#what a treat to have this morning

[chaos0pikachu]

okay so if I don't talk about the kinnporsche side story I will literally combust b/c they didn't need to give us that they didn't NEED to give us this little youtube up short that spanned the spectrum of chaotic human emotion as a stop gap between one of the best episodes of the series and the hyper escalation to flowers in the attic-ville where the lamps have chains okay but they did and bless them for it cause like

first off you have porsche who's given up his chance at something of a normal life with his sunshine kitten of a baby brother walking around the hospital ass out b/c KINN GOT SHOT FOR HIM like fucking what porsche is like welp he's earned that bussy now and tankhun is like OMG MY BABY BROTHER IS DEAD crying in Arm's arms and porsche is like OMG KINN DIED and tankhun is like no you dumb pretty bitch he's dead to me spiritally for being an in love idiot but porsche is already half way down the hall heart pounding b/c his self sacrificing big dicked mafia daddy just bit it only to then see kinn is alive and breathing if moderately a pin cushion only to

THEN be confronted by Vegas wearing this summers best Second Lead in a K-Drama Couture look flowers at the ready like omg porsche I am but a sweet and loving man, holding out flowers, hoping another man, will love me back did you know these mean longing? friendship? unrequited love?? and porsche is like, wtf who's giving flowers meaning seems like a waste of time and money to me rich ppl are so weird meanwhile kinn's "someone's after porsche's baked booty" senses start tingling waking him up from the morphine b/c drugs will NOT keep him away from his man and is like "vegas you whore" and vegas is like "kinn your alive (derogatory)" and kinn's like "take back your fake ass cheap ass dollar store flowers" and vegas is like "see porsche, see what I go through? the hardships that are my life??" and it's just elevator music in porsche's head just full on disassociation at this point b/c why are all these hot dangerous men hitting on him all the time he's just trying to make a living out here

and then kinn's like I got shot cuddle me pls and porsche is like only b/c I don't want the ghosts to eat my ass and kinn is like me either cause that's my job and they cuddle while the music swells and that video has 6.5 MILLION VIEWS EVERY ONE EARNED

#kinnporsche #kpts #chaos pikachu speaks #it's been a minute since I did a chaotic recap for kpts #like I kid but god what a blessing may flowers rain cause boc didn't have to treat us to that #but they did and it was a glorious morning #pikachu's chaotic recaps

[crybaby-bkg]

cw: yandere reader, implied stalking, implied drugging, dubcon

hello………have u ever considered being yandere and convincing yourself that you and Deku are actual soulmates, and he just doesn’t know it yet. you try to get his attention for so long, through so many different ways (you try to become a hero, and then a villain, and then a helpless civilian and then—) and he just. never really notices you.

so you take matters into your own hands. you get him down somehow, when it’s late and not enough important people catch onto it until you’ve already gotten him. trapped him somewhere far that’s hard for most to find, tied up and at your mercy.

he’s so cute when he wakes up confused and groggy, asking, what’s going on, who are you, what is he doing here? but you can’t let him know your plans too early on, so you only sit on the bed beside him, smiling, running a hand up his naked stomach (when did you undress him?).

all hell breaks loose when he tells you that he doesn’t remember you, that you need to let him go, he doesn’t know you, you won’t get into much trouble for doing this. and that—and that’s heart wrenching? earth shattering?

how does your soulmate just not remember you, know you, love you as much as you love him? it stings more than cold metal slicing your flesh, and you cry. you cry so fucking hard into your hands at the rejection, defeated sobs wracking your body as he valiantly tries to calm you down.

so Deku, ever the kind and gracious hero that he is, comforts you. he coos to you, negates all your whining about how you must be too ugly for him, how you’re not good enough for him. he doesn’t realize the monster he’s enabling with his words until it’s too late.

he thinks he may be too kind for his own good, because in only a few moments, your tears have dried up and you’re perched on top of his chest. you look down at him with big, glassy eyes, head tilted as you cup his freckled and warm cheeks in your hands.

