#when trust issues

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

willingly unloved

#ethan winters #leon kennedy #lethan #resident evil #rebhfun #resident evil fanart #roomate au #hello everpony welcom back to crumb cuptoast speculating how re8 and re7 would have changed ethan as a person #hashtag trust issues hashtag paranoia #ok but everyone ethan has ever loved and put his trust into has hurt him #chris hurt him and mia hurt him twice i feel like if he survived re8 he would be way more closed off #i feel like he would also be more aggresive in arguments #in re8 when mia miranda raises her voice at ethan he apologizes and changes the subject but i feel like after constantly being kicked down #he would be a lot angier at the world #hes still sweet but if someone argues with him he will defiently be very defensive

[ruporas]

asking and receiving (bonus below readmore)

[ID: A black and white, digital Trigun comic of Vash and Wolfwood. In the first panel is a close up of Wolfwood's mouth as he says, "Vash". Accompanying it is a close up shot of Vash's eye, widen and cheeks flushed. Wolfwood presses a knee against the open space between Vash's legs and says, "Tell me everything you want from me." Wolfwood's face is equally as flushed. He continues to say, "I'll give it to you. Everything." As he talks, a wide shot shows the both of them in white space. Vash is sitting, leaning a little back with both hands pressed against the surface he's sitting on. Wolfwood is in his white dress shirt, stripped of the blazer. He's still leaning in with one knee in between Vash's spread legs, his right hand touching Vash's lips and his left hand behind his back.

The shot closes in on Vash's mouth and Wolfwood's hand against it, pressing down on the lower lip as he says, "You have to ask though. Go on." His hand moves down to Vash's chin, gently holding it. With a shy and uncertain expression, Vash hesitantly asks, "Um... K... Kiss... Please?" Wolfwood, without wasting a second, leans in and kisses him and indulges by pressing deeper, eliciting a small noise of surprise from Vash.

Wolfwood moves away from Vash first and with a smile, asks, "What else?" Vash tugs on Wolfwood's left sleeve, wordlessly budging Wolfwood to give him his hand that was still behind his back. In the next panel, Vash utters, "Hold me..?" He's holding Wolfwood's left hand with his own while his right hand is reaching for his waist. Wolfwood complies, moving his left hand to Vash's shoulder and his right hand continues to touch Vash's cheek. Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

More comfortable now, Vash leans in to kiss Wolfwood. Wolfwood catches him immediately, pressing his thumb against Vash's lips to stop him before demanding, "Hey. Ask." Vash looks back in surprise and Wolfwood meets his eye with a quiet, insistent look. They're quiet for a moment before Vash leans in again and curtly requests, "Kiss. Me." Wolfwood says "Good", smiling as he lifts his hand away, and meets Vash's lips. In the next shot, Wolfwood had adjusted his position, sitting on Vash's thigh. The hand that was once on Vash's cheek has moved its way to Vash's nape, pushing away the collar of his jacket with his pinky. His other hand continues to grip on Vash's shoulder. Still kissing, Wolfwood asks again, "What else?"

In the next shot, Vash is starting to turn, moving Wolfwood with him. Vash asks, "Let me on top of you?" Wolfwood says, "Mhm" before asking again, "What else?" The next panel shows a close look of Vash's face. He's looking down, flushed and shy just as he had been at the beginning, but now, more decisive. Vash asks, "Wolfwood... Let me have you..?" A panel of Wolfwood taking Vash's hand into his, pulling it towards his chest. The next panel shows Wolfwood lying down where Vash had laid him. Vash's hand is on Wolfwood's chest, covering the cross of his rosary while Wolfwood's hand lingers against his, loosely pressing Vash's hand in place. He looks up at Vash with a shy smile of his own, flushed cheeks. He says, "All yours."

