#whereas for jamie i usually headcanon that her abandonment issues and trouble with past relationships

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Hi Novel! Love your work. So I've noticed that in a lot of fics where there's smut included, you write Dani as unable and/or uninterested in getting off unless it's with Jamie. Since it's a theme that runs through so many of your fics, I'm curious as to where that came from?

Generally, I headcanon that if Dani isn't actually demisexual (which is possible), she's spent so much time repressing her own feelings toward women that it's easiest to engage with that part of herself because she has Jamie--someone she trusts and loves, who selflessly loves her in return. Not to say she couldn't find enjoyment on her own or elsewhere, but the version of her that often turns up in the stories you're referencing is one who largely learned about that part of herself (in detailed practice, not the abstract certainty of her own queerness) because of Jamie. So even if she's capable of indulging those impulses on her own, it's one of those "but it's so much more fulfilling/fun with this person I love--why not get her involved as much as possible" concepts.

#ask #the haunting of headcanons #put another way: she most likely comes to all sex-related things she enjoys through her relationship with jamie #and given their canonical...thirstiness it makes sense to me that she'd find comfort and security in that connection #and wouldn't necessarily find those same feelings just on her own. at least not at first. maybe that changes over time #and it's not always applicable (thinking of the gay-speed-run club AU in particular where she has the sex before the emotional connection) #but it's an interesting nuance to play with #whereas for jamie i usually headcanon that her abandonment issues and trouble with past relationships #mean sex is often a transaction more than something with true heart behind it. just to protect herself from more damage #someone with a great deal of love to give and a deeply squishy center who has also dealt with what jamie has would reasonably put up walls #and might have used sex as a sort of 'right. it's a physical fun thing but letting someone in is dangerous' thing #because as we see: once they're in they are in for life #so it plays out as a two halves of the same whole dynamic #dani coming to emotion first and sex second; jamie maybe with the opposite habit in place by the time she meets dani