#when will he learn that i don't care

[egophiliac]

Serious question.

Do you think we’ll see the parents/family of each of the guys???

Like, We’ve been TEASED with Ace’s brother, that I’m starting to think it’s just a reference to that Alice in Wonderland park character in Japan and nothing else….

Jack’s family, Ruggie’s grandma, Falena, Maleficia, Ms.Rosehearts, Just now Vil’s dad is in the picture which I am really happy but now I’m wondering about his mom, and so Deuce’s mom.

I mean, some HAVE a silhouette!! It could mean they do have a design in the making/ready to show. They could’ve shown us Falena in the Tamashina (hope I said that correctly) event, but didn’t (prolly to make Leona not so σ(▼□▼メ) and it’s understandable)

Anyhow, any idea/headcannon about this? Who do you want to see first?

I'm wondering if everyone might eventually get a travel event? like they've now introduced with Vil's that it doesn't have to be specifically hometowns, so that opens things up a lot! (especially if they have to figure out how to do three separate Coral Sea visits) (how would that even work otherwise)

but yeah, I hope everyone gets a chance! there's a lot of backstory characters I would LOVE to meet. :D :D :D though I do think some of them don't really suit the more light-hearted tone of the events (pretty sure you're right about that being why Falena wasn't in Tamashina-Mina, that would've just been. too much for Leona.) so like...we're probably not ever going to meet the Rosehearts. or Maleficia (although I maintain that this would be THE funniest possible way to introduce her outside of the main story, and actually I would love this a lot, can we please Twst) (I need to see her to put Malleus in a froofy little outfit and tell him what a handsome boy he is). but they've sprung surprises like Kifaji on us, and honestly anyone who shows up and tells embarrassing stories about characters' childhoods is good in my book!

characters off the top of my head who I most want to meet: literally any of the Zigvolts, Azul's mom, Ace's brother, Che'nya's grandfather (<- I think he would be a good one for Riddle) (please just any non-terrible adult in his life), any member of Rook's family because I need to see how they managed to produce him, and...really just whoever they can come up with for Silver.

#art #twisted wonderland #twisted wonderland spoilers #tapis rouge #tamashina mina #i think it's just those two #(i am very very sorry about how long it took to reply to this) #but yeah i don't know if everyone is actually doable! i just want to ~believe~ #though silver would also have one of the zigvolts honestly #(they are the only reason lilia managed to actually raise him without silver like. falling through a manhole looney tunes style.) #so let's say he gets sebek's mom and sebek gets his dad. just because it would make sebek VERY annoyed. #god i want to meet azul's mom though. everything we know about her makes her sound AMAZING #i want her to feed me lunch and teach me how to take no shit #ANYWAY i do also wonder about vil's mom... #i had been thinking we might learn something about her during tapis rouge. but nope! not a mention. #i guess we did establish that vil either went with eric or was cared for by the house staff when he was traveling #so i dunno! it doesn't necessarily mean anything she might just be a busy lady doing busy things #i just wonder!

[sergle]

I think my favorite thing about doing ginger red hair instead of cherry red hair is: lying to people about it

#I love the cherry red / wine red and I'll probably go back at some point bc it's my Origin. #but for now. #I don't actively lie to people but bc it's a Natural and Plausible hair color #and I'm already pale and I dye my eyebrows to match my hair. ppl figure it's natural #and it has come up MULTIPLE TIMES. and I've recently been rolling with it instead of correcting ppl. bc who cares? #recent examples that come to mind (but I did correct them in this one) my surgeon assuming it was natural #and using my genetics as a natural redhead as a baseline to tell me about what I can expect from my future scarring #and then again later with the anesthesia. they were going to dose me differently #the anesthesiologist glanced at me when I came into the OR and was getting the stuff ready on his cart #and when he heard me talking to my doc and re-telling him that oh the hair isn't natural #he was behind the curtain like FUCK #taking shit off his cart and quietly redoing his setup #that's how I learned that redheads need higher doses of anesthesia than other ppl. #they also need more of the topical stuff like lidocaine. apparently they metabolize it faster(?) #ANYWAY he was going to up my dose thinking I needed it lol #so i almost got way more sedatives and pain meds than i needed bc of my hair dye LMAOOO #other more Normal Life examples was a country dude in full hunting gear holding a door open for me someplace #and I said thank you and he lifted his hat up to point at his (natural) red hair and said ''twins!'' #this one sticks with me because that was such a cute thing to do. what the hell #and at snakefest I was talking to some people at their food truck. there was an older guy who trapped me into a convo for like 30mins #he was Very Nice. and they were going to some type of irish festival next and said I should go too bc I'll be right at home #flat out just was like. this bitch looks irish #and I don't know why all of this is so funny to me. it has no reason to be.