A panel shows a close up of Vash's tender gaze before he leans down to be closer to Wolfwood. The final shot is a front view of their positions, Vash's face turned away from the viewer; Vash is leaning over Wolfwood who's lying down with his right leg draped over Vash's legs. Wolfwood's left hand holds onto Vash's left arm. With finality, Vash says, "...Mine." End ID]

[ID: A follow up bonus comic in a looser, sketchier style. They're laying comfortably in bed when Vash asks, "What was that earlier?" referecing to the start of the previous comic. Wolfwood glances away and says, "To get you used to it. Asking. And getting what you ask for. Since you're alwasy hesitant about it." Vash's eyes widen, tight lipped. Wolfwood continues, "Knowing you, it'll be a tough habit to break..." When he says this, Vash can't help but laugh, unable to deny it. Wolfwood slowly brings a hand to Vash's cheek and continues to say, "So I'll keep trying -- whatever ways I can... to get it through your thick skull." Vash takes Wolfwood's hand with his, kissing the the palm gently. Wolfwood's eyes soften and holding onto Vash's cheek, he leans in to try for a kiss. Vash says, "Hey..." before stopping Wolfwood's lips with the back of his hand, a smug look on his face, "Ask." Wolfwood's embarrassed and with little irritation, asks, "Really?" Vash smiles, saying, "You're in need of practice too." They pause for a moment, Wolfwood looking contemplatively, before he's leaning in again, asking, "May I please kiss you?" Vash looks him in the eyes and says, "Yes." The comic ends with a "chu", indicating an off-panel kiss. End ID]

#vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #trigun #trigun maximum #it took me so long to post this even after getting clarification about the maturity warning and stuff #bc i am so shy about it. SDGMKDSGMKSD I LIKE THIS COMIC BUT IM ALSO SO LIKE... AUGHHHH.... #when i posted this on twitter though it was like... a few days after ep 11? ive always had the thought circling about vash deserving of #asking for things... and getting what he wants bc he never gets both. doesn't get the opportunity to ask and hardly does he get what he want #maybe the results can go in his favor but at some point along the way he'll still lose something bc nothing can ever go perfectly for him... #and he's usually the one begging and pleading with people to not. do something. it's not even asking at that point it's just straight up #please believe me. please trust me. please don't shoot that person. please don't kill anyone. please don't do it. #and wolfwood.... it was not always this lovey dovey ok. he wouldv noticed this habit miles away and they got into a fight about it the first #time they talked about it bc wolfwood is being hypocritical too. as he always is!!!! but i think as they get more intimate #wolfwood finds ways to make vash understand. smth smth insatiable want and love and desire for wolfwood that makes it much easier to ask. #wolfwood can also just be so compliant. sometimes. which is also an issue in of itself that id love to explore at some point #but he also just enjoys giving into vash fully and completely. #bc he loves him a lot. but anyway #i hope the id is comprehendible.... please lmk if there's something wrong with how im doing it asfdgkdsmgs #ruporas art

[stsghrs]

"Don't worry, I'm the strongest" "Nah, I'll win"

LIES LIES LIES

ALL MEN DO IS LIE

#this is why i have trust issues #you believe one (1) man and see what happens #he fucking dies and is dreaming about his man (!) #like are you kidding me rn #i hate him (affectionate) #jjk 236 #jjk spoilers #jujutsu kaisen #jjk #gojo satoru #geto suguru #satosugu #sugusato #stsg #sgst #gege when i catch you gege #gege why #jjk manga spoilers

[whamss]

"Making Rosemary tea drinking lesbians is bad" says Internet User, but not because it strips them of their characterization and turns them into carbon copies of each other, destined to sit in the background while other characters (men) have character arcs around them, but because they aren't Silly Enough. No no, we don't need to flesh them out, we just need to turn them from Wise Lesbian Couple to Comedic Relief. This will fix everything wrong with fandom depictions of them. *Wipes sweat from forehead* Woo! Being a feminist is so tough!

