#visualization is not a thing in my brain

[mblue-art]

angy

#lust!sans #mblue art #shading prac #wanted my brain to have a solid visual of what he'd prolly look like when he's angy (well;; not /too/ angry here but yea) #(i think that's very hot of him) #i want to hold his hand and hug him and and and #give him all the niceys tell him nice things i want him happy and safe and comfortable and #:( kiss heem. make him feel loved af

[xhanisai]

Anyways, I do hope that the Awakening film has encouraged more people to watch the show and fully see what the main characters are actually like and how fleshed out they are and how unique they are. Like a "oooh I really enjoyed this fanfic let me check out the source material" sort of thing.

I need more people to see how much Adrien adores Marinette's weird and silly goofy self whilst Ladybug adores Chat Noir's silly jokes and how she can always count on him. I need more people to see why Marinette fell for Adrien and why Chat Noir fell for Ladybug and why those feelings began to muddy themselves up because they were also simultaneously falling for each other's alter egos at the same time.

I need more people to see how amazing and wonderful Plagg is and I need them to see what happens when Chat Blanc pisses on the moon.

The film is enjoyable on its own if you treat it as its own thing but the show has EVERYTHING.

#miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug and chat noir #this is NOT salt by the way #you can enjoy two things and find flaws and pros in both #the show will always be my top favourite and superior adaptation with the manga following a close second #but the film really is fun especially when you just wanna switch off your brain and vibe with the gorgeous visuals and songs

[aspic31]

Hi I’m obsessed w her

#anthy himemiya #revolutionary girl utena #utena fanart #utena la fillette révolutionnaire #digital art #Procreate #himemiya anthy #少女革命ウテナ #hope I got the title right I copied it off wikipedia #need to try to make those big frames they put in the series #the visual design is. doing things to my brain #shoujo kakumei utena #revolutionary girl utena 19 #no id

[trolithfoxyflint]

Vincent gets used to [Halloween Town] in small increments. Here, he blends into the environment so well that residents are surprised to find him a newcomer.

…

He speaks with the Werewolf, avoids the awe-struck vampires and listens to the band in the evening, perching on the light pole to overlook the sprawling township.

-Smoke and Mirrors Keep Us Waitin' On A Miracle by Gothams_Only_Wolf (@bamfcoyotetango ) on Ao3

I’ve been rereading some of my older Ao3 bookmarks and idk what possessed me, but I had to draw something for this one lmaooo

#kingdom hearts #ffvii #nightmare before christmas #vincent valentine #bamfcoyotetango #nathalia draws things #fic art #also i know rebirth gave us some sexy new ss of Vincent but you bet your ass im using his dirge of cerberus look as ref #tempted to pull out my ps2 and replay ... i love her ... #me: collects a bunch of refs for wolfman #also me: doesnr really use the collected wolfman refs #i forgot how dark Halloween town is 😭😭😭 the struggle was real #the visual of the vampires obsessing over the new vampire-line guy is burned into my brain #I am now burning it into yours

[featherlouise]

Redraw of one of my first hollow knight fanarts!! Figured it was about time since I’ve got a Radi design now :D

Remember a week ago when I said this fucker was nearly done

Here’s the original if u wanna see :)

Sketch under the cut bc I didn’t plan to paint over it lmao

And also Radi and Hollow w/o all the extra layers

#it’s been nearly 30 hrs and I feel NOTHING #I started this last month and I’m kicking it out of my brain #it can fend for itself #this thing’s so visually busy but IDC ANYMORE #my art #hollow knight gijinka #hk pv #pure vessel #the hollow knight #hollow knight #thk #hk radiance #the radiance #rfds art #I’m tagging it here but it could honestly be any infected Holly scenario

[bidokja]

I was joking a while back that the actor they have playing KDJ for the orv movie was too handsome for him and a friend who's read orv was like "KDJ is actually secretly attractive!!" And I just felt my soul leave my body right then

SIGHS...

Okay. Buckle in. I'm gonna finally actually address and explain and theorize about this whole...thing.

I'm not gonna cite any exact chapters cause it's like 11:30 and I've got an 8 hour drive in the morning but I'll at least make an approximate reference to where certain things are mentioned. Also, this post is just my personal interpretation for a good bit of it, but it's an interpretation I feel very solid about, so do with that what you will. Moving on to the meat of things:

There is one (1) instance in the web novel that I know of which describes specific features of Kim Dokja (especially ones other people notice). This takes place when members of KimCom are trying to make Kim Dokja presentable to give his speech at the Industrial Complex (after it's been plopped down on Earth). This is when they start really paying attention and focusing on Kim Dokja's appearance since they're putting makeup on him; I still don't think they can interpret his whole face, but they can accurately pick out and retain more features than usual. If I remember correctly they reference him having long eyelashes, smooth skin, and soft hair. These features can be viewed as (stereotypically) attractive.

