connor is Very Conscious Always of how accessible something is, when he asks or expects people to reach for it. he works at New Jericho on Thursdays to try to be more accessible. He keeps his LED so the people he interacts with, who might be afraid of humans, are confident he is an Android (among other reasons). He works with New Jericho to introduce new shelters or refuges along public transport routes, in hotspots for Android crime because that’s where there are people who have nowhere else to go. He meets people who have been afraid, who didn’t or couldn’t ask for help, and he works to find out why that was (because they believed the police wouldn’t help? did they think they needed an LED, money, papers to come to New Jericho? How can he - how can they - help these people who can’t access the things they should be able to access?).
connor is very conscious, because of who he is and where he works and the people he interacts with on a daily basis (how closely he works, with suffering), he is very conscious of what barriers there are that stop people from being able to reach the things that they deserve or the things that will help them. He will rarely ever make a decision without considering whether, and how, it will affect disenfranchised people. he will rarely ever recommend, or fail to comment on, a change that will make it more difficult for people who are scared or hurt or desperate, to seek help. there are a handful of things that connor is exceptionally fluent in. among these are the Truth, silence, and finding ways to make help easier for people who have not found it easy so far at all.
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So I've been thinking through the rewrite I had in mind for open heart and I've decided to put it together chapter by chapter. I might make it into some kind of fanfiction later, but for now I just want to get the outline down.
Chapter 1: Of Dolphins and Sharks
You are an emergency medicine intern at Boston's premier teaching hospital, Edenbrook. The emergency thorectomy occurs as in the original but when the nurses dreamily sigh over Ethan Ramsey, MC asks if that name's supposed to mean something to them, which starts off the running joke of people asking if MC practiced medicine in the woods, which, no, MC just doesn't care to keep up with these doctors outside of any research they've done. MC heads to get changed and encounters Bryce, a neurosurgical intern, and Jackie, an infectious disease intern, mostly sticking to the original, and they all head to the atrium together for orientation. MC is unfamiliar with Harper Emery, but Bryce mentions one of her more famous contributions to a medical journal and MC recognizes her by that.
Then MC meets their senior resident, Zaid Mirani, he's a bit of a jerk but it's easy to read that he genuinely cares about his interns. Throughout the day MC also meets several other doctors when helping emergency patients settle into other wings of the hospital. Sienna is the intern responsible for a kid in the pediatrics wing that MC helped reduce a fracture on and MC immediately notices how kind and warm Sienna is. Elijah is an oncology intern that MC meets when the two of them get lost and are both conveniently looking for the same cancer patient, who is typically an outpatient but was admitted after getting violently ill at work and was brought into the emergency room by handsome and kind paramedic Rafael Aveiro. Landry is a pathology intern who MC meets when running some blood samples from a patient to the lab and he mentions how he looks up to Ethan Ramsey, while MC offhandedly mentions that maybe meeting your heroes isn't a good thing, Ramsey enters the lab and acknowledges MC but not Landry, a fact that awes Landry and makes MC uncomfortable.
The gem scene in chapter 1 is a 15 gem scene where you can just hang out with your new friend group in the cafeteria at lunch and get to know each of them better and learn why they became doctors. You also realize that you guys are really good as friends and decide to move in together, this unlocks the penthouse apartment because you guys jump on it ASAP. It's sweet and friendly while also providing the premium housing without having to resort to underhanded tactics or selling your friend's services. Immediately after lunch MC is getting some menial filing done when the ER is suddenly thrown into pandemonium as a scuffle erupts. Chapter ends.
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first love/late spring is about azula falling in love for the first time and you cannot change my mind.
“wild women don’t get the blues,
but i find that lately, i’ve been crying like a tall child.”
“i was so young when i behaved twenty-five
yet now i find i’ve grown into a tall child.”
azula is fourteen. she’s meant to be a soldier and a weapon first and foremost, to the point that she’s hardly a person. but underneath her manipulation and her viciousness and ice cold exterior, she feels everything incredibly deeply. her first love knocks the wind out of her, and she is so overwhelmed that she simply doesn’t know what to do with it. she is feeling these feelings for the first time in her life. she got to experience other things for the first time at a much younger age-- pride, envy, control. she knows how to handle these. but azula has never once had a free love, one not clouded by competition or expectation or judgement, in her life. it makes her feel like a helpless kid again.
“so please, hurry, leave me, i can’t breathe
please don’t say you love me
胸がはち切れそうで (trans. ‘my heart seems like it’s going to burst’)”
the only time we hear someone tell azula she is loved is when she hallucinates ursa before her coronation. her reaction to this, despite the fact that deep down it’s all she ever wanted to hear, is to shatter the hallucination. she cannot handle hearing those words because she’s truly never heard them, and maybe she doesn’t think she deserves them. she knows what she’s done, and no matter how she can justify her actions she still knows in her little girl’s heart that she’s not been a good person. she can’t trust that anyone would truly love her, and the idea of it absolutely terrifies her.
“one word from you and i would jump off of this ledge i’m on, baby
tell me “don’t” so I can crawl back in”
the only “love” she has ever thought she knew was in her relationship with ozai. her entire idea of a loving relationship is doing whatever the other person wants at the drop of a dime, no matter how extreme. she killed for him, she conquered ba sing se for him, and she tried to kill her own brother, all for ozai’s approval. she would do anything to prove herself to someone she loves or wants to love her, because that’s all she’s ever known to do.
azula’s first love is feverish and frantic and overwhelming. she is fourteen and out of her depth for the first time in her life. she’s just a kid who doesn’t know how to ask for love so she asks for approval instead. she is scared of being loved and she is scared of loving, but she is terrified of not being loved at the same time.
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Obi-wan Kenobi survives near rejection, survives his masters death, survives Anakin, survives the clone wars, and even survives Order 66 and a newly named Darth Vader.
But he’s not sure he’ll survive this.
He wakes up in a familiar place. The most familiar place he’s ever had. He’s in the Jedi temple in his old quarters.
The force around him thrums and sings with joy. Such a different feeling from the reality he left behind. The origins of his departure from his own reality completely unknown.
There are people. Everywhere. A small feeling of recognition deep within his mind, but the reason behind the feeling is unknown.
A tall, broad man sporting long grey hair, steps forwards. His hands shake as he reaches for obi-wan’s face. Too numb with confusion to stop the hand. It cups his face, stroking along his cheekbone, and the confusion heightens.
He watches the man open his mouth, words on the verge of escaping. He looks up at the door as it slides open. Pausing a moment obi-wan follows his gaze.
Standing in the doorway is the tall thin figure of Anakin Skywalker. He recognizes him above anyone else. Obi-wan hears the force whisper something about the living. Only remembering ￼those alive in his own reality.
His blood runs cold. Obi-wan could almost feel it stop flowing.
Before anyone had the chance to react to his fear he was pushing the hand away from his cheek and running into the corner across the room. One hand stretched in front of his body ready to defend himself, and the other cupping his stomach, only just starting to swell.
Anakin didn’t advance. Instead he stopped, raising his hands up and backing into the door.
Obi-wan can feel the room was watching him. He feels his breathing quicken. Tears prickle at the corners of his eyes. There is talking around him but his eyes are only trained on the deep clear blue of Anakin’s.
No yellow in sight. No red, no anger, no fear or rage. Just deep blue confused eyes. This Anakin reminding him so much of his lover. So much of his own Anakin.
Then the room goes black.
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