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viterbofangirllovestheuntamed · 2 years

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Yunmeng Sibling Trio Love Languages

(NB: This evaluation will follow the CQL/The Untamed canon, as that is the version that I am familiar with.)

To recap, the Five Love Languages are as follows:

- Words of Affirmation - Acts of Service - Gifts - Quality Time - Physical Touch

I believe that all three Yunmeng Siblings have a primary love language that is distinct from the others, but evaluation is hard because of the A++ parenting of Yu “Tiger Mom from Hell” Ziyuan and Jiang “Ancient Chinese Mr. Bennett” Fengmian throughout the trio’s formative years at Lotus “Dysfunction Junction” Pier but I’M DOING MY BEST OKAY??? ANyhoo, here are my conclusions which very well might be incorrect!

Jiang Yanli - Acts of Service

I’ll start off with the easy one; it’s fairly self-explanatory. Yanli demonstrates her affection and care by cooking for others. She peels lotus seeds for Wei Wuxian in the middle of a tense family dinner. She is ultimately convinced of Jin Zixuan’s love for her when he plants a lotus garden for her with his own hands. She never leaves the bedside of an ailing loved one. Even her heart-to-heart talks with her brothers are delivered, not bestowed as heartening words, or gifted like trinkets, or provided like time. They are a response to a NEED she sees. (I adore Yanli, but sometimes I feel as if she too displays a slight favoritism towards Wei Wuxian over Jiang Cheng, and that is totally understandable if she was strongly shaken by his neediness as a starving orphan and his shaky position within the family. Such things would render Wei Wuxian as in a greater need of service than her privileged-heir-to-the-clan brother.)

Jiang Cheng - Physical Touch

Our boy just might be THE most messed up of the siblings, though he’s in a tight race. (Yay for him coming in first, for once?) And it really could go a lot of ways for him! He is CLEARLY starved for positive reinforcement (words of affirmation), works hard for his loved ones and/or those under his care (acts of service), and resents the attention Wei Wuxian gets from the distant Jiang Fengmian (quality time).

However, I keep coming back to the line “his own father had held him less than five times in his entire life.” (Or whatever the exact wording is.) Most of us probably don’t remember how often a parent held us; many of us were no doubt more concerned with squirming OUT of our parents’ arms so that we could go play. But there are more hints to this being Jiang Cheng’s love language than one line- a line from the novel, when here I am saying that I’m drawing from CQL canon!

To quote an earlier post of mine: Wei Wuxian is constantly draping himself over Jiang Cheng, shoving him with his shoulder, slinging an arm around him, even punching him and getting into physical scuffles. Jiang Cheng is constantly hearing his brother say “hey I love you hey I love you hey I love you!”, and with all of that unspoken evidence poured over him almost every waking moment of his life, the poison from his mother and the ice from his father just... doesn’t stick. Even when he’s frantic and beside himself with grief over his parents’ deaths, accusing Wei Wuxian of being the source of their misfortune, Jiang Cheng is still is grabbing him, shoving and shaking him, even choking him- still actively seeking physical touch to process his grief. It’s when Wei Wuxian starts to physically pull away and avoid physically engaging with Jiang Cheng (”What? You want to fight?!”) after the Core Transfer/Burial Mounds that Jiang Cheng starts to panic and doubt Wei Wuxian’s love for him, thinking that Wei Wuxian doesn’t give a fuck about him or their sect family anymore.

“But what about all the times he shoves Wei Wuxian away?” you ask. Well, even THAT is an indicator, thanks to Wang Zhuocheng’s stellar acting choices. Look closely the next time you watch; Jiang Cheng’s shove offs are less “don’t touch me” than “you don’t REALLY mean you love me, if you REALLY meant it you’d listen to me and/or not get me into trouble, don’t [love language] you love me if you don’t MEAN it...”

Despite near-constant threats, Jiang Cheng has never once lifted a hand against Jin Ling, because doing so to the person who is his sole reason for living would be a complete betrayal of how he loves. And of course, when Jiang Cheng hugs, he throws his entire body into it, clings like an octopus, and does. not. let. go.

Wei Wuxian - Words of Affirmation

This was the hardest one for me to decide, and I only did so when I came to the conclusion that our Problematic Fave actually only receives said affirmation when it is... wordless.

Bear with me here.

