#which became more and more apparent

[luck-of-the-drawings]

OH ARTHUR BENNETT.. such a gorgeous and intriguing character. terribly burdened by a GRUESOME set of crimes, his light suffocated by a HEAVY century of GUILT. so tragic, so dark and broody, and yet PAINFULLY awkward in any social setting ever

#jrwi fanart #cw blood #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #arthur bennett #OUHH THIS ONE WAS SITTING IN MY WIPS FOR SO LOOOONGwhen i took it out there was mould on it :sob: #BUT i think i was able to fix it up okay #i keep seeing SO MANY MISTAKES RRAAAHHH BUT YOU DONT SEE THEM RIGHT?? THATS ONLY ME. RIGHT?? EXACTLY. #THE KEY IS TO SAY. AND REPEAT AFTER ME. 'FUUUCK IT WE BALL #so anyway. arthur bennett huh? grizzly says that arthur is reaal fuckin difficult to play. and i SUPER get that. i mean LOOK AT HIM.. #grizz often needs a minute to think abt what hes gonna say in a way that matches w that Stoic Personality. which is FAIR but also that #ends up making way for awkward confrontations like: the lady in the parky lot. he took too long to answer and scared her away.& I LOVE THAT #arthur is tragic and sad and cool and stoic but hes ALSO awkward and silly and kinda dumb and short sighted. HE HAS COMPLEXITIES #I LOVE WHEN TTRPG CHARACTERS HAVE A GOOD SET OF SHORTCOMINGS. ESPECIALLY WHEN U FIND THEM ONLY AS U PLAY THEM. #I COULd go on and on saying the same things w different words abt arthurs intriguing and entertaining character but i shall spare u. for no #ILL ALSO MENTION HOW MUCH I LOVE HIS FLAVOR THO.. I LOVE TALL HOT BOY WHOS ONE W THE DARKNESS.. I REMEMBER WHEN HE FIRST MENTIONED THE #BADLUCK. N I WAS LIKE OOOHH THATS WHY HIS DESIGN IS SO COOL N CHAOTIC N ASYMMETRICAL. HES UNLUCKY!!! i love love love his design so much... #GRaaauruguguraguhhghghgh what else what else is there for me to spew on abt...i think im reachin a limit here..OH MAGNUS. i hope that #we get to know more abt how magnus and arthur met.. like How they became besties... ouuhh... I ALSO WANNA KNOW MORE ABT MARY DAVIS. LIKEHOW #he also apparently spent alotta time in a zone dominated by edward twilight? all he remembers is constant partying? I WANNA KNOW MORE.. #i think i got room 4 one more ramble SO. THE ART PIECE.as i said its gone a lil stale BUT. im still very proud o the bits where hes allScar #I WANNA SEE HIM GET SCARYMORE. I like the idea of shadows solidifying to make him strange and eerie.like TEETH n CLAWS n SPINES n YESS #also the SILVER EYES.no1 does silver eyes like the show Claymore. they make em look so striking and eerie...i also like to think that #human arthur had deep beautiful brown eyes.just in my beaitufl heart.i mean look at him..i wanna cook him n eat him.ANYWAY #i think thats all my ramblin for this piece. now i gotta go cancel a single day i had ata hotel bc my work schedule change last minute FUCK #feel free to ramble in my tags aswell tho i read all of them and i chew on thenm and i love them so sos os mcuh

[13eyond13]

Something I think fiction does sometimes is make sex represent the end goal for relationships so often that if two characters sleep together it causes readers to automatically see them as truly in love / that it would solve all problems for the pair to be together forever, even when that isn't necessarily what the narrative is trying to say / depict otherwise.

