#we just mever go back in

[baldchristianborle]

Defending Aziraphale cause I KNOW y’all are gonna come for him:

1. a lot of people say that him deciding to go back to heaven is a character regression and doesn’t make sense- but it does! aziraphale has 6000+ years of repressed trauma from doing what heaven tells him! and even if he does seem to be taking steps forward (shades of gray), he never fully takes that big leap away from heaven (very LIGHT shades of gray). you can’t just recover from it!

2. also, we never actually see him get over the demons bad angels good thing. crowley is the only exception to this rule, in his eyes. he still views the Fall as a bad thing, which is why he wants them to be angels together!

3. people are also saying that it’s crazy ineffable bureaucracy got together so fast without too much internal conflict, unlike the (now divorced) husbands. but it makes sense because GABRIEL AND BEELZEBUB RAN THE SYSTEM. AND CROWLEY WAS CLEARLY A HIGH RANKING ANGEL WHO FELL VERY EARLY ON, MAKING HIM VERY DISILLUSIONED WITH THE SYSTEM. aziraphale mever got that chance- he was a lower ranking angel that was beaten down by this system, and as such doesn’t see that it’s the system that’s corrupt, not just the angels within. he still believes that heaven is a GOOD place filled with BAD angels, because he has literally never had the chance to learn otherwise.

and this is why it narratively makes perfect sense for him to become the supreme archangel- he’ll finally be able to see that the idea of heaven is corrupt because he’ll be in charge of it!

4. aziracrow have also been shown to be a direct parallel to nina and maggie. in the last episode, nina says that they’re not ready for a relationship because she just left her incredibly toxic and abusive partner. aziraphale and nina are in very similar situations! he literally just left heaven, which was incredibly toxic and abusive, and might not be ready for a relationship with crowley yet! however, unlike nina, he doesn’t fully believe that his previous situation was toxic, so he goes back- because he hasn’t seen enough to understand!

5. he clearly wants to FIX the system, not just be a part of it, because he is intrinsically such a selfless being. he still hasn’t learned to put what he actually wants before what he thinks everybody needs yet, because, again, he doesn’t understand how heaven works!

in conclusion i love aziraphale and i haven’t slept because i’ve been thinking about the finale so lmk if this doesn’t make sense but i will not be changing my thoughts about aziraphale

ALSO KEEP REWATCHING GOOD OMENS WE NEED SEASON 3

#good omens #crowley #ineffable husbands #aziraphale #good omens spoilers #gos2 spoilers #good omens 2 spoilers #spoilers

[seven-stars-in-his-palm]

HELLOOOOO would love to know about human incarnate. AND history's flowers. AND 13 for the fic writer questions. goodbye

OKAY OKAY OKAY IM SO EXCITED I LOVE THESE FUCK ASS THINGS!!!!! let me divide them….

13) your strengths as an author

i love writing prose. imagery my betrothed. connecting tiny threads into one useless piece is my bit on the side. basic dialogue when ik what theyre gonna talk about, but making it SOUND like them is a wholeeeeee other ordeal. so yeah, i'd say Prose. i like those, and people have said i use good word :)

history’s flowers

so you know the song bouquet by itchiko aoba ? well a good chunk of the song is mainly flowers, so ended up a fic like “crowley and aziraphale through history, but a flower that is mentioned in the song is present in an encounter we see”. like ‘plumeria’—its a ficlet in the garden and a bush of plumerias happens to be nearby or part of the scene ! its mostly chrono, but i tried to keep it as close as possible. not too much has been written yet other than the garden of eden example i gave you, and there’s a lot of flowers, but im gonna dew it all 😌

human incarnate (under cut due 2 length)

okay THIS one’s a bit more complex and infinitely longer. its a reincarnation story ! but of course, not exactly what you might have seen before. now, bit of context, i’ve mever really liked human aus—they are some amazing works out there and i’ve read a good chunk dont get me wrong, but its not exactly something i seek out—im there for the mystical, the immortal dance, etc etc. but one day this story just came up, and i COULDNT let it go. so: human aziraphale and crowley trying to stop the apocalypse but theyre actually an angel/demon duo but reincarnating every few decades. so one day they died (this if ofc plot relevant but if i explain it its ANOTHER long ass paragraph, so lets just say it involves fire and one of my favorite historical events *not alexandria*), and they started incarnating together, some lives never meeting and others meeting once or others changing them entirely, only to eventually truly converge in the present day (like 2008) in time for heaven and hell to realize the trick and the apocalypse on the brink of beginning. easy no memory shtick and stuff, and the appeal is 1) trying to stop armageddon without their respective powers/knowledge, and 2) relearning their love story one life at a time. its the exact balance of Supernatural and Human i would love to read, but never have seen. there might be fic like that out there (and i’d love to read it) but this is hopefully something I can execute nicely. some highlights:

- raising warlock is a such a funnier ordeal becayse they dont have powers to help them out. its a DISASTER

- them figuring out their miracles and their limitations when their powers slowly start tricking back (they're not yet where they're supposed to be, but after heaven and hell's first contact, they arent exactly human anymore, are they?) like warlock's birthday ! its just funny to me..

