#wave of pain

[ahhrenata]

a little more s1 steddie // steve’s trying to get eddie to warm up to him; it’s not happening yet

#he’ll get a smile back one day lol #stranger things #steve harrington #eddie munson #steddie #steddie fanart #stranger things au #Steve’s doing one of those awkward waves #hands are a pain to draw lol #s1 steddie

[thedisablednaturalist]

Sometimes terms mean certain things and belong to certain groups of people and are not meant to apply to people outside that group. And that is on purpose and valid. You can make your own terms to describe your own experiences, you don't get to take terms from other people, especially people more vulnerable/less privileged than you. If multiple people tell you that the term is not for you, respect that.

When terms get used for many different situations they get diluted and trivialized. Remember "trigger"? It was a specific medical term and is now used to mean "something that pissed or upset someone". Brain fog is now turning into abled people just being a little sleepy or out of it, not literally a clinical term for brains not functioning correctly due to various illnesses. I tell someone I have brain fog and they say lol me too XD no you fucking don't. "Spirit animal" was taken from indigenous peoples so white people could make funny haha relatable t-shirts. Two spirit almost got taken by queer white people as well (although I think most people have backed off on that hopefully).

Not everything needs to apply to as many people as possible. You don't need to and can't relate to everyone. We can still support each other while respecting differences.

(Edited ver)

#wrenfea.exe #this is about people using nonverbal for selective mutism btw #and about mentally ill abled people using cripple #like if ambulatory wheelchair users can come up with our own term then you can too #idk if its not as concise or it takes effort to get it to catch on #you dont get to steal the work other people have done to spread awareness of their term and its meaning #disability #nonverbal #selective mutism #spoonie #chronic disability #chronic pain #chronic illness #cripple #cripple punk #autism #adhd #readying my inbox for a wave of the stupidest people who've never seen any of my posts to flood the gates #i saw someone throwing ambulatory wheelchair users under the bus to justify why they should be able #to use the term nonverbal #pls correct me if you are from the relevant communities #i updated this to make it more accurate bc funnily enough brain fog made me forget about chronic illness triggers

[aquapede]

Suddenly, your body seizes up.

What are you looking at?

#deltarune #ralsei #gaster #w.d. gaster #ms paint #mspaint #scribbles #(wingdings finishes the rhyme: THE PAIN ITSELF IS REASON WHY) #the deltarune failsafe text wormed its way back into my brain for some reason #and as always it sparked another wave of ralsei gaster father son bonding <3 #father of the year: this guy just showed his adoptive son the horrors

[marinaiguess]

beautifully painful IDW moments that I could talk about for AGES.

(aka I miss the metal virus saga)

#all of them are incredible #im in tears #sonic the hedgehog #sth #sonic #idw sonic #sonic idw comics #cream the rabbit #amy rose #silver the hedgehog #miles tails prower #dr eggman #metal sonic #neo metal sonic #babylon rogues #jet the hawk #wave the swallow #storm the albatross #metal virus #the pain is real #the first one is the one i hold closest to my heart

[anguishmacgyver]

#that migraine aesthetic #stargate sg1 4x13 #daniel jackson #whump #whumpedit #aftermath #currently obsessed 1. with how he's curled into a ball #2. pulls his own hair to overcome the waves of pain?? #everything basically

[furiousgoldfish]

I just want the impossible (for my body to stop hurting for 5 seconds so I can have a little break and regain hope and faith in myself)

#having a bad day #had many breakdowns and my body is having waves of pain over and over #there's nothing that doesn't hurt

[justablah56]

they should . invent a back that doesn't hurt .

#just blahs #girl this sudden death strike of back pain is NOT helping my insomnia #turns out its v hard to comfortably sleep and then stay asleep when youre constantly being hit with sudden waves of back pain actually

[liya4kar]

Double Vision

AU Masterpost

So I might have forgotten to say it, but in this AU, time doesn't just stop after 2003 Donny, 2012 Mikey, and Rise Raph get mentally linked. After getting their mental connection, they continue to live their lives and the adventures that come in the episodes.

So while Raph does get a bit of rest after the movie, 2003 Donny follows the 2003 third season, and 2012 Mikey jumps straight into the 2012 fourth season.

