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we're not who we used to be | h.s.

Pairing: Harry Styles X Reader

Summary: Some letters you've written but never sent to Harry over the years.

Warnings: Angst... so much... there's some fluff, emphasise on the some, there's a hopeful ending tho!

A/N: Sooo this is the childhood friends to strangers fic no one asked for... Hope you all enjoy! This is my writing debut in Harry land :)

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April 10' 2010

To: Harry Styles From: Your first fan

Hiya Harry,

It's currently 11:29 pm about 10 hours away from your audition. I figured since you told me to stop praising you and boosting your ego, I'm writing down the rest of the things I want to say.

Firstly, I know you're going to smash it! All the judges are going to want you in. There's no chance that they won't see how special you are, how you're the next big thing.

I won't let you back out of it last second! Anne, Gemma and I are ready to drag you onto the stage, we've discussed it thoroughly...

Secondly, I'm already so proud of you. This is a huge step, I know how nervous you are about it. How you think that everything is going to go wrong and that you'll fail. I've got enough hope in you for the both of us. I'll stand by your side the whole time and I'll cheer the loudest.

To finish, you're Harry Styles. You can do anything.

Break a leg superstar!!

Cheering you on already,

Your first-ever fan

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December 12' 2010

To: Harry Styles From: Your biggest fan

Harry!

You've made it all the way to the finals! It's crazy! I knew you could do it but seeing you go further and further has been surreal.

I hope you and the other boys get along well! We haven't had much chance to really gossip about it all, you seem excited with them!

The finale is set to start in about 2 hours and I had to get some emotions out (my mom was tired of hearing them... rude) Anyway! I remembered that I had written you a letter a few months ago and now I'm back in this notebook.

I'm so nervous, excited and kind of nauseous about watching the last episode tonight. I can't even imagine what you're feeling right now... You must be so scared but incredibly jittery!

I'm counting the days until I get to see you again! I want to hear everything that's happened behind the scenes! You know how nosy I am!

I've already taken up two pages so I'll stop for now.

You can do this!

Talk to you soon,

Your favourite person ever

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March 7' 2011

To: You From: Me <3

You called me Angel today...

I don't know what to make of that.

I had so many butterflies in my stomach.

Could you call me that again?

You're my favourite person,

Angel

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November 20' 2011

To: Harry From: Angel

Boo!

You finally let me listen to the full album today! Said you had to be there when I listened to it so you could give me all the secrets. You also wanted to see live how I reacted to every song. You're too cute.

"I Want" is my current favourite.

You did tell me that you'd resonated with a lot of the lyrics you sang on this album. That almost scares me.

How did you relate? Who was going through your mind?

You do have the world at your feet now. I shouldn't feel jealous but I do like having you all to myself. Don't worry I'll get used to sharing...

The Up All Night Tour is starting soon! I'm happy that you've invited me to come to some shows. I'll be there no matter if I have to miss school.

I have to show all these newbies that I'm THE biggest Harry Styles fan out there!

Hopefully, you thought about me while signing.

Because I think about you all the time,

Your favourite fan.

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April 13' 2012

To: Harry From: Angel

G'Day Mate!

So you're officially all the way in Australia now! That's so exciting I wish that you could have stuffed me into your suitcase... sniff

I bet it's super warm there! Or not wait their seasons aren't the same as ours, are they? I'm not even sure...

Hopefully, you can tan a little while you're there! Don't go near any animals or insects!!

I miss you a lot, maybe I'll send this one (spoiler I definitely won't).

Talk to you soon hopefully.

Go swim in the ocean,

Someone who wants to be in it

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August 29' 2012

To: Harry From: Angel?

You haven't come to see me since you've been back.

Too busy being a celebrity?

I've been seeing all these tabloids... I'm not allowed to be jealous I know but I miss you.

I hope you've missed me.

I really really wish you were here with me or that I was with you wherever you are now.

I just want to be us.

Have you forgotten your friend from the small town already?

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January 1' 2013

To: Harry From: Someone You've Hurt

I don't know what to think,

You kissed me. It made me happy.

You said it was a New Year's kiss.

You said you drank too much, it hurt.

You ended up kissing someone else about 20 minutes later.

That hurt even more it almost made me feel used.

I'm happy you were my first kiss.

I don't think you'll even remember it,

Y/N

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November 27' 2014

To: Harry From: Me

I love the new album, took me a while to finally listen to it. I thought you'd come home and make me listen to it in your presence.

You didn't. The first album that I've listened to alone.

Spaces and Fools Gold are my favourite songs. I wonder how many lyrics you resonate with. How many of them did you write?

Come home?

Only for a day please,

Your first Angel

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October 21' 2015

To: Harry From: Y/N

It's been a while,

It's your mom's birthday today. Well only for a few more hours...