[cloned-eyes]

how that episode should have ended

#the bad batch #tbb tech #star wars fanart #clone force 99 #the bad batch fanart #zillo beast #the bad batch season 2 #eyesdraws #He used the pspspspsps he learned from crosshair to lure it in and earn its trust #he named her Cabur #she the best girl #good zillow #they sleep together in his bunk and every night could be his last concidering that shes a heavy girl #but he don't care #if to chose between broken rips and cuddles he choses cuddles #Hunter didn't know #Tech hid her in that pace of the Marauder they hid in when they got those chaincode cards in s1 #she wasn't noticed until they had already left the planet #she might has attempted to eat cid #as i said #best girl #SHE DESERVES TO BE AS FAR AWAY FROM HEMLOCK AS POSSIBLE #clones stick together

[spinnysocks]

inspired by this post :)

Regularly says fuck: Kenge, Janja, Kiburi, Tamka, Neema, Nne, Tano, the Skinks

Has sworn off saying fuck, but has said it at some point: Reirei, Mzingo

Has not said fuck before, but can if so desired: Ushari, Sumu, Chungu, Cheezi

Has not said fuck before, and refuses to say it: Jasiri, Madoa, Goigoi, Mwoga

Legally cannot say fuck: Wema, Tunu, Dogo, Kijana, Nduli

#despite all this i think jasiri should get to swear once #reirei stopped for the sake of her kids or says it when they're not around #she's careful tho #swearing is in-built in janja but he gets told off sooo #you cannot stop the rest of them in that first one from saying it tho 💀 #most of the idiots don't swear - at least not regularly - but tamka's prolly gonna rub off on them #no one would be that surprised if ushari or sumu swore #nduli probably actually has said fuck #i mean cmon he's a croc #but depending on the situation kiburi usually scolds him tamka and neema lol #me and nikki were also talking about how the kids learned to swear so. yeah #“whoopsie” - everyone who swore in front of them #the lion guard #tlg #tlg outlanders #tlg outlanders memes #tlg memes

[meidui]

tony sets the temperature in their bedroom to be warmer when they get into bed because he doesn't want steve to fall asleep feeling cold and cooler when they wake up because steve turns into a furnace while he sleeps, and steve doesn't know until he spends the night away on a mission and he's like why am i so uncomfortable

#i feel like in the movies the avengers don't really take care of each other in touchy feely mushy ways but they do keep an eye on each other #in my mind sometimes they're subtle and to the point about it and sometimes they're clumsy in the way they do it #like they don't want steve to be cold knowing what he went through #so they consider hand warmers and sticky heating pads to be part of his mission equipment #and put his soup in a north pole grade thermos and tony makes sure his uniform can keep him warm when they go somewhere cold #and steve is really fine he doesn't run that much colder than the average person but he loves the way they love #and it's true the hand warmers and hot soup are nice 😊 he learns that the world doesn't come down on him if he lets himself be cosy #stony #stevetony #* #st♡ny #text

[ox1-lovesick]

hi

#life update nobody asked for lol #I missed you guys my pookie wookie dookies #I deleted all my social media and life is so great wow #still a lot of mental health problems but I'm finally learning to deal with my emotions and not hate life (wow) #is it bad for me to say I'm so glad I left blr #I will probably never come back here lol but I think (?) today is txt's debut anniversary and since I am the self proclaimed empress of moa #downgrading to a flip phone actually #I unstanned txt and all the kpop peoples too (SHOCKER) #I do feel really nostalgic and sad when I think about them but I think it was the thing I needed most #delulu is infact not the solulu #daydreaming about beomgyu being the new student at my school and being soobin's bestie was never the greatest idea hey #it's so freeing to not care about them and focus on what's infront of me #if you need a sign to start growing out of kpop and start worrying about your own life here it is babe 😭 don't let anybody give you shit #Not to say kpop is bad or anything I just think for me it was getting a bit out of hand #As much as we all make fun of the delulus it's so easy to fall down that spiral when these idols constantly tell you they love you #The parasocial relationship was REAL istg these people felt like my friends #Hueningkai does not give a FUCK about me and he is so real for that #Thinking about deleting this blog but I'm logging off after this so I very well may forget it exists again #But I just wanted to share what's been going on #And I miss you guys a lot #I may have outgrown kpop and tumblr but you all still have a special place in my heart #I miss the good old days 😭 when discord let's me back in I might visit wme #Not much has changed with me but mentally I feel like a whole new person #But I hope you all are doing GREAT #Living your best lives and doing things that make you happy #You owe it to yourself more than you owe these celebrities anything #xoxo savie 😝🤟🤟🔥🔥🔥