“You think I’m pretty?” you ask quietly, and he knows, he knows he shouldn’t cater to you. but Deku’s not a liar despite the circumstances he’s put in, and he’s sure if you would’ve approached him normally, he would’ve been interested in you.

“So pretty.” He whispers out in a rushed breath. the rest of his words get lost in his throat, his plea to be released, because you’re climbing over him. you only wear his shirt (when did you break into his apartment? how didn’t he notice? he just wore that shirt last night?) and a pair of underwear that you’re sliding to the side. you look at him with starry eyes that hold more adoration than he’s comfortable to look back at.

“Is…she pretty, too?” you ask, your voice low as if you’re scared of anyone else hearing you. Deku tries to look away, but you don’t let him, gathering the crown of his hair to force him to look at you between your legs, your other wrist holding your underwear away, fingers stretching your lips until your hole is exposed.

“Answer me.” you try to snap but your voice is so wobbly, so unconvincing for a stronger man. Deku doesn’t think he’s all that strong in the moment.

“Prettiest one I’ve ever seen.” He tries to convince himself he’s lying just to appease you, but the twitch of his cock tells him otherwise. you let out a breath of laughter, a grin so wide on your face it unnerves him and also makes him a little harder.

“Kiss her then, if it’s so pretty.” You tell him with a jut of your chin, scooting up until you hover directly over his mouth. Deku splutters, hesitates, tries to close his eyes. but he finds himself kissing back when you sit on his face, and he thinks—he thinks he might be a sicko for how there isn’t much coercion to devour you after that.

#this is a **** and twisted idea I fear #I had to write this literally like three times bc it was so hard to get out n convey #but I love it sm 😔 #just being so obsessed with him that you have to have him to yourself #make him understand the obsession #make it a mutual thing #omg what if u lose the obsession after a while and just kinda. free him. #and he’s so confused bc he’s so used to your constant attention and he just can’t handle #not being your center anymore #and he becomes the yandere in the end #DOES THIS MAKE SENSE idk bc im on sleep meds and drowsy LOL #anyway posting this now and q’ing for the morning! #—new treat in the streets! 🍫 #deku treats! 🍬

[uncanny-tranny]

It's weird how people paint "daddy issues" and even "mommy issues" as, like, a joke or a failure on part of the person who has those issues, rather than recognizing that daddy and mommy issues stem, for so many people, from abuse. What this all is is just abuse apologia, and nobody seems to either notice or maybe even care.

When somebody with daddy or mommy issues opens up about the "why," I can't ever seem to shake the fact that they tend to have gone through a ton of abuse and bullshit as a child. It's just crazy that other people would look at that and see a joke or a failure of the once-child who was abused.

#abuse #abuse tw #abuse mention tw #child abuse #child abuse tw #mental health #it really goes to show (to me) that people either can't or don't WANT to acknowledge that parents can be the ones to have fucked up #if all the blame is placed on their child/ren then you can maintain the illusion that the parent is always right... #...that parents know what is best and they will always do what is best for their child/ren #it's just weird to be somebody with parental issues and all that gets steamrolled into 'mommy issues' that then become a Big Joke... #...especially because i'm a man (and because people are misogynists who think it's just so funny that women are people)... #...i find that my own issues are expected to be treated as a joke or a punchline or something i must whisper in the dark... #...so that others may have the luxury of pretending to not hear it or to have the luxury of forgetting in the morning... #...and it just sucks because that leaves me to remember and grieve and doing that with the knowledge that my abuse Is A Joke at My Expense #if you wonder why so many abuse victims/survivors become unsavoury: this is why #i'm too bitter about this topic specifically to care about the comfort of people who don't get it and don't WANT TO... #...because it is THEY who are uncomfortable with the very NOTION that abuse happens #if you can't acknowledge that abuse happens WITHOUT downplaying to for your sense of comfort you will NEVER help abuse victims/survivors #you will find that you start prioritizing YOUR sense of comfort over the safety and continued survival of victims/survivors

[moeblob]

AU where Brent is a drone to help out at crime scenes and offer input after Right finds the drone. And basically he befriends the really weird guy possibly controlling the drone but has his doubts as to how human the drone's source can be. So Right and Brent just go around trying to solve crimes while Right just calls the drone "Fuckwad (affectionate)".