She invited my family and me to the party, and of course we went. I didn't think you'd be there. I haven't seen you in almost a year.

It was fun.

Catching up about everything that's been going on with you and the band. Your life is so much more interesting than mine now.

I'm just a boring college student... you're this huge star but that's ok there's no one like you for me, you're my safe place. No matter how far away.

You asked about my love life and I told you about the date I had a few days ago. You asked if we had sex, I lied and said yes. I didn't want to embarrass myself by telling you no one's ever been with me like that.

We ended up getting drunk. Too drunk.

We fucked.

You took my virginity and you have no idea... should I tell you? You were so good. So gentle, loving but you fucked with a purpose, you needed to get off. I won't ever see your childhood bedroom the same way.

This was only a few hours ago.

I've felt every emotion about it. Now I'm crying because I know you'll find someone new to share a bed with. I'm just a notch in your headboard.

It meant everything to me.

But I think I regret it...

Y/N

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May 12' 2017

To: You From: Me

Really?

I hope Only Angel isn't about me.

But I'm overanalysing every single song. Is one about me? Did you think of me while making this album?

We haven't talked since the last time we saw each other. When we fucked again. It wasn't even the second time, after your mom's birthday two years ago we never stopped. It's all we do when we see each other.

It doesn't make me feel all that much better but I feel like if it wasn't for that we wouldn't even know each other anymore.

I'm moving away this year. Got a job offer in Canada and I'm taking it.

Maybe I'll get over you... hopefully.

I can't live my whole life waiting for someone who I don't know anymore.

I'm blocking your number.

I miss who we used to be,

Your first-ever fan

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December 4' 2019

To: H From: Y/N

Hello,

You've crawled your way back into my life, Harry. This morning, you decided to send me your album. Your new one, Fine Line. Your fans haven't even heard it yet. The public hasn't either.

You didn't write a single thing in your email, the mp3 link was staring me down with your automated signature. Not even a greeting.

I shouldn't have listened to it.

I don't know why you sent it to me. We haven't spoken or crossed paths in over a year. Not since I moved and tried to get rid of every way of contact between us.

I still haven't answered, I don't think I will.

You don't get to know what I feel about it. Not anymore.

I'm sorry Harry.

I've moved on,

Y/N

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December 13' 2019

To: H From: Y/N

Your new album came out today.

I'm proud of you even if we are strangers now.

You're a superstar.

I always knew you would be,

Y/N

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March 17' 2020

To: H From: Y/N

I saw that you had to postpone your tour.

You must feel so defeated.

I know I do. Everything's been closed and opened and closed again here in Canada. It's getting exhausting.

I hope the world starts working again soon.

This all sucks...

Crossing my fingers for the tour,

Y/N

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May 18' 2022

To: Harry From: Y/N

Hi,

You sent me the album before the release again.

This time you did say something: I miss you Angel, Can we meet up?

I didn't think I could feel so many butterflies in my stomach. I felt like a teenager again. And I cried more than once listening to Harry's House.

I'm still considering if I should answer... if I do what should I choose? Should I agree and go into the unknown or forget it happened and keep on going with my life?

I miss you too... the one I knew. Not the one who used me. I guess I used you too... How did we get here?

All I want is to be loved and to be in love.

I'm not sure if I'm ready for the hurt this will bring but maybe I should just be a grown-up about this...

I want you back in my life.

That scares me,

Y/N

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August 16' 2022

To: Harry From: Y/N

Well,

I'm going to the Love On Tour today and after we are going to "meet". We even have until the 20th because that is when your next show is, after today obviously.

You were so excited when I agreed.

It's almost as if no time has passed when we text (he changed his number in the last few years... no need for an embarrassing unblocking).

My friend, the one who convinced me to agree, helped me pick out an outfit. Thankfully for her, I won't stick out like a sore thumb in the crowd of feather boas and cowboy hats.

I really want this to work.

I want to believe that we can be good again. We can be healthy for one another again but I'll be worried until I see you.

Until we speak.

I won't let myself touch you, I have a feeling that it would be far too easy to fall back into a bed. Maybe a hug would be okay.

I'm excited for the show, to see the Superstar Harry Styles in action. After so many years you have to have evolved so much.

You aren't little Harry from Worcestershire anymore.

I'm not the same person I once was either.

See you tonight.

Break a leg,

Y/N

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bells-of-black-sunday · 5 months

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𝐊𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐲𝐨𝐮𝐫 𝐩𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐧𝐞𝐫 𝐰𝐞𝐥𝐥 𝐜𝐚𝐧 𝐩𝐨𝐭𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐢𝐚𝐥𝐥𝐲 𝐦𝐚𝐤𝐞 𝐰𝐫𝐢𝐭𝐢𝐧𝐠 𝐭𝐨𝐠𝐞𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐚 𝐥𝐨𝐭 𝐞𝐚𝐬𝐢𝐞𝐫 !

𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 : Spük / Spuk / Spooky, whichever is easier

𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐍𝐎𝐔𝐍𝐒 : He/Him | They/Them

𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐔𝐍𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 : Tumblr ims to start unless we're already talking then it's discord. It's just easier to reach me there, but unfortunately I keep it pretty private due to really bad experiences in the past. Though if our muses are already connected through egg, you are more than welcome to ask for it too!

𝐍𝐀𝐌𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄(𝐒): Everyone in my doc who I will not be typing out, because that's way too tedious, but primarily Tarhos Kovács / The Knight, Danny Johnson / The Ghostface, Karthus / The Deathsinger, and a few ocs. In the past I've written a human, normal, and bloodmoon Thresh / The Chain Warden before Rito ruined my love for him, Galaxy Xayah, Pyke / The Bloodharbor Ripper, Vladimir / The Crimson Reaper, Sylas / The Unshackled and an old kid league oc when I first started writing on tumblr.

𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 / 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 ( 𝐌𝐎𝐍𝐓𝐇𝐒 / 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑𝐒 ) : I've been roleplaying in general starting on R.oblox when I was 9 or 10, then moved to D.eviantart, then to S.kype and then finally to T.umblr when I was like 13 I think? 12 or 13. So over a decade pretty much, almost a decade on T.umblr itself which is wild.

𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐄𝐗𝐏𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄 : By far meeting Egg, we've been dating for 7 months now and they're a very big part of my life that I am very excited about. I'm very passionate about everything they do and every time we hang out it's a highlight of my night. I'm so excited to be moving closer to them next year, so that we'll hopefully be able to hang out more regularly in person than just one trip I'm planning in April. I will never not hype up Egg and their work, they're so talented and genuinely just such an incredible person.

𝐑𝐏 𝐏𝐄𝐓 𝐏𝐄𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐒 / 𝐃𝐄𝐀𝐋𝐁𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊𝐄𝐑𝐒 : Something that's always bothered me since the time of themes being popular, but I feel like is still a really huge issue with docs and carrds becoming the main way we tell our muse information is accessibility. I'm sorry, but if I can't read anything about your blog I'm not following you, if your formatting gives me a headache and I don't even have vision issues you really need to rethink how you're writing, if I can't tell what your icons are even supposed to be because they're 5x5 px and crusted out the ass that they look like a single pixel that's not an aesthetic babe that's a bad early 2000s webpage. Of course there's also certain fandoms I won't touch with 10ft pole, but generally the biggest thing I've soft blocked people over is accessibility, because I don't care if you write fandoms I don't care for, but I sure as hell don't want to interact with people who think their aesthetic is way more important than just being accessible when most writers I've written with have some sort of visual processing disability and they're all fucking incredible.

Oh and if you have anything relating to not interacting with female muses or ocs in your bio i'm hard blocking you, but I think that's self explanatory.

𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐄𝐑𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒 𝐅𝐋𝐔𝐅𝐅, 𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐒𝐓, 𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐌𝐔𝐓 : I do really like fluff, but I really enjoy angst with all types of interactions just due to the nature of muses I have on this blog. Smut I have to be in the mood to write which is why there can be no smut for months on my blog and then I drop a 600 word reply randomly at 6 am.

𝐏𝐋𝐎𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐑 𝐌𝐄𝐌𝐄𝐒 : While I do enjoy plots and will happily plot with anyone, I just think memes are easier. They're something I can easily type up a response for instead of someone having to wait for me to be in the right mood to write and not be busy (especially with the holidays coming up) and just be waiting for a starter. I promise I don't mean to be slow with things, adhd just has massive fucking hands that it grabs me with sometimes!

𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆 𝐎𝐑 𝐒𝐇𝐎𝐑𝐓 𝐑𝐄𝐏𝐋𝐈𝐄𝐒 : Genuinely the shortest replies I will do for anything that's not a one-off joke interaction are 1-2 paras, I hate writing single sentence rp it doesn't give me enough to work off of. By that extension I prefer long replies depending on what it is of course, someone cooking in the kitchen with someone else doesn't need 6000 words obviously, but I do like me some writing inner monologues.

𝐁𝐄𝐒𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄 𝐓𝐎 𝐖𝐑𝐈𝐓𝐄 : I get the most motivation at times when I should be asleep which is as funny as it is me getting to bed super late at ungodly hours, but because of that I don't expect replies immediately. I even tend to just queue things when I do write, because with how awful t.umblrs notifs have been recently, it gives it a better chance that my partner will see it!

𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔 𝐋𝐈𝐊𝐄 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄(𝐒) : I'm out here hitting all my muses with my trans-beams to fill my government assigned quota for the lgbt agenda to be honest. But in all seriousness, I think everyone tends to put a tiny bit of themselves into every muse they write and that's what makes rp so much fun!

Tagged by: No one, I stole it from someone who I can't remember because this has been sitting in my drafts for so long-

Tagging: No one, because idk who hasn't been tagged

#ooc #not me who kept forgetting to do this even though I wanted to-#q.

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dsknsktest · 1 year

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the battle system, and how far we've come

Progress has been amazing. To recap.

We write November 19, 2021. You can see here that the basic idea of Skill Linkiing was present. The icons of the sins were in their most basic states, as were their colors. The thing that stands out the most here is that all 12 characters are present in the upper picture, something that's been cut down afterwards. Something that's also curious is that a partial chain is present in the second image.

We write April 22, 2022. Despite this only depicting two characters clashing, we can immediately see changes. The top bar is new, and there is now an info 'box' describing the skill used. The icons above Yi Sang seem to indicate which skills he'll use.

We write May 6, 2022. Our first look at the full battlefield ever since the previews on the website. The Skill Linkage has been made clearer, as the skills are visible on the screen. The passive system has been worked on, and passives are now at the left side of the screen. When a passive is popped, a glowing 'seal' appears on the character. The sins themselves have different colors now. The field is a 5x5 now. We also get our first look at E.G.O and possible Corrosion. When it happens, we first have a cut-in and then the screen shatters. Last but not least, we have a lot of motion blur. Note that in the menu, Rodion's portrait has 'Hearse' on it, a sign that this, too, is not completed yet.

We write May 13, 2022. The so-called Beta version. Despite what it looks like from the image, there are notable changes. The first, and most notable one is that the motion blur has been removed. The skill 'boxes' visible when clashing also have gotten a slight redesign and are now also layered on top so it's easier to see during the action. It's obviously not able to be caught in an image, but the camera angle has been changed when selecting skils. Now, when E.G.O and Corrosion activates, the screen shatter happens during the cut-in, which has also been enlarged. When clashing, there is also a smaller chain at the bottom of the screen showing what skills will happen next. The passive menu is now collapsible.

We write June 03, 2022. The blue sanity bar has been reduced to a small orb in the corner of the portrait. More functions are added, like auto-select, a final damage multiplier and the ability to hide screen details. This is to make the somewhat complicated system more accessible. The passive activation also has been changed to emphasize the Skill Linking more.

We write September 17, 2022, TGS. Minor cosmetical changes for the top left menu have been made. The sinners in the passive menu are now given by their symbol, not by their roman numeral. The sin menu itself has been flipped. The bottom right reads 'V1.1.0 ALPHA'. The clash preview, which has been shown on September 02, 2022, is now seen in motion. Another detail is that the sound when rolling heads is also changed.

We write January 06, 2023. The button that was previously on the top left moved to the top right. Later on (on January 20, to be exact) we will see that passives are now signified by the on left of the screen when they activate instead of glowing seals. This makes it more noticable, especially because they can activate during clashes now.

And that's how it was made!

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imathers · 1 year

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I posted 998 times in 2022

That's 6 more posts than 2021!

40 posts created (4%)

958 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@40ism

@rubyvroom

@quoms

@khealywu

@laughterkey

I tagged 991 of my posts in 2022

Only 1% of my posts had no tags

#politics - 314 posts

#1000 words - 248 posts

#music - 196 posts

#personal - 161 posts

#context - 147 posts

#laugh rule - 139 posts

#40ism - 93 posts

#philosophy - 90 posts

#bodies - 85 posts

#+1 - 74 posts

Longest Tag: 138 characters

#and in guelph sometimes this one restaurant would have a pastrami and ox tongue sandwich that might be my favourite sandwich i've ever had

My Top Posts in 2022:

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Yesterday, Alan Sparhawk of Low let people know that his wife and the other half of Low, Mimi Parker, passed away from ovarian cancer. I already shared some songs and wrote very briefly about it, but that’s all I’m doing today, too. Not much writing; I’m not sure how to sum up my favourite band or my feelings about them. I wrote about their last three records at Dusted (and that tag will also show you how prominent they were in my last couple of year roundups), but today, I’m just going to mostly post some of my favourite Mimi songs/performances. She will be missed, so much and by so many.

Someday this will all make sense.

