#we were supposed to get some today

[rainymoodlet]

when your future lifepartner feels absolutely miserable thanks 2 pms but they're still the most beautiful creature you've ever laid eyes upon

also dallas was legit just uncomfortable from their period it's okay - it looked hilarious though i thought they were like "um ew honey wtf"

but seriously how is this man real, like look at this adorableness:

#i'm trying to summarize the latest of the kruegers gameplay because i sort of speedran some shit /cough #and so i figured i'd summarize ivory and her relationship w eva & cass and how we got to the Cutest Baby in the World #but i found these and oh my god i had to share #i'm sorry imma be spammin' all up in y'alls dash today ok - i'm planning on getting on later tonight and replying/being available/etc while #i play the first few dates for kmik (eyes emoji) #but i just had to dfkjsdhfskdjt #s4 #ts4 screenshots #;tjol+ extras #sim: dallas #sim: shingo #this was a dinner party i didnt end up taking pics of because nobody wanted to sit where they were SUPPOSED TO #but safe to say ivory's meeting her goals dskfhds #this was also the dinner that shingo and dallas met cass and eva for the first time! #also that phone mod is still the best thing i've ever downloaded ugh

[ch1zzie]

Some Julie's and idk a little thingy for today

#welcome home #partycoffin #julie joyful #man i have a LOT to do #today was kind of a mess we were suppose to go to my aunts house but uh my mom sort of took long in storage so its too late #not a bad thing actually #we have a lot more things that can help us and i have my missing nintendo switch thats been gone for 2 (or more) years! #its missing one controller but its fine! we can get a new one for it (it been had one controller because my brother broke it ages ago) #time to unpack everything i packed and uh do more work? #i still need to finish that freeplay menu im working on for my buddys fnf mod #and also need tooooo post some art i made (some time when i make more) #i haven't had much time for making my own art of things i like #OH I FORGOT ABOUT MY ART PROJECT TOO #welp things are going bad #what else did i forget? #curse you terrible memory CURSE YOU BEING DISTRACTED EASILY CURSEEE YOU HAVING HARD TIME TO FOCUSS CURSEE YOU EVERY ISSUE I CANT THINK OF

[songtwo]

idk i think my bf might be developing a drinking problem and i just don’t know what to do…..

#it’s been going on for a couple of months now but he promised he would stop and he had been doing well until today…. #and it’s like. on one hand i never wanted to be w an alcoholic and i told him straight so he promised it would stop #but on the other hand i can’t just abandon him #and it’s like we used to go out a lot and party but like. that was it but ever since he met this guy he just gets lost when he drinks w him #and the thing was he got like aggressive like he didn’t do anything to me and i can’t really explain it but he just wasn’t himself #and like. we talked about it a million times and it’s not like it happens every week #it’s been like 5 times since december #but 3 have been on the past month alone #and two weeks ago it got bad like he almost got into an accident #and like i’m not even physically w him anymore like we really only see each other once a week since i moved #and from the very first time it happened i told him i couldn’t be w him if it kept happening #and after that incident two weeks ago he swore it was the last time but it just happened again #by the way he and that guy get wasted it really is a miracle they get home alive #and like. idk what to do #i really don’t want to be w someone like this #and i hate feeling like this like if i were to think only about myself i don’t want this i hate feeling like this #but i also can’t abandon him #like not even bc i would miss him or whatever i just wouldn’t feel good leaving him alone #but like i don’t want to live like this #maybe i’ll ask for some time to just figure things out #but it’s gonna suck so bad bc we were supposed to see kendrick lamar next week and then we already had plans for his bday and omfg #i don’t wanna leave but i don’t want things to be like this either #and i asked him to stop and gave him multiple chances but idk #i just don’t know what to do #i love him endlessly but i need to put myself first but i can’t abandon him:( #and our 1.5 anniversary was also next week….. #but i think time is the sanest and safest thing right now

[savage-rhi]

.Magenta.