I am thinking about this because of Guts and Casca... to me they sleep together initially almost as an act of friendship? A way of experimenting with each other and learning about sex, perhaps of distracting themselves from the person they're both more actually into, and of course also because they do care about each other and maybe are attracted to one another on some level, and want to see what it would be like to try to get even closer together. But I think the story also makes it pretty clear that Guts is more emotionally invested in his relationship with Griffith than with Casca, in what you might call a narratively romantic sense... and Casca is shown sort of seeing the futility of her feelings for Griffith and eventually growing apart from him that way pre-Eclipse, even though she still cares for him the most out of everyone she knows (though I don't think he ever feels nearly the same way about her). So getting with Griffith isn't end game for Casca (and she herself eventually realizes that), but I also don't read Casca as a character for whom getting with Guts is the end game character arc-wise, either. I'm not sure Miura even had a concrete end-game character arc in mind for her, to be honest. I feel as though unfortunately she was written mostly as something to be used between Griffith and Guts rather than to end up having her own fully realized narrative journey in the same way that Guts (and maybe also Griffith) will. I want to see her and Guts as friends and at peace more than I want to see them live happily ever after together as a couple, because I feel like that's actually more how they really feel for one another than anything else. Granted, there's a bit of an interesting ironic twist in the story that happens during the Eclipse, where Griffith (unintentionally?) drives Guts and Casca closer together than I think they might have been otherwise with the trauma that he causes them both (even though I think their relationship is probably something he'd be jealous of and read as more romantic than it actually might be and wish to destroy, simply due to his own insecurities and his own possessive feelings for Guts). But I also didn't really read Guts' reactions in the Eclipse scene as Guts being jealous and possessive over Casca in a sexual / romantic sense - I read it more as him feeling empathy for her pain and desire to protect her from harm / from the darker side of Griffith he maybe knew about a bit better than anybody else. I DO care about Guts and Casca's relationship a lot, and find it one of the most emotionally compelling things in the story. But I don't think shipping them together for a happily ever after is really what I'd want for them, nor something that the narrative was actually trying to work towards / suggest to be the best ending for anybody involved? I don't know if I think shipping Guts and Griffith necessarily is either, particularly because of how irredeemably awful Griffith behaved during the Eclipse... but I DO think the story intentionally hinges more around the Griffguts relationship and their emotional journeys / character developments than it does about any other pair/relationship in the series, and that both of them have intense unresolved feelings for each other that come off much more suggestive and stronger than ones of just simply wanting to be friends. And I think all of these characters are pretty explicitly aware of that themselves even in the story as well.

Haha I don't even know what I'm trying to even say here except to work out some of my own thoughts about the main 3 that I care about, I suppose!

#like it became especially apparent to me when starting to read berserk fic #that the griffguts fics seemed more interesting to me to read than a gutsca fic would #which was weird to me because when i read canon i feel after the eclipse #i was almost more invested in guts and casca having a resolution of some kind #and cared the most about the two of them #but now that im reading fic i want to skip anything thats about getting guts and casca together as end game #and wanting to explore the 'what ifs' involving griffith and guts #and i think a lot of that is just due to how the story is written and what is still left unknown about the ending? #people make griffith easier for me to understand in fics as well #berserk spoilers #p #berserk

[quarks-pussy]

Marinler wedding but when the priest says "you may now kiss the bride" Mariner dips him

#he's blushing very hard after btw #marinler #beckett mariner #brad boimler #bradward boimler #i am having Thoughts ok #also apparently this is my first time posting about marinler on this blog?? weird. but yea #also thing about marinler is i do not actually need them to be canon and will not be upset if they aren't. like i'd enjoy if they were but #either way is fine. compare to tendiford which while i do not NEED to be canon in the strictest sense i literally always assumes was 100% g #going to be canon. note that i started with hear all trust nothing (i like quark ok. in case you couldn't tell from the url) and then watch #watched the whole show linerarly after. and i didn't even know their names yet but by the end of the ep i was like 'oh so these two are end #endgame ok cool' and i have only started to ship them more since. but that just as an aside. #i mean this is literally a one sentence marinler post yet here i am telling you my tendiford history but whatever that's who i am now. also #i don't think this has a shot at being canon but i would very much enjoy if all four of them became a polycule. possibly plus t'lyn. yea. #anyway #ld #star trek #lower decks #star trek lower decks #lwd #st lwd #original posts fresh from quark's pussy