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After all that, I made a post for our 10th anniversary earlier and forgot for a bit to put it here as well! Here’s all the pictures, and here’s what I said:

I had a bunch of crap here about my tough weekend. And here's the thing: none of that matters. In the 10 years to the day since we got married in NYC if we've learned anything about each other and ourselves it's that the formality of the specific anniversary day, the idea that this one in particular needs to be perfect, just doesn't matter to either of us and definitely not us together. Neither of us has unrealistic expectations of the other, and both of us care more about the love and respect and communication between us than if we do a fancy thing on a fancy date. It's been true ever since the day MORE than 10 years ago that I was sitting nervously on a plane down to Florida, going to meet for the first time this person that I already thought might be my girlfriend, or something more. Did I tell you guys that like a week or two into talking I told my mom is suspected that just maybe we'd get married some day? I had previously not cared whether or not I got married. And then we did meet, and within maybe an hour or two it was just... oh, there you are. That's what my life is now. No money, no idea how immigration worked, still getting to know each other, and still. And now for 10 years we've given each other the biggest, best thing we could: we get to live together every day and hold the things we need to hold together, even when it's tough, and deal with our idiot cat, and have so many bits of private vocabulary and injokes, and try to keep the apartment running, and spend hours talking about everything and anything with each other, and being quiet and together in the same room, and nap together, and have dumb fights that seem to always wind up with more love and understanding between us. 10 years of actual, imperfect wedded bliss that I wouldn't trade for anything. Thank you for everything you do and are and for being the most perfect partner I could have. And for taking these pictures.

(but not this picture, I took this one)

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I am being Punished for my Crimes

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It’s imagery of someone dying and someone being left behind to live. Eventually that second person dies, and ends up in the same place in the universe as the first person. It’s not a pessimistic song. It’s two people talking under the assumption that they’ll both live forever – I guess that’s what it is.

We were having kids for the first time around that time. I had a naive desire to ramp up my grappling with the universe. Trying to understand what’s worth saying, the permanence of what you do and say and the impermanence of life. I think that song is pretty simple – it’s two people talking to each other who are on the same team.

The Quietus, “The Strange World Of... Low”

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My #1 post of 2022

The thing I’ve been sitting on for weeks now until I can talk about it finally officially happened yesterday. After more than 8 years at my current job, which started out very good (good enough that Anaïs got a job there too) and got very bad (bad enough that last November they laid off 10% of our department at the end of a very successful year for no good reason, including Anaïs), I wound up looking around and seeing a position that looked promising elsewhere, one looking for fairly specific and I’m guessing relatively rare experience I happen to have.

And then I found out in my first interview for it that it’s also one with a much bigger salary than I would have guessed, big enough that Anaïs (who was already in school to become a relational psychotherapist, but it’ll be a few years before she’s set up with that) won’t have to look for another job until she’s done school and ready to start her practice. And after being offered the job and signing the employment agreement a few weeks ago and then sitting in limbo with the background check in progress, yesterday I was officially cleared and gave official notice at my soon-to-be-old job. Which I was dreading doing but actually went pretty well.

Now I just have to finish up my last round of publications at my old job and move on to one that I’m very excited about. I am sure it will be a job with issues like any other, but I have reason to be cautiously optimistic that in addition to everything else it will be a lot less stressful than the last one eventually got. And my new boss even told me when we were figuring out the start date he’d rather have me take a week if I need (I do) and come into the new position more refreshed.

The whole thing on the one hand has happened quite fast but on the other has felt like it’s been something I’ve been working on for years, and I still can’t quite believe that within days of me sending in my resume they wanted to interview me and within days of finishing interviews they offered me it and the whole time everyone involved acted like they wanted me there enough they kept acting kind of worried I’d get a better offer elsewhere (I might... have worth? believe me, I have been talking to my therapist about it). I’m very happy about it and last night was the first time in a while I fell asleep without worrying about one part of the process or another. Please clap.

49 notes - Posted April 28, 2022

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geekgirlsmanifesto · 1 year

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I posted 1,433 times in 2022

That's 696 more posts than 2021!

57 posts created (4%)

1,376 posts reblogged (96%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@chordassinationtechnique

@myhalloweendreams

@thatnanda

@danyok

@absolutebl

I tagged 118 of my posts in 2022

#thai bl - 27 posts

#not me the series - 26 posts

#not me - 21 posts

#first kanaphan - 21 posts

#thai drama - 17 posts

#gawin caskey - 15 posts

#off jumpol - 14 posts

#just drama things - 14 posts

#gun atthaphan - 13 posts

#fluke gawin - 12 posts

Longest Tag: 134 characters

#i also loved the philosophy talk from the 18th century since most of the discussed philosophers influenced the mid-century revolutions

My Top Posts in 2022:

I have a couple of thoughts regarding the Kim action scene in the last episode of KinnPorsche. Of course, I find Chay's complete oblivion just as funny as the next person but I was struck but a couple of other things while watching the scene. The first is that Jeff has done surprisingly well in the action scenes for the series for an actor who has no action experience. Like, Apo does amazingly well in his scenes but he's done a lot of action series in the past. For Jeff to do as well as he has is actually pretty impressive. But then he has been such a pleasant surprise throughout. I had enjoyed him in Ingredients but that series wasn't exactly one that you had to really get your teeth into as an actor.