#my characters #i love right so much and i think he would actually do pretty dang well with a lil assistant drone because not a person #which means not liable to get hurt with a bit of contact so he can just #tap the lil drone or poke it to push it away a little #anyway hi i had a very VERY bad morning and im not gonna lie #i was genuinely at one point thinking huh what if i get hospitalized that sure would suck #and i was thinking huh maybe i should think of how to instruct my mom on how to post on tumblr to tell you guys im hospitalized #which in my defense i had to bother my mom at 2am bc i went down to get pain meds and couldnt make it upstairs #and was breathing so intensely on the stairs hunched over i was like hmmmm not the usual panic attack feelings #and she immediately asked me if i wanted to go to the hospital #so im like cool not gonna let that outta my mind thats fine surely no problem #just gonna fixate on being hospitalized #anyway i finally got helped upstairs and was in incredible pain and couldnt breathe v easily #and it was leading to a bit of a panic attack because i was in so much pain simply trying to inhale and #my breathing was so shallow and sharp and my arms were just having bad circulation and shaking and hm #yeah it was p bad #anyway as a treat to myself not being in a hospital i drew my beloved raccoon son right

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

and so begins the making of christmas presents

#its the mooooost stree-essful tiiiimeeee of the yeaaarrrrrrrr #ive found good small projects that will suffice #thankfully i only have five people to crochet for! #and my grampas lap blanket is mostly done! #im keeping it shrimple <3 #man crocheting has made christmas so much easier #less expensive less stressful. still stressful but at least i dont have to find something to buy #plus handmade things have the added factor of 'i made this with my own two hands. it took time' #so people are more inclined to like what you made them no matter how simple it is! #an 'i made this for you' automatically holds more weight than 'i bought this for you' #absolutely unprompted #im actually excited to make some of these! new stuff to try! #and ofc ill be proud of what i make which is always fun. the delight of making things for people... and them Receiving it... yes.... #its like making a cake for someone but more permanent #my stepdad's getting a stocking for the dog he wants #for his - and i quote - lovey cuddle buddy #i expect that on christmas morn next year the stocking will be full of dog treats and a kong ball #my mother is getting a bandana in bright colors that suit nothing she wears #since she's keeping her hair long again. also shes insecure about gray hairs so yk fine here's somethin to cover them up with #and my two homies... my breadslices... well! i shant say! #well. one of them knows what theyre getting but hush lets pretend you dont. bc i know youre reading this rn

[b1mbodoll]

repeating “jealousy is a disease get well soon bitch” in my head every time i block rude anons and delete hatemail so i can try to brush it off but i am not ur strongest soldier so can you all stop being mean 🩷 please

#♡.gabi barks #im okay i prommy (im crying rn) #like omg seriously what did i do!!!!! i dont do anything but mind my fucking business!!!! and talk to my precious little friends!!!!!! but #apparently i cant even do that bc no matter what i always get meanies in my inbox 🤞 #like im seriously not doing anything i just came back and im already receiving asks telling me to kms and deactivate like do yall realize #im a person too.. like im literally real and i have feelings and im not a complete ditz #like what is so hard about treating people with kindness!!!! #ive spent all morning blocking mean anons and deleting asks and trying to brush off the mean words i see and receive and it hurts!!!! #im just a girl #if u send hate or tslk meanly to or about me im assuming ur a LEWSER and have no life bc i dont even do anything fr!!!!! im coolin!!!!! #i was gonna post this with the jealousy is a disease get well soon girl meme but i couldnt find it #anyway im fine!!!! (as im actively texting my therapist) #no bc im so upset and so angry WHAT AM I DOING WRONG #what am i doing to deserve this like please give me a valid answer so i can fix it im so tired of being sad and mistreated and bullied :( #i know i promised i was gna try to be more active but my little heart is so heavy and sad