#talk tag #homestuck #if you cant tell im starting to have feelings #obligatory ofc its okay to write rosemary being funni but man is it exhausting when the bare minimum or rosemary thought seems to be #“wait a second! rosemary arent tea drinking lesbians! theyre secretly really funny” with no thought past this #trust me i like writing them fail as much as the next person but yk these are characters right? #you know that they exist outside of each other... right!?!??! #rosemary #rose lalonde #kanaya maryam #recent developments in fandom have managed to invent a whole new flavor of rosemary for me to hate #that accidentally perpetuates all of the issues w them that people have been pointing out for years #anyways i miss them

[pinkd3mon]

I just wanted an excuse to draw my Galacta with a cape propaganda

#kirby #kots #kirby of the stars #kirby fanart #taranza #galacta knight #i think galacta would look cool with a dimensional cape #and it would be fluffy because of their fluffy wings #i know they're supposed to be an angel but common you cant take galacta bird away from me #im just a lil guy its my birthday #i originally made this for galacta's birthday but i slowed down when it was obvious i was not gonna finish it anywhere near that #taranza is a close friend of galacta knight in my mind and you just have to deal with it #galacta asks taranza where did he get the cape and he's like 'i got it from meta knight!!!' #galacta just looks at him unimpressed #and taranza then admits that he actually asked dedede to secretly ask meta knight and that's basically the same thing #meta knight still isnt used to galacta being not murderous so he won't help them if he can help it #meta knight has trust issues #i promised myself i wouldn't mention meta knight if i didnt draw him but im an unreliable narrator #i think dedede and galacta would get weirdly along #ok im gonna stop bye this is really self indulgent

[juniemunie]

Still thinking about ROBTD stories where hiccup is the only one that finished his movie because he and toothless need to be together but everyone else still hasnt gone through their character arcs yet and it makes me laugh

#rotbtd #rise of the brave tangled dragons #jack frost #rapunzel #princess rapunzel #princess merida #merida #hiccup horrendous haddock lll #httyd #rise of the guardians #pixar brave #tangled #junie art post #this is most definitely what would happen imo when they first have to team up #JUST CHAOS #jack '300 year old amnesiac' frost #merida 'i rebel and dont listen at all' dunbroch #rapunzel 'TRUST NOONE'... does she have a last name #hiccup still has his issues dont worry #its usually mitigated by toothless who slaps him to his senses #its just that hiccup would have little to no issues with working together because that was the point of his story

[moonelnone]

Messy comic about his Intrusive thoughts

#one piece #portgas d ace #monkey d luffy #moonel.mspaint #tw intrusive thoughts #cw intrusive thoughts #Ace isn’t really the best and stable person #so I do think he used to have intrusive thoughts and it was especially directed to Luffy because Luffy would always let his guard down when #with Ace because he trusts him like an older brother #but Ace on the other hand still struggles with his issues of being the son of the late pirate king #he thinks he doesn’t deserve someone as special as Luffy so it all gushes up into a bunch of intrusive thoughts that #want to get rid of Luffy and push him away #to try and test Luffy if he really does mean what he said when they swore to be brothers #because if it weren’t for Luffy and Sabo. Ace didn’t really have much to live for and keep himself stable because he was just a child during #those times #. #sorry if I rambled there #i have a lot of feelings about this messy comic

[letitbehurt]

Phrases someone could say to comfort a person in immense pain that they are causing. Eg. Taking a bullet out or field surgery. Thank you my Darling, I love your page!

Thank you Dearest! Field medicine with reluctant Whumpers: an underrated trope, methinks. Here are some relevant phrases that make a little bit feral:

“I’m sorry. I’m sorry.”

“Bite down on this.”

“It’s almost over, I promise—“

“Trust me.”

“Deep breath.”

“Close your eyes. Don’t look.”

“Shh, shh. It’s over. It’s done.”

“This is going to hurt.”

“Try not to scream.”

“Let me see it.”

“Don’t move.”

Additionally, some lines I adore from Whumpee in this scenario:

“Fuck, that hurts—“

“I don’t need that.”

“Just do it.”

“Holy shit, that’s disgusting—“

“Don’t touch me.”