This is NOT the same thing as acts of service! Acts of service anticipates or responds to a NEED out of love. Words of affirmation are a message that one IS loved, is WORTHY of being loved. There is nothing that Wei Wuxian needs more of believes less than confirmation that he is loved. He has been admired often, as a prodigy often is, but that admiration is shallow and fickle. Madame Yu’s poisonous words not only tear him down, but her own son too... a son that resembles his mother so much that he shares that vice. Thankfully, Wei Wuxian learned early on that Jiang Cheng’s words are not how he communicates, and learned to read the message inside-- the message that screamed “I’m sorry” and “I didn’t mean it” and “I’m just scared for you” and “don’t abandon me.”

If one alters this love language title as “Messages of Affirmation”, the issue becomes much clearer, I think. Wei Wuxian knows all too well that words are cheap and often cruel. He craves that affirmation, that validation and celebration of his existence and intrinsic worth, but is often unable to process his own love language through speech alone. This is why Lan Wangji’s stand with him on the stairs of Koi Tower moved him to tears; it wasn’t an act of service, but a declaration that Wei Wuxian was worth trouble and damaged reputations. And of course, That Scene post-resurrection when Wei Wuxian is nursing Emperor's Smile outside the Jingshi as it starts to snow, and he's spiraling down remembering all these bad things and how little has changed and how everyone still hates him... and the sound of a guqin playing their song starts from inside. That beautiful, BEAUTIFUL moment of Lan Wangji silently saying "I love you, I'M glad that you're here, I think you're worthwhile"... but with music, not with actual words.

It’s worth noting that Wei Wuxian DOES still use and value words from the people he loves. It’s why he so easily showers compliments, and why he counsels Jin Ling to actually say “I’m sorry” and “thank you.”

I think, to be honest, Jiang Fengmian’s last words to him had much deeper resonance than one might realize because of this love language. His Jiang-shushu favors and spoils and praises him endlessly for years... only to have his final words to Wei Wuxian be an order that prioritizes his biological children’s safety (a.k.a. worth) over Wei Wuxian’s. The lengths to which Wei Wuxian goes, his icepick-through-Jiang-Cheng’s-heart words of “I did it to repay my debt to the Jiang”, are all a an echo of Wei Wuxian’s fear that if he does not honor Jiang-shushu’s last words then he was never really loved in the first place...

Thoughts? Disagreements? Reply or @ me; I’d love to hear it! <3

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viterbofangirl · 2 years

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Tag game!

Thanks to the ever-lovely @akamarykate for tagging me! <3

Rules: Tag nine people you want to know better.

Three ships: Most recently, Jiang Cheng/Wen Qing from The Untamed, but I gotta go with Luke Skywalker/Mara Jade from the Star Wars EU, and Gary Hobson/Toni Brigatti for the longest-lasting ships!

First ever ship: See the above two! They were going on around the same time. L/M probably predates G/T by a year or two, but G/T was more viciously shipped (at first).

Last song: “Queen” by Loren Gray

Last film: Film? Ah geez. I honestly don’t know. I’m going to cheat a little and say “Frozen II” not because I recently watched it, but I’ve had a strong hankering for it so it’s got a 99% chance of being the next movie I watch!

Currently reading: I’m technically in the middle of “Because Internet” by Gretchen McCulloch, but tbh I’ve been reading a metric shitton of MDZS fanfic on my Kindle.

Currently watching: I’m taking a very brief hiatus from The Untamed and just finished up rewatching BBC’s The Musketeers, a.k.a. Man Candy the Series.

Currently consuming: Alyssa’s Healthy Chocobites

Currently craving: Reaching That Point In My Life Where I Regain A Smidgen Of Energy. And also the inspiration to continue some WIP fics!

Tagging: @themoonstarwarrior, @cat-a-holic, @fallynleaf, @threadsketchier, @squirrelasinthewoodlandanimal, @pityen81, @shaelit, @lucife56, @ancientstone but seriously no pressure on the above and loads of encouragement to participate to anyone else! To anyone who wants to play, please just tag me so I can see your answers! <3

#asks #tag games #viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP #the daily adventures of viterbofangirl

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viterbofangirllovessm · 3 years

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Hi! Idk if you answered this before but why don't you like Stars? It's also not my fave, I'm just curious

Hello, hello! Thank you so much for asking!