Certain parts of the fandom have taken this scene and run with it at a very surface level, without realizing (or without acknowledging at the very least) that this scene is not about how Kim Dokja looks. This is, in part, due to not realizing or acknowledging why Kim Dokja's face is "censored" in the first place, and what that censoring actually means. I think it's also possible that some people are assuming the censorship works like a physical phenomena rather than an altered perception.

I'll address that last point first. The censorship of Kim Dokja's features is not something as simple as a physical phenomena. It's not a bar or scribble or mosaic over his face. If that were true it'd be very obvious to anyone looking at him that his face is hidden. But his face is not hidden to people. They can look at him and see a face. If they concentrate on his eyes, they can see where he's looking. They know when he's frowning or grinning. They see a face loud and clear. But what face are they seeing? Because it's not really his, whatever they're seeing.

No one quite agrees on what he really looks like. And if they try and think about what he looks like, they can't recall. Or if they do, it's vague, or different each time. We notice these little details throughout the series. Basically, Kim Dokja's face is cognitively obscured. Something - likely the Fourth Wall, though I can't recall if this is ever stated outright - is interfering with everyone's ability to perceive him properly. This culminated in him feeling off to others; and since they don't even realize this is happening, they surmise that he is "ugly."

Moving on to the other point about what the censorship means: To be blunt, the censorship of his face is an allegory for his disconnect from the "story" (aka: real life, and the real people at his side). The lifting - however slight - of this censorship represents him becoming more and more a part of the "story" (aka: less disconnected from the life he is living and the people at his side). The censorship's existence and lifting can represent other things - like dissociation or depersonalization or, if you want to get really meta, the fact that he is all of our faces at once - but that's how I'd sum up the main premise of it. (The Fourth Wall is a larger part of the dissociation allegory, but that's for another post).

So you see, them noticing his individual features isn't about the features. It's not about the features! It doesn't matter at all which features got listed. Because they could describe any features whatsoever and it would not change the entire point of the scene. Because the point isn't what he looks like. The point is that they can truly and clearly see these features. For the first time. They are seeing parts of him for the first time. Re-read that sentence multiple times, literally and metaphorically. What does it mean to see someone as they are?

This is an extremely significant turning point dressed up as a dress-up scene.

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P.S. / Additionally, I'm of the opinion that Kim Dokja is not handsome, and he is not ugly. He is not pretty, and he is not ghastly. Not attractive, nor unattractive. Kim Dokja isn't any of these things. More importantly, Kim Dokja can't be any of these things. The entire point of Kim Dokja is that you cannot pick him out of a crowd; he is the crowd. He's a reader. He's the reader. Why does he need to be handsome? Why must he be pretty? Why is him being attractive necessary or relevant? He doesn't, he doesn't, it's not. He is someone deeply deeply loved and irreplaceable to those around him, and someone who cannot even begin to recognize or accept that unless it's through a love letter masquerading as a story he can read. He is the crowd, a reader, the reader. He's you, he's me. He's every single one of us.

#orv #orv analysis #orv meta #orv spoilers #mine #ask #there's also the meta that he is described with these (stereotypically) pretty features as they are about to try and 'sell' him to a crowd #which feels to me like a very pointed way to convey how 'beauty' is commodified. how audiences like 'attractive' characters more #note: made some edits to add in a couple of sentences my brain forgot in the moment so make sure u reblogged those if u do #tag edits for further commentary that isnt strictly relevant to the point i was making: #do i think that this face censorship was executed as well as it could have been? nah. #not that it was like. done Badly. it's followed through to a certain point. its established enough for me to make this post at least. #but i do think it is the one thing in the web novel that SS didn't capitalize on. #like. they still stuck the landing but it was not as picture perfect of an execution as the rest of the metaphorical stuff in orv #also. this (not the face censorship specifically but the 'hes just some guy' point of it all) is one of the big reasons i think that- #-visual adaptions of orv can never quite work. they can do the best that they can with that medium but a lot of nuance is lost- #-simply by virtue of it being a visual medium #i personally think the only way a visual medium could work would be one where they commit to the power move of not showing kdj's face #(until a certain point (of view) that is) #his face is always facing away or out of frame or hidden by someone or something else in the way #commit to the fucking allegory or simply perish

[findmeabowloftrash-blog]

the Undertale take I've seen absolutely no one have is that yeah, Gaster is a skeleton whose font is Wingdings, but Sans and Papyrus (and any other skeletons) are the only ones who can't understand him.