[witchyvixie]

I love stories about 'bad' people who still love and are loved. people who don't care if the people they love are bad. I love when the point isn't to say "you're not actually bad" but "even if you are, you still deserve love in your life"

#true neutrals are the best and i really want more of them in media #this is abt joel tlou (game specifically. i haven't watched the show) #we can argue all day about whether it was 'morally wrong' to kill the fireflies or whether their plan would have worked #but i love that he doesn't care if he's doing something terrible. all he cares about is her. and that gets to me #and that ellie absolutely knows he's lying to her but decides not to find out because she wants to be with him too #i feel like arguing whether joel was in the right is kinda missing the point #also don't get me wrong i love when the point is learning that you're not actually bad. those stories can also be wonderfully poignant. #my favorite character is one of those #but sometimes my messed up brain needs to hear 'you don't have to maintain 'good' to still be loved'

[anyoldfandom]

Okay fuck it here we go it's been one minute. Pack Leader Rex AU time.

First off, it is not an AU where Rex is evil. It's more of a...I guess placement swap? Between VK and Rex. In this AU, VK was found and captured by Providence a year ago to study his nanite absorbing powers, and Rex started befriending and collecting EVO pals until they eventually formed the Pack, and found Abysus to be a place Providence would not enter.

So in this universe, Rex, Bobo (yes unfortunately he's there but he's MY version bc I refuse to look at him in canon), Biowulf, Breach and Skalamander are the original Pack members, people Rex picked up like he picked up the Hong Kong crew before. The fic idea does also start with them picking up Circe - so she remains as someone new to the Pack, trying to figure out her place. The Abysus castle becomes a safe house for all the EVOs they've picked up over the years - an actual community of incurables, with those that they can cure being returned via Breach portal to their families.

That's the general setup - really just, a swap. What makes the AU so exciting for me though is the character dynamic, I'm a sucker for Found Families with Barriers.

First off, Six and Holiday still work for Providence. They both still believe in a cure, and when Providence discovers this EVO that can cure people and is also seemingly amassing an army, they try to get their mitts on him and stop this threat in its track. Six ends up being the first Providence agent to make contact with Rex - and the first agent to realize this is a child they're dealing with, not a monster. Holiday knew this, already - but they have to work on figuring out ways to help out Rex and look out for this kid without jeapordizing their jobs. Six can't abandon White, and Holiday can't abandon Beverly. They're stuck having to earn Rex's trust (granted, not that difficult compared to earning the trust of other Pack members). White is in charge of Providence still (idk how his ass got bleached yet), and instead of blaming Rex for his divorce and seeing the kid as a threat bc of the giant robot bullshit, he sees him as a threat for the potential army bullshit. Ironically he's the one that treats Rex the most like an adult, because he assumes malice from the kid for a long time.

On the flip side, the Pack is very close. They're actually friends, unlike canon. Breach and Rex and Circe hang out a lot, Circe and Rex don't have the initially antagonistic part of their relationship, but Circe still thinks Rex is stupid for trusting people so easily. Breach and Rex just kind of play Minecraft in her pocket dimension sometimes and have talks, and Skalamander,,,,doesn't have a whole lot of stuff to work with in canon so I'm still figuring him out. But Biowulf is the closest thing to a "parent" of the Pack, and he's bad at it. More of an anxious dog that still refers to Rex as Master (as much as Rex hates it, tries to tell him not to), still worships the kid to a degree while Rex is constantly trying to get Biowulf to just. Chill out. Tell him about his worries and talk things out.

There's definitely also an arc in mind where Providence does capture Rex and Holiday and Six have to struggle to protect him the best they can while White tries to bargain with the kid and the Pack freaks out and tries to figure out how to break him out.

