#what can i say im quirky

[butchfalin]

the funniest meltdown ive ever had was in college when i got so overstimulated that i could Not speak, including over text. one of my friends was trying to talk me through it but i was solely using emojis because they were easier than trying to come up with words so he started using primarily emojis as well just to make things feel balanced. this was not the Most effective strategy... until. he tried to ask me "you okay?" but the way he chose to do that was by sending "👉🏼👌🏼❓" and i was so shocked by suddenly being asked if i was dtf that i was like WHAT???? WHAT DID YOU JUST SAY TO ME?????????? and thus was verbal again

#yeehaw #1k #5k #10k #posts that got cursed. blasted. im making these tag updates after... 19 hours? #also i have been told it should say speech loss bc nonverbal specifically refers to the permanent state. did not know that! #unfortunately i fear it is so far past containment that even if i edited it now it would do very little. but noted for future reference #edit 2: nvm enough ppl have come to rb it from me directly that i changed the wording a bit. hopefully this makes sense #also. in case anyone is curious. though i doubt anyone who is commenting these things will check the original tags #1) my friend did not do this on purpose in any way. it was not intended to distract me or to hit on me. im a lesbian hes a gay man. cmon now #he felt very bad about it afterwards. i thought it was hilarious but it was very embarrassed and apologetic #2) “why didn't he use 🫵🏼?” didn't exist yet. “why didn't he use 🆗?” dunno! we'd been using a lot of hand emojis. 👌🏼 is an ok sign #like it makes sense. it was just a silly mixup. also No i did not invent 👉🏼👌🏼 as a gesture meaning sex. do you live under a rock #3) nonspeaking episodes are a recurring thing in my life and have been since i was born. this is not a quirky one-time thing #it is a pervasive issue that is very frustrating to both myself and the people i am trying to communicate with. in which trying to speak is #extremely distressing and causes very genuine anguish. this post is not me making light of it it's just a funny thing that happened once #it's no different than if i post about a funny thing that happened in conjunction w a physical disability. it's just me talking abt my life #i don't mind character tags tho. those can be entertaining. i don't know what any of you are talking about #Except the ppl who have said this is pego/ryu or wang/xian. those people i understand and respect #if you use it as a writing prompt that's fine but send it to me. i want to see it #aaaand i think that's it. everyday im tempted to turn off rbs on it. it hasn't even been a week

[lautakwah]

WAIT im getting a bonus in may..... should i go on that solo trip to asia anyway....... even tho it's scawy >_<

#rn im thinking either taiwan or hk but i might be persuaded to go to chengdu (pandas!) or chongqing (sm hiking... but priddy) #or ngl. i might say yolo and tack on shanghai as well idk... #mainly tempted to do either taiwan (taipei + new taipei city; one day in yilan and another in taichun (roughly)) #or hk plus a day in macau and a day in shenzhen.... #for hk it's also ajdkdf like. one day WILL be dedicated to having printed out movie screencaps and matching them with what it looks like now #sorry im such a basic bitch but isnt that fun isnt that quirky etc btw andy stood here exactly 34 years ago-- #<- as u can see i am soooo normal abt the shit im into #an argument could also be made for japan but ngl i wanna go to kyoto (over tokyo) and tickets are ridicuously expensive. like. jesus christ. #ling.txt

[niishi]

when it comes to mental illness, you can never please anyone. you're either mentally ill and do your best to not be a victim and to cope and grow, and then ppl act like you're not mentally ill and dismiss your genuine issues, or you make a big deal of it and harm ppl and yourself with it and then you're too much to handle. like what's gonna make ppl happy? what will make them validate your position in life? literally nothing.

