#when flights are cheaper and everyone at work isn't fighting for the same four days off

[arsonforcharlie]

listen champs i know i have the right to talk about my problems but........ like what if i don’t tho

#my family is pretty good on the whole! #but boy howdy have i realized over the past decade or so that how shit i feel after the holidays #correlates directly with how much christmas shit i had to do #my ideal christmas is like one small dinner and maybe a tibb's eve thing #but otherwise just doing whatever i want to do #and my whole family does the Multi Week Obligation Of Dinners Every Night #Every Song Played This Month Has To Be Festive #the entire Christmas Season thing #and it poisons the traditions i do like #because i'm too exhausted to enjoy them #and when i do go home there's no way to say 'yeah i am in town but i don't want to go' #so in a post-covid future where i can travel freely #i would rather stay here for christmas and then travel back to see family some other time of year #when flights are cheaper and everyone at work isn't fighting for the same four days off #maybe see the relatives i choose and actually dedicate time to them #instead of them being stuck in the kitchen taking care of making the evening happen #while i make awkward conversation with my grandma's husband's son's wife #who i have not thought about since i saw her two years ago and i can ensure the feeling is mutual #like i am not even rolling up like 'i don't celebrate christmas' as much as 'i would like to celebrate christmas LESS' #(this feeling has only strengthened since so many of the people who mean so much to me do not live Back Home) #and i know it is foolish to complain about this especially since i do have an easy out #i can just go home when i want to go home #and if i need to spin it as not being able to get the time off #but still jeez may i just Rest