The other thing that I noticed was about Kim's character. He is the sibling who wants the least to do with the mafia life but he also seems to be the one best equipped for it. I just find that interesting.

57 notes - Posted July 10, 2022

We've all talked a lot about how amazing characters like Jao, Sky, Daisy, Touch, and Nuea are in SCOY but I really feel like the unsung hero of the show is Som. She is so fiercely protective of her people. And what she said to Daisy in episode 11 tore me apart because it was so beautifully put.

But yeah, don't sleep on Som.

85 notes - Posted April 22, 2022

It cracks me up how many people are suddenly thirsting over Seng as if he hadn’t just starred in another BL where his looks were never mentioned. It’s like the Clark Kent and Superman of BL. Apparently glasses and a button down really are enough to hide someone’s true identity.

87 notes - Posted August 3, 2022

I’ve been thinking about something for the last week regarding Gram and Nuch. First off, I have to acknowledge how huge it is that a main character in a drama dated a trans woman. This should not be overlooked in our excitement over a possible Gram/Black ship.

But I want to actually acknowledge something else that Gram’s relationship with Nuch does. It place a male lead - an actor with a large fan base who is widely considered to be one of the best looking actors at GMMTV - in a relationship with a plus sized woman. This is a different kind of representation. One I never expected but one that warmed my heart nevertheless.

138 notes - Posted January 16, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

The use of physical things to illustrate internal feelings in Not Me episode 8 was brilliant.

Dan stripping naked literally and figuratively.

White being bound by his secrets literally and figuratively.

Both Sean and White falling for each other literally and figuratively.

245 notes - Posted February 6, 2022

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hotarutranslations · 17 days

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New Life

Evening

My Birthday Event DVD is on sale❤️

Applications Here →April 26th 11:59PM Deadline

DVD "Morning Musume '24 Ishida Ayumi Birthday Event DVD"

I didn't mention it but its April,

Those who are starting a new life, how are you spending your days🌸

Congratulations on your new life

Being in a position to welcome and teach new people, For those whose roles have changed, You may be experiencing that at this time, right!

Thank you for your hard work

If you work so hard from the start, Are there times when you start to feel a bit tired🫣💫

Being tired is proof that you're working hard, right, thats admirable

Things like, since its a new year something has changed… Its not within my activities but,

For Morning Musume '24, This spring tour, is our first tour with our new system, right

Moreover we've only done it for 2 weeks so far

We had tight rehearsals, Spending time with the 13 of us, everyone is purely cool now,

It feels like, its like this now! already exists🏅

Really, thank you very much, to everyone who is watching over and supporting us😌🩵

Tomorrow, and the day after is Aichi!! 4 performances in Maria's hometown!!

Look forward to it🩷

We have announced our 3rd collab with Aoyama Clothing-san💙

Aoyama Clothing x Morning Musume '24

I'm happy💙

In the 1st one we had a dance video project🕺

The 2nd was titled Freshers, It was towards supporting new students and works towards their new life🪽

And now this 3rd time is full of projects,

🏅Skeletal Diagnosis Introducing Special Coordinates By Bone Structure (It was the first time I was diagnosed but its amazing its out in the world)

🏅Sakurai Rio Designed T-shirts on sale (by the way they're very comfortable)

🏅#nechinfilm Stylebook distribution (They are really wonderful photos)

🏅Every Friday A Video Will Be Released! (they're like, if you were in the same workplace as us)

🏅Tour Final Ticket Present Campaign

There is a lot! Its amazing, right! Thank you to everyone who went to the store right away!

How is everyone's suits~

I'm happy that my jacket really suits me🤭 That's what I was told🤭 lol

BEYOOOOONDS's Yamazaki Yuhane-chan, has announced she will be graduated from her group to go towards a new path

🪽

When we were doing the winter concert together,

In "Koshi Tanta Turn" (there are a lot of Yuhane highlights but within them) when Yuhane says "doobie dooba", there was a day I was particularly charmed by it like, Cool!, when I told her her joy was really cute but, Its only 1 word within the song, Even then, as one word…! I can super remember it, its cool🫶🏻

With what Yuhane has decided on next from now on, and with everyone in BEYOOOOONDS from now on,

I hope that you'll have a future surrounded by wonderful people🫶🏻

📺Hello Pro Dance Gakuen Season 11

April 18th 11:30PM~ A Learning From TSUKUSHI-san Adventure🕺

Sendai Broadcast "Ara Ara Kashiko" April 13th (Sat) at 10:25AM~ Ishida Ayumi Goes~!

I appear once a month as part of the AraKashi Family

The previous shows, and makings, are on OX VIDEO STORE!

