#what have i done to upset the gods

[mystical-one]

WARNING IM GOING TO BE HONEST AND EARNEST HERE. i really unironically unconditionally liked now and then

#like honestly i listened to it 2794288 times in the shower and came to the disgraceful revelation that like. oh my god it is a fucking beatl #es song and theyre 81 and 83 and 37 and 52 and theyre still ON the same song and fuck shit yes i get the solo is NOT georges and it makes me #a little upset but its still done in his memory and his style andthis is PAUL we are talking about and of course he is going to run away #with a project like this and going to do the solo but EVEN then he made the solo with george in mind and tried to emulate his style whether #it was an accurate representation or not they still care so fucking much. theyre the FUCKING beatles releasing music TODAY what the fuck #i will definitely feel different about this tomorrow morning but ive listened to this thing through on repeat since it released and buddy. #who care. like SO fucking much everyone care but WHO CARE!!!!!!!!! OLD MAN BEATLES YAOI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TODAY IN 2023!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! #sorry does this make sense. like im a george defender until i die but i could heard his guitars enough to be moderately pacified and #honestly im too tired and excited and emotionally drained to care anymore. tjey tried so so hard to do something and they DID it #i have a much MUCH more nuanced opinion that i could go into. but i dont want to rn🙏🏻 #emi's meandering jotts

[spaciebabie]

shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name

#bruh lmao #so awkward. say something you dingus lol #ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already #gyatt #spacie spoinks #literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like #heres the thing #if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate #im like a vampire like that #and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now #like dude sdkfjshlkdfj #im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic) #am i gonna hafta say something. lol #probably #''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.'' #cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean 😭 #also like. this person has been staring at me lol #which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful #for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!! #its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks #im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin #i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs #i dont wanna put her on the spot #the only time i see her is when im in class #and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd

[shou-jpeg]

Give him kisses! 

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#kimchay #lilkittykim #jeff satur #wtf is this photo of jeff though he looks so adorable??? #i want to pinch his cheeks #twenty eight (?) year old man #I am his age and not a single man in my life is this cute honestly a disgrace #what have I done to upset God? #risu442 #thank for the 300 photos im having a great time

[bitegore]

I am brought low. I am undone. You should consider watching Gankutsuou: The Count of Monte Cristo

#red rambles #GOD that owned. How the FUck is there another episode #How on earth is that episode 23. What even is there left to say. What is there left to do #God this show is so well done. #Now i have to go to class. Torment for me #also if you take this recommendation do . again. check the warnings if you're remotely sensitive to that sort of thing. i know the book #you might be surprised at the breadth of upsetting topics in it if you do not

[toastsnaffler]

ALSOOO thinking abt this bit in ntn... the obvious revulsion ianthe has for the realisation that palamedes was right + she IS irreversibly part naberius + her immediate abandonment of naberius' body in response.... the whole thing reeks of denial like rest in peace to the sandy foundations she built her performative sense of self on but this wave is inevitable girl!! you can't uneat what you've already digested

#maybe the real unwanted guest was the cavalier we ate along the way #ianthe is soooo fascinating bc everything she says or does hinges on this persona shes cultivated to present to the world #like i dont think we've EVER seen her with her guard down or 'unscripted'. or had any real sense of whats going through her mind #shes never getting out of the labyrinth #but the way she reacts to palamedes' suggestion..... it feels VERY defensive. i bet something in there is shattering #very curious abt where her character will go in alecto.. i imagine she'll revert to propping herself on corona who she sees as perfectly- #predictable/controllable in order to reassert her crumbling identity. would LOVE if corona broke out of the mould ianthe forces her into #i think it would fully break ianthe to realise that not only does she not know herself but her perception of corona is an illusion too #like she does have her own ambitions and desires outside of ianthe!! theyve just never been separated long enough for her to realise them #god can u imagine if corona rejects whatever grand plan ianthe is piecing together for her. everything shes done for nothing #it smells lyctorish bc i cant imagine ianthe wanting to be a lyctor if corona wouldnt be forever at her side. but she wouldnt want- #corona's soul to be 'spoiled' by consuming anyone else and she also wouldnt want corona to become capable of necromancy #bc that would upset their power dynamic.. can u IMAGINE if corona convinced judith to eat her. itd be so over we're talking murder suicide #SOO MANY THOUGHTS i cant wait this long for alecto #.diaries #tlt #the unwanted guest spoilers