I think the Eternal Sailor Moon fuku is butt ugly and I hate it.

Seriously though (I mean YES I hate the fuku but there’s more than that) my dislike takes two forms: anime and manga.

We’ll tackle the manga first because it’s the easiest. First, I really, really dislike Seiya and how he (”he” because they were explicitly male in their civilian forms in the anime) horndogged Usagi when she was clearly suffering from the whole Mamoru-gone-then-sorta-dropped-off-the-face-of-the-earth thing. Super disrespectful, and a result of the director/showrunner hating Mamoru, which SERIOUSLY, MAN? JUST DO YOUR JOB, OKAY. Also, the fact that the Starlights kind of... took over. Everything. Especially the big finale. Like, excuse me what the heck?? Where are my beloved gals??? That being said, I am happy to say that the final confrontation between Usagi and Chaos!Galaxia was such a beautiful encapsulation of Usagi’s entire character, and if pretty much the EXACT SAME THING hadn’t happened in the R movie, I would probably still keep it as quasi-canon status in my head. (Related to that last, I canNOT decide whether or not I like or loathe Uranus and Neptune’s actions with Galaxia. One the one hand, it’s soooo them. On the other hand, surely they’ve learned their lesson by now, and aren’t they LIVING with Setsuna and Horatu they aren’t STRANGERS for pity’s sake they’re FAMILY what the actual hell! On the other hand... it’s SO THEM.)

I reserve my most fervent dislike for the manga Stars arc. While we are spared the Usagi/Seiya stuff, it’s actually MUCH WORSE. First of all, the scouts and Mamoru are FUCKING. BRAINWASHED. and made to attack Usagi. Just... NO. Our girl does NOT deserve that at this point in her life. But more than anything, it’s the whole Sailor Cosmos thing, whose fuku I love but whose entire existence I loathe with the fire of a thousand suns. She is Usagi alone, Usagi hopeless, Usagi despairing. Which is the complete and utter antithesis of everything Usagi IS. Yes, I acknowledge that Usagi in the manga did commit suicide twice, and there are subtle differences in characterization from the anime. But for most of us, they blend together in our heads and Usagi’s strength is always her love and her friendship and her hope and her refusal to look at the big picture when the little people are hurting. It’s what makes us fall in love with her, and to see her future so bleak and painful and hopeless... you know what? It’s just like the Star Wars sequels where we learn that 30 years later all of our heroes are miserable and their sacrifices and heroism did jack squat for the universe at large. It doesn’t matter if things get “fixed.” Our beloved characters have spent years in pain and no tacked-on happy ending will change that!

Also, thematically, I think it just makes sense to stop at the end of manga SuperS (and presumably, the SM Crystal Eternal movie.) Usagi and Mamoru have defeated foes past (Metallia) future (Black Moon) external (Pharoah 90) and internal (Dark Moon Circus.) We have even tied Usagi’s arc further into faerie tale mythos with Nehellenia’s curse on her as a baby. We have been introduced to the Waxing (Serenity) Full (Usagi) Waning (Chibiusa) and New (Nehellenia) moons. Most importantly, Usagi and Mamoru have come into their full power and access of their futures identities of Neo-Queen Serenity and King Endymion. Just... end it there. Slap an “AND THE ADVENTURE CONTINUES!!!” sticker on it and LET THEM HAVE A HAPPY ENDING!

These are, of course, all my own opinions. A lot of people really like Stars and find intriguing and satisfying story elements therein, and that is totally valid! I just...

#asks #mod's stuff #viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP #sailor moon super s #sailor moon stars #manga #original anime #rants

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viterbofangirllovestheuntamed · 2 years

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Hi..... if you don't mind me asking, can I ask your top 5 favorite characters from MDZS? And your top 5 (or top 3) favorite moments from the novel (or the drama)? Sorry if you've answered this before....Thanks

Hi, hi! I have NOT, in fact, been asked this before, so thank you very much!

The top five characters I can definitely pick! They are:

1) Jiang Cheng (no surprise there. I just... I LOVE HIM SO MUCH! He's so MEAN but he feels and loves so so so soooo much! He's hard working and dedicated and has fought and triumphed in the face of impossible- yeah, I went there- odds! He's not perfect by any means, but his personality fits together perfectly in light of nature, nurture, environment, and circumstances... you know what I mean? And that is just straight catnip for a writer/people analyzer like myself.)

