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chibifox2002 · 11 months
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CAN PORN BLOGS STOP LIKING MY SHIT PLEASE?! I DON'T WANT YOU HERE!!
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mass-convergence · 5 months
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It’s been 1 day without me having anxiety related chest pain (and yes I referenced my symptoms against a heart attack and the fact that I’m still alive after having my chest feeling like someone was squeezing it is generally a good indicator that this was not a heart attack). Of course in the middle of said day I was dealing with a complicated forecast at shift change and when I got home I had a good 5 minute cry in the car.
Look it’s been very weird this past month and a half. I’ve been brutally reminded why I don’t share things with people I know because inevitably I get told my ideas are stupid. My ideas are not stupid. But then it triggers stupid cinemasins plot hole dings in my head and my inner pedantic asshole decides to tear apart every little thing. When you’re trying to write 50k words that is very difficult.
There’ve been at least like five instances where I’ve been made to feel stupid and shockingly none of them were precipitated by my coworker who usually makes me feel like that (they’re one of those know it all types who likes to tout how smart they are - so they aren’t singling me out). Imposter syndrome sucks.
Then I overshare and probably stress out the people I’m friends with. Because they are not my therapists and do not deserve entire dissertations in their DMs.
Idk man. I feel like my life’s out of control and I’m definitely coping with it very shittily. But almost off this string of shifts and I get a decent amount of time off.
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worthless-mess · 6 months
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"Are you ok?" I'm actually tired bro. From the bottom of my heart I'm tired
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actuallymagsdump · 6 months
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bunniibpd · 1 year
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borderlinejackiee · 4 months
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vilea777 · 2 months
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date idea: u tell me exactly how u feel about me in specific detail until my brain calms down and stops thinking u hate me
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honeypleasejustkillme · 10 months
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“what’s wrong, talk to me”
“let’s fix this, i can’t lose you”
“we’ll work it out together”
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saduboiss · 4 months
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sometimes I just get so sick and tired of fighting just to survive.
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If I’m too much, go find less tf
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chibifox2002 · 2 years
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Idk what I did but I am currently experiencing what I can confidently call the WORST cold I have ever experienced in my life.
It's so bad I've been on the brink of crying for a solid hour because of all the pain and discomfort.
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rainywhispersblog · 4 months
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seweage-monster · 5 months
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All of you complain about overstimulation and sensory overload
We need to talk about under stimulation. I’m not saying I want to be overloaded with information. No I mean when I get panic attacks because there is not enough self stimulation in a situation. I have to walk out of meetings to pace around and think to calm myself down because my fight or flight response has activated from being not being able to stim.
I get so anxious when I cannot listen to music or have something playing in the background because I need stimulation that I choose to have and which I have control over
It physically hurts my brain.
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mirroringshards · 2 months
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cute bpd things!!
paranoia
*small inconvenience* BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP BREAK UP
yeah im fine lol look at this meme :D
paranoia
mood depending on them
every text hurts or feels way too good
intrusive thought yeouch okay ouch thats another one yeOOUCH
the 50000+ articles on how youre abusive
paranoia
fp is bad for me but its ok i love them<3
"if i hurt someone its gonna be myself"
becoming completely obsessed with someone the moment they give you the slightest attention
never being able to cut anyone off ever. immediately go running back
cry because theyre talking to someone that IS NOT ME
oh my fp isnt here. okay. oh im dissociating okay i dont have any purpose to continue living without them okay my life literally revolves around them i want to die where are they are they safe i dont know what to do with myself
"just leave. everyone does anyways"
5 minutes later theyre the worst person ever
*looking for an identity* hmmm, where could it be?
dependent on fp like theyre a parental figure you never had
paranoia
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foxlungz · 6 months
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They should invent a way to kill yourself that doesn’t disappoint anyone
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vixensofdeath · 6 months
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the urge to die and become nothing becomes stronger every day
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