#what more can I do

[zombieunicornjewelry]

#mental health #sad dog #trying my best #what more can i do #why do i feel its not enough #and im falling behind

[addictt-with-a-pen]

what do I have now, but a broken heart and a handful of dead dreams

#all the anger that I held is gone #replaced by such a profound sense of despair #i am so scared #I haven’t been this scared in a long time #what am I going to do #what can I do #I keep trying #but nothing ever works out for me #not a single thing #I’m grasping as straws #attempting to survive #but for what #I don’t know what’s gonna happen to me #but the sadness is winning #so I’m terrified #I want to fade #what more can I do #all the hopes I have are hanging by a thread #my heart hurts #my dreams are dead #so #what’s left for me #… #trauma #traumatized #depression #depressed #broken #personal #my post

[lightpost]

Forgive me?

Will you forgive me? I tried searching for you, for wanting to feel. For wanting to feel a voice I tried wanting a better life a healthy way to be. I fought the darkness and the demons won. I tried. for 3,455 days I battled and lost all alone by myself trusted no one and got abused the damage done will take lifetimes to heal I'm in a place I don't belong will you forgive me? Do you forgive me? All I wanted was your voice, hearing it over the phone or in the next room, I just wanted to be around you, wanted to feel a voice and I wanted it to be yours, I wanted to give you all of me, every dark spot every lightening rod every thunder and every calm shore, I wanted it to be you. Will you please forgive me? I tried going to headquarters seeking you that was a mistake I tried denying and lying to myself that destroyed me more I tried moving on and I tried staying calm I tried writing and I've tried forgetting I've tried moving and the wrong guys I tried sleep for days and months on end. I've tried seeking and prayers and I've tried sleepless nights.. What more can I do? What more? How much more can I take? What will become? I've tried.. now this person is threatening to lock me away so I can't reach you or be with you

I'm trying so hard my brain hurts

Please forgive me.

#please forgive me #I'm trying #saint louis park #lifetime fitness saint louis park minneapolis minnesota #folding towels on fitness floor #sunday night #12912 #his voice #december #heartbreak #grey beanie #2012 #hisvoice #minneapolis #lifetimefitness #writing it out #what more can I do #What have I done #what have i done #idk what im doing

[zytes]

this manatee looks like it’s in a skyrim loading screen

#misc #I encourage anyone dyslexic to try rotating him in your mind. I can’t do that; which is why I’m asking you to. #also: a bunch of tags are surprised this isn’t ‘shopped #it’s the lighting. backlit by the sun (which is diffused through the water) but also forelit artificially #the artificial light - a flash pack or something - casts a hard shadow under the creatures arm #which normally wouldn’t be possible if backlit by the SUN; you’d see a less-hard/more-fragmented shadow above water #as light sources ‘compete’ in a sense - and since there aren’t any light sources which can outshine the literal sun #it looks a bit weird when the darkest shadow is being cast from any other origin point - which is what’s essentially happening here #I don’t know the mechanics of how light travels through water; but I know the effect is substantial even with relatively short distances #also: it’s been balanced and color corrected by the author of the photo - who made deliberate choices to bring out the full potential #so it’s not like it’s a fresh and untouched export #but the kind of ‘tacked on’ appearance of the creature is a result of the lighting conditions within the image

[yourangle-yuordevil]

That time in ancient Greece when Aziraphale needed a speedy horse and accidentally invented the pegasus

VS.

Whatever Crowley had going on in medieval times

#Crowley just really misses the unicorns ok??? #Also Crowley didn't start from a horse to make a new unicorn #he looked at a horse and was like.... nah #then looked at a goat and was like YEAAAAH LET'S GOO LET'S MAKE YOU BIG AF AND YOU CAN ALSO SPIT FIRE WHAT A GREAT IDEA!! #While Aziraphale is fretting over the fact that he accidentally gave WINGS to a HORSE and every time that the angels asks about it he's lik #whaaat?? PegaSUS naaaah never heard about it. Must be a made up thing. humans...right?? silly little things ahahah *sweat nervously* #good omens #crowley #aziraphale #ineffable husbands #aziracrow #pegasus #unicorn #Do I wanna draw the precious good omens beans? yes. #is this an excuse to draw more horses? also yes. #medieval crowley #ancient greek aziraphale #CAVALLIIIIIII 🐎🐴🐎🐴🐎🐴🐎🐴 #good omens comic #historical husbands