2) Jin Ling (MY BABY!!! He's adorably spoiled, adorably short-tempered, and adorably bratty... then he gets some SERIOUS character development that builds on the worthwhile foundation that was clear to see UNDER the brattiness. Like how he's ride or die for anyone who takes him into consideration-- the juniors, Faux Xuanyu, and of course JiuJiu-- or how he's trying to be a better person, or how he very bravely stood up to THE two most revered cultivators and his supposed blood relative as they tried to break into his little uncle (and Chief Freaking Cultivator)'s private rooms, and how he's trying his best as his dad's murderer and dad's murderer's puppetmaster come back to life and start hanging out with his only friends who don't really try to understand where Jin Ling is coming from only to find out that his second-most-trusted-person in the whole world was actually behind it all. MY BABY!!!)

3) Nie Huaisang (This dude's hilarious! I support him in his messy murder-revenge endeavors! When my mutuals started getting into the Untamed, before I knew jack-squat about what the whole thing was about, I saw him and Jiang Cheng and I was like "I have no idea what is going on but these two idiot assholes are gonna be my favorites, I just know it..." And I was right!)

4) Wen Qing (My tag says it the best: Very Desperate Older Sister Does Not Deserve This Please. She is in SUCH impossible situations, over and over again, and she just keeps trying to keep those she cares for safe, despite the risk or hardship or principle-violation it poses to herself! Also I want her and Jiang Cheng to make beautiful, bitchy, cranky, supermodel babies.)

5) GAH, this is hard... I mean, the amazing thing about CQL is they got such an AMAZING CAST that you just either love everyone or utterly delight in hating them! But I'm going to pass on Romantic Muffin Ouyang Zizhen and Yet Another Grumpy Single Dad Uncle Trying His Damned Best Lan Qiren and ULTIMATELY pick... Lan Xichen. His compromising and vacillating are SO! ABSOLUTELY! MADDENING! but he is such a pure person in such a cruel world, and he tries so HARD to please everyone, and he really does go above and beyond when Wei Wuxian comes back to life-- letting him hide at Cloud Recesses and hearing WangXian out when they're accusing his dear a-Yao. I'm really proud of him for the latter, tbh, and it's the reason he's nabbed spot number five.

(It might be noticed that WWX and LWJ are *not* in my top five. Please rest assured that I still love them oodles and boodles! Their actors are absolute *perfection* and are hella impressive and make it impossible NOT to like them! It's just that both characters are I-do-what-I-want-and-to-hell-with-everyone-else types and I am more the overburdened-with-responsibility-oldest-sibling type, so it makes me perhaps a little harsher than others in my "favorites" rankings.)

Top *moments* are definitely harder! But I'm going to try! (This will be The Untamed/CQL *only* as that is currently my only direct exposure.)

1) The Death of Jin Zixuan (HOW COULD I DO THIS TO MYSELF?!?!? But it is just... soooooooo! well! done! The acting, the pacing, the music, the abruptness, the lingering dawning horror... 1000/10 for exquisitely done maximum-grade tragedy! *upside-down smiley face*)

2) The Second Siege of the Burial Mounds (Hoo boy, but this runs the gamut! The grief of the return to the burned out husk of their old home and the ghosts haunting their memories, the hilarity of the Juniors bickering, the showdown outside, Jiang Cheng's sexy, sexy stride to the front of the battlelines, his resulting repressed panic at his spiritual power draining followed by *Wei Wuxian's* repressed panic at Jiang Cheng's panic, the showdown INside with Jingyi and Huaisang gossiping like hens right in front of a deliberately-ignoring Lan Qiren, the GORGEOUS FIGHT SCENE with Wei Wuxian's blood talisman written out on Lan Wangji's borrowed underoos, Jiang Cheng trying DESPERATELY not to show the rest of the cultivation world how BATSHIT WORRIED he is about Wei Wuxian's survival and YES he's still angry at him what does THAT matter... Cap off the whole thing with the scene at the docks in all ITs heartwarming/ breaking /reassuring glory... IT'S JUST... *CHEF'S KISS*!)