[trashno0dle]

luke going “she's my little sister” in reference to annabeth really hope they stick with that and they don't make it weird like in the books later on (the last olympian) let them stick with that family dynamic please i beg

#when luke asked annabeth if she loved him in tlo i thought he meant in like. a family sense #like. platonic. in a sibling way #but then nope apparently the guy meant it romantically which was. fucked up in a lot of ways 💀 #pjo #percy jackson #percy jackon and the olympians #luke castellan #annabeth chase #pjo spoilers #like i understand if annabeth had like. a kid crush on him to begin with when they first started travelling #but thats it. a kid crush. not real feelings. just admiration. then she saw him more as a big brother of sorts #luke. thalia and annabeth became like a family together. which is why it hurt so much more when he betrayed them #noodle liveblogs pjo

[beastwhimsy]

hey Nightvale uhh what's up with your community radio host???

#revised cecil design heehoo #cause I wasn't 100% happy with the last one #he's got slightly curly hair now.. it's naturally REALLY curly but he straightens it (which never lasts long sdjhjgf) #his natural hair colour is black but the longer he spent on the show the more indigo it became #he never really realised due to memory issues and due to how slowly it was happening #he dyes it white because hes fruity #the eye tattoo on his forehead opens when he reads shit for the radio #PLEASE NOTE THAT. IM ON EPISODE 68 SO WILL BE GETTING THINGS WRONG PROBABLY #also his eye shine is permanently that colour.. even when the lights are white or yellow etc #its always coral [:< #annnd diamond symbolism because it rocks #when his hair isnt as long as it is in this artwork it's like a mullet #it was absolutely a curly mullet in the 80s #in the 50s and 40s he wore it short and gelled and swoopy #^ local nightvale listener learns that cecil is apparently ageless and immortal and is immediately horrified and thrilled at possibilities #wtnv spoilers #wtnv #welcome to nightvale #cecil gershwin palmer #nightvale #cecil palmer #wtnv fanart #lets hope this period of hating my art ends SOON people

[black-rose-writings]

I'm thinking about getting my ears re-pierced, so I'm doing some research on it and I found this really funny thing.

An article from a jewelry store (it's the first thing that pops up when I googled surgical steel alergy, which I am pretty sure I have) says, in the same sentence that nickel allergies (which are typically the cause of bad reactions to iron-based alloys) are very rare and then they say 10% of the population has some form of it. That's not very rare. That's 1 in 10 people. In medication side effects lists, 1 in 10 is considered common.

So, yeah, fucking stupid ass jewelry website trying to sell their stupid ass jewelry by misleading their readers/customers.

#irl stuff #jewelry #piercings #earrings #I say re-pierced because I got my ears pierced when I was like 4 #with a piercing gun and surgical steel earrings #which is actually pretty late for a girl to get her ears pierced here #most parents have their babies ears pierced before they're 1 #especially when in the early 2000s #millenial parents may have a bit more sense and respect for their literal infants bodily autonomy than gen x did #apparently people assumed I was a boy a lot because I had very short hair and no earrings #the phrase 'oh she's a girl? but she doesn't have earrings' was something mom heard more than once #so anyway at 4 the peer pressure and gender norms got to me and I got my ears pierced #queue 3 years of battling horrible eczema behind my ears because of an allergic reaction #and my parents not wanting the holes to close so I had to keep wearing earrings #I got golden ones after that which irritaded my skin much less #and then when I was in first grade I lost one earring and stopped wearing them all together #lo and behold the eczema stopped being an issue #I tried qearing earrings occassionally as a teenager #but I could never get more than a few days before the skin behind my ears became irritated again #by now I'm pretty sure the holes did close #but I'd like to give earrings another shot #I will need to do a lot more research and probably get allergy testing before I get there

[ruthlesslistener]

14 is way too young to be reading Game of Thrones.