#genrex #generator rex #pack leader rex au #I don't. Fully know everything in this AU yet but I'm just brainstorming. Being Insane #Caesar doesn't actually change much in terms of initial dynamic from canon he just lands in the Abysus lab instead of Providence HQ #And gets suspicion by everyone esp Biowulf but welcomed in by Rex #Definitely some scenes though where Rex learns to trust Six and Holiday by them helping him when Providence isn't looking #The juiciness of. We cannot spend much time together bc opposite sides of a war. But we learn to care for each other. #And also the juiciness of Biowulf being just as dedicated to a Rex that clearly does not want that level of dedication #Who prefers Biowulf as a friend not a follower. But he saved Biowulf's life and gave him a home and Biowulf can't let that go #Something something boy and his dog only the dog can speak and wants to maul everyone who looks at his boy funny

[sylphwing]

hm. i do not like chilshi 🤔

#sylph.txt #everyone likes to joke abt how much of an epic divorce man chilchuck is #but i dont think he ever even refers to her as his ex-wife. i could b wrong bc it's been a while since i read it tho #idk a lot of his arc is him learning to b more open w others (which is essentially what ended his relationship) #and u can see how much he's grown in the chapter where senshi goes into his past #to me it would b a lot sweeter for him to take on these lessons and go back to her and make things work #it's been 4 years but he's remained loyal to her depite their issues. idk to me it rlly does feel like he still loves her he's just a fool #it's made p clear that he's a coward and that he's quick to run away so actually committing to her would b a nice way to wrap things up #we don't get to see much of his wife so i get y ppl r quick to put him w the only other man in the party #but like senshi knows abt his wife too like i do not think he's gnna b making any moves here bc he has morals lmao #(*only other older man in the party. laios doesn't qualify for old man yaoi to most chilshi likers) #(even tho chilchuck isn't old either but shh they don't care abt that) #when it comes to senshi the changeling chapter def helped him w understanding how old the rest of the party is #but he clearly still views them as significantly younger than him #i don't think he views chil as a child anymore but for the majority of their time together he did #and so going from that to in a relationship is uhh rlly weird to me! #senshi has always taken a sort of parental role upon himself #w him romance is no where as interesting as the platonic bonds he has w the rest of the party #similar to how romance is entirely unimportant to izutsumi in the succubus chapter #idk i def don't hate the pairing and there r some takes on it that i find funny #but for me i just don't see anything between them i think ppl just want an m/m ship to play with #that ao3 gap is only gnna get bigger lmao

[pickletrip]

August you little piece of shit.

Could you stop and think for once before doing something, especially when you already know that Day likes you romantically?! You already knew that you could not reciprocate his feelings so you decided to lie and pretend hoping it would make Day feel better?? What kind of rationalizing is this? Dude, c'mon.

Day is not just dealing with his romantic feelings here and you cannot just assume that you can fill in a role temporarily just to give him good memories and feelings. NOBODY FEELS GOOD BEING LIED TO. Take your pity and stuff it up your ass. I cannot feel any sympathy for him. If you want to make Day feel good and happy be genuine about it. It's very simple.

If you already knew that you did not like him that way, then why did you initiate that kiss?

Did Day confess directly to you so you felt the need to take some action? NO.

Did Day tell you that he had a crush on someone and you were scared of losing him? NO.

Then why would you kiss him and then reject him when he kisses back? What tomfoolery is this? Are you living in your imagination and you think your actions have no consequences? Did you suddenly think that by kissing him things would naturally fall into place? NO AUGUST. THAT'S NOT HOW LOVE WORKS.

#last twilight #last twilight the series #day x mhok #I'm ready to kill August #i don't care if he was having a moment of confusion #he could have had that moment with someone else #your pity is not needed here #take it and get out and don't you dare come back unless you are willing to face the consequences of your actions and you can apologize #you are probably not going to get in Mork's way again but if I see you even in the vicinity of Day I'll beat the shit out of you #HOW COULD YOU NOT APOLOGISE TO DAY?!? #my disappointment and anger has no bounds #as someone who is facing a physical disability myself I can assure you that lying and pity are the worst #people treat you differently because they don't know what to do otherwise when you are around #august pretending to be there for Day was terrible #look august - you have a history of bailing on Day already - what makes you think you can change that overnight #is this how you treat your friends?! learn from Gee #end of rant #dammit august #gmmtv bl #thai bl series

[takethelx3]