- crowley and aziraphale's limited contact before armageddon is about. its just a neighborhood crush, nothing more, but then it escalates like THAT ? imagine the guy who curates your flower bouquets you bring to your grandpa's grave (he's not related to you) (and he also happens to be you) and looks kinda pretty ngl is actually your immortal enemy you've been locked in a homoerotic relationship with since the beginning of time. and is a DEMON. of HELL. woah

- hell and heaven don’t really frighten aziraphale and crowley most of the narrative, until the plot ramps up. at first, theyre just Fuckin Weird to them, and seeing a few chapters of them just ridiculing their HEAD OFFICES without knowing just how powerful they can be makes me crack up

- crowley's tattoos (including the snake, which he has NO IDEA where it came from)

- aziraphale's bible and prophecy collection (inherited from his grandpa) (whom he is not related to) (who is also him)

- theyre both trans. one cool thing about this is that aziraphale intentionally chose his name based on the angel who guarded eden, which is HIM. for some odd reason, his name never did fade from the bible editions, and he is still known to this day. Cough Cough Crowley Cough Cough anyway also he and crowley both cycled through some other names before reaching their final ones, which are all names they’ve had in past lices :) because while their past lives have been connected to their old identities in some ways, it wasnt until 2008 where it really became similar. its almost like they knew things were coming…..

- (this trans fact is revealed during the six hours of drinking after adam is delivered <3)

- the bookshop fire

- holding hands at the end of the world

- no stars to run to, because crowley doesnt even know he built that one. but he still fucking loved astronomy anyway!!! he used to want to be an astronaut, you know. before the world tore him down

- aziraphale, on the other hand, never knew what he wanted to be. Good, that he knew, but Good at what?

- all of the fcuking.... scenes.... hittinf anathema, tadfield manor, I JUST!!!!

- some of their cliched past lives being the following: pirate/naval captain, bodysnatcher/cemetery caretaker, brandy spy/allied bookseller, 17th century witches, fugitive/aristocrat, and ofc, present day: struggling florist/bookseller who doesnt really sell any books and lives off of his grandpa's fortunes (again, not related) (who is also him)

- crowley growing up on the velvet underground and aziraphale growing up UNDER A ROCK. queen plagues them both...

and yeah ! its gonna be pretty long, i think. thanks 4 the ask, and happy timezone 💗

#ask game

[bigmack2go]

I got live‘sies so its time to appreciate‘sies some brackrond‘sies detailies

Not rly bc but i live how it looks like were zooming up, and then back down the lodge before and after santafee prologue

Why tf is crutchie su confused when he wakes up

Jack proceeds to sleep with one of just drawings wtf

He waves his hand infront of crutchie like „ur eyes closed yet??“

Al playing and leaning on the rail ahhhh ahshwksmdnxlxl (in case u didnt know: i love albert)

Race laughing and slapping specs

Everyone just deads in their tracks and teams up when Albert gives his coment that went to far

Finch scratching his head is so real

DID BIRD FLY TWEETY BOY JUST LEAN IN FOR A GOODMORNING KISS

AND DID GINGER MF JUST REFUSE BIRD FLY TWEETY BOY HIS KISS??

The slap on his chest like „not now honey“ 😭swejfcizp

Ike and mike arent in the same thibgy thing. For fucks sake thank god cuz its been bothering me for a while how they only get mentioned in the same context. I hate it when they do that. Wait nvm that looked like mush but it actually was mike.

Naw sniper can be so adorable

Did i mention i fucking love jojo

Smalls snd finch sharing a room ™️

Crutchie is so done w jacks bullshit

LMAO BUTTONS COMBING HIS HAIR

Albert posing infront of the „mirror“ is so me tbh

Ive mever seen anyone struggle this mutch to out on a hat as blink. All those tbh thats smt that could be me prolly

Specs babe what r u doing on the floor

Race shaking his jaket is so overdramatic and its perfect

Mush and henry are a duo I didn’t know I needed.

Why is mush acting like hes in a circus lmfao

Tommy struggling with the pants is everything

Elmer just took his cap off, put it in his pocket, and the magicaly made it apear in his other hand???

Who is tommy saluting at

Naw specs is like a big brother to livesies blink and it breaks my heart in the best way possible

Albert jumps in the middle like when i slide through the kitchen on my socks lmfao

Tbh sniper just wanted to move too

Sky. What was your thought process when you looked at darcy‘s ass instead of Katherine‘s even tho you knew this was gonna be in the proshot?

BUTTONS WTF??

Finch is such a mood istg

Snipe honey ily but you are being a little creepy

HENRY YOU JUST PUT ON THE JACKET HOW DID IT GO OFF U AGAIN?

I demant to know what jojo is doing

Ok smalls just sitting there dangling their feet is everything

BUTTONS ALSO LOOKED AT DARCY INSTEAD OF KATH WTH ?? HER ASS CABT BE THAT BAD /j

Kath awkward queen

Darcy going „alright“ like „okay thats enough, im done— your dONE“

HES SO PROUD 🥹

Specs. Going down backwards are leathers. This are stairs. Please watch where you’re goibg

RACE TOO IS EYEING DARCY INSTEAD OF KATHERINE

Istg romeo and jack r the only ones eyeing kathering wtf is thos?

RACE LOOKS AT CRUTCHES SO KNOWINGLY LIKE AN INSIDE JOKES UNDER BROTHERS LMFAO I LOVE THAT. THEYRE MAKING FUN OF JACK TOGETHER AHSHWKENFN

Ok so elmer actually looked at kath but he honestly just looks angry

Tommy boy save me, youre the only normal person here!

Nvm

Race wtf is your deal??

OKAY SOMEONE HELP ELMER I THINK HES HAVING A SEIZURE

How is blink STILL bot done?!

Jacks just talking to the air

Every single one of finches facial expressions. Like i can’t even count them all.

Hes so done lmfao

Mush? Wtf? Stop? Please?

You wanna share with the class tommy? We wanna laugh too

Buttons just watches like he just gave up like,,, ah whatever you do you

Mush is becoming a poledancer??