#ive been medicated since i was 14 #and have heen suicidal since i was 14 #i put in so much effort to combat my mental illness so i can just live a happy life #where i dont want to die 24/7 #and where i can relax and appreciate my life etc #and bc i put so much effort in to coping and healing and growing #ppl just dismiss that im genuinely mentally ill #what do u want from me? #do u want me to have breakdowns and abuse people? #do you want me to make life hard for others and myself? #when will i ever get recognized for fighting so fucking hard for myself? #ppl only care when youre negatively effecting them and then #they use it as an excuse to dismiss your reality and hard work #idk man #im not saying i have mental illness and disability to be cute and quirky #im saying that bc ive been in and out of the doctors since i was 14 and have been diagnosed by #several different doctors all with the same diagnosis' #i have incurable mental disorders from taking medication that #kept me from killing myself but gave me massive dissociation #its not a joke and its not for attention #i don't even rlly talk about it unless i have to remind ppl that im not normal like they are #and stop writing off ppl who are good representations of strength and growth within their mental illnesses #we exist and we should be given more recognition so other ppl in our situations can see an example of someone #coexisting with their issues in a more healthy manner

[constantvariations]

Yknow, instead of basing a lackluster at best character off a nazi, Coco could have been Chajka, based off the heroic Chajka Klinger, a jewish woman who was essentially a scribe of history

You can even keep the minibag machine gun considering the history of jewish women hiding guns in their purses

#rwde #idk if yall have read the light of days by Judy Batalion but that shit made me cry #do not read that book at work lmao #but in all seriousness it's a v good book i highly recommend #why stan a shitheel based on a nazi when you can recall and rejoice people who did their best during the absolute worst of times #side tangent but reading this book has turned me off all nazi shit #like obvs we grow up w 'nazis r bad bc death and destruction' but reading the individual accounts #following some folks from teen to young death even in a narration #its haunting #its v much the reason i hate jojo rabbit(movie)/caging skies(book) #i do not ever want to see a nazi in a positive light #human? yes. quirky and relatable? FUCKING NO #idk why but the entire book chajka was always the one I felt most drawn to #i wish she'd had a happy ending but i honestly can't say that i would've done any different in those circumstances #i hope she knows peace and that her efforts weren't in vain #whats a proper jewish sendoff for the deceased? im p sure rip is christian #either way chajka i love you

[angeltism]

If I see one more being acting like the term fp is just a word for ywour bestie or partner or whatever I am going 2 throw a chair

#➳ valentin vents #like NO fucking NNNNO an fp is some1 who ywou've developed a big big mentally ill attachment 2 it isn't just ''oh im friends w this being'' #it's fucking ''i will constantly overthink and worry about what this being thinks of me / feels / says / does / etc to the point it'll #mess with my own functioning on a molecular fucking basis'' #beings acting like having 3 fps is swo ''uwu quirky we r such besties teehee!!'' when if i had 3 fps I'd purrobably kms actually #nawt in a ''its a bad thing 2 have more than 1'' way in a ''fps can be so emotionally mentally physically draining 2 have'' way #n like. YES fps r most often partners (r or qp) or close friends but it's nawt like. oh u have a partner that's an fp. or oh you have an fp #it must automatically be ur partner. like no u can have normal relationships w ur friends or partners while having fp-attachments on beings #like family members or such #sigh #ok this js all just 2 say how i h8 beings treating bpd weirdly my god #n misusing terminology or whagever ig idk im tired asf i slept so badly last night hopefully this doesn't come off weirdly or wrong

[todayisafridaynight]