3) The FUCKING COMB™ Saga (Okay so I'm cheating a little bit since this comprises multiple scenes over hours, but the whole tragic non-romance of two people who are so completely dedicated to their own people and responsibilities that they are unable to explore the potential of uniting with those same similarities... *keening screech*)

4) Yunmeng Jiang Arrives at Caiyi Town (a.k.a. When Everything Was Beautiful and Nothing Hurt. To see the pure, affectionate, adorable HAPPINESS of the Yunmeng sibling trio and their disciples, especially knowing how utterly, utterly fragile and short-lived it will be... just... excuse me. *googles directions to nearest cliff*)

5) Soft Soulmates Song (That scene post-resurrection when Wei Wuxian is nursing Emperor's Smile outside the Jingshi as it starts to snow, and he's spiraling down remembering all these bad things and how little has changed and how everyone still hates him... and the sound of a guqin playing their song starts from inside. That beautiful, BEAUTIFUL moment of Lan Wangji silently saying "I love you, I'M glad that you're here, I think you're worthwhile"... *UGLY SOBBING*)

That's what I got at the moment, but I fully anticipate reblogs and comments to spark a personal parade of "OH SHIT I FORGOT THAT'S ONE OF MY FAVORITES TOO" regrets.

Thanks again for the ask!

#the untamed #cql #chen qing ling #asks #MOD MOOD #viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP #dnana-2809-blog #jiang cheng #jin ling #nie huaisang #wen qing #fave lists #ASK THE MOD

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viterbofangirl · 3 years

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Any followers of mine that have been with me for a while know that I am a devout Catholic and lean pretty heavily conservative. I try to keep a sense of balance in posts and reblogs, and I know the importance of listening and keeping an open mind and try to do so. I also know that Tumblr users tend to skew heavily to the left, and I appreciate those who have stuck with me despite any ideological differences we might have.

With that in mind, and in an attempt to be absolutely honest to both my conservative and progressive followers and anyone in-between, I will state for the record that I do not at all like what has transpired in D.C. today. My sympathies remain with those in the area who are frightened and sheltering, wondering if violence will invade their neighborhoods. I hate the lawlessness permeating these actions. And I fear the repercussions of an already unfriendly Congress.

There are instances where one might be called to overthrow a tyrannical government for the good of the rest of the country. These instances are rare, exquisitely dangerous, and invariably detrimental to whatever moral high ground one has, and so must only be acted upon at the utmost extremity and with the utmost gravity.

In my tiny corner of Tumblr, my little whisper into the near-infinity of cyberspace, allow me to state that I do not see either qualification justifying the actions in Washington.

#viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP #lawful good #civilization #society

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viterbofangirl · 4 years

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QUICK PSA FOR ME FOLLOWERS!

I now have a Sailor Moon sideblog in an attempt to ease some of the congestion on my main blog. If you like Sailor Moon and don’t mind a maintained queue of 5 posts a day, you can follow it here: http://viterbofangirllovessm.tumblr.com/

We now return you to your regularly scheduled blogging!

#PSA #viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP #sailor moon #sm

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viterbofangirl · 4 years

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20 + 5 Questions

Answer 25 questions about yourself then tag 20 people.

I was tagged by the loverly @cloverywands ! Thank you! ^_^

1. Name: Nikki, short for Nichole. I don’t like or go by my full name much, but I do greatly appreciate the “h” in the middle.

2. Nickname: *silently points up to previous answer* Also, Nik for people who think two syllables are too much work, Nikki-Nik from my Dad, Sweetie-Girl or Wicked-Child from my mom, and- my personal favorite- THE NIKIPEDIA, bestowed upon me by my two youngest siblings.

3. Zodiac: Western is Taurus, Eastern is the Boar. No matter the zodiac, I am delicious at a BBQ.

4. Height: 5’4-5′3″ (Morning and evening, respectively.)

5. Languages: English. I took four semesters of Spanish, but have only retained enough to converse poorly with a three year old kid. I also know how to say “I am a bear” in French. This, as you might imagine, has not been particularly helpful to me

6. Nationality: American, with ancestors from *kracks knuckles* Germany, France, Scicily, Ireland, England, Wales, and Scotland at the very least.

7. Favorite season: AUTUMN.

8. Favorite flower: Lotuses/water lilies.

9. Favorite scent: Honestly, petrichor, creeks, swimming pools, sea water, the wind right before a summer storm...any water smell.