WJEN DID SPECS GO BACK UP THERE WTF

Race slapping buttons on the cheek like a grandma💀💀💀

We all agree that albert is that one friend where the whole friendgroup thinks he’s the token straight friends but hes everything but that, its just that he doesn’t talk about it a lot. And there’s that one friend (i wonder who/j) that knows fron experienced how thats just so fucking wrong

Elmer is like „😒😒😒—oh shit thats my cue- IM HAPPY“

So i got aprox two seconds into it and now in tired so see u lmfao

#newsies #edit later tag

[juria9090]

I thought i wanna write some dp x hp au plots i have in head but then it change into dp fusion au where basically you can fuse with a halfa as long as they have the abilities to fuse their soul with you. For that you really needs a stable halfa as the base to hold the fusion soul and we basically know Danny is the only one real stable and balance halfa ™.

Danny find out this ability accidentally when he is in distressed and Jazz is comforting him by hugging him. Danny felt safe in her hold and he feels something warm in his core and BAM.

Sitting on Jazz's bed is a person. Uh. Not really one but still look humanoid enough. Both was shocked by it and panic for a bit.

Their fusion is pure protectiveness and one hell of a sibling. If this fusion meet Dani, let just say Dani will not be able to escape from their vision at all. Jazz and Danny's fusion is a mother hen. Mama bear dare i say. Intelligence and strength. A bit gooofy but more mature. That fusion may look calm but they literally are a chaos inside.

The fusion likes to cause some chaos a bit and have fun.

Danny did experiment with this fusion ability thing with a couple of others. For example :

1. Tucker

2. Sam

3. Danielle

4. Dora

5. Ghostwriter (surprisingly)

6. Pandora

7. Wulf

Let me tell you i am so excited when a thought of Clockwork and Danny's fusion came up. Like bam.

Time.

Space.

Imagine the pure power.

But then it can never rival up against infinite realm and Danny's fusion.

I love imagining a pure disaster and misery of a fusion where Danny's ghost half fuse with Danny's 'dead' human half. (I like to imagine that Danny's human half mever really dead but exist outside his timeline and always stick around Dan)

I am not going to call Dan as Danny's older future self. That one is a fusion of two halves between Danny and Vlad ghost half side.

Pure Misery and sorrow x Ball of anger and vengeance. A recipe for disaster.

You may think the 'dead' human half in the apocalypse timeline will refuse to fuse with the ghost half but you are wrong.

He is desperate to be back with the other half. You will not have regular Danny because he did not exist anymore.

The thing that exist is pure embodiment of despair.

#danny fenton #danny phantom #danny phantom headcanon #dannyphantom #dp headcanons #phandom #danny phantom au #danny phantom fandom #dp #dp au #dan phantom

[ellecdc]

y’all get ready this about to be the new declaration of independence

okay number one DRINK SNOB

THEY ARE SO FUCKING IMPORTANT TO MEEEEEE I CANT DO THIS ANYMOREWWEWEEEHEIDHDJ WHY ARENT THEY REALLLL

hope lupin the woman you are. i’m actually gonna pass out. i so see reader and hope getting along so well it makes rem fucking dizzy cuz like, oh the woman of his dreams and his precious mom are besties? someone dig his grave already

ugh our snob is gonna be so happy she has a family and people around her BUT THE ANGST ONCE SHE TRUELY FINDS OUT THE DANGER REM IS MEDDLING IN??? DONT DO THIS TO MEEEEEEEE

number 2 poly wolfstar

are you done. are you okay? do we need to sign you in to the mental hospital? what’s with the angst? why are you doing this to me?

(i secretly want more angst LOL WHAT IF HER INSECURITIES WERE ACTUALLY TRUE LFMOAOA kill me)

WHY IS EVERYTHING U WRITE SO TRAGIC?? STOP WHO HURT MY WIFE???

ALSO CAN I PLEASE HAVE 2 HOT DOTTING BOYFRIENDS WHO RUN AFTER ME PLEASE?? IS THAT TOO MUCH TO ASK???

number 3

YOU my darling wife ARE TURNING ME INTO A REGGIE GIRL STOP. I CANNOT DABBLE AND FALL FARTHER INTO THE MARAUDERS WHOLE I WILL NET GET BACK UP they’re so lovely :((( reggie is everything to me stop it rn

i’m gonna binge the rest of ur reggie fics now.

i feel like i’m missing things hold on ILL BE BACK

😭😭😭😭

1) I would die for hope lupin, no questions asked. She is going to be so important to the reader like it’s going to hurt a little almost.

And yes, it’s going to cause major issues for our boy Rem when those two gang up together hahaha

2) also I hate writing angst (that’s a lie. I hate JUST writing angst - I need happy endings or hurt/comfort or I refuse to read it or write it - not even joking I WILL NOT READ books or fics with sad endings.) but these hoes (affectionately) keep asking for angst??? What am I supposed to do? NOT give them what they want??? Mother delivers, babes.

3) I’m sorry re: Reggie that poor tragic boy 😭😭😭 he deserves you frostooo, give the boy what he wants 🥹🥹🥹 (also my phone now autocorrects your username automatically lmfao it knows my wifey)

CANT WAIT TO CHAT AGAIN SOON IVE MISSED YOU MEVER BE AWAY FROM ME THAT LOMG AGAIN PLSSS

#ask elle #remus the drink snob

[gierosajie]

(Already asked this on monarch's blog, but wanted to know your opinion too bc you're cool and I like your ideas)

What if the reason we never see Venti's wings is that he doesn't have them anymore?