Nah, it's a perfectly fine age to start reading shit like that. My brother isn't a pussy-ass bitch, he can handle some gore and rape in his reading. Plus Game of Thrones actually depicts torture/rape/slavery/incest as a bad thing done by terrible people, so it's way better than the shit I got into at his age, which was literal nazi propaganda in the form of Attack on Titan. At least he might learn something from it, provided he can make sense of all the characters in it well enough to actually finish it

#though in defense of kid me I only watched s1 (before it became apparent) and was obsessed with the gore more than the politics #i just really liked how bloody it was #and as soon as it became apparent that it was actual nazi propaganda instead of people just using buzzwords I dropped it like a hot potato #as for hetalia: that show actually legitimately wanted to promote unity by making fun of differences but it did so in a very japanese-cent #ric light (which is problematic for obvious reasons) and had the terrible humour of the 2010s. it got better and less offensive #(and less about countries more about the characters) later on #but even then I just played with the fandom ocs with close friends I never did any of the legit terrible stuff the fandom did #anon #reply

[rawliverandgoronspice]

what's incredibly funny to me is that I *never* dream about my current hyperfixation, but only about old and largely non-relevant ones to my current life

#thoughts #I had a dream that suddenly became about team fortress 2 #in which I ended up buried alive under corpses (but somehow it wasn't that grim all those stuck there with me were in pretty high spirits) #I had a very brief tf2 hyperfixation back in 2015 #(brief for my standards) #haven't dreamed about zelda since 2010 probably #and I had ONE dream about mass effect #in which my main character laughed at me for getting salarian mythology wrong #apparently they all worshiped a god. named Photoshop. #sadly I didn't keep that in the lore afterward u_u #I do unfortunately dream about one game I worked on wayyyy more regularly than I'd like (it's a weird IP to be dreaming about) #my brain still isn't over this one :(( wish it was!!!

[farragoofwires]

don' dweeblog

fuck completely forgot about my erstwhile crush on my best male friend who turned out to be gay. queers really do be into other queers. is the thing.

#the problem is. that i do not believe in the beliefs of the 'bi means you are in love with every woman and 2.3 men' but i am playing it out. #anyway. shoutout to highschool desperately holding onto the belief that she was straight me. babygirl you are into 3 times more girls than #guys and you just have not been able to process this fact; btw everyone else around you definitely has. but you talk to so few people #that you have zero clue that this is the state of gossip in your school. #fun fact: my mom became a sportsmom equivalent in the last year of highschool when i joined colorguard which meant she was instantly more #plugged in vis a vis the gossip and she had to inform ME that apparently the school thought i was a lesbian. #to which i can only say. why were the openly queer emo kids not approaching me then!!!!! yeah i was giving off nerd vibes at lethal levels #but they could've reached out the olive branch and they didn't!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[thetimelordbatgirl]

Why must a twitter post make me choose who has the worst parnets between Horrid Henry, Doofenshmirtz, Priya from Total Drama Island and Sora from Lego Ninjago??? They all got shit parents in different ways, there's no contest between them.

#doof's parents wont even there for BIRTH #let alone treated him like shit in comparison to his brother #to the point of neglect basically and shit #while priya was literally born to go onto total drama to the point while still attached to her cord after being born #she had to do bungee jumping #and her parents just spent her whole life preparing her for the show #sora's parents support a holy shit kingdom while not caring for her or her hobby unless they could have her use it to support the holy shit #kingdom and when she didnt want to they actively took away her hobby saying to get another if she won't use first one to support #the holy shit kingdom #and they actively shit even when in present with her #she literally ran away to get away from them and as she put it shes found a better family with the ninja #horrid henry basically can breath and his mom will be like 'DONT BE HORRID HENRY-' and send him to his room #to the point apparently in newer eps he just misses breakfast cause he was sent to his room instantly #like more then once should add #like they had second kid and that was it first kid became the kid that gets all the shit from parents #mainly the mom as the dad sometimes is chill #but the mom really does seem to wish she didnt have henry #since she applauded henry being made disappear by a birthday magician #which got even henry's arch rival giving her a wtf look #like they all equally bad parents here dammit