[westaysilly]

(suspenseful music starts playing as i walk in the ask box room,)

the wizard council thanks you for all the wizardposting work you've done so far, wizard suco, but it has started noticing a few... discrepancies, especially with this 'evil wizard party', and 'evil snacks' you've been promoting

Are you really westaysilly? or is it... WeStayEvil now?(/lh /jk, chuckles hard)

pfft i would never haha why would i??? ur crazy ur imagining things lol

why do you wanna know btw ahaha why the sudden curiosity hahaha who sent you.

#head in hands the wizardposting has consumed my life #im not exaggerating #it started out as a joke but now everytime something bad happens to me i blame an wvil wizard #like #god its hot as fuck #the sun wizard must be upset #oh what have i done to the sun wizard #main-stonesandpeaches

[natasha-in-space]

Why am I suddenly thinking about a butler!SE Saeran/princess Natasha au.......

#mia babbles #god this might be my next fic after i finish my current one for a different fandom #i have..... thoughts...... #natasha treating him as an equal and a friend despite her status #saeran knowing things about her that nobody knows because he is always by her side #and yet they are miles apart #her feeling so trapped in her life with people who never accepted the real her #feeling like she will never be accepted or loved for who she truly is - forever stuck upholding the status forced upon her #like there is something inherently wrong with her #and saeran who has given up on his life and is just going with the flow apathetically #he knows his place in life and he doesn't care anymore to be angry or upset about it #he just does his job #he is assigned to her since he is good at what he does - he is expected to keep her in check #but they end up relating to each other in a way neither of them expected #the fleeting touches... the hidden glances... OUGH #thinking of him doing her hair and tying her corset around her waist #his fingertips ghosting over her skin in a way that probably no one but him has done #a forbidden thought that they both stiffle as soon as it appears #GOD I AM FOAMING AT THE MOUTH

[clownandout]

I am still rotating TMWSL in my head. I'm going to be fully honest there's been so many ass pulls and retcons with DC that I believe even if the guy who lived is the fake Joker, it's not going to change anything and it will probably be swept under the rug as something that never even happened and it will revert back to it being the original guy, actually. I really don't care that they're probably going to do that either, as long as we get this characterization kept. I like this new Joker, a lot. I would prefer fake Joker being the real one because they gave him an actual personality besides "killing people pointlessly because everything is mostly pointless."

I do think this fake Joker has way more connection to being the real Joker than the actual "real" one does. He loves Gotham and hates LA, he dreams about Batman and how much he needs him and is aware that he's Bruce Wayne, he refers to Jason as if he's who created him, he works with rogues that the Joker as worked with before (Killer Moth? Really, LA Joker?), him being in a depressive slump is something known to happen with the Joker, and it's been shown multiple times. If you ask why he's calling himself not the Joker, the Joker has always hinged on the fact that he's the Joker. His one fear is being normal, average, and not himself. His self even then is sometimes just an act to put on. His response to suddenly being faced with the fact he's potentially nothing special at all would absolutely fuck him up. It's a very interesting character trait that people look over a lot. I know this is probably a slightly incoherent ramble, I guess my point is that none of this really matters and taking what happens in a single Batman series that most people who aren't fans of the Joker will barely talk about as something that will have major, drastic effects when even the comic itself basically states that nothing is going to change is not the way I'm going into this. It was great to be along for the ride and it will be great to see what they do with it. Fuck it up more, most likely. But at least there's some fun ideas to be had with it. If that is the fake Joker, what is his connection to Batman. Why did he dream about him. What past do they have. What past do him and Jason have. What would Batman's response to the actual Joker dying be, especially when the last thing he did to him was walk away in a bid to show him that he didn't care. I'm treating this whole thing as more of an experimental "what if" and I'm having a lot of fun with it, until there's some retcon or other explanation.