Like, maybe he tried to go against Celestia for some reason (probably regarding Khaenri'ah), so he was punished by losing his wings?

What if the other Archons mever knew about that, and discover the fact only recently? How do you think they would react?

I'm suddenly realizing just how much people looked at this guy with wings and went "it'd be a shame if he,,,lost them" sjdhdkhdkgg

But anyways, I like to imagine they discover it during a heat of the moment because Venti is just so secretive about himself, especially things that would bother him like Idk, losing his 2nd most recognizable characteristic. Plus, no one has actually seen him for the past 500 years because he was asleep and is currently prancing around in his human guise

I'm picturing a scenario where the archons are falling, and we know most of them can float or fly so they manage to catch themselves in time. But then they realize Venti isn't among them and is still falling even when there is enough anemo for him to manipulate and he's not doing anything-

Meanwhile Venti is trying to get his bearings, the wind is trying to get him to grab on yet he doesn't, his instincts are screaming at him to open his wings, but they're no longer there to respond. And let's not forget that to him, he just lost two limbs very recently, with no time to get used to it. It's disorienting in a way (I can't find the exact word). It wasn't like the time he fell from the tower because he had been exhausted then. At this moment though, he's completely aware of everything and he can't move like he was supposed to. He can still float and fly with just the wind alone, but his mind and body aren't responding, still desperately trying to move what isn't there, so he's just bracing himself for the ground

Luckily, Zhongli catches him soon enough and everyone gets situated on stable ground

There's probably gonna be a lot of silence there. Some worried glances thrown around, mostly by Zhongli and Nahida. Ei would look a bit concerned, though she'd mostly be thinking about what went wrong. Focalors, I think would be slightly panicked? Like Idk she kinda strikes me as someone who doesn't take well to things not lining up to her established logic. Unsure about the Pyro Archon since we don't know if it's Murata or if she's been replaced, but if it is Murata, then I think she'd be trying to get Venti to spill about why he didn't do anything

Venti is firmly not saying anything and begins deflecting. The Tsaritsa catches his eye and she has a hard look on her face. Like she's figured it out and doesn't like the confirmation. At all. But she understands, and the others begin realizing this too.

Someone probably accidentally moves too close to his back and normally he's used to it being sort of exposed. Still, the incident is just all too fresh in his mind and the feeling of someone or something that close to where his wings used to be makes him involuntarily flinch back.

Nahida is the one brave enough to ask about it because speculation isn't going to answer them. Venti's silence though, is enough of an answer. No one demands any more information after that. They all know the value of saying nothing and it would be a waste of time trying to breach the other subject without actually mentioning it directly.

Venti strikes me as someone who rarely rarely receives contact. Like, there's always a bit of distance with him often being at the back (he's just like me fr). I don't think he would mind a hug though if they're careful, especially since he couldn't exactly wrap himself with his wings anymore.

They probably wouldn't have much time to do anything as they're gonna be going back into the fray. Ei might be the one that would try to give a hug (making sure to avoid the upper back) after things settle down more since it seems like something she has no qualms over. But for now as they begin walking, Nahida would come up to him, mentioning how she's seen this as a way to comfort, and squeeze his hand. It's small, but it does ease the shakiness somewhat.

During the inevitable fight, Venti is given a wide berth so he could properly do his support thing, but some of the other archons make sure someone's always there to cover for him while he does cover fire for them. They may not work together as well as they would have liked, but they have each other's backs

#ask #anonymous #genshin impact #so uh. I may have gotten carried away. yeah. #Zhongli kinda fell off there at the end but know that while he's just standing in silence #he is also engaging in clown to clown communication with Venti

[chrisevansmentee]

In the cacophony of voices, in a room filled with stars, you my dear are outstanding.

You shine like the chandeliers overhead, all eyes squint because of your brightness.

My North star even when under a bushel, you still find a way to shine. Everytime I look at you , love flows through my veins.

I don't know if ill get tired of loving you.

I know you're scared, I am too.

I'm scared that some day, you'll find out how much of a light sucker I am and you'd leave, I'm scared of the day that youd inevitably turn your back on me, I'm scared of tomorrow and jo matter how much you try to remind me that all is well and that you were made for darkness, it still scares me.

You mever listen, you argue that your only purpose on earth is to shine into the darkness and to open every hidden corner.

You said to me the other day that love was not just a feeling but a tool that brings your deepest fears to the surface and that when we love people deeply it's because we're scared of being alone.

I don't believe you.

But you, my love are so persuasive.

You closed my eyes to the reality that your light was going out.

You made me promise that I'd keep going even when your light wasnt there.

My Star, I'm finding it hard to keep that promise, every breath without you around seems so painful to take.

I knew tume wasn't on our side but i didn't know it would be this near.

The darkness i used to run from has now become my friend.

But i take comfort in the fact that you're now in the stars with the rest of your kind.

I'll now rest on the unshed tears and unspoken memories of us together.

You may be dead but you're very much alive in my heart.

#african poets #author is tired #art #ok bye i'm done #black poets

[enamation]

hii hihiiii!! may i request (platonic ofc) qiqi with a reader who's like qiqi's parental figure?? if thats okay w u ofc!!, qiqi's just so skrunkly skrunkle!!!!!

HELLO HALLO HELLOOO ~ !! First genshin request !! This is 101% okay with me, I think this is so cute, and ur so real for the skrunkly skrunkle !! Not sure if i portrayed her well, but I hope enjoy this dear <3

Type: Headcannons + Short Story

Warnings: None !!