[caterpillarinacave]

y’all I just got the MOTHERLOAD of all pastries

#I have not eaten this much in months #My aunt found a cool bakery like an hour away so we made it this whole thing #I stay over at her house we leave at 5:30 #We buy donut for her students (12 or 15) #then the following: #Two homemade pop tarts two tag-a-long Girl Scout cookie donuts 2 thin mint GS donuts a French cruller with vanilla frosting a caramel role #3 plain cake donut one cake donut with chocolate frosting one chantilly cream mousse cake four macarons in espresso chocolate rasberry and #Black berry (I wanted lemon but panicked and said rasberry) a ham and cheese croissantFollowed by two loafs of bread and an orange spice te #And McDonald’s Hashbrowns #To be clear this is all being shared and my aunt planned to spend a decent chunk of money #It was something like 112 bucks? #Not as bad as I thought tbh #We had four boxes of baked goods. Four. Boxes. #You know what I eat every other day of my life? A bowl of yogurt in the morning and a bowl of veggies with egg at night #I don’t usually consume the amount of calories I just ate in a week #Mutuals sending you pastries #So early morning roads showing up at peoples doors and handing them treats + tea? Pretty much perfect

[volivolition]

reading Kim's Disco Inferno and i absolutely needed to read this fic earlier than im reading it right now. this is so fucking interesting.

#chemi chats #AIRHGHGHHHHH THE SKILLS THE SKILLS I WILL SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST ABOUT THEM ARUGHGJHGKJFHF!!!!! #okay im normal. back to it #kissing voli on the forehead. my friend. this is how i imagine my life these days. voli sitting on my shoulder as i do things #echem's also there but he can't do shit except go ''hey you should get a treat today'' so he just keeps voli company. #EMPY HAS ARRIVED AND I LOVEEEE HER. CRIES AND CRIES AND CRIES AND #''Stop fucking around Esprit'' LMAO. LMAO. THANKS AUTH APPRECIATE IT. oh my fucking god this fic is so cool. this is so good. #SUGGESTION YOU SILLY FUCK GET OUT OF HEREEE!! oh thats FASCINATING!! 'I'm not... shit. I am.' THIS IS SO COOL. OH NO WAIT DON'T LEAVE VOLI? #oh of fucking COURSE ITS ECHEM. OF COURSEEE. oh hi halflit. little kiss on the head before you scamper off sweetheart #i miss voli i want voli back. voli come back please. oh there he is hi little guy!! oh echem. silly guy. i love you. this fic is so fun?!!! #oh hey!! composure. nods. ''Harry; Kim. We're Harry.'' YEAH! YAHHGKJGH!!! like i sure have my faves (empy; voli; echem) but #OUGH. MOTORICS AS A WHOLE. MY FAVORITES i love the team smiles :) oh they were all so sweet hahskj motorics have never done anything wrong #NO VOLI CAN'T COME WITH US?? WHAT'S THE POINT EVEN. STARTS CRYING. oh nvm hes with us in the glasses WE'RE ALL GOOD #this fic. is so cool. good morning lieutenant. OKAY!! DONE!! COMMENTING TIME!!! thanks for looking at my spontaneous liveblog lmao

[nympippi]

Blake family portrait

#pippi art #the black phone fandom #the black phone #the black phone fanart #finney blake #gwen blake #griffin stagg #terrance blake #griffin blake #griffin stagg fanart #gwen blake fanart #finney blake fanart #necromancer finney au #I hc that griffin had negligent parents and that after getting brought back he found out his parents up and left. and Finn kinda just #let him stay at his house. he’s even got his own room and everything #terrance doesn’t really know what to think of griff but Finn likes him and he’s really not going to argue with Finn about this kid #terrance is just very awkward around griff but he does warm up to him eventually #Gwen is ecstatic to have another brother obviously!! #and Finn just adores him. like it’s definitely brother/ parental role with griff. he treats him like he treats Gwen basically #and makes him and her both pancakes in the morning! #finney tied griffins tie btw #10/10 siblings griffin is so happy to actually have a family that loves and cares about him #just my hear my soul. this au heals me istg

