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#which idk if the administration knew about waht happened or if thats just how it played out
ierogenvy · 3 years
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#dont mind me#personal#there was a tiktok meme asking about where is ur bully now compared to u#and like. the only thing i had i consider a bully was my exbff from middle school that was probably my first crush#and like. shes fine. shes hot. she put out an album. she seems to have good friends that arent from our high school#and it makes me nostalgic to look at her instagram and know that if she had never done anything to me we would probably still be best friend#shes the kind of person i would become freinds with in class#and i miss her? the relationship we couldve had and maintained ? but it went into the shitter bc she decided to tell (many) eople that i was#having anonymous sex w people out of state in 6th grade. all behind my back. at first i  had given her permission#but i didnt know what shw was going to do when i told her i wanted to be popular. i didnt even conceive that shed do that to me#my parents made me stop being in contact w her and i left the gifted class bc she was in it. in 7th grade i talked to her a few times.#but after that i literallly did not talk to her until high school graduation. she was behind me and i told her her hat was acting up#like she was in the theatre club at our hs and i always wanted to do theater but my shyness + she was there kept me out#i never had a class with her again either#which idk if the administration knew about waht happened or if thats just how it played out#and i still rmr all this stuff about her. abot the stuff we talked about ! and for what !#i dont need to know her birthday. or the username from her old stardoll account. or exactly how to spell her name bc so many people would ge#get it wrong. why am i upset about this now its been close to ten years#probably bc if nothing bad had ever happened i wouldbe had the same best friend for 12 years insted of feeling like i have to make a brand#new friend every school year. we probably met in 3rf grade but we became friends in 4th grade#well thats enough. goodnight every1#and just a note this isnt even about comparing where we are in life its missing a person thats been out of#my life longer than they were ever really in it bc i can see them flourishing and i know we couldve been really good friends#if things had turned out differently
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