❥ (PLATONIC) QIQI + Reader : Parental Figure

❥ Qiqi can be very forgetful, so you carry a notebook around when you're with her to write things down for her !!

❥ Baizhu trusts you alot with Qiqi, because he's noticed how Qiqi is always looking for you, and is almost mever seen without you

❥ When she goes out for herbs, she likes to collect some flowers to give to you when she returns !! (You have to squat down a little so she can put them in your hair)

❥ Because Qiqi wants to remember things about people she holds dear, she also has a few papers with things you've told her: your birthday, your favorite flower, your favorite food, places, etc.

❥ You two enjoy going on walks together, and Qiqi really likes it when shes sitting on your shoulders. She enjoys the feel of the wind, and how tall she is as she admires the sights Liyue offers.

SHORT STORY UTC !!

The sound of your footsreps, the warmth of the child's hand that lay in yours, the golden grass and leaves, and the wind rusting in your hair.

You were at peace.

After a little while of walking, you and Qiqi decided to rest a little. You sit amidst a flower garden as she lays in your lap.

You glance at her, and begin to stroke her hair. This causes her to snuggle into your touch a little more, and her chest rises and falls in a precise pattern.

After a few minutes, you're sure shes asleep. As you moved to pick her up, she shuffles around and sits up.

❝ Ah, Qiqi, you're awake. We have tp get going back to the pharmacy soon. ❞

❝ Qiqi was never asleep. Just watching the flowers dance in the breeze. ❞

❝ I see. ❞

She looks around once more, and slowly stands up as you watch her look around the field.

She picks a flower to her liking, and walks back over to you, clutching the flower gently. She moves some hair behind your ear, and places the flower in the empty space, tugging at the petals gently to show the flowers beauty.

You cant help but lightly smile at her gesture, as you bring her into your embrace.

You'll never ever let anything happen to this girl.

#♭:┆request !! #🎬 :┆anonoculi ♡ #genshin x reader

[fadeintoyou1993]

tbh i've been in a rage over killing eve since s3. it just seemed like they were not interested in telling a sapphic story at all but in wasting everyone's time with pointless separate journeys that barely intersected in a meaningful way. idk i'm bitter

i think s1 was the prime. s2 was good, and i think if the show had ended on s3 with the bridge scene i wouldn't have been mad because that scene literally fucks me up TO THIS DAY like i could go on and on but i always think about how s1 ends with eve stabbing v and immediately regretting it and v fleeing for her own self preservation and in s2 how it ends with v shooting eve because she thinks thats what love should be (either u exist with me or not at all) bc thats what shes been conditioned to think to then s3 when v has that notion completely debunked and on the bridge when they finally find themselves together on the same spot theyve been twice before in their lives and did the absolutely unforgivable and theyre like..well yeah you make me feel things idk how to control so maybe we should just not be together and walk away and not look back and v is selfless for real and is like i get now that i truly do love you bc i would rather you happy and safe away from me if thats what you want and if thats how you'll be safe truly and eve is like i know who i should be and i know what people expect from.me and i know what i should want and i know thst what i really want might kill me and i should want to save myself from the heartbreak and so they begin to walk away but they end up looking back at each other bc truly really theyre what the other wants and theyre inevitable. UGH like god i love them so much i miss tjem so much and ill mever ever ever forgive tjem for the ending they gave them on the sjow i WONT..

#anon #answered

[corruptedbunny-multimuse]

NOW HOLD ON

TO YOUR DREAMS

YOU CREEEAAAAATED FOR A HAPPY LIFE

IT ALRIGHT

ALL THE THIIIINGS

WE SOUGHT FOOOOR

SO LONG WILL ALL BE WORTH THIS FIGHT

I WILL NOT

DESTROY THIS WORLD

I CONTROL TIME

MY FRIEND YOU'LL BE MINE!!

YOUR PROGRESS YOUR MEMORIES

WILL BE RESET WE'LL DO IT ALL OVERRR

MY FRIEND YOU WONT FORGET

THE BEST PART?

I KNOW YOU'LL DO IT

THEN YOU'LL LOSE TO ME AGAIIIN

LOSE AGAIN OVER AND OVERR

THATS WHAT YOU'LL DO

FOR THIS GOD

CAUSE YOU WANT A HAPPY ENDING

YOU LOVE YOUR FRIENDS

WHO COULD BLAME YOU?

YOUR FILLED WITH DETERMINATION

MY FRIEND!

WE'LL BE HERE FIGHTING TOGEEETHERR

PLAYING FOR ETERNITY

THE STRENGTH THAT LET

YOU GET THIS FAR

ITS NOTHING COMPARED TO ME

I FEEL YOUR DETERMINATION

I FEEL THEIR HOPES AND DREEEAAMS

THEY GIVE ME THE STRENGTH TO BE HERE

FIGHTING FOR ETERNITYYYY

IVE MESSED AROUND WITH YOU FOR FAR TOO LONG LETS PURGE THIS TIME AGAAAAIN

COME WITH ME COME WITH A GOD

STOP TRYING TO LIVE STOP ALL THE DODGING

STOP STANDING IN MY WAY!

PLEASE LET ME WIN FOR ONCE IN MY LIFE!

YOU THINK YOU ARE SOMETHING SPECIAL?

YOUR JUST A KID PLAYING PRETEND

DONT GET COCKY, MY FRIEND,

SOON ENOUGH YOU'LL MEET YOUR END!

YOU THINK YOU ARE SOMETHING SPECIAL?

YOUR JUST A KID PLAYING PRETEND

DONT GET COCKY, MY FRIEND, SOON ENOUGH YOULL MEET YOUR END!