And what happens during those seasons I wonder-

#mind' o wave au #rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #tmnt #tmnt crossover #tmnt 2003 #same as it never was #sainw #tw dissociation #raph's right eye is not fully blind but still damaged after the Kraag #so his vision gets painful and blurry at time #and he wears his eyepatch when he needs to rest his vision #except that as the mental link keeps getting stronger and stronger #sometimes his right eye vision is overtook by what 2003 Donny or 2012 Mikey see #Which is the case here #i'd say i'm sorry but i'm not #Told ya I'll put the sillies through the horrors #Also don't worry too much about Rise Leo he's just taking a nap #:)

[fogerist]

I’m alive from my surgery btw

#me #gay #random thoughts my adhd brain conjures up #I’m healing tho #pain comes in waves but can open my jaw fully

[labotor]

recent + old scarecrow art dump 🎃

#jonathan crane #the scarecrow #btas #dc #my art #when I say old I mean... 4 years ago lmao #idk if its a bad thing or not I think its still up to my standards 💀 #tho TBF the recent one was a quickie to stop my drawing skills from degrading completely lol #I cant understate how obsessed I am with this weirdo #it comes in waves over years but listening to the batman audio adventures has got me right back into his clutches #the MC's dad from b99 voices him and his performance is soooo MMMM #mad scientist + halloween-adjacent design combo just has me in a chokehold #the new batman adventures design is so gawddamn good and underused but it is a pain in the bum to draw #once again sorry for treating my tumblr tags as a personal diary

[lilowoof]

so I had to draw this dumb idea-

#splatoon #splatoon 2 #splatoon 3 #salmon run #salmon run new wave #LMAO #art of pigs #the overfisher ferroce is always trying to find new ways to improve his score XDD #queued #sorry things are messy. this was so physically painful to make that I pushed past meltdowns lmaoooo

[revacholian-girl-utena]

My soul is puny.

Alt text: Screencaps from Revolutionary Girl Utena with overlaid text. 1: Young Saionji watches in horror as Touga opens the coffin in the church. Text: At the core, you're a very banal person,

2: Closeup of young Saionji clutching his head and screaming. Text: with a very small soul.

3: Closeup of Saionji's empty hands when he drops his sword after hurting Touga. Text: One you should be *ashamed* of.

4: Touga and Saionji's silhouettes as children at kendo practice. Touga is holding Saionji's hand and Saionji is looking up at him. The background is a warm sunset. Text: It's no wonder the soft one doesn't want it back.

5: Touga's silhouette standing by the incinerator. Text: It was right to abandon you... End alt text

#revolutionary girl utena #disco elysium #shoujo kakumei utena #saionji #touga #this one goes out to daisy and all the other saionji posters #go vote for him in the green hair and pronouns bracket #but yeah. waves my hand in inarticulate emotion at this episode #tfw someone you love is suffering unimaginable pain and you are a child who literally can’t imagine it #so you grow up with this feeling that your soul is too small and banal to comprehend that pain or soothe it #and instead of trying to reach out and bridge the gap and expand your soul a little #you let it curdle into something SO despicable. #and yet the desire to understand and fix everything remains despite it all… #[slaps him upside the head] this guy can fit so many problems and issues

[timetravelsong]

𝐄𝐯𝐞𝐫𝐲 𝐧𝐨𝐰 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐚𝐠𝐚𝐢𝐧 𝐈 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐧𝐤 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐩𝐚𝐬𝐭 𝐚𝐧𝐝 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐜𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐞𝐧, 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐡𝐚𝐭 𝐢𝐟’𝐬. 𝐍𝐨 𝐦𝐚𝐭𝐭𝐞𝐫 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐦𝐮𝐜𝐡 𝐦𝐲 𝐬𝐤𝐢𝐧 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐞𝐭𝐜𝐡𝐞𝐬, 𝐈 𝐰𝐢𝐥𝐥 𝐚𝐥𝐰𝐚𝐲𝐬 𝐛𝐞 𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐫𝐲 𝐚𝐛𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐛𝐮𝐭 𝐧𝐞𝐯𝐞𝐫 𝐥𝐞𝐭 𝐢𝐭 𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐧 𝐚𝐧𝐲𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐞𝐥𝐬𝐞.

excerpts from a book I’ll never write

#aesthetic #writing #poetry #poets corner #poets on tumblr #quotes #art #life #poem #poetscommunity #spilled thoughts #spilled poetry #spilled ink #spilled words #past quotes #what if #could have been better #orginal poetry #poems and quotes #sad poetry #hurt/comfort #dead poets society #getting older #thoughts #pain comes in waves #book ill never write #memory #memory lane #angry

[kairenn-n]

you know I didn't want to have to haunt you

but what a ghostly scene

my tears ricochet, taylor swift. (x)

#merlin #merlin web weave #merthur #im back on my bullshit #hehe #bbc merlin #arthur pendragon #bbc arthur pendragon #merlin edit #okay but hear me outttt #i didnt have it in myself to go with grace / and so the battleships will sink beneath the waves #you had to kill me but it killed you just the same #(<- destiny) #you turned into your worst fears #(<- whattt !!!!!!!!!!) #and you're tossing out blame drunk on this pain / crossing out the good years #(gnfngnfngnf) #having thoughts and emotions about post camlann merlin. can u tell