[humanmorph]

Stellar combustor arc really was crazy. I'm often getting kind of annoyed when people go you had to be there about something but it's trueee like listening archivally you will see the x episodes after an impossible ideal and know it's gonna be fine. World DIDN'T blow up. But for a few weeks it was truly possible for the season to end right then because everyone died

#I'm glad we don't live in that world but also just what would season 10 have been. Damn season 10 huh #...Tbf when Keith revealed the soldier move I was like oohh they got it no worries . Also weh #UNTIL I realized they could very well run out before they got to the important part. #& then I was worried again. #Palisadeposting #I can't even explain that annoyance btw like it's not like it's not actually true when people say it. #It just makes me go yeah ok buddy. Alright. But I can be irrationally annoyed as a treat #Palisade spoilers #Sick on a Saturday morning... Sick at 3am almost 4am thinking about this. My throat hurts

[littleoddwriter]

Because I keep questioning my own writing a lot; especially in terms of ending a short story... sometimes, it really is easier to just treat what you write like a movie or a TV show you're watching. Especially if it's a short fic that is basically just a single scene. Like... Would there be a scene change now and it'd feel complete? If yes, then it's an appropriate ending. If no, then either you write one more paragraph or let it rest for a bit, come back to it, and see how you feel. Or you find a spot a little earlier because sometimes scenes can drag on for too long and need to be cut shorter in order to be satisfying and make sense.

#i treat all of my writing like it's a movie or something because i'm a very visual thinker and i imagine everything vividly #so it comes naturally and that's the only way i can somewhat assure myself that the cut i made or the ending is appropriate enough #sometimes i'll still be unsure but heyyy it is what it is i guess #if i keep rewriting it any more i'll delete the whole thing eventually so whatever #anyway this is about the fic i just posted because holy fuck i was so proud when i finished writing it this morning #then i kept re-reading it to make sure it all makes sense and there aren't any grave mistakes #and every time i read the ending paragraph i got more and more confused #until i had rewritten it like 10 times and deleted the entire paragraph to end the scene a little earlier #because if this short fic was a scene in a movie or a TV episode it'd have been fine #there's no more to it necessarily #and the ending paragraph was just to wrap it up some more but it wasn't at all necessary #hopefully it doesn't feel too abrupt now tho omg hdsffhkds #jesse.talks

[isfjmel-phleg]

😶 

#random personal stuff #personal whining ahead feel free to ignore #'you did great' with handling the ceiling damage situation #but I should have done this and I should have done that #and if I had done things correctly I would have noticed right away when I opened the library etc. etc. #we'll have a meeting ostensibly for everyone about this but of course the scolding will really be targeted at me #so forgive me if I don't really believe that she really thinks that I 'did great' #with a situation that I had no way of being prepared for #I worry a lot that my boss thinks I'm incompetent and/or careless and this is not helping #I mean...she told me that I need to get here early in the mornings when I open so I can turn on the lights upstairs #THAT'S EXACTLY WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING FOR HALF THIS WEEK #I've been making a point of doing that #I've been the first one here I've turned on lights I've unlocked doors I've checked the book drop I've sat at the front desk #like I'm supposed to! #but because I wasn't carefully examining the entire upstairs when I turned on the lights I have Failed #it's fine I will be fine this is just embarrassing #and now she's going to treat me like I don't know how to do anything

[nezzling]

It's not up to you to decide if you're good enough for me, it's up to me to decide if I like you enough to keep you around. I'm so sick of people bailing on me cause essentially they don't like themselves and let that self loathing convince them I must feel the same. If I'm actively giving you time and attention, it's cause I think you're good enough for that. Stop leaving me cause you don't like yourself, that's weird, you should leave me cause I'm unbearably annoying at least wtf