YOU THINK THAT YOU COULD EVER DE-FEAT MEEEE?

NO MY FRIEND WE'LL BE FIGHTING

FOR ETERNITYYYYY

YOU HAVE LOST EVERYTHING YOUR HOPES AND DREAAAAMS

ARE SURE TO FAIL YOU HERE AT ETERNITYYYY

WE'LL NEVER LET GO OF OUR HOPES AND DREAAAAMS

WE'LL MEVER GIVE UP FOR ETERNITYYYY

BUT IVE BEEN HOLDING BACK ON YOU TILL NOW

LETS SEE IF YOU CAN SURVIVE THIS

DIEEEEE FOR MEEEEE

@asriel-thegoatchild

((not sure who this was directed towards oof so-- have a Zatch))

"...I don't get it."

#((long post))

[stil-yr-sand]

so he like held my waist (?) today anx ok lef me back up

so im trying to loke my body more #recovery and oart of thag is like going out of my comfort zone for clothes so i got some soagetti strap tamk tops that r tight and kind of cropped as a way to like help w that. i got tbem like right before break so ive really jusy neen wearimg them at gome but its jelped wkth my confidence alot and i feel soupa sezay. ok so i wore one today skd them hooosie ovef bc cold but i got too hot so i took it off ( we were under rhe covers duh too jot) and wjem we were just chilling he put his hamd om my waist and i was a pittle scared ir wad fonna make me want to die but it was actually rlly noce 😭 hes so Man like wowow hes tall oOo tall man (hes a girl) but hes tall amd sometimes its nice to feel small amd safe and it jusy felt really like. idk stirdy?? like secure like he was holding me yk adn kt was groundinf AND HE ALSO DID THE THING RHAY PPL DO yl whem lile u holdin g hands and u run yr thimb over theirs repetitively he did thag but like reight at my waist fuys when i say i have mever felt so happy i mean kt ok realostically probabpy jot but like. it was really nice and im really peoud of like. embracing it (?) becaud it was really nice. now will i lay on top of him ? FUCK NO

#i did it once amd almost broke down #not there yet #um #ask to tag #jesus tjis ereally is my doary

[brandwhorestarscream]

I suppose it makes since in the Hindsight AU that Orion would stay Orion. Megatron was a big affect on him. He would probably stay within the Archives without inspiration to act maybe never suspect he had leadership potential.

Meanwhile my heart broke a little for the parents. They all lost their babies.

Any ideas what happened to our other favorites? Is Arcee gonna accidentally involve one of the new cons in her search to make things right with the promise their child would live? Does Galavatron have a Cyclonus? Would Ratchet have joined with the Autobots or are they called something different here?

Like do we have any unexpected additions who sided elsewhere with the murder of children being the driving force along with corruption and Optimus's charisma not being a factor?

I have so many questions. I love alternative timelines.

Ok, SO! Orion's story veers off very, very differently from canon. It kinda draws from the 'feral Orion' ideas that circulated in the fandom awhile back. Because the war started so much earlier, Alpha Trion didn't find Orion until much, much later. He mever made it to being an Archivist. Orion grew up alone in the wilds of Cybertron, and was well into his youngling phase before he was discovered

Alpha Trion was one of the only council members that the Destructicons spared. Mostly because Senator Electroshock was still made to come into work on the morning of the Altihex bombing crisis. She had just been promised bereavement leave to support her wife and grieve the death of her son, but then the new emergency overrode that and she had to report for work. Alpha Trion basically went to her and said, 'Go home, I'll cover for you, it's completely fucked that they made you come in, we can handle this, just go rest'. He even said he's attend the memorial, if she'd have him. His compassion in that moment made her spare him later.

Alpha Trion isn't exactly a Destructicon, but he works with one of their branches. Due to the overwhelming grief of losing his son, sparkling and youngling protection is something Galvatron takes very, very seriously. There are a number of sparkling sanctuaries scattered across Cybertron, and offworld once the exodus finally occurs. Alpha Trion stays at one of the sanctuaries hidden under the surface of the planet, outside of the Iacon, helping protect the sparklings. On one of his expeditions into the wastes for energon or building materials or smthn, he stumbles upon feral Orion who is very, very much not into the idea of going back with this stranger.

Orion gives him hell for the next several momths or even years; taming him is hell. But, well, AT has been dealing with a gaggle of toddlers at the sanctuary for awhile now. Oh, he's biting me? He won't sit in a chair to refuel? He's trying to climb the walls and escape?? Yeah I bet he is, this isn't new behavior.

Even after Orion settles down (learns to talk, stops biting people, etc) he's still kinda wild and independent. He spent a significantly longer time alone this time around, with no interaction, no contact with society. He eats raw energon crystals and will fight even the largest meanest mechanimals with his bare hands. He kinda becomes the cool older brother at the sanctuary; all of the sparklings look up to him, and even after Cybertron goes dark, he remains there with his gaggle of like 20 kiddos and a couple caretakers, scavenging the wastes so he can take care of them.

Ok, next! Time tobanswer those other questions

Yes, Galvatron does have a Cyclonus, he serves as a high ranking officer and is head of aerial security under the Winglord. In the first draft he and Galvatron were actually mates, but I think Terminus fits the role of Megatron's sire much better.

Ratchet still became an autobot, though his choice was kinda made for him. He was already living in Iacon at the time, still a med school student when Altihex was bombed and the war technically started. He wouldn't see combat for quite awhile, but as things progressed and the Destructicon movement spread, the government began 'incentivizing' people to help. Aka they paid off all of Ratchet's student debt in exchange for him serving, and being young and scared and stupid, he agreed. Now he's an autobot less because his spark's behind the cause, more because there's safety in numbers and he wants to make sure First Aid is well fed and protected.