#in a nut shell... #my whole team betrayed me minus 2 #i was told and swore up and down that my absences related to disability were not an issue #come to find out that wasn't the case #there was resentment and everyone did a damn good job putting on an act and masking #i cannot begin to describe the kind of betrayal i am feeling #i believe in being transparent especially if you're part of a team of people who help others with mental health issues #i expressed many times that if my conditon caused inconvenience or problems then approach me and we can navigate around it together #i worked with these people for over 10 months and no one said a damn thing #i had no indication or inkling there was anything amiss even when i inquired before. #even my supervisor who was supportive and freely gave me and approved of time off lied to my face #and as a i handed in my belongings today everyone was ordered not to engage with me because on monday i utilized the chill space #aka the rage room after hours when the kids were gone because after getting interrogated by HR trauma from former work places came up #and with long covid stuff im still figuring out i needed a spot to vent #im not the only employee btw that used that room for personal raging everyone at some point has used it to either be contemplative #scream or toss punch and throw things so long as the kids are not on grounds we can do that #yet when i finally hit that point and want to decompress safely suddenly i am the dangerous monster #these people are supposed to be trauma informed #well trauma informed my ass #on a positive blessing i never have to work with these assholes ever again and i pray we never meet in public #its going to take a long time and a lot of healing before i think i will be able to trust people fully again #savage magenta #magenta is my vent word

[tricoufamily]

those playdough ass sims aren't gonna fit in with that beautiful beautiful lighting let's get a move on i wanna see some realistic skin folds (MODELED not a flat texture) and blemishes and subsurface scattering i want that-specific-breed-of-maxis-match-tiktoker-you-know-the-ones tears

#i changed my mind about not liking the hair being clay #as long as people can still make alpha hair i actually like having the option between the two i wasn't thinking #in my dream utopia we get some kind of particle system but in actuality that would make modding way less accessible #and you can't count on ea to give us all the hair we want so that's definitely a no #but i hate the completely smooth plastic skin. away with it #i saw people say those supposed leaks look 'too alpha' YOU'VE LOST YOUR MINDSSSSSSSS #just because the shirt's not painted onto the skin with a shitty low quality jpg graphic doesn't make it 'alpha'. unfortunately #they were on the right track with sims 3 medieval but noo #project olympus has done so much damage it's unreal. in a million years aliens are somehow going to trace the apocalypse back to it #my mom was trapped in the passenger seat of my car today listening to me explain the entire project olympus history. i'm sorry #i mentioned the live stream and she harmlessly asked if it seems better than ts4. like oh man do you have a minute to hear about ts4 #but it's on my mind it's such an interesting topic too bad it poisoned my water supply and killed everyone i love

[cuteniaarts]

Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way. #so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

[nomattertheoceans]

Hi Lisa <3 What are your five favorite songs right now?

Hi Steph!! 💕

So right now I've been mostly vibing to this french singer called Grezou, he's not well-known at all but he rights beautiful lyrics

I've also been listening non stop to a playlist I made for when I write/edit my Hunger Games fanfic, so it's mostly songs from the "ballad of songbirds and snakes" soundtrack, and other similar songs ^^ I listen to it a lot haha

#thanks for the ask <3 #it's my birthday in two weeks and we were supposed to have a lunch with some family and friends #just like five people but i was still looking forward to it (turning thirty and all) #today literally everybody called to cancel #all valid reasons and stuff just bad timing but it sucks I'm a bit down #anyway getting back from work to your ask made me feel better <3 #asks

[fox-mulder-gets-pegged]

Gripping the sink tightly and looking into the mirror and repeating to myself that martrydom is overrated and that mortification of the flesh isn't as sexy as the media makes it look.