I live for their dynamic duo

#idk if I just hc but isn't aira like emo or some shit #like he's an emo who loves idols so he's like me when I was teen #so I don't know if I made up in my head that he's a bad student who doesn't care about school stuff #obvi he likes idol classes but I imagine during any business maths science he just powers down and thinks about idols #meanwhile hiiro has learned the joys of going to school #idk what is up w his past tbh I've invented so much bs idk what the truth is #aira has at least one time shouted at Hiiro for having nicer eyelashes than him #bc being emo means u need those thick lashes trust me #hiiro is just so happy to be here guys #aira is like 52 mentally drinking monster in the middle of class bc he's dying every day (but he loves his idol job) #i think I have invented an unreal aira in my head but man I love my kids #these two? so good in my soul they rly hit me where it's right #enstars #ensemble stars #learning to draw the enstars cast so I can scribble them a bit #amagi hiiro #shiratori aira #aira shiratori #hiiro amagi #art #doodle #scribble #fanart #i dyed my hair dark again but I already miss being red and matching bestie hiiro #watch me dye back to red again #i do it every time #i get bored of red and change and then go I'M SAD #red is my colour fr #if u read these tags what are u doing here bestie? ily tho #hiiai

[m-kyunie]

a weird high school into uni AU

#dgm #d.Gray-man #alma karma #allen walker #kanda yuu #they. uh. this started out as a childhood friends to lovers yulma concept but. hmmmm #the poly agenda in me is fighting for allens life #may draw Lenalee n Lavi later! #i had a whole story on IG sigh but I don't want to retype it.... #basicly a modern AU yulma meet when teidoll enrolls baby Kanda into martial arts #master zhu is the teacher n Alma in like the only student 1 bc that's his guardian n 2 bc no one cares abt learning stuff like that anym #vague rivalry bc kanda is a natural n wins most spars even tho Alma has been training for longer (short fuse makes them lose focus) #if i beat u xx outta xx times ull be my friend #anyw n Alma does bc girlboss slays #the focus is Alma coming out as nb/genderfluid later in HS #Kanda is trans so he doesnt care. Master Zhu is old/traditional but is supportive in that awkward way #Tiedoll harasses Kanda into dating 'sm1 nice like Alma' all the time bc Alma radiates boy-next-door vibes #always walks Kanda home always says Master Tiedoll gets along w Kanda's brothers etc #dont ask me abt Allen i just drew him #Alma almost putting some guy in the hospital the first time they dress fem thus cementing the 'Karma-kun is a psycho' #its okay to get violent when its a transphobe < #omg wait Kanda is captain of the kendo club n Allen is a newish member #n Lenalee does photography for the yearbook #my mind #Alma is in Archery #Lavi is student council president

[the-darklings]

What is he if not Lord of unanswered dreams and hopes?

Honestly, it pains me so much that Dream always fails to recognise his own value. That he knows his meaning to the Dreaming, but can’t he see his worth apart from his function. That killed me in the TV series and it kills me here. How often had somebody said something like “you have to do this” or “you don’t have a saying in this” for him to only believe himself worthy as a king for those who sleep instead for a being that deserves to love and dream as well.

I agree, and it's one of the first things I truly appreciated about his characterisation.

To be honest, it's a question that could be argued in many different ways. Past experiences are the first point that pops into my mind. The idea that all past attempts to have something more, to live for something other than his function, is beyond his grasp. Yet, more often than not, if you analyse Dream's pattern, the relationship is either doomed from the start (and he fails to see it/accept it), or he is entirely incompatible with the individual, to begin with. Dream's own inability to form meaningful change is, arguably, half the issue here, if not most of it.

It's clear that Dream is lonely. That he dearly desires something more but has been burned too many times to try and shoulder the potentially another failure. He has such responsibility placed on him that he instead chooses to - as Corinthian aptly puts it - "feel nothing". I think it's easier for him to focus on his duty because the depth of his own loneliness might undo him. Again, it's not a lack of love or even care. It's too much love. Dream is cold not because he doesn't feel but because he loves too much, too quickly, too intensely.

But he is also oh so proud. All those failed relationships and connections are felt so much deeper, even if he's not verbal about them.