#dc tires me #it tires me so much #and i could be upset #in fact i am a little upset #but what dc has done with him has upset me in the past too #nothing they do with the joker ever comes without some sort of catch #im fully aware of every single catch #but i'm also aware at this point that nothing ever sticks ever #and i dont have it in me to get hung up on the negatives this time #normally i would but this is no negativity november #for the love of god im going to have a good time despite what dc does for once

[piplupod]

head in my hands. well. no more accordion for me. i picked my beloved up off the ground to do some practice and accidentally banged her off the piano keyboard and now theres a constant bass C droning but the button isnt stuck so it's something internal that's gotten bonked out of wack. and unfortunately accordions apparently need experts to even just do a simple tuning, so I'm certain this isn't going to be fixable for me unless i can both find someone who knows accordions AND be able to afford the fix, both of which are incredibly unlikely. so ... no more accordion :[

#i feel numb fjkfdl i dont think i can quite process this #it was One simple mistake. and now it is just ... done #i dont feel so good scoob fjfkfl #im going to just go lie down i think. ough. i wish i could just apologize to the accordion (i did already fjfkdkl) and have her be okay #this is so stupid goddamn one bonk and everything is over what the fuck thats so unfair #im so careful w her too god fuck me !!!!! im so so so careful with her and then ONE honest mistake !!! argh !!! #i feel so petulant being upset abt this. ofc bonking an instrument off of another hard surface is going to fuck it up #and ofc i didnt mean to. but like. yknow? idk. it just is so unfair i guess but its done its over it is what it is #i dont want to think abt this rn actually fjfdhdkl i cannot quite grasp this all properly rn #pippen needs 2nd breakfast

[girlscience]

the RAMPANT consumerism on the section of youtube I have ended up on recently is actually kind of disgusting to me. if I see one more video of a perfectly manicured hand with a hint of a sweater sleeve putting things in a target cart or using 100 bottles for a skin and hair self-care day or using 50 different cleaning products in an enormous, pristine, white home while a random pop song remix plays in the background I'm going to start destroying things.

#I know exactly how I got here #there is a specific crossover of decluttering/production hacks/workout plans/minimalism/motivational videos that leads directly #to very wealthy stay-at-home women doing sunday resets and target hauls and restocking and organizing the guest bedroom #and 4 hour pre-vacation self-care videos #but it is so BAD. I am not saying don't buy things or take care of yourself or anything like that #I literally have mentioned several times in the past two weeks that I was waiting on packages in the mail! #but GOD. the difference between buying a set of dvds I'm going to use until they fall apart #and literally having 4 bookcases of skin care products is ASTRONOMICAL #I cannot imagine a single reason anyone would ever need that much stuff #and it's All so sanitized and perfected and nothing can be out of place and it's just awful #that girl aesthetic/it girl/clean girl aesthetic/etc etc #and every single woman in these videos is perfectly shaped and tanned and hair done up #and they all wear these matching set workout fits #just oh my god girl!!!!!! what are you doing????!!!!!?? #I don't know. I don't know that there's a point to this besides me complaining and being upset #but it's just so antithetical to the way I want to live and I know it's so bad for the environment #and I know it is encouraging so many people to look and act just like that #and I hate it!!!! it feels like we are never getting out sometimes for real #maybe I'm being mean. maybe they are actually very conscientious of the environment #and maybe they are only showing a once a month shopping trip #and maybe they have just been sent a ton of PR packages that they have to figure out how to store #but. it really doesn't feel or look that way

[leatherbookmark]

oh god okay i understand that maybe not everyone is as indecisive/comfortable with saying "it depends!" as me, but like, i'm sorry, i'm sorry, but i just can't take people who call izzy a villain seriously

