#what the FUCK is ‘shit me sideways’

[gae-ta]

and worst part is that if (when) that nuclear powerplant in Zaporizhzhia blows there is a high chance there will be next to 0 consequences for russia from the rest of the west

like if the russians blew off a nuke then there’s no doubt ww3 would happen but mining a nuclear power plant and then blowing it to high heaven? same radioactive fallout but for some reason it will be treated as a different thing

#war in ukraine #sorry #i hate to be a gloomer but this shit is a real existential threat for everyone over here #and.. uh... i think it should be talked about more #like we NEED media and official news outlets to talk about it #but fuck me sideways i just don't know what i can do about it #like if all western leaders united and drew a clear red line then maybe... #but i don't see that happening unless this shit becomes common knowledge #and western media is just--- why the fuck ain't we talking about this?!

[lady-lauren]

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#oh my god #I #I did it #I got into law school #holy god damn shit #I don’t know where to scream so I’m just #going to be here in these tags #not knowing what to do with myself #I still cannot believe it #I keep reading the acceptance letter #holy fuck me sideways

[teleomancer]

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#so it's Infect Your Friends And Loved Ones with the bit about 'everyone around here knows about you' #even if it's positive- the world pays so much more fucking attention to my life for being trans and it makes me.. shiver? #coffee clerk fumbled every facet of taking my order and the apology landed super duper sideways #'oh sorry! it's just that it's my first time helping *you* is all- just seen you around a lot before. you know.' yeah? know what exactly? #how's that supposed to make me feel? every month they hire someone new and we get to do the same tiring song and dance #another young-20s clerk that will not stop trying to make small talk w/me beats ones that only glare yeah- this isn't pain just frustration #and like YES it's better than the cashier that beats the shit out of my beers on purpose or crumples receipts to hand them to me #or the audible 'see- told you he's a man' commentary when he can see stubble behind a mask on days that can't bother me to shave #like the pharmacists at this supermarket make me well aware that nobody else gets their E here. the store knows the local tranny. great. #genpop cannot reliably be fucking Normal Abt Transfems to the point that it makes me wanna thank the rare coworker that just like. #doesn't treat me like anyone different or special or a threat or a curiosity or an object or a shot to gain social capital for being nice? #getting told by young-20s cis girls that calling me dude didn't mean anything b/c they're 'y'know! *also* [limp wrist mime] *girlypop!*' #hits closer to home than getting called a slur to my face because the latter asshole doesn't pretend to be my friend and just. #skips straight to making me a paper doll in their head of what it means to be me and shaped like me and dressed like me and it's.. slimy. #'everyone around here knows about you.'

[softdom-energy2]

I miss how we used to be.

#ever see a friend slowly fade and be with someone else how they used to be with you #that shit really hurts #really fucking hurts #I don’t know what changed between us #where it all went sideways #it hurts to see them interacting with someone how they used to with me #I feel so non existent now #I want to talk to them but I don’t end up texting thinking they probably are better off without me #and they are #fuck everything #fuck everyone #they’re probably gonna scroll past this anyways #personal #soft dom energy #my ramblings #do not reblog

[chussy]

daily affirmations: i am such a good patient and so good at taking care of my wounds i am so good at bandages

#you may ask what wound are u ok #to that i say: bit of self surgery went sideways and yes I'm okay #it's so minor but it still did get infected and i do not want an undressed fucking toe wound infection to be what kills me #that's some neolithic shit

[papercutsmp3]

god im so pissed

#so as you know i had a project with this other person who helped me with next to nothing and i had to basically do everything myself #and when i asked her to do anything it just looked so shitty that i had no choice but do edit it every time bc it's. open your eyes juseyo #and now shes like you didn't use anything of what ive done in this project what am i supposed to present during presentation?? #YOU DIDN'T DO SHIT ITS NOT MY FAULT she couldn't even paste a picture into frame so that it wouldn't be squished and sideways #im not sending this shit to our teacher it is embarrassing and also it looked ugly and i refuse to let the project that mainly i worked on #look shitty bc i literally did 90% of it and whenever i asked her for help she couldn't deliver well go fuck yourself #it was the fucking worst experience #00

[neverendingford]

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#the phrase 'music is the universal language' is so funny to me #because I heard it from old white conservatives who then proceeded to be horrified by anything that wasn't what they considered to be music #I think it was Sideways who did a video on racism in music theory? idk I watched it a while ago. anyway I was thinking about it again today #the level to which people assume their experiences and knowledge must be universal #simply because they cannot imagine anything outside their life and experiences. #I'm not excluding myself here. I know I'm dumb as shit at least 60% of the time. but like. #knowing you're ignorant is so very different from being ignorant about being ignorant #'music is the universal language' really means 'I wish my kind of music was universal' #something something christianity and colonialism fuck each other on the regular #Sideways also does great videos about music. I think he was the one who did the one on the Avatar music. #I think my tag disappeared when I switched apps to look it up. it's Adam Neely who did the video on White Supremacy and Music Theory

[uncaffeinatedbirb]

Broke down in the middle of a McDonald's earlier because The Great War was playing on the speakers while I read about the No Post November thing and all the shit the amazing writers of this fandom received while I got the email about the elections I was peer-pressued to join.

it progressively got worst from there.