fathers day is this month how am i going to inflict psychic damage on myself

#snap chats #we were cute and sillay even for mothers day last month #but unfortunately i actually love my dad and i miss him so the possibility of doing something a lil moody is very real #i love how i always say i miss my dad as if hes dead. hes not dead hes just scared of my mom which. fair we all are LMAO #anyhow esp when im leaning towards doing something focused on jo since last month was more for arakawa... #i dont have anything in mind yet but i have the semblance of an idea... its budding but i dont have it refined in the dome... #because i also wanna see if i can do something for arakawa too so idk if i wanna knock out two birds with one stone for one comic #or make two separate posts (whether those are pics or comics idkidk) #i always really like to imagine quiet moments between jo and masato- however rare they might have been in canon #oh wait im gonna throw up what if i posted that prison comic on fathers day #if i dont get any ideas i just might.. unless i get too impatient and post it earlier ☠️ #anyway this is just a promise i will be goofy on fathers day. except instead of Actual Goofy i might post something Cereal for once #nothing i say makes fucking sense unless you know my lexicon fucking 'cereal' is my Cute And Quirky way of saying serious #because Im Cute And Quirky alright moving on #Being Serious and Emotional isnt my forte. im very bad at doing both so i of course try to be funny instead #bu maybe this once..... the jo and masato feelins are strong this month...... #its cause my moms giving me a harder time than usual so of course im just thinking of my dad more and Now We're Here #alright im finally gonna finish my comm then i might get to cooking bye

[hella1975]

my godmum who actively supports jk rowling on facebook bringing up radical feminism as an excuse for transphobia: i just think if we're speaking BIOLOGICALLY-

me who did my a-level coursework on the oppression of women and now has a bank of information about simone de beauvoir: im about to rock your world

#basically my godmum is your stereotypically thick local who thinks intellectual debating = who can speak the loudest #lucky for you babygirl i did dance for 7 years and now i waitress and my mum has undiagnosed anger issues! lets tussle! #her: BIOLOGICALLY- #me very calmly: the very basis of feminism was to elevate women from just being lessened to their biology feminists have been fighting #biological essentialism for CENTURIES now i mean just look at simone de beauviour's theories like if you think this is radical feminism #to fight against very old feminist theories and shit on trans people then i PROMISE you there is nothing radical about that #saying all this knowing full well my godmum short circuits at any form of calm-speaking-well-sourced-debate and has no fucking clue #who simone de beauvoir is #my mum does though bc she did a LOT of her studies around feminism and she literally went 🤭🤭🤭 #which i thought was progress bc usually it's my MUM i have these little run-ins with #although when my godmum left me and my mum were stood in the kitchen and my sister was upstairs but could very much hear #and we were talking about some political thing or another and my mum went #'i wonder what [godmum's name] would think as someone properly gay' #and i missed it at first but then i was like? PROPERLY? and i couldnt be like 'is that a dig at me' #bc im not out to my sister and she defo would've heard from upstairs #but i was like oh okay we're back to this now that solidarity was fun while it lasted ig #anyway this is all to say i had to sit there while my lesbian godmum tried (and failed) to be transphobic #all the while my ally sister got all passionate and pro-trans even though i know full well she's actually worse than my mum #and it's always me having to argue with BOTH of them AT THE SAME TIME about any sort of gay topic #bc my sister in particular CANNOT behave herself and seems to think it's quirky to have niche opinions #even though 'making life difficult for trans people' is not at all niche or radical #it was so frustrating bc i was like yeah im grateful we're on the same side against my godmum rn but i KNOW how full of shit you are #it was moreso like she was doing it to be politically correct and i was like yeah but in the safety of your home when you think #you can just say anything you do NOT have this energy lmao #just annoying especially being closeted and just having to take it #at least i embarrassed my godmum lol got her stuttering and shit by the end <333

[engagemythrusters]

i think the "character from futuristic society reads only paper books bc they're quirky and different" trope is stupid as fuck bc it's not really... a thing we even do now.

sorry, but I don't know of ANYONE in this era who goes out of their way to only read things from traditional vellum. and if they were, it's generally not because they're "not like other girls" or whatever...