#he's a little annoying dude. i swear to fuck #'the real villain in the show is the system and izzy is siding with the system' babygirl he's a pirate 😭 he really isn't 😭 #he could NOT more clearly be -- he literally IS -- that kind of gay man who wears his leathers and anger as an armor because being scary ha #been his way of fighting The System => being consumed and destroyed by it; and who looks down and feels disgusted by flamboyant #and effeminate soft-handed gays because if they're this soft then they clearly haven't experienced this kind of abuse that would make them #harden up. ....you know what i mean. #like idk this show in general like... doesn't have a 'villain'? it's about stede (and ed's) journey and their development. not necessarily #about their Conflict With Someone/Something. i guess it might change in s2 but idk. there are just Situations in which they find themselves #and because of/md is a comedy no one really... holds things against other characters in a long-term way? izzy stabs stede and sells him #out to the english and ed punches him for the latter (which he says 'ok fair' about!!! like!!!) but does he go 'and for all the shit you've #done i'm Firing you as my first mate? no! he slams him against the wall and feeds him his toe but he's like. ok get up and back to work #and he doesn't seem particularly disgusted or upset with him in that final blackbeard's flag 2.0 moment. (nor manipulated; inb4) #like. it's a workplace romcom. the workplace is a pirate ship but it's a workplace and izzy is that annoying coworker who's a bitch and #often ruins everyone's fun but no one like... Seriously ostracizes him. more like applies some light bullying BECAUSE IT'S FUNNY. #COMEDY. do we remember that? #and like. it seems he's going to have a bit of a larger (?) role in s2... it really doesn't seem like the show sees him as a 'villain' or #even an active 'antagonist' either. like ok let's agree 2 disagree and may both sides block each others' asses into oblivion because god #knows both sides have some annoying people but mannnn sometimes... insisting that things Can be divided into Good and Bad... is worse? #shrimp thoughts #once again i wrote a tag novel about an incredibly silly thing. welcome to leatherbookmark

[lovelaceisntdead]

Dad mad because I didn't make dinner yay now I will dissociate forever

#which I'm sure will not make him more mad. #sorry i didn't know you were coming home late so i had not budgeted energy for cooking #i know it's really inconvenient for you thst my illness effects me I'm really sorry about that. #felt good enough to do a bit of work today but because that's just for me it doesn't count #and now i won't be able to do anything for the rest of the evening :) and he will be passive aggressive with me or just not talk to me :) #i hate that he has this power over me to make me feel so small #I've done so much work in therapy this year with how he makes me feel but what's the fucking point if he still behaves like a child #i constantly feel like I'm walking on egg shells around him #and god forbid anything he ever does upsets me that couldn't be possible. #already having a difficult time today but that's just making excuses according to him #had a migrain scare earlier which really threw me off but i managed to get past it and try and do some work #which made me feel a lot better and more in control ahd then he just fucking shatters it #i don't care if this sounds silly to you reading this I'm really dissociating and I'm trying to process what I'm feeling #so i don't completely shut down because that will make everything worse

[weaselshaped]

Accidentally discovered some deeply embarrassing Tumblr posts I made/reblogged five or more years ago but I also finished freaking out and did some emails toward finding out what steps I can realistically take toward top surgery because as you may have noticed it turns out I cannot actually keep going like this forever. So I guess something useful got done

#I'm very annoyed about the things that have prompted me to this level of self-awareness #Because they mostly consist of like. Getting upset about things on the internet that don't warrant getting upset over #for complicated reasons. And also fucking. Video game. God #I guess if I am going to spend that much money on a game then it's only fair for it to be useful to me in some extra way #But it's also extremely embarrassing! #Tbf also this bit is less the game itself and more 'hey self I notice a trend of you writing about characters whose gender is identical to #yours except they've had this specific thing done. What's that about' which I was finally forced to actually examine by my Gaming Experienc #but it has definitely been a thing before now. So. I don't know. Nothing has been achieved really #I feel both better and worse #self actualization through email

[siriuslygay1981]