Today has me wanting to curl into a ball and wink out of existence.

#jegulus #no post november #what the fuck was this day even #currently regretting running for secretary #eloquence left the room #braincells yeeted out of the bedroom #Taylor Swift's Midnights are making me sad rn #karma ain't my boyfriend #Happy for the no post november becauae the writers and creators for this fandom deserve and need to step back for their own health #I wanna yeet the haters out of the goddam window #they deserved to be stabbed by Regulus #im against cyber bullying but ppl like those makes my morality tilt sideways #i need rest #midterm break who #im ranting lmao #shit just got worst because as i am writing this i received bad news #marauders era #starchaser #regulus black #james potter

[cidnangarlond]

happy pride month to whatever cid and nero have going on 💜

#to me personally. and this is because I think it's funny this is purely for laughs on my end #I think they're divorced (cid filed and nero never got over it) and cid is doing well and he's like no I'm an engineer I'm vibing #but nero shows up and the vibes go sideways and nero goes GARLOND MY OLD FRIEND and cid is just thinking DIE DIE MURDER DEATH VIOLENCE #nero is just like please :) please can we :)))) and cid is like FUCK no I hate you *spits on his shoes dramatically* and nero just has #to be all :') okay I'm fine. I'm doing fine and well and I am mentally stable and I will not be stealing cid's money later as payment #for having to deal with me. yes I'm an employee and jessie won't let cid fire me now that's what I call job security. and nero #is posting on fantasy facebook feel like pure shit just want him back xx and everyone is replying GIVE IT A REST ALREADY #he has cid blocked on fantasy socials except for once a week he unblocks him and asks if he wants to get back together and when cid says no #nero reblocks him. endless cycle. no one can do anything about it and this torments cid but nero loves it

[weaseltube]

i hate shoes

#sorry my feet grew sideways and not lengthways please can you make a 39 G #i've been trying to buy new walking shoes since september and it is not going #all i get is pain that lasts anywhere between a few hours and a few days for trying on shoes for like 10mins #i've given up and am heading back to the children's section to buy boys shoes but they often just skip EU sizes 37 to 40 #men's shoes all start at 40 and that's a whole two UK sizes larger than my right foot #BUT GUESS WHAT GUYS' SHOES ALL START AT G WIDTH WHILE WOMEN'S ONLY GO TO EE #I'LL FUCKING EEEEE ALL OVER YOUR SHIT YOU FUCKERS #also i had not one but TWO clerks lecture me about how you can't buy walking shoes outside of winter #OUR WALKING HOLIDAYS ARE ALL IN THE SUMMER WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU MEAN NOBODY WALKS OUTSIDE OF WINTER

[killbaned]

anyway. i'm trying not to panic about this shit w mom and how capable she actually is and the possibility she's like. lying. lol. (weirdly i don't think she has the cognition to intentionally lie for manipulation anymore, she just lies out of. panic? idk. it's not The Same.) but like.

i'm gonna be honest besties if shit's still sideways and she ends up still stuck because she immediately gets home and decides she can't do anything i'm making a donation post to help speed along building my moving fund. because otherwise i'm like.

i'm genuinely worried i'm going to fucking kill myself.

#i don't know how to be honest and word that in a way that doesn't feel emotionally manipulative #“give me money or i'm kermitting” feels ghoulish and that's not. what it is? #like i'm fine right now. i don't have A Plan or anything of the sort. but it's also just. #because of the work i need on the car and everything at the rate i'm going it's gonna take me like #two years or more to save up. and if shit is still sideways with her i cannot fucking make it in here that long #at the very least help with moving just into somewhere else still here in town you know? #i can muddle along with the shitty people and shitty weather for a while if i'm in my own space

[woodspenguin]

OH GOD A HOT GUY JOINED MY DND GROUP TODAY! HES A MASSIVE SCIENCE NERD IN A HOT WAY IM ABOUT TO BUCKLE AT THE KNEES

#he’s so hot in a dorky way #like omg #I don’t know what I can do #IM SIMPING HARD #HE LUAGHED AT MY JOKE AND FELT MY SOUL LEAVE MY BODY #dnd stuff #shit post #hot male #fuck me sideways #drooling

[snekdood]

the only way i could be anonymous online at this point is if i deleted everything and stopped caring about my comic and gave up and stopped trying, and while that is tempting sometimes, im honestly just too dedicated to my characters and honestly myself and defending myself and my own dignity to do that.

