#what makes it worse is bc he’s a god he Knows

[eggbagelz]

gale voice here feel the pulse of the magic in my heart that will eventually be the end of me. im on my knees before you like an animal showing its belly. im in excrutiating pain bc of the contact with the magic in my heart but please dont take your hand away please dont stop touching me

#gale of waterdeep #paydja plays baldur's gate #the relationship a lot of the companions have with their bodies is fucking fascinating #but gale and karlach's relation to their heart and to human contact is particularly compelling #i cant say who has it worse bc thats a stupid comparison to make when they both have hearts that could literally detonate at any moment #[ik that karlach cant do human contact at all and gale cant but im talking abt emotionally significant contact which is smth they share] #but rn im focusing on gale ill talk abt karlach later #hes so interesting like hes initially played as arrogant but i think that whole thing with mystra #really fucked him up bc he talks abt himself like hes. not a means to an end per se but u get the gist #you can see the way he talks abt sense and sensuality and emotional connection but as soon as you actually offer it via flirting or just #genuine compliments hes always surprised and always changes the subject #partially out of like. emotiona damage and partially bc he doesnt want to go boom #ANYWAY WHAT IM SAYING IS hes in pain bc of the contact being made with the magic that makes up his heart but #by god please dont take your hand away. please dont stop touching him. please #i hate this fucking game i hate it so much #chattering #sorry for the analysis it WILL happen again #im talking abt gale rn bc hes my favourite and currently the character i know the most about via gameplay #but there is PLENTY i can say abt everyone #god i keep saying this but its like why are you so good sometimes and also so bad. fucking Larian.

[pcktknife]

thinking xinyans spikes make her look unappealing........

#imma explode i cant stand genshin fans bro yall dont know anything #thinking shes out of place in her country bc of her eng accent and rock and roll....shes pioneering a new genre she punk shes literally #is not meant to fit in #ive never seen a worse read of her character #also moving her to mondstadt would better her character at all 'make her barbs best friend' YUNJIN IS RIGHT THERE #theres literally a dynamic of a traditional opera singer being friends with a musician of a new genre how the fuck do you think putting her #in mondstadt would better her character #and saying her being brown doesnt affect her popularity bc kaeya is so stupid as if kaeya isnt a character you 1) interact with multiple #times 2) has lore directly tied to a huge plot point of the game 3) is brothers with diluc and also has that lore happening #she and kaeya have different number of fans cause kaeya has more lore and has more importance to the story her being brown could still #effect xinyans popularity regardless of what kaeya looked like he was probably always gonna be popular #im gonna explode no one's allowed to have opinions on xinyan but me now cause what the hell did i just read #kae.txt #ive never had the interpretaton of a character piss me off so bad oh my god #mhy

[silenthillbunni]

🐰🌧️

#so on my way home.. #i walked by a school and besides the fact that i felt so depressed bc just looking at these kids and adults i have NO hope for the future #i saw two boys on a bench as i walked by... and i just thought they were talking. and too late i realized that no one of the boys were #bullying the other boy. the bully walked away and the other boy just sat there looking so lifeless and dejected #a teacher came and sat down w that boy and i just kept walking. even if i wanted to say smth it's like what would i even do abt that situati #that made me so sad both bc that boy.. he looked so dejected and used to it. that anxiety going to school knowing you're bullied is awful #and like i imagined talking to him and saying heyyy if you're lucky you'll grow up to be 25yrs old #live like a parasite off your mom and be on wellfare and never have had a job :) #you'll have no education or highschool diploma :) you will still struggle to finish hs even at an easier level :) #you will also not have had friends in 10yrs and you'll be terrified of ppl and getting close to anyone and even going outside!! #you'll have no interests and hobbies and skills! you'll simply be a waste of space loser being a burden on everyone around u! #whoop whoop stay alive buddy it will only get worse ❤️ #god i just wanna cry. how did i let my life turn out this way??? i used to be full of dreams and life and passion and HOPE #i used to believe in things and in people. i had so many dreams and i wanted to try and do so many things #now all i can think is 'i wanna die i wanna die i wanna die'. im miserable wherever i go lmao #there's this bridge over the highway i have to cross when i walk to school and every time i look down at the trafic and when a truck drives #by i feel my entire body vibrate. i just wanna jump and get mauled by it. #or i dont *want* to but i feel so deeply and desperately that it's the only way for me #only way to make it stop hurting. and i am weak. i dont know how to just 'stop' or take control of my life. thats why i wanna die #bc i know that i wont be able to. that my life will never amount to anything #for fuck's sake my dream now is just to have my own 1bedroom apartment and have a shitty job - like in a grocery store or whatever!!!!! #not even that can i make happen! bc im so worthless i cant do anything. im also stupid so i wouldnt be able to do my job right #i dont know... i dont know... these feelings and thoughts are too much i just wanna relax #but i cant bc my ribs hurt and idk if it's heartburn or an ulcer 💀 why am i even alive???? what am i doing all this for? 😭 #my thoughts ran away but i meant like seeing that reminded me of how much of a failure i became #bc of my circumstances and all the shitty ppl around me thru out my life