#lil rambles #sorry im just so fuckin sick of it #people being like wow youre so pretty funny kind caring affectionate even in real life and like yes yes i am and i love that about me #so why do they all run from thag good just because they have self esteem issues #like do you not want the help of my light and love to help you learn to love yourself and grow with me #why you running you fuck get back here and face yourself properly for the first time in your life instead of avoiding self work #ive literally had so many dating stages end cause they dont think they are attractive enough specifically #like excuse me i like my partners a little ugly so that im guaranteed to be the funny AND pretty one #dont you want a funny pretty nymph of a wife what the fuck bros why dont you want that dream life #i guess some people just see themselves as nightmares and cant see that even a nightmare is a kind of dream too #its too early in the morning for this kind of introspection but i woke up early feeling nauseous and it made me sad and lonely #like idk if youre ugly and weird just treat me nice so that someone is there for me when im having a bad day or health day

[ardate]

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#just me rambling #badvibe #god. i feel so let down by my friends these days #it's been a billion things piling up for many many weeks #and right now i just got told by a friend with whom I was supposed to go to a convention that she forgot I was coming #so she won't be able to pick me up cuz she's going with her mom instead #we made plans for visiting that city in the morning before going to the convention and all. #i put it down in my agenda and moved plans around to accomodate for it. but she straight up... #entirely forgot i was supposed to be there #she forgot about me #and i'm SO. FUCKING DONE. ABOUT BEING AN AFTERTHOUGHT ALL THE FUCKING TIME #this is just too fucking much. between this and my childhood friend who acts distant w me ever since there was a dumbass quiproquo #where i have to fucking work hard everytime at creating a good atmosphere whenever we see each other cuz she wont put in that effort #and another friend who's been utterly ignoring me on purpose for some fucking goddamn reason i don't know why or what i did #ignoring me or being rude other times #all of those are just examples but its been so many things #i have been. SO fucking patient with everyone. ive helped them so many times too- sometimes to my own loss #i've been so kind and understanding despite my personal struggles - keeping my feelings of anger and injustice at bay #and i get what in response? i'm fucking. forgotten i guess. pushed aside. treated like a nuisance #i feel like its at the point where the closer they are to me the less effort they put in. cuz i'm a given now. they can treat me like shit #they treat strangers better than their close friend cuz they know i'll just take it. or smth. i'm a punching ball for bad moods #i'm done being the understanding one. what about that. what if others were the ones having to come to me and be kind instead #what if i was the one people coddled and offered sympathy to for once in my fucking life #idk. just fucking explode #i feel so disrespected. and uncared for #and so deeply unloved #i'm done. i'm done #the convention thing was just the fucking hammer to break my back after everything #i'm so deeply heartbroken #do i matter to the people i care about

[amyyscorner]

Tag rant/vent

#what if I just quit #and find a pay pig #someone willing to pay for all of my life #for just a little attention #or i could sell pics of my feet #the foot pic market is quite big #or my armpits #hell i'd sell worn socks #i just don't know how intelligent it can be for me to be at this workplace #working 8 hours a day again soon #with that colleague treating me without any respect #when I know i could have it so much easier #i love my job #but god #i am overwhelmed #i think my panic attacks this morning came from being stressed about work #it just #urgh

[pumpkin-n-mc]

:D

#the plan is I add a sticker every day I’m like fully up and getting ready ten minutes after my morning alarm #there may be some issues (literally all just me not having rules) #bc first discipline without rules is nonexistent #second I have spent a while trying to think of a reward but I don’t rly have anything I want that I don’t get.. #whineee i miss having someone who did rules and treats for me >~< #think in the meantime ill just post here each day I get a sticker. not really accountability but closest I can have rn #which will also probably mean I waste half an hour lurking on discord as usual then no sticker #ugh >~< what is a brat w/o rules to find loopholes in and be grumpy with