[possessable]

Hello i'm a normal person here's some stuff i drew to illustrate different traits different "person getting controlled" tropes can have

edit: obligatory possession shorthand code link because people seem to be using this like the possession code but just. without the code part

edit: DO NOT BE HORNY ON MY POST 💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥💥

#if you see tumblr flagging this its literally not mature i dont know why it got flagged #i like how you can see the artstyle in this change because i drew the first couple a year ago and then picked it up again intermittently #this aws just an excuse to draw a bunch of tiny possessed guys. ''what am i supposed to do with a possession hyperfixation its not like you #can draw possession fanart'' Yes You Can If you really Believe In yourslef #This isn't even all the traits i can think of there's four more but they seem kind of boring to draw and are mostly self explanatory #Less Unique my Ass #ThePossessionHyperfixationIsNeverEnding

[psychedelic-soul]

#music #love #indie #underground #art #pop #rocknroll #spotify #song #60s music #the zombies #what more can I do #1960s

[thenotoriousscuttlecliff]

Sorry, but having Zuko actually fight back against Ozai during their Agni Kai is just wrong. He was a child, only 13 at the time, afraid to fight his own father and was mutilated as punishment, because Ozai saw Zuko's begging and unwillingness to fight as unforgiveable weakness.

The Angi Kai isn't meant to be a showcase of Zuko's fighting potential (that's what the Zhao fight is for), but to show the utter cruelty of Ozai.

#avatar #atla #avatar the last airbender #netflix avatar #zuko #fire lord ozai #i just do not get so many of the changes this show makes #a lot of them just feel like changes for changes sake #so they can say this is what makes their version different #others feel like a clumsy attempt to make their version more adult and complex #but really just do the opposite

[saisons-en-enfer]

Despite everything, emptiness & anhedonia reigns true

#what more can I do #I’m nauseous from the fall

[lazylittledragon]

if i had a nickel for every au spawned from twitter that i SWORE i was going to be normal about

#i'd have like. five. which isn't a lot but IT KEEPS HAPPENING #stranger things #platonic stobin #steddie #steve harrington #robin buckley #eddie munson #here we go again boys #i've had this floating in my head for a Minute and i was like #nah i'm not gonna do it #maybe i'll anonymously write a fic #but no we're mombin posting on main #i think on twt we agreed it's a 'what's the worst that could happen' situation #platonic co parents can be so so so personal #also i have One more stobin wip and then bg3 again i swear #when i have a baby i Will be putting my giant black wings on beforehand #they have to know what kind of family they're coming into #cw pregnancy

[blueboyluca]

“When I first heard it, from a dog trainer who knew her behavioral science, it was a stunning moment. I remember where I was standing, what block of Brooklyn’s streets. It was like holding a piece of polished obsidian in the hand, feeling its weight and irreducibility. And its fathomless blackness. Punishment is reinforcing to the punisher. Of course. It fit the science, and it also fit the hidden memories stored in a deeply buried, rusty lockbox inside me. The people who walked down the street arbitrarily compressing their dogs’ tracheas, to which the poor beasts could only submit in uncomprehending misery; the parents who slapped their crying toddlers for the crime of being tired or hungry: These were not aberrantly malevolent villains. They were not doing what they did because they thought it was right, or even because it worked very well. They were simply caught in the same feedback loop in which all behavior is made. Their spasms of delivering small torments relieved their frustration and gave the impression of momentum toward a solution. Most potently, it immediately stopped the behavior. No matter that the effect probably won’t last: the reinforcer—the silence or the cessation of the annoyance—was exquisitely timed. Now. Boy does that feel good.”

— Melissa Holbrook Pierson, The Secret History of Kindness (2015)

#dog books #this chapter was very sad reading #when you become aware of punishment #and its use and its prevalence #it's hard not to despair #again this is why positive reinforcement feels like absolution #maybe now my eyes are open I can make up for what I did #what I did because it's what everyone does #because it's more acceptable to punish than to do anything else #I've been having so many thoughts about punishment and society and justice #this book was very validating #another great validating moment in my jumbled thoughts #was listening to the You're Wrong About episode on justice #with Amanda Knox #it helped to ease the despair a little

[poopystain]

shes not gay greg

#this was so much funnier in my head but like. its finished now. what more can i do but put it on tumblr. #portal #portal 2 #chelldos #chell #glados #my doodles

[guardian-of-soho]

The more I think about the last minutes the more I’m sure Crowley was saying goodbye from the minute Aziraphale told him he’d said yes to Heaven. He doesn’t confess his love like he’s hopeful, he confesses it like a eulogy. He doesn’t kiss him to make a beginning, he kisses him to seal the end. He watches him go like it’s the last time.