Because. Wingdings isn't a language. It's a cipher. When you type in Wingdings you're still writing words as they're spelled in your language. Just with a different alphabet. If you had the cipher memorized, and you read a sentence written in Wingdings aloud, it wouldn't affect your pronunciation. So Gaster probably sounds like anyone else when speaking aloud.

But if you're a font skeleton who magically sees people's speech as text in whatever font, and then there's a font that's not using the normal alphabet then like heck you're gonna understand what's being said

#Yes it's 2023 #Yes I'm Undertale posting on main #Cringe is dead #I come on here to yell into the void not cater to the masses #anyway maybe other skeletons could understand if they like #really focused #like someone who always has the subtitles on suddenly has them turned off #Or heck maybe it's not even a completely visual thing maybe it's just like #written words directly into their brains #magical synesthesia #my dad has that #synesthesia I mean not the magical kind #Anyway #Undertale #gaster #trashseeker talks

[puppyeared]

people who do STEM or administration as a career full time and continue to do art as a hobby, I am scared of you but like in a hot way. youre like if we were allowed to have cold drinks in winter. i look at you and think of miles morales with his two cakes. do you want to make out sometime

#i say all of this positively bc i just! i cant help admiring it!! even if its mundane or not a big deal to you i seriously cant wrap my head #around it.. this is in no way at all meant to be condescending or anything. whenever i look at someones bio and theyre like oh im working #as a lab assistant biologist pharmacist realtor etc im like woag.... thats insane.. and then i peep your art tag and it knocks my socks of #how?? what lives do you lead??? im so curious. i seriously want a peek inside your brains someday. or at least shadow you at work lol #i cant help but feel sad when someone says smth like well i have to support myself and art cant do that for me. or maybe you were #pushed into pursuing a 'safe' career bc i hear it a lot. all of my relatives have the same story working as nurses and OFWs for the family #i think for me its not about missed potential but rather its being sad about making a decision to put your happiness aside to get by #ive tried so hard to do it but it didnt work out. i guess watching you guys do it is fascinating to me #or maybe youve made peace with your decision or actually like what you pursued but im still amazed!! it makes me wonder what made #you pick one over the other in that case.. is it like putting time for two different things the way you would for a schedule?? hmmm #im doing graphic design so i dont really interact with ppl in other faculties even humanities like sociology or childcare... so i cant help #wondering what it must be like as someone whos pursuing visual communication both as an interest and career #i seriously wish i could do smth like a desk job or even admin and maybe ill try that if this doesnt work. or i could look into trades #but dyscalculia already makes it hard to do things like cash and mental math so i get overwhelmed if i think about this too hard #yapping

[andstuffsketches]

[Duck from Princess Tutu digitally painted in a more realistic style. her hair is braided and pulled over her shoulder, and her mouth is open as if speaking, looking at the camera]

average duckgirl

#duck #princess tutu #ptutu #pt #princess tutu duck #ahiru #ahiru arima #princess tutu ahiru #digital painting #2023 #i feel like recently the part of my brain that visualizes things has been unsatisfied with so much stylization #or thats not quite it but like. its been trying to pull me more toward realism? i was trying to read discworld for example #and had to hunt down some real face claims so i could pin down my character designs #i consider this a good sign actually. for growth #anyway #character design #part of what inspired this is she has funny anime hair but like. irl she kind of has the same hair as me just with a long braid lmao. #weird mullet #and bangs that stick up

[mblue-art]

man's skull feels like the fkn sun <3

my artjuice is going into shitposting

#cross!sans #self insert #mblue art #shitpost #(i think its bc im just drawing for fun and not thinking abt how clean itll look) #(jus wanna draw a silly impulsive thing bc brain thinks the visual is funny) #may or may not connect to previous doodle<3 #this is going to be my art for awhile maybe i hope its ok #also I FLUSTERED THIS MAN TO DEATH. I AM WINNING. he is losing. look at him. lightbulb-lookin-ass #what if its dark out and i need to look for something so i kiss him and his magic blush glows bright enough to light up the area a little #10/10 would fluster cross again tbh #absolute cutie #(affectionately) bullying cross is my fav pastime as his datemate /j #thats what he gets for saying something he thought would trigger the tsundere-fluster 😎 #get got idiot /aff #CM

[winchester101]