#'but it's different' by a fraction maybe #i think by the time the future comes we will be less inclined to go mass harvest trees... #so i don't think anyone would be that interested in paperbooks when. idk. futuristic ereaders can save a shitload of trees. #stupid trope stop using it. #also yes there are still things prepared with vellum #that's not what im saying #what im saying is. nobody is only trying to have books printed on vellum to read bc they're 'quirky old fashioned like that' #rolling my eyes SO hard

[carcinized]

feeling of growing into my body is so nice too. god puberty sucked

#i mean i had other stuff too. and so do probably most of my followers bc Trans Things. i never had dysphoria from being trans tho #it was all from discomfort during puberty + depersonalization #so now that both of those have lessened + ive gotten better at managing them. HOLY SHIT ITS NICE #i dont feel ashamed of my body!!! ive achieved complete body neutrality its so fucking awesome #i dont even feel like i need to dress up anymore. nor am i uncomfortable with the idea that someone could find me attractive #bc i understand its not my job to be or not be attractive its just my job to EXIST. other ppl can think whatever they want about me #its SO NICE. i am growing into my life its so lovely. #just a bit of positivity for you guys :] this site (and online spaces in general) can be so negative bc it’s a safe place to ent #so heres a break from that. from someone who struggled heavily w mental illness for multiple years #i don’t want to disclose what or why but it wasnt just quirky depression anxiety etc it was like from real scary shit + near death experienc #<- not to say anxiety & depression don’t suck. what i mean is that it wasn’t quirky ‘omg i have anxiety im so scared of everyone 🥺👉👈’ #type shit that every white girl highschooler insists they have. it wasnt just beingn sad cus of high school LMAO #NOT TO DOWNPLAY THAT BUT LIKE. U KNOW THE PPL I MEAN. u dont have anxiety/ocd/depression dude youre just Sad. fairly so but itsnot Disorder #but. from someone who went thru all that. IT GETS BETTER. also if ur like 13-15 ur brain hormones suck and it gets better 100% #like everything feels So Bad but its just uour brain chemicals and i am so sorry uour brain does that. BUT IT GETS BETTER I PROMISE. <3 #it doesnt make your struggles easier but you should know that it DOES get better. <3 love u #ok <3 take care guys #tobin talks

[craycraybluejay]

Waiting for the next wave of hatemail bc I'm not obsessed with policing who goes on my blog. Place your bets now.

#hate mail #place bets #we're playing games with my haters now! :) #no dni #tumblr culture #my polls #polls #blog poll #im being quirky about it but i genuinely think these people are stupid #i understand where dni culture and stuff is Coming From but a lot of it deeply misunderstands the way social media works #as well as what you're actually responsible for as far as people who interact with your posts #eg; if youre a feminist and a terf likes your post and rbs it you can block them if that makes you uncomfy (which it would if ur a feminist) #but like #that terf deciding to agree with your post doesnt mean youre a terf or reaponsible for their behaviour #same with for example someone reading a post from you that triggered them #that is properly tagged/with the right keywords #you're responsible only for how you directly interact one on one to a person like talking to them in tags dms and asks #like for example if you give them hatemail saying 'kys' #youre responsible for that

[hauntedpearl]

an important part of the shiva lore is that his throat shines a special blue because he once drank poison to save the world and he couldn't swallow it or he'd die so he just. keeps it in his throat. and it's like. a visible thing that everyone can see. like this —

anyway.

godstiel cas!! every time he eats a soul!!!

#i will use my religion to make Supernatural posts <3 im not even sorry but i should be #doe is talking again #hindunatural #SAY I AM EMPLOYING THIS IN A WIP SO WHAT #people who are in the know will know abouy yhe SYMBOLISMS AND WHAF NOY #and the rest can be like ooh quirky uwu #spn headcanons #desinatural #shivanatural

[stuck-in-the-ghost-zone]

creative mode subnautica i am invincible and my base is so pretty and there is nothing wrong with my brain