[betelgeusing]

marty hart's cyclical return to praising family as THE thing that keeps a man grounded, stable, and happy (specifically in pointing out that rust DOESN'T have a family) even as flashbacks show him spiraling into jealous macho violence as he lies to, mistreats, and destroys his family over the course of multiple affairs (by which he deliberately steps outside of and away from his family despite his wife's best efforts to get him to reconnect and step up to be the family man he sees himself as)

vs

rust cohle's repeated excoriations of the idea of individuality and personhood and the stupid self-centeredness and entitlement that comes with saying "I, a human being, matter to the universe, and the things I do matter", an ideology he carries for years and waxes poetic on for his interviewers as late as 2012, even as he obsessively works himself to the bone to get justice and resolution for the victims he's assigned and ultimately to protect children from the powerful and dangerous people who want to brutalize them

#true detective #so what if it all goes back to Melville and Milch. every great character spins against the way he drives #I know this is the point of their characters I know other people have said it before and better #but I go through it every time and this time Marty is hitting me extra hard. bc with Rust it's basically screaming in your face #Rust says humanity (without exception) is stupid selfish and vain and we're fools to convince ourself our actions matter #he then proceeds to take a job where everything he does matters SO MUCH. and to CARE about that job deeply and obsessively #but Marty... I've really noticed this time how Maggie calls him a coward multiple times in her efforts to pull him back to his family #and she's right because he's too much of a coward to face that gaining the sainted ''family'' hasn't fixed him! #it hasn't made him stop wanting to fuck other women #it hasn't made him the household hero the perfect father and husband the savior of the women in his life #he thought it would and when it doesn't live up to the fantasy he checks out completely #and even in 2012 when his marriage has fallen apart! he still lauds marriage and family as the thing that makes a man good! #despite all the evidence in front of him that he became WORSE after becoming a husband and father. he can't let the ideal go #he has good intentions at his core but he's obsessed with the idea of being a good ol boy and a family man #he shits on Rust for being isolated because he's scared to face the idea that he-- Marty-- would have done less damage on his own #sorry for the tag novel they make me want to bite. and knock their stupid empty heads together really hard #btw this show would be 75% less effective if they had not filmed on location. big brain move thank God for the TD S1 location scouts

[hazardsoflove]

thinking about social worker percy again

#ppl who seriously believe hes gonna be a marine biologist. do you even fundamentally understand percy as a character #like yeah hes the son of poseidon he can talk to sea creatures but guys. thats not enough to make someone passionate abt something #and guys. the amount of math and science that goes into that??? i love percy and hes boy stupid but he is also not doing all that #*not stupid <3 #teacher percy is like. its fine but i dont agree with it i dont think he would have the patience or want to do something like that #but social work. with the way he grew up (and we love sally we know she was with gabe to protect him) and what he saw at the hands of the #gods not bothering to give a shit abt their kids and how he still felt unwanted by his dad and how he turned down godhood and instead asked #for the gods to give a shit abt their kids and stop making them feel so unwanted bc he knows how that feels and it fucking sucks #and i know damn well percy never wants to see another kid experience what he did. and hes great with kids ; #*(estelle for example obviously but he was also good with nico who had it worse than him) #and i know in my soul that this is what he would do #and everyone else is wrong bc i know him better than anyone else #r.txt