#translation: ive been waiting for two weeks to tell my best friend I'm having surgery and that i need some support and love #but I've wanted to tell her face to face bc 1. she takes news best that way #and 2. if its on the phone or via text its way too easy for me to downplay my emotional needs #but last weekend when we were supposed to see each other #she had to cancel bc her idiot moron boyfriend didnt want people over #and then today she texted me and asked if we could hang out #bc another friend needs support and my best friend wanted to have a little get together for her #so now its like #god I'd feel like such a dick dropping this if we hang out this weekend #and completely taking attention off the friend who needs support too #but also it's been two weeks and i just rly need a hand to hold #so now i come to the horrible task of weighing my needs vs the needs of others #and once again finding myself lacking #also this post is inaccurate bc im afraid of mirrors

[dandyshucks]

whyyyy does nobody ever come back to this group fjdkdl they show up once for a first time and then never return !!! its kind of crushing bc some ppl I've been like... excited at the prospect of seeing them again and then they just never show up ever again :')

and I didn't even get to draw anything good while sitting there !!! AUGH

#bleaseeee come back shfkdl im the only person that goes every week !!! #theres one other person who occasionally shows up but fjdkdl otherwise its just me #and then new ppl every time #and i cannot help but feel like im doing smth wrong and making them not want to return fhfkdl #i even get ppl to talk in the latter half once I've figured their vibe out and they seem genuinely happy to engage w convos #i somehow land on a topic we all enjoy and then we have a fun convo #and im very careful to not talk too much or too little djfkdl i am constantly adjusting to make sure I'm matching whats needed #i kind of have conversations irl down to a science dhdksl its ridiculous honestly but. it is what's gotten me thru life lmao #and I've been told countless times how good i am at connecting w ppl and making ppl feel comfortable #so im just like. what am i doing wrong !! how do i make this group enjoyable so ppl will come back !! #i know it's not my job lol im just an attendee and not a leader but i feel like i Have To if i want ppl to return #idk i just. god. there were cool ppl last week and this week it was some other new person who seemed like she did not want to be there #and i doubt I'll ever see those cool ppl last week ever again #i just want to cry a little bit sbdjdkl today was such a waste of time except for the fact i was able to get out of this hell house fhfkdl #i will just keep hoping that someone actually enjoys it enough to return i guess but this is getting a bit crushing to have happen so much #but... at least i am getting to talk to ppl face to face outside of my mother every week i suppose #vent // #dandy.cmd

[todayisafridaynight]

GOD. Epilogue of "A Dream a Kirin Dreamed" pisses me off. This is not to say it's bad by any stretch. It just pisses me off because WHY DIDN'T KIRYU BOTHER TO TELL DAIGO ANYTHING. Why did he just say "He didn't betray you" without backing up his point at all and then fuck off entirely without checking back in.

The man just woke up and he's awake for a week before he's discharged from the hospital??? Maybe catch him up to speed on something that's clearly weighing on him??? Or on anything else that's happened in the time he was unconscious ??? Hello???????

Like. Dude. Is it not enough that you're just dead weight for the entire fucking ending. Knowing this is your son's best friend. And no way he doesn't know because even aside from Mine's monologue which (obviously) focused on his perspective, Kiryu says himself when he encounters a journalist who can't find any friends or family to interview about Mine that Daigo would know him best.

KNOWING this is your son's best friend. You LET him kill himself in front of you both because for you, sitting on your ass and going "Mine!" was good enough. You didn't think to reason with him. You didn't think to grab onto his leg or something when he was three feet away. You weren't injured. You weren't THAT exhausted. You just didn't think to do it. Even though A SUBSTORY IN Y3 ENDS THE WAY THE MAIN STORY SHOULD HAVE AND IT'S ONE OF THE LAST THINGS YOU CAN DO BEFORE HEADING TO THE HOSPITAL.

Y3 ending is literally my Y7 ending in terms of how much anger rises up within me whenever I think about it because it just Somehow, To This Day, piles more and more on top that makes it worse than it already was. Like its ONLY saving grace is that Mine didn't actually die. Allegedly. At least you can argue Ichiban and Aoki didn't have time to react, but Kiryu had all the time in the world and did nothing.