[ferretwhomst]

only if you want to obv but bRO YOU GOTTA TELL ME ABOUT LOBOTOMIES ive been wanting to do research, specifically to find out if they did happen mostly to women or not rly, but i immediately trust your expertise no questions asked

THANK YOU ANON FOR ASKING! i'm no expert but from what i remember the lobotomy was popularized around the 1930s-40s by walter freeman, which was a time rife with mental illness (because obviously both world wars, great depression, etc took a Toll on people) even though it was still heavily demonized. once the procedure became more "mainstream" for lack of a better term, a lot of people were also just lobotomized because they were "difficult to handle" according to their family. and surprise surprise gender bias definitely played a role there. i wouldn't say they happened Mostly to women but definitely WAY more women were lobotomized than men! so technically not wrong

#encouraging you to llike. check this info btw #its been a hot second since i hyperfixated im digging up all this info from the back of my skull #scraping it off the walls for u #also i am so fucked up about like. #how walter freeman just commercialized the whole procedure #he used to travel around america in his van or smth which he called the fucking Lobotomobile #and he used to demonstrate lobotomies in front of crowds #like jesus fucking christ #that is an entire person whose brain you are cutting up rn. its a Delicate Procedure. #one twitch of ur fingers and you could ruin their life (even more than you already are) #could not be more glad that the lobotomy became disreputed around the 50s #also lot of unnecessary info here but. look i was Obsessed #and apparently i still am jesus christ so many tags #asks #ferret rambles #lobotomy #tw surgery #cw surgery #yknow just in case

[ingravinoveritas]

So, I just finished watching Staged and I'm having so many mixed feels. One of the weirder impressions I got was it seemed almost like a vehicle to put a wedge between Michael and David. I esp hated the ep where Georgia did all the stuff to the office room (messed with the thermostat, starved them, etc) just to get them to bitch at each other (and then admitted that it was cos "people like to watch that". Er, no. I like banter as much as anyone, but the energy of this series seemed idk...wrong?

Hi, Anons! These are both completely valid opinions and I very much appreciate you both feeling comfortable enough to write in and share them with me.

Anon #1: I had a lot of mixed feelings watching Staged 3, too. I think the episode you’re specifically referencing is episode 4, and I also thought that much of that seemed really contrived. I get needing to create conflict to have a show, but it seemed like there’s so little natural conflict between Michael and David that Simon had to fabricate something, and it just went sort of beyond the limits of believability. (This was also just confirmed by David in a Times Radio interview that was released today.)

I think that in real life, if Michael and David ever did fight for any reason, Georgia knows the fight would last for about two minutes and then they’d find their way back to each other, without any intervention. The banter between Michael and David that we love so much doesn’t need to be engineered or cajoled, because it just happens naturally. I almost wonder if Simon deliberately went over the top because he knew no one would ever buy Michael and David “breaking up” in episode 6 unless he chose to be heavy-handed about it. Which then contributed to the energy of this series feeling the way it did.

And Anon #2, that ties into what you have said as well. That defensiveness, particularly in the scene with David/Georgia and Michael/AL reading the “reviews” of Staged 3. It was indeed very meta, but rather than that “meta” being the show not taking itself seriously, it seemed to not take the audience seriously. It was the idea that “You don’t get this series because you’re not clever enough” as opposed to, “You don’t get this series because Simon is trying too hard to be clever” (which is what I felt was actually the case). 

To me, the funniest/best parts of Staged 3 were the ones farthest from the script. The little moments that weren’t rehearsed, and that let Michael and David be something more closely approximating themselves. It could be that some of the characters were dependent on the meta-ness to be relevant/have something to do with the plot, but not Michael and David. They have and always will work best just being who they are, together.