As for surprise faces, yes! A lot of loyalties have changed. Praxians ane Vosians are distant relatives, and regard one another kind of like cousins. The two cities had a treaty, and a symbiotic relationship: Vos's Rainmakers brought Praxus the acid rains that let their crystals grow (one of their kost important exports) and in return, Praxus supplied the flyers with energon. When the news of Vos' tragedy reached them, rhe Praxians were firmly on their side. As a result, Praxus stands until very near the end of the war, and the vast majority of their people ended up siding with the Destructicons. That means Prowl is on their side, and his ice-cold tactical skills are a great asset to them.

Another is Bumblebee! He was orphaned by the war and raised in a destructicon sanctuary. There are whole swaths of cons dedicated to child protection; their primary objective is to shield them from war and keep them safe and happy. A lot of the kids that grew up in those places became soldiers upon reaching adulthood, because the Cons are all they know. Their family, surrogate parents, of course they wanna fight for them. Bee is on earth, and is in fact the first person Arcee encounters upon returning to the present

#feel free to ask more questions tbh I have sooo many thoughts #also! if you have any ideas or thoughts or anything like that i want to hear them #hindsight au

[futurewriter2000]

Things I'm going through but can't tell anybody:

I don't eat. I eat too little and that is mostly because of my father.

I haven't talked to my father in mo ths even though I live with him. I feel like I'm going to go crazy inside this apartment with him. The amaunt of hatred I have for this man, makes me want to cry. I can't look at him in the eyes, I can't eat his food and I can't be in his presence. I tell people I'm fine but this situation is really torturing me because I see other people having normal fathers and mine is just a selfish drunk, who hates me.

I'm in love with this boy, who we started as friends with benefits and I told him I have feelings for him multiple times but he always shut me down. Somehow, the times we ended things, the whole friends with benefits, we always came back together and I always feel stronger. My feelings for him are so strong he's the one thing I think about when I wake up and before I go to sleep. I dream of him and he's constantly in my head. Now, what I'm doing js avoiding him because I do deserve better than the way he's treating me but it's hard when you love somebody like that. He's became my person through all this year. He became my best friend... And now I have to prepare myself to lose all of that.

I'm the saddest person. I know people see me as funny and happy and a bit crazy but that's all the mask I wear because I deel like I cannot be volnurable with the person I truly am, which is sad. People don't like sad people. They pity them and I do not want to be pitied but deep down I am so sad. Icannot tell you the amaunt of sadness I carry inside of me. I just do. I'm not depressed... I'm just always so sad.

I wish I lived with my mum but my mom doesnt care. She broke a promise by saying she will get an apartment and bring me to her but it's been four years and I stopped expecting that 2 years ago. I love my mom like the world but I'm so mad because she left and now all she saying is "Just get out oft here as soon as possible." Like you're supposed to take me with you! You're supposed to save me from this but you didn't. All you do is 3njoy your own life and dictate mine like its that easy. Do you know how many things I cant do because of the way my parents are? The way my father is? Of course, other people can judge me why I still don't have a drivers license and why I act the way I do and why I needed to add one more year to finish one of the hardest schools everbut they never lived what I lived through and they mever experienced what I did. Most people that judged me had parents that gave them everything, that took away their worries. Mine give them to me. I was taking care of my own finances since I was 15. I started working when I was 17. I had no money for a coffee, for a drink, for anything. It was tortuous being a kid of these two parents. But nobody will ever understand what's it like living a different life than them. And nobody will understabd what's it like not having everything served on their plate and doing everything by yourself since you were 15 year old. Nobody will understand how alone it has felt for 7 years, with no help, nobody to believe in you but everybody discouraging you and judging you and letting you know how stupid you are because you take longer to accomplish things than most people. Well, I do a lot of things by myself with 0 help from anybody. Not a single effort. Everything I do is by myself, every single percent. So I am a sad and angry person deep down and nobody knows that... Because nobody really cares.

[bunnychargebolt]

Brb gonna go bash my head into the wall :3

Silly lil vent below the line

I literally *only* asked that if theres a problem someone has with me that it gets communicated with me. Obviously im gonna be sad if you dont wanna be friends but ultimately I just want people to be comfortable and feel safe. Everyone has the right to tailor their own spaces to their comforts. Literally all I asked from the people that I was friends with is that they just inform me if I am no longer wanted in those spaces. Which I think is fair. It leaves nothing up in the air and prevents me from entering those spaces thinking that its ok and hurting someone emotionally or mentally.

But for WHATEVER FUCKING REASON people just arent fucking capable of that :3 I “burned bridges” because I blocked you (literally only on tumblr because you didnt want to be friends over KINKS that you wouldnt have even KNOWN THAT I HAVE if you didnt STALK THE GUY I LIKE so I could feel comfortable in MY fucking space where I didnt feel fully comfortable when we were cool because I knew you would judge me on some of my stuff which is why I NEVER talked to you about it). You were “leaving doors open in case I wamted to talk to you” even though you left shared group chats and unadded me everywhere which made it very clear you did not want me in your life and you would have been pissed if I reached out to you because you nonverbally set that boundary. And then its my fault for showing our mutual friend all of the stuff you “vented” about him because you have OPENLY SAID YOU ARE USING HIM and SHIT TALK him fucking constantly. Literally the only time I even really talk about you anymore is if its brought up with him or if im venting here in my safe space. I will literally aboid soaces I know you are currently in because I know I make you uncomfortable and Im being respectful of that.