[bangcakes]

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#LMAO.... i was not meant for this loveydovey shid. i am sooooooo lovesick its not even funny #like can someone save me. its gotten so bad #i talked to my mom about it on n off for like 3 hours NDNDJDJJDJD #im just !!!!!!! ah.... i have to be patient. thats just what i have to be #bc rushing will only make things worse #and i cant be heartbroken during the semester. like thatd suck #but then.. i also dont knownif i wanna be in a relationship during school either??????? #like can i handle it or will i go so googoo eyes that i flunk out aJdkdkdkdkdkd #and IN MY LAST TERM????? #like hhhh im so scared i'll never see him again when schools over. which... ok unlikely bc we have the same friends #but even if we DO see each other it wont be as often as now !!!!! #hhhhh i wanna see him everyday 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #HHHHHHHHHHHH GOD #feel like im gonna end up confessing to him the last day of school NDJDJJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJDJD #which !!!! again bc we have the same friends....... could be sooo detrimental!!!!!!!!!!!! #but god i cant just be just friends alright. like hhhh !!!!!@@@ i like him so much 😭😭😭😭 #his eyes are so kind n like the way he looks at me i just !!!!!!!!!@@@ baboom baboom baBOOM.. !!!! ya know !!!!!!!!@ #n e way....... im not seeing him tomorrow (heartbreak hotel) so now i gotta wait A DAY????? incomprehensible #personal

[caramelmochacrow]

fearing death as a trans person hits different. if you died never coming out, changing your name or just doing whatever makes you feel happy with your body it will never be shown in your funeral and everyone will never know you as who you were inside. something about if you died and you DID come out, you did do everything that made you happy abt your body but the one relative in your family that didn't accept you had to fix up your funeral they misgender you and place the wrong name on your grave anyway. or if the relatives that did accept you fix up your funeral with the correct pronouns and name but those who didnt will still misgender and deadname you even when you die. idk man.

#not tagging w my tag. #some thoughts after i had a daily dinner discussion with my family. haha.... #i know what my parents told me was to comfort me but i knew deep down that they'll never accept me. #something abt how they want me to be comforted with the knowledge that i can go to heaven bc i believe in god but i know when i say im tran #im going to hell bc it's a sin in their eyes. that's how they think. #i can identify as gay or whatever as long as i never act on it. i can be a man for myself but in front of other people i cant. #i heard my mom saying that abt my cousin. my cousin is trans too but they havent said a single thing bc they knew they wouldnt accept that. #theyre already a lesbian so adding being trans to that just makes their situation worse (in my parents eyes anyway) #hell. my mom wants my aunt to move here but also doesnt bc she doesnt want her to be able to marry her girlfriend. (bs if you ask me) #my mom's glad as hell that my aunt loves her dogs a lot bc that means she cant move here. my uncle can tho bc he isnt poor and gay. #im sorry for the sudden negativity wow just. thoughts. #when im gonna graduate from highschool here i can get a jacket that says my name. i hope and pray that i can put “toffee” or even “crow”

[pissfizz]

