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#utterly defeated. everything youve worked toward for the last few months has been a lie.
flufflebones · 3 years
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started thinking about mimas and dia’s relationship and realized that its doomed from the start because mimas is so chronically responsible and so impossibly grudge-holdy and dia’s. dia.
and that isnt to say that she doesnt care about him or that its Just because of those things but those are probably the major points of contention between them and once she realizes what happened with lucifer.... grimacing emoji
#mimas#i dont know if my drawings can convey the emotions she feels in the moment but rest assured theyre not good emotionis#imagine being taunted with the prospect of being told you could go home if you only did what people claimed to be impossible#doing that impossible thing#and then finding out that No Actually You Can't#and when asked *why* the only answer the person holding the key can give you is 'because program'#and then the answer you get when you ask why you were lied to is just 'i figured youd give up or fail'#and your family is about to fall apart but the exchange program is so important to someone you trusted (vaguely)#that you cant even guarantee that hed be understanding if you bared your throat to him and told him *why*#so you come back home. and you're devastated. the ice youve kept up for months is rapidly shattering and you're hoping against hope that#youll have more time that your family will last just a little longer so you can say goodbye#and for the first time you almost regret being so cold to the brothers#so dismissive#because you want to think about anything but this#but youre alone#you're alone and you're scared and you just crave home whatever shape it comes to you in#and it comes to you in the form of lucifer who thinks you're about to do something stupid but when he busts in he finds you sat at your desk#head in your arms#utterly defeated. everything youve worked toward for the last few months has been a lie.#and when he asks what happened he expects you to freeze him out to tell him to go fuck himself#but you tell him to close the door and come sit#and he does! and by the time everything is said and done lucifer understands. he gets why youve been so desperate to leave.#and maybe he helps. who knows!
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