#using my it blog to vent

[rchtzr]

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#i have bad cramps today and all i want to do is lay on a heating pad and suffer but i have to put on clothes to go eat at my bf’s mom’s #cried thinking about how i just have had to suffer through at least 1-2 days a month for most of my life and will continue to do so forever #because the alternative is suffering in different ways on different bcs #using my it blog to vent

[inkskinned]

fucking hate it when the stuff everybody says "actually works" does actually work.

hate exercising and realizing i've let go of a lot of anxiety and anger because i've overturned my fight-or-flight response.

hate eating right and eating enough and eating 3 times a day and realizing i'm less anxious and i have more energy

hate journaling in my stupid notebook with my stupid bic ballpoint and realizing that i've actually started healing about something once i'm able to externalize it

hate forgiving myself hate complimenting myself more often hate treating myself with kindness hate taking a gratitude inventory hate having patience hate talking to myself gently

hate turning my little face up to the sun and taking deep breaths and looking at nature and grounding myself and realizing that i feel less burdened and more hopeful, more actually-here, that i am able to see the good sides of myself more clearly, that i am able to see not only how far i have to grow - but also how much growth i have already done & how much of my life i truly fill with light and laughter and love

horrible horrible horrible. hate it but i'm gonna do it tho

[insignificantfailure]

Why the fuck am I the way I am

#i want to use all the insults i know on myself #im so tired #vent #venting #i'm sad #depressing shit #vent blog #mentally fucked #mentally tired #tw depressing thoughts #actually mentally ill #suixide #su!cidal #angry #self h@te #tw selfhate #i hate my self #anger issues #mentally drained #mental illness

[internetdruid]

Evening, ladies

#🪴 #im remaking this blog. if you havent noticed #i felt awkward making a big text post about it so im just keeping it condensed in the tags #but anyway all the tofupupper posts are over on @tofupupper as an archive #for anyone that wants it #im probably gonna be posting about animals and botany here.. bc its what i enjoy right now #i used to really enjoy tofupuppers content but things got rough during the pandemic #and i was in a bad place. and i was just constantly getting anons from people venting to me #or talking about their mental health and im just so bad at comforting and constantly seeing #people tell me they want to die and such on my fan blog for a shiba inu was just so stressful #even though i havent posted tofu content since 2021 i still got messages like that now and then. 700 messages in my askbox rn #but anyway #im better now and i hope everyone is too #and i will still be rbing donation posts at peoples request here #i just felt awkward rbing them to a blog i didnt use otherwise #so. yeah!. wildlife biology and plants now. maybe other stuff #you dont have to stick around if thats not your thing #goodbye for now

[skellydun]

starting to realize why I never used twitter or reddit after my carefully cultivated internet enclosure gets broken into

#christ alive we sure do cultivate our own internet experiences huh #and now i feel my enclosure has been busted into by an annoying pack of wolves #from one annoying person to another its ok not to add a comment on every post someone makes ❤️ u can even use the tags #im the most annoying person in the tags #i know theres been a billion if youre new to tumbly wumbly this is what u do posts #this sounds passive aggressive and mean but its not im just venting on me own blog babey #this mainly about posts i make and seeing people just put big ol paragraphs about how they disagree w the post like babey do not reblog it

[decolonize-the-left]

Lol. lmao even.

Thank you so much for proving my point.

Like forgive my "holier than thou" and "fake leftist" attitude about it but I think if you want change you have to take risks, risks that upset the status quo. Like voting 3rd party, especially when nobody (including historically blue labor unions and states) wants Biden to be president.

If there's a chance to change things for the better then leftists and progressives take that opportunity. Every time. If you don't take that opportunity then you aren't even a progressive, let alone a leftist ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Conservatives are called conservatives cuz they don't want things to change. You know why? Progress always threatens privilege and their privilege is something conservatives care about maintaining. "Things are fine the way they are, not perfect but be reasonable."

Also since you asked about my praxis; The last 4 years I have: protested/taken tear gas to the face across the entire PNW, organized for BLM, helped create a police alternative in my area so people don't have to call the cops, built mutual aid networks that cross state borders, and then I caught COVID the first time. At which point I became too disabled to keep doing the same level of praxis. So then I spent a Lot of time at the doctor trying to get my new COVID-caused chronic illnesses diagnosed. I couldn't handle activity like that anymore so I shifted gears to accommodate my body. I changed my passively political Tumblr to be my main source of outreach for radicalizing that would double as a political resource for leftist newbies.

Additionally, I've posted about this before and even showed y'all my ballot but I live in Nazi Territory. There is nobody who runs for any office here that isn't a Republican or libertarian and most of the time they're unopposed, too. I regularly don't vote because I don't have anyone to vote for, let alone have a 3rd party candidate to support.

"decolonize your own nationality privilege"

I'm literally Ojibwe, first off. Secondly, you think decolonizing the USA looks like re-electing a colonizer actively commiting genocide? l m a o

Like I said....people like this are closer to being conservative centrists than any kind of leftist. There's No Way someone who supports liberty and self determination would vote for Biden when there are other options ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ and if I did NOT call out this clearly co-optive behavior then I would Not be decolonize the left.