I’m going to lose my mind oh my god I am so scared for this quincenera wtf

#NOT MINE BTW I MISSED MY CHANCE LMAO #but Jesus Christ family I’ve never met before flying in from Panama…. god I’m so scared #I’ve already been dealing with some wack ass imposter syndrome ass shit cuz of how I was raised this is gonna make it SO MUCH worse #I DIDNT EVEN KNOW PANAMANIANS GOT QUINCES #i was raised with almost zero influence from any culture whatsoever I wasn’t even raised close to that side of the family #and like I’m mixed with white but I can’t even use that as an excuse cuz the cousin who’s quince it is is also mixed #and that side of the family is super tied to the culture and they speak Spanish and shit #i don’t even speak Spanish even if the family from Panama doesn’t think ima. total embarrassment what if most of them don’t speak english #when I’m surrounded by white people 24/7 I feel like a total outlier but the second I’m around anyone else latine I feel like that but WORSE #i don’t speak Spanish I don’t know anything about the culture I’m from the fucking pacific northwest and do digital art and watch anime #i am so far completely removed from everything I’m gonna be sick #my grandma is already so judgy about stuff my uncle was even WORSE and made fun of the stuff that was too white or too American about me #my cousins throwing the party are the least of my worries cuz at least their mixed and second/third Gen too #but oh my god the family I’ve never met before I’m so scared I’m so scared #i was already thinking like. can I even call myself latine bc of how I was raised and how far removed I am from everything. I’m mixed so - #-should I just associate myself more with the white side of my family. am I being fraudulent by identifying with that term just bc I have - #-the blood is that even enough maybe that kid had a point when he said I shouldn’t count as hispanic if I don’t know spanish #and thinking about showing up to my cousins quince as. me. it’s terrifying it’s awful I want to go I want to meet these people I want to - #-celebrate my cousin and be happy for her but GOD what if everyone hates us and just tolerates us cuz we’re related to them #i would say we’re the black sheep of the family but I feel like white is more fitting cuz I feel like we’re just slightly brown white people #god god god I’m so stresssd out by this #is this a weird thing to be worried about is this stupid is this selfish #and to make matters worse I DONT KNOW WHAT TO GET HER FOR A GIRT #vent

[hauntingblue]

Strong world is the nami and luffy twins manifesto written by oda this is my one piece.

You see luffy's finishing attack with his giant hammer being fueled by lightning which is nami's main weapon with her clima tact and she even made the guy steer the islands towards the cyclone so even if the lighting isn't produced by her the lighting is provided by her either way so luffy AND her finished that guy and even luffy attacked after nami announced how he will lose which also means nami knew and trusted luffy to end him after that and of course he did and

Oh my god luffy making nami explain herself about the message he left on the tone dial and being pissed that she didn't trust him to save and protect her but he got so mad and didn't hear the whole message and she asked luffy to save her omg....... she knew after all that they will come and win..... I love this ending I am going to walk into the sea now goodbye.

Why are whitebeard and ace on the ending credits I already cried. Watching aces part again cause he looks so good. Hello alive dead wife

#the animation in this one..... hell yes..... #img little luffy i missed you!!!! robin doesnt look like herself in this one and franky doesnt have his voice 😞😞 what a disrespect in his #first movie appearance....... franky i will avenge you. your fit is hard tho. well his voice could be his va with a cold. its weird #why is brook smoking a blunt ajdhsksj and sanji tease...... #the 3d is too good here.... and someone wants nami bc of her abilities instead of like well everything else.... i might accept this #sanji going insane ajdksjsk zoro what are you wearing on your head...... #love the duck following nami like well a baby duck... omg i thought if the duck electrifies the animals in the water nami is fried too #and indeed he was i didnt expect it to follow logic ajdhsj nami found luffy of course #why is nami on top of luffy ajdhsjs doesnt she trust the bird to fly or what #THE BARTENDER FROM THE PIRAGE RACE MOVIE IS HERE TOO!!!! #nami getting arlong flashbacks but now worse #kinda love the crew being protective over her and not to fall into stereotypes but it goes off every time.... they got her away form arlong #nami and usopp omg...... nami once again sacrificing herself... suffered more than jesus.... also her bracelet... i didnt know that #luffy is so mad.... he gets so mad when people leave.... (he gets sad but ofc he cant be sad so next best thing) #NAMI GOT SICK FROM THE TREES!!!! WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT!!! #they got changed and everything..... did robin tell them they had to follow the dress code and they all did?? qjsjaka luffys first cape also #luffy that was such a slay. why are they all carrying fire power. he called them a suicide squad... and well a lot of them actually #wasnt expecting this to turn into a mafia movie. surprised luffy knows how to shoot one of those. #nami isnt gonna sacrifice herself luffy said... while she rigs epxlosives in a place she cant move.... luffy she needs an intervention #oh my god. nojiko telling her to have fun.... every time i remember luffy promised gen san to keep her happy i die a little #luffy is gonna get a stroke he is so fucking mad 'nami ill beat this guy and well go back together' ok 🥺🥺 #sanji understands perverted gorilla 😭😭 #brook got robin instead of sanji.... sick ennies lobby reference bro #also how come franky didnt get his own movie.... like in this one franky AND brook join. confirming my theory that brook doesnt let franky #get confortable in the crew and be with them as the new one for a while bc brook joins immediately after and he doesnt get time to breathe #nami don't cry omg.... she was ready to never see them again omg #i thot nami was gonna electrocute him..... or make him eat the cyclone or smth.... well she said her peace at least #talking tag #watching one piece #watching one piece movies

