when i found comfort in:
being cold 🥶
being weak 🤒
dry Iips 💋
dizziness 😵💫
irregular or no periods 🩸🙅🏻♀️
losing my voice ❌🗣️
looking dead ⚰️🫶🏻
🎀🩷the numbers finaly started rapidly dropping🩷🎀
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fuck that 5 minute euphoria u get from a meal. it's the euphoria u get when walking past a mirror knowing u succeeded!! knowing u have 100% control over how ur body looks. It's the euphoria u get when u see that GW on the scale ^^ that's the real, long lasting euphoria. once u learn how to think long term, u can achieve all of ur goals!!
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Morning bodycheck
Getting back on track after vacay and I’m doing great. Haven’t had a binge yet so I’m happy and im mostly only eating dinner when I have to 😜
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vent
~ one of my friends w a similar aesthetic to me has started showing ed behaviour. i rlly can’t handle it. it’s selfish but i’m so competitive and this is going to send me spiralling.
~ it’s strange though because i genuinely like being part of these communities online and taking to people w this disorder. when it’s actually irl it’s so much harder.
- HOWEVER upside ~
restriction is going to be so so so easy now
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Being off of tumblr has given me a lot of distance from body positivity/fat acceptance, made me realize that the uhhh general environment I guess was making me feel guilty for losing weight on purpose which is bonkerssss and after learning a lot about the current culture of body positive/fat acceptance I’m like oooohhhh okay yeah that all makes sense now. Also if I saw one more person reblog a dumbass post about how BED isn’t real or is only caused by restriction I was going to lose my mind for real lol. Oh also the phrase “in a larger body” shut UP oh my god I am FAT and I AM a “larger body” because I am my body. I’m not “in” any body it’s literally meeee. way so many people are dead set on extreme dissociation is so disturbing
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