I also noticed some really interesting choices in terms of the dynamics this series chose to play up, and which parts of the characters were exaggerated/highlighted. I think the self-awareness tended to be apparent where it possibly wasn’t meant to be (as opposed to the scenes that were, and tried too hard to be). The place we got to at the end of episode 6 was ultimately where things got much better/how things should’ve been all along, but the process of getting there just seemed very circuitous and unnecessary.

Much of this is things I intend to cover in my analysis/review, so I don’t want to add too much more here. But I love that we are having these robust discussions and I very much enjoyed reading your thoughts, Anons. Thanks for writing in! x

#anonymous #reply post #michael sheen #welsh seduction machine #david tennant #soft scottish hipster gigolo #georgia tennant #staged #or 'Brokeback Mount Him' which is what I am referring to Staged as from here on out #staged 3 #tbh i think Simon thinks he's more clever than he actually is #and it became apparent in the writing #if you have Michael and David together you don't need all the bells and whistles #and weird plot devices #in my opinion anyway #discourse

[vigilantejustice]

just learned about “just right” ocd and got to say. the math is mathing

#so blatantly me it’s not even funny #have had periods of behaviour my entire life that fit into the stereotypical definition #like tapping and checking outlets in a specific pattern to soothe a fear of fire #but it’s never been consistent and never felt like it was impacting my life or anything so it’s not #a diagnosis i would ever look for because it just doesn’t seem right #like maybe if those periods of behaviour became worse or more consistent but as it stands it’s fine y’know? #but my understanding of ocd is super limited #and it’s only recently become apparent to me that there are so many manifestations and it’s so much more complex #and it just seems like i actually do fit the description pretty squarely #which is. kind of relieving #personal

[holy-human-freak]

Finally got around to watching this video that had been in my recommendations for a while and it's great.

Basically after string theory starts getting attention from the public some big name String Theorists like Brian Greene and Michio Kaku start getting pop-sci book deals and going on documentaries and making a lot of money. Obviously, given their new financial incentives, these people present string theory as the next revolution in Physics. At the same time this was going on, actual physicists had largely stopped taking string theory seriously on account of it not making any experimentally verifiable predictions (the wiki page for the history of string theory ends in 2003). Eventually the public catches on to this and instead of learning what separates good science from bad science (creating models that explain all previous observations and make predictions about new ones) they start to view all of theoretical physics as this land of crackpots where you can predict whatever you want. Even highly successful theories like relativity, quantum mechanics, and the standard model start to be viewed like this. Theories that DID make new predictions that WHERE later observed.

Obviously there are people who became interested in theoretical physics because of these documentaries and books, and I think that's good! I was one of them! But when your theory hasn't made any progress for nearly a decade and you are talking about it like it's the next relativity and you the next Einstein, that is a massive abdication of your professional responsibility as both a scientist and a science communicator.

This has become a problem in particle physics too and I think it's no coincidence it started when they tried applying ideas from string theory to the standard model (super symmetry). SUSY at least makes predictions about new particles we should find but when everytime those particles arent observed you modify the theory so their masses are conveniently outside the range of current experiments, that's bad science. People are eventually going to catch on and stop giving funding to experiments that are actually trying to answer unsolved questions in the field and not chasing the rabbit of having one theory that can explain all of physics. A theory there is no reason to believe exists other than the fact effective field theories aren't philosophically pure enough.

(sidebar: From my understanding the foundational work behind string theory has gone on to be genuinely useful in some fields mathematics, which is why formulating these theories is useful even if from a physics perspective the final result isn't. But when you are presenting your PHYSICS theory as a PHYSICAL explication of the world to an audience that doesn't have the expertise to contextualize what you are talking about, maybe mention "by the way this theory has never made any testable predictions and was basically dead in the water by the start of the new millennium)

(second sidebar: This persons YouTube channel is great. She's probably my new favorite science youtuber. The fact that she delivered this whole rant while playing binding of Isaac to keep herself too distracted to even attempt to explain how string theory works is hilarious)