“Stop. Stop, please—“

“Hurry up, just hurry the fuck up—“

#field medicine is so overlooked #it’s sickening #ohhh but when it happens <3 #can you tell I adore Caretakers who get shit done but feel so horrible about it #can you tell I adore Whumpees with severe trust issues who suddenly have no choice BUT to trust someone #and it’ll stay that way #whump

[kelpshippingceo]

you ever think about how lloyd lost his childhood due to the tea, his teenage years to being a ninja + (gestures vaguely at harumi-induced trauma) and his early adult years to isolating himself from the world and grieving his friends? because I do

#lloyd garmadon #lloyd montgomery garmadon #lego ninjago #bro is doomed by the narrative; haunted by the narrative and a secret third thing (narrating the narrative) #raine said something about how desperate he must've been for human connection post merge despite isolating himself #and it's messing me up as you can see #he gave his whole life to protect others' #he needs an existential/identity crisis arc like henry hart from henry danger ngl #“you took an oath to protect this city” “yeah when I was 13!” reminds me of how. yeah sure lloyd willingly became the green ninja #but he was still just a child and he didn't exactly have much of a choice #don't even get me started on his trust issues bro

[cosmicwhoreo]

SOME MADMAN BROKE IN AND BLEACHED MY PEARL!

sPOILERS! He didn’t come back-

#legend of the duskgloom sea #Cookie run #cookie run kingdom #black pearl cookie #Commander Oyster Cookie #When a man gave you trust issues so bad he inverted your colors? #also drew what she'd look like if she wanted to walk on land #CRK #I've been obsessed in drawing in MSPaint and I am not apologizing #mspaint

[carlyraejepsans]

Halfway to the sofa, they stopped, making a small sound like a grumble of annoyance. For a second, the red glow in their eye grew faint. "Sleep," they rasped out in a low, halting whisper, "I saved you an ache in the neck." It took him a second to register that the kid wasn't talking to him. Mostly 'cause Frisk didn't speak. To him. Or ever.

Sans wakes up late into the night and sees something he shouldn't have.

#red eyes and hallucinating and sleeping on my keyboard. WAKE UP. new fic droppedd #fixed up that old wip i posted and added a new bit so i put them on ao3 as well do you remember that sans & chara post i made that was like #uhhh i've got 20 bucks. #this is the fic development of that initial idea. or at least it will be. when i get to the point of actually making those two interact #anyway good NIGHT. i am going to die. i mean sleep. die as well probably. haha get it bc i had no beta #ok goodnight. peace!!!! #undertale #sans #frisk #mywriting #underfic #i promise toriel gets more space for her issues later i needed to set up a tinsy bit of helicoptering first. trust the process etc

[violetscanfly]

Vampire Wei Wuxian & (Ex)Vampire hunter Lan Wangji

#context? don't know her #I wanted to draw something like this for halloween but didn't happen ¯⁠\⁠_⁠(⁠ツ⁠)⁠_⁠/⁠¯ #it's been in the back of my brain from then on though when it turned into a random whole comic page idk #this is an issue for all my digital art but with this I really felt it cause the colours look different on every screen I own #and idk which one to trust #but it is what it is #what a long way to say hope you enjoy this late-ass self indulgent halloween special #mo dao zu shi #mdzs #the untamed #wangxian #mdzs fanart #wei wuxian #lan wangji #mdzs vampire au #fan comic #blood #violetscanfly

[krashlite]

I p I promise I’m not trying to vilify c!Scott but so many problems keep leading back to him the more I analyze this goddamn series and I’m shaking him around like a goddamn ragdoll Sir why are you Like This

Edit: in trying to unpack why he’s like this I went down a very parasocial rabbit hole so I’m j I’m just gonna put that one back in the box actually

#the laundry list includes but isn’t limited to #jimmy’s issues with self worth #pearl perceiving herself as inherently cruel/dangerous #both Cleo and Pearl acting as protectors while rejecting their own personhood #didn’t cause but reinforced Cleo’s trust issues #also reinforced Martyn’s selfish habits #characters obviously #but holy shit why are you like this #also if you’re curious about the rabbit hole #I started analyzing his apathy which led to the whole Logic vs Emotion argument #which led to Societal Issues which led to issues with the MCC event #and that’s when I put it down

[moongothic]

You know I was wondering if Crocodile ever did have any kind of involvement with the Revolutionary Army in secret (lest the Government finds out and revokes his Shichibukai status), what kind of involvement would that even have been

And now, with both the Vegapunk/Ohara flashback and Kuma's flashback, it's being made very clear to us that the Revolutionary Army was broke as hell 22 years ago. Like the fact that this has been brought up twice now in a relatively short span of time is interesting to me, that's usually a sign it's not an unimportant plotpoint

But you know who would have had money to help fund the Army

A funny little warlord who would eventually go and build a fucking casino to run for funsies. A warlord who had to give the Government some of his Pirating Income to keep his warlord-status

Like Crocodile hated the Government anyways so why not help fund the Revolutionary Army in secret, out of spite if for no other reason

Vaguely related, but I keep on remembering this scene (post-Enies Lobby), which at first glance just seems like a basic Lore Dump

But then there's the

"Yet..."