#whats better than this. guys being dudes. making underwater luxury housing. #my favorite favorite location ever is the intersection between safe shallows and grassy plateau and kelp forests #big ol 3 room tower with ac tanks in the bottom 2 floors and my bedroom on the top #so i can look down into the tank and see my creatures swimming around.... #nice little... vending machine room.... bioreactor room with all the indoor plant pots and storage + charging stations #scanner room right across from the moonpool with a hatch outside in between..... #guys im soooo good at subnautica base building #i want to live here fr #sitting here wating for my last crabsnake egg to hatch..... #btw did u guys know they changed the reefback eggs. you cant hatch reefbacks anymore :( instead u get FUCKING SPADEFISH. this is so unfair #i want a tiny little reefback in my home aquarium soooo bad. this is bs #hi im absolutely dreading work and also therapy tomorrow. i dont want to go i dont want to talk about my issues this sucks actually!!!!!!! #i was gonna be so productive today but i had to go to the grocery store with my dad and also like 50 other errands #and also im dogsitting for a family friend Again and its gonna be like a whole 2 weeks and im soooo tired already. sigh #i dont want to BE HERE #im tjred of responsibilities i want to kms but like not in the funny quirky way ppl say that these days i mean im mentally ill forreal. #love and peace i fucking guess <3

[valkaryah]

the last temptation of christ is martin scorsese's neon genesis evangelion

#im not saying it like this to be quirky btw it's something i realized once the movie ended the way it did #besides sharing themes of crippling loneliness and doubt and fear of abandonment #the movie and the anime + eoe end in a prolonged dream that awakens the protagonist to reality and their own resolutions and fate #also what made me reach this conclusion was the experimental ending of the last temptation the colours burning and shuffling #film on burst and fire?! the start and end?! anyways it was here that it clicked for me #i do think there are some parallels in in the meaning and course of actions #also jesus literally yells how theres nothing inside him but fear and he is a coward and a hypocrite right at the start #which is also shinjis dilemmas (amongst other shit) #and ofc both protags are chosen (or commanded) by their fathers to save humanity and only them can do it #its 5am i am going to try to sleep but tomorrow im going to read and think on this´specially the endings #valkaryah talks

[seilon]

kinda wild how you can have almost every aspect of your life deeply intertwined with someone else for years and then have all of that thrown in your face when that person decides none of it meant anything and, in fact, was toxic and purge-worthy

#hahahaha it’s been a bad day #and I am spiraling and all around not having a good time #I keep looking at the bulletin board in my room that used to make me so happy to look at because of all the good memories on it and the #reminder of there being people who care about me and now it just sorta. does the opposite #most of it just makes me feel. dread. #he’s in almost every picture and 80% of the people in the pictures in general I don’t talk to anymore for one reason or another #mostly people who just drifted away because I’m absolutely terrible at staying in touch with people #like not in a quirky way. like actually actively ruins relationships for no reason level bas #but some of them are people who purposefully don’t talk to me anymore #found out recently about one of these people. it’s someone I’d been friends with for like 15 years. purposefully blocked me #I believe because of whatever bullshit my ex has told her. she never asked me about anything so whatever she knows is #heavily biased and probably warped #because I don’t have anyone advocating for me. lol #even my close friends- the extremely few I have- are ‘neutral’ on it. which. im gonna be honest hurts me quite a bit. I have no one who #truly condemns him for the way he’s handled (lack thereof) all this and bolstered all my trust issues in the process and has made me #constantly critical of my own intentions because I can never trust that what I do or say is manipulative or ‘unhealthy’ anymore and I don’t #think I’m an all around good person on top of that because of my low empathy and all that and etc etc etc. it’s really fucked me up #but yeah anyway. yeah. they’re still on good terms with him more or less (though not as close as I am but that’s partly just due to me being #physically close rather than in another city). and it honestly hurts me that they could actively be centrists here #like I. just. really don’t trust anyone anymore. how the fuck could I #uh. anyway. im not sure if i want to take the board down all together or just take off almost all the photos on it #not sure what’s more depressing #cause they’re both pretty bad lol. almost all my major good memories from the past five years have included my ex so they’re basically all #tainted and unpleasant to look back on now. really just wasted five years of my life for this #another reason I’m constantly contemplating my own intentions these days is because I have a lot of thoughts and urges that I’d never do but #that are. related to purposefully hurting others or myself physically or emotionally or both. like. every part of me wants to deck my ex in #the face but obviously I’d never do that. but even just the compulsion feels like a justification of his narrative/view of me as a person #like haha maybe I am a shitty toxic abusive manipulative bastard. maybe I do just deserve to be alone where I can’t hurt or think about #hurting anyone. it’d definitely be better all-around if I didn’t fucking exist. burden lifted. but you know. #not sure how im like this but also egotistical and self centered but alas here we are. anyway I’ll delete this soon sorry