Thank you for following.. Instagram💙🩵

🪩Spring Tour Has Been Decided Morning Musume '24 Concert Tour Spring MOTTO MORNING MUSUME

We'll be going around the country from March 16th!

🪩JAPAN JAM Morning Musume '24 will be performing on May 3rd!

⚾️《LIVE DAYS！～Exciting Big Exhibition Match～》 June 2nd(Sun), after the Hokkaido Ham Fighters vs. Yokohama DeNa Baystars match, Morning Musume '24 will be having a special mini live!

📻Morning Musume '24 Morning Jogakuin ~Houkago Meeting~

Airs Every Saturday, On Radio Nihon at 12:00AM~

Past Broadcast Episodes Are Available →Program Details

Yamazaki Mei's Panda-san Daisuki!! ~Expressing Love Towards My Favorite Panda-san♡ ver.~ in Adventure World

Yamazaki Mei's Panda-san Daisuki!! Mei-chan's Holiday. Adventure World with Oda-san and Ishida-san

see you ayumin <3

#Ishida Ayumi #Morning Musume '24 #Morning Musume #Hello! Project #Translation #Blog

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just-roommate-rage · 8 months

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I don't think I'm insane, but holy shit "Family Meeting" tonight left me exhausted and sobbing.

For clarity the family is me, spouse, kiddo and three other adults: eldest (43-ish), middle (35), and youngest (30-ish?)

Got actual verbal admission of the following:

eldest has never seen the paper on the fridge that lists every date for trash (weekly) or recycle (biweekly)to be picked up. It has been on the fridge and updated since we moved in in Jan 2022. He moved in in Dec of that year, 8 months ago. He has never asked.

eldest also asked with complete innocence where the recycling goes. We have a large blue can right next to the trash that says 'recycling only' on top. I have personally taken him out to it and talked through the list of what it recyclable and not and shown them how I put things into it.

youngest admitted to having no idea how or when to take out the kitchen trash or where to put it in the garage

middle clarified that their knee is damaged in such a way that they now can't make it upstairs easily, but they have no plan to seek additional medical care.

middle (unemployed since 2020, too anxious to walk outside even in the fenced backyard, unwilling to do work outside the home due to covid still in 2023) confirmed they have made no moves to seek disability assistance, and emphasized (again) dismissively that it was "stupid" for me to have ever suggested it (now 3, 6, and 12-ish months ago).

Middle still believes that the second car I got for fuel efficiency is dangerously broken (but also somehow thinks that it has trade-in value?)

Now that I'm done sobbing uncontrollably, I think these are some of the things that hit hardest... the term gaslighting gets used a lot but... is that what this is?

I was accused of ignoring private messages that were never sent to me. Thus delaying a project for an additional 3 months past the 5 months it had already taken.

I was told that the multiple times over the past 20 months when I told all three of them that an entire half of the garage shelving was for their things from storage, and that they could arrange it however they chose, and ask for more shelves/supports if needed.... never happened.

The fact that I was called bossy and demanding in previous conversations where I provided direct requests for certain tasks to be done? Also never happened.

Chores are totally being done, but not being reported because that makes people anxious and are sometimes 'just little things that you're probably not noticing'

Spouse being mad at me because I've apparently been ignoring advice to just talk to the family and now it turns out that's what I should have done all along, duh.

Somehow spose telling them 6 months ago that we wanted to split the family and then us telling them tonight that we'd like to aim for them having another living situation by October 2024 (13 months of notice) is very sad and surprising.

Giving them four months notice (Jan to April of this year) when we wanted financial help supporting the house (all three had been unemployed for over a year at that point and had not spoken about job searching) was very sudden and scary.

My financial and credit-building knowledge being ignored.

My opinion on my own cars (which they rely on for all transportation) being ignored.

A lot of the meeting was about chores, so if I'm remembering the various directions from this and previous meetings... my direction to get help with housework from anyone other than spouse is roughly the following:

have a chore chart - but not the extensive list in our family discord because.... because.

Clarify the chore chart to have specific days for tasks because 'daily' and 'weekly' are not clear enough.

expect no personal accountability to any one person - we've been using a discord channel, but apparently when anyone reports the chores they did it makes others anxious and then they don't report what they do. Which they totally do, you just don't notice, forehead.

give specific directions when something needs to be done very directly because other people can't understand the direction in something like 'the lawn really needs mowing if anyone has time this weekend'

Plan everything in advance and ask for help with it.

Also don't have any particular timeline in mind or expect prompt follow up because... we all have mental disabilities, etc.

Ignore things that aren't your mess and leave them for the original person to clean up. Apparently for more than 1-2 weeks.