I personally never moved past this

#forever thinking out that persons tags: screaming crying throwing up #in my mind rent free #their smiles to each other!!! #right as Luffy jumps #because they’re inside each others brains sharing the brain cell #I love how happy Luffy gets seeing litterally anyone from his crew #it makes his whole day #I won’t survive the dub roof piece zolu whenever that comes out #because I never even survived the sub one #zoro…crying out for Luffy…in my native language….*collapses* #no discorse or anything bc I watched almost the entire show once in sub and once in dub #it’s just nice to be able to focus on visuals vs reading #also they’re both like different experiences bc naturally dub will change things #like sanji really said zoro has one brain cell for booze and one for swords and that’s it

[lemongogo]

can i ask.how u guys practice ur creativity <3 how u practice ur imagination or like.. how u experiment with ur art, how u come to ideas and how u develop them.<3 pretty please <3

#smthing i have always struggled w.is feeling like i can only draw things that r handed 2 me. #as in.an idea or concept that already exists #chara or conflict that already exists.Scene that alr exists. #and i think it can be soo limiting bc when i have that sort of creative desire but nothing 2 reflect off of it #i feel like im unable to do anything/get anywhere bc im unable to do that mental legwork myself ykwim #like comic artists r SOOO JAW DROP INSPIRING TO MEE bc not only are u envisioning ur own sequences/situations #but u are able to imagine even the most MUNDANE interactions within those scenarios u know #like the transitory panels and the quiet moments and the every day stillness #and i feel like.its not even a poor attempt on my behalf its like.i cant Even attempt it.like my brain is soo empty #and soo static and noiseless that i am like gauhh...... #i can practice lines all day long and practice colors and practice anatomy or Whatever bc its something concrete #and its in front of me and i can pry apart the physical technicalities until i understand it better #but my MIND???ABSTRACTION>? THOUGHTS .ough its so hard #and i really want to push past that but i dont know how and its so .. demoralizing to think that ill get there One Day but i feel #one million and two days away.and not making active process towards it. #i know the first step is to build ur visual library and i feel liek. idk i FEEL LIKEEE theres more 2 it that im missing #but also im depressed as hell n my job is killing my creative drive and the seasonal stuff isnt helping #so maybe i just need 2 give it time (true) but i also like.man i dont know. i want 2 do something w my hands #but everything ive been doing so far has felt soo .hard and fruitless and i definitely dont want 2 turn art into such a stressful thing #fruitless as in like.i dont get any personal satisfaction w it.idgaf abt monetization or algorithms or any of tht #but smtimes thats just what happens and i have 2 weather through and know ill be more equipped 4 this some other time #SAWRYYY IM ALWAYS GOING ON AND ONNN im nromal im normal<3 i just rly like art and it sucks balls whn it feels out of reach #sigh cry fart scroll.(:salute:)

[ghostoffuturespast]

I made Grandpa put on a dress.

#cyberpunk 2077 #virtual photography #phantom liberty #from the top #console shots #oc: valerie hye jin li #my grandpa v #stinky not fresh #ngl i really enjoyed all the plants in dogtown #weird thing to fixate on but flowers! #so many nature motifs and i'm like yuuuuussss #and like all the plants going feral by the museums #and with songbird... #visual motifs make brain go brrrrr #fem v friday #fem v

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

Wait holdup what’s this about Howdy’s shop burning down and nearly taking him with it?? (talking about human au)

oh yeah lmfao it caught fire

it wasn't like... foul play or anything. in my mind it was some sort of electrical failure or bizarre accident. like a lightning strike! actually wait i like that lightning strike idea bc then it could be Raining for this very dramatic scene and i do love me some rain juxtaposing fire <3

and Howdy would've been fine! he got all of his employees and customers out of the building, including himself. he handed them off to Barnaby & Wally, who had been swinging by for dinner with fantastic timing (the fire department was just then arriving). then, like an idiot, Howdy went right back inside the Very On Fire building!

bc, ok, he lives in his store. specifically, above it. the ground floor is the store, then there's a staircase going up to an apartment. and naturally, Howdy was not gonna abandon all of his / the store's legal documents (also his coupon stash) to burn.

so in his mind he was like "yeah ill just pop in, grab these very important files, and then get out. easy!". babe, you're giving Barnaby & Wally a heart attack. that's what you're doing. dumbass (affectionate)

but yeah he's in there, in the burning building, smoke everywhere. meanwhile outside firefighters (and Wally) have to physically hold Barnaby back from going in after Howdy, even though a few more firefighters already went in to find him. its all very dramatic! blah blah blah the front door becomes unusable, blah blah blah the apartment windows explode due to thermal stress & also bc i want them to, etc etc

long story short the firefighters get Howdy out through the back, and mostly unscathed at that! ofc smoke inhalation is a thing, he's got some minor cuts and burns, but it's really not that bad! lucky bastard! he gets taken to the hospital to get treated & make sure he's fine, and he is.