[latinokaeya-moving]

treated myself to the very short beginning section of three houses just now but i had to stop n turn off my switch when the game asked me to pick a house bc i started agonising over whether to go w edelgard first or just jump straight into the claude route

#x #fe posting #everyone and their momma says to leave verdant wind for last bc it’s the most satisfying to tie up all loose ends route #and to do azure moon or crimson flower first. bc they work better as one of the first routes #and i TOLD myself ok ok sure i’ll do edelgard first then that’s fine. i like her and a lot of the black eagle characters im sure it’ll be #fun. but meeting claude in game and giggling n twirling my hair over everything he says is KILLING MEEEEEE i can’t abandon him i can’t IM #GONNA FEEL SOOOO BAD #he’s so charming crying real tears rn. i Know what i need to do but man…. pain n suffering … #i remember seeing a take somewhere once that said smth abt how claude gets so permanently shut out of the true potential of his goals on any #route that doesn’t pick him bc he doesn’t get the chance to really establish himself / figure out all the secrets of the game #and so he’s just narratively. barred/locked out from his dreams for good. and ever since i read that it makes me wanna crawl up n DIE when #i think abt it CLAUDE. CLAUDEEEEEEEEEEEE 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #also just in general he’s SOO funny and quirky i love him so much he only said like maybe ten lines total but he’s literally such a riot #playing the game while knowing what his entire deal is is HILARIOUS he’s so fucking funny. and painfully tragic even from the get go. AUGH #one of his first things being calling himself the embodiment of distrust is so. it’s just so!!!!! like he WANTS u to know it’s all an act #EVERYONE knows it he’s not being subtle at all BUT THATS THE POINT!!!!! bc if everyone knows it’s an act that he plays around w then they #wont go snooping around as much!!!! AUGHHHHHHHHH !!!! CLAUDE !!!! #im going crazy i shouldn’t have played this i need to finish my last assignment first. n then i can lose my mind over claude #OHHH also can i just say his + edelgards first interactions are SOOOOO funny they’re so much fun. i love their little banter n back n forth #literally iconic showstopping no one can top them EVER #anyways. it’s almost 3am i need to sleep n write my essay tmrw lol

[darabeatha]

    /  C.amazotz being that meme where the person asks for a lil bite but they take a whole chunk

#;ooc #ooc #u agree to feed him b.lood and he leaves u pale #i dunno what would be a similar saying to this in english but;; #'le das la mano y te toma el codo' <-- u give him ur hand and he takes ur elbow #THIS ISNT -JUST BECAUSE- OKOK #took inspiration on the lords of x.ibalba and how they tend to pull tricks and use loopholes to their advantage #they are quirky likethat indeed #he finds it very entertaining; however he dislikes it when that (rather extreme) mischief is returned to him #like;;; no u cant do this to me; only i can #which is like;; UMM SIR-? #but thatshow he is built ok #despite his position and all; he is prettygullible and rather easy to defeat if u know ur way around loopholes #again; this bit is inspired by the lords of x.ibalba #i like this; it shows an interesting duality; u would think someone as important would be undefeatable #im cutting my rambling here before iwrite a wall but ;; yes- #;camazotz