How to accept you aren't a gifted kid anymore no borax no glue

#im going through it #wtf happened to me #im going to cry abt this #why does god hate me #i dont even believe in god #anyways #153 #it will haunt me forever #i better score better on my actual test or im gonna kms #only a little serious (64% serious) #younger me is DISSAPOINTED #they are probably upset #I KNOW ITS A PASSING SCORE #BUT IT ISNT HIGH ENOUGH #IT ISNT WHAT I EXPECTED #IM SO DUMB #RAHHHH IM LITERALLY GOING TO STUDY SM I CRY EVERYWHERE #LITERALLY GONNA GO INSANE #:( it sucks when a subject youve prided yourself on is suddenly somwthing not to be proud of #153...bro i wanted atleast a 160....never telling anyone ik irl my score #no one will know anything except if i passed or not #god...imma cry. #if i pass one more pract test tho i can take those two actual tests #and then all id have left is the other two tests and im done and i can be freeeeee

[guccigarantine]

I am very much am a believer in not yelling or being mean at service workers but also service workers in socal are so fucking rude all the time and don’t care about anything and don’t listen when you tell them things and when they fuck up I have no idea what I should do!!!!!!

#I went to get my car washed #and I told three different people that I only wanted them to shampoo my passnager seat #and everyone was like yeah sure #AND GUESS WHAT THEY DIDNT DO #THEY CLEAN MY CARPET INSTEAD #I TALKED TO THREE DIFFERENT PEOPLE #TO MAKE SURE THEY UNDERSTOOD #I’m so upset I just want my car cleaned #I had several cans of Dr Pepper explode in my passenger seat and I have upholstery so it’s like #in there #and I just wanted them to shampoo the one seat #and it’s was $70 which isn’t bad but they didn’t even do it right!!! #and then when I told them no I didn’t want the carpets done (I DONT EVEN HAVE CARPET) the one guy #went and shampoo all the seats even tho I said jusy the one #AND HE DIDNT EVEN DO THE BACK PART OF THE SEAT #JUST THE PART YOU SIT ON #WHATS THE POINT OH MY GOD #😭 i just wanted the soda out of my seat I don’t care pls #IT SMELLS LIKE DR PEPPER FOREVER IN THERE I GUESS

[stevethehairington]

finished the terror show! and i gotta say — probably not a surprise but — i liked the book better. tbh i don't think the show was long enough. like the book was SO long and despite the slow moving pace it had SO much packed into it, and i think because the show was only 10 episodes it ended up having to smush a bunch of things together and skip out of others and that totally took away from it. don't get me wrong, it's a decent show! but i think it had the potential to be even better if they'd gotten to like, take the time to faithfully adapt the book.

also there was not enough tuunbaq!!!

#the monster scenes were some of the best in the book!!! and they SEVERLY underused that big dude in the show!!! #like removing him completely from the carnivale scene? Bad Choice!! #also i was absolutely not a fan of what they did with lady silence in the show #i feel like the changes they made to her character and the plotlines surrounding her character were HUGE changes that like. #fundamentally changed a significant chunk of the rest of the plot — to the shows detriment imo #ALSO for the love of god!!!!! bring back practical effects!!!!!!! #the creature would have looked SO much cooler if it was mostly practical effects and maybe a little cgi to help #what it ended up looking like was a WEIRD (neg) uncanny valley those-animals-with-human-faces-from-barbie-movies thing that LOOKED so fake #it was laughable really #it looked like a giant polar bear with a human face and it did NOT work #they had the chance to make that thing look TERRIFYING and they didnt and that is SO disappointing and SO upsetting!!! #OH also i feel like they made hickey WAAAAAY more pathetic in the show lmfao #like he was pathetic in the book too! but oh my god he was like a thousand times more wet rat pathetic in the show #and i think they couldve done better with his power trip like they couldve done MORE with it #(i will say tho. they picked an EXCELLENT actor for that role fhsjdid adam nagaitis has a LOVELY face to look at gjdkdk) #((and so does tobias menzies. somethin about that man in that hat was just 👌👌🥴😩)) #N E WAYS #i liked the show but i could have liked it even more if it had been closer to the book #the terror #mack watches the terror