#Third sidebar: apparently Leonard Susskind got his start in string theory which I had no idea about #He understandable doesn't talk about it much these days (no one from the string theory boom does. Wonder why?) #Makes me sceptical of the emergent gravity model he has been a champion of and I was fascinated by #Before I became disillusioned with academia as a field #Which for the record string theory had nothing to do with #It was the extreme financial exploitation of young adults trying to get an education in the sciences #Talking to myself #Okay there are probably a lot of typos here but I'm not doing any more proofreading of this post #Youtube

[blooming-cecilia]

You're tags on the post I made about Venti's apsotle voiceline was not only completely true but a brilliant addition, never be sorry for adding tag thoughts - it's my favourite thing!

I'm bad at playing the lyre in game so the only song Venti can do is the first few lines of rickroll, so I completely agree with only giving him meme songs. He would become unstoppably powerful but, hear me out...it would be funny...

Except Titanic, you KNOW you'd give it to him giggling thinking of the kazoo version and then end up on the floor SOBBING when he plays it even more beautifully than the original. He'd be very confused and you'd be huffy and embarrassed - terrible time for everyone.

hi thaims! i'm glad you liked my tag rambles and that you didn't mind either hehe

i'm also.... pretty bad at using the lyre in game, though i did try to learn at the start 😭

it's tricky writing down the notes, remembering which one referred to which and tapping them fast enough to stay on the rhythm so i gave up lol

even meme songs were tough TT

when i read rambled on your post, i imagined personally bringing him the sheets, maybe you happened to bring some when you get isekai'd or maybe you have some weird funky magical access to the internet or something and look up sheet music?

eitherway he would be such a powerful menace with all of this newfound knowledge that he can use to make you laugh whenever he wants to (all the time. he always wants to see you smile, and maybe wants to rub it in a little to others that he knows exactly how to make you laugh so easily)

but oh, imagine if my heart will go on is the first serious song you give him. everything else is just like, short stuff, maybe like. idk wii music or something taken from an old funny video you like

so he thinks of this as a more serious tune you'd like him to play, so he doesn't make it silly and actually performs it as the bittersweet song that it actually is

and he's only ever seen you laugh when you give him sheets to play, so he panics the moment he hears you sniffling and almost drops his lyre rushing to wipe away your tears

if you tell him that he just played it so beautifully that you cried over it—when you were expecting the opposite—he might tease and giggle, probably strokes his ego a liiittle bit, but he does apologize for that in the form of playing you your fave funny meme ones

whatever happens though, this just becomes a new way to bond with you! it makes him happy to share his love and talent for music with someone he cares for too :D

#tulip replies #i saw your other tags in rbs of my writing and rambles #and im giggling at the way luna managed to unite venti likers once again KEHCJ #just out of curiosity which luna audio are u going bonkers over exactly LMAO #and man. felt #i stopped listening to character asmr bc i thought it was cringe #but no i just needed someone to do it the way i wanted them done #aka however luna does her audios. good shit #and so a year later im here. obsessed w her venti . #and its the same thing for a lot of people who managed to find their way here apparently #thats how me and user tomaytow became friends 💀 #(which btw if u want more venti stuff go check out her blog! shes got a bunch written there)

[tundrakatiebean]

I’m just gonna do a wee ramble in the tags. You can ignore me if you want.

#katie is rambling 2k22 #so mom is back in the ICU and intubated again #she has some internal bleeding that became very apparent and dangerous #while my brother and I were in the hospital #we left for their quiet time and grabbed something to eat #and came back to mayhem as they were trying to move her #while there was more than a little blood on the bed because the GI docs needed to see #they found one source of bleeding but there’s another one they haven’t sorted yet #but seeing her so freaked out about having to be intubated again was rough #and everyone kept apologizing to us #and I know they were just doing their job and trying to be thoughtful #but it was not helping #also I’m breaking out like really really bad and it’s pissing me off #which is like small fries #but the stress is making me so much more prone to picking #that I am going to turn my entire chin into an open wound #anyway life sucks but I’m chugging along I guess