#which I mainly watched for Nick Cave. but it’s still a beautiful movie about an angel led astray on earth by love

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hiii this is the third time i've tried to send this lol 📓

Hi!! This is the only one I got, so I’m glad you persevered!! However I must say that *schoolmarm with a low bun and an ankle length skirt voice* due to tardiness, you will be PUNISHED (jkjkjk I know it was beyond your control, I kid). And that punishment is unfortunately having to read about......Jesus Christ this is humiliating......but one of my remaining ideas is unfortunately and embarrassingly derived from supernatural. But let me preface by saying you don’t need to know or to enjoy that show she and I have a very complicated ex-husbands relationship where YES the very mention makes my blood pressure rise and YES I did use to love her and back in the day I wrote a stupid ass little destiel fic that has like three thousand kudos now which wakes me in a cold sweat at night but that’s neither here nor there I hate the dumb bimbo ok??? but maybe a part of me will always love her lore and her people even if the plot and writing makes kill bill sirens go off in my head....

All of that being said (I am not known for my concise language, sorry ☹️) I want to divorce the idea of this AU from its cold and reluctant origins and present something from the show’s lore that I think they really, really bungled, but that the concept of still compels me greatly. And that idea is of a fallen angel. Again, SO sorry for spn posting but awhile back I thought there would be a really profound beauty in the idea of a Hawkeye Pierce who hasn’t always been human. And now that we’re divorced from stupid fucking Castiel my beloved (sorry sorry sorry) I’ll just speak about what I’d do with Hawkeye. My idea is that he used to be this divine being (side note— there’s a fic called Souls On The Banks Of The Jungnangcheon which I ADORE and has a slightly similar gambit but different enough that I don’t really feel like I’m thieving anything), but that as he spent more and more time on earth walking among the humans, he began to become enamored with their species to the point where he began to become one of them, because he was no longer like....celestial? And maybe he went off the rails and decided to rebel by healing/saving as many people as he could, during WWII, because he couldn’t stand the slaughter, but this was against divine law so he was cast down as punishment. So he used to be able to heal without any thought at all, but he can’t anymore, because he’s human, so he uses his prescient and exhaustive knowledge of human anatomy and disease to become a surgeon, and he gets drafted to Korea (which he suspects is part of the punishment). And he’s trying to heal as many people as he can but it’s never enough and he’s really struggling because for the first time he’s realizing that these people, for whom he’s lost everything, who he loved so dearly, have a wickedness and capacity for evil at their core. And every death shakes him because it never used to be possible to lose someone. And I think there’d be something lovely in losing one’s status as celestial because of how damn much he adored humanity, only to have this ironic result where because of that love he could no longer help them the way he used to.

But also, because I’m beejhawk garbage, this would of course turn into a love story, where Hawkeye’s grappling with humanity’s true nature until he begins to realize that not only are people capable of great cruelty but surprise!! They’re also capable of a great love that may or may not make the pain worth it. And maybe he starts to think he made the right choice in refusing to relent/getting sentenced to be a human or like just choosing it himself, depending on which route I take if I ever right this.

Wowww okay that was long, sorry, and possibly not what you were looking for. I know that like angel and/or demon AUs are like incredibly 2009 fanfiction dot net and kinda cringe but baby. I kinda just think a fucking fallen angel with like these gnarly red gashes on his shoulder blades from losing his fucking....his fuckin WINGS okay would be really...............hhhggbbggsghhhhshddhjd grrrrr

#again my DEEP apologies for the SPN origins on here......we all must own up to our pasts........but this is in fact my idea 😔 #wait as in like the idea that I gave for a daydream fic lol I’m NOT claiming silly angel stuff as mine #also big Wings of Desire by Wim Wenders vibes #which I mainly watched for Nick Cave. but it’s still a beautiful movie about an angel led astray on earth by love #and the Berlin setting is fucking gorgeous #asks #ask games #mashnatural #blacklist: #mash #supernatural #mashposting #long post