(Or "however", she says "no ni" in Japanese and you could translate that in many ways, I would probably have gone with "however" but that wouldn't have fit into the speechbubble)

Mind you, the conversation just kind of ends there, next we see Garp realize he probably shouldn't have mentioned Dragon infront of such a massive audience, so wherever that "yet" was going to lead to we will never find out, because Oda conveniently changed the subject before we got to it

And you know. Like yes, Robin could be just expressing her shock over finding out that the leader of the Revolutionary Army had a child with someone

But also, Robin was a part of an organization that was trying to overthrow one of the founding countries of the World Government in an explicit attempt to go against said Government (compared to like, Blackbeard, who currently wants to make Fullalead into a "pirate country" that's a part OF the World Government)

Like you don't have to be a genius to look at Crocodile's ultimate goals and compare that to what Dragon is doing and find a few similarities here and there maybe

(Also like, Crocodile's equivalent in Romancing SaGa 2 is meant to be Wagnas, the queer-coded leader of the Seven Heroes (whom the OG Shichibukai are based on) who "hoped to help the world". You know, an interesting detail and all.)

Not to mention, during the time Robin spent with Baroque Works, if Crocodile was ever in contact with the Revolutionary Army at all, considdering she has the ability to easily spy on people and that she didn't trust Crocodile one bit, it wouldn't be unsurprising if she ever spied on Crocodile and/or just overheard a phone call or knew about Crocodile having secret spending habits or something

(Mind you, I'm not saying "she knew" Crocodile was involved with the Revolutionaries, more that she might've been Suspecting Things, that "yet" being about her connecting the dots while unsure if her conclusion was right or not)

Of course Crocodile's plans can't have been Dragon Approved by any means, especially considdering the Army had been looking for Robin for over 10 years (pre-timeskip)

Four years of which were with Crocodile. Like if he was FULLY allied with the Army and KNEW they were looking for Robin, surely he would've called Dragon and been like "hey I found the kid from Ohara, wanna come hang out" or something. But no, he had bigger plans and kept Robin a secret from the Revolutionaries and the Government alike

Also like, I have seen people question why the Revolutionaries weren't involved with Alabasta's rebellion at all, and "Oda hadn't come up with the Revolutionaries yet at the time of writing" (/"OP was meant to end at Alabasta at one point so there would've been no reason to introduce the subplot at that point") aside Between Baroque Works being a secret organization working undercover (thus the Army might not have been aware of the civil war being manufactured), the framing of the King making him look bad and very much the type of monarch that deserved to be overthrown in the Army's eyes, and Crocodile maybe lying through his teeth about what was happening in the country... Yeah, the Army's lack of involvement with Alabasta suddenly makes sense

EDIT Minor addition: Just realized that because Crocodile was technically working for the Government, if the Revs ever did send forces to participate in Alabasta's civil army and taking down the throne, the Government could've easily ordered Crocodile to step in to stop the rebellion and take down the Revolutionaries, right? Because he was supposed to be on the Government's side, right? And surely the Army wouldn't have wanted to fight against Crocodile if they were secretly allied (Croc's secret betrayal aside), and if Crocodile refused to fight the Revs the Government could've seen that as a reason to revoke his Shichibukai rights (which wouldn't be great if they wanted to keep Crocodile in a position where he could fund the Army?). So it could've also been a case of it being for the best for everyone's sake to let this one play out "naturally"

But my point is

I'm just deeply intriqued by these little details and wonder if I'm Actually Masterfully Connecting The Dots Like a True Genius or just seeing a pattern where there's none. Like this is far from confirming the theory, I'm just saying, the pieces do kinda fit together do they not