#bitch im a big ol rock i aint goin nowhere lmao #i used to do that sometimes when i wanted a breather but theres no real point in doing that now #bc if i post my characters anywhere no doubt it'll somehow trail back to my abuser or their flying monkeys #and it'll all just come back to the same old bullshit of ppl stalking me and being really fuckin weird to me and pretending to be my friend #etc etc etc #like i understand at this point that they just kinda think they're this vigilantee justice warrior leading an army against a Great Evil #and im kinda over it all like its just really dumb and boring and they're so full of themselves for it and on their high horse about it all #and its why i suspect sometimes theres rwingers in their audience bc if i can provide all that evidence of them doing weird n fucked up #shit and im still ignored then that to me just tells me. they dont care. like they dont care if their fave acts hashtag problematic bc #they're weirdly loyal to them but then get all up in arms whenever i do anything even extremely mildly conceived as bad #its not about you guys actually being concerned about stopping someone bad. stop pretending. lmao. it never was #you wanna see what you can do with your collective power. you wanna see if its possible to drive me off the internet. like thats it #you dont care about the truth or any bloodshed or anything thats whatever to you as long as you can *feel* like you're doing something #well bitch get over it bc i already know thats what you're trying to do and its just gonna make me glue myself here #i repeat: im not stuck here with you. you're all stuck here with me. #either actually engage with my side of shit and try to understand me and where im coming from or fuck off w your b/w thinking asses. #bc ive been doing nothing but trying to be nuanced over here while yall keep trying to find ways to see me as satanhitler #but i understand that when yall dont have a scapegoat bad guy you get to rely on as a punching bag for your shitty life- #that you can pretend you're punching up when more than anything you're punching sideways or down- #then you dont get to feel like the Good Guy Hero like in All Your Favorite Shows Anymore #bc those shows dont deal w nuance do they? they find an enemy and get rid of him and thats it. #so why should you right? surely reality is like a cartoon. right? #and that maybe you're actually BEING the bad guy by punching down at a trans guy who lives in poverty #and let me guess... my abusers defending the rape of israelis rn too arent they? and yall wont think about that huh #just. any bad behavior they do goes over your heads. you'll defend anything they do to the end #but if i even make the slightest mistake its over. #i kinda think yall are just like... kiwifarm types? like thats what you remind me of.... #i just dont believe you have any real convictions or moral framework. i kinna think you just like blood and i mean. given your fandom.... #not very hard to feel that way.

[neeharlow]

Warning y’all... the next few hours I’ll probably be very active and shit posting. Like a lot. I am extremely manic and on edibles. So if you wish to ignore my ass add ‘stfunee’ to your blacklist for the next 24 hours or so. Or if you just come here for memes, do it too. Honestly dude, no hard feelings if you just straight up block me. *shrugs* It’s fucking tumblr dude, you’re responsible for your creating your own experience here. Also quick reminder: THIS IS AN 18+ BLOG, I WILL BLOCK MINORS. Nothing against minors, (well... most.) I remember being one and being all pissy about 18+ spaces. Just get over it. You’ll be 18 one day.. but uh.. dude, it is not a magic number. Okay, now I’m-- see. This. Just add #stfunee to bypass this... *gestures vaguely*

#personal #don't reblog #stoner thoughts #mania #stfunee #oh #oh shit #well fuck me sideways with a squeaky toy mallet #apparently that's a popular tag #no clue what it means #to me it's just shut the fuck up nee #don't have the mentalness to change it tho

[ghastlytofu]

I don't understand the thinking behind wanting Wyll to be more of a hardline monster hunter traditional lawful good coded guy. One of the very best things about him is how he breaks that stereotype - because he IS for goodness and justice and battling evil where'er it lurks! But it's the kind of Good that knows Hurt People Hurt People and not every monster has to remain so. He's a man of nuance who always, always, always gives "monsters" the benefit of the doubt so long as they're not actively threatening innocent people.

[I'd have taken her head if she spoke to me like that.]

Wyll: I try to avoid summary execution when a sideways glance will suffice.

Astarion fucking bites him - Wyll, the Blade of Frontiers!! a renowned monster hunter!! a man who, by his own admission, has slain vampire spawn before!!!!! - and what does he do? Calls him insolent but charming, says he got the best sleep he's had in ages, compliments his hair and tells him to keep his fangs out of innocent people (notably he does not actually tell Astarion to keep his fangs out of his neck.... unlike everyone else in the party).

He travels alongside, has a lot of respect for and great camaraderie with Lae'zel (militaristic space pirate whom everyone on the Material Plane shits bricks upon seeing) and Shadowheart (ms. when i grow up i wanna be a dark justiciar in a nihilistic shadow cult. maybe do a blood sacrifice idk) and Karlach who he was sent to kill but didn't (unless you did the thing. I did Not) because he decides her life is more important than the inevitable torment he'll face for disobeying Mizora.

He's sooo, SOOOO much more interesting this way than as a Lawful Stupid "why aren't we killing these undead/abominations/astral invaders already alfjakghjkk >:(" hardline smitey ur-paladin fucker whose character arc is learning that oooh monsters are people too oh wowow because he already knows that!!! He already knows!!!! His character arc isn't about acknowleding that monsters have feelings too, it's acknowledging that he has feelings too and is worthy of the same consideration and benefit of the doubt he extends to everyone around him!!!!!!!

#wyll ravengard #baldur’s gate 3