#this is why with tibyim i took such slowburn/platonic focus #half the fic is arguably platonic. there are no concrete romantic feelings between them at least until 5. #that thousand years was both about them mutually having a constant but also learning to value of connection #when you really analyse dream's past relationship they were all very sudden and intense #wanderer and dream /grow/ together. they are there for each other without need for anything physical. they learn to care #about each other as people first and foremost. love grows from that care/trust/connection #that's why it simmers so deeply. because it's been nurtured. bruised. then grows stronger with each test. #dream doesn't need another lover just for the sake of having something physical. he needs someone who would love him #for him. but also not be afraid to challenge him. like wanderer says in 10 /because of respect/ not from lack of it. #when i was trying to really analyse them as individuals and potential couple it was important to me that they could stand individually #but make each other better when together. and I don't mean erases each other's flaws but inspire the other to best version #of themselves #byeee sorry about the rant sdjghsdg #asks #fic: today i bury you in me

[originalaccountname]

and all that Chuuya talk is why I have a very specific vision for skk that is extremely hard to come across in fanworks

#i want more reciprocity. i want them to have each other's back and do things for each other. #i want them to be the person they can lean on and who will have their back (almost) unconditionally #i want them to be the person with whom they don't have to always be the smartest and strongest #i want them silly and stupid and having fun because they learned that they're safe together #part of why i'm so in love with my dumb teens and when they're grown ass petty children together #plenty of fics out there for daz.ai getting emotional support and getting pampered and being loved. good for him!!! he needs it #now where do i find the same treatment for chuu.ya. he also has issues. i want him to be taken care of too. i don't want him to be strong. #(<- this is fic bait pspsps i want it so bad) #BUT MOST IMPORTANTLY I WANT THEM TO RECIPROCATE #i want them to take care of each other :( share the load :( #do u get me #apparently i talk sometimes

[imminent-danger-came]

Youtube "analysis" video misunderstood my favorite show, 12 dead 11 injured

#LOSING MY FUCKING MIND #that was the longest and worst 14 minutes of my life #''The plot should be driven through the characters'' ''Why were the baitlings so important why did they bother to save them'' #Tell me you don't care about Ezran without telling me you don't care about Ezran #I'm losing my mind #tdp you don't deserve this #''Finnegran was a bad villian they told his character and didn't show it'' #You just didn't pay attention I'm killing you I'm killing you I'm losing my mind oh my god #every point was a baseless opinion given with no evidence #THAT'S NOT ANALYSIS #Losing my mind #come here tdp. Come here. I love you. #''Why did callum want to learn the ocean arcanum'' idk. idk bro. #Why in the world would Callum want to learn to ''control the tides'' especially with what happened in 4x04 #why would he want that #I couldn't possibly put that together #God it's just like #YOU LIE. YOU LIE WHEN YOU SAY YOU WANT TO BE SHOWN AND NOT TOLD #imp's a little feisty #imp tag

[nebulouscoffee]

Me, attending the latest in a ridiculous number of funerals this year in the place of a childhood friend who couldn't be there, watching the lifeless body of an old lady who used to make me snacks in the kitchen when I was a kid be carted away forever while my friend's mother cries and tells me she's grateful I could be there because it felt like having the support of her own daughter, hugging her and talking reassuringly and not processing a single one of these emotions: ... I am going to write soooo much fanfiction about this

#''this'' being collective grief. because tbvh it's the main reason I haven't written very much this year (but will slowly start to) #I write to remind myself I am lucky. I keep telling myself this but even now when I feel awful I am so lucky #I am lucky that none of these funerals have involved very close family members or friends of mine #and I am lucky to be living in conditions with the space to write and space to grieve #and space to come together to mourn with dignity while people not that far away from me are not receiving the same privilege rn #I am lucky my dad was with me today and I spent the evening chatting with him on the terrace I am lucky he is alive I am lucky I am lucky #(apologies if this sounds like a robot malfunctioning lmao writing is just how I process things) #(and apparently I just don't seem to feel like I have the right to feel bad about any of this anywhere except my st@r trek blog hehe) #anyway. To stay on theme I shall say something about Trills :D #I imagine loss and grief must register very differently to them. very Non Linearly in the literal sense but also a highly abstract one #even I feel this massive sense of time warp between all these funerals; and this chest-crushing distance between me and my friends #how do Trills even exist #how do they wake up every day remembering all those friends and children and parents who loved them and they loved and are gone now #and still function #how does Ezri feel walking around with memories of parents that aren't hers (but were soooo much better than hers) taking care of her #does she feel comforted by them? does it feel like the people in those memories were always comforting HER specifically? #does it even matter who it belonged to originally if a memory is HERS now? #does Ezri mourn for any parents of past hosts more than she knows she will mourn for her own mother one day? #does having all this lived experience bring her reassuring amounts of perspective for a 20-something or just overwhelm her all the more? #idk; but I hope she learns to take comfort in her past hosts' memories of family eventually... #(...again. I am going to write sooooo much fan fiction about this lmao) #cw death