Communicate before cleaning up obvious messes like craft projects with the child or dirty peanut butter jars because they are probably someone else's 'project'.

Delegate very specifically when a task needs to be done. (But not the ones people can't do because of irregular sleep, phobias, forgetfulness, or an inconsistent schedule.)

Other shit that is now my job:

communicate with mutual acquaintances in discord about projects and item exchanges that are not mine

make this new physical chore list where things can be crossed off, but not initialed or in any way track WHO is doing them

explain my finances to everyone so that they can 'help'.... except that the only person who mentioned that was the still unemployed one who the other two pay for so..... help how exactly?

get a second trash can and educate kiddo on how to use it because separating food waste and other waste will help us take out trash?

#chores #chosen family doesn't always mean you choose right #frustration #ranting #rant post

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826aliensapocalypseactivism · 10 months

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Out of Time

Taahir L.

April,12 2020

I wake up early in the morning to make breakfast and boil our daily drinking for school since mom is never here to do it. After I get my brothers dressed for school, i have a few minutes to spare, so I check the earth update, that's what i call it. It shows me an update of all the areas still habitable for human life. After that i check the news and I’m kinda shocked to see a protest. I haven't seen one of those in around 6 years, but somehow they managed to get through all the laws and media blockages. My viewing time was cut short by school so I put on my mask and make sure that my brothers have theirs and we are off to school. I step out and see the sky as black as coal despite it being 8 am and the chill in the air despite it being ¨summer.” I can't even imagine what the good times were like, according to my parents it was when the sky was blue. I just couldn't seem to grasp that concept, it was just so foreign to me, all I knew was pollution and filth so anything being clean to me is as new as a second language.

Nothing really happened at school today. A lot of the talk was about the protest everyone seemed to see today, ¨The world is damned, scientist say we're out of time to change anything the only thing we're doing is slowing the effects down by a year or two. The greedy bastards only care about themselves, living in their fancy self sustainable houses.¨ Ashley said, “I agree the greedy bastards only care about themselves and it pisses me off.” Zoe said, “well it's not like we could do anything” I said, ¨Except we can.” Ashley said,”How?” I don't know exactly, but there's a way, the protesters found a way so why couldn´t we.” The protest wasn't even up for 5 minutes, so I doubt that did anything.¨ If they didnt do anything, then i doubt we wouldn't have talked about it for the whole 45 minute lunch period.¨ And just like that i realized that we've been talking about this for the entire lunch period and I’m not one to debate on pointless topics. The rest of the day that conversation couldn't stop replaying in my head, and it was irritating me. I just went home and slept it off.

April 13, 2020

¨TAAHIR GET YOUR BROTHERS WERE LEAVING!¨ my mom screams violently. ¨Mom what's wrong?¨ I said worriedly ¨Get your brothers and meet me in the car in 10 min !¨ I”m sitting there nervously trying to figure out what's happening and then i look at the t.v. and i notice the headline, the government is going on a rampage and killing off all of the cities that are most likely to get contaminated. And our city was the next city on the chopping block. We gathered basic items like clothes food and water and were on our way to leave the city. I don't even think she had a real plan to start off with, but she just wanted her babies safe. We made it out the city and started talking about the whole situation.¨I knew this was going to happen sooner or later but i didn't realize this soon. But you and your brothers are going to be safe with grandpa. ¨But we haven't seen grandpa in years¨ that's okay, she said, he's still your family.¨ We arrive to grandpa's house and we were greeted by him and grandma like nothing ever happened. But something felt off about this place like something was going to happen soon. He stayed in a small town so everybody knew who we were, and as grim as it sounds, one of their residents got trapped in chicago ,so they had an open room and rent wasn't an issue. Everybody paid with contributions to the town. After we got settled we went straight to sleep, skipped dinner and all.

April, 14 2020

But it was shortly interrupted by a worst case scenario. This town was beginning to be under one of the governments raids as well. And this time we weren't so lucky, all of my family dies including my grandfather. The only people from the town that survived were me and this boy, Jake, I knew pretty well. If i wanted to get stuck in this situation with anybody it would be him since he was always the type to prepare for these types of things. After all of the troops dispersed from the area, me and Jake did the logical thing and started scavenging the dead bodies for resources. Jake had an idea, ¨what if we just stayed here?¨ ¨Huh.” We can just stay here, I know how to grow and and catch food, and you know how to make the meals we need to survive. I was hesitant at first because I thought it was disrespectful but there's nowhere else to go and we can't just live in the woods. At least not while we're this young and powerless. So i guess we're staying here for now. We worked hard to clear it all out and make it suitable for life again, and when we were finished it was actually looking suitable again. It looks like we actually have something going for us here.

May, 2 2020

Nothing really has happened since then. . . Me and Jake have enjoyed our happy little town of just the two of us.

The end.

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