Centrists and conservatives will not be allowed to water down leftist beliefs as long as this blog is here.

I literally came here to be holier than thou and judgey and to hold leftists to a higher standard after I shared so many online spaces with leftists who did Not support Landback, hated IDPOL, and thought class reductionism would lead to a revolution.

So if my posts strike a nerve: good, tbh

Ps;

"real leftism is when you vote for capitalist genocidal Democrats to maintain the peaceful status quo and if you disagree you're a privileged liberal" and "how come you as a famous Tumblr blogger haven't materially affected our elections the last 4 years???" are takes I'd be embarrassed to say out loud so I've hidden your URL, lmfaoooooo

Pps:

You could open any of the books I've suggested on race or colonialism or imperialism or native history :) or join one of the unions I've posted about. Watch one of the videos about building mutual aid networks. You could even learn about presidential candidates on my page. And if you think you can do a better job than me then do it. I'm literally begging.

Or yeah, I guess you could keep doing whatever this is *gestures to the post* instead.

That's obviously very useful.

#not to be mentally ill on main but why do people ALWAYS assume im just preachy??? #i went to the PDX BLM protest after ppl said i didnt have enoughy IRL experience to be a “real” leftist #i hate being dismissed lmfao yall have no idea the things Ive learned and done out of spite to “earn” my voice #so yeah nobody can tell me shit cuz i stay on top of business and thats why i act holier than thou in my posts #its just so aggravating to be literally fucking disabled and VISIBLY doing more work than “allies” who just make posts like this #“why isn't decol radicalizing more people or being useful” thats called a projection worstie #the real question is how have you followed me this long and STILL believe voting for Joe is a decolonial action.... #unless you haven't actually internalized any of the free education and resources on my blog #rant #vent

[ectonurites]

jesus fucking christ. perhaps if you're one out of five admins on a facebook page for an event that is still in the midst of planning and you have not been involved in most of that planning because you haven't been around, you shouldn't go rouge and make a fucking post about it publicly from our event page?

#okay now heres the thing YES i post about this planning shit on HERE but this is my personal blog and i don't use the actual name #its me venting about the process. but to MAKE A POST FROM OUR FACEBOOK PAGE WHEN *YOU ARE NOT UP TO DATE #ON ANY OF OUR ANYTHING*??? WHAT THE *FUCK* #grandpa max is god? i go to church now #like bro. this makes us look so fucking unprofessional because now after our months of meticulous planning while we're figuring #shit out it looks like we just. randomly posted something we're gonna have to rescind. #im going to fucking Kill

[spearxwind]

been thinking about for a long time how i really missing doing creative projects with others but at the same time its always blown up in my face so i think im not going to do it anymore

#its great when it works but when it doesnt (always for me) it just sucks real bad and at this point i think id just rather do my own thing #thunderclap #on the flipside i miss discussing oc stuff with friends but i havent been able to do that for a long time for various reasons #esp. just bouncing ideas off of each other which is how i used to do worldbuilding or at least getting some feedback and i think thats #why recently i have stagnated so so so much in terms of worldbuilding i dont really have anything going on with anyone #art is a collaborative between you and the world but what do you do when no one around you really cares? #i know venting about it on my blog wont fix it by any means but its my god given right to complain about it <3

[yorkiepooh]

I dunno how serious yall are being about "Ahhh labru is taking over farcille" cause farcille still has like, double the amount of labru fics and with the bath scene coming up??? Oh man, the farcille stocks are gonna go up, I feel like if there should be an attack on a ship thats "threatening" farcille, its marc//elle x lai/os. On the fanfic side, not to much, on the popularity side? Most of the farcille and labru stuff are Manga based and I think if you take an average anime watcher and show them only the anime, the most obvious ship right now is those two

The first pic beats any farcille art I've seen and the bottom is the higher end of what farcille art usually is, but it makes sense because of anime fans? I block lai//cille personally because I think Marcille is a huge lesbian, but it's alot more popular then I thought, I just wonder how big it's gonna be when the succubus gets animated

#dungeon meshi #btw the f/f vs m/m is like really skewed because on the f/f theres only farcille but m/m has 4 main big ones #waiting for the day the other tag is bigger for laios and the winged lion lmao #i like farcille alot but labru does not make me as enraged as this #maybe im just using this as an excuse to vent a bit cause I keep seeing fanart of that #dunmeshi #dungeon meshi spoilers #if you look thru my blog and only see labru im sorry i dont wanna spoil my friend to much #labru i can spoil more freely #its the same person btw if you wanna know the artist

[paronymph]

they should create a new word for yearning specifically about aros and/or aces yearning because there is nothing that exists that comes close to expressing what we feel.

#aromantic #asexual #aromantic asexual #aroace #it's just. #i love my identity and all #but it's hard to survive in this allo world #without wanting and yearning something that apparently everyone else gets to feel #sometimes you just want to vent about the unfairness but all you can do is blog on tumblr dot com #romantic love sounds so special and magical and im aware it's probably not like that #but even the swooping crushes and honeymoon phases just sound unreal to me and i wish it wasnt like that #yes obv being aro/ace is a spectrum and many of us can feel romantic love #but this is for those like me who just. cant.