10. Favorite color: Blood red. Crimson. That depth of red where your eyes sort of get lost in it.

11. Favorite animal: Wolves and hawks/falcons. (Which I recently learned are not even the taxonomic order!???? WHAT EVEN!) Also I have a soft spot for crows and ravens.

12. Favorite fictional character: *sigh* One? Well, I’d probably say Mara Jade, but seriously anyone who’s followed me or met me knows I got infinite+1 feels for a variety of fictional peeps.

13. Coffee, tea or hot chocolate: TEA. Earl Grey with vanilla is my favorite, with vanilla chai and tropical green tea as runners up.

14. Average sleep: *nervous laughter* *escapes out the nearest window* I dunno, man, I guess on average maybe 7 hours? 6?

15. Dog or cat person: Neither. Not a pet or animal person. Currently live with a very sweet, very old and incontinent cat.

16. Number of blankets: One sheet, three comforters, and FOUR FREAKING PILLOWS. AND I’D HAPPILY TAKE MOAR...

17. Dream trip: I have rather severe control-freak/OCD issues, so it’s hard for me to travel, especially internationally. Domestically, I do love to visit Chicago. Internationally, I would like to go to London, Iceland, and the Faeroe Islands one day.

18. Blog established: Hell if I know. Is there a way to check that or something? Hold on. According to my archive, September 2013. Huh.

19. Followers: 234, according to the thingy-thing on the side.

20. Random fact about me: I do mean (as in surprisingly good) impressions of Louis Armstrong and Disney’s Snow White, and well as mean (as in cruelly mocking) impressions of operatic sopranos and tenors.

• AND NOW FOR THE EXTRA FIVE!

1. Gender: Female

2. Sexuality: Heterosexual but largely unbothered and VERY bitter.

3. Hogwarts House: HUFFLEPUFF ALL THE WAY, BABY! BADGER PRIDE!!! WHOO-HOO!!!

4. Where are you from: N’awlins.

5. Why I started this blog: BECAUSE OF FREAKING HOTELSONG’S AMAZING MEASURE FOR MEASURE POSTS!!! I lurked the “majestic thorin” tag for a while, but I actually got an account on this blue hellsite due to screamingly good Shakespeare meta.

Okay, so there’s no way I’m tagging 20 people in this. First of all, I’m not sure I *know* 20 people here. Second, some of the questions are very revealing (as in you could conceivably track someone down, not OH TUMBLR HERE IS MY INNERMOST SOUL revealing) and I don’t want anyone to feel pressured!

HOWEVER, to any and all of my mutuals and message-correspondence buddies, I’d be delighted to get to know ya better! ^_^

#asks #thecloveryone #viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP #cloverywands

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viterbofangirl · 5 years

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So. I watched The Last Jedi.

I sat

numbly not watching the end credits

a frown on my face that was two muscle strands shy of an outright scowl

as I took my jumbled thoughts and feelings into my hands

turning them around all angles as I tried to make sense of them

unable to look away

staring straight on, watching, all attention

as all of my love for star wars shriveled and died in front of me

I tried to think of the OT and all my Zahn books and the YJK series

nothing

no joy

just hollowness and ashes and a bitter taste in my mouth

I had watched as the entirety of the OT was rendered pointless and hopeless

a shaggy dog story

yammering on about a hope that is always tomorrow, never today

nothing but empty words

as the endless march of todays only grow worse and worse

as your numbers senselessly dwindle due to poor communication and decisions

as the things that give you hope corrupt and disintegrate

but what else can you expect

when the New Hope himself

a shining light

a blindingly intense source of goodness and hope and compassion

has been reduced to...

this

this warped dredge of character assassination

this man who would even THINK of murdering a sleeping threat

this movie killed star wars in me

and it wasn't even a noble death

I will give it time

give myself a chance to heal

then re-introduce myself to the stories I love

the stories that teach

the stories that matter

and hope that I can once more discover the love I used to have

maybe even more

maybe even better

maybe find myself free of the baggage that I've carried for two decades

I hope

because that was what the OT taught me

and what TLJ killed in me

#star wars #the last jedi #NOT MY LUKE SKYWALKER #star wars sequels #character assassination #hope #sw meta #viterbofangirl WILL NOT SHUT UP

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