[youngpettyqueen]

do you ever think about Garak waking up and seeing Julian in that chair, uncomfortably crammed in and slumped over asleep, and wonder how he must've felt when he realized Julian wasn't going to leave

#star trek: ds9 #elim garak #julian bashir #otp: I need to know that someone forgives me #Garak wakes up in a haze of pain and overstimulation and far too many feelings #and the first thing he sees is Julian asleep in that chair right at his bedside #after Julian has promised him he'll stay with him and help him through everything- no matter what he did #its one thing to give your word its another to follow through and theres Julian. following through #theres Julian staying by his side #im gonna chew on glass. #how do you think Garak feels about it afterwards #knowing that he responded by attacking him #Julian is hovering over Garak's bed in the infirmary checking his readings and chatting away with him #but then he turns a certain way and winces #he doesnt say anything but his hand goes to his back #Garak asks if he's alright and Julian waves it off #says he's fine he just slept wrong #but there's this look in his eyes. guilty almost #he doesnt want to say it #but Garak knows #god The Wire you will always be famous I think about you every day

[acknowledgetheabsurd]

You have closed all my paths, you have melted in you all my impulses and all my desires, you have erased for me the rest of the world that is not you; but the insatiable thirst still burns me and the race continues, more dizzy than ever. I want everything from you, and the more I am given, the more I demand with all my strength.

It is true that we still lack many things, but I wonder to what extent and if a few months or a few years ago I had been asked to make a wish which, if granted, would justify my life in my eyes, I would simply have wished to be one day closer to you than what I am today. You must not regret anything and you must not worry about me. I spoke to you in the letter that gave rise to the scruples that you are telling me today, about the children that I could have had. It is certain that sometimes I think of them, of our children, with a painful melancholy, but, believe me, I did not know enough about the happiness that they could bring me to really miss them and I desire them much less as my children than as yours, as ours.

The very impossibility of realizing this dream exalts and nourishes it, and if I had to give it up forever in order to live with you for a while, I would not hesitate. Yes, I wish that with all my soul, and no matter how hard I look, I can't find anything that can console me for our fate, that can reconcile me with the lack that our distance leaves in the happiness that was given to us. However, if I search well, if I really look, if I disguise myself from all these veils with which I want to wrap myself, then... I must confess that a common life which would neither bring nor take away anything, that once acquired, other deviations, other more serious gaps perhaps, would come to take the place it now occupies in my imagination, where it serves now a backdrop between far more irretrievable separations, ever impassable distances, and my inexhaustible need to abolish and bridge them.

So, you see, near or far, at this point, we can say that we have won, and whatever life has in store for us, it will have been very merciful. But if all these days spent preparing, thinking, creating those that will come and that would not be what they will be - if events had been different - had been offered to us in a way that we could have enjoyed them together and without torment, what would we have done with them? Are we sure that we would have taken them in such a way as not to lose a minute or even days or even months? Oh! I know! You're going to tell me that I'm doing the philosophy of a janitor or the psychology of a lamppost; but... it's necessary... it's necessary from time to time.

And, in any case, if you don't think like a lamppost and if you don't dream too much about mosses while reading this letter, you will perhaps feel that I am giving you one of the greatest proofs of love that can be demanded of me, by confessing certain things that I hardly dare to reveal to myself. Now you can let me speak when it happens that I escape again towards horizons of quiet happiness and peaceful life.

Go! I can still talk. And now you know that I know that you know what is deep, deep inside me. This does not prevent the spring from blooming what it touches, and my heart, my body, my soul from crying out after you, from suffering after you, from dying, from screaming, from laughing. And there is something that cannot resign itself to your absence, it is my poor little body that stretches out in vain towards you, that writhes, that whimpers and cries after you, my sad little body that stunts from day to day and that asks unceasingly to blossom, to warm up, to beat, to quiver.

Oh my beautiful, my dear love! Oh burning! O my sweet pain! O my life! Here I am filled with shivers, mysterious undulations, delicate and secret sounds. You wanted my letter to bring you a little warmth! It has awakened in me again all that dark and intimate zone that I love so much to feel just in my center, in my middle, that vibrating zone that moves me as much as the presence of a child in my belly, or even more, knowing it better. She has touched that tiny point in me, but which you know and love, and I tremble all over. Happy, oh yes, happy. Happy and overflowing with love, desire and tenderness. I am waiting for you every day. I run too; I run unceasingly towards you. The coast is coming to an end, my darling. Soon the sight of the sea, and then the beach and the waves.

Maria Casarès to Albert Camus, Correspondance, February 10, 1950 [#182]

#albert camus #camus #absurd #absurdism #maria casares #correspondance #love letters #love #impulse #desire #strength #children #soul #separation #life #torment #happiness #peace #spring #bloom #heart #body #suffering #quiver #pain #happy #tenderness #sea #beach #waves