I don’t understand why the fuck you feel the need to tell our friend when he goes to see you, while were hanging out btw which leaves me alone, to call me a bitch. Thats so incredibly immature. First of all, if youre going to say something behind someones back you better be willing to have them hear about it and deal with the consequences. Its not my fault that he got mad that you constantly called him stupid and talked about wanting to kill him and oh yeah USED HIS CREDIT CADD WITHOUT PERMISSION. Youre a fucking adult you can out up with the consequences with your fucking actions. I mever let him see anything that was not exclusively about him and I showed him because he asked to see what was said about him after learning that you USED HIS FUCKING CREDIT CARD AND SAID THAT YOU WEEE USING HIM.

If that makes me a bitch Im damn well fine with that but theres no reason to not be civil especially because he talks to both of us and its not fucking ok to shove him in the middle of anything. Grow the fuck up. And if you see this please please please go asay. This should be getting thrown into the void akd never reach you. I blocked both your tumblr accounts. If you made a new one to stalk me thats weird as fucking hell. Especially because my kinks don’t involve you. We arent fucking. And if we did, I WOULD NOT ASK YOU TO PARTICIPATE IN KINKS YOU WERE NOT CONSENTING TO BECAUSE I FUCKING CARE ABOUT CONSENT. And if youre going to go “well i dodnt consent to my messages getting shown to him” thats a completely different fucking tjing and if you dont like it maybe dont constantly talk about wanting fo kill your friends. If you need to vent about your friends constantly then maybe they just arent your people and you should stop hanging out with them.

Literally all I wamted was for you to communicate your boundaries and all I want now is for you to not be a fucking dick. If you’re going to be an adult them that shouldnt be difficult. If you cant do that then stop treating everyone around you like a fucking child because youre not any better.

#im angy :3 #cherry rambles sfw #technically #lots of swearing though

[tavarillasgalen]

I was thinking today about how I spent years in a relationship that should have ended in months for 2 primary reasons: 1) I was afraid of being alone and I thought someone was better than no one, and 2) I felt like it was what I was supposed to do and like it would be selfish and wrong of me to end it "just" because I was bored and our communication styles didn't mesh.

And since ending it...

1) I was PETRIFIED of being alone. I was so, so scared. I've always been someone who goes from a lot of friends to no friends, which is common with bipolar (manic "you're my friend!!" vs depressed "everyone hates me, I'm a burden, I'm isolating myself"). And I have not had friends since university. I still have no friends and im trying to learn how it is that you make friends as an adult.

But the weird thing? As soon as I broke up with him, I felt so much less alone. My relationship with my family is better than it's been in years. My relationships with my little brothers are better than they've ever been in our entire lives. I'm so much less lonely.

Somehow, in the relationship, there was only time for my ex. I'm not sure how it happened. I think our stark cultural differences maybe played a role, because we have such different views on what makes a "good" family, and I feel like his poisoned mine. He'd rant about my family and mock them, but then i'd mention something I didn't like about how his family worked, and he'd get all up in arms. It was only ever okay to criticize the American way of doing things, to breathe a word about how I didn't like how his family did something was xenophobic, somehow.

It felt like a constant trap, like he had free rein to criticize and mock my family and how we do things endlessly, but if I got upset about it or dared to even suggest something like my being upset that his parents were trying to tell me, a fully grown adult and not their relative, what I can and cannot do with my life, it was just the worst, most offensive thing ever.

But since breaking up with him, I almost immediately got my family back. I don't have friends, I'm working on it. But I'm so much less alone than I was in the relationship.

2) I still struggle with this sense of obligation, of doing what I feel like I need to rather than what I want to. It's something I've struggled with for as long as I remember. Like, I remember being a child at the playground with my friends, and I told them I couldn't play with them because I needed to watch my little brother. When, I definitely could, and my mom was watching my little brother, but because she was also talking to her friends, I remember being worried that she was too distracted, even though my mom's not that type of person to let a conversation distract her from her child. So, I spent the time at the playground watching him instead of playing with my friends because I felt I had to.

And so even though I knew after a few months that this relationship wasn't for me, I ended up staying for 7 whole YEARS because I felt like I had to, like it was expected of me, like it was selfish and inconsiderate to break up just because I didn't want to be in the relationship when he clearly did. And so I'd act happier than I was, i'd ignore things, i'd let myself just go along with things. I eventually stopped fighting for what I needed in a relationship because he'd make all these promises and never see them through.

And I felt like I was being horrible when I finally ended it, but... The MOMENT I did, I felt SUCH relief. I've mever felt SUCH a rush of relief and glee lile that in my entire life. I cried 1 time, because I had no one to talk to before I fixed things with my family. But that was it. I had absolutely zero regrets about ended it and I instantly become so much happier and less anxious, it was like a miracle.

And yes, this is something that I easily recognize in books and had no problem telling people "you deserve better" when they'd raise concerns about being bored or mismatched communication in their relationships. It made perfect sense for them to leave. But me? No, no, that would be selfish and awful.

So, people keep telling me I was "so brave" for leaving. I was "so brave" for finally saying enough is enough, I don't deserve this. And I rolled my eyes at first, because I was like, how is it brave to break up with someone? But I get it now.

And honestly, this doing things out of obligation is something I still really, really struggle with. It's something that has kept me from pursuing a lot of my dreams. It's a lot harder to deal with than repairing relationships with family, because it's something i've struggled with for as long as I can remember.

But I'm working on it. And I'm happy I finally am.

#personal #something something only daughter syndrome maybe