#Moon posting #OP spoilers #chapter 1097 #I'm just saying Crocodile being the Revolutionary Army's Secret Sugar Daddy would be hysterical #Not me having to tag this as OP spoilers because of one and a half panels from the latest chapter lmao #Also Croc and Iva knew each other etc etc everybody remembers that I don't need to point it out #((Although in Impel Down Iva-chan does actually tell Bon-chan about Crocodile being imprisoned at Level 6)) #((Saying ''he's crazy too in his own way''. Which is an interesting comment. IDK what to make of it. But it's there)) #((Like Level 5.5 was able to access news from outside Impel Down to the point they knew Bon-chan had worked under Crocodile)) #((To the point Iva-chan was like ''weren't you and Strawhat enemies''. So like. IDK I'm just Intriqued)) #You could also make an argument that this could also tie into Crocodile's good ol' trust issues #'Cause if his involvement with the Army was ever found out he'd have his Shichibukai Rights revoked etc #Also interestingly the Kuma flashback has very much skipped completely the period of time during Luffy was born #Going from the founding of the Army 22 years ago to Ginny's kidnapping 14 years ago #Crocodad Real etc (jk) #You know the derangement is bad when I look at one irrelevant line of dialogue and go like ''is this about my blorbo'' #OP Meta

[uncanny-tranny]

The most infuriating form of sanism is this idea that mentally ill people/people with mental disorders are just too stupid or too unenlightened to know how to be a proper, well-adjusted person

So many therapists have ignored signs of my unwellness simply because they assumed I was just... being stupid, and I just needed educating about why I'm acting disordered (apparently, mental disorders stop disordering you once you are condescendingly told why you're just disordered and dumb, who knew (sarcasm)).

Like, I could tell them that I knew my behaviour wasn't "rational," wasn't "reasonable" to do or believe and I'd still be treated like I was so dumb I needed hand-holding and scolding about why I'm acting disordered.

I truly wish that people would be able to take the idea of guidance and stop twisting it into "I am superior and enlightened and the people I am trying to help are stupid and wrong and beneath me!"

#mental health #mental health advocacy #ableism #ableism tw #sanism #sanism tw #yes therapist i was aware that using 1/3 of a bottle of detergent for a medium-sized load of laundry isn't rational... #...and that it could wreck my clothes and my washer (which is why i brought it up in the first place. because i knew it wasn't right)... #...like that's an example and it's SO infuriating just how high of a horse some professionals (and even laypeople) put themselves on... #...like when you stop viewing patients as PEOPLE who need guidance and start viewing them as essentially helpless idiots you have a problem #and that problem should either be addressed or you should leave the practice utterly if you're a licensed professional #call me crazy but i don't think this attitude is conducive to the PATIENT'S well-being #the PATIENT is the person who matters. the PATIENT is the most important part of this ENTIRE interaction #the instance i was thinking about in this tag rant fucking *destroyed* my trust in that therapist #because it just told me that i wasn't being seen as a *person* but as an *issue* #and regardless of if that was their intention i still don't think it was appropriate #you can have the *best* intentions and still be ignorant and say/do ignorant things. even with the best intentions #having 'good intentions' does not absolve you of harm or absolve you of the capability TO harm #another reason i Do Not Like CBTherapy

[decapodparty]

sorry also i feel like the show sort of just brushes over the fact that cas was canonically mindwiped so many times that he just doesn’t remember his past. like its just fully revealed by naomi that he doesn’t recall at least SOME (we dont know how much which is even worse?) very important past events because of how many times hes had to be reprogrammed. and then its never mentioned again!! anyways i think there should have been a lot more of cas questioning his own memories and perceptions of reality (esp after the crypt) and mourning the potential eons of memories and bonds lost because not remembering who you were or what you did is a huge deal actually

#sam faces the same issue too #he was fully entirely manipulated and tormented by THE DEVIL and couldnt trust his own reality #and then he just. gets over it? #yall that is NOT something you forget #but i also believe it leads to sam and cas grounding each other and helping when one of them gets in mental pit #spn #originals