Ok I need to stop I need to stop I know I should be mad at Yokoyama and Takeuchi and not Kiryu and I literally had to run this post through an all-caps -> sentence caps converter But Anyway Point Is If Ichi Had Been The Protagonist Of Y3 Mine Would Be Alive

i cant even really blame something like kiryu's emotional ineptitude to explain why he couldnt just be open about What Mine's Business Was because the guy can CLEARLY speak from the heart and say good and honest things. like he knows how to communicate For The Most Part so its truly just. The Fuck Happened Here you dont think it wouldve been a good idea to get daigo up to speed on the past week or 👁️👁️ just saying Mine Didn't Betray You is like. a FAIR start i GUESS but ELABORATE a bit ??

not at all a 'rare' L moment just a typical kiryu L honestly （；´д｀）

#long post #snap chats #mizuki goated fr fr. highkey those two's substories are my fave theyre so fuckin bizarre..... #BUT REAL LIKE KIRYU. ILY I DO IM SORRY but i KNOW your ass can get up #mine DID just beat your ass but youre not THAT banged up and its not like you have any reason to relax after knowin richardsons alive #like there was PLENTY of time to react this some yakuza 'let him finish speaking its honorable' bullshit i PROMISE (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`)(;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #dont look down here im ranting about y7 related stuff #OK BUT NO THIS JUST REMINDED ME OF ONE OF THE MOST INFURIATING TAKES I READ ONCE #AND IT WAS BASICALLY PEOPLE BLAMING ICHI FOR AOKI DYING LIKE EXCUSE ME #how on gods green earth was ichi supposed to react in time- when its KUME of all people #what the fuck was he supposed to assume was going to happen its KUME he's a wet rag of a bitch boy #especially when all he did was praise aoki like how the fuck was he supposed to think he would stab him oh my godddd #like its not just kume showing up either ichi and aoki JUST had an intense emotional moment and they finally got a chance to breathe #like they thought they were good and in the clear and they were in a steadily-getting-better mood why would they be on guard (;´༎ຶД༎ຶ`) #FORGIVE ME thats been bothering me for months. i needed it off my chest #anyway im going for a walk. we got ice cream today and idk why i eat ice cream when it always makes me sad/lethargic #so heres to hoping a lil nature walk and heavy metal improves my mood a bit

[rainymoodlet]

hahaaa… woops 🍼

#ts4 #ts4 edit #ts4 gameplay #ts4 challenge #the joy of life legacy challenge #ts4 screenshots #sim: dallas #;thekruegers #they/them for dallas! 🌵 #|| #YEAH SO THIS WASN’T SUPPOSED TO HAPPEN THIS EARLY BUT… HERE WE ARE #you’ll get some context to this later #w some posed shots bc i’m obsessed w dallas #but omg uhhh i have two possible dads here 😬 #and neither of them were blind dates dhdgd #but hey!! gen 2 heir is on the way already!! #dallas got a house upgrade by (cough cough) #blackmailing ted roswell #but they seem genuinely unbothered by their pregnancy so :’) #kmik posts incoming today!! #this is a q’d post!

[dumb-doll-lips]

I’ve def gotten so much worse at decisions. Def isn’t fun when you don’t have someone around to make them for you.

#spent some of today like planning for a little trip w my mom and sister #supposed to be for me like yay getting a divorce #how many questions I’m getting asked has me feeling like the whole idea is a mistake #I def used to be able to plan little trips #it’s makinf me worry about the trip some #like earlier this year I cried in a restaurant bc my mom and sister wanted me to decide if we were going to do wine or cocktails #I tbink maybe I need to try to come up w more like default options #like w dinner I tend to always go for seafood and then have defaults within that whenever that’s possible #at least most meals will be reservations so I can figure it out earlier #Idk what my standard drink is #like out of wine beer and cocktails I have go tos in each bjt which of those is a better default #personal

[apnourry]

20:03 AND I JUST REALIZED I HAVE A WHOLE ICED LATTE IN THE FRIDGE DO I DRINK IT NOW

#the answer is yes #but also #gonna néed some carbonation too #since I got ghosted by my long time friend💀 #when we were supposed to have plans today #anyway #his fucking loss still love his stupid ass tho #he Havin surgery this week anyway so like ima cut him some slack I GUESS #back to the latte #do I get another one before work tomorrow #I'll have time #👀 #input welcome #love yall #later taters