[themyscirah]

Started thinking about the Amanda Waller + Ben Turner relationship again.... fuck, I'm gonna need a minute

#I JUST- SHDIAUDJSHDSHEYEYRYRYRY guys. guys #i know none of you see my vision and thats okay. i will make you see my vision. i will force you to see my vision. i will- #like jesus fucking christ oh my god. its so interesting and gives me so many emotions and just!!! #i know im not making sense bc none of my moots are sui sq fans and also like half of the content fucking me up specifically here is in my #head because i cant stop thinking about my absolute power fix it au but like!!!!!!! #also the fact i have a fix it for a comic that isnt out yet is so funny to me. its literally fucking real though. god knows we need it #may my own content carry me through the dark times (extreme villain waller arc) #anyways this fucks me up so bad you dont even know. someday ill actually explain it #dc hire me to write a suicide squad ongoing PLEASE. i could do it so good it would be so fucking good dc PLEASE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also like this isnt me shipping them btw. like 110% not that. just to clarify. #i wouldnt even call it a friendship bc like. theyre not friends really. he has the most equal dynamic with her i would say but it still isnt #equal. shes v much his boss even though they have an understanding and respect there #like she believes and trusts in him much more than anybody really even himself. like she sees the good man and the leader even when he #doesnt. but she isnt nice about it. and there is a lot of conflict between them when there needs to be #like as much as ben is “wallers man”--the team leader she wanted from the beginning before rick flagg pushed his way in #ben i would say is still a very moral person even when lost and unsure of himself and his goodness (which is like one of his main things) #like i feel like while amanda can lean very into a “the ends justify the means” mindset in her worse moments and do bad things to get #herself out of a corner ben has like a deep and meaningful understanding of how the choices of your methods and how you act can weigh on you #like even though he was brainwashed and whatnot (thats still the story right? i cant remember) he holds a lot of guilt and baggage over his #actions and i think is able to temper amanda's worse tendencies in terms of that by calling her out when he recognizes that behavior #idk. i just really think that amanda waller and the suicide squad as a whole has lost its way without a more moral authority presence there. #like someone who can call her out and keep them more on track. which i really thing ben is and could be #i just very much am interested in their dynamic and how that would look like as equals and how i think they could help each other. #which ofc is what my wip is about and revolves around #blah #sui sq

[finnpeach]

x

#expect. a bananafish fic guys bc I love this show and I already know it’ll end in tears #but I refuse to let them go without a happy ending #I’m only on episode 18 ugh but I can tell it’s just going downhill. it only gets worse from here #*slight spoilers after this* #i mean it’s not really that spoiler-y but I’m going to say that they got away happily ever after and left to Japan and everyone left them #the fuck alone #side note can someone explain to me what fucking language these characters speak in. I’m so lost #I’m watching in the dub btw. but ​ash made fun of eiji for not understanding English #or at least not being able to read it quickly #and then when he had a fever (god that was so fucking good) #ash was like oh ibe is coming over I thought you’d want to speak Japanese when you’re tired #like bitch are you NOT SPEAKING IN JAPANESE RIGHT NOW????? #what LANGUAGE ARE THEY MEANT TO BE SPEAKING IN IF ITS NOT JAPANESE!!!!! #I’m just going to pretend they speak English but eiji can’t read it for shit #bc why else would an American kid from the streets of New York know Japanese #wait wait wait I’m so fucking stupid I just said I’m watching in the dub but I meant the sun I MEANT THE SUB!!! not watching in the dub #never that I never watch dubs bc I find the voice acting cringe #anyway yes in the sub ash makes fun of his English and then says that he’d want to speak Japanese since he’s not feeling well #but girl you are speaking Japanese right fucking now so. someone help me understand