[rchtzr]

every week, the night before i have to work i have lots of anxiety and am convinced i’ve forgotten how to do my job. last week i had a dream that a tiktok creator came into my job and i just completely ruined her hair and she was in tears. like why does my brain do this to me

#using my it blog to vent

[mountinez]

sometimes i think about the fact jules never felt jealous or intimidated or whatever about charles. he was always so open to sharing things with him. it's worth pointing out that jules was still paving his way in the ferrari academy the first time he took charles to maranello. their bond was and still is so special.

people who still don't get why charles is at ferrari (and won't leave) idk what to say to you. it's more than just winning.

#idk i don't like to openly talk about jules because i don't think it's right to use him for “content” but honestly #it's not my intention with this blog at all since it's just my vehicle to vent about things i enjoy #charles leclerc #jules bianchi #scuderia ferrari

[coffinsister]

The infamous pinned post 📌

We say we because there's multiples of us here :3

I write Coffincest fanfiction go read it and tell me how much you love it. Send me prompts to write if you feel like it

📍 Sorry but roleplaying it's a little difficult to us. So if your first message ever is asking to roleplay we probably won't accept.

We don't mind playing along with most asks though.

If you are following us, you already know we are proship, into tcoaal, and that I am into some odd kinks

We horny post here and we vent here so beware

Send us asks, spam like and reblog, drop by the DMs, tag us in whatever! We love chatting with people! (Yes, even if we aren't mutuals)

We don't believe in DNIs, nonetheless we would appreciate it if you didn't interact with us, if we are on your DNI

I rarely block people, just be cool and everything will be just fine. If you want something tagged let us know

Tag system below:

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smiley.txt <- This person doesn't really post but we love him, so he gets his own tag too

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Other miscellaneous tags:

Soleil asks <- asks

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Sent to me <- To treasure all the cool posts we get sent

Yandere posting <- Me and Leyley are very obsessive in love and we express it <3

Vent <- We vent.

#jeje i gave us colours !!! #i tried to make it as concise as possible but i suck at that #either way only making this post because this blog is sorta the biggest any of my blogs have been since the last big hyperfixiation #we are very very mentally ill you will see vent posts about it it is what it is #we like dont really have experience roleplaying and if we were to try it would be with our friends/mutuals sowwy

[briviting]

no one in the world ever gets what they want and that is beautiful

#tmbg #art attag #I always imagine people who only follow my art blog and not my main and followed for something else thinking ''what now'' #you get variety here huh! #been listening to this one a Lot. have for a while but it's felt more personal as of late so I felt like drawing. I guess vent art haha #also decided to use it as perspective and shading practice

[darehearts]

me seeing how dead my dash is  :  i stopped CPR,  after all,  it's no use.  the spirit was gone,  we would never come to 🎶

#KJSDFKJSFJSF GET IT??? i am honestly a comedian tho #idk a good one or not! good morning beloveds! i really feel #like i need to follow more blogs and maybe do a clean up bc #i can easily scroll back to the previous day so easily lately?! #idk i am happy with my mutuals but the rpc just feels so!!!! #judgmental and no one ever follows first anymore and i feel #kinda stupid always doing it first lmao. it's tricky nowadays #esp bc promos also have no functional use besides just #looking pretty on the dash 💀 i am all for the mentality of #'be the interactive person you wanna see on your dash' yeah #but if majority dont do the same and take initiative once a #while. not even always. onec a while you cant save the rpc #by yourself you know what i mean? wow i am very ranty this #morning apparently oops #tbd #vent tw #rant tw

[sketchy-tour]

Happy Easter if yall celebrate it!!!!! Otherwise I hope yall have an absolutely fantastic Sunday!!!!

Aaaa I feel like I'm not as chatty as I once was on here. Been a bit all over the place! Also feel silly making a ton of text posts with no art so I try and limit how often I blab on here.

But just know I still appreciate all of you who follow and like my art! Every bit of interaction I still see and it still baffles me to see such kind words. It means the absolute world to me!!!! 💖💖🌻

#plus Ive been drawing other things between wh art #but I know no one here would wanna see my original character art. Which is so okay im not lamenting that! #this blog was always meant for fandom stuff! but ya know. if im drawing other stuff it means my fandom art slows down slightly #still need to get back in the groove with drawing Dandy #really hard not to feel discourage ever since dealing with them being used without my permission (Which has already been long since handled) #but I havent shaken off that upset I felt. Made me all tol hesitant to even post Dandy anymore. #course also kinda put a damper on my fun #OH IM RAMBLING! venting??? this isnt about that #shaking my head and clearing clouds!!! anyway! needless to say im trying. i hope you guys dont mind being patient with me #happy easter! #or uh happy sunday!!!! if you dont celebrate! #OH AND HAPPY TRANS DAY OF VISIBILITY!!!!!! #Wow my tag rambles are all OVER THE PLACE #text post #just rambling #ill shut up now 💖