high on my benzos for as long as I can #Cause otherwise #i’d be crying all the time #Which is not fun #So Id rather be numb #Yk #anyway #even tho feeling like this sucks #Its so weirdly familiar #Like this is the way I’m supposed to be #Like this is my default #So thats kinda funky #Anyway not being alone bc my #Mom is around is not helping

[pretendingtobeangry]

i really need to stop timing things so i'm driving through otira gorge in the dark

#i think the last 3 drives back from chch #it's been dark by the time i've got there #which is Not Fun

[girlboysollux]

evil gang evil gang

#im so anxious about school starting i cant sleep #another year of struggle and stress emotionally physically and mentally #and of course ill have to come out to more teachers and more classmates #which is not fun #also im gonna have to figure out how 2 open my locker but thats neither here nor there #personal tag

[dontforgetthefrenchhorns]

Yay thank you Mr band director for changing the date our sports physicals are due from approx the end of August to July 25th with not enough warning 🤪🤪 so nice of you <333

#/s #he is a very very busy man so i can get over the not enough warning fine #but why would he move it?????? #bruh???? #the rat has spoken #i dont have to worry about it but my poor mom and sister now have to rush to get hers done #which is Not Fun #OH and last minute shirt fittings #on this wed and thurs like i would appreciate more warning #but he is very busy and tbh good chance this isnt his fault he just takes the blame for it #alas #but band camp starts on the 25th for us!!!!

[fluentisonus]

trains will announce you're stopping in places you never knew existed

#this train is apparently going to tring. which is fun to say #thoughts

[koddlet]

personal rules for winter ❄

#this was fun bc i didn't intend for it to be kind of cryptic #i just wanted to make some reminders for myself about winter cuz i never learn #especially the back cover which i guess isn't really a rule but still stands. i'm in a rural place so when it gets dark it's Dark #and its hard to want to do anything #zine #mini zine #illustration #nonfandom #analogue art

[nubs-mbee]

The people against bows becoming a trendy fashion accessory has annoyed me sooo much lately. Saw a tiktok that was like “if you get uncomfortable with us saying wearing bows infantilizes women and supports the patriarchy, it just means you’re uncomfortable with us pointing out you’ve been engaging in a harmful trend/behavior 😌” aaaaaAAAAAAH people online are allergic to nuance

#and their response to ‘just let people have fun’ #was just ‘you don’t want to think critically about this to avoiding facing the truth’ #it’s so weird how tiktok KNOWS which opinions will get on my nerves

[crabussy]

reblog for a larger sample size and to reduce sample bias!!

#IF ITS NOT CLEAR THIS IS A JOKE POLL #I'm poking lighthearted fun at all the clearly biased polls that go around on this website #many of which were made by yours truly #e.g. the queer/not queer polls #like its tumblr. you are not looking at the general population #anyway its all in good fun ^_^ #unreality