[dumplingcatho]

fucking annoyed by matty healy wtf man FUCK performative activism and fuck him

#for those who don’t know: the 1975 performed at the good vibes festival in malaysia #and got banned and later got the ENTIRE festival cancelled for a kiss between two male artists and his (drunken) tirade against the- #-msian govt for their homophobia #yes it’s an act of protest yes the govt deserves to be called out BUT BUT BUT #it is. so incredibly fucking selfish and reeks of performative activism and white saviourism #it’s quite apparent from his actions he doesn’t know or care the reprecussions queer malaysians will face in the wake of his actions #he’s jeopardising the safety of queer malaysians bc they WILL be the scapegoat and face the brunt of the govt’s actions- #-following what he did onstage #the 1975 can easily fuck back off the the UK but queer malaysians will be stuck here facing the consequences of ur selfish actions #AND he’s discouraged organisers from finding queer friendly or queer acts and said acts will be discouraged from coming too #he’s just provoking the govt and making the situation even worse #not to mention the festival??? the organisers and other musicians and ppl who paid and came all the way out to watch this?? #the entire festival is cancelled now wow good job #god. #personal #rant

[dutybcrne]

Smth smth, Khaenriahns having similar thing to the Ackermans in AoT

#//The whole 'power that can be Awakened in times of duress' #//Exhibiting increased physical abilities; gaining the combined power of Khaenri'ahns before them via some connection to them #//I like it v much #☆ ┆ ( .ooc. ); #//Also v much like the Ackerman Protectiveness™ being PART of it. It wasn't inherently in the og; I know; but IMAGINE #//In addition to getting that Awakened Power; it also lets Khaenri'ahns form a sorta Warrior's Bond w the one fighting w them in the moment #//So the trigger for it would not only be survival; but also a sense of Protectiveness over sb. Not necessarily romantic or anything #//Just a strong feeling of attachment & fealty to the one would TRUST with your very life; reflexively as breathing. Who'd do so in return #//Which would make me both laugh and cry if you consider Diluc & Kaeya #//Just #//Lil bby Kae activating the bloodline instinct during an outing gone South; & having a Crisis bc Luc's not Khaenri'ahn #//Does it even MEAN anything? Will HIS instincts go haywire bc Luc's not Khaenri'ahn? Are the gods gonna PUNISH him for it? #//For imprinting on a Teyvat-born; gods-blessed mortal? Or worse; in doing so; would Luc be damned in the process too? #//Meanwhile bby Luc the INSTANT of their oath to be sworn brothers was just. Already Like That. No Khaenri'ahn bloodline influence #//Heck; mans dramatic ass was prolly Ride or Die; from the START; then with that he had MORE incentive. The perfect fit to complement it #//Close to mutual enough until The Confrontation; then Kae's left reeling. There was nothing to sever on Luc's part; but it still Hurt Kae #//It's in his BLOOD to care abt & protect him. Prolly drive Kae mad when Luc went off to Snezhnaya & went through Hell; knowing he Caused i #//STILL resolved to help & support Luc; as per the inherent purpose of the bond; even if Luc won't want him to. What else can he do? #//The pain of Luc keeping him at arms length & aftermath of the betrayal is Nothing compared to what Kae'll feel if Luc dies; he figures #//And in Different Case; imagine Dain & Halfdan. A bond formed in the most Dire of times for Khaenri'ahns; them already having been close #//Maybe love already having budded b/w them. Only for an extreme life or death to spark it further; as their bond was Sealed #//Imagine if the mutual bond also let them sense each other's emotions; perhaps not ENTIRELY; but Just Enough to tell if they need help #//So if the other needs them; they can Tell right away. To be spurred to action and rush to their side in times of need #//With that; them Immediately sensing the difference as of That Day. The JOY in realizing the very mutual feelings they had in additon #//Feeling each other's love seeping through their bond; fond little bursts & flares felt whenever they think of each other; when they smile #//Warm feelings shared; even when they were apart. ESP then. Them hurrying to the other's side when they sense a dip or cold feeling #//Imagine how it would feel when Dan died; Dain's reeling from his own anguish & Dan's pain; Dan's grief in leaving him like this #//& the Emptiness Dain would feel; as bond b/w them would Shatter as Dan draws his final breath. A part of his heart & soul carved out #//Lmao; this all happened bc I was like 'Ey what if Khaenri'ahns were just Built Different' #//I do like this concept; gonna file it away for later

[opens-up-4-nobody]

The crunchyroll comments on the flashback episodes to the founding of Konoha make me feel absolutely unhinged. What the fuck r u complaining about??? U r getting the backstory of why the naruto world is so fucked??? This is the literal heart and soul of the show??? What the fuck do u mean u don't want to feel sympathy for the villians????