naturally he stays with Barnaby & Wally for a while. he doesn't have a say in the matter lol he was planning on getting a motel room or somethin, but Barnaby picked him up from the hospital, took him home, and went "alright the guest room is ready for you we can go shopping tomorrow for anything you need, you live here now". good thing Howdy rescued his coupons!

the fire damage to the building is, thankfully, mostly cosmetic. it takes a while to clean & fix it, but Howdy has great friends and a wonderful community to help out! everyone chips in, some fundraisers happen, Wally sells some Darling™️ Exclusives™️, etc. long story short they get the store back up & running, and with some new bells and whistles to go with it!

#the scene is Very Vivid in my head #i had to sneak some action drama in there somewhere!!!! #what better than a building fire!! what can i say! im a sucker for the #'character watches person they love run straight into danger & is unable to follow them' #'and so is forced to watch in terror unsure if the loved one will make it out alive' #trope!!! its damn good!!! ill never tire of it!!! #the rain glittering in the firelight! the red-blue of emergency lights! glass raining down! wet pavement & black smoke! #its about The Visuals!! #i think my favorite part of the Brain Scene is when they get howdy out & he's like. half collapsed on the curb w/ an oxygen mask #and barnaby is Hovering! very freaked out but also immensely relieved! as soon as he learns theyre taking howdy to the hospital #he sprints to his car to go follow the ambulance!! #(in my mind julie eddie and sally had shown up & wally stayed with them to answer questions / keep an eye on things) #but yeah! drama Babey!!! #rambles from the bog #wh modern human au #i feel so bad for howdy lmfao #like... that store is his Everything and it got crispied. so did his home. and pretty much all his possessions #i also feel very bad for barnaby! he has a bad year bc of Two Incidents! #barnaby 'if one more person i love winds up injured in the hospital im going to Lose It' b. beagle #barnaby: well that whole fire thing was a disaster but we're all okay <3 with any luck there'll be no more hospital visits <3 #wally: im about to end this mans whole career- #ough and the arc of howdy living with them for a bit.... ougggghhhh #bc he & barns are in that 'our mutual feelings are unspoken but we both Know' inbetween state #its like a trial run for their future lmfao #except. a depressed trial run. bc howdy is very fucking upset about losing his Home & Possessions #a piece of the world he'd carved out for himself that was His and no one else's #he has a period of pushing through with an 'everything is fine i can work w this' pained grin and emotional avoidance #until obviously he hits a wall and Crashes. depressy spaghetti time! #he'll be fine but he doesn't feel like it for a while <3 good thing he's got awesome friends to keep him afloat <3

[canon-autopsy]

I listened to the entirety of the magnus archives in a pretty short period of time, became obsessed, and now I've just restarted from the beginning bc I miss listening to it and holy shiiit jonny is a GENIUS FUCKING WRITER. like I knew this the first time around but now going back and listening to it while knowing everything is WILD what a fantastic fucking world he's created right from the start, and doing it all while the show was at its start when working with so little??? and serialized, being written as they went with only the broad layout of all 5 seasons laid out?? even being able to have 5 distinct arcs of story all planned out like that!! and back when they just had 3 dollars and a dream!! what an amazing fucking series

#tma #magnuspod #jonny sims #the magnus archives #the magnus archive #i am SO OBSESSED #jane prentiss put tma worms in my BRAIN #ahhhhhhhhhh #it's so good it's so good IT'S SO GOOD #and it's given me so much creative inspiration!!!!!!! #i can draw fanart and cosplay! bc its an audio drama so nothing i do visually can be wrong!!!!! #that's a whole new thing for me!! #I've been too stuck in perfectionism to do that for most things!! #it's so great

[pansear-doodles]

this is my brain whenever i try to explain to someone how i draw

#it is very hard to describe visual things without visuals and trying to explain my funny brain! #i really wish i can make tutorials but i complicate myself very much! #all i can say is observe practice experiment experience and be patient with yourself #i think the reason why i have a difficulty explaining is that most of the way i draw is self-taught so i think in my own language #and some of my practices are also bad and weird to follow like- #please sincerely do not copy how i just draw a circle as a base and then complete the rest of the body. that will not help you lol #anyway thats my ted talk #thoughts