Crowley knows Heaven. He knows they’ll want to either make Aziraphale just like them, or destroy him. Either way I think he believes he’s seen his angel for the last time.

#‘nothing lasts forever’ #‘no I don’t suppose it does’ #that look on his face is despair #to be clear I know this won’t end like this #but he doesn’t #he’s spent six thousand years keeping a little space for them both #he doesn’t know what Aziraphale can do without him #(neither does Aziraphale) #(maybe they need to learn) #(maybe he’ll find he has more help than he thinks) #(if Gabriel and Muriel were so ready to leave who else up there is questioning?) #good omens 2 #good omens #a/c

[caelstyx]

I wanted to highlight examples of actions I've seen people organize to protest the genocide happening in Palestine.

[ID: A tweet by Demilitarize Western Mass @demilitarizewma that reads “BREAKING. We're blockading all vehicle entrances to the L3Harris facility in Northampton, MA. L3Harris is one of the largest weapons contractors in the world, and they profit from war, the prison industry, and the violent occupation of Palestine..” End ID]

[ID: A tweet by Rebecca Pierce @aptly_engineerd that reads “Happening now: Jewish emergency protest blockading the San Francisco Federal building in solidarity with Gaza and calling for a ceasefire and end to US complicity in the occupation of Palestinians.” End ID]

[ID: A tweet by Jewish Voice for Peace @jvplive that reads “JEWS SAY: STOP THE GENOCIDE OF PALESTINIANS! Over two-thousand Jews protested in front of the offices and homes of elected officials in NYC, San Francisco, Chicago, Seattle, Indiana, Florida, and Los Angeles to demand action to prevent the genocide of Palestinians..” End ID]

Last thing I wanted to highlight was this message from Palestinian-American Author Nadia Shammas. You can read the full thread on twitter.

[ID: A tweet by Nadia Shammas @Nadia_Shammas_ that reads “I want to hear non-Palestinians to hold the same faith in their heart as we do that Palestine will be liberated. I dream of a world where, when it’s too painful to keep faith, I can rest knowing they’ll believe it just as hard for me, that they’ll carry it for me just as firm"]

#theres wayy more examples across the globe #i just wanted to put this together mostly for me #to know people really care and are doing what they can #even if it doesnt feel that way #palestine

[ionomycin]

ligament

#artists on tumblr #gonna be real i want to draw more raw things #but with the ever changing rules everywhere i have no idea what's allowed where #i want to draw b l o o d and bare bodies but where do i not get nuked for that #maybe i need to make a little separate side account somewhere #where i can be as unhinged as i want

[aquaheartgirl]

the “Traditional Family Values!!!” party wants everyone to have a traditional family, and yet they consistently do everything in their power to make that literally impossible.

obviously that life is not for everyone, but I personally would love to be be a stay-at-home mom / housewife if that was at all practical these days. but I’d happily settle for being ABLE TO AFFORD A HOUSE AND KIDS. ffs.

“Why Are Young People Not Having Kids” idk maybe because I can apply to 35 jobs every week and still be unemployed 3 months after being laid off from a job I was damn good at because they downsized the company in half to please the shareholders, and when I get another job it’s still not going to pay enough to cover my HALF of the rent on a 1-bedroom apt and groceries, let alone a mortgage or any savings to set aside for a wedding and kids or even just for a rainy day. i’m basically engaged-to-be-engaged and have been for six years bc even a decent ring is out of reach.

But no, obviously it’s just that we’re all lazy and entitled and hate kids.

#I am seriously so terrified that I’m going to die childless at this point #the ONE THING I want more than anything and the one thing that has been the ‘default’ of life #is now a luxury for some reason #(not just some reason. corporate greed mostly) #never ever thought I’d be ready for kids before I COULD have them but here we are and it’s been years since then #someone help me I’m going insane #what more can I do #ahg