[streatfeild]

pcr test came back positive as well. i‘m ALREADY going nuts in here ahhhhhhhhh

#i‘m too tired to think #netflix bores me #and my back is killing me #also my wrist again for some reason??? i thought we were done with that‚ mate :( #at least the cold symptoms aren’t as terrible as last time. i can still smoke so thank fuck for that #oh AND i‘m gonna try oil painting for the first time??? #the canvases i ordered are supposed to get here today! #i‘m scared lol #also i looked at cars again today (as i do when i‘m bored) #and i found a yellow audi oldtimer for 8500€ that i can’t get out of my head now #i want her #shut up kit

[hua-fei-hua]

last night i had a dream that had something to do with reading a fic abt . well i wanna say "a haunted forest diner" but i've already written a haunted forest diner fic and it was not at all like that. anyway, it was this haunted forest diner fic in the sense that all its patrons were old forest gods of like decay and shit and in order to sneak in, you had to transform into like a deer, and apparently i was a supremely graceful jumper for a stag

but anyway i dreamt that that was a fic that i had apparently read and commented on months ago, but for w/e reason i had never read the replies to, and the author had replied that i seemed like a cool person n that they would have loved to have read some stuff i had written "but it seems you do not have any genshin works up..."

and honest to god all i could think upon reading that was literally "lol skill issue"

#and then i dreamt that i got one of those defeat the 8-12 hilichurl comms in genshin n i was like fine fine w/e #but after killing two i somehow figured out that they were not trying to kill me but instead trying to kidnap me to be their medic #and i was intrigued enough to be like 'okay' n sat down on this white blanket thing they had set aside for me #n one of my friends (don't remember who) was like 'yo you good?' n i was like 'yeah they just want me to be their medic' #n my friend looked at me suspiciously n was like 'well the comm isn't over you have six more to kill but if you need me i'll be over there' #n she pointed to where the trumpets i knew in high school (minus cody? i think?) were having sectionals under some trees #it was definitely trumpet sectionals but for whatever reason my brain decided to edit out cody So fucking True get redacted idiot #anyway so i just waited around in the warm sun untild a bunch of humanoid creatures started coming down the hill #i think they were supposed to be bosses or smth but none of them are in gnshn even tho we were def in mond or liyue by this point #and they all had different colored faces but anyway my friend was like 'THIS IS WHY WE HAVE TO DEFEAT ALL THE HILICHURLS!!!' #'BECAUSE IF WE DON'T THEN THEY'RE JUST BUYING TIME FOR *THESE GUYS* TO COME!!!!' #n i was like 'oh shit!!' n we started fighting them n they were really tanky but we got most of them except for the blue one #and so i went back to the haunted diner place n entered it as a human n went upstairs where i found the author in my dreams #n she said that we couldn't talk long bc the blue guy was after me but she'd distract it by joining its side #and also there was like this whole subplot in between abt like uhhh exchanging love for power i think? idk i don't remember rn #i just remember that the author temporarily exchanged some of her like. goodwill or smth to buy me time to prepare for my fight #with the blue guy and so i hiding in the bathroom listened w my ear pressed against the wall as she became corrupted n then it was #my turn to fight the blue guy n i opened up the door n stuff but then i woke up :c #anyway so that was MY dream diary for today everyone leave your own recent dreams in the replies and we can have a discussion lol #花話

[blueberry-beanie]

currently very sleepy but also relieved

#my first early news shift went without any problems yesterday #jesus chris tho getting up at 3:30am is really something #the music show yesterday was surprisingly chill #we only had a few tiny hickups but overall it went smoothly #today morning i had the responisbility of making the morning show work #my co-moderator is still very insecure and so i suddenly had to be the one who knows everything fml #we had some stress in the beginning when we accidentally just deleted some songs that were supposed to be announced (but we fixed that) #and then a bit more stress when it was my co-mod's turn to drive and she suddenly pressed all the wrong buttons at once and i had to fix it #i'm surprised it all went without major problems (but can i have some sleep now instead of work)