#i feel like if i talked to a naruto dude bro i might lose my mind #i assume they watch for the fights and thats it and im the the sap caught up in the feels of it all #but like i profoundly dont understand #god. the episodes r so good tho. i wish they were longer. i wish there was more #i wish there was so much more tobirama bc i love him a lot. irrationally bc hes making everything Terrible but also i get it. but also hes #making it worse. god so much angst #it's still slightly weird bc i know theres slightly more but idk whats canon and what fanon #so idk where it comes into play #lmao i was so impatient to get to the founders i skipped like 10 eps so i gotta go back #i just love them so much #also sage mode hashirama. i gotta draw sage mode hashirama. how have i not drawn him like that. i lov #hhhhh im losing my mind #unrelated #naruto ramblings

[kkujo]

out of tags bc i rambled but i wanna add on that often gym culture is a rlly supportive and confidence building environment and there's so much positive gym content but unfortunately some ppl do take it in the wrong direction and it becomes like. toxic gym bro culture. we do not like that. take care of ur health physical and mental first and foremost always!!!

#like there are so many rlly nice gym videos with people being helpful and supportive and just really nice #i've had ppl approach me in the gym and start rlly pleasant convos and it's just such a supportive environment to me #but you gotta know what to avoid w content bc a lot of people are weird abt it and promote unhealthy behaviours and fixate on dysmorphia #which. i understand from experience and dysmorphia SUCKS. but it's not healthy to be obsessing over that type of mindset yk?? #also the gym you go to will probably make a difference ig?? like my gym is a really nice environment i find #but ik some gyms people are more rude or constantly filming and for some ppl that's just gonna make it a horrible environment #it depends where you go i think. grateful that my gym is normal tho. i've only had to tell off teenage boys for filming me one (1) time #and even then i was polite i was like hey can you not get me in ur shot pleaseeee 😁 and thankfully he was like omg yeah sorry #so. could've gone a lot worse bc. teenage boys. but i don't think he was intentionally pointing the camera at me yk 😭😭 #you just have to have the confidence to stand up for urself if people are filming and you're not comfortable being on it #which is hard asf omg the anxiety was so high but he was respectful thankfully. and i rarely see ppl taking pics in my gym thank god #ANYWAY. DONE RAMBLING NOW THANK YOU FOR LISTENING. #it's just smth i'm strongly passionate abt and i don't talk abt it too often bc ik some people don't like the topic and i totally get that

[troublcmakcrs]

//OH THIS SEASON IS ALREADY FUCKING ROUGH DUDE, IT'S FUCKING ROUGH

#misc :: ( ooc ) #//season 19 is probably my favorite season so far (minus tweek x craig) #//and then i get 2 episodes into s20 and i'm on the verge of tears #//like i'm sTRAIGHT-UP NOT HAVING A GOOD TIME #//I HOPE GERALD DIES LIKE AAAACCCTTTUUUAAALLLLYYYYY #//LIKE ACTUALLY FR #//man just ruins the lives of dozens of elementary school kids and THRIVES off of it #//AND APPARENTLY HE GETS EVEN WORSE #//THEN I KNOW VAGUELY WHAT HAPPENS IN THE SEASON AFTER THIS ONE TOO #//AND GODDDDD... #//i really want to make it through so i can create my south park multi but oh my god this is R O U G H #//NOBODY'S LAUGHING!!!!! #//like tweek x craig devastated me but everything else about s19 was HILARIOUS #//this is just. i don'T THINK I'VE LAUGHED ONCE YET #//I WANNA BE DEEEEEEEAAAAAAAAAADDDDDD #//the only good thing is craig with a knife #//and him being the one to start the carnage against cartman #//even though that in itself was hard bc it's just like... such a stark reminder that cartman is also A CHILD #//and he's INNOCENT in this case #//i just have a guilty pleasure for craig being violent but COME ON